#i'm back babye

[hollywoodsargeant]

boyish - chapter 12 16.5k words | 151.8k words total | loscar

“You’re just the expert of amicable break ups, or something.” Logan doesn’t think about Oscar saying that when one of Mia’s friends comes into his work the summer after graduation and asks if he’s “finally dating that Australian boy.” He says no, because he’s not, and she leaves appearing unconvinced. Logan can barely remember her name, but for some reason, he’s upset she doesn’t know Oscar’s. It makes him feel weirdly sick. He daydreams about crawling into a bucket of live bait and waiting to be thrown out to the water, seeing who will latch onto him first.

IT'S BEEN 84 YEARS (three months)... i hope this waters ur crops. 16k words of boyish loscar back on the table. my semester is almost over and i might explode if i don't finish this fic soon i have been dying to share the ending with you all <3 if anyone remembers me saying i was afraid of chapter 12 please know it kicked my ass way harder than i ever dreamed it could. PLEASE ENJOY!

+ here is a link to chapter one if you would prefer :)

#i'm back babye #it's basically winter break time #(i still have one more final but shh) #i am cooking. loscar. once again #COOKING BOYISH #i forget how i used to tag these posts oh god #loscar #boyish.miamis #f1 fic #f1 fanfic #f1 fic rec #0281 #loscar fic #pleaseplease enjoy i am sorry about the wait i hope u all like it et cetera et cetera #we will make it through this bc i said so

[heretherebedork]

Oh, the tiny side babyness of them all. The best little crumbs. I love them so much.

When you're harsh enough to get two experienced employees to make Meaningful Eye Contact with each other over your phrasing, you've probably gone too far.

I love King so much. Seriously. He's such a sweetheart. And he is, of course, right. Because he knows what it means to hurt someone with your words even when you truly didn't mean and what it means to go too far with what you say.

I do love how much he was willing to deal with but still having a distinct line for himself... I love Gus so much. He's just such a good boy and he's doing his best and he might have a giant crush but he also has dignity.

You did, in fact, tell him that he talked too much very recently and very harshly so I'm not quite sure what else you expected, Tong.

The shocked look, the surprise on his face, the way Tong didn't think that what he said meant that much but how much it hurt Gus has come strikingly into focus and it's amazing.

Tong's got very good sad puppy dog eyes, y'all. They're good. Like, that's a master level right there. Probably for the best Gus is obviously immune. Honestly impressive. Poor boy had to be so hurt by what Tong said.

One of the best parts of this scene was how much frustration Gus was able to show from behind a pillar and then with his back turned. Never, for a second, could you doubt how little he wanted Tong taking care of him in that moment.

I do appreciate that he does apologize. He really does. He's trying, at least.

Oh, hey, the Thai equivalent of 'the tree remembers what the ax forgets'! Nice.

All I want is more of them.

#middleman's love #the middleman's love #tonggus #gustong #tong x gus #gus x tong #thai bl #thai bl drama #bl drama #asianlgbtqdramas #thaibl #asian lgbtq dramas #thai series #thai bl series #thai drama #bl series

[cluttertired]

Diaries of a sugar baby

Warnings: Sugar babyness

January 4, 2024

He asked if I wanted coffee but my stomach was churning, a pout slowly formed on my lips as I mulled over the acerbic tang of the company meeting that had occurred hours prior to him picking me up in his toned down black Corvette.

"Meow-yn?"

I blink, thoughts bursting out into fissures of coalescing and scattered particles beyond my eyelids, my gaze wavering to his as he bends down to my eye level.

I flush at the attention as a few teens snicker behind the stupid nickname he had so lovingly given me.

"My name is YN, please." I beg but he merely smirks and carts us off past an alley decorated with nothing but stones and brick and the occasional smell of human pee and into Auntie Anne's hidden izakaya.

As soon as we step through the curtain barred doorway, auntie Anne pops her bandanaed head from the small kitchen, welcoming us with a warm greeting.

"Ara? Ken-chan, the lovebirds are here."

Yoongi waves as his uncle's balding head follows that of his wife's and he grins.

"The VIP treatment coming right up," he signals one of the waiter boys to scramble and prepare the dining room that Yoongi had always taken me to, and when it's finished, we are led into this massive hall which is a huge contrast to the quaintness of the bar below and Yoongi gently pushes me into the wall as the waiter boy's footsteps recede downstairs probably to get our meal ready.

I shudder, my hands gripping at the hem of his Versace coat as the man begins to nip on my collar bone, right hand slowly digging underneath my clothes, into my ribs and reaches my nipples where his fingers lovingly stroke.

"Mm, Yoongi-oppa." I breathe, eyes closed as he withdraws not before pecking my mouth chastely.

We stare at each other for a moment before he smiles, and my heart skips a beat because he has never once smiled like like I hung up the moon for him. "I love you, YN. I am so very much in love with you. "

My breath hitches just as I hear the sound of crisps and smell the sweet scent of meat and Auntie Anne could be heard barking orders to her husband.

I swallow as the man - my man waits patiently, his thumb caressing my ring finger (whether it was intentional or not I would never know until a year later when he proposed to me) - and I sniff.

"I, I meow you too!" I bleat.

Fuck.

"I mean I l-love you too!" I squawk in embarrassment and he laughs and it is the most pleasing sound ever and my thighs rub against themselves and he notices and then he's got this feral glint in his eyes and then he's locking the door and -

Five minutes later, I'm shuddering not from the cold but from utter, absolute, pure pleasure as I let the wetness trickle from between my thighs, Yoongi panting on top of me and hugging me tight.

And then I feel the hardness once more and-

T-the food!

I voice out my concerns, but his seductive grunts keep me distracted and he doesn't answer.

It is only when my sugar daddy turned lover has his eyes rolled back, hair slick with sweat, abs on display and my legs upon his shoulders that I noticed the darkness from outside silently creeping in and Auntie Anne had never once bothered to check on us.

End.

#bts army #bts suga #suga sugar daddy #bts x reader #suga x reader #suga x you #yoongi x you #yoongi x reader #yoongi x yn #soft smut

[shouldiusemyname]

Since @thegalwhorants - bestie put me back in my Boston feels at 4am with this, I am now compelled, and encouraged, to write about It!

So you know what this means...

Yup, You Got it. ANOTHER TRIP TO BOSTON!

Honestly, I don't even know if it's Neo's babyness or my reading of Boston, but my heart goes out to him... See, it's like a case of the reverse 3 bears syndrome:

SandRay are too close and personal for me. too many similarities with my own actual experiences and I get overwhelmed thinking about them. AKA the bed that fits perfectly but makes me disconnect out of sheer overwhelm over how comfortable I am in that mess.

TopMew just piss me off, and I took quite a trip to realize that it's a good thing. I honestly believe that that's how I'm supposed to be feeling and I'm learning to enjoy the experience. However, if I were to write about it the only coming out would be a series of incoherent rants which I will spare you from. AKA the middle sized bed that just pisses me off! Like This is too "one size fits all" but I KNOW something's off and I can't relax and enjoy my sleep.

The only ones left are Boston and Nick - my big comfy bed. I can understand this bed. I have experienced this bed before but I have no unsolved issues about it. I can move around comfortably on this bed and sleeping in it once again just makes me feel good about myself and my past experiences.

So now, after I've taken you out on a stroll through the inner workings of my mind, let's talk about BOSTON! and Nick cos you gotta have some Nick in there...

Boston is compelling. That's it.

He is compelling for Nick for the same reason his father is compelling for him. Boston come off as carefree, no BS kinda guy, I do what I want, nothing gets to me and I don't care about people's opinions. I glide and float through life and nothing can touch me.

This is super attractive and compelling for someone like, say I don't know... Nick? Who feels like he's trapped by familial obligations. That's why Nick (thinks he) knows full well what he's getting into with Boston. That's because he is attracted to THAT side of Boston who is a loose canon, that side of Boston who he wishes to have in his life (so somewhat - I actually wanted to be him, but he's hot so I ended up fucking him and now I'm in love).

Anygay... Boston - by now I hope you can see that this is all a facade. This is all him adopting and taking on his father's persona. See, Boston has no roots. His mother bolted to the other side of the planet and left him with a father who can't father. There's no parental authority, no boundaries or values. So, Boston had to instinctively understand that if he wants those boundaries, he needs to exist within the boundaries of his father's personality (I hope this makes sense and that you get what I mean). Basically, he will get his father's attention, good or bad, if it's about something that exists within his father's framework or world. Anything other than what exists there means that Boston is on his own to figure out life.

Naturally, Boston takes on that attitude and it serves him in two ways:

he gets his father's attention and approval.

He can disconnect from his own self and not go through the pain of feeling his emotions. This is super obvious in the Ray confrontation - it seems like he's enjoying the fact that he's hurting Ray, but you can actually see the switch go off. I'll get into it in a bit.

This is also why he truly can't connect the dots and see how contradictory he's being when he fails to live up to his own values, re: I will record my friends' deeply personal moment but I will not have that done to me. This is not a contradiction in his mind because these two things live in two disconnected parts of his being - the mind and the feels.

ok, now I want to get into the ep.6 Ray confrontation because this was gold! *grabbing some screenshots...just a sec...aaaaand done*

Frist of all, the sheer confusion of Boston's face when Ray comes at him. Liks, what have I done? What could I have possibly done to make Ray so angry?!

We did have some fun laughing about Boston doing so much that he needs to do a quick mental scan of all the shit he's done trying to figure out what Ray's talking about. But NO. Boston is genuinely blanking here.

But here. This? This is where it starts getting interesting, cos this

This is the face of fear. This is what Boston looks like when he's feeling his emotions.

Then, when Ray tells him "how could you do that...he's your friend" It hits him and he switches. a brief moment of actual pain here

This is first step partial shut down. Immediate emotions disconnected and he enters damage control mode.

This is when he tries to rationalize by BSing his way around how this is making him feel. Ray is not letting it go and he's not buying the "I just wanted sex and the timing was off" excuse (if you can call it that), THEN! Ray calls him a slut, the transformation is complete and Chaos Demon takes over with the most hurtful and mean thing he could have said at that point "Not just anyone. I PICKED him"

This look is terrifying. Not because it's evil, but because of the disconnect. This is 100% you made me HURT and FEEL PAIN and I refuse to feel any of it. (I wish I had a gif of the shrug cos that just completes the transformation)

After that he just goes into full attack dog mode and he's on a mission to DESTROY Ray.

OK, I think it's enough for now. I just know I will be writing about him again as B&N are my big bed with plenty of wiggle room characters.

As always, thank you for visiting my soapbox. I appreciate you sticking this out (I did have more screenshots this time!).

Much love ❤️

#not me sitting at 4:30am to write this #ofts #only friends the series #only friends meta #another trip to boston #only friends #bostonnick

[romadine]

lowkey normal Ichika headcanon:

I might add these on my fix, tee-hee~

Unlike her brother, Yami Sukehiro, Ichika is absolutely terrible in art/drawing. It's something they could laugh about once they've reconciled. 🥺🤧

Yami making fun of Ichika for donning a frightening mask despite being a shrimp. Probably something along the lines of "hey, what's the mask for?" 😭🤣

Being both strong independent women but still sweet enough on the inside, Ichika and Charlotte might really be close enough to consider each other as sisters. Ichika might help Yami realize his feelings or give him ideas for their (YamiChar) upcoming tea date.

One thing for sure, Yosuga teases her a damn lot and now she's immune to it as she couldn't go against someone of superior status. Plus, she has heard enough of Yosuga's nonstop blabbering about the flame woman of his dreams 😭🤣

cray cray headcanons

Remember these pet beasts? They wouldn't go near Ichika and when she tries to feed them, they'll hide deeper in their cages 😭😭😭 But seriously though, what happened to them? Can't remember where they are rn. LMAOOO

When BB and Yami had enough of her incessant frowning + temper, they threatened to not return Ichika back to her country under the guise of 'not having enough mana' or something. She has to play nice now with Finral, Yami, and co, otherwise it's babye LOS. 😭🤣

Komari tried countless of times before to give Ichika's wardrobes a makeovers. Lots of which was denied by Ichika stating that her current hakama speak of great status blah blah. One day, Ichika found her hakama being customized to fit her size snuggly that she freaked out and demanded her wide puffy sleeves robe back. Komari never tried again.

Still feeling awkward, she only calls her brother "Sukehiro", "You", or "Yami" (as the Cloverians used to regard him.) But then she got into some trouble during her stay on CK and needs someone, a resident of CK, to back her up. Yami rushed to the place and Ichika looked guilty.

"a-ano... onii-chan?" She squeaked in a low-pitched voice.

"HuUUuuUuhH??"

On that day, Yami learned Ichika only calls him brother when she's in trouble 😭

This one's my favorite. Ichika actually has high alcohol tolerance but rarely drinks as her tummy gets bloated and the taste doesn't really suit her. Yami was shocked to see her drink booze with them on a party that whenever he drinks and Ichika's there, he prepares a damn lot. Take, for instance, this made up scene:

Ichika saw her brother silent sitting on the floor while admiring the moonless night. Beside him is a bottle used to hold liquors. She bet it has something to do with him meeting Charlotte's parents.

"...you good there?" She asked cautiously as if trying not to poach a sensitive topic.

"Yeah, I think so."

"Mind if I have some?"

"ehhhhh, that's alcohol!" Ichika raised a brow. "Tsk, help yourself." Yami relented and offered her the bottle.

Ichika grinned a little and took a sip to which she spit seconds later.

"Sukehiro, this IS JUICE!? WTFFFF"

Yami boisterous laughter echoed everywhere.

"Did you see me complaining? Huh, did you??" He grabbed her skull and took on an interrogating tone. "Who taught you to drink, you brat?! Too young!" Ain't no way he's gonna be a bad influence to her!

I still have a lot more but I forgot 😭😭 Lunch calls me 🤧🤧 I'm gonna need this in the near future just in case I forgot.

~Off you go, my delusional mind!~

#ichika black clover #yami ichika #ichika yami #yami sukehiro #headcanons

[dballzposting]

See when Goku died the second time it was such a morose and sensitive time and Chichi was due for another baby and there was just no room for negativity any more. It was sad and quiet and sweet and bittersweet and careful. She had a new beautiful baby boy and Gohan had a new baby brother.

It was a time of gentle healing. There was relief in the peace.

Because of that I'm very interested in the time when suddenly Goten was old enough that Chichi saw it fit to start beating him. It's been years and the tone of the house has been studious and sensitive, and the new baby has been such a blessing that no one has ever gotten THAT mad about anything lately. Chichi has not used the iron skillet on Gohan in this time, though there were a few times where Gohan felt it would be threatened - but mostly, he felt that he was old enough that that wasnt gonna happen anymore. He felt some sense of satisfaction at his own strength, and that the peace was earned. This house is an emotionally sensitive and intelligent one now.

But chichi is maligned and it's going to come out somehow. When Goten gets to be about 6, Chichi stops being comforted by his babyness and her patience starts to wear thin with him. It starts being ok to slap him, for some reason.

And I just imagine the SICK HORROR that Gohan would feel, in his bedroom, doing his schoolwork like a good boy, when he can hear his mother's tone go sharp in the other room, and then the unmistakable CRACK of a slap to the face. It's defintiely not her strongest, but it stings on babyfat.

The way Gohan's heart would SINK ... he would feel so sick immediately.. It's as if that behavior never left their house, and he's responding in an uncapped adverse way as if he's still young hinself - but unlike when he was young, he's lost the defensive emotional wall regarding it that would have spared him the embarrassment of tears. His defenses have disintegrated with disuse and the panic and pain and sickened SADNESS of hearing that from the other room is suddenly intolerable.

He would act but he knows that theres nothing he could say to get through to Chichi .. and he knows that he cant talk back to his mother. He has too much empathy for her at this present time, so while he DOES hurry out into the room and take Goten into his protective arms and beg their mom to not do that, to beseech how COULD she do that?, to remind her of their saddened circumstances, and to ultimately startle her by the way he's trembling and his voice in a pre-tears wounded cadence, he does not blame her like he should. He knows shes stressed.

Not much can really be done about Chichi so Gohan just tries to keep Goten close, and to specifically encourage him to leave the room with him whenever Gohan starts to sense that Chichi is operating on one nerve only. But who knows what is free to transpire when Gohan isnt around.

Chichi does try to train Goten a little bit, and gives up immediately + dissolves to tears when he goes super saiyan. I dont imagine this rejection by his mother felt good to Goten. And he does learn to fight over at Capsule Corp, but it's a completely different environment and circumstance than when Chichi cracks the wooden spoon over his head.

There is one time where Goten, as he learns about the world, wonders why there is a difference. And there's a day where he catches the spoon before it makes it to his head. As he and Chichi stare at the spoon, frozen in its trajectory, Goten doesnt know exactly what this means yet. He feels a bit shy at the defiance, and a lot of pride at having defended his organism - but then his mother mobilizes in a response of pure shock, fear, and pain. She starts to cry and it's clear she feels betrayed. It's clear he's in trouble. And Goten then is overwhelmed with the new knowledge that - oh, oh no, I'm not suppsoed to do that, I'm not suppsoed to dishonor my mother by getting in her way and going against her will, look at how upset I've made her, look at how much she doesnt love me right now! I've committed a grave defilement of our honor! I've lost her love!

So naturally he never does that again.

I've written about this before but it was only briefly + in the middle of a 6600 word post about GT Trunks, so I'll summarize to the best of my memory: Goten, as his mother's baby boy and saving grace, as her only source of happiness and salvation, as her only source of purity, and as a male who is always told how much he looks like his father (by whom she has taken pain from), feels personally responsible for his mother's emotionally state and feels BEYOND ABYSMAL whenever he feels that he has besmirched her. This is a response to a wound of early childhood and is a moodstate that is out of context in our present time, but is just as persuasive. He feels inconsolably depressed at these times because it's the feeling a baby would have when it got the sense that its mother didnt love it.

He's a happy guy otherwise and he'll go through life being so true to hinself UNTIL he's suddenly down. He's a martial artist + so in-tuned with hinself and his authenticity and his organism's natural healing resources so the effect isnt as PERVASIVE or ENDURING as it could be, but still detrimental.

He'll walk around on GT being a slag and playfully going against his mother's wishes for the priority of authenticity, but if his mother actuslly shed tears or expressed real distress that he's not making any real commitments or efforts toward marriage, then he would get down on his knees on the floor next to her chair and gently grip the arm that Chichi is using to cover her tears and he would promise her, promise her, promise her that he'll do better. As an old wound, he CAN NOT and WILL NOT end up like the father that everyone says he looks like, whose absence he has seen cause his mother irreparable misery and stress over the years. He'll be a good son and a better husband than his father ever was. He looks up a lot to Goku of course but in these moments, it's just between him and his mother, and he just wants to soothe her as he was able to do when he was a sweet baby boy and earn her love. He'll give her a good daughter-in-law and grandkids like she wants.

Goten is a wild man and he loves being himself BUT at times like this he takes a MASSIVE HIT regarding his percieved loss of purity. He knows love and pleasure and sincerity and beauty when he sees it, but at these times and in this moodstate, he feels like he deserves to die for all the pretty women's hands he has held and not honored through marriage. When in his frat years Kinto-Un temporarily rejected him on account of his shitting in one too many urinals, that triggered one of those episodes and he was AWOL for a short while.

Obviously this is clearly fucked. Chichi has made her baby boy responsible for her emotions, becasue she evidently cant moderate/regulate them on her own, when in parenting it's suppsoed to be the other way around. Though I know she loves and is loyal to her family so deeply, she has conducted herself in a manner that has colored her love as conditional and equaling to her satisfaction in her child. She is reactive and explosive and temperamental. She is emotionally immature. Why. I feel like she had a fine dad so why is she like this

Gohan knows this about her and he just sort of .. moves out about it. He takes refuge in his work. He starts his own family. He lets Goten visit as much as he wants. Gohan of course loves his mother and feels responsible for her in the way that one with a sensitive and elderly mother would, and he really does want her to be happy, but he also shuts down a lot of her behaviors and a lot of his responses to her emotions for the sake of his own wellbeing. But he also avoids the topic of her insanity and will not read any books that could explain her behavior or help him to heal, he just hyperfocuses on bugs and disassociates from himself to get by. Whatever

The only one who could ever tame ms Chichi BTW was Piccolo becasue he brought her much-needed peace and security.

Ms Chichi everyone

#dballz posting

[sammy8d257]

Anyway, I'm finally back on Wifi

This was the Anon Ask I got sent

I already blocked the Anon but I did save a screenshot of it

CW: Mild LGBT/Queer-phobic language

ajxhshdhsh

Bruh do you know where you are?

Asking a Tumblr community to NOT be gay is like asking a fish to NOT live in water.

How bout you take a page out of your own "Freedom of Speech" book and suck it up and realize that there are people who are different than you. If you wanna see the sticks and cis and straight, more power to you, but that doesn't mean others have to see the same way as YOU do.

I'm sorry that my headcanons for these fictional characters is upsetting you

But maybe the problem isn't that I find enjoyment in seeing and headcanoning other characters to be like me, maybe the problem is that you just hate people who aren't Cis, Straight, and Allo. And let me tell you, I'm neither of those three. (I'm a Triple A Battery, BABYE!!!)

And if that's the case, buddy, I think you're the one with the issues here.

ALSO

Hey, I don't appreciate the fact that one of your little "members" have been trying the drag my name through the mud by going to my own mutual's pages and accusing me (and others) of "attacking" you.

I have never once "went after or attacked" anyone from your little "freedom of speech" group, nor have I ever sent any of my followers either.

Bud, I didn't know your group existed until I got tagged in a post because one of you guys sent an ask to a mutual.

Sure, have your freedom of speech to say whatever you want, but just as much as you can say Bigoted Shit, I have every right to call you out and block you for it.

You have freedom of speech but that doesn't excuse you from the consequences.

#Sammy8D says #Sammy8D answers #What a way to spend a vacation day #ajdjajdjjsjd #cw queerphobia #ajdjsbdjsjhd #This isnt CNN ajdjsjdjjsjdj #Im weak what is this comparison #My guess are these guys are like 13-15 years old and are still very much in the Gay and Trans are Bad mentality #which in that case #I hope they grow up

[sleepychinitaprincess]

20240223

"dream about a recurring person"

hoy kalami magsulti ug bad words pero di na lang sa. I'm trying. I'm really trying to keep him at the back of my mind to keep the pain bearable and minimal. I was even thinking of different things last night. I tried.

so, this is what happened in my dream, I forgot the exact details but these are some of what I remembered... I had a message sent to him nya he left me on read, very similar to what's happening at the moment. Then, I heard he's like organizing an event here in Cagayan de Oro, I think he's the in charge of design and different things. I, then, started receiving messages from him na he's coming here. Very weird kay gasend siyag message kay sa ig nya ang fb messages (ata?) nako kay ginaseen ra daw niya.

He came here sa CDO. Like we literally saw each other personally, but I was trying to be cool about it. Gamay ra to nga days nga naa siya here tas I'm not sure but nagkita daw mi sa bulua gym? umay so weird. Tas ako dayn siya gihatod daw sa pier kay mouli na siyag cebu tas nagsakay daw mig jeep ato while gadala ug mga sud an nya katong ninaog na daw siya kay gipanghatag niya ang uban sud an sa driver.

diba bisag sa damgo, ginagawa niya pa rin akong kabit. makamahay kayo nga lake permi ay. lami na kay magpasurgery nya limtan tanan namo pinagsamahan duha kay ako ra may permi gareminisce nya gasuffer. he can't even answer the question of what am I to him. very annoying.

"the revelation"

I promise ireveal nako tanan ni akong kadelulu kay fred once magkami (wow) genuinely talking ko dri. mura sad ug naay chance HAHAHHAHAHAHAHA

"relapse"

Lord, when ko kaya masabi sa iya nga love nako siya?

Lord, gimingaw na sad ko niya, pero siya di man gani katubag sakong pangutana niya if unsa ba jud ko para niya.

Lord, I miss him so much. I miss him all the time.

I don't want to lose him, but at the same time, I want to forget every good memory I associated with him.

sana di na lang kami nagkatagpo kung di naman totoo and genuine ang lahat ng yon para sa kanya. sana di ko na lang siya nakilala kung iba naman pala yung laman ng puso niya ever since the time we met. sana di na lang siya bumalik kung sasaktan niya lang ulit ako. siguro, at the very start pa lang since 2 years ago, he just treated me like one of those girls na reserve niya if ever di sila magwork ng nagustohan niya. now, he's trying to make me his takbohan if ever di sila magwork ng girl niya.

it's so painful, but You know, Lord, how I'm willing to ruin myself for him. You know I'm going to try to believe him even when he's lying. You know I'm going to keep coming back to him once he runs to me. Lord, pagod na pagod na akong mahalin siya. kapoy na kaayo masakitan utro. kapoy kaayo na he can run easily to me, while I can't run easily to him. it's always so unfair. inani jud diay mahigugma? bahalag unfair pero basta siya, okay ra. kapoy na sad kog ingon nga ako na lang unta iya pilion kay kapoy sad pamugos. sige oy, babye na lang.

[cosmoboba]

1, 2, 6, 8! for mr strifey!

OH YEAH DADD-/JJJ

"Why do you like or dislike this character?" + 2. "Favorite canon thing about this character?" - Cloud Strife from Final Fantasy 7

because he's Cloud Strife. thanks for coming to my tedtalk/J

ANYWAYS i'm putting these two questions together with one answer considering that they're kinda the same thing

whenever it comes to this(/ese) question(s) for Cloud i'm just??? Not able to form a proper answer??? My answer just goes all over the place

let's start off with the fact that he fits into the delinquent trope, at least, in my eyes he does with how much retaliates(i.e Sephiroth + Shinra), BUT he does it for the right reasons ofc.

second things second....have I ever said that I'm a suckass for duality in a character? Queue in how Cloud wants to achieve a persona on the outside but is unable to contain that soft babyness within. Fucking loser I love him to death for that. AND NOT TO MENTION how he also struggles with fitting into that masculine standard and acts coldly just to make himself seem "cool", and each time I remember that bit of him I just go "he struggles with achieving being that man ppl expect him to be meanwhile my bitchass struggles with accepting my own femininity in fear that I'd get stereotyped/seen as vulnerable and weak" and it's just straight up "he's my fuckin (fictional)soulmate and god knows it"

AND NOW FOR PHYSICAL APPEARANCE CUZ IM THAT MUCH OF A SLUT OKAY.

"blonde hair and blue eyes is an overrated beauty standard" *fawning over Cloud fawning over Cloud fawning over Clou-*jokes aside technically I still think it's true like cmon now everyone is beautiful stfu with your standards

no cuz the fact that Cloud is canonically teased about looking like a big bird(chocobo) bc of his golden spikes is just....... square enix wants me fuckin dead ok

and no.

don't get me started on those....blue sky....crystal-like...orbs for eyes....that fuckers could stare into my soul....I'd allow him...and this is coming from someone whom is eye contact-shy...

hhmnmnhbbhbnbmnhhbmbnjbhbnmnbhbnmbhbnmbhbnmHBNMNBNHBNMNHN-

oh and he has some great arms too wow my good sir put me in a headlo-

6. "What's something you have in common with this character?" - Cloud Strife from Final Fantasy 7

let's begin with the fact that we both have been outcasted at kiddos, yeah?

Cloud hadn't been able to be accepted by Tifa's friend group, meanwhile I hadn't been able to be accepted by other kids due to my...heritage thanks to the fact that I spoke and looked different among of middle eastern group of kids

so....you can add the fact that we were both considered "weirdos" as kids to the list omg true love/s

not to mention how this both led us to being bitter? Yes I'd be lying if I said I didn't have anger issues(still do) and fought with my older brother's friends(but we're cool now). Same case with Cloud since he always put himself into fights with other kids, and eventually both of us just wanted to do smtg to be noticed/admired by someone too

Reverting back to how I explained elements of his personality that I like, which are. basically the the reasons why I love him in the first place along with other elements ofc-

so I can easily relate to his delinquency, being as I myself am a bit rebellious given the circumstance I am in irl. I disagree a lot with people around mecoughcoughfamilycoughcough I also use rebellion as like...ig a self defense mechanism to put it, which ties into how im unable to accept my own feminine urges bc like said, it's somewhat of a fear bc I dislike being categorized into the gender norm stereotype

Second is with his duality. Now this....is both a pos/ and neg/ context depending on what I'm referring to

for pos, or...neutral ig? I actually don't know how to explain what my personality is, let alone if I'd be considered an introvert. Now, I can't and genuinely don't know how to make friends anymore due to lack of emotional attachment, hence this leads to communicational loss and such, but then when I do become comfy with someone somehow that triggers into me socializing..? Like. to the point where I'm rambling and hell even overtalking

but this is just an example of many that's making me question what my personality is bc then there's times where I'm a douche but then comes the part where I feel really bad that I apologies too much

now...for the neg part

this part ties into my unfortunate hypocrisy, I honestly don't know how to control it. I don't mean hurt anyone, I have no intentions of it. But then when I get forced into scenarios just...where im afraid to actually speak up so...lying is my only gateway

yeah I'm sorry. I won't be going into a venting tizzy I prommie

8. "What's something the fandom does when it comes to this character that you despise?" - Cloud Strife from Final Fantasy 7

....sigh.

okay look. YES I do get jealous when it comes to Cloud's relationship with the ladies.....but if you start misinterpreting/lying about his relationship with them then imma slap a bitch okay

no. Cloud does not hate Aerith and he doesn't want her dead either clearly you don't know what emotional attachment is let alone connection to someone special to you. Have you also forgotten how much Cloud had beaten himself over and over at how he hadn't saved her? Yeah I don't think someone with this much affection to a loved one would feel that fucked up over the fact that they died and they could've done anything to save them

no. Cloud didn't/doesn't hate Tifa for they way he was treated when they were younger. Like said I relate to what happened in our childhoods, and albeit some kids grow up to continue being a pain in the ass to ppl but some grow up to be friends later on, same case with me and my brother's friends. This ain't about me ofc tho but Tifa later on finds out what Cloud went through just to get her to notice him when they were younger, pair that with the trauma of the nibelheim incident and that just made them infinitely closer

I would like to add: no. Cloud sure as fuck DOES NOT think he's Zack. I would imagine he knew who Zack's parents were let alone would've recognized Aerith the moment he saw her. But did he? No, no he fuckin did not.

but anyways mmmm Clooudf Strriofenmnmnm<33333

#✰cosmo ask #Cloud Strife #Final Fantasy vii #ff7

[wizardpigeon]

dude i went to the mall with my friend recently while i was kind of high and had to audibly talk myself out of buying all these pokémon plushes, they were all so damn friendly but also really pricey:(

Dude I feel that so hard, being anywhere I can buy plushies/soft things, clown related items, or rubber ducks while stoned is a nightmare because the only thing keeping me away from that is my anxiety

You remember when I got Skronk? Yeah I nearly cried when I realised I'd forgotten to go back and get him (thank fuck for my mother taking me back the next day)

Why do all the good plushies gotta be so much money :((( I'm just a poor little guy :((((

I'd probably kill someone for a gengar or bulbasoar plushie, bulbs is best babye

#cherry 🍒

[nnatsume]

HI HI GRIMM! we don't interact that much but i want to stop by and remind you to always take care of yourself!! how are you these past few days? always drink water and please look after yourself, thats all babye!!

hi eurieeeee !! :0 uuuu i'm always too shy to interact and i back out last second before sending something aaaa i'm very sorry AAAAAA ;-;.. .. THANK YOU KINDLY MFMMFMFMD SAME TO YOU!! TAKE CARE MHMHM! the same reminder counts for you ♡ i'm holding up pretty well in here neehee.. to be honest i just. drew, played games and then went to bed these days. and i've been sleeping so early... is a normal persons everyday so well-rested.. AHEM. i hope your everyday is more exciting—how are you?!? :D ♡

#💌.mail #♡ ! eurie

[casspurrjoybellbittner]

Wreckless - Invitation to a Pool Party

*Warning Adult Content*

Emmett

I wake up the next morning as soon as the alarm clicks and turn it off before it actually beeps loudly enough to raise the dead. Finnegan is sleeping soundly, all curled up almost in a little ball. I want him. Desperately. I run my fingertip down his stubbly cheek, he looks sexy as hell with his dark hair leaving a shadow on his jaw. He flinches but didn't quite wake up and I take a second to reconsider what I'm about to say. No, I'm going to try. He will react how he reacts but after the two times he's woken up with me and last night, it seems fairly safe.

"Finnegan, time to make me feel good."

He blinks his eyes and takes a deep breath, then seems to realize what I said.

"Morning Emmett."

"Morning darling, get that gorgeous mouth wrapped around my cock where it belongs."

"Hmm, yes," he mumbles, shuffling down under the covers.

"Gonna cum now if you keep talking like that."

I follow him down with my hand, resting it against his neck and then sliding up a bit once he takes me into his mouth. I let him pull back and am glad I do when he says

"Show me what you want. I need you."

And I need him, damn. I roll a bit more to my side so that I can really contain him while making sure he has easy access to my leg to grind against it. I'm more than happy to suck him off too but this is becoming our morning ritual and I could not be more happy about it. I don't offer, he will ask if he wants it. I miss being inside him but that can wait for his place this weekend, right now this is more than enough.

His hair is just getting long enough for me to really grab so I do, holding onto him as I let him choke on my cock. The convulsions of his throat milk me beautifully and I want to shoot but I also want this to last. I won't see him this evening or get to wake up to this tomorrow and I want to enjoy him a little bit longer.

"You're doing such a good job Finnegan, that feels so good. I want you to do something for me."

He pulls back and looks up at me.

"Yes Emmett?"

He's beautiful.

"Do you remember what I did to you last night in the tub?"

"Hmm, felt good."

"Can you get your finger really wet and do it yourself?"

The thought of him fingering himself while humping against my leg makes me struggle to catch my breath.

"I think so."

He makes quite a show of getting his finger slick and then stares right at me as he works it deep. I can see it on his face and watching him is almost as good as what he was doing to my cock a second ago.

"Such a good boy, there you go. Now get back here, I need you."

I guide him back to my cock and he toys with my tip for just a second before letting me back into his sweet heat.

"Hmm," he moans.

Damn if those vibrations aren't amazing. He brings me almost to the brink before he pulls away to catch his breath and then says, as if it isn't the filthiest and most wonderful thing I've ever heard..

"I love being so full. Your cock is choking me, daddy and my finger feels so... good, damn."

He's gonna kill me, that's all there is to it. No one has ever called me Daddy before but I have no issue with him doing it. Quite the opposite, actually, it really does it for me.

"I can fill you up in lots of ways Finnegan, just you wait."

"Want it all."

He's grinding against me feverishly and the more I push him, the more he seems to enjoy it. I'm fucking his throat hard and he feels so good that I worry I for him but he is more than capable of taking care of himself and he will let me know if I go too far. I roll, pinning him even further beneath me and thrusting deep.

"Gonna give you what you need, baby boy, here you go."

I come hard and he shoots just as I'm finishing.

"That's it babye feels good, doesn't it?"

He's breathless and flushed when he pulls away just far enough to rest on my thigh.

"So good, love it. Your cum is really sweet, Emmett, I could drink it all day. Honestly, you make me crazy enough that I probably would."

"Be careful, I have tomorrow off and I might show up at your office to give you lunch."

I'm mostly kidding, maybe.

"God, that sounds, damn that sounds good. Really good. A cum diet would help make up for the amazing dinners, too."

He's ridiculous.

"You have nothing to worry about there but if I do stop by, you have to let me return the favor, darling. I more than owe you."

"I might let you, Emmett but right now I need to get a shower and get my achy ass to work."

He climbs out of bed and on the way to the bathroom says...

"I just want you to know that you could have fucked me, it would have been fine. I think I can do it, at least in the mornings."

"I'll keep that in mind but giving your mouth up is a lot to ask, Finnegan. It's heaven."

"I know. No rush, darling."

*******

Tristan brings Peter lunch and I can't help but think about Finnegan and our possible lunch date tomorrow. I don't realize I'm smiling more than usual until Peter said...

"You've been happy as hell this week. Have anything to do with Finnegan?"

"It has everything to do with him, actually."

"Good." 

He smacks me good-naturedly on the shoulder. 

"That's really good.  Hey, do you guys have any plans Saturday? We're opening up the pool and you guys are more than welcome to come hang. Tristan's finished with classes and he's been wanting to see Finnegan. It's supposed to hit forty and the pool is heated, should be a good day."

"That sounds great Peter and no, we don't have any definite plans that I know of but he's usually busier than I am. I can text him and ask."

"Do it. Tell him Tristan is gonna start stalking him if he doesn't see him soon."

It's funny but maybe not too far from the truth.

"I will."

Emmett Locke: Peter and Tristan want us to come hang at their pool on Saturday. Are you free and interested?

I wonder briefly if he can swim. Maybe that's one of those things he missed.

Emmett Locke: It's fine if you can't swim, there's a shallow end, hot tub and lots of floaties and we won't let you drown. Tristan really wants to see you.

Finnegan Walker: I can swim. Sounds good. What time?

I stick my head in the office.

"What time?"

"Afternoon-ish? Two or so?" Peter offers.

"Whatever works for you guys, honestly..  We'll be out there most of the day."

Emmett Locke: Two-ish but they're flexible.

Finnegan Walker: That works, I need to get a bathing suit but I can do that Saturday morning. You said you're off tomorrow, does that mean you're working?

Emmett Locke: I am, just till noon like usual.  Am I allowed to ask you to get something skimpy and gorgeous?

Finnegan Walkker: No, this is for public viewing, Em.  Ask him what we should bring.

"Peter, can we bring something?"

"Nah," he answers without hesitation.

"I'll probably grill and the bar is stocked."

Emmett Locke: He says no. So I'll tell him we'll be there?

Finnegan Walker: Sure, sounds like fun.

I relay the message to Peter and then get back to work. Half an hour later a thought pops into my head and I wonder if Angie will be there and if she is, how Finnegan will react to her. It probably won't matter, he'll put on a front and be 'mature' as he calls it. Well, it's his choice and either way it'll be a nice afternoon. Hopefully afterwards I can take him to his place and fuck him senseless. This weekend is shaping up really, really nicely. It's been a damn good week all around.

[lizzieblabbers]

wake me up when september ends . . .

this late is post this post is late (so sabaw) because someone forgot to wake me up,,,

KIDDING

hallo, people of the tumblrland ;)

remember when i said in the previous post that i was in the province again? yes, ya girl came back <3

i always say to my friends (or whoever may be there to listen to my nonstop blabbering) that i feel like im a plant--na it is hard for me to adjust once i've developed my roots somewhere. i can't really explain it right now but you get the point (hopefully). and this one's particularly a huge thing because it's my first time travelling without any adult (as if im not an adult myself) supervision :D

the ride there was fun and exciting, i was relaxed the whole time and the travel time was shorter than i've expected, so i was estastic when we arrived hehe

i stayed there for twenty-one days, and i really cant put into words how relaxed i was there. well, there were some instances when the world has required too much of me. but i would very much like not to focus on those because it would just obscure how happy i was with this vacation.

looking back now, i think that in a way, it has changed something within me. i don't know, but know i feel less dependent towards other people (especially my parents; everyone knows im a big babie) and i think it's an achievement because hello??? i think i was still stuck to the seventeen year old me who's supposed to be enjoying her last year free of real-world responsibilities. the pandemic robbed me three years of my life that was intended for me to explore and slowly make my way towards adulthood.

so, yeah. that's a little realization from me.

im not really by myself there, my aunt (whom i call mommy because she's literally one of the mother-like figures i have in my life) is there and her family, i also have the father's side of relatives. i have a lot of people there taking care of me. but there's this certain feeling of independence--that i need to look after myself because no one will do it for me.

i don't know if any of these would make sense because while i am writing this, my lids are slowly becoming droopy, like it was begging for a 15-minute nap.

anyway, i won't really dwell much on my province journey because i promise (PROMISE) will write a separate post, maybe within the week? but i will

the ride back was the most heart-wrenching for me. i was crying for the first thirty minutes (or more, idk anymore) of the ride because i was so sad that i had to leave the little life i had there for twenty-one days. some may say im overreacting, but its twenty-one days!!! i have learned in high school from my mapeh teacher (hi mam cess) that it takes a person twenty-one days to be accustomed to a habit to the point that beyond that, they would already do it unconsciously.

imagine my horror when i was only given a day of rest after a fourteen-hour bus ride before i was forced to be an adult and do errands for the rest of the week?????? like???

anyway though, i pushed through, and now its the fifth day of october and school has started :( vacation is over, but the longing is still here

i guess this is longer than i have expected,,, maybe because i have missed writing in freestyle form :D and also because i think i have a lot to say at the moment as i am avoiding a certain academic task that requires me to think

all in all, september was a happy one. its a huge thing for me to call it happy because ive never felt that happy the whole month. i feel like the universe really gave me my well-deserved break from the world and let me realize things on my own.

i think that's all? i'll blabber more on my vacation post which, hopefully, would be really up this week hehe

babye, world! i'm going back to hiding :D

#september 2023 #lizzie talks a lot #lizzie updates #lizzie is alive thank god

[ohheyitsyouagain]

💥🍭💌

💥find your least kudos'd fic - say something wonderful about it.

before I even look I know it's going to be a Golden Treasure one lmao

yep, it was The Elders. I actually really like this one even though I wrote it in like... five minutes? a humble three-sentence fifty-word story. I came up with the last sentence first and just added the other two to give it something of a theme. I'm getting better and better at making the shortest stories of all time. catch me in 2024 when I usurp the "for sale baby shoes never worn" guy.

🍭why did you start writing?

tiny Damian read warrior cats and went "woah... so cool.... what if I did that..." and it's all gone downhill from there.

💌share something with us about an up-and-coming work (WIP) that has you excited!

excellent time to be asked, because oh boy! I made the mistake of reading through one of my older wips and I'm pissed that I'm too busy with updating Mikeko to actually work on it because IT RULES.

a few months ago (read: last year) I was entering my delirium phase of sleeplessness, when my brain did what it did best and decided to combine two of my big interests: Ace Attorney and Obey Me. the natural way to combine these two is to make the MC of Obey Me an Ace Attorney character.

so like. what if. Pearl Fey. objectively the funniest character to put in this situation because she's eight years old and the brothers would be such whiny pissbabies about having to chaperone her for an entire year. like, babysitting a human would already be annoying, but now it's literally a child who is even more fragile than the average human! they would hate it so so much and I think it would be funny. also it means that the dynamic would be less of a blossoming romance and more of the seven of them accidentally adopting a child (their brotherly instincts combined with Pearl's babyness makes this outcome inevitable), making it superior in every way.

so yes once I'm done with Mikeko (which will be... sometime before artfight at the very least, I hope...) I'm totally going back to it.

#d.txt #asks #cinnamon-bunni #thank fuck i got to mention turnabout exchange student it was making me insane <5

[jollibubby]

Your Greatest What If.

Yuna x Jaehan.

'pano kung bumalik yung greatest what if mo?'

-

Yuna sighs as she sits up and stretches a little before getting up to prepare for the day.

She turns the tv on for her little nephew so he can watch while she prepares. "Watch ka muna dyan baby, si ate naman maliligo."

After taking a quick shower she calls for her brother so they can go to the school. "Ready for first day, bud?" He nods happily, showing yuna his cute smile. "Yes yes ate! Magkikita nanaman kami ni jenny!"

"Right..si jenny" Yuna bites her lips a little and not really liking the idea of bumping into him since it's been a year.

Time skip.

They both arrived at the school. "Okay, we're here na jeno! Behave ka, okay? And what will you do if the teacher is talking?" She looks at jeno, holding both of his hands. "Listen andd be kind kay teacher" she nods and pecks his forehead. "Good and wait for ate after school okay?" Jeno nods and pecks yuna's cheek but he ask for one request before leaving. "Ay ate! Can you bring kuya jj pagbalik mo dito? I just missed him and he used to be the one picking us up after school" Yuna gulps her saliva. "Uhh baka busy si kuya jj m- but he needs to pick up jenny as well so pwede kayo magsabayy" Yuna bites her lips, looking away from her nephew since he's giving the cute eyes again. "O-okay fine, I'll try" he smiles. "Yay! Thank you ate, babye!" Yuna sighs while watching his nephew leave.

-

"Aww love! Happy monthsary din!" Jaehan rolls his eyes hearing her sister talking to her boyfriend as he prepares his little sister's lunch. "Ate, respeto naman oh ang aga aga"

Her sister ignored him and continue her video call with her boyfriend. "Jennyy! Are you ready na, we're gonna be late na" Jaehan said as he puts everything on jenny's bag. "Coming kuya!!" She runs towards jaehan making jaehan smile because of how cute his sister is.

Something caught his attention though, the hair clip that was on jenny's hair. "Jenny, kaninong hair clip yan? Baka pagalitan ka ni ate pag nangielam ka sa gamit niya" Jenny shakes her head. "Hindi toh kay ate lily! Bigay toh sakin ni ate yuna nung birthday ko and I want to wear because I miss her din"

Jaehan was stunned but nodded. "A-ahh busy kasi siya kaya di na kami nagkikita masyado..anyway let's go na" He quickly changes the topic and holds jenny's hand.

"Kuya? Okay lang ba kayo ni ate yuna? Hindi kona siya nakikita and it's like forever na oh.." Jaehan sighs, patting her head when she pouted. "Sometimes may mga bagay na hindi naiintindihan ng mga bata kaya siguro let's just accept na ganun.." Jenny pouts even more. "But hindi ko na masyado nakikita smile mo" Jaehan shakes his head. "Then you could be the one to make kuya smile!" She giggles when her kuya starts tickling him. "Okay okay fine kuya! We're gonna be late na"

-

After school.

Yuna went straight to the school after buying some donuts for jeno.

Jaehan drives to the school as well.

Suddenly they bumped into each other. "Oh shit-" "I'm so sorry, it was my fau-" Yuna stopped her actions when she heard the familiar voice then she turns to look at the person. "Yuna?"

Yuna's ears turned red suddenly she got the feeling of butterflies on her stomach for no reason. This reminds her of their first day meeting each other.

Jaehan stares at her eyes. "Yuna..hi, you uhmm changed a lot.." Yuna looks at him confused. "I mean! you look nice yeah, you look a lot different.."

Yuna nods her head awkwardly not really sure what to say to his ex standing in front of her. "Yeah.. thanks! You don't look bad yourself-"

"Ate yuna!" "Kuya jay!"

They both turned their heads to the two cuties running towards them. "You really brought kuya jj!" "Kala ko hindi na kayo nagkikita ni ate yuna?" The two looked at each other and back to the two.

"Uhmm I guess we met in ac- noo! I just missed your kuya jj" Yuna quickly cuts jaehan off before she hugs jaehan.

Jaehan was startled and doesn't understand yuna. "We just missed each other so muchhh, right?" Yuna looks at jaehan, sending him a signal so the kids won't be disappointed because she knows they're just gonna be confused and dissapointed

"Ohh yeahh, antagal na kaya namin di nagkikitaa" Jaehan wraps his arms around yuna's waist making yuna blush.

"Aww I knew it!" Jenny giggles softly. "Ang cute niyo ni ate yuna, kuya jj!" The two hugged yuna and jaehan.

But they didn't know that this is what the kids are waiting for. To see them together again.

[peculiarmelan]

June 22, 2022

Be strong to let go of the things that are holding you back. Babye muna bes or completely babye na talaga. I'm counting the days. I need to clearly be honest about it.