#i dont wanna deal with her anymore

[stupidrant]

i think the most we will get is PC release (if that) this year but that means we gotta deal with those trolls bc changing angrb0da’s skin color is such a big deal to these mfs and i still dont understand that sweet baby inc shit bcuz all the information im seeing is just bundled bullshit LMFAOOO i feel like her actual character gets overshadowed by the made up problems and no one actually talks abt HER as a character or even analyses her fr (outside of here ofc) lol sms abt to make a banger with her and atreus istg

#Truth be told i dont even wanna talk abt this anymore but this topic gets brought up pretty much every week atp #How weird is it that u would only accept her if she were white #Thats literally you admitting you like her character but her being black is a deal breaker #I feel like no matter how much they want her to be a white girl changing her skin wouldnt change their opinion abt her #Theres this one (big) acct in particular thats constantly shitting on rag and its like bro u need to just leave if ur not happy #or take a long ass break and come back at times and then leave again cuz hes just miserable as fuck and yall know exactly who im talking ab #I do see more people getting annoyed with this topic and i dont blame them #its getting super out of hand and dragged out atp #Once again i do not want ppl to like her out of PITY. she deserves a very honest group of fans and if those fans are ppl #That disliked her at first but started to like her later on thats fine as long as its out of being genuine #I cannot wait for her to gain more fans fr but i have to be careful what i wish for bcuz i dont want ppl to become too crazy lol #I might just post smth on that god forsaken reddit as an appreciation post of her or smth idk yet LMFAOOO #I for sure will have to be more brave and visible with my love for her one of these days #also very grateful for that one ragnarok vp. he loves angie for sure #Anyways #Love angie for life #Gow #god of war ragnarok #rant

[thetimelordbatgirl]

I fucking love how I can do anything my mom asks, but as soon as I say no to one thing, all the shit I've already done disappears because she acts like I'm lazy and don't do anything to help her...all because I said no to one thing.

#just i've been doing shit for her so far #and shes been leaving me alone to do my fic notes #but as soon as i dont wanna go to town with her #suddenly all the shit i've done disappeared #like she knows dad is fine with going to town still with her when he gets back from work #but she tries to guilt me anyway with helping her due to her knee and helping out my dad so he doesnt have to go town #and even says if your nan knew and just #yeah??? let her hit the fucking roof then #i dont fucking care anymore #my mental health is drained when it comes to dealing with my nan alone #and i can easily just avoid seeing her #also fucking funny to blame dad for snitching on me to nan when every time i've seen it happen it was my mom who snitched not him

[dreamcast-official]

huh.

#eli.txt #idk i think ive been slowly forgiving my sister for how deeply hurt i felt when she moved out bc now I Get It. like I Get It #when she moved out i was. 9. and in my head i thought she had left because of me. because i wasnt the easiest kid in the world and i know- #-she had a hard time dealing with me when we were alone. we're so far apart in age we couldnt connect for most of my life. and in my head #that was the reason she left home. bc of me. bc she was tired of *me.* #i know now thats not true. and i understand now why she had to leave because if she felt the way im feeling then goddamn im glad she got ou #this feeling SUCKS. nd like #yeah this probably has to do with my father's daughter and the fact that she refused to even meet me until our dad died. #it took my dad dying for my sister to even be in the same room as me. that really messed with me as a kid. like it REALLY did. #so when my sister left home i just kinda went. oh okay neither of my sisters want anything to do with me! i will be alone forever! got it! #AND I KNOW NOW THATS NOT TRUE ON EITHER OF THEIR ENDS. I DONT HAVE A GOOD RELATIONSHIP W MY DADS DAUGHTER AND I PROBABLY NEVER WILL #BUT I DONT HOLD ANYTHING AGAINST HER ANYMORE BC GOD HER MOTHER WAS AWFUL AND I GET WHY SHE DIDNT WANT TO MEET ME BC OF EVERYTHING #BUT LIKE. THAT MESSED ME UP AND I JUST STRAIGHT UP ASSUMED BOTH MY SISTERS HATED ME FOR SO LONG. #AND NOW THAT I ALSO FEEL LIKE I NEED TO LEAVE I CAN SEE SO CLEARLY. MY SISTER NEVER HATED ME I WAS NEVER THE REASON SHE LEFT. #I CAN LET GO OF HOW HURT I FELT BECAUSE I ALSO NEED TO LEAVE #god i dont wanna hurt my mom though. #dont think i could leave her completely alone in this apartment. i dont think i can do that. #anyway. hi tumblr did you like todays oversharing episode

[neonsbian]

i dont wanna go thro this week can i just skip to saturday pls

#im having so much anxiety abt this diwali event ik im gonna be miserable the entire 2 hrs im there #and then having to deal w holiday season at work.... #luckily i dont work at like a real cafe but its still not fun luv </3 #my motivation for surviving this week was going to the club but i dont even have that anymore 😭 #i also need to remind my boss abt working full time #apparently her boss is like creating a new job for me specifically and im like cool...when is it gonna happen? #dont rlly wanna work full time but at the same time i need to move out my dad is testing my patience so bad these days #vinnie talks

[tilions]

It's not even Christmas Eve yet and I really just wanna go as far away from my family as possible again

#just had to listen to my mom rant on about appreciation and gratitude and how little she receives from my dad #whike she never even appreciates and shows gratitude towards him whenever he does something nice or considerate #like ma'am gleiches für gleiches #also lile she made me feel bad for not doing atuff in the household today while a) i dont live here anymore #and b) was in the middle of doing her and my nieces household chores #while also dealing with a massive headache and caring for our sick cat #i just wanna go back to my small apartment twt #rambling #personal stuff

[daimaoryu]

let me tell u a story about how in the 5th grade, us 10/11 year olds were involved in so much drama and i was somehow at the center of it......... the entire school knew about it. it was weird as fuck.

#tl;dr i had a crush on the same guy as my friend #this guy and i were also friends and he apparently had a crush on me too #and my friend did NOT like that #she would try to one up me all the time it was so weird. even though this guy didnt have any interest in her whatsoever #and i was even like DUDE its okay i dont like him anymore JUST so she would chill out. but she DIDNT bc HE liked ME #and that did NOT go well with her #and she made such a huge deal out of something Very small and made me side with her even though even i knew she was in the wrong #and that she was trying to drive a wedge between me and this guy #even the TEACHERS were like. why are you two fighting?!?! bc me and this guy used to be inseperable #it was. sooo wild #all HIS friends were also like LULU PLEASE JUST TALK TO HIM #but i didnt because i didnt wanna betray my friends trust even though she made me go through literal hell #OVER A BOY #and all this time i was still an introvert. i was still shy. i still hated being the center of attention. etc etc #it was genuinely HELL for me #it literally made me so fucking depressed like that was what pushed me over the edge in the 6th grade #like in the 6th grade it was so obvious i was extremely depressed #insanity.

[ineloquent-creature]

love when i feel a physical emotion & it literally makes me not breathe thank u god cool

#i want march over i am done w march #someone tell my therapist i need her #thas abt it i keep having the worst night of my life and everything i try to do to fix it does not work #if i had an able body it literally wouldnt be a problem #no autism? no problem #i j dont wanna deal w it anymore #esp when everyone else doesnt get it #i see everyone make mistakes but when i do it its a literal shot @ my character & ppls ability to ‘trust’ me #can i just be a better person already god #text #delete later #mine #internalized ableism

[29121996]

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#ea i need to cut her off talking abt all these issues wont be enough i dont think. #like . i . yea fuck this shit #take some time to be single for fucksake . give back to yourself and get to know who u are and grow some selflove #like ok . do whatever u want but i do not wanna see it ! and atp u dont even talk to me anyway :) so cutting u ofg doesnt matter does it ? #everytging she does just irritates me theress no fixing this i dont think. i dont evwn want to . im tired of watching the same shit happen #and her repeat the same bullshit. like . im not doing this. #this liyerally all stemmed bc she mafe my issues abt her and it cracked the rose coliured glasses i had abt her #like Fully. and she can be such a terrible fucking friend anf its not something i wanna deal with anymore #nor do i wanna fix bc i know hiw she is abd how . sensitive she is to criticism or whatevet the fuck #n i kinda #dont care if i come off like an asshole bc like . im not ur best friend clesrlu #u just have attachment issues and like yhat im there . #projection? possibly but also not rlly . #i have attachmwnt issues but i dont just like her bc shes there and codependnt unlike her #which i know for a fact is how she functions. i just wish i could block her and not saying anything but no i owe her a basic explanation. #or whatever. #i still havent opened the message she sent me and idont rlly want to. i just . #like im still upset abt it. i didnt realise how . deep That incident had burroqed under my skin tbh.

[deathsdaisy]

Vent about mother.

Me *looking for things to sew, a hobby I adore but don't always have time for*

Mom *barges into my house (not room, house) and asked if I want to go do something I have routinely said no to and have stated that it causes me pain*

Me: no

Mom: why do you always say no to me, you're so mean to me

Me *fed up of this*: because you always ask to walk, which hurts, then you say only a small walk, then push and push and push the fucking goal post, making me feel like shit, and then I'm in pain all day after

Mom: fine sheesh you don't have to [the rest is mumbles as she storms out]

Me *lost all motivation to do the things I wanted to and no longer want food*

#heyyyy what if moms actually listened to you #you think that would be insane #''I never see you in pain. therefore you never are'' #yeah no. nuh uh. not how that works. i dont TELL YOU because YOU act like im hurting you pay saying it #now I have to deal with the aftermath of this bull shit #i just wanna lay down #i want to sleep for three years #i dont want to fucking do this anymore #and i cant say any of this to my irl friends because i dont talk to them about any of this #they batly know the surface stuff #and thats only for emergencies aka i faint or my back seizes up #they see my mom. someone who apologizes when they did wrong. someone who suports what i want (ti an extent). someone who listens #in comparison i have it easy. i cant complain about a mom who doesn't believe in medicine despite having a disabled daughter #not like shes ever used that word. and ill never use it infront of her cuz that will be a huge fight #they dont see the ever present anger #they dont see the heavy drinking. even if its just from thursday to Saturday. i still have all of those fight lodged in my head #the axe never remembers. but the tree never forgets

[dykecastiels]

sigh

#i dont know. i do love him #i would be around him all the time if it wasn't for my stepmother #i did really like her. she just never liked me #me moving out didn't even get him to examine the relationship. #i dont know #im just so sad all the time now i guess #i miss him and im in pain all the time and im literally shitting blood u know. #and i miss my friends. a whole lot. #i dont even wanna write about this anymore. im going to bed i cant deal with this

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#ay ay ay. i dont wanna do my job so bad. it makes me so unhappy also i fucked up a thing by letting someone take part of a culture when i #shouldnt have. it happened so many months ago that i fucking forgot abt it and then the person emailed me abt when we received the stain and #i thought it was someone from another project so i cc'd my boss who was like. wait. what the fuck is this? and now its like oops sorry but #like wtf am i supposed to do abt it now? she askrd me to take some when i was rushing out of someone else's lab and i was like what? sure. #whatever i dont give a fuck i feel like im dying every second i stand in this room. i didnt even think to ask to share it which is what i #should have done. oops. cant do anything abt it now other than feel abt abt causing drama between labs. ugh. #i just wanna cut all ties with my old work. theres no joy there. only pain and anger. which makes it hard to work with it but the sooner i #do. the sooner i dont have to fucking deal with it anymore. ugh. also i really need to find a therapist but my insurance changes in like 18 #days so i might as well wait for the semester to start. ugh. like i can feel the pull of my bad habits trying to drag me down and i dont kno #how to stop them. like its weird. i noticed while my parents were here. they can just do things and enjoy stuff. and everytime i do #something i feel like im holding my breath the entrie time waiting for it to be over and for what? its not like i had other stuff to do #i just needed to kno when things were gonna end and i dont deal well with flexible situations. which makes it hard to do things. so its #like do i succumb to my control freak lil bubble of not doing anything and being miserable or do things outside my comfort zone and be #miserable? one of those things is way easier. plus i dont even kno anyone here so its like wtf do i do? #try to make friends with my sometimes roommate maybe. i just need to corner her and be like hey i need to establish a dialog with u so i can #tell u that if i seem like a weird hermit im not trying to b standoffish i just dont kno how to do human interaction well. can we b friends? #id like to b friends but if i dont talk now then ill get stuck not talking ever. which is whats happened with past roommates... god my 1st #roommate must have thought i was so fucking weird. ugh. point is. these bad habits must stop. and i really need to get work done so i can #never think abt that shit ever again. at least now that ive moved i can run up the side of a mountain when im frustrated #unrelated

[figments-of-nightmares]

i do not have the energy to be friends with my current irl friends, but i am in no position to unfriend them

#fae's thoughts #and like. i feel like a shit person #but omfgs they frustrate me #i have only one who i actually like and im barely ever gonna see her from now #and its just. #i hate my social life #and yeah. its probably selfinflicted. #but i have nothing in common with them #and they are not nice to me!! #like they use me and they never think of me when makingplans and like #idk #just dont wanna deal with crap anymore im so drained #but if i unfriend them then i will lose the one i like #ughhhh

[agp]

i cant believe ive fallen into a game of "no YOU didnt read what i said YOUrE tme and are making a fool of yourself" with someone claiming to be a trans woman on the internet speaking on high authority on transmisogyny and being weirdly defending of terfs the whole time. im so Tired

#like i suspected her first but i havent started claiming shes a sockpuppet #stop acting like such a cornered sockpuppet dipshit #anyone mutuals with this idiot and wanna clear this up or? #i blocked her because i dont want to deal with her directly anymore

[whisp3roftheheart]

Sometimes I hate that my friend group is so close knit because whenever I'm having issues with one person there is never any real escape from them. At least no meaningful one because no matter what things will always circle back to them and I'll be forced to interact.

#eden speaks #im going to pride tomorrow with my best friend and im so worried my ex is gonna be pissed i didnt invite her since we've all gone together #for the past few years #like i shouldn't care this much but this stresses me out so much #i just wanna hang out with my friend honestly it has nothing to do with my ex at the end of the day #im just really really worried shes gonna make it about her if she finds out we went #im also REALLY stressed shes gonna be there and we're gonna come across her out of nowhere and ill have to explain why i didnt invite her #i have all of these made up problems in my head that arent even problems yet but i stress over them #i just wanna hang out with my best friend. every time i hang out with my ex i feel like im hanging out with the equivalent of a soggy piece #piece of paper. shes just a downer!! and it makes me feel like shit every time we interact #and i dont like how things left off last time i hung out with her :// i was stressed and she asked to kiss me and i said a firm no #i feel like im stuck in highschool im 22 fucking years old!! i never dealt with this shit in highschool #i dont want to deal with this shit now. i think my issue is is that i dont know how to be mean #or im too scared to be mean #i wish she would ghost me tbh or tell me she cant handle talking anymore #because dealing with the aftermath of everything is exhausting especially when i feel like i have to tiptoe around her feelings #shes always upset at me because apparently i look like i got over shit too quickly and that doesnt make any sense?? i can easily fake that #this shit probably makes no sense anymore im just so ready for it all to be over #im gonna have fun with my best friend at pride tomorrow. im gonna smoke some weed beforehand. we're gonna have a great time #even if my ex IS there. its not my job to cater to her feelings. its not my job. #i could say so much more because theres so much fucked context but im gonna refrain before im here all night l #delete later

[smol-tired-binch-blog]

I do kinda hope we get a sequel, it’d be nice to be able to talk about Lorabetta again

#smol has a vent #this aint as bad as my other vents but it's still a bit melancholy to go in my normal 'speaks' or fandom tag #cause like i dont wanna make out like 'oh the attentions not on ME im LEAVING this fandom' cause im not. but like. #it's one of my only fandoms ive ever truly been In. i made friends from it. i developed OCs for it. discussed the lore and game with others. #i was INTO it and made one of my favourite OCs ever. and people actually wanted to know about her!!! #people asked me about her!!! we made our OCs interact!!! thats not happened before!! #i finally felt like i was in a community! but of course things have lulled these last few months #which is only natural of course. people have their own lives and stuff to deal with they get into other fandoms its natural its normal. #the server aint fully dead most of us are still kinda there. i hope it picks up again at some point #but yeah no i finally drew a Lorabetta comic for Easter and i was PRAYING this might get more attention than the last one (which was 0) #cause i was following up a previous comic! one that got attention! i shared it in the server and.... #nothing. no one cared i suppose. ik she's not like the Best or Most Popular OC in the fandom. i dont think she even registers #on a fandom-wide scale. but she matters to me. and it mattered that other people were interested. and that interest just...isnt there anymor #didnt help i nearly had her ruined for me over something i really shouldnt have got so upset about but i had no way of like assuaging #my worries so i lowkey spiralled a little bit so it left a sour taste in my mouth. another reason drawing her comic meant a lot to me #telling myself 'i still love her'. i want others to love her too. is that a lot to ask? maybe. ah well. such is life. #i reckon a sequel would also be very fun but i mostly do just want a reason to go back to Lorabetta. maybe Mollinda too #im sorry i left you by the wayside girls. and sorry to Lanabelle and Edithana for never developing you. but ya meant a lot to me. still do. #'wow shes apologising to her OCs thats so fuckin sad' yeah maybe but im a sensitive bitch me. its how im built lol

[ginkgoleaves]

My roommate out of nowhere started texting me about how I need to tell her now if I'm moving out in the summer or not. And that if I was renewing lease I would need to tell them 3 months in advance. The other roommates in the past have left with like one months notice. It really annoyed me because she could have told me this before in person but she always chooses to text abt these things. I told her that I wanted to wait until I knew for sure that I'd be moving out or not but whatever I'll find a place for May now since she is in a hurry to find someone. The she got all like "no I'm not trying to kick you out or whatever you're a great roommate..." -_- she is so bossy and her stuff takes up like 90% of space in every common living area. I've been trying to do best to keep on her good side trying to be as cooperative as possible with weird quirks and cleanliness thing and yet she still finds faults in the most random things. Im over it.

#just the bossiness and being petty. i dont wanna deal with it anymore #also her boyfriends is planning to move in May with her and i dont wanna live with a couple