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jasonspezzas · 4 years

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on day seventeen of quarantine please allow me to introduce you all to the love story of freddie andersen and auston matthews

list is very long so it’s going under a cut to save your dash but I promise it’s worth your time

1) THE RITUAL

EVERY

SINGLE

GAME

FOR FOUR FUCKING YEARS.

seriously, i’m not kidding just search online there are literally hundreds of shots and they do it every fucking game.

OH AND SOMETIMES THEY DO SHIT LIKE THIS

and freddie is a sentimental bitch who got the ritual immortalized on his ASG mask

2) THE CONNECTION, OR “WE ENJOY OUR COMPANY”

"I'm a huge homebody so most days I won't leave my apartment, just order food and chill... (Biz brings up Eichel having a personal chef and asks Auston if he has one) yea, me and Freddie have this guy come over sometimes, every once in a while but for the most part we'll go out to dinner a lot or we'll just kinda order stuff or get stuff from the rink." - Auston on the Spittin Chiclets podcast

I don’t remember what podcast but Jack Campbell has also talked about FreddieAndAuston as a unit and how they are always together and have like every meal together.

And further to Auston talking about being a homebody, Freddie is also a well documented homebody, is all I’m saying.

DID SOMEONE SAY DATE NIGHT? speaking of which why don’t we go have a look at what auston’s twitter header is

3) THEIR FAMILIES

definitely not the way a man talks about his in laws. eyes emoji.

follow the likes my dudes

soft sunset california dinners. fredex same day delivery.

SOLO BEACH TRIPS ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME

IT’S ABOUT THE LIKES

THE CHIRPY CHEL FIGHTING LIKE AUSTON CONTROL YOUR FACE

also the way they

the insanely soft way they looked at each other during the now deleted staring contest video side note @ maple leafs if you deleted that for any reason other than you’re gonna give me an even better one i swear to jesus

4) OFFICE ROMANCE

silly boys flirting.

(IT’S CUTER WHEN YOU SEE THE VIDEO)

IT’S FINE, I’M FINE

oh you want them defending each other after tough losses?

“We can’t just fold like that, it’s unacceptable to do that to our starting goalie, the guy that’s stolen games for us, he’s been a brick wall for us all year and I mean that’s just unacceptable on our part. We can’t just fold, we’ve got to play to that last minute because, I mean, that’s just unacceptable, we just left him out to dry.” - Auston, December 3, 2019 Post Game

(of note - auston spent much of this particular game on the bench and many people thought these comments were a partial call out of that decision)

“[Freddie getting pulled] more of a wakeup call for the [other] players. We just left Freddie out to dry. For a guy like him who does so much night in, night out, the opportunities and chances that we were giving them, it's really not fair to him.” - Jan 6, 2020 Post Game

auston getting visibly frustrated and dissociating when a reporter suggests freddie is not stopping enough

the two of them gushing over each other’s performances featuring the dumbest i cant help myself smile of auston’s

THIS LOOK

STOP. I’M ALREADY DEAD.

5) SCOTTSDALE

finally, the quarantine.

we’d all assumed that they were together out of virtue of living in the same apartment building but it’s so much more intimate than that my friends.

in a move reminiscent of the famous jenny slate quote “I want someone to grab my little face and scream ‘ON PURPOSE. ON PURPOSE I AM GOING TO CARE ABOUT YOU.’” the two of them decided to post up together in auston’s scottsdale home, close to his family who fred loves, where they can enjoy their own company in relative peace.

#toronto maple leafs #frederik andersen #auston matthews #freddie andersen #freddie x auston

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sassmill · 7 years

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answer ALL those questions BIH 1-97 or however many there are

Great panini Michelle... every damn time...1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged?Uhhhhhhhh yeah2. You talked to an ex today, correct?Idk I guess technically?3. Have you taken someones virginity?Lmao nope4. Is trust a big issue for you?YEAH WHOO BOY YEAH I have a lot of issues and trust is a huge one5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently?Yes yup I definitely did. She told me I looked pretty and it was the first time I've ever been sure she was flirting with me. 6. What are you excited for?Going back to school holy shit. I've had a countdown going. I move back in at the end of the month. I can't fuckening wait. 7. What happened tonight?I told myself I was going to shower and clean my room but instead I'm sat here watching dan and Phil games videos?8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted?I don't think it's disgusting I just worry for their safety. I'm the mom friend that takes care of the lightweights. 9. Is confidence cute?Hell yeah10. What is the last beverage you had?Brisk iced tea with lemon 11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?I wanna say like three. I don't have an exact count because I've managed to direct my daily life to have very few males and I can only think of three men I regularly interact with. 12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans?Yeah and my fuckin thighs are wearing a HOLE IN THEM which means I need to order a new pair but they're EXPENSIVE and I hate CAPITALISM 13. What are you gonna do Saturday night?That's a good fucking question. I have nothing planned, nothing to do within walking distance, and no license. Probably masturbate in all honesty. 14. What are you going to spend money on next?Well I just spent like $150 on an old navy order today so probably not clothes Oh you know what I need a new bookbag so probably that. IKEA has some good ones. 15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed?The only person I've kissed was for a scene in acting class so no. I had a really elaborate dream the other night where I was kissing my crush but alas also no. 16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months?Oh for sure. 17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?Honestly???? Reese. 18. The last time you felt broken?This is more or less a weekly to daily occurrence but the most intense instance I can recall was Saturday night at my cousin's wedding! Being most likely the only gay person out of a group of 300 people made up of mostly married couples with children was absolutely horrific because as soon as one cousin gets married the aunts start placing bets on who's next and each time I'm closer to the top of the list. Combine that with varied intrusive thoughts and you've got a lovely shitstorm of self loathing!!!19. Have you had sex today?Not ever m'dude20. Are you starting to realize anything?That if I want to be less anxious when shopping for clothing, I need to only shop at places that actually cater to my body type aka I've just accepted that I have a mom body and will always look better in well made and sort of pricey old navy clothes over cheap shitty forever 21 clothes. 21. Are you in a good mood?I'm kind of eh. All I've done today is watch the MSNBC news cycle for hours on end and that was really depressing and anxiety inducing but I've isolated myself in my room for a bit since then and had a nice salami sandwich so I've mellowed. 22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks?Hell yeah. Sharks are nowhere as violent as media portrays them and need to be protected like any other species. Also I went to the aquarium yesterday. 23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s?Yes between my parents I got pretty much all of my father's genetics and it's really funny. 24. What do you want right this second?Someone to cuddle with because I realized when I was staying at a hotel that I literally can't sleep unless I'm holding something and every single night my body pillow is a little bit more pathetic. 25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy?Fuckin jokes on you she's married 26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color?Technically no. I mean I am a natural blonde but currently I am several shades blonder because my natural shade is on the darker end of the blonde spectrum and I'm so pale that I need to lighten and warm it up from time to time so I don't look like a less stylish Addams child. 27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh?That's a hard fuckin pass m828. What was the last thing that made you laugh?I answered this before but I've laughed again since then soS A N D R A29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now?Yes. 30. Does everyone deserve a second chance?Yes, as long as they are actually willing to modify their behavior/habits/what have you. Life is a learning curve. I believe in third chances too, under the same conditions. At some point, however, you have to acknowledge that some people just will not change and it isn't worth the energy you're investing to try and force it. Then it's time to cut bitches off lmao. 31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to?My brother is walking a fine line right now. He's a shit head but I don't hate him. 32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do?I think so. 33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda?Cherry Pepsi flows through my veins. 34. Listening to?I've honestly been listening to the original London cast recording of The Witches of Eastwick the musical on repeat for like a week? That and the original cast recording of Sunset Boulevard. Which reminds me, I downloaded Dangerous Liaisons...35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore?Yeah... do people like... stop writing in pencil at some point? Y'all hate erasers????36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is?Probably somewhere in Pennsylvania where I left her. 37. Do you believe in love at first sight?Maybe chemistry at first sight? I think you have to know a person before you can love them. Chemistry doesn't have to be romantic either, I think it's just a significant reaction. I'm a fan of hate to lover arcs in fiction. Cough cough swan queen. 38. Who did you last call?Probably my brother to tell him to preheat the oven. 39. Who was the last person you danced with?My aunt when she was trying to convince me not to leave the wedding reception even though I was dead on my feet and dissociating so hard I felt like I wasn't in my body40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?Because that's how Phyllis Nagy wrote the script. 41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake?The wedding reception. It didn't have frosting because my brother brought me a fucking cupcake without frosting. 42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today?No43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush?Countless times! I'm strong but clumsy so when she asks me to move things for her it's like a 50/50 chance I'll drop it. She never makes fun of me though. 44. Do you tan in the nude?I don't tan period because I am pasty and extremely at risk for skin cancer *finger guns*45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss?If by take back you mean literally take it back by purchasing the full play to read it 46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night?I usually do47. Who was the last person to call you?Idk probably my dad to tell me to preheat the oven. 48. Do you sing in the shower?Am I even showering if I'm not singing49. Do you dance in the car?I'm generally pretty cramped in most cars so no50. Ever used a bow and arrow?Yes! I'm a pretty decent archer. 51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?Probably my headshots that I got when I was doing my dance photo shoot senior year. 52. Do you think musicals are cheesy?I'm a theatre major what fucking kind of question is this. In this house we respect triple threats. And have a healthy fear of the wrath of patti lupone 53. Is Christmas stressful?Half my family is EXTREMELY Roman Catholic and a quarter is Jewish so if it's not stressful it's definitely complicated 54. Ever eat a pierogi?Fuck yes holy shit we had a cooking unit at camp and they'd make staff lunch and they made pierogies from scratch like dough potatoes and all and I swear I nutted. 55. Favorite type of fruit pie?Lemon meringue. Oh fuck elies mom made such good pie last year. 56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?Forensic examiner! I wanted to do autopsies! Like deadass I wanted to be Doctor Jan Garavaglia from the discovery channel. Also retrospectively definitely had a crush on her. That was when I was in like elementary school though. In middle school I wanted nothing more than to be an Imagineer and design attractions for Disney. 57. Do you believe in ghosts?I'm from New England. Next question. 58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?Yeah holy shit I see stuff from my dreams a lot. 59. Take a vitamin daily?These strawberry flavored fuckers for hair skin and nails they're so good!60. Wear slippers?Not so much at home but at school I practically live in them because our dorm is always disgusting 61. Wear a bath robe?Yes I have a super fluffy long one62. What do you wear to bed?Ideally nothing but I have to wear clothes because my room gets too hot to sleep with the door shut so normally a t shirt and underwear and then I keep shorts or sweatpants by my bed so I can put them on quickly if I have to leave my room. Plus I have a roommate at school so no naked napping there either. 63. First concert?Probably one of the free concerts Eight to the Bar used to do in my mom's hometown64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?Target I'm a loyal Pinterest mom65. Nike or Adidas?Neither. Whatever is on clearance at Kohls. 66. Cheetos Or Fritos?Cheetos. I'm not a fucking heathen. 67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?No. Cashews. 68. Favorite Taylor Swift song?LOVE STORY (The og country version) IS THE REALEST BOP IVE EVER HEARD69. Ever take dance lessons?Hahaha only 16 years of them70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?Something creative. Strongly probably theatre related. 71. Can you curl your tongue?Yeah72. Ever won a spelling bee?No but I performed a song from The 25th Annual Putnam County Spelling Bee73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy?Short answer yes. Long answer: please see my post on Tired Thesbian about Indecent directed by Rebecca Taichman and written by Paula Vogel 74. What is your favorite book?To the Lighthouse by Virginia Woolf75. Do you study better with or without music?With, but it has to be instrumental. I really like film scores; Cracks, The Hours, and the Mildred Pierce miniseries are my favorites. Honorable mention for Carol. 76. Regularly burn incense?Not allowed to. 77. Ever been in love?Yes. 78. Who would you like to see in concert?Fleetwood Mac/Stevie, Celtic Woman, Dolly Parton, Florence + The Machine. That's the non showtune half of my music taste. Isn't it an unsettling combination. 79. What was the last concert you saw?I don't really go to music concerts but I went to the so you think you can dance tour a couple years ago. 80. Hot tea or cold tea?Porque no los dos 81. Tea or coffee?Porque no los dos 82. Favorite type of cookie?I'm a slut for shortbread but that's more of a biscuit soooooo Oreos. 83. Can you swim well?I've never drowned 84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?People can't do that?85. Are you patient?I guess so86. DJ or band, at a wedding?Dj BRUH 87. Ever won a contest?I won a writing contest in eighth grade!88. Ever have plastic surgery?No but I'd love to get some for various reasons. And when it comes down to it, we really shouldn't judge others cosmetic choices be they hair color or plastic surgery. Insert Dolly Parton. 89. Which are better black or green olives?Olives are evil and I was once locked out of my dorm room over this argument90. Opinions on sex before marriage?Holy fuck heterosexual culture is wild isn't it91. Best room for a fireplace?Already answered 92. Do you want to get married?Maybe not married but certainly in a committed long term relationship. To quote Lily Tomlin, I'm not particularly keen on imitating heterosexuals. Holy fuvk that took like a full hour

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vacanpaathy · 4 years

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VERONICA ( XAVIER ) MOORE

GENERAL INFORMATION

Veronica Abigail Moore Nickname: Ronnie, That Bitch Age: verse dependent but usually something like 17-19 Nationality: American Species: Homo Superior Ethnicity: White Physical Disorders / Disabilities etc: None currently / None currently known Mental Disorders / Disabilities etc: Depression, Disassociation ( Depersonalization Disorder ) Religion: None, raised culturally protestant City of birth: Boston, Massachusetts Currently living: Verse dependent Job title: verse dependent, usually just a student Employing company: none/verse dependent Income: monthly allowance from parents that’s really just too much Marital Status: single, coming out of a NIGHTMARISH relationship Language ( s ): English, French Dialect: North Eastern, Super WASPy Birthday: Jan 12 PHYSICAL CHARACTERISTICS

Height: 5′3″ Eyes: Blue Hair: Black/Dark Brown, usually with either a blue ombre or tint of some shade. Skin: Reclusive Nerd Pale, no freckles Style: Reasonably Fashionable, Seems to be contractually obligated to always fucking wear blue. Always. FAMILY

Mother: Jessica Moore ( nee Hall ) Father: Charles Xavier ( estranged ) Step ( ? ) -Father: Robert Moore Brother ( s ) : David Haller ( Half Brother, Older, Father’s Side ), Charles Xavier II ( Half Brother, Younger, Father’s Side )

PERSONALITY / HABITS

Addictions: Alcohol ( verging ), Cigarettes / Vaping ( main ) Bad Habits: lying, ditching, tinkering with people’s heads, being a bitch, zoning out, blowing people off, self harm Good Habits: pretty organized, good with due dates, polite ( situationally ), yoga Hobbies: reading, writing, monologuing, youtube binging, going down intensely weird internet rabbit holes Likes: books, literary analysis, musicals, film crit, horror movies, getting loaded, musicals Dislikes: crowds, people in general usually, suburbia, honestly……Most Things… Strengths: intelligent, unflappable, zero bullshit tolerance, shockingly loving and compassionate when she gets there, strong willed, strong sense of self Weaknesses: apathetic, melancholic, intentionally mean, petty, fairly comfortable with violence and cruelty Fears: her crimes being exposed, her own powers, her apathy, what she might be capable of, her ex-boyfriend Hopes: None….. really…..?

ABILITIES / TRAITS / TALENTS

Education: All the best schools in the area, Goes to like Yale or some shit Intelligence: 9/10 Overall a very bright girl but tends to struggle more with social / emotional settings / topics Naturalist: 3/10 Utter Trash Musical: 7/10 Very Good Logical-mathematical: 9/10 Excellent Existential: 11/10 BETTER THAN SHE’D LIKE Interpersonal: 6/10 somehow despite constantly cheating via telepathy she still sucks shit on this a good amount of the time thanks to dissociation. Bodily-kinesthetic: 8/10 shockingly good for a nerd Linguistic: 8/10 she has a real gift with language Intra-personal: 6/10 she’s very aware of herself and a lot going on with her but also grapples with denial, depression and dissociation that all make it hard to really check herself. Spatial: 10/10 to the point that her control in the Astral Plane is obscene

TELEPATHY: Like her father and older brother, Veronica is an embarrassingly powerful telepath with an exceptional range of effectiveness and capacities. examples of sub-abilities/applications: Telepathic Illusions, Telepathic Cloak, Mind Links, Telepathic Camouflage, Mind Blasts, Mind Control, Mind Possession, Mind Alteration, Causing Amnesia, Psionic Shield, Psionic Blasts, Astral Projection, Mental Detection, Mind Transferal, Absorb Information AREA OF EXPERTISE: Astral/Mental Space Manipulation. Her ability to create, control, and manipulate places, scenes, settings etc in the astral plane or in the minds of herself or others is fairly ironclad considering her age and entirely thanks to how much time she has spent essentially out of her body. She specializes in mazes. While she wouldn’t be able to keep more experienced and/or powerful telepaths trapped in such a space for long– especially once they realize where they are– the fact she can do it at all is pretty impressive.

MENTAL

Self-perception: Extremely poor if she ever genuinely considers herself at all. Generally just thinks she’s a massive asshole since well, did help with committing murders. Assumed external perception: A Mega Bitch Self-Confidence: somehow both 0% and 10000000% at the same time. Rational Or Emotional ? Mostly rational since she’s largely been on autopilot but she’s pretty emotional compared to what people expect from her. Introvert or Extrovert ? Introvert to the extreme Prefer to Give or to Take ? Take, working on being more of a giver. Nice or Rude ? While she’s not like, usually out here trying to be a bitch she’s very blunt most of the time and it can be EXTREMELY rude.

BACKGROUND

WARNING: mentions of depression, suicide, abusive/toxic relationships, murder, unethical uses of telepathy, bullying and disassociation

NOTE: Because I’m well aware of feelings on “related/children of” ocs if that’s something you’re uncomfortable with but would still like to interact with her feel free to mentally replace Xavier with “Some Telepath Guy”. Please just let me know if that’s the route you’re taking when we interact!

TLDR VERSION

► Veronica is the epitome of an unplanned pregnancy ► mother quickly married and passed off Veronica as her husband’s ► once Veronica’s telepathy kicked in it was all downhill ► 2 suicide attempts (12, 14) ► enters full blown disassociation and fucks off to the astral plane ► at least until a hot mutant guy shows up ► fucks up and does a murder with said guy ► tries to make him less fucked up with telepathy ► makes him more fucked up ► reluctantly helps kill at least 2 more people ► kills the bf, hides the evidence mindwipes as needed ► pings on cerebro since she’s been a busy bitch ► ???? ► PANIC

LONGER

Veronica is completely an accident. She’s simply the product of a short lived rebound relationship where something or someone messed up or forgot something and Oops! Pregnant! Jessica never felt any need or desire to inform Charles since and looking out for numero uno just got back with her usual on again-off again boyfriend Robert Moore, got married pronto and passed off Veronica as his, never telling anyone the truth. Her telepathy began to kick in as she grew up and made her life increasingly more difficult, with aloof parents and no way to cope she became fairly withdrawn and extremely depressed. Eventually she impulsively attempted suicide at 12 by overdosing on sleeping pills at a sleepover, she was taken to the hospital and suffered no real damage from it. Terrified however of getting in trouble she didn’t admit to her struggles with her telepathy, depression or feeling out of control but instead claimed she’d just wanted help falling asleep and misread the label, she actively used her telepathy for the first time helping people buy that line. She attempted it again at 14, again very impulsively, by slashing her wrists, not too long after doing that she realized she didn’t actually want to do that and was taken to the hospital again, this time she didn’t lie or use telepathy and actually got treatment. Treatment was only ever so effective since she never admitted to the biggest source ( her telepathy ) and none of it could turn it off. Over the years as her struggles increased her propensity to and the intensity of her disassociation did as well. After her last attempt she basically just completely checked out, using her mental powers to essentially move her mind to the Astral Plane, only keeping enough awareness and such to like, feign normalcy and not be in a coma. It did mute her telepathy significantly but also killed off her personality in the corporal. At 16-17 Jace comes to their school and Veronica is instantly interested because 1. has obvious physical mutations 2. she can’t read his mind well– if at all. The quickly bonded over their mutual mutant status and dislike of school, people etc., but things started to get….red flag-y. She started to see how unhinged and possessive he was not too long before they committed the accidental homicide of her best friend, which she then covered up with her telepathy. Desperate to fix things and not get in trouble Veronica took advantage of a brief chink in his mental defenses and tried to make him less dangerous. Naturally this went horrifically wrong and he became more dangerous – more obsessive about her, more unstable and more bloodthirsty. Before she fully realized how just much she’d fucked up he’d tricked her into committing at least 2 more murders and covering them up. Eventually it came to a head and she ended up killing him and burning his body in the woods, tinkering with minds as needed to keep things quiet. Of course all this large use of mutant powers in a fairly sort period lit up on Cerebero and welp, here we are today.

#VERONICA ❭ META

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