#huge trauma dump

[sophiethewitch1]

in my hater era

#sophie speaks #tw vent #like. what. what??? #i do try not to upset anyone with trauma dumping or whatever but sometimes that bites me in the ass because people assume I'm not strugglin #struggling hugely #had one of my most violent meltdowns ever recently and it was after pushing myself to do something #and you know. thats on me #but saying like #im NOT trying?? #i dont want to start any problems but oh my GOD what do you think being sick constantly does to a person #what??? #trying to be a proper adult here but i am quite upset #idk how are you supposed to deal with shit like this #express this has upset you and that you are having a hard time #but then they dont believe you?? #trauma dump it is. hope you enjoy my psychiatrists notes #like im level 2 support needs autistic. i need a little fucking leeway or i genuinely try to kill myself #i KNOW its pathetic i KNOW its weak but my number one priority is keep myself alive #im so tired #ive been suicidal for like 7 years now #my life sucks so incredibly hard and I'm in constant pain and that just #it doesnt make me willing to deal with this shit #cripplepunk core lmao #cripple and im going to kill you #this is just geniunely upsetting #i feel like i need a good cry #i really am so tired #i feel like i just dont want to do this #why am i paying for this? why am i doing this? #if im not enjoying this why the fuck would i do it

[sillverstreets]

summy/remu • follow only if followed first

[c0konk]

Louie, face down on the floor:

The sign next to him: “I am not dead, just tired and ugly. PLEASE JUST LET ME SLEEP!!”

#ducktales #ducktales incorrect quotes #incorrect quotes #llewellyn duck #louie duck #ducktales louie #louie ducktales #nooooo not ugly >:( #i want to draw this now #guys #i can’t stop thinking about this one thing #it’s the llamas with hats thing #but with louie and huey or dewey in the p37_l universe #like I mentioned in that one off diversion fic that lou basically ate a celebrity #and i was thinking that dewey would’ve been a huge fan of her #so i just imagine louie monotonously telling dewey that he fucking a t e her #after everything with fowl is said and done and loose ends are being tied up #dewey’s just gonna stare at him like ‘ayo the fuck’ #those last three chapters are literally just going to be louie trauma dumping on everyone whether they want to hear it or not

[transvampireboyfriend]

diary entry

that last post reminded me, during that week of hell when i was taking a break from here, i told my best friend from high school what happened.

i told him that when it was happening i was spiralling because i felt so lonely and he very sternly said "i don't wanna hear about something like this happening again without you telling me about it" and telling him what happened helped tremendously to get a new perspective and then when i went to therapy we got to focus on what i achieved, patterns i wasn't recognizing and my plan for the future, since the whole emotional response to the thing was outta the way.

Therapy is not for you to shove down your feelings or put a lid on your crises and only let them out during the sessions. Therapy is for you to get resources that'll help you deal with those feelings and crises as they happen.

And one of those resources is a support system! Having people to reach out to, who will be there when you need to cry or rant or scream about what's hapenning is healthy! It's great actually! Those same people might be there also when you need to laugh and bitch and be offensive and an awful hater for a bit just because. That way you won't be insufferable online, but that's another post.

Point is, you need friends. Real ones that will listen to you "trauma dump".

As a person who used to cringe at "connection is part of human nature" because i thought i was the only person in human history to not need friends or family, i can tell you with certainty: you need other people. thats hard to hear, but you do. and if you don't have people in your life who you can rely on like this, look for new people if you can. i promise the ones that will be there for you are out there.

#also i think a huge part of this sort of attitude is people not knowing what to do when someone else ''trauma dumps'' and so they avoid #doing it themselves but then. that's just a lack of boundaries. you can set limits and enforce them without completely disconnecting from #everyone else. #it can be so hard. like pulling fucking teeth but it can be done. #a lot of this discourse also misses taht therapy doesn't work for everyone. there are other ways to learn about mental health #also there's no magic in therapy. just techniques and resources. and those can be shared #diary entry #.

[the-moogle-of-your-nightmares]

[alarming health stuff, internalized ableism cw]

no, moogle, it is not in fact fishing for sympathy or making excuses for dropping the ball on things or whatever to talk about it when your health issues continue to get worse. you are not scaring people for attention when you post on your personal blog about the fact that you aren't sure yet whether your current condition might be 'dangerous but recoverable' or 'irreversible, incurable, and usually fatal.' stop that.

#moogletalks #negative cw #depressing shit cw #medical issues cw #it does not help that people close to me have been deeply careless and cruel before about treating me as an afterthought #when at serious risk and using me as their primary support #the feelings of the person at risk largely take precedence #but sometimes people use that as a blank check to inflict maximum unnecessary trauma on other people because I'm the One Suffering #see: adult who is suffering immensely and genuinely and is at the end of their rope and needs an outlet #and decides the nearest child to hand is acceptable; and proceeds to dump all their problems on them and traumatize them for life #among a huge range of other examples #and it's frustrating bc it's a hard balance to strike between 'centering myself in your suffering when you're the one going through it' #and 'hey please remember that i am also a person capable of suffering and trauma; and that that matters' #anyway yeah i've had people do this to me in various ways before and i hate the idea of doing it to other people #and that makes navigating internalized ableism re: my mental and physical health issues really hard #few things will internalize shit as deeply as 'someone harmed me in ways adjacent to what i'm dealing with now' #'and i don't want to do to other people what they did to me'

[crabs-but-better]

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#forgive me for trauma dumping but i feel the need to put this somewhere (tw suicide ment) #i’m getting back into drawing and it’s a huge milestone for me because i stopped about two and a half years ago due to the fact that i was #actively considering suicide (i actually almost attempted) and nothing really made any sense or brought me any sort of joy so i just stoppe #doing anything. and i’ve been well for quite a while but never well enough to pick up my old hobbies until now. so like. huge yay #recently i’ve been knitting and drawing and writing. three things that actually make me happy like real happy not just quick happy #i’m so proud of myself for coming this far. i love where i am #personal #posts from midnight

[aanemos]

do i really need ... verse ... page ... i’m just a silly lizard girly

#i been thinking. #heavensward was HUGE trauma for ganshu since wasn't safe place at all. everytime: i'm in danger (chuckles) vibe #but was a special time for bonding with alphy and tataru ... #but def palpaymo's death left a huge impact on her :( #yda/lyse and palpaymo was her first scion's friends... yda/lyse was her first crush! #idek i'm verse dumping here. without control omg #but: ARR ganshu she is just so lively! and then: sad. angry. revenge. #stormblood ganshu: i guess. i'll die but i will take down this fucking empire. with me. #now that i'm in shadowbringers i don't exactly know the vibe: probably b like: leave my fucking friends alone. i'm so tired :( #ooc. tbt.

[cherry-shipping]

goddamn i gotta figure out what the hell my horrortale self insert does in the underground. i know everything about their life before that and HOW they get there but i have no idea what the fuck they do once theyre actually DOWN there

also i ran out of tags im saying this here as an addition so you know why they just sorta end abruptly. lol. everyone say thank you to my habit of talking in the tags cause i dont want people to see the shit i say

#cherry chats #i wrote down all their rich lore i dont think i ever posted it and i doubt i ever will #not cause i dont wanna in fact its the opposite but itd basically be a huge trauma dump and theres not a person on earth whod wana hear that #and i also wouldnt wanna subject anyone to that cause its not really their problem lol #not that i mind talking about it or whatever. but still itd put whoever this theoretical person im tellin it to in an uncomfortable position #so eh ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ bottom line is evil shit hospital -> escapes and is chased up the mountain -> jumps down a big hole lawl #but anyway i have no idea what the fuck they do once theyre down there #i mightve said this already but theyre really resilient towards the conditions down there? theyve never eaten real food and they dont feel #hunger (arfid yo 👍) so if you tried to give them proper food theyd be like. i dont know what to do with this ? #and theyre used to the cold cause of how shit that goddamn hospital was so even when theyre going through snowdin barefoot theyre like. #ok this is fine ^_^ #theyre also used to physical pain and also theyre on 800 different messed up meds so if they get hurt that hardly bothers them #its like. a numb sort of pain. like the phantom pains you get when you get injured or killed in a dream #they also think sans is really funny even when he tries to get under their skin with morbid humor #their whole existence is basically morbid so theyre just like hehehe ^_^ your funny #BUT NONE OF THAT EXPLAINS WHAT THE HELL THEY DO IN THE UNDERGROUND!!!!!!!!! #i guess for starters theres no way theyd ever wanna go BACK to the surface so jot that down #i guess. maybe since they wouldnt have access to the medication and drugs theyre always on theyd change? #i think theyd go from a foggy detached empty dissociative state to being actually AWARE for once #after theyve been there for a little while maybe theyd even start. brace yourselves. FEEL things #like uh. emotions. and stuff like that #so instead of an empty miserable shell theyd be able to experience excitement or curiosity. or the human emotion called friendship #do they……… live with sans and papyrus? thatd make the most sense i guess #also thats the only place theyd be safe from being eaten alive lol #i guess they could live with toriel? maybe they go back to the ruins after theyve escaped #but then they couldnt hang out with sans and papyrus as much. and thats lame #maybe they live with the skelebros under the guise of being some sort of weird. pet or something #ummm. nah……. thats weird #ok so i guess i dont know what the hell my self insert does in the underground only how they change when they grt there. whatever #its not like im a WRITER. i dont know all this stuff what do you thinj i am omniscient????

[czarrish]

i really like the therapist character on ted lasso which makes it rough for me because i hate the entire plotline between her and ted from a professional standpoint because oh my god personal/professional boundaries between therapists and patients exist for a reason

#if my therapist left me a voicemail calling my problems bullshit i would kms #and if i just called up my therapist's cell phone and dumped HUGE personal trauma on her off the clock with no warning! THAT WOULD BE BAD #unsafe dynamics! #i just truly can't deal with these kinds of plots #i really wish they'd brought this same character in just as a team therapist and had ted go to a colleague of hers #tv: ted lasso

[curlyhairedprince]

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#after like 5? years i have just been faced with the guy i kinda had a thing with back in 2015 and who caused me to pull away from #a huge part of my friend group #which in retrospective was a blessing cause they were all dumbasses #but he really truly fucked me over and broke my heart lmao #and fucking imagine my shock of me walking out of my parents' house and running right into his arms #cause apparently he's fixing something for my brother? #which is fucking ironic #and my mom is like oh he's such a nice boy he is so talented there's nothing he cant do #imagine me standing there like 🧍🏻nobody knows he touched me when i was drunk and definitely didnt give permission lmao #sorry for trauma dumping but i am SO caught off guard #not that i thought i'd never seen him again but like at a random wednesday evening in my parents garden? #no fucking thanks

[sillverstreets]

me jumping from Sonakshi to Sirius genderfluid who?

#summy #they/them #follow only if followed first #possibly a huge amount of trauma dump ahead

[avpdvoidspace]

Having a traumatic childhood means you cannot talk even objectively about your basic foundational experiences without it being "venting", even if you're not actually venting. You just straight up have a huge chunk of your life you can't talk about, full stop, without it being trauma dumping.

And it not being socially acceptable to talk about your own childhood is super alienating. Sometimes people want to know why, and any answer you can give them is going to be off putting.

It's to the point I get irritated when something I said is framed as venting when I'm literally just talking about my life experiences, doing my best to keep emotion out of it.

[aheeheemwhimper]

negative emotions will not hurt you. they are proof that you are alive, survived, and can thrive

#hiiiiio sorry to trauma dump but i just realized literally all of my anxiety stems from being heavily punished whenever i felt a bad emotion #like. im scared of being sad or angry or embarrassed or lonely or fuck even bored i was punished for acting out of boredom too #so what may cause a negative emotion just causes a shit ton of anxiety instead bc i lacked the emotional intelligence to feel anything else #whoag #like in some ways i feels dumb bc duh thats obvious and it's been in front of my face for 20 years but also like #thats huge. it is such a solveable problem.

[mcwhytubers]

I both love and hate windy days because it reminds me of when I could fly and that I no longer can :(

#system shenanigans #sausage talks #Angel sausage specifically #it’s also freezing cold out now #I used to be able to wrap my wings around me like a huge blanket #it was especially cozy because I had three pairs of wings #one of which Scott stole when he killed me :D #anyways that’s enough unintentional trauma dumping lol

[coolishcorvidcryptid]

it sucks being the hated child..

#especially when it is based on birth order #like your sibling is a huge piece of shit who uses everyone and is still the favorite #and you are the most mild mannered person who has to walk on eggshells all the time #and there isnt really anything you can do to make them love you but you have to watch them love this practically supervillian of a person #trauma dump #sorry #crow caws

[mrfoox]

Bro I'm... I cant understand people and their actions/line of thought again

#miranda talking shit #As usual really its nothing new. I think its bc i wonder too much about WHY people say stuff to me #But yeah... I was being uh... Emotional about something stupid. Aka i showed Fabian an embarrassing side of me and i was scared #About that/what he'd think of it. And oliver sat and told me over and over that hed probably not think anything of it and its fine #And i know that at an logical level but not... Emotionally? My brain knows but my feelings dont idk #So he basically startrd to suddenly trauma dump on me out of nowhere. And explained how he had abandonment issues and especially concerning #His mom... And then after telling me everything he basically went... Yeah i told you to make you think about something else #And im here like... Bro? Really ??? You shared your deepest secret with me who you stated you basically dont discuss with anyone #Just to make ME think about something else? It sounded bizarre /: he shared a lot more concerning it too with details and stuff and i #He obviously seemed... Anxious about telling me. Bc of how he talked and then after telling me everything he asked me many times what i #Thought. And I'm ... Yoh told me you got trust issues and huge abandonment issues about women in your life and you shared this with me a #Woman .... I... Thats big man. Idk hwo I'll be able to express how i appriciated hin trusting me with that... #He didnt have to. He had no reason to do that? He shared something so personal with me and i just want to express love and appreciation #And support ): like idk how I'll be able to do that... I guess he can just claim he was tired of me crying and moaning about my thing #But even that he could have told me anything else to take my mind of that. Yeah idk im spinning