#i'd only heard about it via reputation

[paper-mario-wiki]

I don't know if you've talked about this elsewhere already but was the break from streaming intentional and/or are you planning on returning to streaming some time in the foreseeable future? no pressure, I just miss your silly antics :o)

felt very burnt out from being someone who people are always lookin at all the time mostly! (and also a lot more reasons)

got a new job that pays just as well as streaming (which is enough to pay for rent in seattle with roommates, buy food for myself, and sometimes buy yet another japanese gamecube via online auction), and have been enjoying the feeling of not relying on anonymous teenagers and young adults who are just as poor as me on the internet for my income. It's something i was extremely grateful for, but it's not only a very infirm way to generate revenue on a reliable basis, but also i always felt an ever-present sense of guilt for it. like, instilling within other people who i know are in my tax bracket (one that is below the poverty line) the idea of "hey if you dont tip me for doing this free service, the quality of which is damningly subjective, I will be homeless. but no pressure haha" is something that i was never able to shake.

also like. performing is quite draining for me! the way i portray myself in my streams is EXTREMELY extroverted while, in my personal life, i prefer to spend 8 to 14 of my waking hours every day by myself in my room with my dog. i like the quiet, and i feel at peace most when i am not being perceived by other people.

lastly, i really dislike having inordinate levels of social power. for a several reasons. like, SEVERAL reasons. this is the longest section of this post.

8 years ago, i got way more famous than any 16 year old should ever be when i got tens of thousands of followers overnight for doing undertale shit. and i think it really fucked up my ability to make friends at a time where my only experience meeting new people was at school or at church, and i lived far enough out in the woods that i couldnt just go outside and hang out with the neighbors cuz the neighbors lived a mile away. my socializing skills in general are way more stilted than i'd prefer for someone my age. in private settings ive got my foot in my mouth a lot. and sometimes in public settings too! im sure if youve seen streams ive been on, youve seen plenty of "chase you really shouldnt have said that" moments. and youre probably right, i probably shouldnt have! my moment-to-moment gauge for what i should and shouldnt say is very slow to catch up cuz ive got like. advanced mental illnesses. like, im not joking when i say ive been formally diagnosed several times over by different doctors with shit ive never heard anybody ever talk about, online or otherwise.

i dont think that's an excuse to say heinous or cruel things by any means of course, but i also think that i should not rely on a job where there's constantly a microphone in my hand and an audience listening intently to what i say. im not at all pulling the "its okay that i say mean things because im mentawy iww" card. as a matter of fact i think it's not okay that i say them! and i feel very embarrassed when i do! the filter that separates "normal healthy thoughts" and "intrusive unhealthy thoughts" is thinner and more flimsy in my brain than in others.

ive only gotten this far because i surround myself with very smart, patient, and kind people, and by trying to be understanding and patient with others too. and ive begun apologizing to people a lot more. i dont like it when people are mad at me, and i dont like that for a long time i had professionally painted myself into a corner where im typically always the "heel" in comedy settings, because the "heel" is the guy everyone shits on all the time. i got this reputation not because i actively enjoy being mean, but because i learned to adapt to the aforementioned "clinically unreliable intrusive thoughts filter" by realizing i would say things that came across as mean, and in real time exaggerating that it into a character that people could shoot back at without feeling guilty while still having fun. theres nothing that ruins a good time quite like someone who is constantly apologizing for doing something wrong, and then continuing to do that wrong thing anyway. dont misunderstand, i absolutely adore dunking on weenies when everyone can get a good laugh out of it (like tumblr anons, who i think should be classified as prokariyotic invertebrates and not people (no offense)) but even though it's a joke it still feels very bad when that's expected of me when i walk into a room. because if i walk into a room, and everyone expects me to be an asshole, everyone is on the defensive before i say anything, and sometimes they take shots at me when im not trying to "play". even worse, if im a heel in a setting where it's expected of me and someone cant really keep up with "the bit" then that just means im being an asshole to someone who cant or doesnt have the energy to fight back. and not just any asshole, an asshole who has had nearly a decade of professional experience being a paid asshole.

if im being frank, i dont know if i'll come back in a full capacity. i might! im not ruling that out! and you'll probably still see me pop up in my friends streams, because i did LOVE what i did for a very long time! but after i took my "break" in december after being more stressed than ive ever been, and i knew it was no longer financially necessary for me to livestream, i had the thought "i will go back to streaming when i find within myself a desire to do so" and ya know what? i havent yet.

and DO NOT FUCKING BOTHER MY FRIENDS ABOUT THIS. if you post a fucking "hey have u heard what chase said" message in their chat or in their DMs or anything, im not joking when i say you are actively being the kind of person i changed my career to avoid! fuck you, for real! stop trying to interface with them to get some new piece of information or opinion about me you fucking weirdo! they'll talk about me if they want to, but going to someone who is doing their own thing and asking them to instead comment on someone else it is ALWAYS fucking annoying. if you want to think about me, do it by yourself! or ask me directly! or do it in the comment section of a video im in! or write a fanfiction about me and then throw it away!

but if ur not that kind of person then ur cool dont worry.

anywho! im sorry if this is a bummer to read. but that's the full skinny.

im still posting regularly on twitter (clown_depot)! and if i DO go live, either on my twitch channel or on a friend's stream, it will be posted there!

thanks for watching :^]

im not goin radio silent, im just gonna turn off the electric window that lets people see me for a while.

#the man with no face

[astronomodome]

23 for the ask game!

23 - what was your original opinion on hermitcraft/a hermit? did it change?

So I originally learned of hermitcraft's existence through some people I followed way back during the end of s8 who were fans. I didn't know what was going on but I was definitely aware of the moon big storyline and boatem (vaguely) way before I knew anything else about hc itself. I remember my reaction being like 'wow those mcyt fellas sure are going thru it. I hope they're ok' and I basically marked it down as something I would probably be a big fan of if I ever got around to watching it. However, like many people, my opinion of mcyt as a genre was pretty negatively colored by the reputation of dsmp so I held off on digging any deeper into it than that. I actually got to this fandom via a long and winding chain of youtubers that ended in Shubble, and then I found Empires, and then I found the life series, and the rest is history lol. It was fun and kinda surreal for me to see the stuff that before I'd only heard about secondhand!

#astro speaks #astro asks

[adleryoung]

"Let's see," I mused, grateful for the momentary distraction. "When you passed out, you were giving a lecture on how to be Unseelie -"

"That's right!" Burnside exclaimed. "I was teachin' them witches how to do things proper! Where'd they all go? I reckon my lesson must've been too advanced for them. Well, the rabbit witch is still here an' if she's gonna be learnin' elf-stuff there's no time like the present. We'll get her turnin' people inside-out in no time. So, to access the guts there's three main points of entry: the mouth, the belly button, and the -"

Rebecca clutched her ears and started humming loudly.

"All right, stop that!" I ordered. "Class is over. You missed it. No teaching now! Rebecca's lessons will resume later. It's been a long day for everyone and there is still work to be done. I need to send messengers to ask for an audience with Oak Marten, for one thing. Rebecca, you may take a break for a few minutes."

As the rabbit femme strode a short distance away and sat down on the grass, I sent Burnside a message via Elfmind: "I need your help testing a few theories." Then I added, aloud, "now get serious and quit goofing around."

"But I'm aimin' to be a fan favorite," Burnside protested.

"What?" I retorted.

"Way I see it," she explained. "You're the last livin' scion of Irenaeus. No matter whether you succeed or screw up somethin' terrible, someday somebody's gonna tell your life story in the form of an epic ballad. Course I'll be part o' that ballad. Now, I got my work cut out for me to make sure that the potential listeners find me engagin' an' endearin. Play my cards right, I might even get me a spin-off ballad! Just imagine it! 'The Lay of Burnside' or somethin' like that."

"You might rate a nursery rhyme," I theorized. "Or maybe a sea chanty."

"Gonna be a heroic epic," Burnside insisted.

"Who'll be the hero of it though?" I quipped. "Surely not the Raccoon Monster. Just go wait by the dolmen. I'll be with you shortly."

"I'm only givin' the theoretical audience what they probably want," she grumbled as she stomped off toward the center of the stone circle.

Why did I have to always be surrounded by crazy people? I shook my head and summoned an Ixie.

"I need a detachment to deliver an invitation to Oak Marten," I instructed her.

"Most of us are escorting the witches home, Sire," she respectfully informed me.

"Well, this is the next mission when they get back. Tell Oak I'd like to reimburse her for her service and see if she is still interested in working for me. I'm also willing to make amends for the blow to the Marten family's reputation and finances which they suffered because of me. I'll need to see her and discuss all of this face-to-face. I will reimburse her for any expenses incurred on the journey, and if she needs money up front I can figure out how to have some sent to her. Naturally you Ixies will escort her here for her protection on the road."

I also needed to warn her not to trust Ash without the trees finding out, but of course I did not say this part out loud.

"It shall be done," the Ixie declared with a snappy salute before she buzzed away into the brush. I liked how professional they were starting to be!

I walked over to where Rebecca was calming herself with some sort of deep breathing exercises. As I got closer, I could hear her saying "ummm" over and over.

"Can't think of what to say?" I interrupted gently. "That's okay. You should know that you don't have to try to impress me. Just do what comes naturally. With that said, I need to discuss something with you."

"My Lord," Rebecca said, opening her eyes and turning toward me, "if this is about honoring the Lady, I apologize, but hearing the Raccoon Monster talk about turning people inside-out has put me in a really yucky frame of mind. The mood is totally gone."

"Er, uh, no," I floundered. "Not about that. When Didelphis was browbeating me earlier, I heard you call out to me through Elfmind."

"You what??" Rebecca exclaimed.

"What???" Burnside yelped from where she had been eavesdropping behind me.

"Like, what?" Angela Weakflit yawned as she flitted up to us. "What did I miss? I just woke up, LOL."

#furry #elves #story #plot #adventure #cartoon #tboay

[wildfrau]

VALENTINE’S APPLICATION

your name: Komamura Sajin

Romantic or platonic?: Platonic, but... I suppose if you truly preferred, romantic?

A night in or dinner out or an activity?: Dinner or Activity

Ice cream or chocolate covered strawberries?: I don't think chocolate-covered anything would be a good idea for me...

What's your perfect date?: A nice walk

Would you cook for me?: I could

Would you let me cook for you?: Of course, though I can't promise it will be very good, i'm not much of a chef.

Can we make-out?: I-I suppose but... how?

Make out in private or in public?: P-private!

Do you like to cuddle?: I cuddle with Goro, does that count?

Blankets or no blankets for cuddling?: No blankets

Couch or bed?: Either

What are at least 3 hobbies of yours?: Does training count? Taking a stroll, Watching Tv/Movies.

Tell me something about you no else knows: Hm... I'd like to try surfing sometime. It looks and sounds quite enjoyable.

What makes you a good Valentine?: My Lieutenant, Iba, has told me I would be a very good 'catch', though I think his reasoning may be biased.

Well well well, someone actually sent one in.

Candice thought to herself as she lightly peeled the application form her mailbox. Huh, no smell of blood or gunpowder. It smelled.....woodsy? Not even who she expected to send one in.

Peeling the envelope open, she raised a brow for a moment as she took a brief second to process the name.

"Eh? A Captain?" She murmured, a bit surprised at that. And NOT even one of the ones who had been making passes at her either! Seventh Right? The big wolf guy. She'd been aware Bambi had called him 'doggy'. But structure and stature had her beleiving it was more likely a plain ol wolf.

And the guy had a reputation. Via the daten even before the war had rolled in, the guy was well known for being aggressively loyal to Genryuusei. A recluse, and hardly the sociable type. Guy usually kept to himself.

Which made it EXTRA cute that he went out of his way for a valentines. The awkwardness practically dripped from the page and she found herself smiling as she read it. Not exactly a stellar pitch.

Not ONLY that. But quite adorably. The guy had left one space blank.

Why DID they wanna be her valentine?

She smirked a bit to herself, as frankly THAT was one of the most important questions. She well..hadn't exactly made a good account of herself during the war. Well, she'd taken on Zaraki directly, as well as Ichigo. She had passion certainly, but well. He more or less would only know about her being a hot head directly.

Maybe he'd heard about how she was like outside of combat via his peers? Hmmm. Taking a pen, she proceeded to fill out the response section.

'Your application is currently pending. Please fill out your application fully and completely, so that I might process and provide an appropriate response.

Sincerely, Candice'

She smiled a little to herself and promptly got up from her seat. Fully intent on delivering her response personally.

#loyaltypunished #[In Roaring Thunder - IC] #[Answered] #sorry but I'ma need your license and motivation please~

[signalwatch]

High School Movie Watch: Bottoms (2023) Watched:  01/19/2024 Format:  Prime Viewing:  First Director:  Emma Seligman Selection:  Me Pal AmyC had rec'd this one broadly to facebook over the summer, and I'd been curious.  And since, I'd heard in drips and drabs that this movie was really funny, but I didn't know anything about it other than "it's a high school comedy, but not like that".  And, honestly, I'm gonna pause you here and say: go in cold on this one, because if you know anything ahead of time, you're doing yourself a disservice.  Just go check it out I'll also throw in:  I want to re-watch this almost immediately, because (a) it was really solid, and (b) I know I missed about 1/4th of the jokes because there's weird little visual things all over the place and throw-away lines left and right that are hysterical.   So, what is it? I've noted through my old podcast series on high school movies, that the movies about high school that *feel* like high school to me are the ones that exist in some heightened reality that's reflecting back the experience like a funhouse mirror.  I don't really mean, like, wacky high school hang movies, but, say Heathers or Brick.  Movies that soak in the absurdity of being a young person governed by the arbitrary rules and regs of a public school, enforced by of dubious credentials to be in charge of anyone.  And, of course, the absurdities of teen relationships, platonic as well as romantic. This falls into that category - a movie taking place in a high school where the teachers have no motivation and don't know their subject, and the only real reason school exists is to be a place where football happens (at my high school it felt like those things were band, choir and drill team, but whatevs).   Two high school senior lesbians - who are not together, but who are best friends - want to spend their senior year getting laid.  But they consider themselves unattractive and untalented, and have nothing to offer.  But as we all do, at least one of them wants to start the school year as a new person on a mission.  To get with hot chicks. Things get off to a bad start, but through their friend Hazel, who seems distracted at best and maybe not right in the head at worst, a rumor is out they spent the summer in Juvie.  Leaning on their new reputation, the girls decide to start a fight club so they can get to know hot girls.   You know, the more I try to explain it - and this is the first maybe ten minutes of the movie - the less I think I'll do it any justice.   Here's what you should know:  this movie has Marshawn Lynch as a history teacher going through a divorce.  The football players *always* wear their uniforms.  Watch the background *constantly*, because shit is happening back there.  Punky Johnson shows up for five minutes and you will wonder why SNL doesn't know what to do with her.  There's one girl in braces who made me laugh every fucking time she opened her mouth.   The movie was directed by Emma Seligman, who still isn't even thirty and this is her second feature (she's gonna be fine, I'm guessing).  She also co-wrote with star Rachel Sennott, who is hysterical. This was an inadvertent intro to Ayo Edebiri, who I think just won an Emmy for The Bear.   I saw Elizabeth Banks was on as a producer and was like "oh, of course".   Anyway, go watch the movie and get back to me.   https://ift.tt/5AtgjZd via The Signal Watch https://ift.tt/1qc4sLm January 19, 2024 at 11:59PM

#The Signal Watch #High School Movie Watch: Bottoms (2023)

[icarusisbabygirl]

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#i'm scrolling through things to put on in the background of my calc homework #to make it slightly more tolerable #and game of thrones just scrolled by #and man #i remember when i started watching it #i'd only heard about it via reputation #intense grimdark medieval style fantasy #and let me tell u #i did not expect zombies #i just #i still remember assuming it was a one off villain #to introduce you to the fact that there are magical threats in this world #and then my mom assuring me that no #the zombies are in fact a big part of got #perhaps even the most important #and the days of sheer shock and bafflement that followed that #anyway that was hilariously funny for me to remember #so i figured i'd share the moment with all of you

[chipchopclipclop]

Just thought I'd share, I bought stein's gate on steam for like 10 bucks bc I had heard like basically everywhere that it's so good and BLAH blah, I played it for about 3 hours and got so incredibly sick of everything, but especially the characters. Wanted to low-key claw my eyes out. Anyway thats it, you're just the first person I saw that didn't like stein's gate lmao

im shocked im the first for you since i know other people who have bitched about it before! lmao 😭

i think the strongest part of that game/show w/e w/e is its time travel existential dread part i think its so done soooo good it hits all my synapses nicely when i remember it. also the whole 'going through hell to help just one person you really care about' thing, okarin and mayuri's relationship in particular really got to me for some reason, i think it was given enough depth to be pretty compelling despite its kind of well trodden basework which is good bc 70% of the game revolves directly around it and their care for each other lmao (especially okarin's) but oh my god is it dregged in so much anime tropiness and garbage around that core theme, all the horny nerd jokes with daru and pandering etc etc (i dont mind cat maids in concept promise)

on the less petty end of my issues is luka's whole character who's very clearly a trans woman, like there is no quibbling about this lmfao though i dont think the writers actually know this themselves! bc okarin can only love her as a cis woman and the sad route where you have to undo her. i dont know how to even phrase lmao, cisification? via time travel and thus can no longer be with her bc okarin is just like 😔 try as i might i am just not gay... (help) is the stupidest shit on planet earth I CANT BELIVEEE YOU HAVE TO KILL MAYURI IN HER ENDING WHAT IS THAT. WHAT IS THE MESSAGE HERE HELLO? GOD? AM I WITNESSING THIS RN? DIE FOR MY ESTROGEN. i know the undo routes are all meant to be tragic but oh my god. write something else im begging you they can not date for OTHER REASONS

and then my much more petty issue is nowhere was i ever convinced him and kurisu were fated for endgame couple status, i think when me and my friends watched the anime we all cried out in shock and pain when they kissed (even though i knew they were going to do it beforehand 😭) like yes, good friends! fellow dumb cunts! confidantes! comrades in arms!! LOVERS???? no........ (this is a harem game i know i know)

im not shocked about its reputation amongst people in the end when it is basically a deconstruction of a dating sim as most nitroplus games are, and if you view it through that lens its like oh em gee this is a god tier framework of storytelling.....wowoeie!...!!!! but the anime bullshit. oh my god, its physically ails me, dying in real life recalling all of this

#chitter chatter #anonymous #sorry this has a readmore i actually have too much to say about how myuch this series makes me scream like an animal #(in a bad way)

[repo-net]

I recognize you from reddit. Why have you stopped posting there? Or like, interacting at all.

Reddit, huh. That's a name I haven't heard in a while.

Truth be told? I have definitely thought about posting on the danganronpa subreddit again. Those urges still come around every now and then, like something in me just wants to put out content again. Specifically, Nagisa content. Because that stuff damn near ceased to exist as soon as I stopped posting. Even got a reputation there for being the Nagisa guy, y'know? Made me feel good.

A lot of the comments I got were really nice, and well, I even met an incredibly dear friend to me via the reddit. So I definitely don't regret spending my time there.

But really, the main reason I stopped posting on reddit was merely out of convenience that tumblr can provide that reddit couldn't. Tumblr is a relatively harmless site these days, definitely far from the hole that it was back then, and it's generally still active enough in terms of userbase that I have zero regrets moving here.

People who specifically want to see the content that I post are completely able to do so just by searching through the tags that I frequently post on.

Honestly, I know that sometimes it happens here too on tumblr, but one of the main things that turned me off of reddit is how lower effort posts can just so easily thrive and make it to the front page with thousands of upvotes and praise by just sharing some random pretty art they found on Pinterest and not even bothering to post a link. Or if they do, they did it with the link that isn't even directly back to the artist.

Meanwhile, a lot of higher effort posts, especially the one in my creative specialty ot writing (believe me, even if I wrote something much more popular than Nagisa like actual maingame characters and stuff, there'd hardly be any difference it'd get.) just... don't go anywhere. They'll be drowned out in the sea of shitposts, reposted memes and art that I've seen thirty times by bow, or by polls of people asking who the worst character is with the same predictable options and outcomes. It's just not worth the trouble.

This isn't jealousy talking, trust me. If I was worried about post revenue like it was some sort of competition, I would've compared myself to other, more talented people than me and quit by now. I've stayed because I know I provide content to a niche group of people in this small corner of the internet, and I want to keep doing so. This much I'm comfortable with.

But again, it's just really discouraging to be in a community for an entire series to post your work on but have people not even look at it because they just don't even get the chance to because the waves of posts on the community are too damn fast for you to catch up on. And it gets especially hard for someone like me, who has to rely on his writing to get any sort of creative work out, from a sidegame character in a game a good amount of people haven't even seen, and on a subreddit that's only gotten bigger and even more shitposty as time's gone on? Yeah, there's just no way I'd even be able to get anything done.

Basically, the main point is, why post to a community that hardly cares about what you do when you can show your work off to the small group of people who are interested in your specific kind of content? The people who actually pay attention to my stuff is who I want to provide for, y'know? I'm sure there are some people out there on the subreddit that'd like to see it, but... I really just don't have it in me to post there right now.

Also, this is kinda unrelated and there's some recency bias speaking, but a month ago there was a guy who commented on a bunch of my old posts just having this massive hate boner for Nagisa. I get not liking a character, that's completely fine, and I'm not even going to be mad at people making posts about why they hate a character. I totally get why someone would dislike Nagisa.

But going onto a person's posts who clearly loves and appreciates the character, actively going there to hate on the character and tell them how much you want them to suffer, going to their DMs and verbally harassing them by telling them to delete their account because of the shit that I post, and even fucking tagging me on NSFW subs claiming that I post NSFW content on my account is a real fucking douchebag move.

I'm really not bullshitting lmao, I have the screenshots to prove it. I've hidden their name and pfp out of any resemblance of respect I have for this person so they don't get targeted especially after I've already told a mod about them a month ago about this and they finally left me alone.

You'd be able to find the commenting on old posts just to say how much they hate Nagisa just by looking through my post history and eventually finding one of them, but these are the ones that aren't so public that I may as well provide proof of them.

And no, whoever the hell u/Molly_Maybe is isn't the person who did all this, and I didn't censor their name precisely because, well, they're completely innocent.

Now look, I'm a 20 year old grown man who has better things to do than argue with petty redditors that can't fathom the idea of someone having a different opinion than them, but this shit is not okay at all. Even if you're supposedly "joking" or "trolling".

If this sort of toxic behavior were directed at someone who wasn't mature enough to handle the situation and genuinely took it personally, deleted their account and might've even done worse things in real life, things would've taken a trip for the worse.

it's also ironic that this is the same person who commented on a kotoko cosplay saying how they wanted her to do bad things to them, but i'll hold back on the screenshot i have for that one. i've said enough.

I'm going to put another tip for everyone here just so you should know; people don't like it when you comment on you disliking a character on a post that's clearly meant to appreciate said character. Stop with the "but why? this character sucks." comments. That stuff is just rude, don't tell people they aren't allowed to enjoy fictional characters.

Rant over. That's the gist on why I haven't returned to posting on reddit, and also about an annoying experience from a month back that I felt people need to learn on what exactly not to do as a human being. Sorry if that got negative, anon. I do appreciate that you recognize me though. It at least reminds me that my time spent there isn't all bad, y'know? Thanks again.

[capri-ramblings]

Queen & Chaos

An original Yandere Twst Fic.

Summary: In the Rose Kingdom, far but near, peaceful yet chaotic, a coup has overthrown its original Queen of Hearts, leaving her throne vacant and no later filled by Riddle Rosehearts, a young yet powerful mage with a ruthlessness as sharp as any blade, but the hidden sceptre he keeps near him is what terrifies people the most.

With the smile of a Cheshire cat and a glimmer of madness made only for the Hatter, You stand in-between the chaos of this Twisted world as if you're dancing to a tune only you can hear.

Pairing: Yandere Riddle X FemReader

Chapter one

Riddle woke up to the sound of thudding outside his room. The walls of his castles trembling at what seemed to be a rhythm of marching soldiers.

His eyes fluttered open and saw the ceiling first, his limbs heavy and mouth dry. He tried moving his body but found that he could not.

Instantly, his mind went back to the tea party he had earlier that day and he bitterly decided that someone had spiked his usual tea with some sort of paralyzer.

"How dare they?" The words screamed in his head, and though he had no control over his own expression, Riddle was scowling internally.

Once he knew the culprits,it would be off with their heads.

When the marching stopped and the door to his bedroom swung opened, Riddle heard a familiar voice; The current Knight Commander's.

"Is he awake?" Asked a voice Riddle couldn't recognized, hushed and timid.

The Knight Commander strode to the side of his bed,eyes narrowing at the sight of the immobile Riddle.

"He is."

There was a silence before the second voice spoke up again, somehow a tad louder and filled with rejoice.

"Then, we've done it?" They said "We've subdued the Queen of Hearts?"

A string of cheers came after that, and Riddle felt the rush of his own blood boiling within his veins. To think that there would be those who would oppose of his ruling...Riddle partially held the blame to himself. He should've been more aware. Should've kept a tighter leash on his people.

The frustration must've shown on his face somehow, because the Knight Commander seemed to hold a pitiful look in his stern eyes when he stared down at him then.

"Forgive me." Was what Riddle heard as the man took out a small dagger and placed it against Riddle's throat.

He pressed hard into his skin, would've slit his throat in that moment if the footsoldiers at the door entrance hadn't suddenly started dancing.

The Knight Commander turned his head to the group, puzzlement in his gaze as he told them to stop.

"What are you doing? The mission isn't over yet! This is no time to celebrate!"

"W-We're not,Sir!" Said one of the soldiers before he did a turn and linked his arm with another.

"We can't seem to control our bodies!"

The Knight Commander then whipped his head back to Riddle, a look of panic residing in his features.

He wanted to speak but his train of thoughts were cut off by a laugh that echoed through the halls.

"What do we have here,I wonder?" You waltzed into the room via the strings of dancing soldiers almost effortlessly. Steps light and quick whilst you switched from soldier to soldier until you came to the foot of Riddle's bed and gave the Knight Commander a curtsy as a finishing touch.

The man looked to you with a mix of disdain and horror. The realization of his mistake dawning on him harshly.

"Curiouser,and curiouser" You murmured, thoughtfully before your gaze went up to Riddle's stiff form and a smile graced your lips.

"Did the Queen of Hearts got pushed into a stalemate? I would've never thought I'd see the day, really. You're full of surprises aren't you,Your Highness?"

Your words are playful. A lilt of fondness and admiration laced in a twisted obsession.

Yes. The Knight Commander had forgotten one important detail in his meticulous plan. He had omitted your existence, and that truly was an unfortunate choice.

After all, how could a Queen rule without her sceptre?

"I would applaud you, Sir" You said, turning promptly to the Knight Commander who immediately placed his hand on the hilt of his sword while the one with the dagger tightened, its blade pressing into the nub of Riddle's throat.

Something in your stomach churned at the sight of it all. Seeing how Riddle looked ever so defenceless and how a man of great esteem was risking his and many other lives to ensue the end of a tyrannical rule.

You felt like crying. Oh,how pitiful.

How exciting.

"But I don't think an applause is what you're after"

"I am after the rights of the people" He snapped "The right to have a ruler who would not run their people down to the ground at the slightest hint of disobedience."

"Oh?" You nodded your head, an empty habit rather than an understanding gesture. "You sound so serious all of the sudden...Tell me,were you planning on killing him?"

You trailed your gaze back to Riddle,then felt the silence given to you by the Knight Commander as a form of a 'Yes'.

"Well,you can." You said "I'd let you do just that if that's what you really desire."

Riddle didn't have to say anything then for you to know he was cursing your disloyalty at the moment. The way his chest heaved heavily was already a sign of his great displeasure.

But alas, you were simply making an offer. He didn't need to be so ruffled up. He wasn't going to die, yet.

"How about it?" You prompted with your hands held in the air, surrendering. The smile you wore was so genuine, so very absent of ill intent, and yet the Knight Commander couldn't help but flinch from it. The bitter taste of cruelty dripping from the way your eyes seemed to glaze over.

"What are you implying?"

"Come now. Didn't I say it already? If that's the greatest desire you have, then I'll let you fulfill it."

"You're going to let him die?" The Knight Commander scoffed, "I know who you are, and if your reputation exceeds you then you would never let him die."

Your heart did a small flutter at that. A tinge of embarrassment causing your cheeks to flush. Did your dedication seem too vivid? Oh, how unsightly.

"He is my Queen,yes. That much is true, but in speaking of this current matter, I wouldn't really be letting him die if you agreed to my offer"

You placed your hands behind your back, stealing a quick glance at Riddle who still seemed under the influence of the drug.

"What offer?"

Your lips smiled at the question. You really thought he was going to draw out this conversation with how stoic he was, which would've ended this whole dilemma quickly since then you would've been annoyed and killed the entire group yourself.

"Oh, it's a promising one!", Your hands clapped together as you cheered this out, before the lightness of your demeanor disappeared and the room suddenly fell into a dark disposition. A swell of tension and cruelty intertwined.

"You're free to kill him and bring peace to your people as you said you would, but then I get to have your men. The entire battalion. Your army of dutiful soldiers would be my collection of dancing nutcrackers. Fair deal, isn't it?"

It was such a quick shift of mood, that when the Knight Commander hurled his sword in your direction, you almost thought you'd lose your head.

"Are you mad?" He yelled, breathless and ragged. You smiled at him oddly,head tilting.

"I'm not." You replied then grinned half heartedly. "But you seem to be filled to the brim with it,don't you? Your eyes are flaring, Commander."

"Do you think I would give my people to you? Do you take me as a desperate fool?" The tip of his sword glistened maliciously in your face, and you estimated that if he moved toward you then you'd have no chance of deflecting.

"Well, what did you expect? The price of a Queen would be an entire army wouldn't it? How could I give away something so valuable without expecting anything in return?".

"I refuse." The Knight Commander growled,his expression taut and etched with a sort of rage that had you frowning in annoyance.

"Won't you think it over a bit more at least? Your men would die if you don't choose a side."

"What?"

Ah,that seemed to catch his attention, didn't it? A small smile formed on your lips and you nodded your head again.

"It's obvious isn't it? If you choose to kill the Queen in exchange for your men, then at least one group would walk to see another day. Oh,but if you refused, then you'd all die. Which is a shame. You know I've always wanted a set of toy soldiers ever since I was young"

The force of the blade coming at you was overwhelming, but quick to slither away, you stepped within the circle of the dancing soldiers and had one of them take the first slice of the blade.

The blood curdling scream escaping the poor soldier caused the Knight Commander to seize his attack, as he watched one of his men fall the ground with a dull thud. The deep crimson of his blood soaking the wooden boards.

He stared, horrified at what he'd done before his gaze lifted and he flared his anger in your direction.

Though, when he began to move forward, you were frowning and seemed to be glaring back at him.

Or rather,behind him.

"Enough of your games."

The Knight Commander spun around a second too late as Riddle snatched the dagger from his hand and thrusted it into the nape of his neck. His cold rage tinting the grey in his eyes as he stared the man down from where he stood on his bed.

Riddle felt the last shred of energy he had left him in the breath he took to calm his nerves, and as the Knight Commander began struggling to take the blade out, he fell back onto his mattress.

"Clean this up,____" You heard him mutter out, the sound of your name on his tongue making it harder for you to stay irritated at the fact he'd ruin your fun.

Letting out a sigh, you pursed your lips.

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