#good by my standards at least

[stuckinapril]

friend wanted to see my tumblr, and when i told him i can’t show it to him bc it’s basically my personal diary he went “oh so I can’t see it but a bunch of strangers on tumblr can??” he literally does not get me. no one will get me like the people in my phone get me

#It’s just so different #even though it’s public it still feels secret and safe. i feel comfy sharing a lot more on here than I do in my actual day to day life lol #in my head I’m also just speaking to myself 90% of the time which helps #if a friend off tumblr saw my thoughts I’d feel so weird ab it #esp bc they might get the vagueposting about certain situations and tell mutual friends #no thank u. this is for me. I’m not about to start censoring my thoughts bc someone I know knows my tumblr #u guys literally saw me have LIVE BREAKDOWNS #meanwhile I’ll have the worst fucking day in history and tell no one about it. I’m already cripplingly private but way more so in real life #this is basically a low stress journaling outlet for me. it’s so important for me to maintain the separation #like this is actually my diary & has been so handy for letting out emotions / articulating thoughts / staying on track !! #& I’ve met so many kind people on here who actually get me. which is so hard to find irl bc I’m surrounded by pre-med gunners/overachievers #who are by standard not very good w emotion & can be competitive/judgmental. or at least it’s hard for me to be vulnerable in front of them #and I’m part of that crowd so I reserve my emotions only to a handful of very close friends #it’s nice to hop on here and express negative emotions!! or positive emotions!! just whatever I want and it’s low stress and people get me #I don’t have to worry about judgment or competitiveness etc etc #like everyone on here is so kind & nice & understanding. & just a breath of fresh air from the types I run w. it’s just nice to have this #so idk that’s why I think I’ll always be strict about keeping the worlds separate. it just works #p

[m0e-ru]

did everybody remember when atlus finally restored the attendant social link in the steam port and how stupid it actually was

#persona 4 spoilers #persona 4 #p4 #⛽️🌫 #moel gas station attendant #izanami persona #souji seta #yu narukami #tohru adachi #margaret persona #marie persona #arttag #tappous #// 'you say good bye to your senpai' okay when do i see him again #// i wish there was a rank10 but margaret said her ex doesnt do 'taught and long lasting bonds' can i at least get a final boss skip #// looking through my liveblog of this was so stupid i havent even shown all the times i kept loading saves that were in-game months apart #// because the correct flags werent triggering and the sl just disappears from the sl menu like HOW can you lose a friend #// like i kept answering the wrong prompts. gestures wildly at the jester and aeon sl. THE DOUBLE STANDARDS ARE SICK!!!! #// the attendant part time job was still working though but it was just child labor at that point with nothing fun to do #// i feel like they really had to focus on marie for this one thats why the whole sl feels incomplete because IT ISS #// atls they just 'restored' this one for fandom points or something I DONT KNOW !!! #// it was so complicated to get this far it was so ambitious but i guess it flopped by the end and we're supposed to chalk it up as 'lore' #// also heard how the last update fuckkeed it up so bad they got rid of the sl again because nobody could play it LMAOOO #// mimis so quirky like that okayy thats it for this week my dearest customers GOODNIGHT‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ #cw unreality #gsa sl au

[thisisadonaldduckblognow]

ik it’s probably a classic case of extrapolating way too much but... the way raph’s character design lines up w his whole arc and role and struggles...

like the fact that he is so so so much bigger than the others. raph is big, raph is strong, raph is steady and sturdy and he can literally pick up his entire family and carry them all at once. 

and like, when raph is so big and so strong and such a reliable thing. when raph is the protector, the one calling the shots on missions, the mother hen, the first point of authority. when raph is there, overprotective, when raph (for all that his brothers poke at him not being good under pressure) always always ALWAYS comes through at the end of the day when things are serious, ALWAYS gives it everything he’s got. 

his design and his learned role/behaviors in this family are just the perfect storm of why it took up to the season finale to drive home the issue.

so much of the series carries the default energy of “raph will handle it.”

raph will hold up the ceiling above you. raph will throw himself over you and take a hit and get back up and keep fighting. raph has a power that makes him even bigger and draws more attention and makes him able to carry MORE. raph will be the substitute parent. raph will be put into the mentor role through leo’s leadership arc. 

and raph is big. he’s built to carry heavy loads. raph is strong. raph is bold and loud and always ready to try to push on. even if he doesn’t know what to do or what he’s doing, he won’t give up and we’ll all pull together and things will turn out okay.

(his room is full of teddy bears. he dipped out on a mission to try to take a picture of a pigeon carrying a slice of pizza. he’s terrified of being alone.

he’s just as much of a kid as his brothers are. he’s just as new and inexperienced with the things happening to them as his brothers are. but for him, for some reason, there’s like this double standard where that becomes a huge glaring flaw.)

idk this got very sloppy and uncoordinated. i’m very in my feelings about raph right now though.

#rottmnt #rise of the tmnt #rottmnt raph #rise raph #rottmnt raphael #honestly i could go on forever and ever about the double standard thing where raph is concerned #like. w movie leo especially leo is learning lessons raph also had to learn in the series! making very similar mistakes! #but you never see analyses or essays pointing to those bad calls as signs that leo isn't up to the task... #(i mean there are some clear Reasons why that happens.) #(its the reason why raph and mikey are the bros who get the least content by a MILE. but. not the point of this post.) #the whole point is just the idle subconscious assumption and associations of it being fine to let raph carry everything #literally physically sure but also metaphorically #and the plight of the child who seems to Need Nothing (all children need; some sadly learn not to appear to need) #even my tags are incoherent rn clenches fists i love him so much is all #like there is a reason it takes to the series finale for him to have a proper breakdown and get actual support from his bros #and i am still mad we never got real good content for him and splinter #considering how similar their arcs ARE.... #thats a whole other thing whatever

[compacflt]

ice and his obnoxious ass academy ring are my fav part of TG 86'

does your mav have any thoughts ab his husband wearing that damn ring

he’s probably still a little bitter about it but it’s not like ice SHOULDNT be proud of going to the USNA or anything so what is he gonna do, ask him to take it off??

i have this image ive yet to incorporate into any of my writing where ice spends his whole life with the USNA ring on the fourth finger of his right hand & feels a little imbalanced. something’s missing. & then he marries maverick, and he has the wedding ring on the fourth finger of his left hand, and finally he is complete. he has both. he is both a great officer and someone capable of love. neither side is subservient to the other anymore. they coexist in harmony at the end of the day. and of course that’s something maverick would respect.

oh shit brb adding that image to my slider one-shot rn

#ty for the ask <3 #it’s equality!!!! #i don’t personally put any importance on ices naval career…boo it makes him unhappy… #but he still takes immense pride in it!!!!! #he can be proud of both!!!!!!!! and he should!!!!! #at least in his universe #tom iceman kazansky #pete maverick mitchell #icemav #ornamentation #probably my most obvious hc ever is that ice is fucking awful with money #maverick helps him solve his credit card debt in the 90s and that’s how they fall in love for real #ice (broke; 22) shelling out $150 for his stupid ring: this is a good financial decision bc it validates my masculinity #👍 #actually i just googled it and i thought they were a lot more than 150 tbh #my HIGH SCHOOL class rings were >$300 LMFAO imagine #but that joke was a lot funnier in my head when ice’s class ring was more than 150 #i spent 150 on a piece of the f-14 they used to film tgm like that’s…fine. #by class ring standards #so nvm

[unlicensedmortician]

i was born in the right generation if i couldn’t put music from wildly different genres on my monthly playlist and blast it through my noise cancelling headphones while waiting for the bus after work i would have to explode people with my brain

#plus the union reps + strikers who fought for a standard 8hr shift #it still feels too damn long for my body to handle but at least it’s not longer #thanks guys i hope you got really good head #jamieposting #i just got the hand that feeds (crane wives) -> good luck babe (chapell roan) -> uh oh! (xowie jones) -> pretty girls (renee rapp) #when i hit shuffle on my playlist. so basically im thriving

[incorrectsibunaquotes]

tumblr glitched and spared you all the most heated rant of my entire hoa fandom tenure

#idek what happened i answered the ask & hit post but it completely deleted LOL #I’m not gonna bother to reanswer anon’s ask so I’ll give you the abridged version: #i would not feel the need to post so much about season 3 of hoa if people would stop being such virulent haters #and hold this season to an entirely different standard than the other two #like it genuinely makes no sense #i cannot stress enough that you can like s3 the least #that’s your prerogative #but to be so LOUD and so WRONG #ALL THE TIME??? #makes me genuinely mental #SEASON 2 IS LITERALLY MY FAVORITE SEASON #but season 3 needs love and so it’s been 11 years of me giving her love #anyway i guess i just gave you a take version of my rant #and @ anon: fuck you LOL leave me alone once and for all #i love having discussions and deep dives tho please do not think I’m @ing anyone on here you guys are chill and smart #and make good points and do great work and i love you #but if you’re a genuine s3 hater please fuck off to someone else’s blog i BEG #AND if you’re the anon who refuses to leave me in peace? i hope your pillow is warm on both sides #tess rambles

[rotisseries]

chapters 51 and 58 of bloodmarked are absolutely CARRYING bree/nick/selwyn polyamory truthers

#selwyn is kind of a stupid name I realized as I was typing this. like I've gotten used to it over 2 books but it's so silly. selwyn #anyway. me disappearing for days and only showing up for like 30 minutes to reblog 3 things #and make a nigh incomprehensible post letting you guys know what book I'm reading now (read. I finished it yesterday actually. #now I'm rereading legendborn bc I'm apparently not ready to move on to a new book and also I forgot most of the shit from that book) #anyway I've been on the polyamory train for these 3 since I read legendborn in 2020 but I swear it's only gotten stronger #like what do you MEAN selwyn (magically oathed to protect nick) FEELS SAFER with nick around #THE SAME WAY BREE DOES. AND BOTH SELWYN AND NICK LIKE. AGREE ON HOW MUCH THEY LOVE BREE. AND THERE'S NO WEIRD JEALOUSY ABOUT IT #AND SELWYN CANONICALLY WAS AT ONE POINT IN LOVE WITH NICK???? #AND NICK LITERALLY SAYS TO SEL “I CAN'T LOSE YOU AND I WON'T LOSE HER”???? #LIKE????? #THERE IS NO WAY THIS IS YOUR STANDARD ASS LOVE TRIANGLE IT'S GOTTA BE AT LEAST A LITTLE POLYAMORUS #IF NOT A FULL TRIANGLE BREE SHOULD AT *LEAST* GET 2 BOYFRIENDS. SHE DESERVES IT #even if it does end up a standard love triangle though this is honestly a genuinely good one #like I genuinely like both love interests neither of them are weird or annoying or creepy about her #anyway. need book 3 out as soon as possible I swear to god I almost can't see how this ends in monogamy #I'm talking about the legendborn series by tracy deonn btw everyone #another arthurian inspired book series which if you saw my other post the other day I swear this isn't intentional #legendborn #bloodmarked #the legendborn cycle #tracy deonn #bree matthews #nick davis #selwyn kane

[buildbuymode]

sims team give us a nice athletic tracksuit challenge

#think my fave tracksuit across all games is the one that came with ts2 university for young adult sims #it came in green + blue + orange + pink and was just a very standard tracksuit but so good #athletic is my least fave category to dress by far #second is sleepwear because we don't have enough nice plain regular degular jimjams #ts2 also did it well in that respect #esp the family fun stuff pack kids pyjamas they were so good #text

[atissi]

this is a joke. i hated business school.

(conversation with @thesweetestclementine)

#CONTEXT: we were talking about the james somerton bullshit #anytime someone at a party asks me what i majored in i say 'marketing and finance but i hated it the entire time i promise im normal' #can confirm though that 80% of business majors suck ass at writing let alone coming up with original ideas #in first year we had a mandatory business writing class because it had gotten so bad among previous cohorts #and everyone i talked to hated it because we had to read actual books and the professors were lit. phds with actual standards #'they mark way too hard i got 60% on everything' have you considered that this is a. skill issue. #also 60% is just. expected for certain humanities courses lolll at least in business our grades get curved #so you're only hurting your GPA if you write worse than everyone else lol. but good luck with that #anyways that's just a fraction of why my classes were terrible. but the writing thing annoyed me the most when I was doing group essays. #beepbeep.txt

[feelboss]

me when I've never played a game with a character creator before

#bg3 #please be serious #like come on #i love the game but the character creation is literally one of its weakest points #i can think of at least four games with far far FAR more expansive character creation off the top of my head at 4am #like bro you can't even customize body build??? #something that's pretty fucking standard for every goddamn character creator #YOU CAN'T EVEN NOT HAVE ABS #LET ALONE BE FAT #like i understand that not everyone has played saints row 2 #but most gamers have seen the sims customization!!!!! #ffs!!!! #come the fuck on #straight up the character creation in bg3 is bad #and extremely same-facey #its not a good point when your pc will end up sharing multiple traits with multiple npcs

[yujeong]

Fic snippet #8: VegasPete

Pete looked calm as he leaned on Vegas’ shoulder. Peaceful. It made Vegas realize that serenity was a foreign sight on Pete too. A suit that didn't quite fit. Pete had been sleeping differently at the safehouse, in a way that seemed uncomfortable and strained to Vegas now. As if he had been drugged, as if being unconscious had been against his will. As if closing his eyes would equal his defeat.  Vegas had found him beautiful nonetheless. 

#haven't posted a snippet in a while #this is a super rough draft still - at least according to my standards - but I need some motivation in order to continue writing this so... #my somno shenanigans will mostly include Vegas introspection because this boy's mind doesn't shut the fuck up ever #and he has *thoughts* about Pete and he needs to express them somehow #so yeah #idk how good my smut will end up being because of this #but I'll try my best #kinnporche the series #vegaspete #vegas theerapanyakul #pete saengtham #fanfic writing #snippet

[digital999placebo]

I feel like denying your whiteness is not only denying ur own I dentity which sucks, but also denying ur privileges? There’s no shame in having privileges bc of ur ethnicity bc it’s nothing you can control, what you can do is admit to it and be normal about it??? The whole “I’m not white I’m actually 2% norweigan” is not helping anyone

#I have a bunch of privileges as well being relatively white passing or at least fitting a Eurocentric beauty standard #being one of the ‘good’ poc #n just in general living in a first world country with university educated parents #so I’m not denying that I have any or saying I’m the one who can point out whose a ‘REAL’ victim or not #just my take on it

[swallowtailed]

this year/semester/job took up so much of my time and energy that i kind of forgot how nice it is to just pick a direction and write. anyway for unrelated reasons does anybody want a hxh field ecology au featuring leorio as camp cook and kurapika as that grad student who was only ever glimpsed blazing through camp with tanks of pond water strapped to the back of his bike. it is five thousand words long

#hello world #probably not gonna post it as is bc it is not at all up to my standards for posting fic #but i might revise it because i think i am very right about it #anyway i did at least achieve my goal of Finish Literally Anything which feels pretty good #hxh field ec au

[fisheito]

What is this weirdly feelyweely status exclusive to yakumo

#unless i missed something #it felt like everyone else had pretty rational text effects...like standard conditions in their status boxes.... #was this the only status that explicitly mentions being all squishy to GENTLY convince someone #because right now it feels like #eiden in a sequential interview situation. he is alone in a board room with someone he needs to win over. he's prepared his thesis(?) #with edmond first #eiden brings out his master plan and says OK HERE'S MY PITCH. PLEASE GIVE ME JUST A LITTLE BIT OF TRUST ONCE YOU HEAR IT #we're going to do THIS at THAT PLACE at THIS TIME with the goal of THESE RESULTS. My capabilities include: THIS. ThaT. AND PERHAPS THOSE. #PREVIOUS EXPERIENCES indicate that method A and B will do well but in case that fails i have prepared options C D and F #eiden pointing out his massive presentation board with the spreadsheets and red strings #edmond deliberates very seriously before cautiously approving of eiden's plan #when edmond exits and oli takes his place. eiden starts the presentation anew #oli nods thoughtfully and encouragingly throughout... like yes! this sounds like a good plan! i trust you with this :) let's do it :) #then oli leaves and yakumo comes in to take his place #eiden doesn't even need the presentation materials. #he just sits across from him. gently places yakumo's hand on his chest over his heart. then stares soulfully at mr protoserpent #and says (please trust me? 🥺) #yakumo crumbles IMMEDIATELY #and when they emerge from the room into the hall where edmond and oli are waiting #eiden's like GREAT! EVERYONE'S ON BOARD! let's get this started n_n #and edmond's just like.... yakumo why did you come out so fast. eiden's presentation lasted at least 7 minutes #oli just smiles knowingly and thinks lmao eiden heckin got im #journey to a nu world #nu carnival yakumo

[whamss]

Yaoi-pilled losers will really say, "You can't blame me for not caring about the women in my media when they're written by misogynists who can't write women" and then act like this is a totally neutral state for a story to be in that's worth zero critique of the author

Maybe it's a hot take but I think if a story is written by a misogynist who clearly doesn't put any love or care into writing their female characters this is, like, a bad thing. And it baffles me that people will toss this out as a justification for why they don't care about women so callously

#talk tag #“the author of my favorite animanga is a misogynist who cant write women of course i don't care about them” and you're like? fine with this? #i swear this wasn't a good talking point 20 years ago and it's an even worse one now #you do know that theres media out there written by people who arent misogynist right? #like if you want to convince me that you care abt women the least you could do is raise your standards for female writing #bluh

[toytulini]

if you draw enough monster ocs, when you go back to drawing a human character, it feels like "sameface syndrome" everytime, by virtue of their face being. human.

#toy txt post #or maybe i am just sameface syndrome #but also different face syndrome #two characters will have the same face but then the next time i draw those characters its a different face than they had last time! #i know part of it is being out of practice but also there is definitely an element of feeling constrained by human facial structure lmao #the monsters have Their Own Problems but like. no one has a face like bokrae no matter how inconsistent i am about drawing her #her features are iconic enough to her that you can tell everytime #birdie???? i faceclaimed eartha kitt for her and im still struggling cos i feel weird about faceclaiming as a concept #but even then 😭 one time i was trying to give headloose a face and someone was like wow he looks like birdie! #me 😭😭😭😭😭 what!!!!!! hes not supposed to!!!!!!!!!!!!! #i need to practice. features #you know the worst part about coming up w a bunch of fuckin Scenarios in my brain for ocs is that i have even fucking Drawn them yet #to give them like. iconic staple features and figure out what their faces look like. which feels like it would really help to have that #knowledge and muscle memory before i jump into trying to draw intense scenes with difficult poses!! #not to mention. listen. i can do the monster faces. somewhat. the bodies??????????? well for one. theyre too big everytime #im convinced i could be trying to draw bokrae on like a full ass wall size paper like a mural thing and run out of room. it just keeps #happening. i have no sense of scale for them either. by which i mean i struggle w scale already and also cant decide what i want it to be #and ive tried to handwave it away by being like ohhh uh. birdie casts spells on them to change their sizes for convenience but also #no. perhaps that explanation works for other ppl. @ myself tho its not good enough i Know Better!!!!!! #agh!!!!!!! i really need to figure out bokrae's Teeth also. like i dont. i coukd get away with it. but i should. and i want to. #anyway all this to say that i need to give these characters faces and body designs (actually the body designs for humanoid ocs is the easy #part. the faces are whats stumping me? well. i need more practice w all the body types again but like i Know what im Going For at least. #for the most part anyway. havent fully figured out heights. struggling w characters that i want to make short but give imposing tall energy #on occasion? birdie can be short all day long no problem. I want Alasdair to be short enough that he has a bunch of short boyfriends that #feel tall around him? bytte was going to be like 6ft max but then i thought about making her taller and like. what if i made her taller #headloose is not that /short/ but he is Not Tall and prolly pretty lean? twink build for sure #and of course all these short /tall distinctions come with a bias of relativity to my own height which i categorize as medium height #but short ppl call me tall and insist its not average and tall ppl call me short. (5'6) and then i have to factor in how the gender changes #the dynamic of a height like my height is Short For A Man but medium to tall for a Woman. which id argue is medium height bc mens heights #are socially held to high standards (hehe) and also i know ethnicity/race is also a factor? but im out of tags. rip. bye