#i didnt take my meds today

[pinkjacket110]

she dont know NOTJIN. not a goddamn clue what the economic state of the world is rn. i cannot cope abt how cute the tiny ones are i am gonn fuckin cry

#stick bug #phasmid #phasmatodea #entomology #bug #insect #bugs #extatosoma tiaratum #spiny stick insect #prickly stick insect #i didnt take my meds today

[tea-drops]

Had THE worst ageslide this morning, accompanied with sensory issues with my clothes so bad that it was definetly an age thing. Normally fine with the clothes i wore this morning. Thankfully Ivory was there to help me get bigger and im back to roughly 16-17 right now. That was 6 hours ago that happened though.

Been working on DND stuffs for my friend groups sessions and have had THE best worldbuilding done as ive had little to no real work to do at college today. Which is great as ive finally been able to concerntrait on the bits that would annoy me usually.

#-theo #we should update here more. it is our little system diary in a way #plus its useful as hell #for time remembering and time loss #yknow #wough #i didnt take my meds today #forgot again #so. yeah #gonna place an order for some more now #nvm i dont remember the name of our meds #mann #gonna think more on the worldstuffs ig

[totallynotagaywitch]

being neurodivergent is the best and worst thing

like, i can create entire worlds in my mind, with government and landscape and history, and i do so whenever i’m bored. gods gaze down and weep at my power. but all of it is just futile attempts to escape the confines of this world

#i didnt take my meds today

[moeblob]

Hello, can i have a modern sylvain pls??? PS: i love how you draw scrimblos

Finally another Wheel Spin and thankfully modern equals I get to draw someone with fish somewhere on their outfit. (Overlay layer my friend how I missed you)

#fe three houses #sylvain jose gautier #also shout out to literally everyone yesterday who backed me up and supported me on making sure i wasnt in pain #regardless of how others told me to take pain meds cause hoo boy #i do feel better today without the pressure of being a disappointment by taking care of pain as need be #esp since im making sure to not overuse it - like im still obeying the times in between the doses and not doing more than allowed #and so yeehaw managed to speed run sylvain aka it took 25 minutes and i know this bc i set a timer for 30mins #just to make sure i didnt overdo it from aiming to please too hard while still recovering #truly wheel rng and desktop timers my beloved #they really help me lmao................. i .... need the motivation to start too so setting a timer makes me have to start #instead of putting it off and off by scrolling here or staring at a blank canvas pondering nothing

[healingheartdogs]

I have made a grave error, a horrible, awful, truly terrible mistake.

(I have POTS and I stood up from my seat at a normal speed and stretched.)

#pots #potsie #the real mistake was actually choosing to take my beta blockers a few hours late #because I REALLY REALLY wanted to enjoy some grapefruit juice with my meal when i woke up #sometimes sacrifices must be made for the sake of satisfying your tastebuds #in case you didnt know grapefruit deactivates MOST meds #so you shouldnt consume it after taking your meds for the day #and if you have grapefruit before your meds you need to wait a couple hours after until you take your meds #unfortunately grapefruit is one of my favorite foods and my absolute favorite fruit juice so choices were made today lol #also if you're like me and have ADHD then similar rules apply with vitamin C in general #dont consume vitamin c within a few hours before or after taking your ADHD meds or they won't work

[peridyke]

fat butch friday baybee......

#the dyke in question #do you like my funny green cargo pants i got them at the thrift store yesterday #ive been cleaning today and i didnt even need to take adhd meds (they wont give them to me) (angry)

[creekfiend]

My doctor finally prescribed me some stimulants and its been a chaos circus trying to juggle taking those for Alertness and Executive Function and then taking the various cbd/weed tinctures for pain and BEING ABLE TO FUCKIN SLEEP and also FOR BEING ABLE TO EAT ANYTHING

Cannot believe some people's bodies just do stuff like "make them eat food" or "go to sleep at certain times" or "NOT CONSTANTLY BE IN PAIN FOR NO REASON"

#sick #anyway i didnt eat before taking my meds today and then the stimulant crash hit me and i became #IMMEDIATELY AND INTENSELY SUICIDAL in the span of like 20 mins #so uh guess im not going to be making that mistake again. hopefully. #fml

[riggedbones]

ohhh i didnt take my meds this morning. checks out

#lucky.pdf #last time i thought i didnt take my meds in the morning i actually DID and it was embarrassing realizing that. today im like sure i didnt #take them tho. they are still there. it is tuesday and the tuestday morning box is full

[listen-to-the-inner-walrus]

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#just saw someone suggesting that ''everything being a disorder today'' stems from wanting a scientific explanation as to why theyre #different from everyone else and that desire itself stems at least partly from neoliberalism and individualism and wanting to be special #and buying into the facades of neoliberalism #and i get what theyre trying to say #but #my guy #your explanation was in context of things like chronic pain disorders and d/Deafness and autism and allergies #which most definitely do not stem from that. like i would still be autistic and still have chronic pain if i was not in a neoliberal society #neoliberal ideals are not the cause of my functional neurological disorder #neoliberalism isnt causing my peripheral nervous system to not work properly #i understand the argument youre trying to make and it definitely applies in some cases #but do not come into disabled spaces sprouting that shite #you know why i seeked a diagnosis for my chronic pain issues? because different chronic pain disorders can be treated differently #theres no point giving ne anti inflammatory meds for my fibromyalgia #and actually i do need the meds i take for my fnd because they reduce my nerve pain enough for me to function as a person #i didnt want a name for it so i could certify that i was an individual and not like everyone else #i wanted a name for it because i was in pain and i was suffering and i wanted medical treatment for it and i wanted an explanation as to why #i was in pain all the damn time

[glass-clown]

ik whenever i reblog jerma stuff that usually means i didnt take my meds but i swear i did today

#clown yells into the void #i just remembered he existed so i wanted to see posts of him #i did take my meds i prommy #i didnt yesterday bc i slept all day BUT i did today like a good boy :]

[jihyolesbian]

had to reset my sobriety tracker back to 0 today gravely upsetting moment for me

#i know recovery isnt linear but still fuckkvkkvkkgkfkfkf #was sober for like 35 days and i really didnt wanr to break the streak and then i just did it #and then the app sent me my nightly notification asking about my progress for the day and i was like fuck i have to reset it or else this is #all for nothing 🙁 so upset but it’s been so hard lately #gonna take double dose of my sleeping meds bc i cant be awake anymore today

[moeblob]

You know, when I kept getting asked "so you didn't ever have severe pains before now?" in the hospital and I kept replying "I have a high pain tolerance" I meant it. However, there is only so much pain my tiny 4'9" body can hold... (aka I am sweating and in agony bc I'm getting told to use LESS severe pain meds so I don't rely on them too much and it is AWFUL)

#moe talks a lot #i was shaking earlier and despite the fact i sound like im gonna cry #and the fact that my mom can pick out im about to cry from pain bc im trying to take less pain meds #LIKE MY MOM IS INSTRUCTING ME TO DO #shes like well why arent you taking any pain meds #BECAUSE THERE ARE TWO AVAILABLE OPTIONS AND ON A SIX HOUR TIMER #i cant take both at once or else what happens to me if i hurt before the six hours is up #i have to manage them in a way that allows me to benefit from both and being told im doing it wrong #after being told well its your fault it got so bad because you never complained about pain before #YEAH NO JOKE? REALLY? I NEVER DID? because everyone acts like im too young to feel that kinda pain #oh youre hurting? just wait until youre older #and its currently agony to breathe again but that i guess is also my fault bc im trying to use pain meds #holy moly i just want to not get dizzy standing up cause wow dang #sure would be nice if the multiple incisions in my stomach didnt THROB every time i sneezed or coughed or cleared my throat #but since i didnt use much pain meds before because i would be mocked for being too much of a baby its like #welp damn now i could really use some and im being called out for being too reliant #anyway time to sleep more because that means im not noticing my pain #im literally smaller than most children and so i do understand my body size makes people worried about the medication intake #but can i please just go a day without being asked how much im taking or when i last took it or if im gonna cry #anyway sorry for the excessive rant today never really had surgery or anything so this is brand spankin new suffering

[sucktacular]

FRIENDLY REMINDER: TAKE YOUR MEDS!!!! FRIENDLY REMINDER: DRINK WATER!!!!

FRIENDLY REMINDER: HAVE SOMETHING TO EAT EVEN IF IT'S JUST A LIL SNACKIE!!!

FRIENDLY REMINDER: I LOVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT AND YOU DESERVE GOOD THINGS!!! YOU DESERVE TO ENJOY HUMANITY!!! YOU DESERVE TO FEEL GOOD!!!

#sucktacular sucks #not looking for ppl to reblog just didnt wanna go try to find a post like this lol #anyway TAKE YOUR MEDS DRINK WATER AND MAKE SURE YOU HAVE A FOOD #fed is best you can have anything youd like at all as long as you eat :) <3 #only got chips? well its a food! #only got bread? well its a food! #only wanna make french fries or a single chicken strip? its worth the time!! #theres no rules on food just eat something (well besides like dietary restrictions) #i love you you deserve to eat you desereve to enjoy taste you fucking deserve to live like an ancient powerful figure #luxurious in tastes and flavors and experiences #yes even you reader you DESERVE THE PLEASURES OF HUMANITY!!!!!!!! #food mention #that being said i love you no matter what please be kind to yourself #kissing all my disabled friends and holding your hand (if youd like) today while you do things or just relax #friendly reminder that relaxing is NOT MORALLY BAD!!! #friendly reminder that YOU DESREVE TO REST YOUR BODY NO MATTER WHAT!!! #friendly reminder that FOOD HAS NO MORALITY!!!! i love you and i just want you to be okay. okay?

[clownkiwi]

itd be really funny if i held a homestuck related stream like RIGHT after the homestuck day rather than on it

#rubys clown thoughts #ive been so silent all day altho thats just because my brains been kindof running on fart mode since like noon earlier #i didnt get much sleep last night because i didnt have meds to take #but i will also never mention homestuck on homestuck day. just as a fun lil challenge for myself #and i think i did pretty good today!!!

[bright-and-burning]

guaranteed to win my work march madness group (i already have more points than everyone else's maximum possible) we shoulda put money on this bitch

#currently in second in college group #i love when 5 minutes of random choice goes well for me #sorry i feel like ive been mega posting today . my brain feels like i didnt take my meds but i did so???

[kohakhearts]

actually as i was typing out that tag i think it hit me that what i really want to write is something like. science-y. quantum physicist au, i dont know. fuck or die but instead of fuck its solving triple integrals. something like that. ENTIRELY tangential to this but i was talking about this on twitter the other day and now im thinking about it again - you know everyone is always on that "ash is sooo stupid" shit but that kid is fucking CRAZY good at math and im kind of mad that its one of those things that is chalked up to Anime Physics because it really isn't something other characters do nearly as much as he does like 90% of his Epic League and Gym Battles are where he did something to fundamentally alter the field to his advantage OR used the set-up of the field and the properties of optics and momentum to physics the shit out of his opponent. i need to go back and find those episodes so i can like, mathematically analyze what he did because what the HELL, dude, this is SUCH an underrated aspect of his character that in the anime is just handwaved as "unique and creative thinking" which is TRUE i guess but its also like, PHYSICS. MAN.

#taylor.txt #and SORRY for being all over the place but as i mentioned i didnt take my meds today and its showing #anyway i think i gave myself a fic idea (not even a little bit related to that tangent) so i'll see where that takes me #i might use it for one of the whumptober prompts...if i can make it work