#home chemystery

[whiskyarts]

my half of my art trade with @eryanlainfa!!!!!

it was fun drawing all of them together u3u

#the sillies <3 <3 <3 #airigo #home chemystery #look i used ur tags hehe #my art #zachiedoodles #stuff for people

[eryanlainfa]

I did say I had another one

I don't really have a context tbh. Either they're fleeing from something OR someone insulted Varian who's now trying to prevent a murder from happening- or maybe they saw Andrew-idk

#my art #eryart #vat7k varian #vat7k hugo #vat7k aiden #vat7k oc #tts varian #Tts aiden #tts oc #oc canon #'just a doodle' I say as I draw the cleanest thing I've ever done in months- #Drawing those 3 cost me zero energy. It GIVES ME ENERGY ACTUALLY #Vat7k #Tts #airigo #home chemystery

[sophocused]

uni recap 2019

I think it's really important for young studyblrs still in high school or junior high to be exposed to more detailed and honest uni experience anecdotes, so buckle up because it’s about to get real honest and a little personal in here.

I'm in the middle of the fall term of my second uni year, technically now in the 2nd year of my general B.Sc. and I need to start from the beginning a little bit, especially when it comes to my academic journey so far.

Let's start with junior high, when adults always want to ask what you want to be when you grow up. After going to a career symposium with friends, a field trip run by the school, that's when I heard about the College of Pharmacy at the "top" university of the province.

First thing that attracted me was that they make an annual $100k a year, and to my 14 year old impressionable mind that was convinced that my future had to revolve around making bank, I decided from there that I would work towards the end goal of becoming a pharmacist.

I was convinced that pharmacy was the ultimate goal to get my life going, as a real functioning adult of society.

Fortunately, I was wrong. It was a hard pill to swallow, but a necessary one nonetheless.

Since this is an academic recap, I won't bring up the mental health and physical health bits of the last eight years of my life, I'll fastforward to high school senior year, when I decided I would (as a minimal effort-get straight A's student) actually TRY in my studies again. It was because my work ethic had grown to a point that when I didn't try and still got a B or A, I was scared of the moment I would actually try and then not get an A or A+. I wanted to fight that fear of realizing that I'm not "effortlessly good at thngs" because I didnt want to have a fear of failure.

(Disclaimer: it's been three years since then and I'm still a work in progress when it comes to my relationship with failures but it is getting consistently healthier, despite bumps)

Thus, I started this studyblr three years ago, June 30th 2016 I believe?? My url was chemystery for the first few days but sophocused came up because of sophocles (not that hes my fave philosopher or anything) it just stuck ANYWAY IM GETTING DISTRACTED

So I actually tried in my last year of high school, worked hard and got A's in physics, pre-calculus, and AP chemistry. The AP chemistry came with a provincial exam, that in getting a score of 4, granted me a $150 reward, and the grade of a B in two university courses (2 chem prerequisites)

I was a fool and no one exactly explained to me that those 2 courses were even harder when taught through uni, because I really wasted nearly $1000 in taking those two courses again in my first year of uni, in hopes of turning them into A's.

I should probably mention that going into uni, the pharmacy program had 2 chem, 2 bio, 1 calc, 1 written course, and 2 electives, as prerequisites. My innocent mind, thinking it wouldn't be a big deal, registered for a full five and five course load, so that I could finish all my prerequisites within my first year of uni, and apply for the college of pharmacy by March. (Back then, it was still a Bachelor's program where selection process depended on your AGPA, and your mark on a written critical skills essay)

I learned the hard way that for university, it is a mentally and emotionally laborious task to try and juggle five classes, having to hold yourself accountable when it comes to attendance and figuring out what notes you want to take. There's no way to write physical hand-written notes for five courses (not for me anyway).

It was incredibly fast-paced as well, and I had many days where I just didn't want to get out of bed. I was so conflicted with my perfectionist mindset, and the pressure to get a 4.0 GPA that I spread myself so thin and honestly it was one of the most difficult years of my life. I still got out with 8 B's and 2 A's by the end of my first year. I was ashamed of those B's.

When it came to applying for pharmacy however, despite the grades I got, my GPA didn't make it to the minimum 3.50 needed to be applicable for pharmacy, but I got my transcript a month after I had already applied for pharmacy and I had even done the written exam.

I had to face my first big failure which was getting the email that they couldnt even look over or consider my application because my GPA did not reach the minimum required.

On top of that, I learned that I could not just simply try again the next year. This was because suddenly, the university decided they were going to change the Bachelors pharmacy program into a PharmD. A doctorate. To me, that meant they added eight more prerequisites (even more difficult uni courses with chem and human phys), and a required PCAT score. We also were not allowed to apply until Fall 2020. That meant, I now suddenly had no plan for my academic career for the next two years because I had really only ever thought about getting into pharmacy on the first try.

After a breakdown or two last year upon processing this, I had made the decision and talked to my parents about trying for it again, and doing the new prerequisites. This brought in the new mental turmoil of money on my mind during my summer after first year of uni, thousands of dollars this would cost, suddenly having no routine for four months after working at max brain capacity for 6 months.

My 2nd year of uni, fall 2018, a lot of growing had happened, a lot of processing of failure happened, just. a lot. happened.

October 2018, I got a job at a school, so I really juggled my school stuff with work. Five days a week, I would be up at 6-7am and then get home around 6:30pm, while doing human physiology, organic chemistry 1, an eastern religions elective, and an intro to statistics course.

long story short, yes I must spare you the details of the process of it all because it got pretty sad. That was my worst uni term, ending with 1 B, 1 C+, 1 C, and an F in organic chem.

My first F in university. My first F ever in my entire school life. It was a begrudging blow at my mental state, and I spent two to three weeks devastated. I dont know how I got out of it, I think one day I just said to myself, "Okay you got an F, but did you die?"

Honestly, the humour in that really cheered me up, among other things, and the emotional support I got from my older sister, and by the time I got into the 2nd half of my uni year (right now), I have discovered I potentially have a calling to become a teacher or to work in the lab as a technician.

Most importantly, most if not all of the credits I've earned, are also applicable to get into the Faculty of Education. Basically, I came to peace with having options, and digging deep into myself to really find the thing that I could really see myself doing based on my personality and interests, not just on the money and the rush of finishing school.

I just finished the longest midterm season of winter 2019, with my first midterm being early February and my last midterm + essay deadline on March 15th... I did well. I did well in trying to really take care of myself while trying to go to every class and trying to work hard as much as I could everyday. I think out of my many midterms, I got 1 A, 4 B's, and a C. These are all salvageable. I do still really want to keep working towards a 4.5 GPA but now I'm okay if that doesnt always turn out to be what I get.

Anyway I finally get to write something like this because I've been busy for the past month, a lot of things happened again in the midst of it all, but I'm still okay. I get a week to rest before my lab exam and then it's finals season.

This time, I'll try hard not to just let my life pass me by, with only ever school and academics in mind, I had gotten really sad these past few weeks, and I'm usually good at being my own antidote for that, but I really got to a point where I felt I had no strength to pick myself back up.

Last night I said "fuck it" and decided to go to my cousin's house who I hadn't seen in over a month to spend time with them instead of working on my 30% essay due midnight. Before I was so desperate to finish it, terrified of the 2% deduction per day it would be late, but after crying on the bus, I had had enough of letting my academics bring this much weight on my mental health. After spending four hours with my cousins and aunt, I came home to my mom, and I watched a two hour movie with her.

I didn't regret it one bit. I felt better than I had in a long, long while.

Now, this Friday, my grandma and other cousin are flying in, and I cant wait to just keep healing.

Thank you for reading, or scanning over, I hope you got something good out of this, as I am telling this story both for my sake, and for other students’ who might commonly find themselves in the same boat. I believe in you.

#nina rambles #march 17 2019 #happy st. patrick's day #studyblr #studyblr tips #uni studyblr #university stories #university ramble #uni student #uni diaries #college struggles #uni struggles

[eryanlainfa]

Hands 💕

#being consistant and on model is SO HARD why 😭 #i LIED when I said I did hand headcanons for no purpose. this was the purpose actually. #its not just random hands it THEIR HANDS fjfkdkdkd dies #forgot to put any scars on Aiden but they have their frostbite- unsure if it would be this visible still... but oh well #eryart #airigo #Vat7k hugo #Vat7k varian #Vat7k aiden #Vat7k oc #oc x canon #Vat7k #home chemystery

[eryanlainfa]

One day I'll finish this drawing... I'm so normal about them

#I'm working on revenges for artfight I swear but my brain keeps on coming back to them 😭 #It's not even finished because I am not allowing myself to line it til I finish my other drawings.... #So instead I've been staring at it for days WHICH IS WORST OH GOD #Vat7k #Oc x canon #Their clothes are still so random I should redo them #Do you...do you think their different enough from originals so I could post them on artifight ...??? #Lmao no I'm not obsessed. I am so normal. So very normal. Talk to me about how normal I am about them. #vat7k varian #vat7k hugo #vat7k aiden #my art #eryart #This one gets full tags cuz I want people to stare at it like I do #But actually don't stare too much or you'll see all the flaws- so nevermind #airigo #home chemystery

[eryanlainfa]

@zachdanielswhisky I heard ya, he's finally getting a bath

#Eryart #Doodles #Stinky boi #Monster au #He probs should love bathes but the idea of rabid dog who hates water is funnier #Let's say he lost the habit of looking proper after a year being locked up or something #He spends half of the au nakey at this point- #Vat7k hugo #Vat7k varian #Vat7k oc #Vat7k aiden #Vat7k #airigo #home chemystery

[eryanlainfa]

I have no context except that I wanted to try to give them colors-

#Eryart #Vat7k oc #Monster au #Tw stitches #Tw scars #Tw open wounds #Tw undead #Tw nudity #I didn't know what clothes to give them and wanted to see their skin anyway- #Oc #Vat7k varian #Vat7k aiden #Vat7k hugo #Vamparian #Hugo is just really pathetic lmao i'm sorry #airigo #home chemystery

[eryanlainfa]

They bring me so much joy. Genderfluids supporting each others uwu

With my TTS Oc Aiden and my Frozen Oc Amelia (they're cousins)

#Eryart #my art #Tts oc #Tts varian #vat7k hugo #vat7k varian #Aiden #Amelia #Eugene #Rapunzel #Tts aiden #Vat7k aiden #airigo #home chemystery

[eryanlainfa]

Save me airigo... Airigo. Airigo save me-

#i need this printed on my wall rn #when I say Var is 80% of the time the one in the middle I am not lying lmaoooo #oc x canon #airigo #home chemystery #eryanbles

[eryanlainfa]

Airigo version because they have been rotting inside my brain for at least 3 years now apparently?????

#i couldnt find anything for january february and december- so you get a piece from the past years #this year was definetly the year I drew them MOST #love how there is absolutely no progress in their design 😭 I really need to sit down and do those ref sheets fr- #eryanbles #eryart #art summary #art summary 2023 #oc x canon #airigo #home chemystery #i do have drawings of them for december but they arent all 3 TOGETHER and I really wanted to only put pieces with the THREE of them #Vat7k

[eryanlainfa]

Is it weird to be kinda into being manhandled by your nemesis/rival and his childhood friend as they call you out on your dubious nickname choices-

#Kicking my feet giggling hehehehehe they make me ill (positive) 💕 #my art #eryart #It's the end of the day and they're all tired #(context : Hugo gives nicknames to the whole group. You probs know Goggles and Hairstripe for Varian‚ for Aiden it's Hobble and Hairtie) #vat7k #vat7k varian #vat7k hugo #vat7k oc #vat7k aiden #Oc x canon #My storyboarder brain can feel the camera movement lmao- it's a whole ass animation in my head #Aiden and Varian standing up for each others ❤️ #Ot3 #Polyship #airigo #home chemystery

[eryanlainfa]

Reason why wearing lipstick is prohibited for them now-

#my art #eryart #Technically they can wear lipstick but it means no kisses and no one wants that #Oc x canon #Tts oc #Vat7k oc #Tts aiden #Tts varian #Vat7k hugo #Vat7k Varian #Vat7k aiden #I draw them so inconsistantly nowadays sighs #Random doodles #Vat7k #Tts #airigo #home chemystery

[eryanlainfa]

If they're not busy on a project Varian and Hugo wake up early to get ready nicely. Aiden just wakes up 10minutes before they have to go to work no matter what.

#my art #eryart #doodle #vat7k oc #Tts oc #Vat7k hugo #vat7k varian #Might clean up the second panel at some point because they're cute #Just in case I guess #varigo #Tts aiden #Oc & canon #Tts varian #Vat7k aiden #airigo #home chemystery

[eryanlainfa]

As an apology for the terrible outfit I made him wear, here is a fancy dressed up Hugo. And some random doodles of the vat7k party's reaction (counting my OC)

#eryart #my art #Aiden will always be there. They're the only thing keeping me going at the moment #vat7k hugo #nuru vat7k #yong vat7k #vat7k oc #Tts oc #Hugo and Aiden both inspire each others #Tts aiden #Tts varian #Vat7k aiden #airigo #home chemystery

[eryanlainfa]

Screenshot redraw ! Sort of ? (but I got lazy during the background haha)

The Tangled series did not give me my throuple so I made it myself, using Vat7k and my OC shamelessly. And I'm having lots of fun ! I guess in this one instead of starting their journey they are finally going back home.

#my art #eryart #screenshot redraw #Vat7k #Tts oc #vat7k oc #Aiden #oc x canon #throuple #vat7k varian #vat7k hugo #Tts Varian #Tts aiden #Vat7k aiden #airigo #home chemystery

[eryanlainfa]

Aiden my beloved 💕

They're definetly my favorite OC and I'm way too self indulgent when it comes to them

#my art #eryart #doodle #Aiden #Tangled oc #vat7k oc #Selfinsert #Selfshipping #Oc x canon #Tts oc #Tts aiden #Vat7k aiden #airigo #home chemystery