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i am So bored so i guess i will expose myself as “not a cjshipper but not NOT a cjshipper tbh” anyway i will send you more music

https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLuYLhuXt4HrRFeV7wSFL-1LRMtj5353pq&si=xH73KXa9wHS_C4Yu KIJETESUMIKYOKU MY BELOVED

https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLuYLhuXt4HrRIt7XTnyygXomDqlW3xPFK&si=GUDQMCzy0apcWb5d ryuupekosi also my beloved!!!!!!

what was i saying oh right GO LISTEN TO JAN USAWI’S MUSIC RN AND GO TO BANDCAMP AND LISTEN TO ALL OF TOKI GAMING RIGHT NOW AND ALSO 8 (LUKA TU WAN)

https://youtu.be/-ILcH66zGcY this also

i can’t think of anything else i’ve been listening to lately besides maybe jreg and that would give you another thing to put on your dni, centricide fans /this is a JOKE

random song that i usually don’t listen to things in the type of: https://youtu.be/6xr_nVyNMMY

frums is based and other such good qualities: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=OLAK5uy_mu9g_dVsgBz6d8vuWCsyPai59U8XeD8BM&si=buAGe2-pHnKEKm-E

while we r here go listen to dead but dreaming and sisyphus by vivivivivi (5 vi’s)

strobe light: https://youtu.be/7sKs7INaEoA?si=OTjLWaQx5CHtJ3Ws

finally, kulupu jan tenpo: https://youtu.be/fWHZz7ZCXqw?si=43agffZaBd0QvuSr

(i sent you the playlists to all of the songs in kijetesumikyoku n ryuupekosi but they r medleys by jan Misali so, also jan Misali’s other covers and stuff are good and i like their video essays)

(i was about to say like “i could send you ilo tenpo pi sin ala aka time machine reprise in toki pona” but i might as well just do it so: https://youtu.be/gl3W8-IwETc)

(i would send you anachronism but i have looked into myself and found the answer that that would be unnecessary self promotion so letter which has no negative or positive connotations + have a good day + i can send you a post with resources on toki pona + don’t die and other such)

on the cj shipper thing i do not really care to be honest if youre not weird about it / mention it and such its just a personal ick and i dont associate oyu with cj shipping anyways so i wouldnt have known i thought it was you as i dont rememrb anyone else who was associated with toki pona i wasnt going to reac h out to you tho becasue i dont rememebr your user + uhuhuhuuhuhuhuh yea! i cannot interact with other users without lookign like a freak i have negative feelings about you from something but i do not remember what! so i think that is probably in the past anyways onto the music tthese are not usually my genre of music but they are calming adn soothing and i like that the miku one is more up my alley because i am a vocaloid fan but on the side of faster paced music mostly because i cannot listen to slower music without getting bored the music is still good though and there is a lot of it and i will try to listen to it all in the span of a few months. or days ull never know i think this was obvious by the fact i enjoy artists like chonny jash , will wood , and other thingfs in that category (although i understand that their music has variety i enjoy songs like uhhh TME TSE THA rather than say NMTK and SaaST or. CCCC over CiD,, hm ill just link some things under the keep reading as a sample of music taste to not make this post any longer thjan it already is 😭😭😭 *) (edit : nvm theres not even a keep reading itll just be there ig) i think i have listened to vivivivivi's & lamp's music before!!!! i have enjoyed both so far but vivivivivi's more somehwat because of the pixel esque style of music (whihc might not be true for all of the songs they produxce but i am not a huge fan i am a norma;l enjoyer. somewhat) lamp i know is swomewhat in the calming / slow music section ^_^ alos not a huge fan because ive only listened to like one or two songs sooo i do not know toki pona which i think makes up a lotof this post / ask so it would bne great if oyu did send me a post about toki pona 👍 overall summary : music not my usual taste, does not mean they are bad, they are awesome anywasys, will try to listen to all of it when i can also self promotion is okay gimme em have a good day also and also do not die because that would be horrible o7 edit 2 : nvm we jammin edit 3 : you shouldve shared the vocaloid related ones with me first i wouldve been so hooked these are so good

* i do not have a playlist for these so bear withj me

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most / all of everything is a lot also SELF-iSH i prefer those over uhhh icimi (in case i make it) and TNA (the normal album) i m not sure what else to put here. throws these at you (you dont have to listen to these btw)

#mind's eye collective asks #maiu #long post #sorry for taking so long to answer btw!!!#i typ ea lot #— 🌗

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meshlasolus · 2 years

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Who Are You Really (6)

Andrew Garfield!Peter Parker x Reader

A/n: gonna wrap this series up soon and work on my din djarin one, but feel free to send in requests bc I usually just write those in my spare time.

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Warnings: ⚠️major no way home spoilers⚠️ angst, kissing.... near death

You'd helped rig the cures along the scaffolding outside of the Statue of Liberty, waiting for Peter to call the daily bugle. You'd given Peter a number that would go directly to J Jonah Jameson, and given that you were now fired, you were not at all afraid of the repercussions.

"So, you're the one taking shots for the bugle?" The oldest Peter commented. He was quite curious about all the differences in this universe from his own and even the other Peter’s.

"Well.... I did," you scoffed, squating down to stretch your feet. You weren't a super person like they were, and your feet did have limits when it came to jumping off of things. "As of this morning I am newly unemployed."

"Ouch," they said in unison, causing you to smile.

"I was the best photographer in this city, too. I wonder how they'll ever replace me."

"So humble," your Peter was laughing like a little school boy. You loved the sound, it made you happy. Seeing him light up at his own joke, his smile was blinding.

"I do my best."

Your English classmate hopped down onto the platform you'd all been standing on, grabbing the cure he wanted to place on top of the crown. He was done making his call, so from there the last thing was to wait on the horribles, as you'd started calling them.

You stood up and walked past both Peters, ready to get to higher ground. This was a fight you weren't ready for, and you knew it, but you couldn't pull back now. You'd come too far to give up. You'd help them defeat the villains, or die trying.

"Where you going?"

You turned around, and big brown eyes followed after you with concern.

"If Obi Wan Kenobi taught me anything, it's that I need to get to higher ground when fighting."

You told it as a joke, it was meant to be funny. He didn't seem too happy about it and stood in your way from leaving.

"It's really dangerous. You could get hurt," he said, his tall and broad body acting like a blocking unit between you and the ramp to the next level.

"I know the risks, I wanted to help, remember?"

He seemed to be silenced for a moment, and you thought that perhaps you'd made your point and he was backing down. You turned your back to him again and kept walking. You heard him sigh,

"The risk is death."

You stopped, frozen in your tracks.

He's lost people before, you understsnd why he's sensitive to it... you just didn't know he cared that much about your well being. The other Peter's were happy to have the added help on the side, but he was adamant about your participation.

"I dragged you into this," he said, walking up behind you and turning you around to face him. He was close to you, and you didn't expect him to let his hand linger by your waist for so long, but it did. "If I got you killed I would-"

"What am I supposed to do? I refuse to sit on the sidelines when my help is needed. I've done that for too long now."

You weren't angry at him, but somehwat confused. He was a contradiction in and of himself, keeping you along for the ride then sending you away at a moments notice for danger. If you were going to be apart of this, you wanted all in. Wanted to do your best to help him and the others to accomplish their cause.

"Ned and MJ still need protection," he suggested, nodding his head to the open portal to the school classroom. It was evident they didn't need to be protected. Ned was apparently gifted with magical abilities... you had nothing but a fancy suit and a mean right hook.

You looked at him in an annoyed fashion, and he knew the depths of your stubbornness would not budge on your case. He had learned so much about you in only a day and a half, and knew that you were the type to stand your ground, even if everyone was telling you to fall.

"Please, for me?" He wouldn't explain it to you if he didn't have to. He wondered if you would even be comfortable knowing about his fascination towards you. You might be repulsed to know that he was looking at you in an otherly way besides friendship.

When you'd been working at the generator station in the lab, the older Peter had a few words with him about his love life.

'I wouldn't give up if I were you.' He took it to heart.

You didn't know if it was the enchanting glint in his eyes, or the way his softer tone melted your solid stance, but you found yourself in a lucid trance, easily going along with his idea.

"Okay," you said dimly, turning back around again and heading for the edge of the platform. "Could you drop me a line?"

You'd used your extra cable to repell from the school dome earlier in the night, having no way to get down except for a line of webbing.

He grabbed your hand, turning it over before shooting some webbing on the lower part of your wrist. You smiled at him, then gave a salute before dramaticly falling backwards. He chuckled lightly as he lowered you to the level beneath him.

You used your claws to cut the line, then approached the orange gateway of magic sparkles.

"Hey guys, looks like I'm sitting this one out," you slumped into the room, finding a chair to reside on in the meantime. MJ was very observant, and you knew it. Everyone knew it. She had been watching all the happenings of today with great intrigue. You especially.

"Do you like Peter?" She came up to you, standing very calmly and speaking like it wasn't a hard question to answer. Was she out of her mind?

"What? No, MJ I would never do that to you," you freaked out, eyes widened.

"Not my Peter, that one."

You followed her hand, seeing where her fingertip lead your eyes. Tall, broad, and beautiful. He was so athleticly built, you could even tell his form from far away.

"Oh."

"Do you deny it?"

You scoffed. There were bigger things happening right now. He wasn't even from your universe. You didn't need to be thinking about anything else right now.

"He's from a different world, and I'm probably never going to see him again after today."

"So you don't deny it, you just avoid the true answer which is yes," she spelled it out perfectly. You wanted to be able to feel those things for him, and maybe even have those feelings returned for you, but if there was the slightest chance he reciprocated, it was still impossible. He couldn't stay here.

"I'm trying not to make this hard for myself," you tagged back. If you'd admitted to anything out loud, that would make it real, and you couldn't just have those words floating around, especially when it would inevitably lead to certain sadness. "Expect disappointment, and you will never be disappointed."

She seemed to be annoyed, having her own words quoted back to her while being used to make a point against her argument.

"It would be kinda romantic though," Ned popped in from the corner. You snapped your head over, and he was looking at you both with a reflective stare. "Star crossed lovers from different universes."

"Thanks, Ned."

The sarcasm must have shot right over his head, because he smiled and nodded in return.

"You're welcome. You know my mom says I'm really wise."

You laughed at that one. You hadn't really talked to Ned outside of physics, but you knew he was a fun kid to be around. Very optimistic, too.

After waiting a while longer, the sky had brightened with lightning, and sand swept through the darkness. You stood to your feet, watching everything start unfolding before your eyes.

"Might be time to close this up, Ned."

He started circling his hands, but the portal did not close. You watched him struggle, and when nothing happened, both you and MJ started chiming in. He was getting angsty, which wasn't helping the cause, but the portal wasn't getting any smaller on it's own.

"It's okay, just focus."

He closed his eyes and tried again, but to no avail for the millionth time.

"Maybe try doing it the other way," you suggested, mimicking his movements in the other direction.

He tried it, and again there were no changes. The fight outside was getting dangerously close to you guys, and with MJ keeping the multiversal box in her hands, it made you all vulnerable.

As soon as Dr. Conners caught whiff of the portal, he wasted no time in jumping down on your level, and running towards you all.

"Get that thing out of here," you shoved MJ forward, along with Ned. You all ran into the classroom, making an attempt at escaping. You heard the clanging of desks and other equipment, turning around and seeing that there wasn't any time. You lagged behind the others just a little to give them a delay. The lizard made a swipe in your direction, landing one nasty hit against the side of your stomach before you dropped down to dodge it's colossal arms. MJ's Peter came to the rescue just in time, making a diversion long enough for you all to get out onto the scaffolding structure. You all ran like hell, but there were still dangers lurking at every corner. You would have been fine on your own, but now there were MJ and Ned to account for. They were your friends. You couldn't just leave them to get hurt.

Ned tried to spin another portal, but when he did, Dr. Strange was waiting to greet the three of you. He looked pissed off as far as you could tell, but with him now here, you could leave them in his capable hands.... or so you thought. You ran to the nearest ramp, getting onto the next level. The three Spidermen had been curing villains left and right, but when the Goblin joined in, all bets were off. The Peter of your world wanted nothing more than to kill him, and he had the right to feel that way, but it would be in vain to destroy the thing he swore to fix. Aunt May would want him to keep doing the right thing.

Doctor Strange was ready to send them all away, perfectly fine with leaving Osborn to die in his respective universe... but the goblin had other plans. He'd wedged a bomb inside of the box, and it went off within seconds. You'd fallen down to a lower level, seeing the boards begin to break beneath MJ's feet. She looked down and around at the crackiling noises, unsure of where to move. You sprinted in her direction, knocking her out of the way before the platform broke, sending you into a free fall.

It all happened so fast, and yet in slow motion. You reached out for literally anything to prevent the surely fatal fall from continuing, but nothing was there to hold onto. MJ's Peter had seen what happened, and jumped after you, unable to let anyone else he knew die tonight. He held his hand out, and nearly made contact with you, but the goblin's glider took him straight out of your path.

You were going to die. Your life, counting down from just seconds. It was all going to end. Tick, tick, tick...

You closed your eyes, feeling the ground get closer and closer... but you never hit the concrete.

Long arms engulfed you, holding you close and not budging where they kept close your body. You didn't even have to open your eyes to know who it was.

You clung tightly to him, your heart still beasting out of your chest, your rapid breathing unable to even itself.

He strung a web to a beam, reaching the ground with you safely in his arms. He didn't put you down right away, struggling to believe what just happened himself.

"Are you okay?" He asked, looking you over for any immediate injuries. There weren't any as far as he could see.

"Yeah..." you trailed, watching his eyes tear up as he surely thought of his Gwen. The one who fell too fast. He bit his lip to try and keep himself from crying, but it was a useless effort. "Are you okay?"

He took a second to breath out, and then nodded with a slight smile. He did it. He didn't make the same mistake as last time. He placed a gentle hand at your face, looking over every inch to make sure you were absolutely okay.

"I caught you," he spoke in a whisper, more for himself than for you. You leamed into his touch and nodded. You were getting misty eyed for his sake, too.

"You caught me."

An eruption of the sky above you took away the moment too soon, but you could thank him later. There was still one more cure that needed to be administered.

You ran to see where Ned and MJ were, while Peter swung away to go help the others.

You found them on the ground, looking at you like they'd seen a ghost. They run over with terror on their faces. You'd not known them very well until this day, but You'd be safe to say that after this, you would have some good friends by your side. They rushed up to you in a hug, the tight squeezing making you realize that the Lizard took a deeper stab at you than you originally thought.

"What happened? We saw you fall and then-"

"He caught me."

They were both quiet, coming to their own conclusions about what you just said. 'He' could have been anyone.... but you referred to him so simply. Of course they knew who you were talking about. MJ smiled with a raised eyebrow, which quickly turned into a wide smirk.

You rolled your eyes and shoved passed them both, on your way over to see if they needed your help. Unlikely, but still. You ran over to the fallen shield, hopping down once you saw the hurt Spider-Man.

You were relieved to find out he was okay, but he'd still been injured pretty badly.

"It's okay, I've been stabbed before," he muttered out between breaths. You hadn't known what went down, but you figured it was probably nasty.

"Oh good, good."

You helped him get comfortable where he laid, just enough until Dr. Strange could fix this whole mess and send everyone home.... wait. You weren't ready for them all to be sent home, not yet.

The sky was opening above your heads, the multiversal dimensions were splitting and causing a cosmic rip in the space time continuum. You would be freaked out over it if your mind hadn't been plagued with the fact that your Peter was going back... leaving forever.

The Peter from your universe swung down quickly, bringing what everyone else thought was great news.

"It looks like you guys are about to go home," he said, saying his last goodbyes to the brothers he never had. They were happy to help, it what's they do. It hurt the eldest Spider-Man a little too much, given that he was still stabbed, but the hug they all embraced was touching.

As quick as he came to deliver the news, he left, swinging off to who knows where. All you knew was that your time was limited, and you didn't want to waste any of it.

"Peter?"

Both of them turned their heads in your direction, but you only made eye contact with one. He looked back at you with the same expression, seeing as you took the last few steps between you both. With no space left between you and all the unspent adrenaline running through your veins, you reached behind his neck and pulled him towards you, giving to him the first kiss you ever gave anyone.

It was clumsy and it was rushed, but he treasured it like it was the last one he'd ever receive. His hands held you close like when he caught you, not wanting to let go.

"If I hold on tight enough I'll take you with me," he muttered when you both broke apart.

"That's not how it works," you shook your head, resting it against his as you could feel the air change. Something was happening.

He held onto you anyway, trying to see if you could be wrong.

"I won't forget you," you promised, and before he could answer you, he slipped through your fingers, disappearing into thin air along with all the others that weren't from this world.

For you, this story would end like it started. All alone.

"I won't forget you."

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Also calm down and don't be mad at me, there's another chapter coming

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