#idek why I try at this point

[so-overtly-covert]

Wouldn't it be so cool if I could put a roof over my head AND eat from my full time job? Like wouldn't that be so tight? That'd be so sick.

#I'm truly so sick of working for next to nothing #idek why i try at this point

[bunnihearted]

🌧️🫧💭

#i shouldnt have fav mutuals bc i get sooo sad when they soft block me #which *always* happens like im not joking the day will come when they're just like nahhh bye #🥲🥲 nd i cant help but get sad #nd i dont even agree w that anon who said that 'no wonder everyone blocks u' bc im never mean to anyone #i think it's just bc im fundamentally unlikable and unlovable and the time will come when smth abt me #ticks them off nd nothing abt me is ever tolerated i always have to be perfect for everyone so then i just get cut off like dead weight lmao #also it shows that i get attached so easily but in reality ... ppl are not at all as attached to me 💀💀 #like i care abt them but they dont care abt me nd it makes me feel so stupid #why do i so easily care for ppl?????? why do i have to care nd like ppl when it's always gonna end the same way #me being me is bad nd wrong and nobody could ever truly know me nd still like me #i have to live my life constantly hiding parts of myself and making sure im not too authentic or too open bc then i will make ppl dislike me #it rlly is that. im never mean. i never fight. ppl just see smth abt me nd go 'oh ewwwwww' nd then leave #nd if it hasnt already happened it will at some point nd im constantly waiting for the other shoe to drop #whenever i realize i say or did smth wrong im tense waiting for the moment where they'll leave me will arrive #ok this might sound silly bc i was like 'triggered' by smth small but like #all my life thats just how it's been. im not even mean or cruel. i just exist and ppl dont like me or who i am or what i think #i can never be truly myself anywhere. that is sure to result in being all alone 4ever. but i dont like hiding parts of myself #but i have to. but its hard when im trying to hide nd be lowkey but i still manage to make ppl dislike me T-T #idek what im supposed to do bc i just exist nd im not likable. i try to be that but im still not. idk what to do #anyway.. who cares.. j'appartiens seul #but yeah it is bc it's like this for me all the time nd ig that triggered me lmao #i mean just w my sisters.. their issue is just who i am. my personality. i havent been cruel to them. or bullied them. or put them down #they just get irritated from my personality nd who i am. thats what makes them mad. nd they kinda want me to just stop being me nd idk how #to do that and therefore we arent even talking. havent talked for a year #i wanna cry like????? what am i supposed to do??????? im so extremely fucking horrible that just by exisiting nd not being mean or cruel mak #es me unworthy of everything. idk idk like. omg i feel so stupid for being triggered by that #maybe if i had irl friends and a job and a life i wouldnt care but im a fucking loser failure worthless good for nothing idiot. ofc im this

[lord-squiggletits]

IDW1 must take place on an alternate Earth where no one has ever heard of ACAB and everyone wears "thin blue line" merchandise because there's literally no other way that a single Autobot killing a USAmerican cop in self defense would be such worldwide news that even Mexican journalists would go "OMG???? You like, killed a cop?!?!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?" and it wasn't even framed as like, "you killed a human," the phrasing every time any character talked about it was very specifically "he killed a cop".

The cop was also threatening to shoot a group of surrendering/not-attacking/injured Autobots btw which is just the icing on the cake honestly lmao

#yeah i still think about how that plot point's handling in phase 2 was fucking dumb #you can't convince me that if a usamerican cop got shot by an alien people wouldn't be making memes about it #ppl would be making memes like 'you know a pig is a pig because he'll even shoot alien robots when they're surrendering' #i'm also mad bc the gun that that cop had was a replica of cybertronian guns that meg spread among earth's populace #and what's worse is spike and this other guy literally HEARD M EXPLAIN HIS EVIL PLAN ABOUT THIS #but somehow in phase 2 literally no one ever brings it up ever again #like not even spike brings up the whole 'yeah M had mind controlling guns that he did specifically to destabilize the population' #he was just like 'nah that autobot shot a cop the autobots are evil now' #but like. i wanna make the earth ac/ab memes so badly lmao #you know that ppl would be making 'officer down' jokes about some cop getting killed by an alien robot #don't try to tell me that it's bc they're alien robots people would suddenly support the US #ppl literally make 9/11 jokes bc they hate the US that much don't even try to tell me earth would suddenly unite over a usamerican cop #getting shot on the job no less #and this is also a story written by barber who's literally the ac/ab writer that gave OP shit for being a cop so like #it's honestly so baffling. like was he trying to make a point about police brutality #bc jazz is black coded and he killed a cop so that's why barber wrote everyone hating jazz for it? #idek it's just another one of those stupid plot contrivances i hate and make me unable to take the rest of the story seriously

[uzumakiheart]

naruto is insane and mentally ill and like wbk…… but i’m rewatching some scenes and i’m like???? can anybody literally any person tell this 16 year old boy that he’s not responsible for everything…??? like… naruto literally goes up to sasuke and tells him to let his anger simmer and fester and then take it all out on him, he tells the kiri ninja to take their anger on sasuke out on him so sasuke doesn’t have to suffer, he tells iruka that it’s his job/role to bear the world’s hatred and anger????? like baby you are mentally unwell

#this is why i think naruto didn’t want sasuke bearing the weight of the world’s hatred all alone #he dealt with the village’s hatred on his own against his will #like he knows how tough it is to bear everything on your own so ofc he’d try to stop his most precious from doing that #its so crazy #like he’s been alone and hated and he knows how hard it is #im ranting again idek what point im making #txt #hall of fame

[solarismp3]

why to you like megumi and yuuji as a ship? Isn’t satoru and geto better?

Mmmh idk I like both ships but I’m not head over heals over either one of them tbh. I started watching jjk cuz of geto he was my favorite character actually. But idk after he died my interest in jjk also kinda died megumi was the one that caught my attention he’s cute and a bit crazy I kept coming back to jjk just to see him bruh I didn’t even answer your question hfhfjfj

well I like yuuji and megumi because they’re really cool characters. I feel like they’re just really nice as a pair (not in a ship way aswell) and they compliment each other well. They seem to always have each other’s back like good old childhood friends

geto and satoru is kinda top tear cuz the whole killing each other thing y’know but I think satoru is kinda a bit too annoying so I’m not like very interested. And I hate the kenjaku guy he’s really ruining it for me ugh

#Txt #asks #thr manga version of him is so annoying idk like he annoyed me he’s not even nice but the anime version of him I loooove she’s so cuute #These days I’m very into cute guys like megumi and yuuji and nero who are dealing with some things but it’s fine #Also I just think if ur gonna have an overpowered character he has to be fun like dante or else what’s the point y’know this is why I don’t #Like Vergil that much it’s like ok you can cut thru dimensions but ur not even funny #Only when Dante’s around which is cute I love how he lets his guard down around his brother #Ok why am I talking about dmc now idek if I answered your question 😭😭😭 #Sorry tired trying to sleep but I don’t want to

[g3othermal3scapism]

Please keep your negative opinions about a ship out of the tag for the ship. It’s not racist to prefer Stenbrough over Hanbrough. Some people just prefer Stan and Bill’s dynamic, especially from the book.

Thank you.

Ok this isnt the first time ive gotten this response from my post so.. ☠️ im sorry? it genuinely wasnt meant to be super negative it Was a genuine question. I do get how it couldve seemed more negative than intended, though, so sorry! 😊 i havent read the book at all, i dont plan on reading it ever, ive never been apart of the It fandom or claimed to know a lot about it and wanted to ask the Stenbroughs (have u guys ever considered calling urselves like Stenbros or something like as a fandom name) about something that confused me. Sorry Stenbrough nation 😁

#yikes! #my first ever internet discourse!!! #and its for a fandom im not even in #i was not trying to say that ur racist if u like stenbrough.. #i was asking Why people like stenbrough so much. that was the whole point #idek what tp tag this

[izzyizumi]

Taichi Yagami & Koushiro{u} Izumi ~ featuring rp by @izzyizumi as Koushiro{u} + my now-ancient r.p. from 2012 era {I was playing Koushiro from original J.P.N version canon; Clearly the Tai{chi}-mun was using U.S. dub inspirations, but I was fine with that!}

R.P. for Koushiro by @izzyizumi / @koushirouizumi {Do Not Repost or Reproduce without my Permission} {Do Not Remove Caption} (Please Ask to Reference)

Original commentary under the ‘read more’!

The style is one in which starters are the characters talking to their "mun" or players, which is common when "voice-testing" a character to possibly app {apply} into a future {typically pan-fandom, or cross-canon across multiple fan-bases} DWrp {Dreamwidth.org} rp game. Games usually have their own settings, styles and rules and you should carefully consider them before applying to any. (I eventually ended up applying for Koushiro at a DigiAdv{s}-centric game that ended up eventually dying...)

I whited out a few parts to give the former Tai-mun a bit of privacy, but to my knowledge I haven't seen them as active since. Hopefully they won't mind me posting just one old thread between us, because it was really really fun to try back then! Even playing Koushiro was still really fun, despite it being for a very short timeframe of a couple years + even if I never found an active Taichi player {+in a close in age range} to me since.

This was BEFORE Tri had fully aired or before Kokuhaku was even announced, so Koushiro has a small mix of icons I'm using, but sometimes I switch between "canon-points" of early Adventure!Koushiro or late, OWG era or post-02 but pre-epilogue!Koushiro. Tri!Koushiro wasn't even animated more animatedly yet (and much later had very limited appearance in Saikai, etc.), so I was mainly relying on my head-canons for a Koushiro that appears between 2002 and the epilogue, but I often imagined Koushiro of those ages still sticking very close to both 02 and Tri looks. {I did like Tri giving Koushiro back slightly spikier hair, because that was how I imagined Koushiro during in-between years too.} Muns could later go back and update some icons, so some default icons may later change as well. {That's how a Tri!Taichi icon shows here even though it's 2k12}

Also, its very fun because you can personalize your responses even using things like subject headers way better than on this kind of site, and sometimes muns leave you really fun and kind messages that make you want to cry so you try to show them appreciation in turn!!!

#izumi koushirou #yagami taichi #taichi x koushirou #taichi and koushirou #koutai #izzyizumi dw #izzyizumi rp #izzyizumi koushiro #izzyizumi koushiro rp #advs timeline: pre tri #advs fan timeline: pre tri announcement #canon point: between 02s ending and epilogue #(I'm extremely hesitantly posting this because I really DO want to share it also as a piece of fan base history) #(Showing that YES we DID have small presence on sites before This Place) #(AND ALSO BEFORE 2K15 AS A WHOLE) #(This was a really fun {whats called} 'thread' to try I just never ended up finding Taichi players active willing to play with a Koushiro) #(much after that lmao s i g h) #(Anyway stuff like even my things from this time is why I get MAJORLY Peeved when ppl imply Eng side DIDNT Exist as fan base before 2k15) #(Fortunately I'm seeing such things much less implied these days BUT) #(Idek I'm seeing a bunch of ppl trickling back in {even if slowly} since The Beginning dropped and I'm kind of emotional over it) #(Featuring my attempts to keep Koushiro even semi IC while Tai{chi} is Tai{chi} and Koushiro is like 'Ah' 'Oh Taichi-san') #(Anyway I'm posting this but this is also personal fan stuff I did so I'd really appreciate if people are kind on this post) #(I definitely lean towards possible KouTai when ppl are willing but ONLY if they are willing and even this one was mainly friendly fluff!) #({Still Tho Its Fun When Players Are Willing Too---}) #({Also you might want to read from the dash view or click + right click and enlarge to read better})

[ace-din-djarin]

@mblogs inspired me to try to finally learn how to purl! I learned the knit stitch like a decade ago now [good lord] but never mastered the purl stitch. But now I’ve gotten it and I’ve stated an easy knitting pattern! Adding basic knitting to my pile of fiber/yarn arts knowledge— along with crochet, tatting, and bobbin lace. Woo!

#crafts #fiber arts #seriously is that what these various things are called #I have no idea #needlework??? maybe???? #idek #ace’s real life #ace’s lace adventures #not technically but Iike tangentially related #cause eventually I’d like to try knit lace #(I mean why not at this point huh) #knitting

[coloursofaparadox]

>:[

#ive lost like all fear of dogs at this point. i realized that earlier today when a massive rottie started a fight with my boy #and my first instinct on seeing flying teeth was to sprint towards them and shove my body in between #its very possible it was also just all self preservation leaving my body because i am absolutely going to protect my pup #i would probably fight a bear for him there is no question that i would forcibly shove another dog off with my forearm #but fuck. despite the fact that i /know/ better sometimes i have a real real bad fatigue week and i use dog parks. i have like. #a selective list of ones that i will go to categorized by 'least likely to become a boxing ring'. tons of space. multiple separate areas. #i go only at off times when its not busy! i watch dog body language and keep an eye on him at all times. #ill rotate areas if i spot a potential problem. i have him under verbal control and wouldnt even be there if i didnt. but! like! #despite all that. just fucking anyone can go there. 'oh your dogs a puppy thats why my dog attacked him!' idgaf. #speaking as someone who has raised a reactive dog. if your dog is reactive why in the absolute hell would you take them to a dog park. #why!!! lif your dog is consistently fighting other dogs why would you do that! it does not matter if he 'only attacks dogs that arent fixed' #he is still obviously not having a good fucking time and is not going to enjoy this environment holy shit #just. gggHHGGH. i avoid off leash parks as much as i can already but. fuck. idek the point of this im just. #still a bit riled over having to physically throw myself in the middle of a dog fight while the other owner did absolutely nothing. #like just hovered! while his dog was pinning mine and teeth flying attacking and was actively fighting me trying to keep him off #when i can afford it im gonna find some sort of dog group walk/hike thing instead i do not want to socialize my boy like this #i am tired and very very upset because my boy looked so scared and i swear to god if you arent grabbing your dog i will fight it myself #fuck dude. fuck dog parks and fuck me for knowing better and still using em anyways.

[alorz]

VERY dramatic tags

#skin picking cw #self harm due to prev cw #i’m noticing like. pits in my face thatll scar. #i have bio oil and stuff and accutane apprently .. improves scarring. so its not over for me yet #but jesus fucking christ #looking the mirror and seeing tiny little pits in my face where i’ve opened it up???? #dude the amount of BLOOD and i just keep going i feel so fucking insane and helpless?? #and i hate it because i know. i’m NOT . its NY HANDS !!!! TONY YOU CHOSE TO DO THAT #i feel like my #normal support systems are. exhausted by me . or i’m afraid they are. or i know they are and also dont blame them!!! cos like #how many times can you support someone when they come and say ‘umm hehehe i did it again’ #i dont wanna put ppl thru that. but as a result i feel so fucking lonely and ashamed #i keep talkign to therapists about it but i feel like they give me nothinng #i’m just trying to get thru accutane at this point #but i’m so scared i’ll scar my face badly. because its avoidable. its completely avoidable. i feel crazy #sorry this is so . intense i just dont know what to DO with all these feelings or how to liek?? process them??? #and idek why feeling alone is a problem. i wish i could handle things myself but idek if i’m built like that. i dunno

[doppelnatur]

to a certain degree i don't think there is such a thing as purely internalized and internally directed bias. i don't think directing bias at yourself is morally much better than directing it at others it's just a lot harder to stop. that said, as soon as your self cruelty begins to affect anyone else it's just cruelty. a gay man being homophobic is not any more justifiable than a heterosexual man. then again, maybe this entire way of thinking shows a lack of compassion for myself and is a form of bias.

#Idk I'm being mean to myself about capacity and ability stuff. #I'm. Very aware I still hold a lot of ableism. I really really try treating others with kindness and like noticing when something is an #Ableist impulse and seeing it looking at it and letting it go. And I think I usually do a good job. I do. But it's so much harder when it's #It's me and there's no other expert on my experience and my normality than me and I just don't trust me to. Actually know what's going on #Idk I think ableism is the most active unlearning I'm having to do. With both racism and queerphobia it was very gradual #Fatphobia I feel like i never really like. Took in. Idk why and obviously there's some just straight up misinformation that I'm correcting #But that's all so different #Learning about ableism was such a huge thing for me and it helped me let go of so much self loathing and all that all at once #And to also just be kinder to the people in my life. Like significantly. I think I'd be an absolute pos if not for the autistic community #But like. I feel like I've hit a plateau and there's just. Part of this belief system that's just. My character at this point and I don't #I don't know that I'll ever be able to get over it and I think it makes me a bad person or at least a worse person like. In an unfixable wa #Maybe I need to think of myself like the world. Where I don't think an ideal utopia can be built but that just means we have to keep trying #And get as close as possible and watch all the lik e easy fail points carefully and mend and repair. #Like part of the reason I could let go of self hate is just that I genuinely became a significantly better person #Not just the internalized ableism part but the external butt they're the same kind of anyways right #Idek it's 1am

[silvershayde]

I couldn’t for the life of me remember if they managed to get clean, and if they changed into proper clothes after melting an alien door. (In my defence I banged out all these sketches in my breaks whilst studying)

I fucked up the leobromine logo, but i couldnt fix it cause apparently I merged my layers at some point and im not going through the pain of trying to fix it so you cant see the theobromine in it sorry lol

Anyway I couldn’t stop laughing when this came up, the science and the sheer insanity of the plot keeps me going. @ss-shitstorm thank you for your service.

#silverarting #bruh mechs are hard to draw #i recall why i kinda stopped trying #the lewis structure for theobromine can go fuck itself #i ended up doing a skeletal formula instead lol #ive always hated the lewis structure its so long for no reason #especially on molecules that are cyclic #i kept drawing it out to the point i now know it off by heart #and i also now know that if you add a methyl group onto it it makes caffeine #oh yeah theres hecadecimal in the background of the tablet and it means something else in english if i did it right #just convert it to binary first #idek if you can see the numbers lmfao #but yeah i did that #i meant hexadecimal

[im-no-jedi]

you know what? I’m starting to question if Tech’s “sacrifice” was actually Jen and Brad’s idea. the way they talked about it during the panel, questioning whether or not they should actually do it... was it really their idea??

we know that certain decisions in other SW media have come from the higher ups and not the creators of said media (the sequel trilogy in general being the prime example 🙃), so I’m genuinely questioning if this whole thing wasn’t just some marketing ploy to try and garner interest in the series via social media. and if that’s true, there’s no way Jen and Brad were the ones to instigate that. 

it’s kind of backwards honestly, since Disney usually tries to do things that will be marketable via merchandising (as we’ve seen with the return of Grogu in Mando). but I guess since they literally do not care about merch for TBB, garnering profit via social media buzz is their only other option. and what better way to do that than kill off one of the main characters, right??? 🙃🙃🙃

#the bad batch #star wars the bad batch #that Tiktok awakened something vile in me y'all #I'm surprised they haven't taken it down #but not really #because any kind of buzz is better than no buzz #which idek why they're trying to generate buzz for the show at this point #since it's ending after the next season anyway #ohhhhhh man I am LIVID today y'all #star warz

[platypusplayhere]

je sais que schiappa dans playboy c real du coup j'imagine que macron ds pif gadget ça l'ai aussi, quel enfer

thx anon, jvais finir par lâcher une larme avec tout ça

#whyyyyyy? whats the point ? #idek why i still try to understand #ask #platypustalks

[theamazingannie]

People will really be like “idk why homeless people are homeless if not for a failure on their part. It’s so easy to make enough money to survive in this economy. All you have to do is get a job you can only get if you are clean and presentable, something difficult to achieve when you don’t have regular access to a bathroom; get paid less than your worth for soul crushing work; be a grown adult living with strangers to cut your rent but still spending half your paycheck every month solely for rent, which you won’t even be able to achieve unless you save up enough after paying application fees and presentable clothing for the job you need to have before you get the apartment and furniture for the apartment unless you want to sleep on the floor for $800/month which is a big possibility considering your rent takes up half your paycheck and you still have to pay utilities and food and soaps for a shower to remain clean and presentable. And if you don’t want to work that job or it doesn’t pay what you need it to, take up time you don’t have to go to school with money you don’t have to learn a skill so you can be overworked and underpaid for a few dollars an hour more IF you are successful at learning said skill. And If you need extra money along the way, you can always sell parts of your body (but only if you’re healthy cuz if you’re not, which considering you can’t afford a proper diet is a possibility, you’ll be denied) but DON’T do sex work cuz that’s degrading and not at all related to anything else I have said.”

#Twitter making me angry again #idk why I keep doing this to myself #Im like a war veteran who can’t tolerate normal life #so I gotta constantly put myself into a violent rage to feel normal #idek if I expressed myself properly here cuz I’m just ranting #and haven’t even hit all the points they try to make #but being homeless is a failure on the society you live in #maybe there is something you can do to fix your situation #but unless you have assistance from your society it’s going to be unrealistically hard #and no One should have to be put through that to prove that their life has value

[frostysfrenzy]

Having feelings. 1/10 do not recommend

#ive been trying to explain myself in a rant post for 10 minutes now but i can't so anyway #just rambling it ain't fine #idek why I'm making this point but yeah stay safe out there y'all