#im gonna stop the list now

[angellurgy]

squeak

#when i am gone it will be no more impactful than a tree falling in a forest with no one to hear it. #my death will have a meaninglessly small impact on this world. maybe it'll have a larger impact on the incorporeal. #there is something in my soul. something hungry. a serpent of unstoppable magnitude held captive in my stomach. #it wont stop until it or i kill us both will it? like a cancer. #im so deeply sorry im so bad at responding to everyone's kind messages. even more so sorry for what will eventually happen next #i have some plans. to excise this tumor that is myself. to rid the world of this putrid filth girl who is nothing but a drain on her compan #we'll see what happens. at least i got my body to a point of self approval before. at least i tried music. at least i tried to be me. #even if it changed nothing. at least im more secure in my being. if only the people around me werent so emotionally far. if only we cld tal #if only i could live with my self approval instead of loving and wanting so dearly. instead of having a mind corrupted by love #and friendship #i was so much. i know you all barely know anything about me in reality. if i asked any you'd probably just list off kinks and species. #but still. ty those who'll remember yk... #and as backup. if it doesnt work. well. please dont hate me. im just a girl who needs out. and cant keep her thoughts inside more #i hope i can be happy in the afterlife. i hope i can see these angels and maybe be one myself. #gonna put a post on top of this to hide it from brand new ppl lookjng at my blog. bc yeah. you all dont need to hear all of this #its the last one of these for this period either way #god i wish i couldve gone to toronto. i want to so bad still. god. why did i have to realize my hopelessness now of all times #bye

[regal-bones]

yo omg would you ever make a game??? the thought of a game with your art makes me go ❤️💖💞❤️💕💞❤️💖❤️💕💞❤️💖

AHHH maybe i should shout louder about my projects because

I AM MAKING A GAME!!!!

I've been working on it for what feels like forever now - I can only work on the (absolutely terrifyingly monilithically huge) list of art assets in my free time when I'm not doing commissions, shop stuff, or any other money making venture, BUT IM DOING IT!!!

I only really talk about Last Sprout on Patreon, just because of how early into the project we are, but I promise you there'll be stuff to share soon. I'm hoping the first quarter of 2023 there'll be.... something for you guys. perhaps something,,,, playable ????

I've been working so so hard on the art - I actually am sat on a little mountain of stuff that I haven't even uploaded to patreon yet that no one has seen, but theres so so so much.

If you're interested, here's some stuff I've posted publicly!

The denizens of the THESPA-02

Some lore about those very robots

An Inventors Blade

The first batch of concept art for the game

This doesn't look like much but I promise there is a WHOLE bunch over on Patreon you can all see at the £1 tier! And, like I said, a really large amount more coming soon. I could talk about this project for hours and hours and hours so I'm going to leave it there but - I'M MAKING A GAME !!!! I hope ur all as excited about it as I am!

#🌱 #<< you can look at that tag on both my tumblr and patreon to see stuff! #alsopls dont be put off by the scifi - this is a fantasy game !! #yes plenty of robots but id def list it as a fantasy game ! dragons and knights and heroes #gosh thank u for the ask heheh #im gonna ramble here actually nobody can stop me #im getting there! first step is a workable prototype - i have almost all the art done for that! #when i get the art done I need to contact my various collaborators #programmers musicians etc #then we start to put the pieces together !! and literally !! that is not far off now ! #ive done animation sets for not only our sproutly protagonist but the first enemy of the game #and im working hard now on UI stuff (upgrades menus etc) #but !! its happening its happening !!

[the-kipsabian]

..im just gonna straight up ask but

yall dont mind when i brainrot and kip post, right?

im just always extremely self conscious about it when im talking and reblogging a lot, as i have been told before to stop being obsessive and that its stupid and whatnot. i mean, yall are here willingly, unfollowing and muting tags is an option always, but like.. idk it still always makes me very aware about things when i do that even tho it makes me happy whenever i go on these silly lil reblog sprees

anyways just. just thought i'd ask idk

#i mean. im not gonna stop. my blog my posts my rules what have you #but im always imagining that theres someone rolling their eyes at me and thinking its stupid and here we go again and whatever other things #that im not gonna list here cause it'll make me anxious lmao #but.. yeah. just thinking about this again so um. heres a thought #im gonna go play more now bye #night is an absolute mess on main

[raining-anonymously]

MAN WHY DOES EVERY SONG IN THE BIFROST INCIDENT HAVE TO GO SO FUCKING HARD I CAN’T DO THIS ANYMORE

#the bifrost incident #the mechanisms #okay if i had to pick favorites it would be Losing Track. Ragnarok II (the live version specifically). and Loki. in that order #but fuuuck. odin. sigyn. red signal. ragnarok v. i’m gonna stop because otherwise i will list them all. you know what im saying #WE BUILT BUT DID NOT UNDERSTAND #I TRIED TO STOP IT BUT I FAILED #THERE’S NO PROTECTION NOW WE ARE DERailing yes its higher need was reached as soon as it was freed #you heard the call but ran away; you could not stop the coming of A DAY A WEEK A THOUSAND YEARS- #the live version of ‘cosmic madness reigns’ KILLS me. alright

[lonely-night]

some post-endgame fics I love (not necessary mentioned phoebe and gretchen janeways or indiana)

Same Love by subcutaneous

no words just screaming crying throwing up, oh and there’s a sequel

Compass Rose by chilly_flame

I think everyone knows this *chef’s kiss*

The Once and Future by awomannotagirl

another classic 

Collecting on Old Bets by Escaping Gravity

Janeway and Seven ran into each other during vacation

The Second Time Around by daykestrel

christmas fic! they are divorced! but still have feelings towards each other *screams*

I set her blood on fire by Alpha_Mu 

angst fest !!! with a companion piece from seven pov

Revision by Escaping Gravity

another angst fest!

Degrees of Separation by Netgirl

short but sweet

#rambling tag #janeway x seven #j7 #fanfic #fic rec #seems like i can't stop now i start organising the fics lmaoooooo #here you go #im gonna make another list

[bratthewurst]

Hnnnnng

#my mom is sick and shes walking around the house coughing uncovered and not washing her hands before being in common spaces #and she keeps coming into my room #these are all things she obsessively asks me if im doing when im sick #i asked her to do a covid test an hour ago so i could be on time for work but its the last thing on her list #sometimes i wonder why i bother #between this and my dads positive #aaaaaaaaaa #im not gonna stop bothering but im annoyed and want to vent #like i have shit to do #i need to go get the spare i have on my car replaced and i was gonna be an hour late to work and now its looking like 2 🙃🙃🙃🙃

[13eyond13]

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#here's some of the classics on that list i have beef with btw: #i have tried to read A Confederacy of Dunces several times and it's funny but it's also so cringe and Ignatius is so obnoxious #that i find it too difficult to finish like i just feel depressed and bad for everybody around him too much #i tried reading Infinite Jest like a decade ago and i got like 200 pages in and i remember thinking it felt like #such a slog the entire time because he's just so gd wordy and also i stopped liking DFW after i heard the abuse allegations against him #frankenstein i didnt read that long ago but i just remember finding it so boring for some reason?? i feel i might need to read it again #dracula ngl i feel like im cheating a bit saying ive completely read it because i loved the beginning and then HATED so much of the rest #the characters were just so boring and melodramatic hahaha i just liked the part where jonathan was doing a travel diary #and trapped in the castle tbh and after that i skimmed quite a bit #i almost flipped my shit when i saw ender's game on there because I ALWAYS mix it up with ready player one by ernest cline #which i bought the audiobook of a while back and hated every minute of it i dont think its good at all #but it wasnt that so phew my faith in this list is somewhat restored #i read most of the first game of thrones book and was disappointed tbh maybe because id seen the show already #so i was like 'this feels almost exactly the same except worse?' because i'd been expecting it to give me more depth and insight #into the characters but instead it felt exactly the same and i still didnt love any of the characters enough to feel attached to them #also i am fully aware me not personally liking or vibing with a book doesnt mean it doesnt deserve to be considered great btw #but i think if youre gonna be like me and force yourself to go through a bunch of lists like this very seriously then you also need to just #let yourself be like 'yeah not for me' without feeling too bad about it sometimes too #often times i dont particularly love the classics or 'important books' but at the same time #i still feel like im getting more out of reading them than just grabbing the newest hyped up books that also dont do anything for me #maybe not in a 'wow i loved reading this' way but in like a #'i now have first-hand knowledge of this thing that is so influential / so frequently referenced' #or 'this challenged me and i feel like i did a mental/emotional workout or gave me some new food for thought' #or 'made me more aware of what gaps in my knowledge and reading skills and what my tastes are too' #sort of way... #it really just depends on what you're reading for and why and what you're hoping to get out of it a lot of the time maybe #it's like the homework i give myself to go through these lists that i also intersperse with the stuff i read more just for fun #p

[sonknuxadow]

im about to start going on mercari and leaving hate comments on every listing thats just a reseller who went out and bought sonic figures and tripled the prices and posted them on there

#okay im not gonna actually start doing this because i dont wanna get banned but i AM exploding them withmy mind #mercari user: RARE jakks pacific shadow the hedgehog action figure 100 US Dollars . #me: you should delete your account.... NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #people who sell the ones from like 10 years ago for like 100+ dollars when theyre very obviously broken as well. stop immediately #I JSUT SAW SOMEONE CHARGING 80 DOLLARS #for a tails who is covered in marks/paint chips and is missing his TAILS. and they listed it as good condition. ii need to get out of here

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

fun lines to be used in this academy era video

#the first one is from novitiate #which im adding to my list #the second is raw #they were playing a video game #little bit obsessed with how many times she said please comfort me #like she couldnt stop #even when the other person had already said yes okay i will comfort you #she kept saying it #and the other one had to go 'stop talking' #and suicide-toi is just really funny #throw the grenade kill yourself ghfjhgjghj #gonna match that up with- oh man thats evil im doing that for sure- gonna match that up with the boys in close #playing war games #having little tank toys #OH MY GOD THEYRE NOW ECHOING THE PLEASE COMFORT ME SCENE WITH HER ASKING PENANCE FROM MOTHER SUPERIOR #'please i just want my penance please please just give me my penance please' #haahahahahahhaahahah movie made for me

[the-kipsabian]

writing this fic makes me want to shake something so badly (positive)

#i have to stop now my eyes dont work anymore but got like 1.5k words together tonight #we are 5.6k total and only now actually introduced chuck into this situation physically lmao #maybe i can finish part 2 tomorrow. i have a few things on my to do list so we'll see how long doing those take #but yeah. its progressing at least woo #im gonna reblog the poll about publishing these chapters before i go to bed but yay i did something today #i just feels very nice to write again #night is an absolute mess on main

[todayisafridaynight]

Y'know I'm not big on shipping so sometimes I'm like: "Man, why is it all Kazumaji." when searching for fanart but then I am on Twitter and... I think I am fine with Kazumaji on Tumblr.

i don't know the further implications of this and the diff between twit and tumblr kazumaji but Personally to me it just isn't my cup of tea and i don't really get the pairing

#snap chats #maybe its cause its popular and i have popularitis or something idfk i just cant see the appeal #or. i CAN but not personally yk. i understand why other people like it is what i mean it just doesnt do it for me for some reason #like Sorry Everyone Trying To Scroll The Kazumaji Tag Rn In Peace but ima spit #nvm i forgot what i was gonna say. never mind i remember #anyway it just doesn't do anything for me #like it's not wholly established and there isn't even a lot of in-text reasons to like it which . Hasn't Stopped Me Before #but like i don't have anything to go off of... like the pairings i like i have something to point at and go 'ah there it is mental illness' #and ig with kazumaji there's SOME things like Again I Can See Where People Are Coming From #but it's nothing that makes me go Ah.. The Brain Barnacles Are Here #we been over this but it's been a while but kiryu and majima's relationship really does just feel professional after a certain point #like y3 the earliest but ESPECIALLY after saejima comes into the picture #idk im rambling about something that WILL get me shot but i'm speaking my truth on my blog #moving on. watched the first half of tonbi today..... crying... #i have to update my Top Cutest TTM Charas list now... #but i gotta do these comms first ok bye #then im watching the second half if these dont take me all night..

[jemmo]

my sister watches bad buddy - ep 4

- pat is the definition of these muscles are here for nothing pls protect me

- omg he went for the waist

- look it’s an actual cat (not pran the cat)

- i rlly wanna see what long haired guy (she means korn) looks like with his hair down

- does his shirt say friend (me like 👀👀👀 she noticed)

- why are they dressed like church boys

- omg it’s the lesbian!!!!!!

- wow she’s bold for the first day

- *trips* wow i would’ve run away and changed schools

- oh sorry pran let me accidentally walk into you head on

- oh sorry pran let me accidentally get in your way when i can fully see where im going and have my hands out ready to hold your waist

- oh it’s pat, that’s the pat face (when pran looks through the keyhole)

- pats rlly out here like “do you not understand how far were in to this relationship, I’m moving in”

- pat rlly like “come and sit down honey stop disturbing domestic time by trying to kick me out”

- oh yeah this is what bros do, just shoving heads up shirts

- and take your whorish lil flip flops with you

- he’s insufferable i adore him (and yes, shes talking about pat)

- pran really shut that door like i just saw heaven. and then proceeded to sit on his pat infested sofa and bask in all his sweat. fuck that boys got it down bad.

- pran: leave me alone. also pran: wtf why aren’t you texting me to tell me where you’re going

- uh oh pat been caught playing away from home

- i know i should be rooting for pat and pran but pat and ink would make the hottest couple ever

- pat looking at ink like oops my bisexuality is showing

- *sees inkpa interact once* hmmm yeah I like them

- oh shit pats been caught playing away AGAIN

- prans like “oh sorry I was just having a gay hallucination”

- i approve of his short shorts

- who’s he looking at!!!!!!

- both pran and ink like my homosexual ass?? like you????

- look at him taking in the stray puppy

- stop sniffing!!!!!

- come on he just wants cuddles. you can’t deny those biceps

- *rubs hands together* yesssss the bracelet jealousy

- *chanting* say no. say no. say no.

- NO!

- oh fuck that hurts

- no, no, I know you don’t mean it but pls stop talking pat, you’re just making it worse

- that’s what heartbreak looks like *points to his single tear*

- you may have stole my heart but you will never steal my duvet!!!

- *fades to black* *she turns to me* i’m not ok

(ep 1) (ep 2) (ep 3)

#im SO SORRY im so behind on these #work has been exhausting me but im gonna schedule all these to post over the next couple of weeks #bc yes we only have one ep left #and shes been putting off for weeks bc she doesnt want it to end #and were waiting for the perfect friday evening alone to watch it #anyway we have a running joke that my older sister is just the slightest bit bi #bc shes rlly weak for kate winslet in the holiday specifically #and now ink is firmly added to that list #so yes ink makes everyone gay for her its a fact #and shes obsessed #one of my fave lines shes ever said that i cannot stop bringing up #and idk if its in these anywhere but ill say it here anyway #THIS IS JUST ICONIC #I WANT TO BE IN AN INK PAT SANDWICH #and she believes in lesbian himbo supremacy #and yet they’re keeping up the precedent bad buddy set of saying we are not shying away as a show or as actors #bad buddy series #made by jemmo

[4thbrighteststar]

actually WE are the new romantics bc it's romantic of you to have new romantics on ur on repeat when that song is stuck in my head at literally this exact moment. also wow me & the sky is such a . yeah. i always tear up at The Moment during that song pretty much without fail you are so brave to have it on ur on repeat. xoxo

@clumsyclifford

every day is fr like a battle. That's so cute of us we don't even have to try.

Me and the sky is one of those songs that gives me the exact same feeling every time the guitar riff starts and that rush of familiarity is too good <33 also it's my girlboss i-love-what-i'm-doing song so I usually loop it right before my bio lab LMAO

#i don't think it's about the Moment so much as like. 'suddenly ive got an all female crew' #and 'suddenly everything's HIIiiiiIIIIGHH' #and 'hey lady hey baby hey' #bella #love letter <3 #idk i adore the way that song just like. lists her accomplishments but shows so clearly it was never about that #she just loved what she was doing so much and did everything to keep it in her life #like that song Feels like that feeling. and i could get live off that feeling #ok anyway it's not even 9 AM im gonna stop waxing poetic about c f a now

[dullahandyke]

girl who has so so so much fucking homework oh my god: man i wanna make a list of all the comics i wanna read :) < hes not gonna do that either

#tachiyomi having a library thing is enabling me so much #the only thing stopping me entirely is that theres no way to make like. lists with orders n stuff #without fucking up the rest of my stuff #i literally had a phase a few months abck where i was like im gonna read SO much manga #and i saved like 300 to my tachiyomi library and i read like. 10. #and now im doing the exact same shit except instead of manga its the dcu #which is exponentially more confusing bcos its all interconnected and rebooted n stuff #like ill manage by rec reading lists but also the insatiable urge to read All Of It bcos i dont wanna miss out on anything... #plus it takes soo much effort for me to like. get into something by perusing the source material #instead of just letting myself be drawn into fanon #which i am Trying to work on but it is nonetheless an issue #plus homework is STILL an issue. #AUGH ok ill make a list of things to do ig.

[hearties-circus]

Trains, in person announcements and websites all so utterly fucked that we've just gone home

#gamer txt. #funny thing is i think the strikes have stopped #listen right 1st train. says it delayed by like 7 minutes thats fine ill wait #then says its delayed 4 minutes i go oh good! although its been about 4 minutes and its not here yet. still it must be close #its well past the time the board says the train is coming at and theres no train still #i check the board again and the train is gone. the 2nd train is listed as the first and mine is nowhere to be seen #2nd train comes in half an hour and id miss my connecting train if i got that not to mention be really late to school #mums too far away to pick me up and take me to the next station and stepdad wouldnt make it in time to catch my connecting train either #look up at the board again and now the 2nd train is cancelled next train is in an hour an 10 #my connecting train wouldve already arrived and left at the next station by now #then theres the real bullshit bc everwhere so far is unfortunately pretty standard #my first train arrives 20 minutes late no one can tell if its the first train or the 2nd one miraculously not cancelled? #ticket person comes out says its the first train says the 2nd train is cancelled bc it was stuck behind them right cool #says they dont know if this train is still gonna run or if its cancelled now. less cool #driver rushes out says they dont know either and heads right into the ticket office #we just wanna go sonewhere #announcement chimes saying that the train currently present is now cancelled #stepdad rocks up almost at the same exact time #he looked into my connecting train options says itd take me about 2 hours to get to school if i got them #so now we're home and im already done for the day #oh yeah and none of the websites show any delays or cancellations on them but who can be surprised anymore when they keep doing that

[donutcats]

every day I open the steddie tag and I’m bombarded with steddie x reader insert posts against my will.

#personal crap #every day I’m plagued by steddie reader insert #when will it end #IM SO TIRED OF READER INSERT SMUT #NO THE CHARACTERS ARE /NOT/ FUCKING ME #YOU STOP THAT RIGHT NOW #there’s only like 2 things i have blacklisted #but i think i’m finally gonna snap and black list reader insert fics