#gotta get back on writing oc timelines tbh...

[leviiackrman]

"don't put me in a position where I've got to show you how cold my heart can get."

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#oc: chika hoki #oc stats* #my edits #my ocs #naruto oc #anime oc #naruto #i love her your honour #new kid means new edit #you know the rules #shes just...my brain rot rn #i havent even finished s2 yet lmao #but BOI am i hooked #no i wont be shutting up about her #i will happily discuss her all day guys okay im serious #so if you have questions = just shout!! #sm that i couldn't include in her bio #gotta get back on writing oc timelines tbh... #any interest? idk man #TOO MANY THINGS TO DO #art or writing? I CANT MAKE DECISIONS.

[ghouljams]

What dept does the flower shop owner owe to Liebling???? He said the 'gift' he bestowed wasn't enough to clear his debt so now I'm thinking Liebling might be owed a life dept or maybe something close to it. Oh and how long has it been since he left for his honeymoon? Will he ever come back? Does Liebling own the shop now? How long did it take her to adjust to seeing Fae? I have have so many unanswered questions running through my mind I can't calm down!!

Thank you for blessing my feed with your posts it's much appreciated 💗

I think we've gotten to a point where I really gotta just acknowledge the Darlings are OCs, which is fine by me but i know my sister at least still reads them as reader inserts. As usual if you don't want to get them as OC fits you don't have to read the no fae!boys stuff, I'll pop it under a cut. This is probably going to be a lot of author talk anyway...

So Tock owes Liebling a large debt because she'd been managing the shop and going above and beyond with it. She didn't ask questions about the weird customers, she made Tock tea and coffee without being asked, it was just a lot of acts of service care that Tock sort of didn't realize had piled up to such an extreme. Liebling really considered her boss a close friend so it was sort of jarring when he just up and left.

It really was getting close to a life debt too. Tock is really uh... stupid as shit with his debts. I won't get too into his whole deal but yeah he's bad at keeping track, that's how he ended up married with no courtship. He's happy though don't worry! I think in the timeline he's probably been on his honeymoon at least a year now in human time terms. Time in the fae wild is weird.

He's never coming back lol. His husband is high fae and Tock is very happy to be a trophy husband. He is not going to come back to work at the shop, which he is well aware of and that's why he put all the necessary documents in Liebling's name.

So yes Liebling does technically own the shop but she tries not to think about it. It stresses her out that she's a business owner. Having to figure out taxes was a nightmare for her. König really met her when she was at her most chill tbh.

Also I don't think liebling is used to seeing the fae. I think she mostly tries to ignore them. It was probably a very scary first few months having the sight. I should write something for her and her initial horror of it all.

#ghoul speaks #oc: liebling #authors notss #yeah idk what to tag this with #ive been mixing alcohols and i am not good at writing like this #my brain is mush i tell you

[rpsuperhighway]

Blog Updates 11/6/2023

Hey hey hey! Mun Blaze here! Sorry that I haven't really done much in the past few...while (part of it's due to other projects, specifically Halloween ones, part of it due to real life stuff.).

Due to the slight influx of new blogs that I've followed and/or are following me. I'd like to give a little heads-up for the status and plans for the blogs! I also updated the rules a bit. Under the read more, so this post isn't too long for those just scrolling

Blog updates

vxridis-quo: Still W.I.P. I'm not sure whether I want it to be a completely OC blog or have it be mostly OC with a few canons here and there (I still wanna have the Little Twin Stars as muses somewhere, maybe they might get their own blog?). Plus I currently have only two completed muses at the moment, and two planned but not drawn or ready.

infernal-thorns: Kinda active, and by that mean I still have FNF on the brain so I might try to start some threads soon...if my social anxiousness doesn't make me act unwise again...

worldofedd: Still W.I.P. Still gotta get icons for Tom, Tord, and Blaze. And create the promo, and create pretty much everything else for it 😅...

dropdeadgxrgeous: I'm gonna remove the canon muses from the blog and make it strictly an OC blog (on my side of course). TBH my interest in RP'ing the canon ghouls is practically nonexistent now and that's pretty much what's been holding me back.

goaskalxce: Still inactive. I'm considering moving Alice to the vxridis-quo blog, but we'll see.

strawberryflxwer: Currently inactive as of now. I'm afraid my Pikmin hyperfixation died out pretty quickly after making the blog. That will likely change once I play Pikmin 1 and 2 on Switch...someday.

My apologizes to those expecting threads or replies on strawberryflxwer. Should my Pikmin hyperfixation come back, I will get to them.

Rule Updates

Added a segment of the "Writing, Replies, and Threads" section to include things for verses and timelines.

Added a segment of the above section in regards to AI

#blog updates

[warmsol]

Alright, so for serious - how on earth do you stay motivated to keep up the monumental task that is doing a sims story ?? i burned myself out and every time I think about doing it again my brain goes 'bitch you know you dont wanna do that again'. Do you have the whole thing written in advance or anything? -pulls up a chair and sits in front of you- taking notes! and you can answer this publicly i don't care <3 shower simblr with advice

okay this is honestly a good question! tbh on my hiatus, i was SO incredibly burnt out from my story, which is one of the main reasons i went on break. ;-; but that being said, what keeps me motivated and what brought me back is the love i have for my ocs. i truly think once you have characters you’re passionate about and have put a lot of work and craft into, it’ll not only be harder to walk away, but it’ll be easier to stay! but yes, i keep a timeline of events and i have a separate word doc where i write my story in “screenplay form” (aka, setting up the scene, shot list, and then dialogue.) i usually like to have 5-8 scenes written out ahead of time, it keeps things moving and it’s definitely a blessing to know you always have things to do/post. when i’m falling behind on my doc and not keeping up with my writing, that ALWAYS gets me overwhelmed and frustrated! so having a good amount of scenes set and ready to go is a huge help. but keep in mind that when you start a story, you’ve gotta look at it as something you’re passionate about and something that brings you joy. if you think it may be too stressful, tedious, or not something that seems fun, i definitely wouldn’t start just yet. because yes, stoytelling is extremely hard at times, it’s a lot of work!! but you gotta remember this is a hobby and you can post on your time and terms. keeping that thought in mind has helped me a lot as well. always post for you. i hope this offered you some kinda help?! 😭 i’m so bad at advice. but if you decide to start up another story i’m excited to follow along. good luck!! :o)

#ask #isa answers

[ilkkawhat]

All the numbers. (If not all then pick and choose a handful to answer).

lol you’re really going for it anon, huh?? 😂 bless your heart. I’ll do all of them and then idk. if anybody wants to send any again, I’m sure I can have a different answer

(I did just answer 7 & 22 so I’ll leave those out. rest below the cut)

1) is there a story you’re holding off on writing for some reason?

I guess if you count all of my active WIPs that have been sitting dormant for months or years, there’s those since I like. I know what I’m doing in pretty much all of them, just as I know what I’m doing in some of my unpublished WIPs, but I think I just need to be in a certain mood/energy to do certain ones (ie, Agony esp is a very heavy fic so I gotta be able to Deal with that)

2) what work of yours, if any, are you the most embarrassed about existing?

I deleted those 😂😂😂 but some of my reeeeeealllllly old stuff is still out there and I cringe thinking about that and though I could easily delete those too, I’m keeping them just since the harddrive that has the docs for it is corrupted lol

3) what order do you write in? front of book to back? chronological? favorite scenes first? something else?

Just all over the place these days tbh. Even chapter to chapter it’ll change, I’ll write snippets in future chapters--and I’m talking like three or four chapters ahead--just to get it out there. But then there’s other days where I’ll sit and just write and not stop.

4) favorite character you’ve written

Nick Stokes, of course 💜💜💜

5) character you were most surprised to end up writing

Any of the Macgyver characters outside of Jack. Cause though I’ll claim not to all the time, I do know that I know the CSI characters (though I’m surprised I’m able to write in their POVs outside of Nick.) I grew up with them. I have a bond with them. The mac characters? I’ve only known for like. two years now and not even that well anymore since I’ve stopped watching the show. 

6) something you would go back and change in your writing that it’s too late/complicated to change now

Expanding on details. Almost every fic I write, I’ll read it again later and be like “ah shit I should have run with this idea...” but I guess that’s how I can do a sequel/missing scene

8) favorite genre to write

hurt/comfort (emphasis on the hurt, really I mean we’re talking like borderline horror)

9) what, if anything, do you do for inspiration?

See I haven’t really honed in on any one particular thing that inspires me to write. It comes out of nowhere, and the following list of things doesn’t like, always work. When I’m listening to a song. When I’m driving in the car. When I’m watching something unrelated to the source material (totes got some inspiring vibes watching Falcon and The Winter Soldier yesterday tbh lmao) When I dream. When I go on a walk. When people send me asks and I just go the fuck off and suddenly ten chapters later I’m writing a fic that they probably didn’t even want (coughSpecimenStokescough)

10) write in silence or with background noise? with people or alone?

I think the last couple times I’ve like, really written it’s been in silence. Definitely alone. Don’t got people to write around, really lmao (unless you count my parents being in other rooms with obnoxiously loud televisions and tablets)

11) what aspect of your writing do you think has most improved since you started writing?

All of it. And I’m sure it’ll keep improving.

12) your weaknesses as an author

Dialogue. I don’t know how people talk 😂

13) your strengths as an author

Detail, description, and I also like to think--emotion? but idk. It’s hard for me to assess my strength tbh

14) do you make playlists for your current wips?

Oh YES! At least for the longer WIPs like Last Breath or Agony. And listen to it on a loop when I’m trying to brainstorm or write if I want to write with music on. I’ve been starting to link the playlists when I’m doing with the fic (which is not many so far)

(I think Hellbound is the only one-shot I made a playlist for that I didn’t share)

15) why did you start writing?

I honestly can’t remember, cause I think I’ve been writing stories (fan fiction or not) ever since I was in middle school?? Maybe even elementary? But I do feel like I had gotten more encouragement for it than drawing from the few people in my life that did actively cheer me on, and there’s just something about writing that is so...fulfilling? Esp since I can’t like. Just manifest the images or make the “movie” in my head, at least I can write them down and hopefully convey what I see/feel in my mind through words.

16) are there any characters who haunt you?

All my neglected OCs lmao. I did and I guess on some level still do want to make an original series.

In a chilling way Veronica also haunts me cause I realize how much of that like, darkness in myself I put in her. 

And Nick, well, he’s just always on my mind.

17) if you could give your fledgling author self any advice, what would it be?

Just fucking go for it! Don’t give a shit if anybody will read it or not. Take your time, flesh out those details. Describe what you see, what they see, what they feel. 

If you think you’re going too far...you’re not. 

keep going

18) were there any works you read that affected you so much that it influenced your writing style? what were they?

I mean any fan fiction I read in the past has probably influenced me on some level. I know that when I came back to CSI in 2018, reading all of kristen999′s nick whump def encouraged me cause I was like “oh...there’s others like me who like to see him hurt!?!?” and I do think that maybe sometimes after I read a fic, I might like. Try to incorporate those styles I see. The way words are described, sentences constructed. Not like, copy of course but I feel like a long time ago my writing wasn’t really idk, novel-like? very short, almost read like a script whereas now, since I’ve seen the way people write their stories (some novel length stories, too), I flesh mine out a lot more.

19) when it comes to more complicated narratives, how do you keep track of outlines, characters, development, timeline, ect.?

I don’t 😂 Thinking of my bigger projects like Agony, I do just kind make up some of it as I go with a rough outline although sometimes it is a bit more detailed--like First Flight actually has a super detailed outline but I know that once I start writing, something might come up, some twist I didn’t think of before--or even one that somebody suggests to me, but idk I feel like I do have a way of tying everything together regardless? Cause especially with those bigger WIPs I will try to go back and re-read if something seems familiar or if I’ve forgotten a detail, or if I’m planning on diving back into it after a long break from it. 

20) do you write in long sit-down sessions or in little spurts?

Depends. I feel more accomplished with the long sit down sessions so I target that, but lately it’s been little spurts with maybe one big dump at the end of the week.

21) what do you think when you read over your older work?

Mostly cringe, but there are times I’m like “holy shit this is really good???” 

like I remember recently I re-read Agony and loved it, when I wanted to delete it maybe like. a week before that. I think it honestly depends on my frame of mind, and why I’m going back to read the fic? Cause I’ve had times where I’m like “wait what was this one?” and then I read it and laugh at how bad it is, but then other times where I’m like, “I wanna read that one fic I did...” and then I do and it makes me happy.

But, I will always kinda criticize at the same time--”aw, I could do this better, I could have expanded on this,” etc

23) any obscure life experiences that you feel have helped your writing?

My life is suuuuuuper boring so. not really lmao. One of my earliest CSI fics that actually created what I consider to be my number one OC (she’d be the lead in that original series I mentioned earlier) came out of me sitting and staring into a campfire lmao. 

also there was this teacher I had (one of those good IRL supports) that told me a story of something that happened to her (or was it her daughter?) and I turned it into a story (back in my teen days) so. I guess there are somethings. 

24) have you ever become an expert on something you previously knew nothing about, in order to better a scene or a story?

Expert? No. But I will do numerous google searches to try and figure some stuff out and get lost in a rabbit hole of “research” for a while and hope that when I do write it, it comes off as I know what I’m doing when really, I do not lol.

25) copy/paste a few sentences or a short paragraph that you’re particularly proud of

haven’t really written much in this past week, and certainly nothing to be proud of, but this line hit me like a ton of bricks for Specimen Stokes and I’m in love with it:

“Because, my dear specimen, I wanted to see if you loved the danger...or if you loved me.”

#mk.fic #mk writes stuff #nonny #mk talks

[babblish]

1, 22, 25? for writer asks

1. Favourite place to write

On top of my bed with the laptop on my lap, and several enormous pillows for back support. I can’t concentrate with the television playing and people moving around and doing things, so my bedroom is the only place I can comfortably write with minimal distractions.

22.  How many drafts do you need until you’re satisfied and a project is ultimately done for you?

Euuuuugh, I feel like I’ve given a long winded answer about this before but the tdlr; is around 4 - 8+. I’m really picky about turns of phrases and typos and stuff other people probably don’t even care about, and sometimes if a scene isn’t working you just gotta rewrite the whole arse thing. It takes me a long time but I find something that bugs me and it doesn’t get fixed it will haunt me until I do something about it. Tbh this is probably why I prefer writing fics and publishing on AO3 because I can easily go back and fix it, whereas hard print press if it’s done it’s done, no takebacksies.

25. Linear or non-linear, and why?

This is complicated because I struggle so much with consuming non-linear storytelling because my understanding and perception of time is shaky at best. For example, I figured out that the reason I dislike/struggle with present tense in prose is because that genuinely isn’t how I experience time. My processing speed is such that something has either happened a while ago, a couple seconds ago, or will happen in the future. Likewise with non-linear storytelling I miss so many cues that I just end up getting confused and have no idea what’s happening or what the plot even is. 

However, whenever I’m writing I tend to write all over the timeline because I’ve already worked out most of the broad strokes of what’s happened, what’s going to happen, and have spreadsheets, timelines and scene summaries to refer back to. Which in practice means I tend to write when inspiration for certain scenes strike = all over the timeline. I try to keep things slightly contained, for example with changeling fic;

I have the first arc already completed, about half of the second arc, and absolutely nothing of the third and final arc of the first story, which is subtitled as ‘The White Rabbit.’ So far it’s shaping up to be the biggest story because it’s setting up an event horizon that will only work if I’ve successfully earned emotional investment from the audience in the MC, my interpretation of changeling culture, and at least this one changeling OC.

The second story, called ‘The Daughters of Magic’ has around 3 major scenes already written, not consecutively, and is approximately only 1/8th done. Pretty much all of this writing was done because my muse made me inspired, no, compelled to write these specific scenes immediately. 

The third story, called ‘The Pursuit of Stone’ has around the same amount of words as the Daughters of Magic, but the scenes are actually completed, not left trailing mid-sentence. I wrote these not so much in an inspired flurry as a palate cleanser after working on The White Rabbit for weeks in a row. (The exception to this is the very first scene I wrote in December 2018 which was actually an expansion from a specific moment from chapter 23 of Whispers Within, the memory that opens with “It had been a novel sight.”)

The final? story is tentatively called ‘The Bridge to Yesterday’ and is intended to be a canon re-write/switched perspective fic, and as of the moment is completely unwritten. My plan is to leave this until last because it’s going to be the least bullshittingly of the stories and I’m going to need the Pursuit of Stone finished before I have anchor points to build the setting from.

So while I am writing non-linearly, the actual progress is still building up in a near-linear fashion? So while my planning process is rigid and linear, and my progress tracking is rigid and linear, I essential design a garden where it’s ‘safe’ for me to chase (scene) butterflies without risking confusing myself and not knowing where I’m going with everything.

#ask meme #writer meme #my fic #whispers within #changeling fic #still needs a better tag

[starlitcrows]

Not sure if anyone asked, but could we get some more info about Kiran's past in the FMA:B universe, please? I would love to hear some backstory from that point of time and place.

i’ve been exposed. someone finally noticed the “fma:b oc” part on the oc page. i am ruined. i am–

alright! gonna put this all under a read more because i don’t think all of my followers are exactly here for me to ramble for hours about the light of my life, so– here ya go. a comprehensive guide to the continuous downward spiral of kiran’s life. i WOULD draw a comic for this but uhh *looks at 5 requests* uhh

another warning: this is going to be really long. and very painful i’m so sorry.

tw: suicide. tw: alcoholism. tw: also abuse. tw: sads :( tw: lots of war mentions. this is ishval after all

warning in advance: doesn’t exactly perfectly follow the rules of that universe, but almost does. i could write the vessel au version of this instead but we’re just gonna go with the original timeline okay cool? cool sweet

ive put this man through so much pain tbh. feat. kiran’s family

kiran k.v.s. ijana is the eldest son (birthday: february 7, 1890) of an ishvalan couple, one of whom is an exiled alchemist in possession of a philosopher’s stone (his mom, yasna asmodeia ijana “prayer of the white rose’s sacrifice”, birthday december 26, ????) and an extremely skilled ex-combat monk (eku ijana “lone sacrifice”, birthday january 27, ????).

mom and dad~ (old art, gotta redraw these two. also for some reason i can’t find the version where yasna had her exile’s mark, so, rip.)

the couple had been living separated and in hiding for a bit before kiran was born, and then continued to live in such conditions for eleven years. during this time, kiran was being trained in combat and water alchemy by both his parents. yasna was slowly going insane due to the curse upon their bloodline, a terminal unknown illness essentially incurable, a strange thing where names are essentially also prophecies, + the voices in the philosopher’s stone (which works a bit differently, as it absorbs souls that die around whoever wears it.) these caused hallucinations, during which she definitely injured her son. kiran’s pain tolerance comes from this for the most part. he loves his mom dearly despite this.

poor boy.

during these eleven years, kiran picked up his nicknames, too. kevala - meaning “lonely”, something he was called by eku due to kiran avoiding other children due to his status as an alchemist’s child and the fact that his eyes were a bit more bloody and blazing than the usual faded. vadhah - meaning “death”, as he was gifted in his skill of combat (as much as he hated it). also vadhah’s name! suha - meaning “beautiful; starlight; forgotten” called by his mother and his little bro.

january 6, 1901 is when kiran’s little brother, rajnikanta ijana (”night’s beloved sacrifice”), was born. yasna died the same year on december 21, the winter solstice, five days before her birthday. she committed suicide, and kiran found her dying body in her room. she also made him swear an oath to pacifism unless it was absolutely necessary to defend, and passed down the necklace (stone). eku was not at the house at the time as this was also the year the war started, and he was being called back into active service as a combat monk.

kiran essentially had to raise rajni alone for about seven years with eku being called back and having to fight. ages 11-13 were when kiran tried to commit suicide himself, also did self harm but sealed the wounds using alkahestry. finally stopped because he wanted to take care of his brother properly. focused on studying alchemy and alkahestry– he used a lot of alkahestry on himself to seal away the scars yasna had given him, and the ones he used himself, which sort of slowed his growth.

around age 16 is when kiran started drinking stolen alcohol, as most of the food he found went to rajni. where kiran’s insane alcohol tolerance comes from. dislikes drinking it, but it helped dull pain and the war sounds.

a few weeks before kiran was summoned, he lost his father to a shooting, and later came home to find the place in flames (thanks mustang). held rajni’s dying body until the other died, earning him his back scar, passed out from the smoke, and put out the flames with “subconscious” alchemy and eventually had to leave. wandered the crumbling country helping to save as many children as he could, guiding them out of ishval.

:( (still old art. seriously gotta redraw this. sads)

his last day in ishval was when he was faced with seven soldiers that were hunting down children. he managed to put them all to sleep. during this he also got shot in the leg and nearly had his arm sliced off. when he nearly passed out from blood loss, his philosopher’s stone necklace took control again and froze the soldiers around him.

he dragged himself into an alleyway, took out the bullet, healed his arm, passed out, and a few hours later found himself in a strange temple.

at his side there was a prince with gray hair and a gold and black mask (yall know who it is).

good god that was really long i’m so sorry for anyone who’s read-more isn’t working

#kiran #yasna #eku #rajnikanta #rajni #fire emblem heroes #feh #fe: heroes #fire emblem oc #summoner oc #bruno mention #fma:b oc

[godless-fear]

Tagged By: @thezomblr and @rxtten-guts

Tagging: anyone who wants idk

Name: Error (yeah just a nickname but I'm not super used to giving out my real name to people unless I really have to :/)

Age: 17 (I turn 18 in April so be prepared)

Pronouns: tbh it's whatever. I don’t care. She/her they/their  whatever as long as you're not a dick about it.

Sexuality: bi

Zodiac sign: Aries

Taken or single: Single

Four Things About This Blog:

✘ This was made randomly, I had no actual intention of doing an ask/rp blog until I asked @a-goofy-zombie about starting an Oz for her brian

✘ I actually have a hard time writing a character the same exact way all the time because people (and monsters in this case) are constantly changing. It’s why Oz was probably a lot softer when I first started versus now.

✘ A lot of headcanons I have for Oz are usually made on the spot so often times I forget them and spend about 10-15 minutes scrolling trying to find them again, get distracted, then remember what I was doing until I find them .

✘ Yes I love the fact that my shadow baby is in love with a dork of a zombie but I’m a big ol’ multi shipper and want to share Oz with everyone which is kind of why I try to rp with a lot of people even if it isn’t that timeline’s “canon”

Three Mun Facts:

✘ I have a cat

✘ I get suuuuupeer nervous talking to other rp blogs because they do so well and I'm sitting in the corner like the potato I am. I really love interacting with other characters though! Makes it all the more fun!

✘ I tend to write a lot, even just short things, and I do a lot of roleplaying outside of this blog. Like. A LOT. Mostly with like five people. I’m usually just too scared of talking to new people so my rp partner hardly changes. Which is why I’m glad people actually like this?????? I’m gonna question it cause im just adkfjhbvk;asdfjbv about everything but whatever. ; I ramble a lot and I am so sorry

EXPERIENCE:

How’d you start: -cue like 2010’s linkin park music- oof uh a facebook group. It was okay?

Platforms you’ve used: Discord, Tumblr

Best experience: I met some of my best friends through Discord and they’re the reason I got back into roleplaying about two years ago now

Worst experience: Someone forced my oc’s to do a lot that I didn’t want to do or was comfortable with, and it made me stop roleplaying for about a year and a half

MUSE PREFERENCES:

Original or canon: UHM okay listen I have upwards of 30 ocs (and frankly thats NOT all of them) and I hardly really play canon characters. This is one of the first times (other than the cringe days) that I’m playing a Canon Character

Favourite face: Like favorite character? Uh… I can’t really choose?

Least favorite face: Why would I dislike a character so much that I don’t use them?

Multi or single: I think the 30+ ocs speaks for itself

WRITING PREFERENCES:

Plots or memes: both are great, I honestly don’t care how something starts. One of my best developed and favorite character to play as started with “hey i wanna do a thing with a new oc but he’s gotta have blue hair. Name him for me i’m crap with names”

Best time to write:  when i’m active. Hell, I’ll do it in class too idc

Do you like your muse(s):  fuck yes, they my beans I will protect them all

How long (months/years?): honestly it’s really only been about three or four ish years all together

#ask meme #ooc #about the mun #i have like two other things to do but i'm lazy why

[sightofsea]

this is rly dumb and there is the HUGE chance im going to regret this but ok

basically when i was 15 i wrote an approx. 200k OC doctor who fanfiction featuring a kind of half self insert/half attempt to subvert mary sue comapnion stereotypes named jenna quigley. and ive been thinking about it more lately like the general storyline bc like. idk. n i figured i should write it out.

i should mention this is all 11th doctor era bc i was a huge fan at that time, and it takes place between that time he leaves amy n rory to when he does his farewell tour bc i wanted to try n add some canonical irony that ill get to later

so basically its all narrated from jenna pov as kind of stories she’s telling to the tardis database via recording. why, we don’t know yet. she;s. ok so in the plot she was from our universe n was an AVID fan of the show which like tacky i know but whatever. she starts out 15 and in basically my house and neighborhood (this fic started from a constant daydream i would have of going on adventures w the doctor bc i was a nerdy 15 yo so like. sue me) and there have been a disturbing amount of disappearances in the surrounding area that local police are stuck on. so everyones kinda afraid to go out into their own homes and at one point, jenna is doing something out in her backyard and actually witnesses one of the abductions, but is surprised to see the kidnapper looks like the silence, aka the television show shes been watching. she thinks shes going bonkers. her family leave her alone for the day to go to a thing for one of her siblings and she’s just kind of ruminating on this event when--lo and behold, an officer arrives at her door.

and jenna, she’s very skeptical about this guy. like, given recent events she doesnt trust her own eyes. and the guy is...off. like his badge n credentials, if she concentrates, looks like something else for a flash of a second, and for some reason the figure of him is kind of hazy whenever jenna tries to look directly at him. he is shown to have a quirky, friendly demeanor n jenna figures well, i gotta tell someone about what ive seen, so she invites him in. they have a brief chat n its obvious to the reader that this guy is someone VERY familiar (mostly due to my bad writing at the time) and jenna begins to explain what she saw and how its like this one show she watches, and this guy suddenly becomes very very interested in this before realizing he’s got it all pieced together and asks for jenna’s help in navigating the area to find what is, ultimately, a silence space ship.

jenna agrees and over time realizes this guy is most definitely connected to something in the whoniverse and originally believes he might be a time agent bc that seems more likely given their number as they travel to the ship. its also revealed that the officer has brought jenna along bc the key thing about what she saw is that she actually remembers the silence and can see past perception filters due to the qualities of alternate universe, slightly alternate brain chemistry and so on. its not exactly perfect--she can’t get through perception filters rly, especially good ones--but its enough to know something is wrong n remember certain things others from the dw universe might not be able to like the actual silence aliens themselves.

anyway they make their way to the ship, which has come through a massive tear in reality that the officer came through. in the fic lore i guess tears are seen as usually benign things meant to leak ideas of universes into other universes as a kind of waste disposal system, and as a side effect create inspiration in those who are close to them. this tear, though, became too big, kind of like a leaky pipe, and actual material was able to get through by keeping a frequency from both ends of the tear as a kind of safety rope. and to maintain their energy as a stranded ship the silence have been using humans as batteries. i put a lot of thought into this, i know.

SO once theyre in the ship the “”officer”” (we know who he is by now lets just face it) and jenna are captured n separated. jenna is held hostage and it is revealed she is a part of a second half of the “silence will fall when the question is asked” prophecy which goes “the unexpected shall follow the guided task” (i loved rhymes) which is further revealed to the be the following: change the timeline and destroy the doctor. and jenna, being jenna, is like “listen u guys i dont even know the guy so uh failed step one i guess”. she’s saved by the “”officer”” in the nick of time through work of faulty electrical work (like? i know its for style but the silence have all those lights on the floor n it is VERY dangerous) so the whole ship is blacked out n she hears the differently pitched speech patterns (”why do u sound all different” “they took my equipment nevermind lets go”) and after doing some work to reverse the frequency and basically make the ship implode back into its original universe they run back to jenna’s home in the dark, seeing as she was out for quite a bit. her family is conveniently not home yet n decided to hang out with some friends. and when she gets back n is finally in the light SURPRISE!!! turns out the officer was the doctor all along in disguise from the silence using a perception filter. 15 year old me was a literary genius.

n u might think hannah this is rly long is it done now and of course it isnt!! that was just the intro!! after the initial shock jenna kind of parses what era the doctor is from, which is pre-silencio but after finding out about it n in that 200 yr stretch that was never rly shown. and jenna’s like, a whole season ahead of him basically and knows all this stuff and is trying to engage with this guy she’s a huge fan of without like accidentally spilling the beans on his future. she sits him down to explain the whole tv show thing n lets him watch an episode while she goes to her room to pack like clothes n her laptop because its not every day the doctor just flies in and she’s 15 so shes like hellz yeah im gonna be a COMPANION not even THINKING of the consequences in terms of the multiverse, the prophecy and her family (she does leave a note but its self centered n kinda lame tbh just like be back whenever). afterwards she walks the doctor back to the tardis and is like so where we gonna go n the doctor looks at her like jenna you are a literal child im not taking you anywhere and jenna though some MASTERY of writing that was basically hey look over there! and doing it anyway sneaks into the tardis when the doctor isnt looking n becomes his stowaway.

for the next few weeks she just kind of chills in the tardis with this fear that the doctor will immediately bring her back home so might as well have fun and kinda sneaks around him and keeps couch hopping from room to room. the tardis does not like her one bit due to the whole different universe funky energies thing (and this was pre-clara and i really wanted to see a companion the tardis didnt like so) and has multiple conversations with it via the interface hologram which meant i could write cameos for classic companions and write the tardis as a character bc i was a nerd.

SO after weeks of casually avoiding the doctor eventually she gets caught by him and hes not happy about it so shes like well ok then send me home n then she gets the real kicker which is the tears all mended up. after the material was put back in place it went back to being benign n too small for anything to travel between. so jenna basically stuck in this foreign universe with a very slim chance of returning back to her old life and her family and friends and she mistakes the doctors anger at the situation for anger at her so shes like basically im all alone here oh god n has a crisis n has a dramatic run off into the bowels of the tardis hallways

eventually the doctor finds her and they bond over being kind of the last of their kind in a way and he takes a kind of fatherly role and is like well youre already here and im miserable on my own so why dont we two birds one stone it n just go on adventures for the time being and takes a kind of fatherly platonic role with jenna bc i was sick of seeing companions hook up with the doctor and was confused as to why they wanted to hook up with him (spoiler alert: huge lesbian)

so they set off on their adventures. the first one was about the doctor and jenna accidentally boarding a ship of genetically engineered soldiers called evos being shipped off to a galactic war and finding out some of them had rebelled and had been camping out in the ships underbelly. they had no mouths but were able to communicate via sign language n empath touch powers of transferable memories. the captain was a bitch who didnt see the evos as living things n eventually in a stand off either offered them a chance for the other, still podded evos to live and for them all to live a horrible life or have the podded evos be ejected into space in return for them to have a chance to fight for their freedom. the choice ended up coming down to jenna, somehow, i think, and she chose freedom and cost the lives of like 200 evos but were able to get the ones they were able to save (about, like, 100 i think) to safety and create their own civilization away from harm on a distant planet and their success and triumph to live their own lives i guess canceled out the fact that jenna played a part in the deaths of 200 beings. it was. i dont even know 

the next “episode” after a brief interlude of less impactful adventures and discussing mortality was a sherlock crossover episode that im too embarrassed to go into detail about but did reveal jenna’s newly formed abandonment issues due to her stranded in a strange universe situation and the fact she had a self harm problem that, surprise, mirrored mine. her n the doctor went on some more adventures over the next few months that were mentioned in passing. it should be noted that this first “act” i guess takes place over a solid year

the next episode featured river song bc i was gay for her without knowing it and i had just learned about easter island in history class and i decided to expand on one of the adventures said in passing during the series to kind of root my fic in canon bc i was a smarmy bitch. it involved being perceived as gods and the silence and using the flesh as a means of luring villagers to be used as human batteries and also putting a percetion filter on the ship so what was actually a crater was perceived to be a mountain. through this episode we saw the doctor again facing his own mortality, river sitting jenna down after a series of events pieced together her abandonment issues n harm problem n being like you cant rely on the doctor for this alone trust me i know its fun but when it starts ending it wont be. jenna gets kidnapped again by the silence n is reproduced as flesh to try and steer the doctor n river away from saving the day but overcomes that impulse and eventually pulls herself out of it and helps save things.

this episode also imports an important plot device of misplacement, which i shouldve put in earlier if im honest. the basic idea of it, within the fic lore, was that the universe, multiverse, whatever had to compensate for temporal displacement all the time when choices were made, but when big things that would alter history happened--like a giant supposed mountain blowing up 200 years after it had already blew up--it had a fail safe to transport the object causing the harm to the exact place but in a different time where the event would have less of a temporal impact. theres also an important note here where the doctor doesnt recall jenna being with him on their first adventure together. both are setting up the larger plot.

after the deal with the kidnapping and the flesh and all their adventures the doctor becomes kind of protective of jenna because i mean the dude also has abandonment issues like lets be real. so he kind of tones down the danger in fear of jenna dying or getting hurt. i mean, its been a year and theyve kind of become these friends who snark at each other like a family would and its nice that jenna has this person she can trust because she watched the show and like, knows him and knows his tells and calls him out on his bullshit before he can even get started and feels a kind of responsibility for due to the prophecy she was given and the doctor has someone to talk to and someone he also doesnt have to hide from really because she already knows almost everything. theyve been equally protective of each other--jenna keeping the doctor in the dark about the prophecy about her and keeping mum on the fact that she knows he isnt going to die, and the doctor worrying about jenna’s safety and trying not to screw her up like he has past companions to kind of try to atone for his past mistakes and make it up to this girl whose life he kind of unintentionally ruined. ok honestly idk why im getting in depth but i spent. years on this fic you dont understand

so. after a while jenna just kind of calls the doctor out like come on lets at least go somewhere fun and end up spending christmas eve in new york in the forties and befriend this newly single mother and jenna fakes a REALLY BAD accent to get across that her n the doctor are related n poor to gain sympathy. they do all the things she wants like times square and macy’s, where surprise! she sees amy n rory n their son and just kind of like. guides them away from the doctor like guys. this aint ur guy. and it would fuck EVERYTHING up also hi i know your guys’s entire life story, cute kid, etc. they give jenna some advice dealing w the doctor and she tells them that she’ll try her best to make sure he doesnt like, go self hating n all that bullshit n they part ways. her n the doctor meet up again and throughout this whole first part jenna’s been noticing people following her? with like, these weird orange-y eyes. and she thinks like fuck ok this’ll ruin the adventure, maybe theyll leave but they end up starting to go after her and reveal themselves to be a species called the visicheck

after escaping and dumpster diving because the visicheck hunt based on scent, jenna and the doctor start heading towards the single mother’s place for refuge (she had seen their situation n offered a place to spend christmas eve) and on the cab ride over the doctor explains that the visicheck r these ancestors of the family of blood, and basically are lifeless specks that latch onto living things and possess them until they burn them out and move onto the next one. they consume what is the basic energy a thing needs to exist and be alive, and for different species there’s different levels. lets say a dw universe human is ur basic ten on the scale. because of different circumstances in different universes, jenna is basically a 120 on the scale. like, these things could possess her body and use it for centuries to wreck havoc with the kind of energy she holds. and jenna, thinking about the prophecy of changing the timeline and also not wanting to basically be the living dead is like yeah ok fuck this is bad. 

they find some brief refuge in the single mothers apartment for a time and enjoy a lovely christmas eve dinner but eventually the visicheck catch up to them. the doctor escorts the single mother n her kid into a cab to get as far away as possible while jenna is just supposed to keep holed up in the apartment, but things arent so easy and they end up breaking in. she’s able to hit them over the head with a pan n kind of stave them off for a bit and heads for the roof, but is eventually backed into a circle. knowing the visichek can’t possess something that is dead and not wanting to potentially endanger the universe just to keep her life jenna jumps off the building in a dramatic fashion that i wrote to play with the carol of the bells because i thought it was cool, and you know what? it was. it really was.

and so jenna dies

at least for a bit

she wakes up in the tardis, rly confused because like, she died. like she knows she did. and the doctors not speaking n acting all broody and she finally gets the story out of him that after she died (posted as an anonymous person in the newspaper, i should note, and put in an unnamed grave to keep the whole “written in stone” thing in line) he kind of. went off on his own for a bit before rly hating himself for letting jenna die right in front of him and went back to catch and save her before she landed, therefore altering the events as it happened. and jenna is...not happy about this. like, one bit. because, in a twist of fate, because she is both living and dead the universe must compensate by going to misplacement, but jenna can’t fully complete the misplacement “”process”” i guess until she is in the exact location she is misplaced from, only different time and all, and in this case she’s in the tardis which almost always has its shields up, so she can’t even complete that bit. so, as explained, the universe will start the process over whenever the tardis decides to fly off again, and send jenna to a different time within the tardis’s general vicinity.

basically, she’s gonna be stuck hopping around the doctor’s timeline. like, all of it, until she finally meets up with the right doctor who knows her n has been past this point. which could take years for her. and, mind you, the task she was “assigned” in the prophecy was to change the timeline, and as a result destroy the doctor. so this is basically jenna’s worst nightmare, and she finally spills the beans about the prophecy in a fit of anger before trying to say goodbye and being whisked off

and this is where the angst stuff happens

basically, for the next year or so (when i rewrite in my head its two years, makes more sense) jenna is thrown around one end of the universe to the other, trying to stay out of the way of the doctor’s events while also trying to, you know, survive and eat and drink and sleep. she’s basically a homeless vagabond for most of it, and her abandonment issues and self harming kind of escalate. she begins leading a really lonely life, and grows this kind of love/hate relationship with the doctor where she really hopes to see him again but also grows bitter against him for putting him in this situation. she visits companions before their time with the doctor, like donna, by accident and stumbles through meeting them and trying to just keep going. in her loneliness she starts talking to a version of the doctor in her head, which starts taking more and more of a form to her before its a fully grown kind of hallucination she’s created out of loneliness (which was kind of based off of me being a lonely kid and having pretend conversations with characters to simulate human connection which is. sad. i know. really sad. its a lot). 

for a time jenna is stuck with the doctor and martha during the months leading up to human nature/the family of blood, and inadvertently meets martha and gets a job at the school as a fellow maid through helping martha drag the doctor to the place. she figures its the only stability she’ll have for a while and since she was never shown in the show it isnt rly affecting the most important bits of the timeline, and resolves to stay as far away from john smith as she can and just live out her life until the events of the episodes start happening and she’ll vamoose. she adopts an accent to blend in and when she has free time finds the stashed away tardis, which initially does not recognize jenna as a companion until finding archived recordings from the future bc duh its a time machine, which brings the whole pov thing full circle, and interacts with the interface to get answers about her growing questions about the silence and her situation and learns about a device called the cage, which has been alluded to in previous “episodes” only by name, as a great machine created by the silence that is meant to basically make it so that anything inside of it would be erased for existence, past present and future, using energy form the cracks in the universe. this was still at a point in the actual series where we knew nothing so i just kind of went buckwild.

anyways

jenna ends up having to interact with the tenth doctor as john smith once, and kind of aims all of her bitterness towards her future self at him and realizes that isnt fair, apologizes, and has a cathartic moment of finally moving past a grudge with the wrong version of the doctor. eventually the events of the episodes start happening and she vamooses before getting sent off to god knows where again, yippee

eventually through the next year jenna kind of begins to rly lose hope. like, it’s been a year already, she doesn’t know if she can keep living like this. so she makes a deal with herself to wait out until the end of this second year of time travelling vagabonding before she decides to off herself to save herself and the universe the trouble. 

she keeps going through the motions and actually stumbles upon a future, post-silencio doctor, with rory and amy in tow, and in a fit of like oh my god relief she kind of runs up to him and is like i found you, finally, holy shit n the doctor looks at her like im sorry but i dont...know you? like i genuinely dont know who you are. you might have ur timelines all switched up. and jenna knows this isnt true and freaks out and kind of just is like, theres like fifteen days until the deadline, all hope is lost, gonna just completely self destruct n cuts her hair and stops eating, but on the day of the actual deadline she keeps stalling as she zaps from place to place before finally deciding to end how it should end by jumping off a building n she has this heartfelt convo with this imaginary figure thats kept her company all this time

so she makes the journey up this apartment building in this basically abandoned future...chicago, i think? yeah. and you know, is about to do when whaddaya know, a familiar voice is calling out for her. she thinks its just the hallucination but eventually realizes that its actually the doctor, one that knows her, and they have this really heartfelt hug before she punches him square in the face

after the fact is a lot of secret keeping on jenna’s side. she doesnt want to be a burden and just kind of wants things to eventually get back to normal after a period of just resting finally and lies about her time being thrown around the doctors timeline, telling him it was only a few months instead of two years, and hiding the evidence of her self harm and other forms of self destruction to try and get things back to the way they were. the doctor can see through jenna’s bullshit though and over a month of just kind of chilling in the tardis and getting better she eventually tells him and after being pulled into an adventure with alien bees and a prison break and characters very much based off of the captor brothers from homestuck they kind of find their original rhythm

the next adventure was the one where i stopped writing mostly bc the plot absolutely sucked. it was a beach adventure episode, involving aliens and aliens who were mermaids and being stranded on a remote island. also, at the time i was going through a sexuality crisis and decided jenna was gonna go through it too and made her realize she was gay for one of the alien mermaids and totally made out with her. you can see how the plot was failing a bit, and the only thing i dont regret is the whole mermaid makeout thing really. 

the rest of the series from that point on was supposed to go something like this: jenna has to go back to her old high school, except in the dw universe, and finds out she actually doesn’t exist in this universe??? which is weird. the doctor plays teacher and they live in the prop attic of the school investigating a counselor that literally feeds off of emotions until the students are a husk and die. there was going to be a filler where the doctor and jenna start the doctors farewell tour (it is revealed when they finally find each other at the end of the timeline jumping debacle that the doctor has like two years left until silencio happens, with like a hundred years passing between new york n finding jenna) and the doctors mortality is discussed and jenna begins to wonder what happens to her since she isnt at the event or anything going forward, and begins to worry about the prophecy again.

the finale of jenna’s adventures was supposed to go like this: they end up tackling the silence again, only with the help of the cage, after jenna notices the doctor beginning to forget more and more things about her. they get captured and the silence plan to place the doctor in the cage and eradicate him from existence so that the question to be asked never existed to begin with. i hadnt figured out how yet, but basically jenna would finally click everything together and realize it was her destiny to do this, and even had a better chance since it eradicated her from this universe, and she still had a life in another one and could maybe start over and appreciate her family and friends a bit more, and would pull a switcheroo so that she would be put in the cage and slowly eradicated from existence. from that point the silence ship would kind of go haywire from the power being used by the cage and jenna would drag the incapicitated doctor back to the tardis and saying she has to go record something real quick, and then we dont hear from her again.

last scene would be of the doctor, years and years into the future, during one of his alone periods, sifting through the tardis database and happening upon the archived recording files and listening to them, not remembering exactly but living through these events with a person that was there but also never there to begin with, and the last recording being an actual face recording of jenna saying you know, she doesnt regret a minute of it, go out there and have a nice life and dont feel bad for her before saying goodbye and zapping out of existence.

last “scene” i guess would be a fifteen year old jenna, rather than the 18-19 year old we’ve come to know, waking up the day it all started and realizing she accidentally napped through the whole day when her parents wake her up. it seems apparent she doesn’t remember a thing, but her parents say something offhand that wouldve been a prolific line and she has a sense of deja vu and hints towards her someday maybe remembering but also having a chance to live a life without the trauma of her life lead in the other universe

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so uh yeah. idk why i decided to write all of this. actually i do i have an essay i have to write but. idk this fic was a huge part of my life for like. a good amount of time and despite its tackiness im actually very proud of it and just wanted to share its story without having anyone ever have the link to it and read it because despite my careful planning i did narrate like a superwholock for most of it and it was REALLY annoyin. but this fic and the character of jenna actually helped me work through a lot of my own bullshit and im still kind of in love with it. and in the years to come actually m*ffat fucking used these plot points like the tardis hating the companion n the doctor forgetting about a companion like years after i wrote this shit but i think i wrapped up the cracks in the universe n silence thing pretty fucking well so uh. petition for fifteen year old me to rewrite the last half of season 6 i guess. anyway its 2 in the morning and i just wrote honest to god a full 5,000 words about my doctor who oc fanfiction so uh. yeah. fuck.

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If you could live in any fictional world, which would it be and what would be your role in it?                                                                          I suppose I will go with the obvious choice of FFVIII...and as much as I wanna say I would live in Esthar, I think I’d get nauseous every time I had to ride the lifts XD I would likely live somewhere in Galbadia (Winhill? Just so I could cry?) or Trabia, as I friggin love the snow. And I would still be an artist, maybe drawing the monsters and scenery? IDK.

Do you have a favorite flower/plant? Which one?                                I’m not super big on flowers, though I love nature a lot. And even if I had a favorite I likely wouldn’t know the name, lol. I just love nature in general...so all flowers/plants?

If you could go to a concert of your choice, which artist would you want to see?                                                                                              Well I’ve actually been to a lot of concerts, and all of them were Classic Rock. Of those, the top one that I would like to see one day is probably Eric Clapton. Otherwise, I would so love to go to a Final Fantasy concert with Nobuo Uematsu!

What’s your favorite movie from your childhood?                                Tons. I guess I’ll go with my earliest favorite, or at least the earliest I remember. And that’s 101 Dalmations! I was huge on any and all animal movies growing up...still am tbh.

Do you have a favorite Disney character? Why is he/she your favorite?                                                                                            Argh, I gotta pick one?! I-I’m not sure I can actually...there are so many! Can I get back to you on this? XD

Do you have a bucket list?                                                                      Not really? Not a specific one anyway, I mean there are a few things I would like to do in my life eventually but I never actually listed them or anything. Off the top of my head: visit Alaska and see the northern lights, come face to face with some of the big cats...i.e. lions and tigers and snow leopards. There’s more I’m sure but that’s what I can think of right now, lol.

What’s your favorite piece of any movie or video game soundtrack?                                                                                         I’m just gonna say the entirety of the FFVIII soundtrack. Like I love every song on it, and can hardly pick favorites. I mean ‘Man With the Machine Gun’ always deserves it’s own mention cause...Laguna, and I love ‘Liberi Fatali’ and ‘Fisherman’s Horizon’ and well, all of them! And ‘Eyes on Me’ of course gets it’s own mention, especially considering how often it’s made me bawl my eyes out.

Something you want to do this year?                                                   Start actually selling at local fairs with my art, I did one last year but it was so last minute that I didn’t really have anything to actually well...sell. Hopefully I can get some original prints ready and actually do things this year with my art!

Tell me about your favorite OTP! Why do you like them?                    LAGUNA AND RAINE. Always them, they will forever be my top. And as for why? I mean, holy shit. It’s just everything about them. You can see in the cutscene where he proposes and they hug...the looks on their faces and their body language...they are home. They are each other’s home. And their whole story is so goddamned sad. Like the timeline when Laguna was with her is a bit iffy but at max they can’t have had more than 2-3 years together, and 6 months of that includes Laguna’s bedridden recovery in the beginning, not to mention it was still months after that that they even became a couple. And because of fate, and his responsibilities in Esthar (that he didn’t even ask for btw!) Laguna couldn’t even be by her side when she died. And because Winhill was full of assholes that somehow hated this cinnamon roll of a man, they never even told him he had a son! It’s like, even before Raine...look at what happened with Julia, he only had one night with her before fate decided to screw with him. It’s like he is destined to have the worst luck with love and relationships and family. And it sucks because that’s all he ever really wanted, and fate never let him keep it. Every time he found happiness it was ripped away, and yet...he still smiles.

Do you have any OCs? If yes, tell us about one of them!                    Yes I do, though I never really did much with them, or the stories surrounding them. I guess I can do a brief overview of the very first one I came up with...waaaay back in 2007/8 when I was seventeen, lol. Back then I was obsessed with all things Japanese and so at the start his name was Keiji. An ice demon who grew up on his own and hated by his clan after his mother had an affair with a human and was banished (and the human killed btw) I recently changed his name to Reikan (which may be changed again one day, who knows). He has pale blue hair and silver eyes and basically never wears a shirt, pfffft. Hey he’s an ice demon, not like he ever gets cold right?

Tea or coffee?                                                                                          COFFEE! Seriously, I’ve been known to drink a whole pot in one day before. I have two mugs I use, one which, despite being small...well small for me, I use every day because it’s an FFVIII mug. And one that is like HUGE, that I use for when I really need a caffeine fix. Oh, and guess what I’m drinking right at this moment, lol.

Yeah, way too lazy to come up with new questions and to tag...sorry? (Not to mention I did this like 3/4 times on my RP blogs awhile back...lol)