#im just so so happy everything went well

[hermanunworthy]

DO OR DICE LA WAS WONDERFUL!!!! me and @biirbi held a meetup together before the show and even though we werent able to get nearly everyone from the server, i still had a BLAST!! literally the best day ever just getting to hang out w other dndads fans all day

SOME HIGHLIGHTS FROM BEFORE THE SHOW (ill talk about the actual show itself in a separate post):

- zoe making me a little hermie doll + hermie themed kandi cuff! theyre so cute i was playing w them the whole time

- getting to meet one of my tumblr mutuals for the first time! @kaiynite

- one of our scarys @amnestyliketaz (and multiple others at the show) making and giving out tons of dndads themed bracelets!

- just getting to hang out at the mall w a bunch of dndads fans. i wish we couldve stayed longer, everyone was so nice and fun to be around!

- us all fitting into one elevator and the taylor of our group going "everyone in the up/down room?"

- me accidentally dropping my mini hermie and someone going "no dont leave hermie behind! u cant forget about him!"

- getting to hang and meet even MORE fans while waiting outside the theatre (and seeing even more really cool cosplayers my goodness)

- lauren (the kitty cosplayer in our meetup group) dming a fun little one shot! i didnt play but i did get to sit and watch. if only they got to finish it before we had to line up, it was so funny

- giving my tumblr to some cosplayers and one of them recognizing my art?? i was so honored

- being able to drop off a gift for the cast!

- all the compliments i got on my hermie cosplay! even though it was much different from how ive cosplayed him before lol

#im just so so happy everything went well #this felt like such a COMMUNITY every single person i met was so positive and great to be around #i cant believe i got to be around that many dndads fans it was a dream come true. this podcast means sm to me #dndads #dndads live #do or dice tour #do or dice la #hermie the unworthy #hermie unworthy #hermie the unworthy cosplay #hermie unworthy cosplay #my cosplays #siren says

[gamerwoo]

really sucks when you realize you and a friend have just kind of grown up as two different people and don’t mesh together like you used to and like you have so much history you don’t wanna let go of but you’re absolutely miserable in the friendship

#to delete #the girl i’ve been friends with over half my life is just so insufferable now #she’s very pick me and likes to nitpick absolutely everything for no reason #absolutely DESPISES genz and tiktok for some reason #puts down everything about me and it feels targeted but she does it in ways that it comes across like it’s not #so when i call her out on picking on dumb things like kpop fans or genz i look like a psycho bitch #she very much just has to speak up on everything she dislikes instead of just letting people be happy #like it’s shit that’s not bothering anyone #she once went OFF because i’m afraid of bugs and ‘most girls’ are afraid of bugs but SHE isn’t afraid of them #and im like yes girl we pick you please stfu #it’s always just little stuff that doesn’t matter but 98% of the time has to do w something i like or don’t like #so it feels targeted and then i speak up and the rest of our friends are like ‘calm down it’s not that deep’ #idk i just like…..she feels the opposite about a lot of things i feel #and then has to act superior for being opposite of me #also being so angry over a generation of young adults/kids and an app for no reason…… #idk we just don’t go well together anymore and idk how to bring it up

[skitskatdacat63]

Update, probably won't be able to post much at all for this upcoming gp, BECAUSE I AM GOING TO THE GP!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#basically before i even went on this study abroad i rly wanted to go to the austrian gp #because when in austria amirite! #but honestly it was the reason i actually went through w the trip #but then i had to end up writing it off bcs the logisitics were too hard to figure out #BUT THEN #literally the first day of the trip i hear this other guy talking about f1 #so im like oh you like f1???????? #and hes like yeah and im gonna try and go to the austrian gp! #so now we are both going to the austrian gp 🥹🥹🥹 #i think hes probably happy to have someone to go w as well #and its nice bcs hes much older than me and much more responsible so he figured out everything 🥺 #this weekend is gonna be just pure f1 weekend for me #bcs im also going to salzburg and seeing hanger 7 #but god im so fucking happy #i cant believe it actually worked out #the coincidence of someone else being this into f1 as well and wanting to go to the gp #and also being happy to take me along and figure out all the details #THANK YOU TO MY NEW FRIEND I CANT WAIT 🥹🥹🥹 #catie is: not mentally prepared #catie is: going to an f1 gp!!! #catie: still wants to gif the podium so maybe will try and do so on the train #but wow god still i never thought id make it to a gp so soon! #my brother is soooooo jealous 🤭 #im gonna wear my rbr jacket!!!!!!!! im gonna break my bank acct!!!!!!!!! #*wait also its funny bcs my friend has been into f1 a lot longer than me right #but hes like my god you are the most committed fan I've ever met #like abt how my excitement somehow blew his out of the water hahaha #catie.rambling.txt

[gregoftom]

greg laughing the loudest at matsson’s shitty sh*vorce joke right in front of sh*v makes him braver than any us marine

#tomgreg #i cant breathejefkef #the fact that he looks to tom first and then laughs like that PLEASE #they are not slick. he litro said he was going to ken and roman matsson hates me YET he went over to them when tom and sh*v were both #there?? with matsson? and was conveniently there to laugh loudly at the idea of sh*vorce? #the joke wasn't even good. #it's. hm. yeah i'm sus lmfao. or delusional but the point is it's weird. #AND THATS ALL? LIKE GREG WANTS TO STAY BUT IS YANKED AWAY BY TOM #SO HIS PURPOSE WAS WHAT?? TO BE SUPPORT FOR TOM ONLY IF SH*V IS THERE AND THEN MATSSON JUST #HAPPENS TO MAKE A DIVORCE JOKE #and tom looks at him Like That while he's laughing like well done. and then pulls him away like OKAY THAT'S ENOUGH NOW #SORRY im absolutely insane but hm. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. #tom might just be happy that greg is schmoozing matsson like he originally wanted but either way. greg went over there For tom #so i'm happy. #also shiv looking at greg after he says good to see you RRRRRRRRR #everything is so much and i'm insane so its good times

[jessiesjaded]

Lost in the sauce

#She's eating pretty good for a cat with a jaw infection and all her teeth removed #and shes drinking well which is good nc she literally hadnt been before she went back to the vet #which was a worry #shes still being very quiet tho #hasnt even tried to go out once when she'd been yowling to get out otherwise #though thats good!! #she literally gets up eats a little drinks a lot and then maybe scratches her scratching post for a sec #and then she goes well that was swell but im going back to bed now and then she just jumps back into my bed and cuddles up #So idk #shes def not 100% back in action but after everything thata gone on i cant exactly blame her #and tbh im trying to keep myself in a realistic mindset- no deluding myself she'll be super healthy and live for 5 more yrs or somethin #shes an old cat that wasnt taken care of by the people who had her before #and shes got health issues #but shes so much better than she had been this time last week #and shes still my lil cuddly baby so I just have to be happy and accepting of that #So yeah lil Kitty cat update

[exsqueezememacaroni]

I've done it folks, I have listened to all of Mike*

(*so far, according to that giant playlist)

#im not the first to say it #and i haven't fully resolved my thoughts on it #but i still have like....this bittersweet feeling towards post 20.....13? Mike #that i still haven't fully made peace with yet #there IS something that changes in the quality of his voice and his approach to music/songwriting around that time....maybe a little before #BUT this playlist has really made me appreciate all the different directions he went starting around 1995 #and of course especially after 1998 #and actually i gained a real appreciation of like the 2006-2011 period #the soundtrack and zorn zorn years #and well.... everything else #like i thank this universe that mike was able to put so much out there while he really had full control over his voice #and ideas just packed into his head #i want....i really want to see where mike goes from this present moment on #hold on to yourself Mike.... we're so happy and excited for you #loving disc horse on this topic welcome #mike patton #the big listen

[jirai-kei-freak]

why does it have to be this way

#Why #I was doing so good this past year #There were times I was literally crying tears of joy because I haven’t felt as happy as I was in years #Now shit’s coming back and I don’t like it #Every fucking time man #“Well life is supposed to have its ups and downs” HAVE YOUVE WENT THROUGH WHAT I WENT THROUGH #summer through all the way to the end of 2023 was one of two of the most miserable times I ever went through #I was almost never happy #Had cheap laughs for like 20 minutes then back to misery #There wasn’t a single day were I didn’t wish i was dead #Literally I would wake up and i immediately wanted to start crying #Thats how bad things were #You could see it in my face how lonely and miserable i was #I hadnt felt that empty for like a good few years since then #It was to the point where I thought there was never going to be light in my life ever again #I went through some fucked up shit and now im traumatized 10x more then i was before #The first day of school was a weak after some extremely traumatic stuff happened man #Then the new year started and everything was starting to get better #I started taking medication #I was much more happier #My self esteem boosted up #I started working on myself and became a better person #I dont think i ever had a period of my life where i felt THAT BETTER #Like I said i was crying because I had felt a massive weight lifted off my shoulders #It literally felt like i saw the light #I legitimately thought things were getting truly getting better #It’s just gonna be the same damn cycle over and over again huh? #For several months I feel depressed as shit #Then for a few months things start to clear up #Then suddenly and abruptly things go back to the shit

[enjomo-arch]

happy ramble in tags

#「002」 𝗢𝗨𝗧 𝗢𝗙 𝗖𝗛𝗔𝗥𝗔𝗖𝗧𝗘𝗥 #rambling in tags #okay but little positive for myself #im very happy how i'm writing ace and really happy of my work of expanding the knowledge i managed to learn about him #all things from the anime and manga and novels and everything i could find regarding his little details #like i put really a lot into him and his muse flows really nicely #i think i do well with his speech patterns and behavior especially regarding troubles and how he overcame them with time going on #im really happy also about my mutuals and so many people were excited and willing to write with my ace #and many told me how my portrayal is shining and i just #can't thank you all enough for that ?? you're all what gives me motivation to keep going and expand more and more #build all the relations between ace and other muses of ya'll #it's been some time since I write him i started in january and i went so long with all of it i managed to build im just #very thankful of everything of ya'll's time and effort and just sticking to me #it makes me very happy ... i can't put it in words other than just thank you for being here and making my experience great

[alyimoss]

might write smthn for the first time in. what, a year?? two years?? simply bc the thought of clover + feisty five found family, specifically dad starlo, is destroying me so bad and theres like 4 fics tops with that concept and its making me want to chew drywall from a building made in the 70s. im having symptoms.

#and if i do write inevitably ceroba + clover found family dynamic and everything that entails will be written as well #i love you grieving milf. please get out of my head. #her seeing kanako in them and them seeing her as a mother figure almost allowing her to in some sense right what she has done #to her daughter... giving her a second chance to be a good mother and allow her child to live a happy life.. to finally and properly move o #to confront and lighten the trauma of her motherhood and allow it to once again become something beautiful and positive... sighhhh.... #was telling a friend abt ceroba and how badly she kills me in every conceivable way and he just went “this is so horrible i hate mothers” a #yeah me too man me too #mommy issues gang #im so. normal..

[britneyshakespeare]

I love drawing in charcoal because when you're in the beginning of a work, instead of looking like something reasonable it's perfectly acceptable and natural for them to look like this

#does that look like anybody you know #tales from diana #(c'est moi) #i was trying to redraw brian protheroe (the same pic of him as edward iv i sketched roughly--and p badly--last month) #in charcoal. bc my mom got me charcoal PENCILS for christmas instead of sticks of vine #which were what i really needed. i dont like to use pencils hardly at all #it was an utter failure. i started off by just trying to do the basic contours of his face + neck + the crown #and then after about 20-30 minutes when i had an ok start i was like ill take a break to refresh my head #went away from it for like an hour. and was like why dont i just try it w the vine #i thought i would improve it. and i suppose i could've if i had REALLY tried #but i was exaggerating the proportions and making the worse while trying to fix them. everything got larger #and i was essentially erasing EVERYTHING i started with while i was trying to even them out #so i just gave up. lol #a girl has learned to quit while she's ahead. and she learned the hard way. #but i wasn't happy to just leave off that drawing a failure wo any plans to do something else #so i went looking through my photos on my phone and found a pic from nov. 2022 that i was going to use #as a reference pic for a figure drawing assignment that i was going to use. but my professor allowed me to draw #my grandmother instead of myself. so i never did that dramatic self-portrait assignment. i did a dramatic grandmother portrait #but i did like the dramatic-lighting picture i took of myself well enough and figured i would draw it someday #im just leaving this as a started picture for now. this wasnt much work at all maybe like 15 minutes #it's an ok start. #bc of the fucked up nature of forming a charcoal drawing i have to admit i usually like my progress pictures more than my final works. lol #like they just have a sort of monstruous edge to them. lol

[wqxianvents]

// spoilers(?) to the new event ,, its just screenshots of the story aint rlly crazyy

bro this event is so poly!nxx coded im on my knees sobbing like theyre so domestic to eachother n THE OG CHARACTERS MAKING AN APPEARANCE HAVING ME GEN CRYING 😭😭😭

like when huey appeared PLSS “HUEY!!!” same. thats my son. they need more events where domestic nxx appears thank you theyre all dating idc

like not them fighting… i was gonna get annoyed if it was the typical banter LMFAOO also artem being passive aggressive 😭😭

but to my delight ✨ EVEN LUKE WASNT GETTING INTO IT THIS TIME LMAOO,, also doesnt luke feel a little softer in this event? hes so cute like :,) he just feels more relaxed idk how to explain it, they all do tbh!! but luke hasnt rlly been bantering and if he does its with marius (not out of the ordinary fr) SOMETHING IS JUST DIFFERENT. i’m lovin it rho

i have so many ss’ of this event and whew boy… the amount of times ive been screaming poly nxx is smth, hyv loves me and said its canon (believe it)

like they all feel so lively in this one and arent arguing like they always do so its a nice change of pace <33

sorry for long tags LMAOO just love them so much *grabs the nxx team and runs away*

edit: the event i was talkin abt in tags was dreams of childhood LMAOO that one and 2nd anni are a top fave for me neow 😌‼️💞

#tears of themis #!tot events #poly nxx true im a believer #omfg theyre obsessed with eachother? #the third place was so #<33 #i think this might be my favorite event of all time everything is just good to me #the games are good tho was confusin asf so hyv fix fhat LMAOO #but now that i know how to play properly its rlly fun and i love the rewards 😍 LMAOO #i aint pullin till the 30th for a couple of reasons but im so excited to!! hope everyone’s pulls r going well #also the LIs just feel so family in this one they all are properly hanging out as friends instead of ‘this is a fight to see who can get MC’ #i wrote abt it to hyv in the quiz thing so i was kinda caught off guard when everyone was just being… friendly and domestic #obviously cn got this first so the story is the same but it was rlly nice to wish for smth and to see it! #this is my favorite next to when they went to the hoyofair - i think it was? with the fireworks? #bc they were all soooo !!!! <333 😭😭😭 #and it feels the same in this one so im so happy #and and my favorite gag they got goin on is everyone looking at marius to get them into places 💀💀 #and hes just like…. sigh…. yeah yeah any other requests? LMFAOOO #is this love or is this sugardaddy and his babygirls lets bfr #e

[celestial-sapphicss]

something really sweet happened today and i wanted to share!

so in my college (it's a 2 years course), the 1st year students of the club im in threw us a farewell party, and we were completely blown away! they all had prepared speeches for us and got us personalized gifts, it was all so sweet i almost cried! and since im also one of the heads of the club, i felt so proud and emotional!

last year, we had the worst toxic seniors to the point that i had mental breakdowns because of them, and had vowed to create a safe environment for the new students and im really happy we could do that 🥹

#vi.txt #personal #AAAAAAAA MY HEART IS SO FULLL #i had worked so hard for this club and it opened up so many new things for me and it made me come out of my shell im gonna miss it so much #since my college started in the online mode the friends i made were not who i thought they were they completely changed in the offline mode #but since everyone already had their own core groups i was stuck and its anyways difficult for me to make new friends #because when i bond its kinda all or nothing for me so i just kept holding on hope that things would get better with time but GAAAAAH #but the 2 of the girls i was closest to turned out to be quasi pick me girls #they went on to include bigoted homophobic boys in the group which made me so uncomfortable #and they did that despite the fact that they knew im queer and when i pointed it out they didn't really acknowledge me ugh #anyways the point is this club would be my safe place as i like all the people in it #it kinda put me on the spotlight as well and expanded my circle!!!! #and while i can't wait for my student life to be over i will miss this club a lot and im kinda sad to let it go!!!! #im so happy it meant even a little as much to the juniors as it meant to me 🥹 #this is why i was awol all day and im v tipsy rn so ill reply and rb and everything tomorrow!!!!! #i hope y'all are having a good day 💌

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#i was supposed to spend the last 2 days prepping and relaxing for the start of this big project tomorrow #but ive spent thr last 2 days frantically coding as fast as i could and focusing v hard to get a lot of bullshit done #and ive fixed things since yesterday. the changes i had to make were too too bad bc the thing that went wrong was so fucking weird #but it should be okay by tomorrow. knock on wood. but this does mean ive done fuck all to prep for tomorrow #so we r winging it bby. ugh. just gotta fucking pray that everything goes ok. pls let nothing b broken and let everything seal properly 🙏 #i was also supposed to meet with my boss today. probably for her to make sure i dont fuck up this project but apparently their safety hood #was having an emergency... whatever that means. so im sure shes having a week as well. and im free to fuck everything up for everyone #ugh. im so. theres a certain point in burning out where youre not really in pain anymore. you dont really feel anything all your joy and #hope dissolves away and u just exist to be useful. and i feel like its easier to maintain that than trying to b happy #i do not advise that bc its a fucking miserable. wasteful way to live but i dont really have time to try for anything better #god. i really hope my measurements friday dont take a full 8hrs. i dont know if i can handle that. literally i would have stay intensely #focused with my brain being Interrupted every 5min so i can manually record data points. its gonna b agony #so that fun. but maybe it wont. maybe itll be great and fun and ill have a wonderful time. seems unlikely but ya never kno #lets not think abt the fact that having to rush all this is preventing me from being able to do all thr other bullshit i need to get done #to prepare for the future. future? what future? hard to imagine from the bottom of this pit im digging myself #sigh. in a few months i can leave this place and never come back. soon but not soon enough #lol i was literally crying listening to cold play earlier bc idk thats the type of music my parents would put on at parties in summertime #so it evokes a v specific mood. which is i guess me hiding away from ppl at parties haha #back when i didnt have to worry abt things so much and i could just listen to the frogs chirping and watch the fireflies #oh god. now my boss is asking if i reached out for help tomorrow. no. lady i would rather drink bleach than have to direct an undergrad #tomorrow. its 10pm im fucking tired. just let me be sad. did i reach our for help? no my brain is on fire #tomorrow is gonna b a long day ugh #unrelated

[spectrearia-archive]

OMG ITS HAPPENING

2 DAYS UNTIL APOTHEOSIS?!?! aaaaAAAAAAAAAA

#minecraft #drehmal: primordial #spectre says #went on twitter just to skim through the posts of the few ppl i still follow on there #and i saw. this announcement #i just about threw my phone kfghdfnsgsfg #im so excited !!!! #probably won't be able to play it for a while after the updated map launches BUT #that doesn't make me any less happy to see this ;A; #ok but like. y'all don't understand. this map means EVERYTHING to me #it's what inspired me and my friend to really work on our own characters and storytelling #by playing in the world and interacting with the way these mapmakers approach lore and world-building #it really inspired us to try and do more of that ourselves;; #so yeah. our characters likely wouldn't be where they are now without Drehmal #and this map holds a very special place in my heart for that reason ;o;; #but because of all that!! the update has been something i've been looking forward to for a while now as well!! #anYWAY enough of my sappy rambling haha im just xD so happy

[corntort]

reminder 2 self to ask someone abt a chord progression im rlly struggling qith

#Everything Else Sounds Correct but qhen i try to play that chord it sounds way wrong #am i just playing it wrong??? has my guitar actually been outta tune this entire time. still doesnt explain everything else sounding righr #i cant really tune my guitar without using a (notoriously) finicky tuner because you know for sure i cant do that shit by ear #ive been a little frustratwd today!!! picking up many new things #dedicating So Much Time. and something i do wrong despite quadrupke checking things #3d modeling was going so well then geometry nodes were thrown in and suddenly i fucked it all up #so after. Hours. of that. gave up. watched a litle bit of a show. and went wait i need to strum a little on my guitar #maybe i can figure out the chords in this progression! WRONG #ive just been urgrgg. off today #rambles #not looking forward to tomorrow either. today was rough at work but itll be just me and someone else for the entire morning. so #uurgghhrgh. just gonna spin a nivyl til i pass out. it really really has been helping me sleep and find peace . makes me really happy #so hopin kt works its magic #because an endless cycle is confusing me #Grgrgg. #ok im good nlw

[tittysuckersworld]

i cut my hair again!!

#it went so well omg- #like i was afraid cause i was cutting way less hair from head #but it was it went so good im so happy #qlso like i am a fem nb person without much much dysphoria just cause being fem makes me feel more masc and #being masc makes me feel more fem #but my gglob idk whenever my hair is in the right style everything judt feels so much better #me:i dont have lot dysphoria. just cant wear dresses or be refered to femly #also me: feels more and more bad as hair gets longer until get it back in style i like again and gose crazy about it #like bruhhh if it wasnt so late at night and i liked photos i would just be playing with hair styles and taking photos #cause i feel very cute!! #being nb is hard until find good stuffs and oh boy do i just #feel better about myself now that i have a specific way i like my hair #its pretty fem but masc enough to me and i just- is so such uehfhsbduwhwhw #also have first thing with doing meeting people stuff irl for job on friday #so will be able to look cute for that!! #planning on if can sew adjust skirt fast enough can wear a cute pink one i have #so so fun uehduwbdushduwbsgwh #<3<3<3