ahh i'm,,, so happy that i got some job offers already !! ;; v ;; theres two currently and im waiting to hear from one place and then theres one more interview tomorrow (which. i really dont wanna do), but i'm really happy that two worked out!! i just... wouldnt know what to decide on😔
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Oh my god you guys I got a promotion!!! From call center rep to team lead!!! It's gonna come with a decent raise, I still get to report to my awesome manager, and my job will totally change! I will also get to bridge a gap the team has been struggling with for a couple years so that's awesome too. It's gonna be a lot more work and probably more annoying hours but I talked to the team leads in other departments and they really like their responsibilities so I should be fine. I'm excited and proud of myself but also nervous! I'm really good at my current job and I'm going to be giving up all my current duties, and that includes several services and projects I've been running by myself for almost two years. Which means I have to deconstruct my process, write documentation and work instructions, and train several people to replace me. Plus I don't know if I'm going to be good at the new job, I've never done anything like it except I guess when I was a keyholder at sport clips. But this is more like an assistant manager position tbh.
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I was going back through my old school stuff from like 1st grade and there was this like journal where we had to write like a couple sentences each day to practice writing and stuff and i had this one day where part of what I wrote was "I hate myself today because I had to change my card to yellow" (the cards were like discipline things so you started with green and if you weren't being good you had to stand up and go to the front of the class to change your card) and I don't remember what it was for but I'm sure I was just like maybe talking or something like that.
But like damn. Even just thinking about the times I had to change my cards in those classes makes me want to cry. I remember always being so upset anytime the teachers weren't happy with me and then I think about me now and how I'm always expecting people to think the worst of me or be hiding that they don't like me or always expecting the other shoe to drop even if they've been telling me I'm doing a good job because I'm bad and I need them to just tell me why and what exactly they're holding back
And I've got a review coming up at work soon with my bosses since it's almost my 6 year anniversary of working there and all I can think is oh good now they can stop telling me how great I am and how happy they are to have me there and just tell me everything I'm doing wrong because I know the compliments aren't right and they have to have been holding back what all my issues are.
And I think something in my upbringing may have kind of fucked my head up... just a little bit
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i wanna do art as a career so badly cause it’s the only option that would be even remotely fulfilling but i really. really doubt that’s gonna happen and i really doubt i can do it so now i have to scramble to find some other career that won’t make me want to die
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Just realized the reason i’ve been spending so much time outside of my room even if it’s to just sit in the backseat of my car for a few hours. is literally because being in my room, at my grandparents house that i swore i wouldn’t still be living in two years later, makes me feel like a fucking failure.
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