#i really needed this today

[rosetinted-selfshipping]

Has someone said something particularly hurtful to you recently?

You don’t need to lie, I see the hurt in your eyes and so does your F/O…

They want you to know it’s okay to cry, to hurt, to feel and to have flaws that make us human. But also that you know yourself better then anyone else does no matter who they are.

You’re perfectly flawless in their eyes btw ♡ ^^

#f/o imagines #romantic f/o #platonic f/o #f/o stuff #f/o affirmations #f/o comfort #I REALLY needed this today #My sister has been saying the meanest things recently “You don’t dress like a human #I try not to use this as an excuse often but damn man I dress like a weird anime child because I’m depressed #I’ve never liked my appearance much irl and as someone who really likes fashion hearing that hurt me deeply and personally #Y’all are perfect and cute though stfu

[lqtraintracks]

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling Rating: Explicit Words: ~500 Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Sirius Black/Harry Potter Additional Tags: Quidditch Player Harry Potter, Age Difference, Established Relationship, Anal Fingering, Anal Sex, Floor Sex, Sirius Black Lives, POV First Person, POV Sirius Black, Sirius is still punk af Summary:  Winning makes Harry horny. Sirius is a-okay with that. A/N: Written for @knotsnuffles prompt: omg I would love some harry x sirius!!! prompts to chose from: rain, scent, winter <3 I used all of them for this! I hope you enjoy it! Also, I didn't tag this 'puppy play' because I felt that would be a serious disservice to the kink. But it's not *completely* devoid?? Just some brief language maybe??

#sirry ficlet #sirius x harry #new fic #my fic #prompt fill #knotsnuffles #thanks so much for the prompts #I really needed this today #<3

[crewfu]

#guys i can’t stop laughing #steven suptic #i wanna know what he tells the hair stylist to do that results in this #from steve’s twitter #thank you steve for cleansing my timeline #i really needed this today #like it’s not even the hair it’s the expression on his face

[mustangs-flames]

Hello. I stumbled across your AU on AO3 and I would like to tell you I am actively writing this post through tears. Anyways, where did you get the inspiration to start this AU? Many of the subtle things- the things the alternates say, the religion, the construction of the first story, entwining the pronouns of he, it and they, everything entwining and crumbling down, was so masterfully crafted. Do you have a degree in literature, if you don't mind me asking. I hope none of these questions are too invasive, please let me know if they are. Are many of these things written from personal experience? That aside, what do you think overdriven assimilation is? I always assumed that it was a alternate that had become so accustomed to human society that it completely forgets the fact it's an alternate, ||somewhat like Adam|| <<<<< SPOILERS FOR VOL 4!! But your take on the overdriven assimilation is very interesting. Like a skin stretched far too long up until it can't stretch anymore. One more thing that I feel is very interestingly explored in your story is the use of belief, since I find it to be one of the most interesting parts of being human. Everyone believes in something, and part of me wonders if thats the reason for our evolution, compared to say- an alternate who cannot feel, or think, or any of the sort, still being under the belief that mark is it's, and it being in such denial, fighting to hold on to its beliefs that it is the one in control, even when you, as a reader, can clearly see that control slipping away. Is this the main theme of Hail, True Body? I am very sorry for the disjointed thoughts- I am quite literally crying and it is 2 a.m. and I really felt the need to praise your work and I've interacted with anyone on Tumblr before, so I'm trying to write the best I can. Thank you for your masterful writing, you should write your own book. (If you want to.) -Sincerely, a sleep deprived and overly emotional anon with a lack of impulse control.

Hi! Wow! Thank you for sending this in! I'm sorry the AU made you cry, but I'm so glad to know you enjoyed it so far! It means an awful lot!

To answer your questions:

1. Inspiration came from before the AU was ever an AU to begin with. 'Its Name Was Cesar Torres' was very much a passion project that was just supposed to be a standalone fic and it had a very different ending before I decided that I actually wanted to explore the idea of an alternate gaining humanity and Mark as a character more. Initially INWCT was written because I couldn't find anything that really spoke to me and my idea of what an alternate gaining humanity would look like - I wanted something that explored it without compromising on the horror of TMC canon and what alternates were really like. I also wanted to read something from the perspective of an alternate with the idea that it learns to be more human like for selfish reasons, but those reasons slowly become more personal and complex, forcing it to question itself and its nature - whether it has to be one thing or the other, or if it even could step out of those categories to become something else entirely. Thus, INWCT was roughly planned out and I started writing it. By about chapter 5, I developed it into an AU, still under its original premise - to explore humanity and what it means to be human without compromising on the tone and horror of the canon series! So I scrapped the original ending for chapter 6 and worked it into the one you all got!

2. I have a joint honours degree in English Language & Literature!

3. Yes, many things in the AU come from my experiences! Alt!Cesar itself was inspired by my own feelings as I worked through a lot of gender and body dysphoria before coming out at trans. Mark's religious trauma, guilt, and internalised homophobia is based on my experiences with the Church and faith growing up. Quite a few of the characters who become disabled and who are already disabled are based on my own experiences with disability, as are those with depression and anxiety. There are more, and some are written from outside perspectives I had on certain things growing up. I probably won't talk about all of them outside of the fic though.

3. Overdrive Assimilation in the AU looks the same as it does in canon TMC - creatures and people with impossible proportions, that look wrong like the deer alternate does. However, the AU interprets it as alternates that are too impatient to learn how to mimic people and things, which is why the deer alternate fails to look like a convincing deer. It just makes approximations because all it cares about is getting a kill whatever it takes. A doppelganger alternate like alt!Cesar is practically flawless because it takes time to learn the nuances of the person/thing it wants to replace because it wants to use that position to then lure other unsuspecting victims in - alt!Cesar spent about 7 months in the Torres household learning to perfectly mimic Cesar and Lola Torres (and even Mark's voice). When an alternate falls into its true form though, it becomes overdriven because it's no longer making the effort to try and disguise itself.

4. Control and the loss of it definitely comes into alt!Cesar's story a lot, and both he and Mark share a parallel with their beliefs. Alt!Cesar clings to the idea that he can become the alternate he used to be before INWCT just as tightly as Mark clings to his faith.

Don't worry about coming across as disjointed or anything with your thoughts! It means an awful lot that you sent them in - it's always really nice to know that something I wrote was liked by someone who read it <3 thank you, it really does mean the world /gen

#hail true body au #mustang answers! #this was such a nice message. thank you anon <3 #i hope the rest of the au lives up to expectations!! #i really needed this today

[emotionallychargedtowel]

Have you ever run across a bit of media—could be any kind of media—that is so tailored to your interests and/or aesthetic preferences that it feels like it was manifested into being by your subconscious? That’s what the photos from this magazine shoot did to me. It would be hard to go wrong in my book with anything involving these two compelling actors/massive hotties. But Kim Beom in a ruffly shirt and a dangly earring looking like an adorably bratty punk rock vampire? Kim Yong Ji in some kind of Marlon Brando hat looking like a soft butch gothic Lolita? Alternate-outfit Beom in go-go boots and a goddamn pussybow blouse?

I believe Barney Gumble said it best.

#kim beom #kim bum #kim yong ji #tale of the nine tailed #lee rang #ki yu ri #literal foxes #go-go boots #punk rock vampires #New Romantic tuxedo shirt #ruffles #barney gumble #just hook it to my veins #i really needed this today #i didn’t even get into the part with the matching red suits #if someone asks me what my sexuality is I’m just going to show them that first picture

[nowshesdoingitallthetime]

i just want to hug that old man

me fucking too. THE CURLS ARE FIGHTING TO RETURN AND HE LOOKS SO GOOD AND IM SO EXCITED

#chatting! #i really needed this today #I’ve missed him so much

[wildwhiskey236]

Not Lou Wilson and Brennan Lee Mulligan saying my name and saying I'm great 🥹

#dimension 20 #my name is abigail #i really needed this today #fhjy

[dixons-sunshine]

Hello sweetie !! I love your writing so this is a friendly reminder that you're doing good <3 I love the way you write Dad!Daryl is so accurate. besitos :3 xoxo

I'm so sorry I'm only seeing this now! For some reason the notification never popped up and I only saw this because I opened my inbox 🥲

Thank you so much! It really means the world to me. It was your idea for Daryl with a reader that has a kid that got me in love with writing for Dad!Daryl, so I gotta thank you for that. And thank you for that reminder. I didn't write today (I had a raging migraine and couldn't focus on writing) and felt like such a failure, so I really needed that. Thank you so much, and kisses to you too <33

#i really needed this today #thank you so much #krys' asks ★ #krys' moots ★ #ilysm

[ssamou]

╭ ಣ 🍓 writer.

this is my first day off since nearly christmas, and working almost 70 hours last week since my boss as been out sick for the month.. i spent the day baking cinnamon rolls i got from a mom&pops shop, trying out a new body wash and lip care, using my first bath bomb, writing with jk all day.. now i get to play games for the rest of the night. is this what days off are like? 🥹 i need more of these.. this was so nice. it makes it better because it's been storming/raining all day and that's sooo cozy..

#﹙ 𝗱𝗶𝗻𝗴! status update. ⠀ * #ooc #i just wanted to share because it put me in a good mood #i really needed this today

[cyn-write]

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Honestly this means so much!! Thank you!!!

#THANK YOU #I really needed this today #you guys are amazing

[enchantedlandcoffee]

always happy to see notifs from you!!

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[autumnwoodsdreamer]

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[majorproblems77]

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YOU BRING ME JOY TOO!

#you are too lovely #love ya too uni #/pl #uni beloved! #YOU MAKE MY HAPPY TOO #:D #corner answers with major #i really needed this today #thanks uni #:)

[nightingaleflow]

You are amazing! Gaara and Aki are giving me feelings and your storytelling style always inspires me.

Ahhhh thank you so much!!!

#I really needed this today #thank you so much #ilu <3 #ask nightingale #headcanonsmadepublic #a crystal in the sand #acits

[borathae]

Suchwita feels like a really warm hug. I don’t think that there will ever come a day where Yoongi doesn’t make me feel better. He radiates comfort. Just the way he talks makes me feel better

#i really needed this today #also i have no knowledge about seventeen but hoshi was so adorable #whenever he laughed he kicked his feet under the table hahaha i couldnt stop looking at him when he did that #a precious boy #rambling

[l3ominor]

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