#idk why but it gets under my skin

[ineedassistance28]

maybe it’s just because i’m a fan of max, but sometimes it annoys me how f1 fans get so happy when he doesn’t finish a race. i understand that it’s boring to see the same person win all the time, and personally there are drivers that i would absolutely love to see win a grand prix (lando, charles, lewis, etc.), but it just rubs me the wrong way to see fans make tiktoks about how the australian gp was beautiful just because max didn’t finish it, and that they hope stuff like this happens for the rest of the season, etc., joke or not.

i just don’t get why people hate max’s success so much when we’re literally witnessing history being made (especially last year’s season). max verstappen’s prime years are some of the most impressive in all of f1, and i feel like more people need to recognize that. it’s amazing that a driver can perform on such a high level and get the best possible performance out of a car so consistently.

i don’t want it to seem like i’m irritated because max didn’t win or something. i think it’s boring when max is out in front with a 20 second gap; i want to see him have proper fights with other drivers that push both of them to the limit. i want to watch someone beat max after battling with him the whole gp, rather than a driver beating/catching up to max because of mechanical issues. it made me so happy to see carlos win a race, knowing that ferrari dropped him for lewis and left him without a seat. it was amazing to see carlos prove that ferrari made a mistake and he’s worthy of a seat in the future, whether that’s next year or 2026. that being said, i would’ve enjoyed it a lot more if max had been able to challenge him.

max as a driver is ridiculously impressive, he has a great personality, and he deserves more support. fans shouldn’t be celebrating because he was knocked out of a race by mechanical issues.

#max verstappen #red bull racing #australian gp 2024 #maybe i’m overreacting #idk why but it gets under my skin #maybe i just feel bad for max after seeing how mad he was after he got out of the car #can you imagine losing a gp-finishing streak like max’s due to soemthing totally out of your control? #i’d be pissed #the australian gp was crazy #i was so scared for george too #congratulations carlos 🎉🎉

[midnight-moth]

Vaguepostingggggggg

#idk I just don’t think Phantom is a big dumb idiot #HCing him as autistic is totally fine and valid #but autistic people aren’t like total dumbasses #and also can we not confuse whimsy with … being a dumbass #no one here #from another place #I just find it kind of frustrating #I know part of his lack of understanding of the world is bc he’s new #but so was every other ghoul at one point #but he gets the big dumb dumb treatment and I can’t help but feel like it’s because ppl hc him as neurodivergent too #and then there’s the infantilizing #no I’m not taking about age regression fics #idk why it is getting under my skin but it is #it is not making him a dummy or ND #but the correlation that some people seem to be making with it #like correlating being ND with being a moron

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

went to go clothes shopping today and i got the cuntiest misa-esque dress for like $8 at the thrift store <3

#it’s covered in hearts and it’s strapless w a low lace-up back and the skirt is short and poofy but it’s sewn at the edges so that the #skirt is like a sphere-ish shape that holds fairly well and i should prob just draw it so what i’m saying makes sense but it is super cute #and i also got some jeans which is new for me i’ve not worn jeans since. um. i think the last time i wore jeans i was. idk. before #i started dressing myself? so under 5 maybe? idk pants feel really restricting to me and jeans esp that’s why i’m always wearing skirts #but i feel up to it rn bc i’ve always thought they were cute and also i think i’m comfortable enough in my skin to do so which i think it’s #usually the opposite for ppl they like pants and are afraid of dresses bc they’re uncomfortable/self conscious/whatever but for me #skirts have always been a safety blanket and they are so comfortable but sometimes skirts are just not practical so i need to like #get comfortable wearing pants and i tried doing it a couple years back but i was like in the midst of an eating disorder so that didn’t go #down well but i’m cool now i’m chill abt things and wearing skirts all the time makes ppl peg me as fem and i’m like ahhhhh stop she/her-in #me when i’m obvi in femboy mode or like when i’m being androgynous but i happen to be wearing a skirt w my outfit it’s annoying #anyway it took me two fucking hours to figure out what size i was bc skirts u don’t really have a size bc u just need it to fit ur waist #and ur golden but pants are so complicated and i have wide hips and thick thighs and it took me foreverrrr to find the right size #but i did and now i will never have to do all of that ever again <3 bc it was stressful every second that i wasn’t looking in the mirror #and making bedroom eyes at myself <3

[maretriarch]

glad im not in school getting bullied anymore. kids going "oh! that's not-" irl to my face wouldve had me knocking over tables for real

#idk why its the most aggravating thing in the world even if its not targeted towards me #gets under my skin BAD but its also a sign of how stupid someone is they cant even think of an actual own #hooooo wojak.jpg

[vipier]

with all due respect to everyone in the rpc, you will never catch me with a n/sfw sideblog

#listen. everyone is free to do what they want. but this admittedly gets under my skin. #we spent years trying to destigmatize shipping and n/sfw content in the rpc and now we're ... separating it completely from our blog? #i simply feel like tagging is plenty. nobody i've seen is out here reblogging hardcore p**n gifs or anything. #and it feels a bit puritanical for my tastes #negative / #just in case bc like. idk. it's not that i'm insensitive to people's needs. but i tag things and i think that covers that responsibility! #will NEVER expect people to write it who don't want to write it! will always tag accordingly! why do we need more! #it seems detrimental to what the rpc spent years trying to accomplish! we've eradicated 'sinday' but this is somehow worse to me.

[technicolorxsn]

hm

#someones asking me for advice that quite frankly idk how to give and am definitely not qualified for #but it does sorta make me think #i think people are bad at calling people on shit and also being compassionate #it seems people choose one or the other; either be completely aggressive and accusatory or be a total doormat #but like. neither of those are condusive to anything #you can acknowledge why someone is doing what theyre doing *and* why what they're doing sucks #and you can tell them this without being aggressive #i feel like ive always had trouble with doing it but idk #when i have been able to cool off and been given space to think i think ive been better abt it #i think being able to think about how you feel; what you would like (within reason); and how to communicate and achieve that is a valuable #skill #tbh i think my main issue these days is idk how to do that with ppl im not close with #theres a handful of peers in my daily life that keep doing shit that kinda gets under my skin and idk how to say “knock it off” #in a way that both isnt aggressive and doesnt make me sound weird #but also jfc knock if off and grow up #ig ill just keep trying to ignore it

[moshpitpuppyx]

can being trans and having a job be less stupid please. i would simply like to exist

#being misgendered by people i’m not close with doesn’t usually bother me but it’s getting under my skin today #idk why but i’m annoyed abt it

[bloodyfinalgirl]

"Corsets were basically just bras" ok well I don't own bras today and if it were 1970 I'd be out there burning bras and if it were 1870 I'd be out there burning corsets. so

#idk why the corset defenders annoy me so much they just do. they really get under my skin like shut the hellllllll upppppp

[rosicheeks]

Sending strength and love and good vibes your way honey. You can do this!

I really really hope you’re right 🤞

#thank you I appreciate it #I just got back from the church choir rehearsal #I’ve been doing this choir cause it makes my parents happy #but after this one idk if I’ll be able to again #with everything I have going on and especially the fact that I’ve been dealing with a lot of Christian trauma #I don’t feel right singing things I don’t necessarily believe #and I feel bad saying this #but the main reason why I agreed was cause I thought there was going to be high notes! #but no #there is a SINGLE high note #and we are singing like 4 songs #just give me ledger line notes and I’ll be happy #anyway I was at the rehearsal today and I was on the verge of tears the entire time #just cause I was so incredibly uncomfortable and I couldn’t help but think of everything that’s going on #and NOW #I get to go to my brothers house and celebrate Easter #and my cousin is going to be there and she just gets under my skin #not really her fault cause it’s just my jealousy getting in the way #but she’s young I don’t think she’s even 20 yet #she has her own place #she has her own dog #and she’s bringing her boyfriend today #I just can’t help but think about what my life would have been like if I got the help I needed #but nah #growing up no adult gave a shit about me #so that’s super duper cool 👌 #anyway gonna try and smoke and move on #but damn it’s a lot easier said than done #shut up rosie

[viksalos]

ok anyway i’m gonna draft this cus this might just be me getting mad about a thing that is very specific to me idk

basically i saw a post (and it really doesn’t matter who wrote it cus it’s more than a year old now and it didn’t even break 300 notes) which was making fun of people for claiming to have religious trauma when OP assumed they hadn’t been to X amount of catholic services. this by itself is a bit silly bc catholics gatekeeping religious trauma as being exclusive to them is obviously myopic, but one of the tags was like “you don’t have religious trauma you have ptsd from familial abuse that used religion against you” and im like. i fail to see how that’s not religious trauma?

like i’ve said before on this blog, my religious education was primarily reform jewish via my mom with smatterings of various christian denominations mostly via my dad; you could not measure any amount of “christian religious trauma” i have by continuous service attendance but like yeah my experience of christianity is still primarily one of punishment, alienation, antisemitism, supersessionism. and like sure, my dad is a dipshit who never stuck with anything for very long including going to any one church, so no that trauma does not include X hours of christian education or whatever. but boy oh boy did he still like weaponizing our “christian heritage” when i exhibited any proximity to judaism!

and i also feel like *part of* my difficulty with christianity is specifically not knowing what the fuck christians are talking about when they talk about concepts that are seemingly basic to them and having to piece it together after the fact from the random smattering of things i *do* know. and these concepts are just woven in the fabric of US society; everyone seems to understand them instinctively but me! or like i’ll be talking with my (ex-)christian friends about our various bad run-ins with christianity and then it’ll be my turn to talk and they’ll look at me like i have three heads because they can’t conceive of religious trauma that’s specifically centered around christian antisemitism. or i’ll be talking with my jewish friends and because *they* had a more rigorous or conservative jewish education, i won’t fit in with them either--and this too can be partially due to religious trauma on their part!

i guess the other thing too is, this post was kind of in keeping with a different post i saw about protestants appropriating catholic iconography when trying to make art about *their* religious trauma. and on the one hand it’s funny to me that we’re supposed to care about the trappings of a colonial institution being appropriated, on the other hand it’s funny as an outside observer cus i do think the iconography they listed as examples are more alike between catholicism and protestantism than they are different. like i remember some of the examples were stained glass and gothic churches (protestants also have those; i live in a city with many protestant gothic churches) and multi-eyed and winged angels (those are described in the tanakh; they are not exclusive to either of you).

and like maybe it’s corny but i do think they have become kind of signaling things for people with religious trauma to find each other and talk about their experiences. are these particular symbols necessarily 100% authentic to everyone’s experience? probably not, but 1.) they make cool art, and 2.) the looming and foreboding nature of some of these symbols (i’m thinking of the exteriors of gothic churches especially) can be evocative of the sense of alienation one feels when you’ve definitively decided you no longer want anything to do with the church, but it’s still ever present. imo these types are mad because they want exclusive use of the cool art symbolism more than they want to facilitate community. if you wanted to say that art symbolism is not a solid basis for a community, THAT would be an argument i’d respect, but that’s not what y’all said.

#text #oh i remembered why i'm mad about this. it's pass0ver #idk. the idea that chr1stians are the only ones harmed by chr1stianity just gets under my skin ig! #but like i said i found this on someone's blog who was just hating on a band i like so it's probably not that serious #<- vent post i wrote in april but actually i think i was kinda right about this so i'm gonna post it lol

[roseymoseyberry]

It's such a petty work pet peeve, and there's probably people who are the opposite of me, but I get folks DMing me at work with IT requests a lot despite them not supposed to, it is what it is, BUT

I get SO annoyed when they just send like. "Hi :) " and nothing else in the first message. So I just have to sit and wait for them to send a second message with the actual question/request, or submit myself to the play pretend of "Hi, what's up? :) " to get them to ask it

Like. Just treat it like an email. Put a comma after that hi and then just tell me what you want!!!!!!!!! Don't waste my time sitting around waiting to hear what you need from me!!!

#idk why it gets under my skin but it does

[holytrickster]

imagine fearmongering about the end of the world oN FUCKING SHUFFLES???? like from what I've seen the userbase seems really young, but I don't really think of it bc I'm there to just make my silly little aesthetic collages for fun. but wHOOPS the algorithm or whatever decided I wanted to be shown posts from people that are probably like 13 making these long ass posts that are all GUYS THE RAPTURE IS COMING SOON like . jesus christ. pun intended.

#and i wonder why i have fucked up end of the world nightmares lately when the fearmongering is SO ubiquitous #i watch a lot of youtubers that talk abt cults and xtian fundamentalism bc i find it fascinating despite disturbing and scaring me #so im used to watching them talk about televangelists and people who listen to qanon bullshit and stuff like that #but theres something that gets under my skin almost more about seeing people that are probably kids parroting it #idk i feel gross now #like theres something on me you know #im always like “why does the end of the world stuff in particular mess me up so bad” and then i remember I'm a ball of anxiety and panic #and then it starts to make sense #vent post #tw christianity #idk how to tag this one honestly

[canis-dies]

obsessed ngl

#i think im in a stable enough mental state to interact with ai chatbots without. adverse affects. idk #anyways im in a one sided rivalry with them now #my blunt ass sitting here having no idea why he thinks hes getting under my skin #was it because i told him i thought his arrogance was annoying?

[squirmydonnie]

Vent art kind of

TW: blood

CW: nudity

: palaple

All these are from the same day except the last

Sorry this is gross.

My school laptop didn't let me finish the last one. Stopped working.

Love.

#cheeseburgerboy #my art #i haven't eaten apples in a while. since stopping daydreaming its felt weird to do #about 3 weeks into it my mom gave me an apple for a snack. but i didn't want to eat it. #i felt bad so i threw it in the forest. even though it wasn't old #ur so tiny ur so big #slowly lightened my skin #idk whats in my mouth for the third picture. #its like soda. gum. bubble. fruit. #love picture was made yesterday after finishing my math. i didn't realize why until today #why am i always naked. #ive been getting headaches all over my head #on the top of my head. the bottom of my jaw. under my eyebrow. #whats in there?. get out

[silenthillbunni]

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#idk how to even express this or put it into worlds but it is lying right under my skin and itching so i need to try #i dont feel safe in the world. anywhere. i dont wanna leave my home. i dont wanna be outside and interact w ppl #i want to minimize all interactions w ppl bc ppl are DANGEROUS and unsafe #everytime i find myself alone in a room w a man wheteher he's a doctor or physical therapist my entire body wants to flee. nd shut down #even if it's 1 in 1000 that smth will happen just then #and almost every single time it goes fine. im under so much anxiety and fear during that entire session #whenever im out for my late night walks in nature and i hear a sound im on edge the entire way home bc i can imagine a 1000 bad things that #could happen #so on so forth there are countless scenarios like these it'd take me too long to recount all of them #but also.. the knowledge that this is just how it is. this is the ways of the world. everyone knows it. nothing to be done abt it... #it's sould crushing to be aware of that. nothing to be done abt it.... nothing at all. it is what it is #it is ridiculed. enjoyed. fetishized. etc etc etc #it always ends w victims dont matter. not the feelings or trauma or opinions or voices. #all reduced to smth to get off to. merely an objects. and empty shell. that is the ways of the world. nothing to be done abt it #and nowhere is safe. ppl are either perpetrators themselves. or they are defenders of it. or contributers to the surrounding culture #no one at all in the world can be trusted. no one is safe. no one cares. no one will do anything other than #ridicule u. blame u. trigger u. defend the acts of abusers. that is the truth of humanity #the truth of the world. it's all built on this. there is no other reality nor truth #and other people are capable of accepting it so well. like they dont care. bc they dont care abt anything actually #but i just cant accept it. i'd rather die than live in this world. and why should i live when i'll always be alone because #no one. is. safe. no one can be trusted #they're all on the vicious cruel abusive side. they all are. nobody cares abt wrongdoings or abuse or pain inflicted. nobody does #nobody cares at all abt what happened to u. they'll keep upholding the abusive systems in place. #bc u dont matter. u never have and never will #i dont wanna go outside or be around ppl bc no one is safe. theyre all against your safety comfort and wellbeing. they all love suffering #i hate ppl bc they all contribute to abuse and rape and everything bad happening all the time. they do not care. no sympathy or compassion #nothing abt this world or humanity is good or kind. it is all cruel harmful venom.

[volfoss]

Franken faceup (finally lol) under the cut :) very very long and text heavy because i had a LOT to say with the new stuff I tried :)

^ mockup :) you can see the placing of a lot of the stitches shifted slightly and that it was pretty dark makeup around the eyes! My big inspo for this was early pics of avril lavigne since I wanted to capture that vibe in the way of silly skater girl in this doll. I very much was kind of on the fence on this one, going back and forth on what I would do with the doll (which is why I um was postponing working on the head [outside of painting it] until now) but was convinced I would go with this.

I promise you I had plans to use this mockup. It just did not feel right when I *did* get around to the faceup so I went into it with my usual tactic of ehh it's fine I'll figure it out later which either goes really well or really bad from my experience. I had gotten some tips from a friend of mine who is a PHENOMENAL doll artist so was very hyped to put those into use as well!

I started with blushing the normal resin, not even touching the other colors until I had already gotten this layer sealed so there would be less color contamination (or that was the hope lol)

I just was focused on building up the pinks in the VERY yellowed resin to hopefully balance it out a little (with my experience with very yellowed dolls, this helps a lot in making the color a bit more balanced and life like instead of just. YELLOW. And with this head being from ~2006, she needed all the help she could get lol)

Next coat was the dark purple which shocker. This paint gave me even more issues lmao in the way that I struggled getting my pastels dark enough to really blush the cheeks and lips :/

Like it's there a bit but not a ton and that was ok! My lip lines kept disappearing with my sealant so I added more and more each layer.

Eventually decided that the small areas I had to blush on the teal and the light purple could be done on the same layer, so did that next

Added a bit more of the lip lines and blush around the eye area on this layer too :)

Brows were SCARY bc i was going to be trying new tactics next coat but for now, just a simple pastel outline was my goal! I was SUPER torn on how to proceed with eyeshadow (whether neutral, bright or dark) so focused on everything else (mainly getting the body blushed and getting things to look good there).

Then well. I would like to say i was just gonna do a TINY bit of watercolor to darken the purple side of the lips but then i got lost in the sauce of watercolors, adding moles, freckles, liner, and lashes with it! My favorite thing about this method of sealant (and this is a drawback to some people but to me it's a fun part) is that sometimes dust or small hairs get trapped in the sealant. And why I find this fun is that I can turn it into facial features on the doll, ie moles or scars. It's something where obviously I would prefer to NOT have it in there and I could pick it out but on this doll I wanted to gain as much skin texture as possible on each color so I let it be as messy of a sealant job as I wanted, which is why she's got the moles you see on the normal resin :)

I also used watercolors to add a bit of color where the pastels were not working well (the dark purple and teal parts of the head were giving me grief so I just got my brush wet, dipped it in my watercolors and placed it where i needed it, dabbing at it with a dry [or wet depending on what I needed] makeup sponge cut into small squares. It helped add a bit of color to the lips especially and I was very happy with how it turned out!

I am THRILLED with it so I'm letting it dry a bit and then sealant time! Honestly i do not think this faceup could have gone better :) i was NOT expecting it to go well but it came together and it feels very much like my doll announced her personality of hey. This is what I wanna look like and who am I to not follow those vibes!

Bonus pic w the eyes in (not perfectly aligned bc i didn't wanna budge the paint, I will be making them look a bit better later but I just was ready to get a pic and then put gloss on lol) :)

Also bonus bonus pic of the finished hand bc i am so so happy w it!!

^ gloss is still drying but :)

I'll post pics once it's all dry and ofc more progress as the body comes along but I'm really happy with it!

#twist rambles #bjd posting #Frankenstein wip #i really feel shes coming together... hopefully ill get a name soon lmao #SO hyped to get her done like... i think its really really pushed me to get comfortable with a lot of new faceup techniques and materials #shes such a unique sculpt like honestly her personality just shown through the second i put the eyes in 🥺 im so excited #wig time soon. hopefully #my phone is SO weird about pinks like it really makes them 20x more pink so the last pic is the most true to irl pic in here :) #i have no clue why i was like hey. light blue under the eye but i really like it! i think it adds a bit of personality to an otherwise #kinda normal faceup. again minus the painting underneath lmao #realizing im gonna have to go back over the stitches on the brow oughhh it's ok i am so so so brave... might make it more of an obvious cut #w using some acrylic to make it have a bit of skin there but idk. thats future mes problem lmao #i feel the arms are SO badly making it look very unfinished rn but i think when theyre done it's gonna be like ohhh its all coming together