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weridpersonhelp · 1 year

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Howdy x reader

Again wanted to try something different. So here an howdy x reader? Starter? Idk if it gets enough people interested for more I’ll make a pt 2. mainly just a 1 shot

Today’s business was slow, nothing interesting happening so Howdy was left being bored. He often wondered if he set up shop in too small of a neighbourhood. Yes, he loved the community but if he was being honest, there wasn’t much business. The bell dinged.

It was Wally but a taller figure who he dragged with him into the store. It was someone Howdy hadn’t seen before. But by golly. She was more beautiful than the Angels. If anything, He would of mistaken her for being an Angel, she had a small smile placed on her lips. Her (e/c) Eyes filled with curiosity as she looks around.

“HEYA HOWDY!” Wally says happily to the man or howdy as he said before who owned this small store. He reaches for my hand though the small man could barely reach it since he was so small. He takes me to the front counter; Howdy the caterpillar was quite attractive though. I was honestly shocked hearing a giant caterpillar lived here, but then I met Barnaby. And Sally. But what did surprise me was my attraction to him.

“Howdy this is the new neighbour! Y/n this is-“is mine pleasure? Pleasure is meet. I mean” Howdy was red as he cleared his throat with one hand and the other 3 on his hips.

“What I mean is- The pleasure is mine to meet you, milady!” Howdy says putting one of his hands out while the other hand takes his hat off and holds it too his chest. He shyness makes me giggle and face heat up, though I don’t think it was as red as his. I take the man’s hand happily and shake it gently, his other two hands grab mine engulfing my hand in his.

“Wow howdy, your face is redder than an Apple!” Wally points out, howdy looks at him horrified while the Small Wally just keeps smiling.

“The pleasure is all mine; your store is pretty cool! Wally was telling me all about it on the way here.” Howdy looks back to me, pushing back his hair, and scratching the back of his neck with the other as he let go of my hand.

“All good things, I hope! Ha-ha!” he chuckles awkwardly.

“Yes, don’t worry though he did say there was restriction on apples?” I ask him he chuckles once again.

“That mainly because Wally here buys me out of them, and then everyone else doesn’t get some.” I chuckle and look to Wally who seemed to be shopping now.

“What about me?”

The caterpillar leans forward, his two bottom arms grabbing the edge of the counter. his right top hand his head against as he leans in. while the other, taps the counter a little with a pen in hand.

“Oh no, their no restrictions for you dear.” I giggle slightly, noticing how his gaze was softened on me. And how he had long lashes, it reminded me of butterfly wings. I couldn’t help but lean on the counter as well to get closer to him, he felt like a magnet pulling me in slowly. I noticed how brown his eyes where; the colour suited him well.

“That’s good, how long have you owned this store for?”

“Oh, a while, almost 3 years now.” my eyes widen in shock a little, and my body stands back up. Howdy copies and I notice how he practically towers over me by a head at least!

“That’s so cool you must have some interesting stories then. Yes?” I ask him he looks down at me with a smile.

“of course, well which one would you like to hear?

There was the Halloween sale gone wrong, wally’s ban, Barnaby’s prank disaster, their was rocky and Wally drama, Frank and Eddie date night, the War of Hair spray-“ “The war of hair spray?” I ask stopping Howdy from counting off all the stories, the man chuckles a little before leaning in close. Putting a handout as if to whisper and another saying to come in closer. I lean in on my tippy toes, as howdy whispers.

“Julie and Wally had a massive fight over hair spray. Julie claimed Wally was buying everything and leaving her with a Singler can! I had to put a restriction of one hair spray can a day! It did not end well.” His breath on my ear startled me a little, as his voice was lower as he whispered the story to me. His voice was low and deep, and I swear I felt something different in me. He pulls away chuckling and I giggle along.

“What are you two laughing about?” Wally asks appearing out of no where, I had honestly almost forgotten about the boy because of how focused I was on Howdy.

“Nothing, Important. Don’t worry” I say covering up our tracks, I give howdy a little wink.

“okay then, we best be leaving now. We still need to go check out the train station, oh and poppies house. You’ll love her.” Wally grabs my hand taking me to leave. I quickly wave bye to howdy.

“Bye SEE YOU GUYS LATER! Hopefully..”

#welcome home arg #welcome home #welcome home wally #welcome home puppet show #howdy pillar #howdy x reader #howdy neighbor #frank frankly #frank welcome home #wally darling welcome home #welcome home fanart #welcome home wally darling

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footiehoemcfc · 4 months

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- i think atletico de madrid is more annoying and like an unlikable club than real madrid

- indie movies or like movies with a lower budget are better than big movies like marvel movies or dc movies yk what i mean? Like i would prefer to watch let’s say a24 films than the new superheroes movies.

- don’t think its unpopular but all countries in europe are a better option than the united states now for so many reasons

- why on earth did we compare mason mount and jadon sancho to foden? Foden is miles clear, same thing is going to happen to saka we will look back and just laugh about it. I love mason so much bu there was never a time where he was better than foden.

- neymar and brazilian players in general are the most annoying players sorry not sorry. Thier skills is just doing tricks…some are good dont get me wrong, but there are so many who just “look” cool and good but arent actually.

- Argentina was a good TEAM. Not the best ever, but it was good and i feel like now that they won the world cup argentinians think their players are superior to every other player. Individually most of them suck…(juli, messi and dibu are the only good ones i can think of right now)

- wonka was so good!? People who didnt like it idk whats wrong with you, had a really nice message, the sets looked so cool and ik its a musical but it was good

- Sydney sweeny is a big no for me. Very pretty. But she looks like she would be cassie irl lol

- margot robbie is such an underrated actress. Everyone loves her now bc of barbie or guys bc shes hot but she is amazingg!

- christian bale and cillian murphy are better actors than leo dicaprio, brad pitt and Matthew macconaughey.

- star wars looks boring, so does harry potter and so does lord of the rings.

- celebs who play the victome role or complain so much🤢🤢🤢 you are a millionaire who has everything you would need in life. Good for you but, pls, stop.

- taylor swift winning person of the year hands down one of the stupidest things that happened this year. She got it for what? Singing? Making music, again like the old one? Touring? Her pr relationship woth travis?? Really?

- dylan mulvany getting woman of the year and kim kardashian getting man of the year…im not even gonna explain why this is stupid.

- if you are a picky eater, i dont mean like oh maybe you dont like one veggie, but i mean like you really dislike a bunch of stuff GROW UP😂 food is so good just try it!!

- chelsea dont get the same media scrutiny that man city does for soending a billion (bear in mind we did it in a span of year and years, they did it in almost one year) and it’s annoying

- no manager comes close to how good pep guardiola is, not klopp, not mourinho not ancelotti. No one.

- kdb will be a bigger pl legend than salah. He already is a better player, and people who debate this, i get it salah is very good but pls…kdb is kdb

- arsenal fans try to compare all pf their players to city players bc ypu know thats the bar they (man city) have set of overall quality. Also bc they are annoying.

- cole palmer leaving was a shock but i didnt care that much, he was a bench player.

- sometimes drug store make up, or skin care is way better than high end. People just buy high end bc of the brand or packaging

- im so sorry but formula 1 looks so boring…ive tried to get into it but its just a no for me.

Okay i went overboard i think lol

#unpopular opinion

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books-and-cookies · 2 years

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June 2022 Reads

okay let’s get this the fuck going, i read like 9 books in june, so this will be long (also wtffffff why am i unhinged)

january 2022 post february 2022 post march 2022 post april 2022 post may 2022 post

* The Perfect Child by Lucinda Berry - here to reinforce my long standing desire to never ever have children, this book was A Ride. A Fucked Up Ride. Like, i don’t even know what to say man, it was fuuuucked up. TW for extreme physical abuse - 4/5 stars

* Fire and Blood by George R.R. Martin - this was one of my favourite books this year. yeah, I know, it’s hard for me to believe to. howEVER. this was so much fun to read. like history, but with dragons and dragon battles and targaryens doing questionable things™. love love love - 5/5 stars

* Every Last Fear by Alex Finlay - i am writing this post now, about books i’ve read less than 30 days ago and i’m having trouble remembering the plot for this one.... oh OKAY okay, i remember. i actually enjoyed this, but will probably, as demonstrated above, forget about it in approximately 5 to 10 business days. but yes, fast paced thriller, some conspiracy, some twists, decent writing, all in all not shabby - 4/5 stars

* The Arsonist by Stephanie Oakes - dnf @ around 50 pages. i was so bored, i was soooooo bored and confused reading this book and idk what was going on, it was all over the place and i was not intrigued enough to keep going and i'm sad, because i loved The Sacred Lies of Minnow Bly. but it do be like that sometimes - 1/5 stars

* The Broken Girls by Simone St. James - YES. haunted boarding school in the 50s? check! dual pov with interwoven stories between past/present? check! wild plot twists that I Did Not See Coming? check! great writing? check! sprinkles of discourse about the treatment of women throughout history? check! just a whole bunch of pls read this thanks - 5/5 stars

* The Run of His Life: the People v O.J. Simpson by Jeffrey Toobin (nonfiction) - leading the charge in my “omg she’s gone insane for nonfiction” hyperfixation: the book about the OJ trial. I was hooked, i was entertained, i read this in 2 days, he 100% did it, what a time to be alive - 5/5 stars

* Midnight in Chernobyl by Adam Higginbotham (nonfiction) - YES OMG FAVE OF THE MONTH hands down. probably my fave of the year so far. impeccably researched depiction of the events that unfolded in april 1986, with social and political commentary that was just on point. cannoooooot recommend this enough pls - 5/5 stars

* Kill Shot by Jason Dearen (nonfiction) - this book went places i didn’t expect it to go to and it read like a medial thriller, but the fucked up thing is that it actually happened. legitimately better to go in knowing nothing, but i promise it’s worth it, i was gasping every other page. remarkably good - 5/5 stars

so it looks like i went feral in june, hopefully i chill the fuck out in july and like, watch a sunrise, hug a puppy and actually leave my house

also, you’re legally required to tell me if you’re reading any of these books based on these very solid explanations and recommendations

psa - i’m cold, so if you like my remarkably chaotic posts, you can buy me a coffee

#books #booklr #book community #bookish #bookish thoughts #book discussion #2022 reads

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pastelrose-vivi · 2 years

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July 2022 Comeback/Debut Ranking

20. Attention- New Jeans

I don’t know if this is actually their debut or a predebut single but regardless I don’t think I’ll be checking back in. There are many reasons but as for the music and mv, I’m just not a fan of early 2000’s r&b so it’s just not for me. As for the mv I found it really weird that it was about clubbing??? When the members are so young??? Idk weird vibes. Even if this isn’t actually their debut single, I’m not checking out the others.

19. Nabillera- Hyuna

I want to like Hyuna’s music so bad but it’s just not happening. This song just didn’t click and neither has any of her other new stuff. Which is unfortunate because she seems to be enjoying herself more than she was before.

18. Guerilla- Ateez

Another song that I didn’t really like, unfortunately. Despite it being so very loud and energetic, it felt boring??? Which is kind of weird. It’s not bad per se, I’d just rather listen to anything else. Which has been the trend for me with most of Ateez’s recent singles.

17. Rain Day- NCT U

I’m glad to see more NCT U music, I think it’s a severely underutilized part of the concept. It’s also great to see the WayV members doing something again. I’m just not a big fan of chill songs like this. It was ok though.

16. No Thanks- Hyolyn

The first Queendom 2 contestant on this months list and unfortunately it’s so low. This just wasn’t my vibe and a bit forgettable, especially when I loved her single earlier in the year, Layin’ Low.

15. Patbingsu-Billlie

Not really a full comeback for them so I don’t feel too bad about not being in love with the song. I think it’s alright except the chorus which is great and has been stuck in my head since it came out. I just wish the rest of the song could match the chorus.

14. Ready For Love- Blackpink

We’ve been waiting almost 2 years for a Blackpink comeback and what we get is something that’s just alright. I think the verses are actually pretty good and I love getting to hear Rose and Jisoo have large verse sections! But the chorus really pulls the whole thing down. Plus the mv is very uncanny valley.

13. Loveade- Viviz

Another Queendom 2 group! Unfortunately also a song I’m not 100% sold on. I don’t dislike any part of it but it just feels kind of generic. Bop Bop was a lot better.

12. Que Sera Sera- ILY:1

Another generic sounding girl group summer song. It’s good but nothing stands out. It was better than Love In Bloom at least.

11. Arson- J-hope

I was pleasantly surprised by how much I liked this! Most Korean rap that I’ve listen to feels kind of boring, the instrumental is just the same couple seconds looping the whole time and the main driver is its lyrics, which I can’t understand except through looking up translations. But this was a lot more interesting.

10. Celebrate- Twice

This song being so high on this list is a testament to how good Twice’s music is because this is one of my least favorite Twice singles in a while. I hate to say that because it’s such a meaningful song but even as a song at the bottom of Twices discography it’s still very good, just a song I find kind of eh.

9. Sneakers- Itzy

Itzy is returning to their roots with this one. I love the energy although I am a fan of both MITM and Loco so I’m a bit sad they went back to before them. Overall a good single although I’m not as impressed by the b sides.

8. World- Seventeen

I like this even more than Hot, I love a fun and chill Seventeen bop. Plus my boy the8 got a lot of good lines here. There’s not much else to say it’s just a good vibe.

7. #Mood- MCND

The newest group I’ve gotten into on this list. I recently realized that I don’t have a lot of boy groups that I listen to and I decided to give some of the new ones a chance and I’m so glad I did that. Some of the others were not my taste but I really like MCND and this song is so fun! I look forward to future comebacks.

6. Last Sequence- WJSN

The highest up of the Queendom 2 groups, fitting of the winners of the show. Last Sequence doesn’t really do anything new, but that’s fine because even predictable WJSN creates bops.

5. Nerdy- Purple Kiss

Similar to with Celebrate, this my least favorite purki single yet. But it’s still a banger, I’ve been listening to it a lot. The EP was unfortunately also their worst one yet, it felt a bit rushed tbh. But I don’t take the full EP into consideration with this list, otherwise this would definitely be lower, regardless of my opinions on Nerdy.

4. Test Me- Xdinary Heroes

Finally a comeback! It’s been so long since their debut. And but it was well worth the wait. Test Me is a great single and the EP amazing, truly. JYP’s bands know how to deliver bangers.

3. Sparkling-Chungha

Chungha back with a bright summer sound? Honestly I’m a bit shocked but she’s still got it. Sparkling is so fun and delivered a interesting summer sound that I’ve felt has been lacking this summer.

2. Girls- Aespa

Aespa has been releasing nothing but bangers (for their singles)! Girls is so good. However the EP is pretty lackluster unlike the Savage EP. Illusion was the only b side I really liked. I wish the EP lived up to its single.

1. Copycat- Apink ChoBom

Genuinely the best song of the year so far. I can’t express how much I love this song, it’s been on almost non stop since it came out, it’s so good.

Top 5 B Sides

1. Strawberry Cake- Xdinary Heroes

2. Pirates- Xdinary Heroes

3. Cheers- SVT Leaders

4. Done- WJSN

5. Illusion- Aespa

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crystalsoba · 3 years

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Soulmate au

Dbd killers x reader

Warnings: none, enjoy!

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I don't know if this has already been done or if there's anything similar but I wanted a new kind of soulmate au so I came up with something of my own.

It has to do with the six senses including sight, taste, hearing, smell, touch, and pain. Before you find/meet your destined soulmate you only have five senses, gaining your incomplete one after meeting them.

Idk it sounds pretty good and I wanted a new kind of soulmate au, feel free to use the idea if you want.

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Frank x Reader, touch

Frank's pov,

.Frank sat next to Julie at the end of the bus carving his name into the back of the seat in front of him using his pocket knife, Julie wouldn't stop talking on and on about someone she meet the other day as she had the tendency to go on long rants if she's interested. He nodded along but wasn't really listening as he turned his attention to the grey fogged window next to him, putting his right hand to it only to feel a dull and almost empty feeling.

.He could never feel the cold window or freezing snow. It was just a numb feeling of something missing, but he gave up on finding his soulmate a long time ago as he was moved from foster home to foster home. Really he didn't mind it just became a inconvenience for him, any texture he felt was hard to figure out making it impossible to tell exactly what he was holding without looking. Temperatures were a bit impossible to differentiate, often accidentally burning himself or his friends commenting about how his room was always freezing. But that didn't matter, at the end of the day he probably won't even find his soulmate. Not that he was even trying at this point. Knowing his luck they were probably half across the world.

."Frank are you even paying attention?" Julie said in a slightly annoyed tone. Frank only responded with a slight shake of the head still being unintereasted. "Well I spoke to the new kid that moved in next to Joey, they seem at least decent. I don't remember where they're from but I'm meeting them at lunch." She was on her phone not bothering to look up anymore to check if he was still paying attention. "Oh and they're blind so be a little easy on them" after that he turned her out again as the school came into veiw.

.Once the bus stopped they both stood up from there seats and started shuffling to the small school. They both parted ways to their first classes.

Your Pov,

You stood in front of your new school, anxiety filling your senses as you refused to move or make any kind of attempt to find your way around the area. You moved with your family about a week ago, your parents needed to relocate after a series of bad events from the past month. The freezing air nipped at your skin, your coat did nothing to help shelter from the snow falling.

.You looked up but saw nothing, you wished you could see the snow falling around you. You still haven't found your soulmate, you still had hope. No point in giving up now.

.As the deafening school bell rung you were brought back to your senses. Flinching at the sudden noise you started to walk, using a cane to guide you around the stretching hallways with your hand on the wall feeling for any sign to read.

Eventually you stopped at a door with the right numbers and walked in knowing that everyone was staring at you. Your teacher greted you and told you where to sit, once you sat down you dozed off letting the minuets pass by to hopefully leave as soon as possible.

.Before you knew it the bell to lunch rang and you were eager to take a break. The day felt absolutely draining and you wanted nothing more than to relax a little. Everyone had questions for you all day, which you didn't mind so much but you could only take so much before wanting to combust. Back in your old school nobody gave you this much attention before, but to be fair it was a smaller school and an even smaller community. The kind where everybody knows each other.

.It was hard for you to navigate by yourself through the crowded halls of the school. You needed to find a girl named Julie. But you had no clue who anyone was or where anything is, which caused you to start panicking.

.You could feel your heart start to pulse faster and faster as you were pushed and bumped into by strangers. The noise became to much for you as the others around you were speaking loudly trying to be heard over one another. As you stand there frozen in fear you got bumped into by a larger student, knocking your cane onto the floor. And it was about that time where your slight panic became a full on panic attack.

.You backed up slowly with your back pressed to the lockers behind you. You needed to find someone to help you, and without hesitation you made a quick decision to latch onto the person in front of you.

.Frank was having a rougher day than he thought he'd have. He decided he'd just skip the rest of the day including lunch to escape. Not like he was learning anything new lately to even care.

.He made his way through the thick crowd of students, pushing and shoving his way through in a "don't mess with me" aura. But as he was about to round the corner he felt something latch onto the side of his hoodie.

.He reacted instantly to the startling action by quickly turning to face the person, grabbing them by the scruff of their jacket and shoving them back to the locker.

.You let out a surprised yelp as you were shoved back into place roughly, the sudden brace for impact caused you to quickly shut your eyes as your head hit the locker with a thud.

.Frank was about to land a punch before he felt an unknown feeling. He stoped just before his fist met your face he squeezed the hand he had been using to hold your jacket. It was soft...warm...textured...he felt people brushing by him. He froze. Slowly lowering his fist and let go of you.

.When you felt him let go of you, you opened your eyes. In front of you was a boy wearing a dulled worn out hoodie with a white hood and jeans. You didn't know what to do, you didn't know what was happening. It was all so sudden and rushed. You looked around at everything the people passing by, the lockers, the hallway, the colors.

.You felt your eyes start to water as you realized what just happened. The boy in front of you was in shock and you couldn't help but stare at him, his expression was hard to read as he looked down at his hands.

.Frank couldn't process it, he didn't think that he'd ever find you or even know you exist really. But here you were in front of him with tears threatening to spill. He didn't know why but it felt wrong to watch you cry. Something in his head yelled at him to do something, anything than just stand there.

.He stepped closer to you and wiped away your wet face, feeling the wet tears on your warm skin. He wanted to feel every part of you, you were so stunning, and he's never seen you before.

.You watched him savoring the moment as best as you could, he looked absolutely stunning.

."Y/n..." you really didn't know what else to say but you watched as he smiled and barely whispered the word "Beautiful" making butterflies fill your stomach.

."Lets get out of here." He said knowing that here wasn't the best place for now. And you seemed happy at the statement by nodding.

.He didn't know what he was doing but it seemed right to want to hold your hand, so soft and warm. He guided you through the halls of the school to the back exit through the administrations office to the outside. He watched as you looked up in amazement at the falling snow, in childlike wonder. Everything you looked at you looked at with such curiosity and amazement. He vowed to himself that he'd stay by your side from now to forever as he watched you play in the snow with him.

.You both walked around town while holding hands, letting you see the world and frank touch all the textures he could, including your hand. You both talked about your lives so far and where you both had been, sharing experiences and stories making each other laugh. And as the sun set you both walked back to your place staying by each others side together.

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Susie x Reader, hearing

.You were frustrated beyond belief. You trudged through the empty hallways with warm tears spilling from your eyes. Today is another soul crushing day dealing with horrible teachers, boring useless classes, and annoying students. That's what you usually dealt with. But today was a special kind of messed up. You were never the type of kid to make friends with any of the people around you, making you a social outcast by others standards. That coupled with your preference to work solo made your life hell. But the reason for the tears falling from your eyes was because of the class you just walked out from.

.It was science and for the next assignment you were all paired in groups of four for a presentation. It really wasn't going to be that bad, sure you'd probably end up doing most of the work but at least you wouldn't have to worry so much about getting a bad grade on participation. But your teacher was known for making the groups usually unfair in some way. Often times breaking friends and couples apart to pair them with people they didn't like or care about. But you don't have any friends or people you hate so they did something worse, pairing you up with the popular kids. The reason they were popular wasn't because of their personality or kindness, but the power they had.

.You walked faster to the exit of the school, eager to escape. You exited the prison to see a mile long track covered in thick snow. You sat on the stair case in frront of the door allowing you to catch your breath and stop crying. But the stains were still there. You looked up at the grey sky covered in clouds and started to wish for something in your life to go right for a change. You wanted a friend but someone that wasn't like everyone else. Someone who really cared about you and not their own image. You wanted a soulmate.

.That's how it started, one of the girls was yapping on about how they met there soulmate a year ago. At first you didn't care, simply but then one of them asked if you had found your soulmate yet. To which you shyly shook your head. And that's when you realized you had messed up. They instantly outed you from the group, making fun of you, criticizing you, laughing at you. You finally snapped when one of them said that your soulmate was probably a social reject of a person like you and was probably just a sed nobody with no future or hope left once they meet you.

.At that point you stood up and smacked the girl across the face as hard as possible, the noise echoing in the classroom. You then stormed out of the class to where you are now.

.You hugged your knees to your chest in a way to comfort yourself. You were about to stand up before you heard the door behind you open and close. You quickly tried to clear away any signs of crying from your face, but failing. You only turned your head to the figure standing behind you to see who it was.

.standing behind you was a girl wearing a slightly over sized hoodie with a plaid skirt and tights. Her hair was bright and colorful, it looked nice compared to the bland surroundings. Her face was covered and hidden by the hood she was wearing.

.You could tell she was about to ditch class before she bumped into you, she opened the door quiet enough not to alert attention and she looked rushed to get here.

.You felt embarrassed from staring at her for so long, you probably looked weird to her. She stared back at you with her head tilted as if she was curious about you. To you shock she started to sit down next to you, she didn't say anything and neither did you. You felt her lean into your side at this point you had no clue of what was going on in her head. Maybe it was some sort of joke or attempt to make you feel worse? Either way, you didn't hate it. Affection was rare here for you and she felt so warm compared to the freezing air around you.

.Susie couldn't believe her luck, she finally found you. She listened to your breathing, so calming and soothing. The outside was strangely quiet, she all ways imagined it would be louder. She always knew there was more to you, she never had the courage to actually see if she was right about her gut feelings. But she was glad she caught you like this, alone just for the two of you. She couldn't look away from you the snow and chilled air made you look like an angle.

."What....What are you doing..?" She was shocked, did you not realize you were soulmates? She looked at you with pure confusion on her face, trying to figure it out.

.You slightly regretted saying something, but you had to know what was going on at this point.

.She sighed "You don't realize, do you?" Her voice was soft and gentle compared to yours, you replied with a nod still confused. She breathed out before asking "Can you smell?" You nodded. "Can you see?" You nodded. "Can you hear" you nodded again. "Can you taste?" You shook your head in confusion to where this was going to go.

.She smiled again and slowly leaned towards you. You were frozen still in shock as she put her lips to yours, her chapstick rubbing off on your lips. She broke the kiss and leaned back to see your reaction. You took a second to reboot your brain to process what happened just now. You slowly came to realize that you could taste the chapstick she was wearing. The taste was something strange to experience, it was slightly stingy but good at the same time. She was your soulmate.

."How did you know?" You asked her. She shrugged before replying "I could hear your breathing and heartbeat." She gently reached for your hand that was freezing. "Do you want to get out of here?" She asked. You nodded your head not wanting to go back inside.

.You both got up from your spots and walked away from the school towards her house. Holding hands while you both walked.

.Once you got to her house you both talked, you showed her some of your favorite music and she had you try tasting random foods the rest of the night. Happy with how the day turned out you both stayed inside to watch movies and play a few games.

.You thanked the universe with gifting you such an amazing person as your soulmate. Promising to cherish her forever.

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#dbd killer #x reader #legion x reader #soulmate au #oneshot

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writtenonreceipts · 3 years

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Square One

Of all the tropes I love the most in fanfiction, single parent au’s are at the top but they are few and far between. I took matters into my own hands here. IDK how many chapters this will be to be perfectly honest. IDK how consistent I’ll be on updates, so prompts are always welcome for this fic or just in general too. Enjoy. Based on characters from the Throne of Glass Series

An Elorcan fic

Warnings: None

A warm breeze billowed around Lorcan Salvaterre as he got out of his weary old truck. The door creaked loudly as he slammed it shut and moved through the parking lot of Riftfold Elementary School.

As he popped the collar of his jacket, Lorcan muttered a curse. The last thing he wanted to deal with was picking up his son early from school. It wasn’t that Lorcan didn’t love his son and was eager to see him. But the circumstances were less than ideal.

Running a hand through his hair, Lorcan entered the front office of the school to find his son slumped down low in a chair. His son was distinctly looking away from everyone. Especially the girl beside him. At six years old, his son had too much attitude for his own good and Lorcan wasn’t sure how he was going to handle it. Tavish, unfortunately, was more like him than Lorcan wanted to admit. He had the same black hair, same broody temperament, same penchant to get into trouble.

Really, Lorcan shouldn’t have been surprised his son had ended up in the principal’s office in just the second week of school. It was a miracle that Tavish had made it this long.

It was of course Lorcan's fault too. He didn’t know how to be a father and it showed.

Principle Havilliard, who had to be at least three years younger than Lorcan stepped from his office. He was dressed in a blue button up and slacks looking far more pleased about the day than anyone should.

“Lorcan, thanks for making it so quick,” Dorian said. He extended a hand, which Lorcan shook hesitantly. The two were barely acquaintances and if Lorcan was being honest was fine with that. “We’re still waiting for Marion’s mom.”

Lorcan glanced at the girl and froze. Another curse rose on his lips. He knew exactly who the girl was and who her mother was. Marion had her mother's large brown eyes and thick dark hair and pale skin. Despite the serious expression in her eyes she seemed like a sweet girl. As far as Lorcan could remember, Tavish hadn’t had any issues with her before.

“Sorry, sorry, sorry,” a woman burst into the office. She was small, her dark hair swept into a messy bun. She still wore a black apron slung on her hips, a myriad of pens and straws sticking out from the pockets.

“Hey Elide,” Dorian greeted.

She shook his hand and offered another apology before her eyes landed on Lorcan.

Elide Lochan was an enigma. She was smart and capable with a silver tongue of fire. And yet, Lorcan never knew for sure what she was thinking. He didn’t really know how she ended up barreling into his life but he did know neither of them were comfortable with the other.

At least she managed a slight smile in his direction before she glanced anxiously to her daughter. Marion quickly became invested in her shoes. Lorcan felt his gut drop when he got a good look at the woman and he realized that he knew who she was.

“What happened?” Elide asked. She only spared a brief look to Lorcan before turning away. It was easy to see the discomfort in her eyes. Not unexpected. Lorcan was nearly six-foot-seven, built to play football and had plenty of scars from a rough childhood. He wasn’t the kindest looking man.

Dorian sighed and stuffed his hands in his back pockets. “Marion? Would you like to start?”

“She’ll tell it wrong!” Tavish exclaimed. He finally unwound himself from his seat and sat up. His hair fell in his eyes but he hastily brushed it away. “It wasn’t my fault.”

Marion shrank back into her seat, finally looking at her mother.

“Tavish,” Lorcan warned, “Principal Havilliard asked Marion to speak.”

His son sighed far too loudly and flung himself backward into the chair.

“It’s okay, baby,” Elide said softly as she knelt next to her daughter's chair and patted her knee gently. "Tell me what happened."

Lorcan watched the girl sit forward in her chair, instinctively leaning towards her mother.

"They took my stuffed animal," Marion said.

It was then that noticed the small plush dog clutched beneath Marion's arm. Elide let out a long breath.

"And?"

"They threw it in the mud." Tears began running down Marion's cheeks. "I asked them not to, I used my words like you said."

"I know baby," Elise whispered. Lorcan could see the sorrow and pain flash across the young mother's face. He'd never officially met Elide Lochan before. Only once and Lorcan had made himself look like a bigger ass than usual.

"Tavish told them not to," Marion added. "But they didn't listen."

Tavish sat up a little straighter at Marion's admission, slight pride on his face.

"They were being really mean," the boy said. "And we're not supposed to be mean. Even though you brought a stuffed animal to school."

"It was for show and tell!"

"You're supposed to bring something cool like a rock or a worm."

Marion made a face and shook her head rapidly. “Ew.”

While Tavish threw his hands up in an exasperated sort of way, Lorcan noticed the small smile flash on Elide’s face as she stood. She was young, younger than Lorcan had initially realized, but that didn’t seem to change the hard resolve she held on to.

“So, what’s the plan Dorian?” Elide asked. “It doesn’t seem like they actually have a problem with each other.”

Lorcan tried not to react to the casual way Elide spoke the principal's name. Of course she knew him. If Elide Lochan was friends with the same people Lorcan knew--she would know Dorian.

“Right,” Dorian said, clearing his throat. “Let's go into my office for this. Candice can watch the kids for a minute.”

The receptionist gave a little wave from behind her desk and brandished a few coloring books and crayons. This wasn’t good.

Lorcan glanced at Tavish who did not seem pleased with the arrangement. But the only other option was to take his kid and run. Which admittedly would not reflect well on him.

It seemed Elide held the same reservations as she wound her fingers together. She ultimately agreed with a nod and untied the apron from her waist and folded it the best she could while following Dorian into his office.

Once the door was shut and they were all settled in their seats, Dorian spoke.

“I don’t really know how to say this,” the young man said leaning forward slightly, “but from what Mrs. Talon has said both Marion and Tavish struggle with making friends.”

Lorcan was glad he wasn’t the only one who winced. Beside him, Elide pursed her lips as she stared at the principal.

“They would both benefit from having someone to talk to in and outside of class,” Dorian continued, “and I think they could potentially get along pretty well.”

“Really?” Elide asked. She crinkled her nose and jutted her thumb at Lorcan. “Because I hate him.”

“You know the fourth of July thing wasn’t my fault,” Lorcan said with a glare.

“Oh do I?”

“Please Lochan.”

“You’re just mad because the girls soccer team kicked ass this summer.”

“If I remember correctly, you did a lot of heavy flirting with the refs all summer long.”

Her dark brown eyes bore into him with enough intensity that Lorcan was sure he would combust.

“Seriously?” Dorian asked. He had a slightly bemused expression on his face as he glanced between the two of them. “Maybe I should assign the two of you as buddies for the school year.”

“No.” Lorcan and Elide said at the same time.

Dorian grinned. “Fine. But I do think you two should make an effort in seeing if Tavish and Marion can be friends. It might make them do better in class and stay out of trouble.”

Lorcan loosed a breath. He wanted what was best for his son. He also knew that his son, like him, struggled with basic human interaction sometimes. And if this would help Tavish bridge gaps in how he interacted with other kids--well it was something Lorcan would see to.

“We can try,” Elide said finally. She ran a hand through her ponytail, trying to keep the loose tendrils under control.

“Sure,” Lorcan said.

Dorian nodded. “Good. Let me know how it goes. If it’s an utter disaster, I know Mrs. Talon will let me know and we can try something else for them.”

Lorcan decided then and there the arrangement would only last a week.

Of all the humans Elide had to deal with she would have rather it be someone other than Lorcan Salvaterre.

As she left Dorian’s office, her stomach cramped with unease panic. Marion was struggling more than she’d realized. Why had she brought her favorite stuffed animal to school? Usually Marion was more cautious than that. The girl was absolutely obsessed with the thing and would never want anything to happen to it.

“Momma?” Marion chirped.

Pulled from her thoughts, Elide looked to her daughter. The girl was already standing with her backpack ready to go.

“Is it time to go?”

Elide wiped the worry from her face and nodded. “Of course, baby.”

Still stretched out on the floor, Tavish scribbled all over his piece of paper with a black crayon. He did so with such fury that it was a miracle he didn’t rip a hole in the paper.

“Black’s his favorite color,” Marion said. She tilted her head to the side and puckered her mouth. “I dunno why.”

“It’s a blackhole!” Tavish yelled. He very carefully ripped his black picture from the coloring book and held it up. “It eats everything! Like a vacuum.”

Elide was surprised when Marion let out a giggle and shook her head softly. Oh dear. The two of them were going to become friends and then Elide was going to have to deal with Lorcan Salvaterre for the rest of her life. Oh hell.

It wasn’t until they were out in the parking lot that Elide turned to Lorcan.

It had been a few weeks since she’d seen him. Not since the last game of the little league soccer tournament. And of course her girl’s had kicked ass. But being so near Lorcan again was unsettling. Mostly because she never knew what he was thinking. He was impossible to read, to know.

“I’m taking Marion to the park on Saturday,” Elide said reluctantly, “to kick a ball around, have some fun.”

Lorcan raised a brow. “Not working?”

Sighing, Elide shook her head. She tried not to let the comment bother her. It was common knowledge to anyone who knew her, even briefly, that she worked multiple jobs. She didn’t have a choice, really. But it was not something she liked talking about.

“No,” she said lightly. “Not this weekend. You and Tavish are welcome to join us.”

She watched as Lorcan ran a hand over his stubbled chin.

“You really want to go along with this?” he asked.

“If it means helping my daughter, yes.”

“You hate me,” Lorcan reminded her.

Elide cracked a smile while Tavish and Marion examined rocks piled at the edge of the parking lot. She had the sense that he was teasing her because for all of Lorcan Salvaterre’s bravado--it was obvious he cared for his son and would walk through fire for the boy.

“And you hate me,” Elide said. She called out for Marion while turning to her beat up car that could possibly break down at any moment. “At least we have something in common.”

Marion ran over and tossed her bag into the car before settling in her seat. Elide offered a brief, pained, smile to Lorcan before getting in the car herself.

She was able to hold herself together until she pulled out of the lot and onto the main street. It was then that she let a tear leak from her eye. Breathing heavily, she brushed her cheek. There was no reason for her to be upset. Marion wasn’t really in trouble at school. Work was fine with letting her leave her shift early. Salvaterre hadn’t been a complete ass.

There was no reason for her to be upset.

“Momma?”

Elide looked at her daughter through the rearview mirror. “Yeah baby?”

“I’m sorry I got in trouble.”

“No baby, you did nothing wrong,” Elide assured her.

“Then why did you come?” Marion asked. She was taking care to pick off dried mud from the stuffed animal, her little fingers making very little progress.

“Principal Havilliard just wanted me there, to make sure you were okay.” Elide wiped another tear from her cheek.

There was no reason for her to be upset.

“Mommy, why are you crying?”

Elide bit down on her lower lip and did her best to laugh. “I just missed you today, that’s all.”

Marion made a small noise before speaking again. “Can we go to Auntie Manon’s? I wanna see the puppy.”

“I’m sure you do,” Elide chuckled. Her best friend had adopted a new dog and puppy was not an accurate description for the creature. Putting on her best smile and cheery voice she glanced back at her daughter. “Let’s go see that puppy then.”

Again, I’m not sure where this is going, but felt the need to write elorcan and a single parent au, haha...thanks for reading! My ask box is always open for this fic or any other too.

tags: @tottenhamboys20 @morganofthewildfire @aelinchocolatelover @more-espresso-less-depresso-xx

#elorcan #elide lochan #lorcan salvaterre #elorcan au #throne of glass fanfiction #the fanfic no one asked for continues #the fanfic no one asked for #single parent au #throne of glass #queen of shadows #square one

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sevensided · 3 years

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how did you get into writing fic? i'd love to start but idk even where to begin! I loved adats so I was wondering do you have any advice?

Oh my goodness! I am so flattered you’ve asked me this. Yes, I can absolutely help. I’ll throw a bunch of rambling under the cut.

I started writing fic probably when I was... sixteen years old? A lot of my early works were oneshots. I couldn’t figure out how to do anything plot heavy for the life of me, so I just stuck to AUs or whatever I felt like. I wasn’t in any particular fandom -- I really wrote whatever I had ideas for. I remember I tried once to do a plot-heavy story and I received a review absolutely ripping it to shreds. Like, it was so cruel I cried lol. I ended up deleting the fic. Years later, I get what they were trying to say (basically, more substance, less style), but at the time it cut to the quick. Really, it was only when I was in my twenties that I started writing work that was longer and/or better.

The fandom that helped me actually write plot heavy work was a historical-based fandom. As I’m a historian, it was perfect. I got to use my research skills and knowledge to create works that, above all, aimed to feel authentic. I mainly read historical fiction, so I was familiar with how that genre worked. Miraculously, people loved my work. I think I wrote about ~200k in the period of a year? These were several short stories (20-40k) and a few oneshot filler fics. While I was part of this fandom I also helped organise a Big Bang which was a lot of hard work but was extremely rewarding. Along with that, I interacted mainly with other fic writers, so I spent a lot of time chatting to people about ideas and encouraging other writers, and it just created a lovely medley where no concept was impossible or any line of dialogue too difficult. We supported each other and it was truly like a little commune. I gradually stepped away from the fandom mainly because it was just a part of my life at a very specific time, and almost as soon as that time was over, my love for that story/ship faded, but I firmly believe I figured out a lot of how/what I do now purely through that experience.

Regarding ADATS

With ADATS, it stemmed entirely from wanting to “explain” three months in canon (at the end of season three). I was interested in the idea of season four setting up Will/Mike in canon, and I wanted to test the source material to see if I could draw from what already existed to create something authentic. I began with that simple idea: what happened from July to October in 1985? Then I thought about the major themes I wanted to hit -- family, friendship, coming of age, sexuality -- and I nested them around the bigger concept: how do I get Mike from being ostensibly straight to realising he is gay? That meant thinking of two steps: Mike discovering his attraction to guys; Mike discovering his attraction to Will. Those two concepts were separate “arcs” that needed addressing in different ways. Balance was key to weaving them together and making the reader feel like they knew what was coming (and that they felt smart for putting the pieces together) without just rushing through and going “now kiss!” That’s partly why ADATS needs a sequel, lol: because it’s not finished!

Writing process

The first thing I do when I start to get an idea is I write it down. Sounds obvious. But when you have a killer line of dialogue come to you in the shower and you think “I’ll remember that” -- reader, you will not remember it. You gotta get it down ASAP! I do that the whole way through, as generally I’ll be thinking of scenes I’m stuck on and then it’ll just come to me and I’ll quickly jot it down.

The next thing -- or what I do in the meantime -- is start structuring. I plan. I try to plan a lot. Sometimes it’s okay to write “and something happens here to get them here”, because you’ll figure it out later, but for the most part I’ve discovered that planning is like gold and you can’t get enough of it. I break my work up into generally 3-4 parts/sections, and I treat each section like a mini story. So each part needs a conflict and resolution, and it needs to flow into the next section. You need to have a feeling of things evolving and maturing. Once I’ve planned those little bits, I start thinking about the bigger plot arc and how I can drop in hints along the way. I’m probably not a subtle or skilled enough writer to yet pull off that sort of gasping twist you get in really excellent books, but I’m trying to get there. It’s hard, is what I’m trying to say, but that’s okay, because we’re all learning.

Then I generally do aesthetic stuff. Sounds stupid, probably. But nothing helps me get more into a mood than doing a Pinterest board or -- most of all -- making a Spotify mix. I start thinking about the vibe and the general atmosphere, and then I almost exclusively listen to that mix when I’m working. Sort of like muscle memory? Just to get the creative juices associated with that particular selection of songs.

Another thing I’ll do along with plot structure is character structure. This is a biggie. I mean, a story is nothing without characters. So I’ll just jot down a bunch of bullet points of characters and particular aspects that I want to highlight or remember. I hate continuity errors in fiction. Like, if someone says they work on Maple Street but later in the fic they’re working on Pine Street. I hate that. So I keep note of specific things that my main character might notice at repeated points in the story (colours, places, smells, names, sounds -- so they’re all consistent even as the narrative evolves). That’s another thing -- your characters’ motivations. Not everyone is going to be a huge player, but they all do serve a purpose. The most important character is obviously your main character. I personally think it’s important to let your M.C. be an arse at times. They’re going to be mean, they’re going to misinterpret things or fly off the handle... just let ‘em. Let them be wretched humans, and then bring them back and make them realise what they’ve done. Let them learn! I love consequences in fiction, lol.

At the same time, I’ll probably start writing. We’ve already written down some snippets of neat dialogue or descriptions, but now we should start the actual process. For me, I used to start at the beginning. Usually this was the most fleshed out anyway: I’ll have a clear idea of the beginning and the end, but nothing in the middle. These days, if I have a scene in mind that I can’t forget, I’ll just write it. It will possibly get scrapped or rewritten, but that’s okay, because at least you’ve got it down and now you can devote your brain power to something useful (like figuring out what the middle is supposed to be). I’ll have half a dozen of totally out of context scenes just littered in my Word document that I’ll add to as I go along. Eventually, though, you’re going to start writing properly, and that’s when you write your opening scene.

Opening scenes: super important. Every time I write a scene I think: what is the point of this? What do I want the reader to learn or takeaway? Sometimes you do have filler scenes, but they also serve a different purpose (perhaps to establish a group dynamic or to explore/describe a character’s surroundings). Mainly, though, every scene should push something forward in some way, whether it’s character development or a plot point. So, with an opening scene, I always think you have to establish: where you are; who you are; what they are doing; where they’ve come from (in a philosophical and practical sense); and where they’re going (ditto). That doesn’t have to happen in the first paragraph -- that would be silly. But if you sprinkle that information in over time it’ll gradually build up a picture of your character and that way the reader can get an idea of who they are. You basically need to give a snapshot of what your story is about. This also goes back to the character creator stuff: where they are at the start should be different to where they end up. How that happens is, of course, because of plot, and because you’ve structured everything to the nth degree, we’ve got a very clear progression of that character’s growth (/s easier said than done lol).

General advice

Write down everything: every idea, a bit of dialogue, a description, whatever. Write it down. Doesn’t have to be neat. Just has to be on paper. You can’t remember everything, so if you’re spending time trying to hold those things in your head, it’s taking up space for new ideas to come along.

Structure, plan, structure, plan. Sometimes it’s boring and I hate it. Other times, when I’ve not written in a few days and I open the Word doc and think wtf is this supposed to be, I am very grateful for Past Me for leaving such detailed notes. Seriously, it helps so much. Oneshots don’t really need planning, in my experience. You just get those out there. But multi-chaptered stories really do, even ones that “just” focus on a relationship.

Whatever you want to write, commit to it. Space goblins invade Hawkins? Do it. Eleven and Max find themselves in a cult akin to Midsommar (2019) and must escape? Yes. Just... whatever you want to do, remember that you’re writing it for you. Write what most interests you, what makes you when you reread it go AHHHHH I LOVE THIS!! Because that makes it a thousand times easier to actually get on with the writing when you enjoy what you’re doing.

Write a lot. Every day, if you can, or at least at designated times. Occasionally I have a very specific headspace/vibe I have to be in, but sometimes it just hits me and I’ll say to my partner “I need to write now” and just disappear, lol. The more you write the more you write. It’s so, so, so true. Cannot emphasise this enough. When I wrote that ~200k in twelve months? It was because I literally wrote every. day. Or near enough. Remember that some days you’ll write 200 words, and other days you’ll write 20k (this happened to me with ADATS -- part of the reason I finished it so quickly was because I had sprints of writing 10k+ at a time that only happened because I was in the rhythm of it). Write, write, write. Who cares if it’s crap! No one will see it until you are ready. In the meantime, just write!

Probably last of all (although I could go on and on) is connect with other writers. If you’re struggling to start, sometimes just talking about it can help a huge amount. I hope it goes without saying that you can message me whenever you want, anon or not, and I will talk to you. We can talk about ideas or I can beta stuff, whatever you want! Find like-minded people and talk to them about what you want to do. Another thing this helps is in advertising your work when you do publish. I see a lot of first time fic writers get super down because they publish their magnum opus on AO3 but no one comments. Honestly, it’s because no one knows you’ve published! You don’t have to be tooting your own horn every which way, but just actively talking about your work and even collaborating with other content creators with get you hyped and other people too (and the input and encouragement other fandom members give is just... out of this world. Anon messages helped me finish ADATS when I was really worried I wouldn’t [that’s the truth]. Seriously, support is everything). When you have people excited about your work, you get excited. It’s really as simple as that.

I could go on but this is already horrendously long. I hope even a bit of this helps! If you want to chat or have any more questions, just hit me up any time.

#writing tips #writing help #writing advice #answered #i really hope this helps/answers your question!#i can do something more structured if you want #otherwise here are just my initial thoughts #Anonymous

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undinoble · 3 years

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Crazy long text ahead i warn you, just explaining some process I went through while drawing this Frank and Julie low light dying thingie, probably gonna drop some wips along the way, you may want to see… idk, dealer’s choice

!TRIGGER WARNING! Violence, death, suicide. Proceed with caution.

Well where do we begin? The inspiration maybe?

Exploring the magical world of Spotify when a band came in, one of the first songs (if not the first one) of theirs I heard was Partners in Crime by Set It Off, you know, love at first sight, love for their voices, their music style, aaand the lyrics, OH BOI the lyrics, check it out:

“You’ll never takes us alive We swore that death will do us part They’ll call our crimes a work of art You’ll never takes us alive We’ll live like spoiled royalty, lovers and partners”

Dunno, for two passionate juvenil delinquents that just wants trouble this line really fits to me, the dreamy couple feels invencible.

“Everybody freeze Nobody move Put the money in the bag Or we will shoot Empty out the vault And me and my doll will be on our way”

It’s actually interesting to think of the Legion robbing a bank, it’s not like troublesome teens didn’t do that in movies c’mon, it’s a small city, they wear masks, ez!

“Our paper faces flood the streets And if the heat comes close enough to burn Then we’ll play with fire ‘cause

You’ll never takes us alive”

THIS. This is so a Legion thing to say. Can you imagine their masks all around the streets as a warning like “HEY, WE ARE HERE, FEAR US” I love this

“Here we find our omnipotent outlaws Fall behind the grind tonight Left unaware that the lone store owner Won’t go down without a fight Where we gonna go He’s got us pinned Baby I’m a little scared Now, don’t you quit He’s sounded the alarm I hear the sirens closing in”

The second big moment, the adrenaline along with the instrumental is crazy for real

“The skies are black with lead-filled rain A morbid painting on display This is the night the young love died Buried at each others side”

THIS. (again) is the main theme of the drawing, it’s where the inspiration flood over me, the scene was clear in my mind, c’mon if you read till here there’s absolutely no reason not to listen to the song you won’t regret im not even getting payed to show it off

ACTUALLY FORGET IT- i just won a sub on Cody Carson’s stream WHAT IS LIFE??????? Thanks Max!!!

I totally didn’t draw this while listening to the music when i should be working what are you talking about??

Hold the sketch, focus on the gun. It’s dope aint it?

Anyways, here goes the lore, along with the music lyrics I filled up the gaps, well, Suz and Joey are not around, maybe doing school stuff Julie didn’t feel like doing so she decides to hang out with Frank in the meanwhile, they’re on the lodge, bored, upset about the world cause it’s what teens do in their free time, listening to one of their mixtapes, probably Frank’s, the more hardcore one when the idea hit: what if they try some good mischief? “There’s a small banks a mile from here, want some adrenaline babe?” And oh of course she does, grab your mask, here we go

Sorry, not a big legs-drawing fan…

They grab their knives, put on the masks, get ready, drive to the bank. I didnt really think this part through, the song says it all. Long story short - they rob the bank, the police arrives, the action begins.

They brought their knives, didn’t expect the cops to show up with guns, damn they didnt even know little Ormond cops had actual guns. After long minutes of hiding on the bank safe the couple decides to fight their way out, they would be more useful alive than dead so laws could apply, but that went out of question once Frank stabbed the first bank employee on his triumphal way out, the police don’t think twice before shooting to protect the citizens inside.

Frank and Julie have too little time to react, the stress and anxiety kicks in, they go feral, crazy cinematic bullet avoids, for a moment it’s possible to get away. It all happened too quick, but in Julie’s vision it went slow motion. She just saw a cop leaning behind a car, aiming directly at Frank, even her fastest reaction wasn’t fast enough to stop the trigger from popping. With tears in her eyes she watches as the bullet hits her boyfriend right in the chest.

She snaps. One target in mind, she sprints to the cop and stabs him over and over until she’s sure he won’t see the sun set ever again. She takes his gun and rushes towards Frank who is kneeling against a taxi holding his torax, she screams that they must go to the hospital immediately but he refuses, hospital would be just a quick stop on his way to jail. No fucking way.

He demands to go back to the lodge, the cops are too busy helping their wounded partner to look for them, they think Frank may be dropped dead somewhere on the street after multiple shots, the two of them must flee before the cops realize the mistake and go hunting for them. NOW.

Julie side-carries Frank back to their car, the lack of a license of her own won’t stop her from driving as fast as the car can. Breathing heavily while constantly telling Frank to hold on, they will find a way out, they must do. Oh what a fucking stupid idea holy SHIT.

The travel takes half the time it usually does and still feels like hours. The car gets all red with Frank’s blood that keeps leaking. Once they arrive, Frank wants to go upstair, Julie shouts at him to keep next the central campfire once he should grab some heat (and for god’s sake why is he still carrying the money bag they stole????), anyway he gets the last word and they climb the stairs up and lay on the bed, Frank hisses from the pain but also sighs in relief for the soft spot under him, ignoring Julie cursing besides him, saying she can still call an ambulance, she doesnt want to lose him, Suz and Joey will be devastated, although he just replies with the phrase they were saying sooner that day “They’ll never take us alive”.

After 20 minutes of agony, low whispers of memories of how they met, what they had been through together and a huge amount of blood moisturing the covers, Frank says he’s feeling light-headed, Julie looks at him and he’s paper white, the blood loss is finally getting to him, she wants to cry, scream, curse and stab that damn cop a hundred times again, but all she does is cuddle her head harder against his shoulder and tell him she loves him, that she will keep his legacy alive, with Joey and Susie, she will revenge him. He chuckles and slowly feels the life being drained from his weaked body until everything goes black.

Julie need a few seconds to process. Frank died. For real. He was good a few hours ago, he was right. They would never take them alive. Death could do them apart, but, he never said for how long they would be apart.

She reaches for the gun on the hand under Frank’s body. THAT DAMN GUN. She aims it to the side of her head, never leaving Frank’s side on the bed. Triggers it.

“Partners in crime”

Damn did I just write a fucking fanfiction? This shit is way longer than I expected, did anybody even get down here?

Well, this is the part of the drawing where i left cause I just couldn’t afford to work on it, have in mind everytime the file were opened the whole lore came in my head, and fuck did i feel dizzy writing it all down. Hell the bloody details get me, seeing Frank so white with a blue undertone simulating the lifeless body gave me headaches fr. My escape was drawing other things until the courage to finish it came back. It was easier because the story kinda faded away from my mind, the drawing became “lighter” to deal with.

Well, guess that’s it. I hardly have this big insight while drawing, to visualize the finished piece on my brain and it’s just so fucking cool, making art with so many mixed feelings along, and overall pride, cause i feel so proud with the result you have no idea. It isn’t perfect tho, but i like it anyway. So, thank you so much if you made it all the way here. gonna sleep now for fucks sake im gonna pass out bye

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lizacstuff · 3 years

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Edser / Sen Cal Kapimi ep 30+ asks

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@jan31 Hi Liza, in the fragman Selin was in a white dress, was it a wedding dress?

Hello! I don’t think so. I think that’s what she was going to wear to the dinner she’d planned for the four of them (from the fragman, Eda, Serkan, Deniz and herself) but BOOM goes the MELO. Thank you Melo, lock that witch away so Serkan and Eda are not haunted by her evil presence, and can maybe spend some time together.

Though, you know, I wouldn’t mind if it was a wedding dress. We know Serkan ain’t gonna marry her, so if they go so far as to put her in a dress, then we’re on the precipice of her humiliation and departure which can’t come too soon for me.

jan31 Hi Liza. Please can you explain to me the fireside scene. It was so beautiful, emotional and just what we needed. Were the lights going out representing his sub conscious and the darkness he feels, reaching out for Eda instinctively without realising why. And the lights coming on was the reality that he did not remember anything. Or am I completely going in the wrong direction? Oh and the music gets me every time 😢😢

That scene fired on all cylinders!! I definitely think you’re on to something thinking the lights coming on represented the reality of him still not having any memories back. I think the whole scene was Serkan trying to reconcile this one flash of memory that has been playing in his mind like a movie. He was re-enacting what he saw in his mind, trying to figure out if it was a real memory and if the real memory was about Eda.

I really liked that it was Serkan who asked if they can talk without arguing. Being the calm, rational one is his role in their relationship, how many times have we heard him say “sakin” so it was comforting to see him taking those reigns for a few moments. Also for him to realize that almost all their exchanges had been heightened and fraught with explosive emotions and wanting to talk to her without that.

Both Eda and Serkan with their eyes filled, brimming with tears really got to me. Serkan not really understanding as his heart took over and tried to make sense of what his confused mind couldn’t. Eda’s complete heartbreak when he still didn’t remember anything. However, though, she might not know it, he certainly felt something.

He’s already so drawn to her and he can’t compute why that is... why he fell in love with her during the time he can’t remember, but he’s slowly starting to see how it could have happened. This was an important scene for bridging that gap between them. So freaking beautiful, one of the best acted scenes of the entire series, and the scene that made this episode worthwhile.

Anonymous said: if that scene in front of the fireplace made me so emotional and it was just him trying to remember.. trying to recreate that one moment he was flashbacks of... i cant imagine what the actual scene of him remembering will do to me. both their acting in that scene was something else.

Hande and Kerem were both absolutely fantastic in that scene. Really stellar. Their chemistry never disappoints, but here they were both right in the moment, very raw, very real. I’m impressed with the emotional range they both showed, kudos to both. If nothing else this story is giving them a lot to chew on as actors.

Anonymous said: memory loss doesn't bother me that much if we can have beautiful scenes like the fireplace one. but the main couple is separated again, dating/fake dating other people and they don't have scenes enough to fall in love again

Well they made huge strides in two episodes. From Serkan not willing to even contemplate remembering her, to him sitting down and asking her to tell him a memory of their relationship and saying he wants to know about her and their love. And them having an absolutely beautiful, emotional, heartbreaking moment together.

Serkan made other leaps as well. He went from wanting Eda out of the business to admitting she had talent and freaking out that she was planning to take a vacation. He was already coming up with every excuse to keep her in town and working. They argued as they did in early days, he had moments that obviously hit him as familiar (”I hate you Serkan Bolat.” “The feeling is mutual, lady.”) plus lemons and crusts.

Don’t you worry, he’s already falling in love with her again.

However, I wouldn’t judge what they’re planning too much by this episode. It felt like a transition episode and was pretty unevenly paced. Perhaps the claims of rewrites on this chapter had some truth to them. Because the last 4 episodes were pretty well written, narratively solid, and well paced, and this one was not. It was boring and everything not directly related to a scene where Eda and Serkan were alone was lackluster.

Also I feel like some things were changed and perhaps removed to make allowances for Hande’s injury. She had a strained neck and was in a brace for almost the entirety of the filming of this episode. For instance, I’m pretty sure they did fewer takes with her in several scenes. Specifically you can tell in the scene where Serkan picks her up and carries her back.

We go no full wide angle shot from the front of him carrying her to match with the scene in episode 5. I’m sure they wanted that, but I’m guessing they really had to limit the takes of him picking her up so they couldn’t do multiple camera set ups. The still photographer on set was able to capture it from the front, it’s a shame they couldn’t get the full hero shot for the show, but poor thing was injured and these things happen when you shoot on such tight timelines.

So some of the lack of Edser could have been scenes that were shortened, cut, and amended due to that injury. And others could have been changes in the script perhaps as they figure out if they’re getting another ep order from Fox.

Anonymous said: idk what they’re doing with Ceren but I really need them to keep Deniz as a genuinely good friend. He’s perfect and I don’t want them to make him sketch. Not sure if you’ve seen OTH but that’s the only other show I’ve seen with a great male-female friendship. Other parts of the show are messy to me right now but I’ve been loving this.

I guess my opinion would be unpopular with you, but I am not as enamored with Deniz as others seem to be. Dude was putting a LOT of pressure on Eda to move on and forget Serkan. Serkan has been back approximately 3 days! HE ROSE FROM THE DEAD AND HAS AMNESIA. Can the woman have a chance to catch her breath and assess the situation, before her “good friend” is pressuring her every which way to forget him?? And planning romantic getaways under the guise of friendship? That’s not being a friend, that’s being an opportunist, looking for his chance to slide in there.

So, yeah, I’m not as impressed as most seem to be with Deniz. He made me uncomfortable with that. I hope it was not a harbinger of things to come.

As for OTH, I haven't really watched, but its a fav or my bud @echoapothecary so she might be willing to discuss that show.

Anonymous said: Any chance they decide to throw Melo and Ferit together? I don't care about any of the other side romances going on but these two still have their rights in my book in regards to Edser and they seem like genuinely people?

Let’s do it, baby! I’m on board They both are genuinely good people, and I’m with you, I don’t care about any of the side romances at the moment. Piril and Engin put me to sleep this episode.

Ferit certainly deserves better than psycho Selin, but he also deserves better than petulant Ceren. And while her behavior escalated to WTF levels this ep, she’s always leaned a little this way. I think it was episode 18 (because the girls were in the library before Serkan finds Eda there) that Ceren was furious at Ferit all episode and I honest to goodness had no clue why or what he did.

Anonymous said: at first sçk was about women supporting women and we have one best friend turning against the other FOR A MAN. I'm so disappointed the writers are destroying characters one by one.

No this show has always been about the love story between Eda and Serkan, but it did have some nice female relationships as well. Can I tell you a secret? While I really like the girls dynamic, and hope they don’t destroy Ceren and Eda’s friendship, I really only care about 2 characters, and that’s Eda and Serkan.

So while I get your concern, and Ceren acted OUT OF HER DAMN MIND this episode, if she needs to be a casualty to keep things moving, so be it. I mean I reserve the right to roll my eyes over it, but I’m not going to get too worked up about it. From the beginning Eda and Serkan were the only two characters that matter and they still are.

Anonymous said: I'm kinda concerned that they're actually going to say the next episode takes place on Valentines Day because this would be the biggest timeline error yet. I know we've already been suspending belief here after they touched on New Years so quickly but umm, yeah....

I think you have to just give over to the timeline on this show and not do any math or calculations. We already had July to December take approximately 2 months in straight linear storytelling, LMAO.

Also, if it is valentine’s day and that’s going to be their excuse to give us some actual romance, then I will take it, no complaints. To me that’s one of the easiest things not to be concerned about, because its never going to make sense. I’ll take the holiday themed episodes over strict adherence to the calendar any day.

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Last thing you bought online? Did you like it? OMG OMG so I got Angela an Army Bomb!!!!!! for her birthday!!!! It was HELLLL looking for sealed ones that were already onhand, but fortunately I was able to find one from this really nice seller a few days ago and the shipping was quick as well. I’m just a little worried because the outbox has a little dent on it :( but it was the best onhand offer I could find so I got it before anybody could call dibs. I still hope she likes it! I got her batteries too so that she can try lighting it up as soon as she has it. :D

Could you date someone who didn’t drive (and didn’t show an interest in ever getting their license, either)? I feel like this is such a petty thing to make a big deal about...if they knew how to commute or any other way to get to their destination, I don’t think this should be a problem. It would only be an issue to me if they refused to get a license in a very I-generally-lack-ambition kind of way.

How would you react if your artwork became famous? I don’t have any to show off to begin with. I love appreciating art, but creating it was never a forte of mine.

Would you get your nipples pierced? No, I don’t plan on getting any piercings. How many people know your birthday? Outside of my family, my best friends. I think everyone else relies on Facebook to be reminded, which is fine with me.

Has anyone ever tried to ruin a relationship you were in? No. Quite the contrary, really...I was sometimes informed about red flags taking place, which of course my stubborn ass ignored.

Have you ever watched a whole hour long infomercial? Probably, as a kid. The channel from which I used to watch WWE aired these really long infomercials so I would watch those while waiting for like Raw or whatever show was going on after.

What is your current MySpace song? I never hung out on Myspace. I had an account, but I was too young for it so it wasn’t long before I got bored.

What is your favorite kind of meat to put on your sandwich? Pulled pork or fried chicken.

Which one of your exes do you feel like you have the most chemistry with? I only have one ex.

How do you feel about people who make Facebook profiles for their pets? I find it really cute. But I personally wouldn’t put in as much effort lol.

Have you ever personally known a pair of conjoined twins? Hmmmmmmmm I don’t think so.

What was the most disturbing thing you have ever heard your mother say? She threatened suicide in front of me and my dad in a very calm way when I was around 11, I think? Maybe 12, idk. I haven’t actually thought about that moment in an extremely long time until this question. I’ll move on now and shove the memory at the very very back of my head before I get sad.

Is there something in particular you like to look at photos of? What is it? Aside from members of BTS (lol), interior design inspirations.

Chewy chocolate-chip cookies: like or dislike? Ooh, love. When I bite into a cookie it hassssss to ooze chocolate, otherwise I would be underwhelmed.

If your boyfriend/girlfriend wanted to dress only in the opposite sex’s clothing, would you support that? If not, would you leave them? Support.

Do you think your grandmother is/was beautiful? They both are.

Which of your fields of interest are you a total expert on? Anything that has to do with writing (except poems), I guess? I like being able to give people advice and tips when it comes to that.

When was the last time you got all dolled up? Last July when we had a big PR media launch thingy and I couldn’t afford to look like shit on Zoom.

Do you ever name objects? (i.e. mp3 players, guitars, cars, etc.) Never.

Do you have a criminal record? Not criminal but it’s possibleeeee that I have some kind of record on my license from the time I got stopped by an officer in Alabang, lmao. It was a minor offense from a tiny part of the town so I don’t actually know if they filed it, but it’s possible.

Last person you took a nap with? I don’t really nap with other people. I hate falling asleep in front of others to begin with.

Does seeing your mother cry automatically make you feel sad as well? No.

Do you think someone likes the same person you like? I don’t like anybody.

Do you want your life to stay the way it is right now forever? No, I do not want to stay in a pandemic and not get to maximize my life the way it’s supposed to be enjoyed forever.

Have you ever been to craigslist.com? I’ve never checked it out; idk if we have that here?

What about eBay? I also dunno if they operate here so no, I’ve never bothered.

Have you ever used Nair? Not Nair, but I’ve used Veet before.

Are you medicated? Nope.

Do you shape/fill in your eyebrows? I never do stuff to my eyebrows except shave them.

Have you ever stolen/borrowed clothes from an ex? Several articles of clothing were left behind here, yeah. I never had the chance to give them back because I stupidly thought we were going to get back together eventually. By the time I moved on the timing was already off, so the clothes stayed with me untillll...just a few days ago, actually – when I finally cleaned up my room and got rid of a bunch of knickknacks that accumulated here over the years, including all her shirts and sweaters and stuff.

Could you make a statement about anything political? The 2022 presidential election landscape looks like complete shit and I’m nearly at that point where I want to stop giving a fuck about this country’s future.

Do you think you’ve already met your soulmate? No.

Do you get the feeling something good will happen in your life soon? I think I’m already living in it, haha.

Do you enjoy romantic movies, even when they’re cliche? Sure, but cliché is also hit and miss for me. I love Titanic and Love Actually, but I cannot stand movies like Me Before You and The Notebook. I guess it depends on certain executions, like the acting, screenplay, casting, etc.

Have you been to McDonald’s in the past month? No, not inside. We did drive-thru within the last month, though.

Have you ever slept over at your best friend’s house? Not at Andi’s, but I have at Angela’s.

How often do you go bowling? Extremely rarely. I can’t tell you the last time I went bowling.

Last time you were in an apartment? Like 2007 when I visited my aunt back when she still lived in one. None of my friends have their own apartments.

Have you ever seen a live seahorse? I don’t think so.

Would you like to have your own yacht? I mean I wouldn't say no if you offered it to me for free, but I'm not exactly interested in one. < Same.

Winnie the Pooh or Tigger? Tigger always made me laugh as a kid.

What’s the unhealthiest thing you’ve eaten today? Luncheon meat, I think? I didn’t go overboard with the junk food today.

Has a stranger ever offered to buy you a drink? Hm, not that I can recall.

What is something you’d be happy to receive as a gift, that doesn’t cost a lot? A bag of the salted egg chips that I really like costs like 30 bucks, or roughly 60 US cents.

What kind of music does your significant other/crush like to listen to? I don’t have any irl crushes, can I use a celebrity crush instead? HAHA he’s heavily into jazz and whenever he gets asked for music recos he always gives jazz artists from like the 50s and 60s.

Who did you have your first kiss with? Do you remember what colour his/her eyes were? Gab. Dark brown.

Are there any themes from TV shows that you like to sing along to? The Big Bang Theory and Friends; and then I also liked humming to the themes of Breaking Bad, The Walking Dead, and BoJack Horseman. The Phineas & Ferb theme was also a lot of fun to sing along to.

Do you eat dessert after dinner? No, I never do that. I’m usually already full after dinner, and we don’t always have sweets at home anyway.

Have you ever had too much to drink and felt embarrassed about your behavior the next day? Sure.

When you go out drinking, what do you prefer to drink? Cocktails. I very rarely go for hard drinks/shots, especially if I brought my own car.

What was the last animal that you saw? Dog.

What was the last thing that you said to one of your siblings? I just told my sister I was done using her laptop so she can have it back. My Memories of 2020 DVD turned out to be region-locked so I have to use her laptop every time I want to watch it :(

What is the most expensive thing that you’ve purchased that you paid for: My Map of the Soul photobook cost me around 5k in total.

What is your favorite messaging program? Messenger.

Do you eat fast food more than 5 times a week? Wow no. Aside from being extremely unhealthy, that’s also a LOT of spending??

Have you ever almost drowned? Yes.

Have you ever learned something shocking about someone through Facebook? I mean I’ve had to learn about more than one family death through my Facebook feed, which sucks but is nothing I have control over. Otherwise the most shocking thing I’ve seen is probably classmates from high school having their own kids, but at this point I’m used to it already.

What’s the scariest living animal that you’ve petted? I’m not really afraid of carrying/petting animals especially if there’s a guide or expert nearby, but the most daring one was probably the crocodile I volunteered to hold in Palawan.

Do you remember the first conversation you ever had with the person you currently have feelings for? Not at all.

Do you dread certain days of the week? If yes, what day/s and why? I hate Mondays for obvious reasons lol. I don’t know anyone who is actively cheery about reporting back to work.

If you eat oatmeal, do you have it plain or do you have certain toppings that you like to add to it? I never eat oatmeal. I had that every single day for breakfast from like kindergarten to 4th grade and I vowed never to take a spoonful of it again.

What is the funniest or strangest thing you’ve ever heard somebody say in their sleep? I dunno. I used to keep a log of the things my ex used to say in her sleep and a great deal of them were hilarious, but obviously I deleted that note a long time ago.

Choose one - Butterfinger, Milky Way, Snickers: Butterfinger.

Do you use Mozilla Firefox? Nopes.

Who is your favorite person to hug? Angela and Laurice.

Have you ever had to have a mug shot? Nope.

What was the last thing you carried to your room? Kimi.

When was the last time you had a late night phone call? WELL over a year ago.

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July 28: 3x01 Spock’s Brain

Today’s ep was the infamous Spock’s Brain. I’d never seen it before and always insisted I didn’t want to but...this is a complete rewatch so I guess I kinda had to.

As predicted, it was bad. Utter nonsense for a premise and the actual execution shot through with sexism. There were some aspects that I did like but most of them have been done better by other eps--and in any case were not worth the ridiculous basis of the ep itself. Honestly, if I were watching all this live, and I waited months for this, I might have wondered if the show weren’t better off cancelled.

But I would have been wrong because the next ep is The Enterprise Incident so! Sometimes you just need to be patient.

This episode is starting out so strangely. Why is the bridge being shot from all these weird angles? And why do the colors seem...duller?

They really can spy on these other ships, huh?

“My name is Captain James Kirk.” Not breaking out the middle initial today, I see.

Chapel going for the drama as she falls down.

Kirk too, sprawled over his chair. (Makes me think of “The chair is, in fact, not bolted to the ground.”)

This honestly reads like a bad parody of Star Trek.

Ridiculous lines include: “His brain is gone.” “His incredible Vulcan physique.” “In search of his brain.” “Where are you going to look for his brain?” “It was taken out, it can be put back in.”

“Spock’s body is more dependent on his brain” than a human’s. Ummmm I feel like there’s something suspicious in there.

The only good thing about this ep is Kirk’s devotion to Spock.

Seriously why does the bridge look so different? Filming it from a different location changes everything.

When Kirk paces in front of the view screen, it really shows off how small it is.

“The spaceship that has Spock’s brain.”

I like these schematics and Chekov’s little presentation here. Also Kirk can automatically put years to all the planet evolution codes or whatever--like on the one hand, of course he can, that’s his job, but on another... what a nerd.

Honestly these people--obviously, they are underground on the ice planet. Obviously!!! I actually do appreciate this scene in general, with the bridge crew working out a problem on the bridge, which actually almost never happens--it’s definitely the best scene of the ep--but still. It’s obviously the ice planet.

Also, I like that Uhura gets to contribute. She thinks outside of the box, asks the good questions. Don’t just look at the outside evolution of the planet--ask about what the brain could be used for, and where it might be.

“Get there, find the brain.”

Oh no, he accidentally called Scotty Spock :(

“High of 40. Livable.” I realize this is a Russian joke but that’s really not that bad lol. Definitely not an ice age anymore.

“They give pain and delight.” So they’re dominatrixes?

“You are small.” Well no need to be mean about it.

Don’t you have a companion?? Love that that’s one of their synonyms for “spouse” or “partner.”

The alien men look like they’re wearing short jean skirts.

“A dead and buried city on a planet in a glacial age.” That’s a good idea. Could have done something better with that.

Chekov’s still stuck on the no women thing, I think.

Why did they dress Spock in a leftover outfit from This Side of Paradise?

McCoy and his stimulants again, waking up the alien lady after they stunned her. Multi-purpose.

“I know nothing about a brain.” Clearly.

So all the women live below ground, and all the men live above...

Ah-ha, they have found Spock’s voice.

“There is a definite pleasurable experience connected with the hearing of your voice.” This ep is almost worth it for that line.

Also Kirk’s face when he hears Spock’s voice.

I like that Spock is still funny. Honestly he’s probably funnier disembodied. This is a very humorous Spock characterization. “That is a practical idea. It seems unlikely that I shall be able to get to you.”

WHAT IS BRAIN.

They’re being quite sexist, aren’t they? “No engineering geniuses here. Only women. None of these women could ever have done surgery on Spock’s brain.” Like I know it’s that they’re obviously (or supposedly obviously) naive and childlike but like combining that with the sex segregated society and the actual phrasing of these lines (WOMEN?? Engineers?? Doctors??) plus Kirk assuming the Controller is a man (who says?) all creates this like definite sexist vibe while watching. Ugh make it stop.

How can Spock’s brain control everything? They’ve only had it for 5 minutes.

“Mistress.” I told you they were dominatrixes.

Oh yeah Captain Sulu!!

More sexist quotes: “What a way to maintain control over a man.” “I’ve certainly noticed their delightful aspects.” Please stop talking; you’re digging yourselves in a deeper hole.

(Seriously though--I feel like the unspoken world building fact here is that the women need the men for procreation specifically, which is why they capture the men, and then control them--using the “pain belts”--to have sex--the “pleasure.” They probably also use them for other labor, given the presence of the male guards and the line “they won’t help us if we don’t control them” or whatever it was. But surely the delightfulness of the women is more than their physical appearance, is what I’m saying.)

What is the commentary on gender here? Women = scary, dumb, and hot?

Yeah, how DOES Spock’s brain fit into this?

Lol at Spock’s empty body calmly watching them all fighting.

“Science will triumph.” A real lost opportunity in the AOS-verse to have Kirk say this after a bar brawl.

“You are a disembodied brain.” I feel like there’s a (McCoy) joke in here about how he’s reached his ideal state.

His body is the building. (I was right, I totally called this plot point as soon as Spock started talking about his incredibly large body and how his brain was still doing things like regulating oxygen. I must say... this is not a bad idea, except for the brain stealing part. Like there’s something in there, the idea of the complex as a body, powered by a brain. Idk.)

So basically Spock is taking another opportunity to insult Bones’ medical skills. Oh Spock, never change.

I feel like Bones is enjoying his Spock puppet, on some level.

“Pain bands.”

Use the Spock puppet, Kirk! Use it to fight the lady alien!

“The controller is young and powerful, perfect.” / “How very flattering.” LOL I can’t believe this is real.

“You took his brain. You will put it back.”

So the alien lady puts on the spiky helmet and now she’s suddenly smart. I hate thissssssssssss.

(I actually do think the idea of old knowledge stored outside of the... brains...of the current generation, for their own protection, as decided by the paternalist elders... is not itself a bad concept. Of course it’s also a concept that other eps did better, like The Apple or For the World is Hollow or even Return of the Archons. Again, combining it with all the gross things they said about women earlier just leaves a bad taste. Even though--even though!!--we don’t know who the elder people were. Like, was this a matriarchal society that saved the women in the underground because they were better? Or was it a patriarchal society that put the women in the underground because they were considered weak and in need of protection? I rather assumed the second, but I think there’s some evidence for the first, in particular, that the story reeks of Sexualized Male Fear. What’s a better combination of hot and scary than a matriarchy of women in short skirts?)

“Got your gun.” (But the other way around.)

“Our need for the Controller is more important than your need for your friend.” That sounds an awful lot like “The needs of the many outweigh needs of the one” and we all know what Kirk thinks about that. That said, he’s really not...engaging with her facially fair argument at all.

“No one may kill a man. Not for any purpose. It cannot be condoned.”

Love Scotty’s acting skills. Gotta get this gun back really fast--create a diversion by fainting! But not too much!

I do love McCoy. He’s an adventurer too. He pretends he’s not but he jumps at the chance to discover and learn. He will not hesitate to put himself in danger if it’s for the common good or to protect his friends.

“Put the teacher on.”

Now finally Kirk is engaging with the fate of the society he’s encountered lol. Like, again, he’s not wrong; they’ve stagnated under the computer/controller and it’s not moral to steal from someone else to keep your comfortable and boring life going when you could just do the work yourself, but coming this late, it feels like an afterthought. It’s also weird that she just like stood by and let them take Spock and his brain after all that to do about...not letting them have the brain. Like at the end of the day she was not so inept. Also, they never explained what happens to all the knowledge in the teacher. One would assume they’d have to access it--or not? They’re just to start from scratch? Also legit I guess. And finally... all I can really hear, in the emphasis on integrating with the men again, is “You’ll learn how to develop a society naturally and also about heterosexual sex wink wink.” (Except that as I said... I think they know about that.)

I see McCoy’s regretting that “child’s play” talk now.

“Give priority to reconnecting Spock’s vocal cords.” Yep that’s how the brain works for sure.

Wow Spock really does have to do everything himself. Including operate on himself.

“This Vulcan is telling me how to operate.”

How did he operate without...opening Spock’s skull... in any way??

Not to question the verisimilitude of Spock’s Brain lol.

Everyone’s being so rude--Spock is providing valuable last minute exposition/explanation about this weird-ass society!

It’s always odd when they don’t return to the bridge. Like, they’re not going to collect Chekov?

That was... something.

I liked a few things: any excuse for Kirk to be devoted to Spock; the humor Spock showed; I liked the bridge scene where they looked at the map of the planets; and I liked certain things about the premise of the episode, although, like I said, most of the general aspects (post-disaster society, reliance on computers, etc.) had been done better in other episodes. I liked the look into the Male Brain lol.

What I didn’t like was how outright ridiculous the basic catalyzing event was--Spock’s brain has been literally stolen like??? Are you kidding me? That led to a considerable amount of dialogue that read like a Star Trek parody. Did not like that. And of course, as I said... the sexism. I think I’ve unpacked that enough. It didn’t need to be sexist, and you can explain it in a way that’s not, but the vibe sure was. It was like... well a lot of TOS is like this imo. You can give it an A (or at least a B) for effort, but what comes out is so obviously tainted by the sexism of the creators. Like, for example, how they say they believe in women who are just as capable and professional as men, but struggle to show it. This ep wanted to show a matriarchal society but it wasn’t really a matriarchal society--it was a Freudian dream that was all about the male psyche and what it most fears and wants.

All that said.. the next ep is a D.C. Fontana creation featuring one of my favorite TOS Ladies, the Female Romulan Commander, so I will be receiving a consolation prize.

Also the AOS verse is still more sexist and doesn’t have an excuse I said what I said.

#the year 2021 #2021: star trek #2021: fandom thougts #star trek tos

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monday, tuesday, wednesday, sunday, february, july, november

monday: do you struggle with the ‘boring’ parts of writing?

not sure what’s meant with the ‘boring’ parts. editing? the bits where you have to get the characters from one scene to the next? idk. I don’t think writing is ever boring to me - if things bore me, I usually just don’t do them lol. I struggle with a lot of parts of writing tho. Endings especially. I will write like 85% of a thing and then abandon it even though I know exactly how I want it to end and it’s literally so easy?? I don’t know why that happens so often. It annoys me so much.

tuesday: name a fic you have posted which you think is overrated?

the David/Matteo stuff I’ve written for druck I think?? It’s not like I dislike what I’ve written, it’s just that my idea and the writing seemed rather mediocre and still that stuff got so many kudos and hits. I think I was mostly annoyed by it because the wlw content I wrote for druck got so little attention in comparison.

wednesday: name a fic which you have posted which you think is underrated?

again, this is probably more an issue with me being annoyed that the mlm ships of a fandom get wayyyy more attention than any wlw ship, but I really think my “Kontrolle & Chaos” series for Tatort Göttingen deserves better. Or just this ship in general. It’s Florence Kasumba and Maria Furtwängler PLEASE everyone open your eyes and LOOK AT THEM. And instead ppl in this fandom stan boring white men and like okay i do that, too, sometimes, but STILL. and the double standards??!? Calling these two ladies and their narrative ‘sexist writing’ and ‘catty’ and awful just because they don’t get along right away, but then praising two dudes’ chemistry who want to basically murder each other half of the time??! Saying it’s hot when they punch each other and press each other up against walls??! WHY IS IT HOT WHEN BLAND GUYS DO IT BUT NOT WHEN TWO WOMEN DO IT???? I have a lot of anger there, sorry 😅

sunday: how frequently do you take requests or prompts, if at all?

basically, people can send me requests or prompts at any time?? I don’t always write the stuff people suggest, because sadly, my brain doesn’t work like that. But I always like when people send me ideas, because one way or another, that will get my creative juices flowing usually. If anyone ever requests something that I don’t write, I hope it doesn’t discourage them from sending me more, because I never hate the stuff people send me! I just sometimes can’t get my brain to work on it, but I still always love and appreciate that stuff!

february: have you ever written and/or a holiday-centric fic?

sometimes I write Christmas-y fic, but it’s more about the vibes around Christmas than about the holiday itself. tbh i’m not that much of a fan of it, historically, it hasn’t always been great for me. (Family bs, you know.) I love writing birthday fic for folks tho! Like, when it’s their birthday, and I write them a thing where it’s the character’s birthday. I haven’t done it a lot but it’s always fun 😊

july: what’s the hottest fic you have written and/or posted if you write smut at all?

I don’t write smut, I’m too ace and religiously shame-ridden to do that xD The ‘steamiest’ thing I’ve written in recent years was that hinted at and glossed over sex scene in the first installment of my Tatort Göttingen fic, but that was really nothing. Funnily enough, I used to write really horrible smut when I was like 14/15. Scarred me for life when my father found and read it once. It involved three grown man from I band I loved, a big hotel bed, whipped cream and handcuffs. 🤐🤐

november: do you have any rituals or requirements for getting in the mood for writing?

not really. recently, in an attempt to ease my back pain and fix my sleep schedule, I have tried turning my laptop off in the evenings, sitting down at my desk and hand-writing anything that comes to mind. sometimes, that’s random poetry or more like a diary kinda thing, sometimes it’s one of the fic ideas / concepts that inhabit my brain at the time, I usually don’t know which one it’ll be before i sit down.

I also can’t really have any other noises around me when I write, no tv or people nearby, no interruptions, no music with lyrics or anything that’s too intense.

#thanks for these!!!!#so much fun #writing #my posts #ursulaundressed

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hamonsurveysoverdrive · 3 years

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Shiny

What was the last thing you spent under five dollars on? A Monster. How many times have you cried in the past week? Once or twice, not over anything major. When was the last time you saw a rainbow? Uh, does on Animal Crossing count? Because that was today lol Have you ever had feelings for someone your best friend was dating? Nope. Have you ever used your cell phone as a light source in the dark? Yes. Is there anything written on the shirt you’re wearing? Nope. Would you rather spend two days in London or a week in Finland? London. Where were you living in 1997? My hometown. How was your first kiss? It was alright. Do you still talk to the person you shared it with? No. Are you the oldest of your siblings? No. What're your initials? AVW. What does that middle initial stand for? Victoria. When was the last time you kissed someone? Last night. Do you regret it? Absolutely not. How long is it until your next birthday and how old will you be? About 7 months. I'll be 33. What was the last song you heard? Idk. Do you have any tattoos? I have ten. How would you react if you found out you were pregnant right now? I would be VERY unhappy. What's your mother’s maiden name? M. How many people do you know with the same first name as you? One, personally. Are you related to a Johanna? No. Have you ever hugged an Eric? Probably. Have you ever ridden in a car with a Brooke? I don't think so. Have you ever kissed a Jesse? No. Have you ever worked with a Heather? Yes. Have you ever dated a Ryan? No, but I hooked up with one. Which of your friends would be most likely to become a stripper? I'm already friends with strippers and ex-strippers. How long has it been since you showered? Yesterday. Where did you or do you go to high school? In my hometown. What's the nearest red object to you? Part of the hamburger bun package next to me on the table. Do you have a birthmark and if so, where? I don't. Who was the last person to let you down? Myself. When was the last time someone gave you flowers? Valentine's Day. Would you ever consider getting back together with an ex? No thankssss. Do you like it when someone takes you by surprise and kisses you? If it's Justin. Can you name a movie that makes you cry? Green Mile. What's your natural hair color? Brown. Do you sleep naked? Rarely. Is smoking a turn-off when it comes to being interested in someone? Nope. Have you ever dated someone who had kids? Yes, but they were my own kids haha What was the last book you read? I'm reading Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix to the boys. Have you kissed someone four or more years older than you? Yes. How about younger? Not 4 years younger, but yes, younger. Were your parents married when you were born? Yes, they got married while my mom was pregnant with me. Were you born before 1990? Yes. Is your hair longer than your shoulders? No. Why did you miss the last call you missed? I ignored it. Have you ever been pulled over twice in one day? No. When you need to vent, who do you turn to? Usually Justin. When was the last time you went to the movies with someone? UGH IT'S BEEN SO LOOOOONG. Are you comfortable in your own skin? Sometimes. Have you ever been told you’re a flirt? Yes. Are there any candles in the room with you? No. Does the last person you kissed have tattoos? Yes. Do you live within twenty miles of where you were born? Yes. Is it after five PM? Not quite. Is there someone you always call or text when you’re drunk? I don't drink anymore. Have you ever been engaged? Yes. Has anyone seen you naked in the last week? Yes. Were you dating anyone in October 2008? No. Where was your current profile picture taken? My room. Is your birthday in April? Nope. Are you a Libra? Nope. If you found twenty dollars, what would you spend it on? Cigarettes, probably. What's your favorite holiday? Fourth of July. Do you believe the saying that experience is the best teacher? Sure. When you’re at home with nothing to do, do you typically find yourself walking around or sitting about randomly wearing different clothing throughout the day, or do you usually stick to one outfit? Usually just one outfit unless the weather changes midday, as it wont to do in Texas. When at home with nothing to do, do you wear socks? No. When at home with nothing to do, do you typically spend your time in bed, on the couch in your living room, sitting in the kitchen or at your desk, or do you go between them all or some other variation? Bed, usually. What're things that you commonly do when you’re bored and can’t go out for whatever reason? Play video or phone games, watch Netflix. Do you watch TV when at home with nothing else to do, or do you spend most of your time reading? Both. What do you usually watch? Whatever I'm currently binging or maybe a couple movies. Depends on my mood. Do you wear socks to bed? No. What do you hate or love about jeans and sweatpants? I like how comfy they are, but there's like 8 months of the year I don't get to wear them bc it's hot af. How and in what situations do you usually wear them? Idfk, jesus. What about underwear? What about them?? What type of underwear do you prefer? Boy-cut. Is daytime television really starting to get to you and if so, why or are you addicted to it? No. You’re at home a lot when you’re not at school or working, aren’t you? Not really. What clothing do you sleep in? Usually just a shirt and undies. Is your bed actually a bed? Yes?? Do you prefer other sleeping arrangements rather than the usual bed and if so, why? No. Is your room a mess constantly and if so, why? Yes, because I'm lazy lol Is your new clothing constantly getting ragged and worn-out during short periods of time and you’re not sure why? Nope. How often do you shower? Every day or every other day. Do you wear a lot of make-up, some make-up or no make-up? Some. What’s your favorite make-up? Eyeshadow and mascara. Could you go out in public without make-up? Yes, but I don't too often. Do you do your nails often? No. What color are your fingernails? There's some tiny pieces of chipped charcoal gray polish lol How about your toenails? Charcoal gray, not chipped, bc for some reason it lasts forever on toenails lol Heels or flats? Flats Eyeliner or mascara? Mascara. Lip gloss or lipstick? Lipstick. Eyelash curler or tweezers? Tweezers. Vans or Converse? Converse. Nike or Adidas? Neither. What color are your socks? I'm not wearing any. What color's your bra? I'm not wearing that either. Are you wearing skinny jeans? No, leggings. Do you think you set or follow trends? Follow, I suppose. Have you ever done something just to fit in? When I was younger. Do you go to the mall often? God no. Do you have many friends? Sure. Do you dislike any of your friends? No. What’s your best friend ever's name? Justin, Kelsi, Krystle. Have you ever had a down moment with that person? Yes. What's your most memorable moment with that person? Idk. Who was your most recent missed call from? An unknown one. Who was the last person you called? My mother. What does your fifth message in your inbox say? My texts aren't done like that. Who was it from? -- Are you single or taken? I'm in a relationship. If you're taken, by who? I'm with Justin. What color are your eyes? Dark brown. What’s your favorite color? Grey. What song are you listening to right now? Whatever is on the computer game my youngest is playing. Do you like to dance? Sometimes. Do you like to sing? Yes. Do you believe in love at first sight? No. How about true love? Yes. Do you believe in bros before hoes? Ugh. Are you a whore? Nope. Are most of your friends guys or girls? It's pretty even. What's your favorite candy? Trolli gummy worms, Reese's. What's your favorite ice cream flavor? Rocky Road. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep? Yes. Have you ever slept on your computer? Probably. What's the longest you’ve used your computer? Idk. What's your favorite smiley? Just the generic ones. Do you edit your profile often? No. Have you ever been in a fist fight? Not really. Do you want to? Nope. Have you ever thought about having sex? I mean, yeah. Have you ever babysat and if so, who? Yeah, lots of kids. Have you ever waited so long for something you wanted to happen so bad? Probably. Have you ever not been yourself to impress someone? In the past, sure. Have you ever done yourself up very pretty with so much make-up and a whole different outfit to make a guy like you? Not to "make" a guy like me, but maybe because I wanted to look pretty for someone. Have you ever betrayed someone? Yes. Water or soda? Water. Coke or Pepsi? Coke. Looking behind you, what’s there? My kids' dresser that I took out of their room five years ago bc they kept jumping off of it, and I just never put it back lol Have you ever been rejected or dumped? Sure. Have you ever thought about what school would be like if someone didn’t go there? No. Do you hate anyone? Nah. What’s your locker number? I don't have a locker. Do you have good hygiene? Yes. Have you ever danced in front of the mirror? Yes. Are you craving something? I'm already snacking on what I was craving, guacamole. If you could have one thing right now, what would it be? That lol Would you rather have ten kids or none? Omg, none lol Is your bed against more than one of your walls? No. What’s on your mind right now? This survey, the episode of Breaking Bad I'm watching, and my snack. Are you there for your friends? Yes. Who was the last person to see you cry? My kids and their dad. What do you do when you get nervous? Fidget. Do you like people in general? No. How old do you think you'll be when you finally have kids? I was 19 with my oldest, 22 with my youngest. Does anyone completely understand you? Sure. Would you be happier if life had a rewind button? No. Do you tell your mom or dad everything? No. Does it matter to you if your boyfriend or girlfriend smokes? It doesn't. Are you going to get hurt anytime soon by someone? I hope not... This time last year, can you remember who you loved? Yes, it's the same person I love now. Do you think more about the past, present or future? Future. How many hours of sleep do you get a night? Not enough at all. Are you easy to get along with? I like to think so. Do you hate the last girl you had a conversation with? No, she's my best friend. What was the last drink that you put in your mouth? Water. What size bed do you have? Queen. Do you start the water before you get in the shower or when you get in? Before, so I can adjust the temp before I get in Do you like the rain? I do, unless it's been raining nonstop, like it is now. Do you think someone's thinking about you right now? Meh. Have you ever been hurt by someone you never thought would hurt you? Yes. Your parents are out of town, so would you throw a massive party? I'm 32. Do you regret a past relationship? Nah. Would you rather spend a Friday night at a concert or a crazy party? Concert. Do you tend to fall for the same type of person over and over? No. What're you doing tomorrow? Hopefully sleeping in late, hanging out with Kelsi at some point. Have you ever fallen asleep on someone? Yes. How has the past week been for you? Not bad, actually. Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to? Yes. What were you doing at midnight last night? Hanging out with Justin, watching Hunter x Hunter. What's your current mood? Good, slightly bored. Who was the first person you talked to today? My kiddos. Will this week be a good one? It's almost over, it's been decent. Did anything happen to you within the past month that made you really happy? Probably. Who were you with last night? Justin. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night? No. When's the next time you'll kiss someone? Next time I see Justin, which should be Saturday. Who should start the kiss, the girl or the boy? Jesus. Do you have any plans for the weekend? Hanging out with Kelsi tomorrow, hanging out with Needles, Justin, and Carly on Saturday.

#survey #surveys

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i-loves-my-lemurs · 3 years

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Fanfic writer's director's commentary! Thanks to @candycoloredwolf for the ask! I chose to talk about my first panchulien oneshot 'Wanna Dance?'. I wrote it in a single night on impulse so there's a few grammar mistakes and other stuff I noticed upon revisiting it.

I probably went way overboard on my commentary (oops) but it was so much fun going through it all. I hope this is entertaining.

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*the crocodile ambassador gave him an unusually soft smile.*

After everything that's happened in the show, I feel like the croc ambassador would have warmed up to Julien quite a bit and come to respect him as a leader. Also he's trying to butter Julien up before complaining about one of his subjects.

*provided they were on their best behaviour. It had said on the invitation that it was a 'sophisticated' event, so Maurice had managed to wrangle all of the lemurs into formal wear, and everyone seemed to be enjoying themselves, dancing in pairs to the soft music*

Man, I just love it when characters dress up in fancy outfits and go dancing together (like in the prom episode). One of my favourite tropes in fact, so I just had to throw it in there!

*but still all this fancy partnered dancing wasn't entirely to the ringtail's taste.*

As much as I like the formal dancing stuff, it wouldn't be something Julien would enjoy, so he's already looking for an excuse to bounce and throw his own afterparty. He's only stayed so far to try and be polite and improve relations between their kingdoms or something else that Maurice told him to do.

*Clover, Sage and the rest of the mountain lemur kingdom was there, and the king and queen were happily sharing a waltz. Maurice was dancing with his sister while Prince Brodney was teaching their children the steps*

This takes place after the show's finale, but without the inclusion of the zoosters, so sort of like a parallel universe? Where Julien and Clover are monarchs together, which I think is neat. Also People tend to forget that Maurice has a sister, myself included really, and I kinda wish they'd had more cute bonding moments, so I gave then a brother/sister dance.

*even Pancho was leaning against a tree*

Aside from the main squad (excluding Mort of course) Pancho is the only minor lemur that Julien really mentions here. Almost like he was looking for him specifically. Hmmm....

*He caught Julien's eye and winked. Julien chuckled fondly.*

Casual flirt.

*"I do have a minor issue with the behaviour of one of your, ahem, subjects*

That little cough just feels like something the croc ambassador would do when he's embarrassed, or to sound authoritative, so he did.

*Julien tore his eyes away from Pancho*

"Tore his eyes away" almost like he didnt want to look away. Hmmm...

*The anxious lemur was currently giggling as he twirled his new boyfriend around*

Ah, I just want Willie to be happy and have a good time with his bf. He deserves to laugh more. New boyfriend infers that they're in the early stages of their relationship, so they're just messing around being silly and cute and having fun together.

*but Horst and Mary Ann weren't doing much better.*

Horst and Mary Ann deserve a nice romantic dance. It would be pretty awkward because she's twice his size and can only really walk on all fours, but they don't even care. They just cut their own path through the dance floor and ignore everyone else, no matter how annoyed the other dancers are because they keep getting in the way.

*"Well, they're both males!" He said. "It's completely unnatural, wouldn't you agree?"*

Oof, the croc ambassador wants that snooty monarch solidarity with Julien since he's the most popular king in Madagascar, but that ain't happening any time soon. Not with that attitude!

*Julien was lost for words. He had known ever since he was young that he liked boys. Every male in the kingdom liked boys! In fact, it was considered a little unusual if you WEREN'T interested in the same gender.*

I like the idea that homosexuality is just the norm in the party kingdom, kinda like She-Ra. People are just gay and nobody thinks anything of it and coming out is celebrated. Julien doesn't care if you're gay or straight though, he just cares for his peeps and wants them to love who they love.

*whatever their genders were*

A subtle difference between Julien and the croc ambassador, Julien says 'genders' while croc ambassador says 'sexes' because Julien is more open to the idea of gender not being confined to biology.

*Julien took a few deep breaths and tried desperately to not get angry.

"What's the problem man, they're just dancing." He remarked in what he hoped was a neutral tone.*

Julien tries to keep his cool here, a bit of his character development showing. He now knows that everything doesnt have to be a scene, so keeps his temper. It's also kind of to protect Willie and his partner though. He knows they're having a good time and he doesn't want to bring to their attention that their host doesn't like what they're doing, because he knows they'll be upset.

*"rather not have it ruined by such atrocities being committed!"*

And this was the point where I started to hate the croc ambassador too while writing.

*"Oh, hey Julio." Pancho smiled at him. "I was just gonna-"*

Pancho was just gonna say that he was bored with the party and wanted to leave. He would have asked if Julien wanted to come with (he could tell Julio was getting bored and he couldn't have THAT), which would have been a different fanfiction entirely.

*"Wanna dance?" Julien said.*

I honestly can't remember if I thought of the title or this line first.

*He considered sticking his tongue out at the reptile's back, but ultimately decided that such a juvenile display wasn't the best way to get his point across.*

Again, character development. Julien has matured (a little) and realised that there are better, more fulfilling ways of getting revenge.

*"OK." Pancho said with a shrug, and slid his paw over to Julien's waist,*

Once Pancho can mentally catch up with what's going on, he rolls with it. In fact, he sorta likes the idea of dancing with Julien, and had been trying to gather the courage to ask him for most of the night. I wonder why...

*As they danced though, he began to feel his attention drawn to a different place: how smooth Pancho was on the dance floor,*

We all know Julien's attention span is not great, so there's no way he's going to be able to stay angry when he's too busy being distracted by Pancho's smoothness.

*He raised an eyebrow. "You just couldn't resist?"*

Not entirely subtle flirt.

*"But you know, you're not a bad pick." He patted Pancho on the arm.*

Not entirely subtle either flirt.

*"Abner over there's been missing steps and stumbling all night!" He glanced over at Abner and his wife with a small frown.*

Poor Abner, he's the one getting picked on tonight. Bit of a running gag here.

*Pancho's eyes widened and he instinctively pulled Julien closer, whether it was to shield him or to further prove the point, Julien couldn't tell, but the ringtail wasn't complaining.*

Pancho does pull Julien closer on instinct to protect him, he knows how badly homophobia would hurt Julien's feelings. Julien is just loving it though. He was more angry for Willie's sake than hurt anyways.

*"But us lemurs dance with guys all the time!" Pancho exclaimed. "I've seen you kiss four different guys at a party once! What's his problem?"

"That's what I'm saying, wait I did what?"*

Even if they weren't a couple, dancing together is just something the males would do. They're that casual. And of course Julien would go around kissing everybody at his parties when he gets drunk enough. Poor Julien doesnt remember half of what he does at parties though.

*"Oh no, I don't mind." Pancho remarked, then cleared his throat awkwardly, looking away.*

Awkward silence much? Internally Pancho is just screaming *why did you say that?!" because he doesn't know how to handle his feelings right now, especially not with Julien so close.

(For any other ballroom dance enthusiasts, what they're dancing would be a mix between a waltz and a slow dance. Like a casual, less fancy waltz that's quite easy for them to get the hang of, but still quite romantic and personal).

*"You know Julio, I don't think he's gonna notice." Pancho remarked.*

But eventually Pancho plucks up the courage. They're already dancing, he tells himself. And Julien just wants to make the crocodile ambassador mad. Julien kisses people platonically all the time so he won't question it. If he doesnt like it, say you were doing it to piss off the crocodiles. And if he does like it... well...

*"Well, I had an idea." Pancho was avoiding his gaze again."*

He's still nervous of course, but he's made up his mind. It's all or nothing, baby!

*"Lay it on me." Julien said.*

And he does! Literally!

*And holy Sky Gods.*

I was tempted to have this line be 'holy crap' or 'holy sh*t' because that's what I would say idk but holy sky gods just works better for the show's lore, and allows the story to keep a G rating.

*All thoughts of spiting the crocodile ambassador had been fully driven from his mind*

Julien just gets so caught up in the moment, he's all "what crocodile ambassador?" he just wants to keep kissing.

*Julien stroked his paw through Pancho's soft fur and deepened their kiss.*

I imagine Pancho's fur would be very soft, he's always playing around with explosives so he's bound to get his fur burnt off every now and then, and it grows back softer.

This was the first time I wrote the lemurs kissing, so it's not the most explicit thing in the world. I probably couldn't write an explicit kiss scene to save my life though.

*"Hoo-ah." Pancho sighed softly.*

Hoo-ah" is exactly what Pancho would say after having his mind blown by a kiss like that. Just no thoughts, head Julien.

*"Yeah, crocodile ambassador certainly thinks so." Pancho said, a wild grin overcoming his face*

Heh heh, Pancho's happy because he just got to kiss his crush (and he liked it!) But also because he can see the croc ambassador is pissed and he loves the opportunity to mess.

*some looking angry, some looking intrigued*

Some of the crocs are intrigued because they've never been able to be open about who they are or experiment because of compulsory heterosexuality in their kingdom. Seeing two guys just being so open about their attraction to each other would definitely help them rethink things. They've never seen gay love expressed like this and it's new and exciting.

*Julien's face broke out into an ecstatic grin.

"Yeah that's right!" He called wildly. "I kissed a guy! At your party! Boom, I like kissing guys! Ha, suck on that loser! Woohoo!"*

Oh the sweet triumph of proving a point. This rant was a joy to write, it just feels very Julien.

*He grabbed Pancho's hand and held it up.*

Grab your boyfriend's hand, hold it aloft like a prize.

*"I'm like ninety percent sure Ted likes kissing guys!"*

Haha, poor Teddy needs to be extracted from the closet, pronto. Julien just has an excellent gaydar.

* and tucked a protective arm around his daughter's shoulders, turning her away from Julien.*

I imagine princess Amy would have some questions after this, questions which her father would definitley struggle to answer. If she really wants to find out what Pancho and Julien were doing, I imagine she'd visit the party kingdom alone, and the lemurs would be happy to answer her questions. Pancho and Julien may have ushered in a new era for the crocodile kingdom and their relationship with LGBT+.

*There came a cheer from the crowd of lemurs and they all began to head off the dance floor*

Of course the other lemurs go with Julien immediately, he's their king after all and the moment he suggests that someone might not be cool with their sexualities, they're ready to bounce.

*Clover and Sage at the front hand in hand,*

Clover and Sage would definitley be behind Julien 100%. The moment he declares that they're out of there, they just drop everything to leave with him.

*some mountain lemur ladies holding hands too.*

Mountain lemur lesbians? Anyone? I just think it's neat.

*"You read my mind, Julio."

Julien pulled Pancho towards him and tried to ignore how it felt like there was a little party going on in his stomach when Pancho called him that.*

Julien really likes that name! I see it as an affectionate nickname Pancho gave him that eventually just evolves into a pet name that makes Julien a little warm and fuzzy inside every time he hears it.

*Julien's heart leapt with joy to see Willie clutching his boyfriend's hands as they danced.*

Daaaww, Julien might pick on Willie but at the end of the day he likes to see him happy. He's glad they don't have to stay at a party where their dancing is scrutinised.

*Pancho rubbed the back of his neck awkwardly as they stood face to face. "I'm sorry about kissing you, I just-"*

Now that there's some distance between them, Pancho has had time to think and wonder "oh sheesh, what if I messed it up, what if he only felt like it was platonic" and he's now all embarrassed, poor leem. He's just a guy in love.

*He nodded, then cleared his throat in an attempt to get a grip on his emotions. "You know, um, while we were dancing*

And now we see Julien trying to hold it together, these two are just so precious and I can totally see them stumbling over their feelings like that.

*kissed Pancho on the forehead, giggling slightly at the other lemur's squeak of surprise.*

Pancho is the perfect height for affectionate forehead kisses, let's not forget it!

*Pancho and Julien headed onto the dancefloor together and moved their bodies to the beat.*

They would have spent the night together just dancing and vibing (and making out probably).

*Nobody there who gave them the stink-eye or who told them that they were wrong. They danced and had fun and kissed without a care in the world. Julien felt so happy that his kingdom was a place where he could kiss Pancho all he liked.*

Ah I really went to town on the "love is love" concept here, didn't I? Well, a theme is a theme.

Julien's just really happy at the place he's created. He's glad they can dance and kiss and all that jazz, and he did that, he created a kingdom free of prejudice. It's exactly how I can see the kingdom's relationship with LGBT+ going down, a place where they're all just happy to vibe and be themselves.

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And that's the end. I hope you enjoyed this premium insight into my writings, and if you want commentary on another of my stories, or just have random questions, then my inbox is always open :)

#ask post #fanfic commentary #ahkj fanfiction #homophobia mention

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comradesalazar · 3 years

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2020 Creator Wrap: Favorite Works

I will admit I got a lil Emotional that I got tagged in this but I’m so excited to go through it because this year has been SO PRODUCTIVE for me when it comes to writing. Thank you to the legend @that0negayslytherin for tagging me and the other legends, you the real MVP (and also thanks again for setting up the LV fic discord bc that place... really b Wild and really b a wonderful place to motivate each other to be our best.) Legends only!!

Anyhway! Onto this thing... I’m excited.

[rules: it’s time to love yourselves! choose your 5 (or so) favourite works you created in the past year (fics, art, edits, etc.) and link them below to reflect on the amazing things you brought to the world in 2020. tag as many writers/artists/etc. as you want (fan or original) so we can spread the love and link each other to awesome works!]

So. Most of my works from this year have been Venji related because I’m still in the deep pit of Love, Victor obsession and idk when that’ll go away. Hopefully not anytime soon because I’m having a great time and fic was an amazing way for me to improve my craft. I do have one piece of original work on this list, but the rest is fic. It’s difficult to choose favorites so I think I’ll go chronologically. A couple of these have graphics but not all of them. Anyway... let’s get into this, shall we.

Arakhne of the Floating Mountain

So this the first work I completed this year. It’s an original novella I wrote for Wattpad’s Open Novella Contest and it’s a very fun, character-centric story that reimagines Arakhne/Arachne (the one from the legend who gets turned into a spider after challenging Athena) as a lonely lesbian who lives alone on, you guessed it, a palace on a mountain in the sky, until three sisters drop by asking for her to create their coronation dresses for when they become the queens of Heaven, Hell and Purgatory. The sisters (Soledad, Luna and Estelle) basically try to court her and it’s a good time. Obviously, I didn’t win the competition but it was still a really fun story for me to write and part of my journey of realizing I can create a writing habit and work on something over the course of a long time, since the only other completed long work I had was for NaNo, which was just binge-writing over 30 days before I had the chance to get bored. If you’re into magical lesbians, check it out!

The stars will love me even if you don’t

I have so much to say about this work. I started it just on a whim in August after I watched Love, Victor in July and began wanting to actually contribute to the works of fandom. Little did I know that I would be embarking on a journey of 120k words and counting, with 33 chapters. This story deals with a whole random of issues -- from long-distance relationships, substance abuse, mental health problems especially around anxiety and depression/suicidality, toxic relationships, codependency, self-harm, the project of becoming oneself and being able to manage life and navigate the world in a healthy way, all the things. In a lot of ways, it is a personal project. But also in a lot of ways I wanted to correct a lot of ideas we have about what constitutes a healthy relationship and what love should look like. There were many times when I wanted to give up on this project due to frustration and exhaustion, but I continued to work at it. I learned so much about my own capabilities, about developing a writing habit, and about what it’s like to write a behemoth of a story. It isn’t perfect by any means but I appreciate the people who have reached out to me and told me that they learned some things about themselves from reading. This is truly a labor of love and I can see that it already accomplished the goal I set for myself which was to help people. It’s lit. And thank you so much to @callmevenji for the lovely cover!! She’s a legend!!

The Thousand-Eyed Wraith (TTEW)

This was a little one-shot I wrote for the Halloween Venji Fic Fest and it takes place in the world of my original work, The Thousand-Eyed Crow. Basically, it’s about what would happen if Venji ended up in that world and had to deal with some spooky nonsense and eventually ended up joining a cult. It was fun for me because it was more stream of consciousness and post-modernist, which is very different to how I normally write but it was a really fun experiment tbh.

You Only Live Forever (YOLF)

This was another one-shot I wrote for the Fic Fest, but this one was much smuttier and mature than TTEW. I was really inspired by Beyonce’s “Partition” (the song and the video lmao) and thought it would be interesting to put Venji in a world similar to Greendale in The Chilling Adventures of Sabrina but with s*x magic, so it was essentially a Love, Victor and CAOS cross-over for grownups lol. Apparently it worked out well, though, and they ended up trying to summon Satan which went... questionably. But I had a lot of fun writing this, as well, especially when it came to sorta balancing the old-timey setting with the modern day and the smutty scenes with the softer, fluffier ones.

Part of Your World

So one day I had an idea to write a Little Mermaid-inspired Venji story that would be so sweet and romantic... And so I did. I took a lot of inspiration from several sources -- one, of course, was the Disney version of the Little Mermaid, as well as the original version which is a lot darker and more sinister, as well as mythology around sirens and selkies and just, I guess like, class warfare. So I ended up with a sorta more adult-version of the Little Mermaid where Benji gets attacked by humans and is distrustful of them until he meets Victor who is “not like other humans” and helps patch him up, and they embark on a bit of a whirlwind romance. This has been a treat to work on even though it’s probably one of my least popular fics because I imagine people are coming for something a bit more light-hearted but I’m incapable of writing something that is 100% fun and not chock full of imagery and meaning. I think this has also been the work that showcased and tested my imagery-writing and dialogue-writing abilities the most and brought out my inner poet. And once again a huge thank you to @callmevenji for the fanart, if you haven’t already followed her you should bc she’s a legend.

Dead Men Feed the Fish

Finally, my last and most recent work is also the story I worked on for NaNoWriMo this year. 63,000 words completed in less than a month, depicting the initial meeting of Venji and the way their romance develops and deepens over time. It’s just (chef’s kiss). I had originally had the idea for pirate!Venji and really wanted to write it because I was inspired by That One Scene in Pirates of the Caribbean, which is probably one of the most romantic scenes I’ve ever seen and between the only het pairing I stan. So I just had to write a story that included this scene and that allowed me to write my dream scenario of Venji out on the open seas being gay and having a good time and going on adventures and having homoerotic sword fights. This story has basically everything -- romance, action, adventure, magic/fantasy, a lil bit of spice/kink, good communication, tension, cute animals, everyone is gay, what’s not to love. I’m also looking to edit and publish traditionally so I’m in the process of fixing all that up now. And once again, thank you to @callmevenji for the brilliant fanart!

Anyway, that was that, and I hope that if you have the time and you get the chance, that you give some of my works a shot because I would be very grateful and I think you will have fun.

I’ll tag @kateis-cakeis, @g531, and I guess anyone else who wants to do this!

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