#ill just complain the whole time

[roach-works]

life update: a lot has changed and is continuing to change!

so, i moved to portland. i'll be going back to school in april (yay, community college) to get an associate's in Architectural Drafting, and until then im trying to get back into character illustration so i can start doing commissions again to support myself through the degree, since there isn't really much in the way of part time welding jobs.

the internet is a lot different now, and instagram's overwhelmingly slick and commercial-- incredibly intimidating to approach with the intent of building a following! i really want to dedicate myself to anthro art but im still chipping cautiously away at the very edges of the scene, on reddit and furaffinity and insta and... im not sure, bluesky? telegram? i know making money on the internet's always been tough, but i feel really bad for fresh younger artists right now-- the bar seems so high and complex! it's like if you can't hit the ground running, you'll get run over.

anyway this isn't a desperate lament, just an old dude preparing to get back into shape and whining the whole time.

#roach's kawaii life #ill do it #ill just complain the whole time

[newttxt]

launching a rescue mission!

from utilities included, ch. 8

masterpost

#one piece #sanji #zoro #zosan #nami #usopp #helmeppo #koby #bartolomeo #other ppl but theyre just cameos #utilities included #DONT draw crowds. i suffered. i cannot explain. i didnt even detail that many crowd ppl but i was fighting for my life the whole time #blood sweat and tears. ill be complaining about this one for a while #BUT. IM SO HAPPY WITH IT?! #shoutout to emmie for helping me with the barto pose #and shoutout to bege for bringing a whole infant to a rager. my favorite detail that i added to please myself #anyway i learned i love drawing koby and barto

[milkweedman]

rly wish i could knit or spin while lying down bc my migraine is a little better when im lying down but then im bored out of skull. but if i try to do anything that involves raising my arms for more than a minute it is absolutely agonizing so unfortunately, sitting up in bed with the lights off and knitting it is

#occurred to me recently that it cant be normal for that to be the case #like if my arms arent by my sides then they need to be propped up on something or Pain #even worse if i have to hold them at shoulder height or higher #like reaching up to dust the corners of the ceiling or hammer in nails way above my head is so horrible #i cant keep them up for more than two minutes and its so bad the whole time #but even just keeping my arms propped up on my stomach while i knit while laying down ? cant do it. does not work #ill admit im describing this at least 50% in the hopes somebody else relates and has tips or info xD #other 50% is bc i like to complain #chronic illness #anyway am going to bed #and by that i mean im knitting

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#im just gonna complain abt it here bc i just have to accept that i can't irl bc no one else gets it #its hard to b a dyslexic grad student. u have to read so much. and its good. lots of reading is good. u just have to contend with a soul #crushing amout of discouragement at the fact u just kinda cant read while ur peers r like sure i can read this in class and have things to #say abt it. if u make me read in my head in class i literally cannot fucking tell u what i just read. not a god damn thing and if i try to #let my computer read to me i cant fucking pay attention for long enough so i just have to accept that from here on out ill have to #physically read papers aloud which i hate so much. its the only way i can fucking understand things and it still makes me feel dumb bc ill #somehow still space out while reading and have to reread like 4 times before i understand wtf is being said. it takes forever and it takes #energy and i dont like talking very much and it also restricts me to only being able to read at home which is frustrating #and im like i need to stop my brain from distracting myself with things that dont matter and my counselor is like: ur ocd is trying to make #work ur whole life and im like yeah thats how i got it. its the only way i can keep swimming with the non dyslexics #so its like wtf do i do? i kinda have to take the hit and make work my whole life rn. morn the loss of other things for a while #i dunno im still a bummer rn. like im probably coming off as more an asocial freak than normal bc its hard to talk ans maintain conversation #rn. but whatever. sometimes things just suck and theres nothing u can do abt it but accept it and move on. ill learn lots of things with all #the reading i have to do and that's never a bad thing ...no matter how much i dont give a fuck abt animals #like jesus. i could not even begin to give a fuck about like 95% of mammals. fish r cool tho. plants too #but microbes is where its at. i dont understand y ppl dont understand how cool they r. oh well ill just have to tell them #if i can find my fucking enthusiasm. ugh i have to make one of my classes read a paper and i have to work with someone abt find it. she #works with like rabbits. i refuse to assign a mammal paper. i fucking refuse. we will do plants or microbes or fucking paleontology #i will fight her on this. ugh. light filtering or orchid speciation would b perfect. annoying #at least i get to work with some culturs this week #unrelated

[halogalopaghost]

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#I'm having anxiety for some reason which is an unfamiliar physical feeling for me #I do depression and my SISTER does anxiety we're the mental illness brothers you see #but nooo apparently she has lent me some anxiety or whatever #anyway I was feeling useless and kind of like shit about how I never do anything anymore #and never get anything done or help around the house or even clean up my own living space #so I just decided I was gonna get out of bed at three in the morning and sweep the whole house #which like. that's fine I guess #and I wouldn't sit down or take a break even when I wanted to stop because I have got to!! start fucking doing things I can't just #be a lump that complains and consumes resources all my life #but anyway that was a bad idea or whatever bc my hands and feet got real hot and red and now I feel like I'm gonna frow up #I'm laid out on the couch near the phone charger. save me phone charger. charger for my phone save me #so what do we think am I feeling unwell from the activity because I don't do the activity enough or because I am just unwell #last time I swept a large area AND mopped was less than a month ago #I. also had to lay down after that actually except I was at work #just laid across a row of seats like yeah just. gimme a fuckin second to necromancy myself here #anyway #I'm a lil anxious bc of my neurology appointment I guess?? it's either that or the Wellbutrin #OR a yet to be identified food sensitivity maybe?? #I actually have no fucking clue I just have a bunch of ideas ranked by plausibility #I'm. a little dizzy and the nausea is mcgetting me #farewell cruel world it's been nice knowing u

[bright-and-burning]

Eve my little turnip 💛 sorry you've had such a Week™! I always enjoy your life-posts though, you're so resilient, and I love when you talk about how you approach and overcome the little and big hiccups you face throughout the day. I hope you get home soon, you deserve a monumental rest. Hang in there!!

my little turnip got me cheesin lahdkshd i love that <3 bwah thank u mx yellow heart… thank you!!! hoping for a mega rejuvenating weekend if only so i can come back monday and beat this code into submission. my version of resiliency is a goofy ass ‘survive and advance but complain the whole way’ and honestly it works surprisingly well 99% of the time so shoutout to everybody here for being a captive audience to the “complain the whole way” part of my strategy. the healing powers of swearing your way thru life… if i couldn’t say fuck i would die fr

#personally i come from a complainer culture . like ill do it but by god i am going to talk shit the entire fucking time #this is why if i was a driver id be on that radio the whole fuckin race i’m sorry #im not a very negative person i just think complaining is something integral to staying sane #ask #saved with love

[bootyful-seventeen]

hey y'all, anyone have any good stress relief tehniques or habits they'd like to share cuz I've been more stressed in the last 3 weeks then I was in the last 6 months

#to cut the long story short my mom had to sell the old house cuz her broke ass couldnt afford to keep it up #eventho it is a whole ass hoarders house and was in shambles with a flooded basement a collapsing ceiling in at least 2 rooms plus mold #and the stench a dirt and dog piss and shit all over the floor really made it worse then it was #but yeah so shes been staying with me and my grandma and its been awful #she hasnt been taking any of the medicine the doctors gave her when she snapped and started a fight and also started screaming at neighbour #so shes been terrorizing us here while the house has become her second hoarders den since she dragged so much crap here #my backyard side entrance and front porch are full of her shit and my grandma hates it since she can barely step into the house #so since she kept looking for places way out of her budget i had to go do house hunting since my useless sister is busy getting lit again #so ive been showing her shit in her price range that was under 420k cuz im not a moron who looks at 800k homes when i have 570k #and each time she has a new complaint saying its too expenive or its too small or its too old when she said she wants to do renovations #but shes saying she wants to renovate a newly renovated place instead of an old one #so i just showed her a house near my sisters uni and she liked the inside & backyard but she complained that 400k for newly renovated 3 bed #that is literally a 9 minute drive from my sisters uni is too expensive when shes the one who was looking at an old ass unrenovated bungalo #that is a street over from us that is 800k and she says it looks like garbage cuz an old lady previously owned it before dying #like no shit it looks old cuz older people lived those decades and like it and she just keeps doing her bullshit again & again #cuz when i tell you her mind is gone i mean it is GONE and she starts up all these wild stories to just explain some shit #like something goes missing? the neighbours are hungarian and stole it and left the hoard of junk in her old house #she has more stupid stories to harass and stress us out with but if im gonna share that ill have to write a book about it cuz fuck #and you know its bad when no one else can stand being in any contact with her cuz she starts screaming at people about it #so the only one who even likes her anymore is my sister and thats cuz shes deep in denial about just how insane she is & how abusive she is #so yeah i need some stress relief help that maybe isnt constantly hitting up maryjane cuz i dont do weed often especially since shes here #cuz weed 'burns your brain & makes you crazy like this' when shes the only one whos ever infuriated me to astronimical levels #i know retail therapy helped before she came here but i dont want to keep spending money i dont really have #it would be great tho but shes refusing to give me the 70k she said was mine from the house sale so i can cut her out for good

[palms-upturned]

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#meg talks #suicide tw #nearly everyone i care abt rn is like so very suicidal rn and it’s making me. ghghfh #(IMPORTANT NOTE this is not me saying ‘’don’t talk to me abt suicide rn’’ i do not ever mind talking abt it ever ever #i am not ranting rn about not being able to handle the subject or complaining abt ppl talking to me abt it that’s not what this is i prommy) #im just. the realization that there are ppl who go their whole lives without ever thinking that much abt suicide #and then there’s those of who are disabled and/or queer and for us it’s just. a constant #for ourselves for our loved ones for ppl on the periphery of our circles like everyone we brush shoulders with #the amount of time we have to spend talking ourselves and others into just staying a while longer #bc it’s so fucking hard to conceptualize a future for ourselves for so many reasons #and even harder to make that future viable bc it depends on other people helping us #it just makes me want to fucking. idk! break something! #like how do you make people understand this if they’ve never been through it #and how do you convince them that it’s worth it to try and understand where we’re coming from #when their default way of thinking abt it is that you only get to this point if u do smth wrong or just don’t try hard enough #or are some kind of moocher trying to exploit ppl who ‘’work harder’’ #i fucking hate this so much #i just keep thinking about engels’ explanation of social murder #and getting so angry i feel fucking ill #people are fucking killing my friends and it’s like all i can do is like… #try my best to plug whatever wounds i can manage meanwhile the killer is still fucking stabbing them over and over #anyway. god. again none of this is to say i don’t wanna hear abt suicide or anything #i like to know and be able to talk abt it frankly #especially if there’s even the smallest thing i can do to help #im just like. suddenly hit w the disbelief of how many ppl go their whole lives without having these conversations #while me and my friends are having them multiple times a day bc it’s so fucking bad out here #insert disco elysium quote about the mask of humanity falling from capital as it kills your sweet courageous friends here i guess. #i just. wish things were better. how can people not wish that

[bugsmoocher]

i am having my personal 9/11 today

#> 4 and a half hours from home one way 5 hours the other way #> tire busts on curb cuz i been up since 11 am and it was liek approaching 6 am when it happened #> now outside a tire shop #> it opens in an hour #> dunno if anybody will show up or not #> in the mountains. really bad service #> another tire is primed to burst at any second. has huge bubble in it #> pets in the car #> we are alone. just 2 trans dudes. in the middle of virginia #> on the verge of vomitting constantly #> whole ordeal has set us back like 2 hours so far maybe even like 3 or 4 by the time its over #> my silly scared ass knowing ill be pulling an all nighter driving through louisville kentucky (very unsafe place even on high alert) #> complain about it to literally everybody #> bored as fuck waiting #> autistic and stranded #> format a complaint like its a 4chan post #> absolutely do not profit

[gaiaxygang]

the thing with gmmtv is that im going to have complaints about 1/3 of the directors that often work with them i am such a HATER sometimes but i cant help it. i do not like some of their work!!!!

#gaiaxyposting #WHENEVER I SEE PEOPLE MANIFESTING [REDACTED][REDACTED] I GO HM. I DONT WANT THAT #sorry i just have it out for 3 directors in particular nothing against them as People but yknow #one of them is quite the controversial opinion and i am aware it boils down to a PERSONAL TASTE THING entirely #with how 2024 pt1 went im getting a bad feeling hes going to get a pair i love AND ILL WATCH IT BUT ILL COMPLAIN THE WHOLE TIME #hope its not pc okay once is enough and i hate everything else about that fuckigb show (THIS MAKES IT OBVIOUS WHO IT IS)

[maretriarch]

they cut my hours at work. in other news all managers cars wires have been found mysteriously cut in some sort of eye for an eye vengence

#everyones hours got cut cus they fucked up payroll fuckin cunts #its FINE ill be FINE im just gonna complain the whole time

[bunnyb34r]

Amazing how most of the year I don't have the desire to play video games (haven't since I started working ): ) or even build miniature doll houses, but now that it's craft crunch time... I wanna :(

#i have so much stuff to work on and yet (: #i know thats the adhd bc now crafting = work which means it's not novel so my brain dont want that but like come oooooon #specifically i wanna play new leaf agsggs idk why #marquilla #i will work on them btw ill just complain ab it the whole time agsgdgdggd

[skenpiel]

aahhhhhytg. and with bleeding inside the head there is a metallic taste at the back of the throat .

#this sucks this sucks this SUCKS!!!!!! but ill dtop whining and complaining about it for real this time if i make any more posts about how #my whole body aches just beat the shit out of me

[orcelito]

Pissed the Fuck off and I can't even complain about it on discord bc discord is Fucking Down

Wooooo fuckin hooooooo

#speculation nation #negative/ #who cares about all the things i need to do today sure ill go and drop everything to help you make an order you mixed up #which will take all of my fucking black tea and ALL of my fucking boba #leaving me out of it for 45 fucking minutes until the next batch is done #thanks! thanks! thanks! thanks! #and i just KNOWWWWWW shes gonna turn around and complain about how little i got done today like BITCH!!!! #I SURE WOULDVE GOTTEN A WHOLE LOT MORE DONE IF I DIDNT HAVE TO DEAL WITH YOUR POOR TIME MANAGEMENT #im so FUCKING angry rn. oh my fucking god.

[sochilll]

Sometimes being an English major is the biggest burden because I read movie reviews and people say “this story sucks because x y z doesn’t make sense” when those things were exPLAINED IN THE BOOK THEY DIDNT HAVE TIME IN THE MOVIE BUT ITS IN THE BOOK READ THE BOOK

#i just finished never let me go and now I’m watching it #spoilers coming in the tags #and I will say there are some pretty big changes I didn’t particularly care for #but SO many reviews were like ‘why didn’t they run away’ like and do what??? Get jobs? they can’t they r literally clones bred for organs #The entire society is built on this where would they go #and people getting mad when someone pointed out that Ishiguro said that wasn’t the story he wanted to tell because it ‘makes more sense’ #like yeah maybe it’s expected some people would try to run away but most of them don’t. this story is about the ones that don’t. #Also people saying ‘so no one questions raising people just to kill them ://‘ #which is ALSO addressed in the book #that by the time moral conversations started people were more worried about their loved ones potential illnesses than clone children #There’s a really great line about like once you cure cancer you can’t just go back to a world where it’s incurable again #Plus a lot of people didn’t believe they were real people/had souls that was the whole POINT OF HAILSHAM #like why are you reading/watching dystopians and going ‘ya but that’s not how society is why don’t they just stop?’ #same energy as people who complain that everyone bursts into song in musicals #Anyway the movie was fine. i know when books span several years like that you have to cut it down for the movie #but it was very …. idk… the relationships were different #Ruth got totally nerfed as a character #everything happened too fast #:/ #🦝

[chaelinsbitch]

My friends disregard for my work situations and then her complaining about her own when it's literally not even that serious for her is really starting to piss me off

#im gonna snap one of these days lmao #like im stupidly planning tbis whole trip for sept bc i gave up and have been spending all my money #and idek if ill have a job at that point and ive been making a lot of big purchases lately like an absolute idiot #and now that my sanity is back im so stressed out i cant even be excited #and she like. last time i brought it up she was like 'youll be fine' in a kind of annoyed tone and im like? #and then today she was coming to me all stressed out because she perceived her manager to be displeased w her #leave request. which she wasnt my friend just had anxiety #but like it was such a stupid thing and sbe turned it into a thing #but im sorry i have legitimate concerns about my future finances and employment and that's supposed to be nothing? #throwback to last year when i got laid off and was having the worst time ever meanwhile she kept complaining about her #comparatively better work situation #she's fine in every other way but on this subject if she does smtn similar again im like 🤏🏽 this close to saying #something really fucking mean and causing irreparable damage lmfao