#i dont write actual things very often

[dallonwrites]

i do think as writers and creatives we would all benefit from letting ourselves embrace and enjoy being a beginner at something. and not just in a "because one day you will improve and see how far you've come" way but actually enjoying being an amateur at something in the moment. embracing the fun and excitement of something new even if you don't really know anything yet. like i'm making a worldbuilding bible for the first time and do i have any idea what i'm doing? no. am i having fun? absolutely

#what's that thing where it's like it can be harder/less enjoyable to be intermediate than a beginner #because becoming aware of your improvement makes you more hyperaware of where specifically you're struggling #anyway being a beginner is so fun i think all of us should be beginners more often #don't think about your lack of experience or knowledge compared to others just have fun because yayyy shiny new thing to play around with #also i dont believe in the scale of beginner to advanced writer really!!! #like yes i would say i'm 'experienced' but only in some ways! like litfic and flash and character development #im absolutely a beginner when it comes to proper novel writing or speculative worldbuilding #that's not to diminish anybody's hard work or progress it's just to say that beginner and advanced are not too far off separate entities #they're things you can be simultaneously and i think its actually very beneficial to be simultaneously #because you should never believe you are Too Experienced or Too Knowledgeable to keep learning new things #trying a new angle of writing as a beginner will teach you things about writing you won't learn from #and staying where you have the most experience etc #and also its just fun! mix it up!! try new things!! be free #even if its just a silly little side project

[potatobugz]

i think the majority of the fanfiction ideas i have r always generally "character i like gets a redemption arc" or something similar. i like putting those guys in situations & i like giving them Friens:)

#rambles #i mean they always start out thay way i guess #EXCEPT FOR TWO #id actually love to ramble about the ideas i have but havent written yet/mifht not write #uohgh i feel a bit embarrassed posting this it makes me feel like im uncreative #just dont get writing ideas very often. ah wait i just remembered im human and i can write for fun #i didnt mean 4 that to come off as sarcastic t h #tbh #iiuhvjvvejv i like writing i made this post 2 say i had a writing idea for lmk specifically the spider demons #i really really want to write them interacting and such. ive put them in a situation alright! #sorry my thoughts are getting scattered and messy rn. i want 2 say i like writing and have so many ideas and thoughts all the time #if u would ever like to hear me talk a lot about things feel free 2 send me an ask or something i will love you forever #i just take forever answering them. but thats ok

[definitelynotshouting]

Do you have any tips for starting a story? The middle and end is easy (lie) but the beginning SUCKS to write sometimes

oh gods no joke openers are one of the hardest part for me. Theres so many ways a story can start, and it makes me CRAZY because that right there is your hook, thats what convinces people to start reading!!!!! And there are so many unique ways one can start, so it ends up feeling a bit like that one reaction image of the girl being handed so so many pancakes

I think for me, what i try to ask myself when sitting down to write an opener is: "what kind of story is this?"

Because each story needs something different to accomplish its goals. A slower story might want to take its time with setting the scene, while an action-packed one might start in media res and with a bang!!! I guess if i had to give advice i would say, take the time to identify what your story is trying to say, and then look at what different openings can do for you to identify that goal.

For example; this is from my fic when the night cries, which is essentially a ghost story:

This was meant to be an introspective story, with a very gentle pace overall, so i took the time to really set the scene, build up the sense of what we're looking at before we get dropped into the fic proper. I remember my thought process for this was: how can i make this unique??? how can i make it FEEL like one of those old paintings with the beautiful yellows and summery oranges, while giving the reader a sense of whats to come?? Adding in the repetition of "it begins" was a way for me to sorta hammer that home: this is the start. This is where the story originates. And in a technical sense, it hooks your attention, with the question and immediate answer within the narration. The intention here is for the reader to want to know why this is important, and now it's answering that, but still leaving gaps for more questions.

Now compare that to, say.... lost in the dark's opening:

The overall pace of hunger au is slow, but this opener isn't-- partially because it's a rough draft, but also because what i wanted out of this scene was a sense of deep, deep urgency. We're in the middle of action; Grian is physically running while he thinks, and i wanted the reader to feel hunted and uncertain with him. Dropping everyone in with Grian at one of his most frightened, shaken points was the best way i felt i could establish that scene, and throughout it i drop hints as to what's actually going on. He's scared. He thinks he's going to hurt people. He's been on the move for a very, very long time. These are all things that are meant to pique interest and get answered later, when the reader is already invested. And i guess in that regard, its really all about timing.

But yeah!! Rambling aside, i'd say try out a few different ways of opening your fic and see what works. Think of em as thumbnails; write maybe 200 or so words at most and see if something works better than something else. I think theres this secret culture of shame among writers for not putting the perfect start down on the page the very first time you open the doc, but it's super normal to have to workshop things around to your liking!!! There's absolutely nothing wrong with writing a few different openers to see what works best for you and your story, and in fact is something i genuinely recommend. Its good practice, and essentially functions as a warm-up!!! You also get the benefit of exploring new angles in a scene, which can sometimes unlock really cool stuff for your writing

Sorry for how long this is, anon!! Hopefully you find my rambling helpful :D thank you for sending in this ask!!!

#shouting speaks #asks #i could go on abt stuff like this for HOURS i go crazy for this sorta thing #also part of the reason chap 6 is taking so long is because i needed to redo the opening scene multiple times #before i realized i actually needed to shuffle the scenes around so they kept interest and good pacing!!! #basically: dont be afraid to just sit down and try looking at things from new angles #also smth i didnt mention bc its very specific to me: i picture things like theyre movies #so i often sorta reflect that pacing in my writing. i have a very vivid imagination so i can see actions and settings VERY clearly #and often what i do is i sorta look at the big picture #and decide okay do i want to start here??? and if i do i slowly zoom in via details until we cut to the actual start #OR. i immediately zoom in so we're seeing the character or setting element right away #so yeah. movie magic ig skfnejdjdjdk #hope this helps!!!! #edit: forgor long post tag #long post #txt

[kohakhearts]

hey that pokemon 2000 gifset + your jn dub analysis made me think about the pokemon 2000 dub - I've only seen it subbed once (compared to the hundred times I watched it dubbed as a child) so I could be misremembering, but didn't the dub completely change the themes of the movie with the chosen one ash thing?

i actually haven’t watched the sub nearly as many as times as the dub either :p but i have read extensively about this topic bc it’s personally my favourite pokemon movie and yes! the first and second pokemon movies are both victim to this (like mewtwo’s epic speech we all love so much at the end of the first movie…being a complete fabrication by the dub team :p you gotta give those writers credit - they were VERY good at what they did), largely i’m guessing due to cultural values and expectations. since they were trying to sell the anime to an american audience, not a japanese one.

tangentially, i will say i also think that’s the root of this like…subtle distinction some people have between the characters “ash” and “satoshi.” i don’t differentiate them in any big way myself because fundamentally they still are very much the same, but it is true that in japanese, ash has somewhat different mannerisms and responds differently to events at times, especially in the early anime when it was so much easier to get away with making big changes for…a big assortment of reasons haha.

in THIS movie in particular, some of those things are like…well. the prophecy is probably the most obvious change. the dub team rewrote it to include the chosen one reference, which works great because of the word play on ash’s name. in japanese, it just says “an exceptional trainer will appear to help calm the wrath of the gods.” ash’s response to this is more mild trepidation than outright fear. he doesn’t hesitate like he does in the dub. and tbh? both reactions make perfect sense for his character in my opinion.

in japanese, his concern is more "do you really think i can fit that role?" this...tracks pretty well with his character development by this point. like yeah he said he could win the indigo league, but he's also thinking about dropping out after gary loses; it's that little grain of insecurity he has, which he's normally good at covering up with arrogance (a lot of which is also very genuine, don't get me wrong). but he sees the opportunity to help and he takes it. that's just...what ash does.

in english, though, the prophecy is pretty clearly about him. there's no one else it could be. it has to be him. and he...doesn't like that? that scares him. which, fair. anyone would be terrified by being singled out like that. it's also so much...not ash's thing, even at this point in the series. his character development is about embracing having to work hard to do well. to keep trying until you get it right, no matter how many times you get it wrong. the idea of being a "chosen one" completely robs him of his ability to be so single-minded about what he wants his destiny to be that it manifests as pre-determined; it just...pre-determines it for him, if that makes sense. lol.

the thesis of the japanese version of the film is that no one person or pokemon can stand on their own. everyone needs help. it's about harmonizing with each other and with nature. about letting others help you, and helping them in turn. the english version rewrites that into a story about power and destiny. the title alone says it all, right? it's called "the power of one" - no reference to lugia, no reference to the birds. in japan, the title is about the revelation (or "birth") of lugia.

westerners love a good chosen one story, so this was a really good choice by the dub team in that respect. i mean, it's a narrative that's stuck really well. fandom loves chosen one ash! in general, western fanbases are really into this narrative. it's everywhere. and there's a lot that goes into that, culturally, and especially religiously, historically, etc. so at the end of the day, i don't think the change is so much about conflicting ideas about collectivism and individualism. it's more about goals and ideals, on a personal level.

let me say again for the 273456784th time, i love that they resolved ash's story by having him realize that the goal he's really been striving for all this time is to meet and befriend pokemon. to learn from them. to earn their trust. it's like...he did the thing that everyone else thought represented his goal, maybe even himself included, only to realize that his dream was never about the end of it anyway. it was about everything he learnt and everyone he met along the way. (i also suspect nobody writing in 1997 knew that that would be the ultimate resolution, either. but it makes sense in the entire context. it's kind of a nice irony, even. to only figure it out after writing the story :p)

and i think this little distinction is important to that goal! it's his whole character! which is why even though i too love chosen one characters, i don't necessarily think of ash as one. because even if he is, his whole Thing is that he wants to try. a lot of the chosen one narrative is about characters being reluctant to be used for a "greater good," or about them collapsing under that pressure. ash doesn't really have that. he does what he thinks is right because he...thinks it's right. sometimes, sure, others have to push him into it a bit, but usually they're actually pushing the other way - it's too dangerous, you're going to get hurt, etc. and to me, i don't know - thinking of times he's died, or nearly died, and some legendary or mythical pokemon has saved him at the last minute...i don't think that has to mean he's special in a cosmic sort of way. i think it just means he's special to them. that he did something for them, or for someone else they had come to care for (thinking manaphy responding to may's emotions, not just to the fact that ash was drowning, or in mpm ash convincing latios to trust him because of their mutual desire to save latias, etc.), and so they want to help him. which is completely opposite to the typical chosen one narrative, i think? because he doesn't do those things out of obligation...he does them because he thinks he can become a better trainer by doing them, and he wants to do that. and well. he did do that.

anyway my tl;dr here is YES they changed the theme a lot haha, but i find it fun that they also changed the characters’ responses to that theme. funnily that’s…kind of also what fanfiction writers do all the time, lmao, but that’s a whole other conversation.

#answered #im sure id have something more insightful to say if id watched the original recently but i havent Dx #*meta #i guess #also re: the chosen one narrative being very religious #its more to the idea specifically of a character who does selfless things for the sake of being selfless and it often ends with the #character martyring themself somehow. which i dont think it’s necessarily WRONG to say is what ash does. self-sacrificial is not a Bad way #to describe him. i think its a reasonable and compelling read on his character. its just not mine i guess because as much as i also love #chosen one characters what i love most about it isnt the fact that they are a chosen one #so much as what the consequences of that have been because what they really want deep down is to just…not have to save the world #but ash isnt really like that. saving the world is more of a byproduct of what hes actually trying to do. which is to help others #rather than being forced to save the world to help the ones he cares for. its kinda opposite. idk. maybe i’ll write a post about this #properly someday bc rn my brain is mush and i can only think of three major western franchises that even have chosen ones lol

[angeltrapz]

I know we love he/they/it adam & she/they/it mandy (I certainly do) but have we considered he/they/it lawrence...

#aka i have considered it & am presenting it to you all #ill figure out a way to work this hc in somewhere. i am a fellow he/they/she/it user myself #i actually like to hc him as transmasc agender & they use he/she/they/it as well <3 t4t chainshipping is always alive & well in my heart #connor.mp3 #little post btwn me writing things bc i am thinking abt this hc a lot lately #i like he/they/it hoffman too tbh but i admittedly dont think abt him as often #very fond of t4t hoffstrahm as well

[semercury]

Perhaps the only thing worse than being hated is being loved just enough to matter. Like you don't really know me, but I matter to you and my absence will be felt and isn't that awful that I both mean something and nothing to you? And isn't it terrible that that's how most people we meet are? We love them just enough to miss them but not enough to make any lasting change. Those passing through our lives, nomadically, never meant to stay. And what do you do with that? What do you do with knowing you can't be everything but you'll never be nothing no matter how hard you try? You'll never be inconsequential. Your presence and absence will be noted, documented in the hearts of those you get just close enough to to have an inside joke or casually talk about your lives.

And of course, the only thing worse than that is being truly loved. Standing naked in front of another, desperately hiding your scars and ugliness with your hands, hoping they stay. Hoping despite it all, they will choose to love you anyway. Because you know your absence will not just be felt but will be mourned. And their absence will rip your heart apart like thorns, never healing to what it was before. And everything ends in one or the other eventually.

#stuff sarah says #maybe writing #feeling weepy on my lunch break #this is mostly about my coworkers #but obviously the last part is about those i love so much #i often wonder what is worse: loneliness or love #they both feel equally terrifying in their own right #the only thing worse than going through life alone is with someone youre afraid of losing #and the only thing worse than being afraid of losing someone is actually losing them and then being back at square one #idk. im going to blame the monthly body horror torture for this. and this week. and my brain. and just everything #i feel very insecure in so much right now. i dont like it. #i shouldnt be at work. i should be at home curled up in bed crying

[taikk0]

JUST SAYING ONCE I LEARN TO PRONOUNCE MY T'S PROPERLY ITS OVER FOR YOU BUTTNUGGETS

#IVE ALWAYS PRONOUNCED T'S WITH MY TONGUE AND I HAVE NO IDEA HOW TO FIX IT ITS BEEN THAT WAY FOR SO LONG #BUT ONE DAY. I WILL PRONOUNCE MY T'S SO GOOD YOULL THINK IM A WHITE PERSON #WHAT SUCKS TOO IS THAT IM BILINGUAL WHILE ENGLISH IS MY FIRST LANGUAGE I SPEAK TAGALOG MOST OF THE TIME BECAUSE OF MY ENVIRONMENT SO I- #-HAVE NO PROPER WAY OF PRACTICING IT BC FILIPINOS PRONOUNCE T'S DIFFERENTLY BC OF THE LANGUAGE AND UNLESS IM IN AN ENGLISH SPEAKING- #-SETTING THERES NO WAY IM GONNA BE ABLE TO PRACTICE CONSISTENTLY 💔💔 #even worse i slur over my words all the time. i have a stutter. i have VERY frequent voice cracks and when i try to suppress them i sound- #-ver odd. PLUS ADHD #idk if adhd might be one of the causes or of it gets added to the pile but dude i actually need help 💀💀 #but another problem is i dont think anyone would see the point in it #i communicate just fine its just that i have so much trouble communicating verbally (vocally?) in a way that isnt unnatural and in a way- #-that properly articulates what i want to say and how i say it. often i have so much trouble showing varied emotion to prove a point when- #-im referring or talking about something that isnt reactionary #LIKE DUDE WHY IS TALKING SO HARD 💔ALL PEOPLE CAN TALK WHY DO I HAVE TO SUFFER THROUGH ALL PF THIS THIS SUCKS #which might be why i prefer writing what i want to say bc unlike talking the way i speak has nothing to do with it. i get given time to- #-think. and with an adhd brain writing what you want to say is so much better because typing it out involves the conscious decision to- #-type it all out and it acts as a filter #BLEFGGGH SORRY I KEEP BLABBERING ON THIS WSS SUPPPSED TO BE A SILLY LITTLE POST IDK WHY I WENT HAM IN THE TAGS #anyways umm yeah i dont like talking. i like communicating and maybe socializing tho. but not talking. does that make sense??? #there r also times where i straightup cant speak at all. i want to speak and i want to say things but my brain feels too busy or ig blank- #-but not empty and i cant form words or sentences and all i have are thoughts and feelings #anyways i think asl is neat and i want to learn it not just for my benefit but also for accessibility #also filipino sign language if im up for it #man there is something wrong w my brain 💀 #mikyomix rambles #yeah this one was a true ramble but only in the tags

[fox-guardian]

whata up with the time travel fic?

that's a very good question! *walks off stage*

#fg's answers #asks #listen. listen. things have happened in the nebulous outline i have in my brain void for this fic #in short it needs to be rewritten. not that much was written. idk maybe ill leave it #but ultimately. Ultimately. i am not primarily a writer. idk if y'all noticed. #i dont wanna put out a few chapters and then leave people hanging when i have a long fic planned #however. i also dont write very often. perhaps you see my dilemma #if i ever post the fic. YAY! but also if i don't. apologies for having hyped it up so much alsjaksjsk #also if this comes off as annoyed or smth thats my bad. im not upset im just Very Sleepy and am about to go to sleep lol so i might be Off #might change my blog header about it idk what id make it tho #edit: realizing this person may not actually know What The Fic Is. hm. #in that case: BASICALLY i had a fic idea back in 2020 made a couple comics about it said id write it #and then Never Finished It. or posted any chapters anywhere. #its at like 30k words now and it's barely started. idk if thats good or not. #anyway thats proof of how sleeby i am gn

[chaotic-queer-disaster]

thinking abt my "culture" as a concept is super... strange. as a white north american. and i dont know how to articulate this beyond "its so big it's nothing" and im aware it's so so so incredibly privileged to have a big disconnect from "my culture" because it's everywhere as opposed to because people tried to stamp it out! I know. i'm just thinking out loud about how it is strange.

[on "no reblogs" just bc i dont know if im articulating this exactly as what i mean and im mostly thinking out loud in the tags]

#hello bat if you see this youve actually sparked thinkingthoughts bc of that oc question on nicola-writes skdhfksdf #anyway. #i dont know the actual CULTURAL origin of the food i eat or the clothes i wear or the music i listen to or w/e #i know its. european. presumably. and i know it's canadian/american clusterfuck. and i also know it is influenced by other cultures #on some level ! like i dont live in a bubble with NO other cultures in it but i dont rlly think anyone does lol #but like..... all the influence i can NAME is ONLY influence from /other/ cultures. not mine #i can recognize when something *isnt* part of my culture but i also dont rlly know how to define what my *culture* is beyond... #idk ! a big ol slab of White #the hallmarks of my culture are like. whiteness. overarching influence. white christianity. having everything made for ''wide audiences'' #usually just made w/people like me in mind (most popular clothes most common food most tv characters etc) #and again thats SUPER privileged. obviously. im not complaining about anything (though ofc i dont think it /should/ be like this). #this isnt a ''poor white ppl :( no culture :('' thing this is more... wow we really did just destroy our own individuality for the sake of #white supremacy didnt we. #i dont know many people around here who can name parts of French or English or German or Irish or w/e culture SPECIFICALLY #even if thats what they are. #i read somethign once written by a woman of colour talking about how she noticed that white ppl seem to sacrifice actual individual culture #for the culture of Whiteness and White Supremacy (she capitalized it like that specifically. dont remember why) #especially white north americans (its less common in other places) #which CREATES this phenomenon where we genuinely just don't participate with culture on a conscious level very often #because. its everywhere. it's the ''default assumption'' of north american society. POC & their cultures are ignored in favor of us #and we really only notice when something is *not* our culture but not when something *is* our culture bc we never have to look for it #we participate with culture. obviously. its impossible not to. but we often dont do it on purpose. #idk. thoughts!! thought times. sometimes i have a single thought in my brain #and i am aware this is like 1 perspective and also the least important perspective on race & culture ever kdjhksdjf #i am just thinking.

[britneyshakespeare]

I don’t think he ever read any of my poems now that I think about it

#tales from diana #when we first met i told him about my poems and i gave him some free copies of this small local literary magazine they're published in #he pretended to be interested but never actually said he read them. i dont think i asked more than a couple times #but if i recall correctly he told me unprompted a few times he hadnt #perhaps thats why he thought of me as more of an artist than a poet. he had seen me draw but i dont write poems in front of ppl #and it takes one second to look at a drawing (and to not appreciate it) (as he didn't for the most part) #even though i explained often that id only been drawing for like a year and im still very much a beginner and it's a huge struggle for me #it's very very hard for me to draw i don't consider myself good at it. ive made a FEW good works but im not a good artist #im not confident but that's ok ive enjoyed my progress #there were a lot of little things id do for him that he just wouldnt acknowledge much or seem to care about #so much for trying to make an impression on ppl #i think some ppl only want to be around you so they can suck up your company and feel validated #i have to be honest. that is nothing like me at all #im fine being alone. i could never be addicted to ppl as some are. #long story short this guy never cared about me

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

also i think a nice sort of trick to keeping missy feel in character even when you write stuff where you make her vulnerable and like admit to that vulnerability is to just mind her sadism. she enjoys seeing people hurt. probably especially people she loves. just because she loves you doesnt mean shes gonna try to make you comfortable. probably the opposite.

and dont just let her hurt people in retaliation/to equalise a power imbalance. because then you sort of keep her playing defence? but if you just let her hurt people shes hanging out with in little ways when theres absolutely no need to. just for her own enjoyment. i think that really helps to reset her to sort of baseline missy after youve vivisected her.

#this isnt like a writing tip bc i dont really knwo what im doing generally writing wise #this is just something i noticed yesterday that i'd been doing and i think it works well #i think this is why my vault fic 1.0 feels off #bc there shes either being vivisected or hurting in retaliation #but she never gets back to just like reset #anyway #i think it's probably canon that shes a sadist i could probably find something somewhere to back that up right? #im going more on vibes like the vibe is right #i also think shes meaner in the big finish audios #just for the sake of it #also as an identity performance but the just for the sake of it part is kinda crucial i think #if you ask me why i couldnt give you a good answer but still i think it is #also i just really enjoy writing missy be needlessly cruel to both 13 and yaz and how they respond to it #it's fun to push and pull at them and see how much they will take #and also the contrast with the things she does actually sorta honour #like theres a trust between the doctor and the master where they know very well which areas are like fair game to fight with i think #and theres also a difference in what theyre allowed to use against each other when theyre alone vs with an audience #they will keep each other's image intact when they fight i think #also i think the master can very well care for you and missy also definitely does #it's just that that care often comes with violence #like she'll console you with one hand whilehurting you with the other #or she'll hurt you badly just to take care of you afterwards #violent tenderness i think is really the foundation of this fic #none of this is right #but they cant get what they need in the right way #so they will get it in the very wrong way. and it's wrong. but it still feels somewhat satisfying #thasmissy #missy

[upsidedowngrass]

ALMOST done with :  | compilation. after im done i already wanna do a liam smiling compilation, but i think i should do liam crying compilation and liam angry compilation bc i think that would ALSO lend itself well to future analysis!!!!

#like . i mentioned in that one post that im undecided on how often he cries #i think a list of every time he DOES cry could be helpful in determining this #same for the other ones!!!!! look im very interesting in how he acts and stuff like this helps SO much #like knowing he only apologizes like once or twice in the series? influences how i write him a LOT #ppl write him saying 'sorry' WAY more often than i think is in character #which i think relates to the whole 'lack of manners' thing #i dont think saying sorry is smth that occurs to him very often. thinks its kinda pointless if i had to guess why #like a 'thinks verbally apologizing is kinda unimportant #since it doesnt actually do anything' kinda guy? #maybe i should compile every time he apologizes for smth actually #cus i know he does when amelias talking abt stone making her team win #which feels telling but i gotta think abt it more #BUT of course that is simply my interpretation!!!! #also ngl it IS a good way to get myself to rewatch!!!! #i have a hard time sitting down to watch smth if im by myself n theres no 'reason' to bc i feel like im not doing anything and get Nervous #so!!!! it helps rewatches :D #anyway

[readymades2002]

having a pretty funny problem which is that i do write sometimes (i used to want to be a writer when i was a kid.....) i do write my silly little notesapp stories with my little guys but every time i do it for aa i feel like its immediately clear that despite writing whatever it is that i write i desperately want to write about maya instead

#i dont do character studies like that often but theyre the most interesting thing to think about to me... #but if im writing a notes its usually self indulgent and too embarrassing to post anywhere else its usually something romantic #bc im unwell. but there are a lot of ideas i have for other things id like to write! but writing is not my primary artform anymore #im not very good at it...i write like i talk and im not at all concise and i try to edit myself while writing bc of it #so very little gets done. but i have interesting bits and pieces in there.... #theyre usually about maya actually. i think about both her and fran as characters a lot in a very different way than miles or phoenix #there is not As much in the text to explore maya or fran so writing them calls for a little more legwork i think #and its very...i dunno. i enjoy doing it a lot. i really like writing maya

[quirkeduptransguy]

also quick note re: my previous post's tags. have i said before that, for a presumably heterosexual man, johnny whitney has had some of the most insanely homophobic (and occasionally transphobic) vitriol spewed at him for one reason or another ive seen. because holy shit

#as a musician hes very interesting to me. non parasocially #he'll mention something in an interview and i immediately think ''i NEED to study him.'' and ill read what people say about him and have a #similar reaction #and it sucks that the immediate reaction to hearing or seeing him you see a lot is an immediate gay joke #cause his writing and vocals alone!!! so interesting to me #everything about tbb is interesting to me tho #i do admit i have a slightly weird thing with him cause of some stuff he's said in podcasts or interviews and some of how he acts #that i see/hear and go 'wow. i do that' or 'wow. i feel similarly' #but obvs idk how he is in actuality so #im gonna start putting johnnywhitneykin in my social media bios and posting mood boards etcSORRY #evil neighing compilation #but yeah onto my original point #like. for real so much insane homophobia i think about it often #in relation to his stage presence and how he presented himself etc #on purpose. like what else could it have been but to alienate the shitty hashtag hxc douchey audiences that wouldve been there #and therefore in a way making their shows. almost a safe space one could suppose? #im just spitting shit. i thiiink theres an interview where jordan blilie or someone directly says that? dont have it with me rn #but yeah. what a progressive band for the 2000s #and also. shhhhh osrry to hate post #but. they did a lot of the stuff some of u guys slobber over emo bands for #before the emo bands did. and they did it better and more explicitly #and without doing warped tour #but yeah thats me being salty speaking as per use #my original point. just pay attention to that lol

[iwantyoursexmp3]

beau is such a trailblazer of an oc cause he's the first dallonwrites protagonist to have a good relationship with his family

#LMAOOOO LIKE #i know they're the type of family who would have a group chat together and that concept is so wildly foreign to me #my relationship w my family is actually fine dw it's just like all recovering from things. we make do #felix and dorothy were definitely like the product of me fully realising i had a fucked up childhood and not being able to get therapy #i think my whole pov on it is changing now though which is interesting #like i havent outgrown RR but i would never write the things i decided for that story if i came up with it now #but 20 year old me wanted to write about those things for a reason so it's almost become a time capsule #i actually have sooo many thoughts of this because my brain is so interesting to me lately #recently more often than not i hate reading characters with fucked up childhoods from other writers #idk why but i'm just like. i want the kids left alone for the most part! #some more than others and its like i dont know what the reasoning is because its not like i can know where their inspo is coming from #(that's another thing i want to write about one day because i do think some people esp newer writers like #don't fully know how to write an interesting backstory yet or aren't confident in it so they lean on #very traumatic childhood things like abuse neglect addiction etc. #and without saying what I Went Through it's very interesting when you see things you went through IRL #that for others are just like interesting character development ideas #NOT TO MAKE ANYONE FEEL BAD! because i mean i do and have done it before with things irrelevant to me #it's just something i've noticed and like. i think easy to sensationalise when you're a newer writer #even things you HAVE gone through) #not me testing the waters for essays in the side blog tags again. i need to actually write something for my silly little substack #actually similarly to this i rly want to write abt how i can't get with the whole my old writing is so bad and cringe!!! anymore #bc now i know younger me was in such a scary place and needed those cringey stores #but i need to do it in a specific way bc i dont think that line of thinking is problematic. i just cant do it