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tmzrkstan · 9 months

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the idol!reader stuff eats so bad but barely anybody does it

I am particularly passionate about this type of reading. And taking advantage of the moment, I leave here an old idea that I never gave a chance to. ;)

nct dream (hyung line) working with ex idol!s/o.

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genre: idol!reader, ex to lovers (?), smutty, adult language.

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✭MARK:

Looking from a professional point of view, it was such a great opportunity. You could finally get to do another kind of concept, show other side of yours. Besides, you knew very well how much of a talented idol Mark was. Your team almost beg you for you to do it, them just freaking out with the attention y'all would get.

Even when you accepted there wasn't really a lot of meeting with your ex. Untill the MV shooting day at least. There you were, watching Lee from far while finishing your make up. He was receiving instructions from the director.

"Hey..." your voice sounded quietly.

"Hi!" his eyes turned out similiar from a lost puppy. "You look nice... I mean, it´s nice seeing you." he just got a short smile from you. "Your part it´s really great"

"Of course, you must think so since you composed it" he stammered a bit before correcting himself "No, I meant you made it a lot better."

Before any more chances to say anything the director made you two start the work there. Both of you acting the way you were supposed to. Inside, you were annoyed and still feeling a litle hurt, on the Mark´s side, he was feeling awful. He knew it was his fault that the break up happened. You were the most understanding girlfriend ever, since you knew what beeing an idol means. But you also got tired of waiting for your turn, to get attention. He lost weeks not even calling you while on tour, but you didn´t. Always texted and videocalled him.

After a lot of fighting you gave up and clean the way for him to focus just on that. Lee really tried to see as the best thing for you both but he was suffering every day since. His members made him notice who the jerk was. He smiled like a child on Christmans morning whwn you agreed to collab with him. It was the last chance and it would be worth.

Hours passed out, your ex complimented and took care of you all day long. Those who didn´t knew about your relantionship were surprised by how a gentleman he was with you, who just tried your best not to fall for his sweetness again. Especially when you found a letter on your bag during a pause.

It was his hand writting and his true feelings. Apologies all over it, confessions like that he writted the love lyrics of the song for you and that he never stoped loving you. Admitted he was wrong and childshid and was ready for trying again if you do too.

''Oh boy'' you thought as seeing how good he was with words while they were on paper.

The last ''Cut!'' was heard and you carefully whisper at him "We can have dinner, that´s all." you bet he was happy. "Better not wase my time."

"I would never dare to do it again."

✭Renjun:

Beeing in a relantionship with him was sweet, comfortable and lovely. But unfortunally this only was like this when you still a trainee. When you had a chance to debut it all changed. Schedueles, dates, you lost time together and all the fighting started. You just didn´t talked with each other anymore since the end. Until you worked together in a survival reality as judges.

Everybody noticed how you were always on opposite sides and skewered each other for your different opinions. There were even compilations of yours fights, that carried a lot of chemistry and tension, on the internet every week and the audience loved this intrigue.

Eventually, they ended up having to help the same team, which made them put their fights aside and gather even behind the cameras looking for a solution to help the poor trainees.

"I can't understand your point" you rolled your eyes laughing "Of course you never did." he huffed "It's not all about you, though you may think so..." you were discussing what would be the best direction for a choreography.

"You're so childish! It's obvious that this step is better! You take it, however, you lose your balance at a certain point and end up almost falling, if it weren't for him catching himself abruptly. Eye contact was present and you felt your mouth go dry and your hands sweat.

"You should be more careful!" he puts you back on your feet, still holding tight to your waist. "If not what?" he looked down at you "What?" you then repeated "If not what will happen?"

"I'm going to have to teach you a few things…how to respect your elders." "How?" He sighed, smiling with some anger. Took you to the wall attacking your lips aggressively as he squeezes your waist again and you lose your fingers in his hair.

✭Jeno:

Starting to date with your co-worker wasn´t a really a good idea, especially if him was another MC from the TV show you worked on. But who could blame you for not resisting to Jeno? I mean, look at him right?

You should´ve said "no'' the first time he asked you out, but was too late now. After a few months you two had a big fight because of diferences on toughts and were obligated to work together for at least five weeks more. You runaway for as long as you could but after a quick tour on Asian you had to get back. But it was clear that he wasn´t going to make this easy.

A lot of smiles and flirting talks run free during the meeting for planning the week and when you were on make up session.

"Just shut your mouth up!" you yelled as soon as the stylists leaved the room.

"Why? Need it shut for you to kissed?"

"I´m gonna punch just on the midle of your face."

"The face you love." he smiled all playfull.

"I simply hate your attitude and confidence, you´re not that all." you roll your eyes as you listen to him laugh. "What?"

"It´s fun... the way we were making out on that sofa a few days earlier and now you are saying this stupid thing..."

"You are stupid." he got up, walking to behind your chair and facing you through the mirror. "Really, darling? Only because we had a silly fight you think that?"

"You know it wasn´t silly" you sigh. "For me it was, anything that keeps me away of these beautyful lips it´s silly..." he pus both hands around your shoulders, caressing exactly the way you like it.

"Don´t...don´t touch me." you hesitate before spinning your chair to his front. "I´m not going to fall for your charm again."

"So I do have a charm." his high was cut in half by his knees touching the carpet. "You fall once, sweetheart." he blinked slowly before biting his lower lip. "Let´s not promise things we can´t deal with later, ok?"

The door was open after three knocks, reveling the hairstylist team. He came back to his chair, with a cheeky smile. Oh, he was so sure you would be his again, just in a matter of time...

✭Haechan:

You really didn´t wanted to finished things with Donghyuck, but unfortunately beeing famous demanded a lot. When you noticed your, just recent, relantionship with him was making Haechan a lot distracted from his work you felt guilty. With wich power could you make him risk everything if you got into his life few days ago? So hard, but you did it. Lied and end it all because of "mental confusions".

But here you were, getting ready to practice a dance stage with him for an award concert. The fans picked you two for it, based on your aparently "friendship", and you get bad to your side if you recused.

Very diferent from what you expect, he was normal around, at least for his general behavior. He joked around with the dance instructor and tried to make you laugh, he wasn´t awkard at all. However, you felt very strange inside.

Luckly, you guys were quick with it and finished the day earlier. You grab your things nd almost run to grab the elevator, the same he stops putting one hand between the doors.

"Oh, isn´t such a coincidence?" he pressed the bottom on the metalic wall.

"I guess..." you smiled weakly.

"I didn´t get why you so weird around me..." he sigh slowly. "I should be the one to be like this, since you broke my heart few days ago, right?" even though his words looked painfull he was smiling yet. "You really didn´t had pitty for me, y/n..."

"Haechan, I..." your felt like falling as the elevator lurched and its lights were replaced by a darker, apparently the emergency one. "What´s this?" you grabed your bag stronger.

"Don´t worry, this one always do something like it, just wait a few minutes." he put his back at one wall.

"What? Why didn´t you told me before?" he looked down "I ask the same to you..."

"Come on, it´s not the same thing!" you frowned at him. "All we can do it´s wait, i swear it happended before."

"Fine... but I won´t be listening to you atacking me or my motives during this time!"

"I wouldn´t do it." he shrugged. "Even hurted, I know you didn´t mean anything that you said." "What?" the man came closer "It may look like not enough time, but I nkow you well by now. You were concerned."

"About?" he looked up "Me giving all of me in this...what did you called it? Hookup time."

"You can´t be sure of that." you tried to get back but he grabbed you wrist "But I am, as much as I decide to forgive you for this." he put one hand on your cheek "Also sure that you missed me how I missed you..." And everything happened quickly, the touch of lips, the lights and the elevator coming back and the doors opening in Jaemin and Jisung's faces who watched everything with a shocked face.

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#kpop #kpop imagines #mark lee #nct #haechan #gn!reader #kpop reactions #jeno #renjun #nct dream hyung line #idol!reader #nct dream reactions #nct reactions #nct imagine

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sleepysnk · 3 years

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Helloooo just finished my first week's of partial exams and I came to Tumblr to relax a bit and saw that your requests are open, im so happy!!! Would it be okay for me to request a litle scenario where out in a expedition Eren gets to tired out and cant transform anymore and while they get surrounded by titans, Erwins S/o transforms into her titan form and just wipes out all the titans and everyone is just :000000 and they get back to safety

i hope you did well on your exams! :) i really like this request. it would for sure be a shocker ngl, i hope you enjoy love! <3

Erwin x Fem!Reader: Protecting Us

Warnings: None

(for sure his face when he saw titan lightning^)

Chaos rained over the land as the expedition was currently being played out. The expedition was going fine at first, nobody got hurt, no deaths, until somehow titans in large groups had appeared out of no where.

Many soldiers were deployed to take care of the titans surrounding, but most began to get eaten, or got crushed into the hands of the monsters. This prompted Commander Erwin to give the signal for Eren to transform into his titan form. It was the last and final option, and unfortunately he had to come to it.

"We have twice as many as before Commander! Eren won't be able to take them all out on his own!" Levi yelled as he stood in the tree.

(Y/N) watched as her comrades were eaten alive. She couldn't bare to watch this scene unfold in front of her. Erwin didn't know what to do. Why the hell were so many titans coming out of no where?

"Eren will be able to do it. I know he will" Erwin replied and watched as Eren threw titans around.

Thing was, these titans were going after Eren. They were trying to get at his nape, which was odd considering they were mindless titans. He couldn't hold them off forever, and it was beginning to show.

"He doesn't look good Erwin" (Y/N) said with worry in her voice.

He looked towards his lover. "He'll be fine (Y/N)... if we have to, we will retreat" he said.

She wasn't so sure if retreating was a good option. The amount of titans were insane, and everyone was starting to get tired from taking so many out. Even (Y/N) was tired, she had killed more than she could count.

All she could do was watch as Eren threw titans around. Erwin ordered everyone to not engage, and to leave it all to Eren. (Y/N) wasn't so sure about the idea.

"Sir! He's going to go down" Levi yelled and looked towards Eren.

His titan looked weak, and if he didn't get out of there he would be eaten. "Shit.." Erwin said and looked down.

Everyone watched from afar as Eren fell over. Most of the titans were now putting their attention back on the people, now they were truly fucked in this situation.

"Your orders?" (Y/N) asked and looked towards Erwin with concern.

He sighed. "I need to think, go find Hanji and the others" he replied and leaned against the tree.

She looked at him with concern. "Pardon me Erwin, but we don't have time to think! If we don't have a plan soon, we're gonna end up with more casualties" she said.

Erwin turned towards her. "Do what I said (Y/N)" he said and looked back at Eren.

She shot away along the trees. She noticed Hanji standing with Moblit in the tree. "Any word from Erwin?" Hanji asked and nodded.

(Y/N) shook her head. "No.. he's thinking of a plan, but we don't have much time" she replied and looked down at Eren's titan form.

Hanji stood up. "I'll need to go check on Eren" she said and shot down to his titan.

She stood there helplessly as the titans began to form around the trees, this made it impossible for them to move, or even retreat like Erwin said they could. At this point, the scouts had no options. It's not like they could wait for the monsters to wander off, they would have to travel during the night, but day light was far from ending.

That's until the last option popped into (Y/N)'s head.

She could potentially transform, she hadn't told anyone, but she was secretly a titan shifter. Nobody knew, not even Erwin. The girl kept it quiet, because she didn't want the government to have more reasons to try and disband the scouts.

It might be the only way they could get out of there alive, but she wasn't sure what the others would say.

"(Y/N), do you have any ideas?" Moblit asked and nodded at her.

She sighed. "No I don't... but hey Moblit, do you have a knife?" she asked.

He furrowed his brows. "Uh.. yeah. Why? It's not like a knife will do anything" he replied and reached for it in his pocket.

(Y/N) took the knife from him. "I think what is going to happen might be the only way we get out of this alive" she said and looked down.

He nodded. "What do you mean?" he asked and seemed concerned.

She fiddled with the knife. "Just trust me" she replied and jumped off the tree.

"What the hell... (Y/N)!" he yelled and watched as she fell towards the ground.

(Y/N) sliced her hand open, and titan lightning shot across the sky. This caused everyone to turn in the direction of the commotion.

"What the hell was that?!" Erwin yelled and looked in the direction of the smoke.

Levi came over. "Did Eren transform again? He had no orders to do so!" he replied and looked around.

Hanji looked over and saw another titan standing before her. She instantly recognized the titan to be (Y/N). Her eyes widened at her form, the titan had her (h/c) hair and her (e/c) eyes. How long had she been hiding this?

(Y/N) began to tear the titans before her apart. She threw them along the sky, and ran around trying to get them away from everyone.

Erwin looked over and his icy blue eyes went wide. "Who the hell is that?" Levi asked and furrowed his brows.

"It's (Y/N).." he replied and looked around at the titans below him.

He watched as she got the titans to come towards her. "What the hell..." Mike said and watched her.

''Shit... why are there so many?!" (Y/N) said and looked around as the titans came towards her.

She needed to tell Erwin to get the hell out of there with everyone else. She made her way towards him. He noticed how frantic she seemed.

"(Y/N)! What's going on?" Erwin asked and lookef at her titan form.

She moved her head side to side. "Hey brat! Can you explain!?" Levi yelled.

"Should we go?" Erwin asked and furrowed his brows.

She shook her head up and down. "Alright... let's go!" he said and turned around towards everyone else.

"This may be our only opportunity to get out! Everyone get to your horses!" Levi yelled and shot down to his horse.

(Y/N) began to tear more titans apart. Her goal was to get everyone to safety, this would only happen if they all got out of there.

Erwin looked back as his lover took out more titans, he wanted to go back and help her, but he had to push forward. He knew she was strong, and she could do it by herself. He prayed silently that she would make it back just fine.

Within hours, the scouts had gotten to a safe point. The adrenaline running through everyone began to slow a bit, the sight of titans weren't feared anymore. It was quiet. They got back with no casualties.

"Any sign of her?" Levi asked and came over to Hanji.

She nodded. "No, not yet. I hope none of those titans ate her. My fear is that she got tired and her body gave out" she replied and looked at him.

Levi looked back at Erwin, who seemed very worried. "So, did you have any idea your girlfriend was a titan?" he asked.

Erwin looked up. "No, not at all. I had no idea until I saw her in that titan" he replied and looked around.

"Scared the brats shitless being honest..." Levi said and crossed his arms.

Hanji came over. "Well she did help us escape. I'll give her gratitude for that one" she said and smiled a bit.

"Section Commander! A titan is approaching!" Moblit yelled and pointed.

Everyone looked over to see (Y/N) in the distance coming towards them. "Do not engage!" Erwin yelled and looked at everyone.

Everyone stood tensely as the titan grew closer to them. Erwin knew it was (Y/N), but she seemed really weak. She most likely had been battling those titans, and had difficulty doing so. Who knows how long it had been since she transformed.

Her titan dropped to the ground, and steam started to arise from it. "She's coming out" Hanji said and looked at Erwin.

He nodded. "I'll take care of it. The rest of you saddle your horses and get ready to go back to the wall" he replied and headed towards her titan.

Erwin shot over on top of her titan. Her nape fully exposed her body which was still in the muscle. He used his blades to cut her out, being careful to not accidentally cut her arms off. She was hot. The steam surrounding her body kept her warm. Erwin had trouble even touching her.

"Is she alright?" Levi asked and nodded.

Erwin noticed she was unconscious. "She's not awake but she's weak. We must return at once" he replied and headed towards one of the wagons.

"Make sure she's comfortable" Erwin said and placed her on the wagon.

There were many questions that needed to be answered once she woke up.

#anime #attack on titan #aot x reader #aot x y/n #aot imagines #aot fanfiction #snk x y/n #snk x reader #snk imagines #snk fanfiction #shingeki no kyojin #shingeki no kyoujin fanfiction #erwin smith #erwin x reader #anime fanfic #attack on titan fanfiction

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sigmanutz · 2 years

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pairing: dad!cedric x babysitter!reader

warning: fluffy core memories ahead, mentions of death, unhealthy coping mechanisms, grief

rating: pg 😒

summary: cho and cedric had a son named Friedrich, Fritz or, only tolerated from Amos, Freddy my ol' boy for short, years after they leave hogwarts. but cho collapses into a coma and passes within weeks. it was something magic couldn't fix: an underlying terminal illness. cedric is stricken with grief and unable to learn how to cope. auror robes were traded for a desk jockey manager position in the same department, giving the young father enough busy work to forget about his other problems. he grew to love the distraction, nothing like desk work to soothe the soul.

send me ur thoughts n ideas :3 id love to eat ur brains. definitely not edited, but this idea hasn't left me for days. im sensing laundry room make out sessions and stuff in the near future 👁👄👁🔮

amos watched Fritz for some time until he started to develop dementia. litle things at first that garnered no attention, then it went on and on. one too many times he forgot the kettle was left on the gas burning stove and cedric had to find someone to relieve his father from childcare.

he just needed someone dependable to watch his son, so one day you get a letter by owl.

within hours, you set a time and date for midday tea. arriving a tad bit early to get some extra work done. you were a freelance editor and it helped make ends meet with not so many privileges or niceties.

at the exact meeting time, in walks cedric diggory, the man, the myth, the legend, he's somehow taller and lankier than you remember, with a ghost of stubble that peppers his sunken face. his kind smile and all too familiar wind-blown mop remained the same. the small talk was forgotten as hours pass and the two of you trauma dump and reminisce about simpler times.

"... its been a year or so now," he mumbled as they discussed the uncharted waters of cho's passing. there was no funeral or showing, her family went with cremation and spread her ashes in ireland off the coast.

"must suck, ced. sorry buddy." you grimmaced and reach over to rub his shoulder. you avoided pitying people, but he seemed appreciative of your gesture as your hand returned to fiddle with the edges of the notebook you had been doodling in.

"fucking rotten, thats for sure." he lets out, taking a sip of chamomile tea. your hands wrung themselves out of anxious habit and you nodded. "dad's gone kinda senile too." he added on

"well sounds like its all sunshine and daisies, ain't it golden boy?" you teased demurely. cedric surprisingly huffed out a loud laugh and you chuckled along with him. "couldnt have said it any better myself."

"what're you up to lately anyways?" the boyish smile finally revealed itself

the sky turns hues of purple and pink as he holds the teashop's door open for you, your faces flushing from the nippy london air.

"Aurors nowadays," he said with a playful eyeroll. an associate owled to let him know they were out sick for the evening.

you got a new job that afternoon, effective immediately, you thought as cedric apparated to the ministry.

watching Fritz paid the bills and then some. at 7, he was a well-mannered boy -- practically a spitting image of his father too with brown eyes and chestnut hair. you couldn't help but see how much he took after cho as you helped him with grade school homework. he soon got tired, and although he was a little old for naps, he asked to lay down for a bit and you gave him the ok. plus, nap time meant quiet time for you to edit

he rarely acted out. on the other hand, he was very righteous about particular things. like using the lavender scented fabric softener, he would only mention it once in your entire experience of caring for him that it reminded him of his mom. you took it into consideration and permanently added it to the shopping list on the fridge. headstrong like cho, you thought.

the Diggory’s were big healthy snackers of course -- apples, bananas, peanut butter and celery, it was always a good picnic theme for quidditch practice saturdays. it was also vastly different from your love for potato chips and puffy cheetos. so, for when ced started working more hours at the office and an increasing amount of your weekends were spent with the kid, you got used to picking up fruit snacks and goldfish crackers at the store during your errands. Fritz said he 'enjoyed the inanimate-object shaped snackies', dropping a comment on how muggles were interesting beings.

you and Fritz cherished the weekends together. Even if he missed his parents, at least it meant movie marathons, hours of quidditch, and arts & crafts with a real person

you learned quickly that your old friend raised a well rounded individual -- or maybe it was the childhood grief Fritz dealt with on his own that shaped him to be quiet, reserved, and obedient. regardless, he didn't complain about folding his own clothes when the two of you did laundry, or pout when it was time to turn in for bed.

you were reluctant to say it reminded yourself of your former years. growing up with busy parents often meant the kid fended for themselves.

you made yourself a home in the hogwarts library, it gave you silence to ponder about your thoughts. it was also away from the endless banter from your classmates and housemates, who jokingly called you the black market notes dealer

the byname brought in business, if anything. wizards and witches would drop sickles for extra Potions notes and OWLs tutoring came at the higher price of a galleon. they'd stumble across your petite frame in a dark, quiet nook at the back of the library, glasses hanging off the tip of your nose as a light from your wand, which hovered above your workspace by a wordless incantation, illuminated your furious writing.

the older you got, the less books the library had that you didn't read, so your schoolmates would have trouble finding you outside of class. you hid away to watch the Scottish landscape that surrounded the school, an ethereal feeling spread across your chest as your legs dangled off an overpass between cobblestone towers. you were reserved and offstandish and you liked it that way, but, oh boy, did any of those things prevent the wonder boy himself from pestering befriending you

you shared a handful of classes and prefect rounds, walking through the endless halls as he asked you endless questions about your classes and which OWLs you'd be taking. by the time it was your 5th year, others pinned the two of you as star pupils and it helped some foster friendly competition between the hufflepuffs and slytherins. it also proved beneficial to the big shot when he won the triwizard tournament in your 6th year.

and so, more time passed yet again.

cedric gained back muscle as the auror department dwindled in size cause he has to take more field missions. never anything more than underage magic or illegal animal trafficking cases. the threat of dark forces no longer hung over peoples hears and it steered away hogwarts students from joining the department

but the day ced got a promotion to head of the department!!!!!! you and fritz baked a cake with a prank candle that never went out

cedric's very fond of your company at this point and Fritz constantly asked about you when you werent around. "you guys kiss yet??"

most nights at the diggory household consisted of the three of you cooking dinner and eating altogether as a happy bunch. youd tuck in fritz while cedric "got some extra work done" aka peek from around the doorframe at how much his son loved your attention. then you'd find him in the study, pretending to do some busy work as you bring up some joke fritz told you earlier.

he'd walk you to the front door and take up even more of your time trying to get you to crack a smile, all while his boyish charm came back out of hibernation

you couldnt help but grin a cheeky smile when the streetlamp reflected in his hazel eyes, dimples showing and all on either of your faces in the cold

by the time Fritz was 10, you got a flat closer to the Diggory's and the kid was spending weekends at your place. cedric would even take off sundays for quidditch sundays and movie marathons

as fritz got older, his personality developed and he was yet again a remarkable young individual, being compassionate, receptive, and a great listener, some of the best qualities between his parents. that and he was already exhibiting his magic abilties.

sometimes he cracked jokes so hard, sparks would literally snap in the air around him, boy must be an innate stand up comedian.

it was a tuesday during brunch in august, complete with overcast skies and foggy streets, when an owl spilled the daily post out on the table, one envelope read in neat calligraphy on the top read "Friedrich Amos Lee Diggory"

the house stilled and Fritz grabbed the envelope with his name on it as soon as it hit the table, sprinting upstairs to his room.

surprise hit you as you realized he had two middle names and then bewilderment came as the boy squealed out of excitement which could be heard through the ceiling

that september, you and cedric waved off the boy at the train station -- not forgetting to take a quick selfie at the platform 9 3/4 sign once you bypassed the portal brick wall

not even a day after you dropped off fritz that you sent cedric an owl, asking to have dinner together cause you missed the company, only for cedric's familiar owl to perch on your window sill with a similar letter in its beak

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parkeraul · 5 years

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B L O O M — P R O L O G U E

He’s got her body supported by both arms under her back, hands holding the back of her head where he could get his fingers all lost in her soft hair as she rested against his touch and he leaned his chest to lie down on hers. His face milimiters apart from hers so he can look deep in her brown eyes, getting darker and darker with the pleasure of his thrusts going deeper, hitting all of her sweet and most sensitive spots. She’s got her nails scratching all the expansion of his back, leaving stripes wherever she could reach and the red lines started crossing their ways, embellishing his skin in that burning — yet delicious — sensation that she can always provide him with perfection.

The way her smooth thighs were surrounding his waist; the way she starts panting everytime he finds her vulnerable points and buries his member boldly to earn that priceless view of her rolling her eyes to the back of her head and arching her back closer to him; the way she kisses him with so much desire, locking and unlocking their lips with lust, only letting go to ask for more... All of these things seemed to get Shawn on his knees for Angel. He wants her, he craves her, he needs to have her all the time at the point she could barely have a free time without receiving calls and messages from him. He knows he should keep it to himself, but she gets the best of him. She gets him crawling like a baby towards her, doing whatever she wants him to do because there is no other way. It shows. He can’t hide how fucked he is for her.

A single curl falls from its place, bringing some other short strands to tickle his forehead and, consequently, hers too. His hazel eyes are practically turning her eyes into flames by the way he kept on staring at her fixedly. Her parted red lips letting out what he thinks that are the prettiest sounds he’d ever heard in his entire life. He’s sliding into her with passion and he feels like he’s never been inside of her so delightfully pleasant before, a thrust more delicious than the other as he gradually picks up the intensity of his movements, her body shifting up and making him move every inch she moved instantly, desperate just to the thought of having her silhouette leaving his touch for a single moment. He wants to make every second worth. Wants to seize these hours like they were the last moments of his entire life. He never gave all of himself to anyone like he gives to her. His entire body, mind and soul are consumed by her: her beautiful face — so near their noses are nudging gently, lips brushing together; her pretty moans sounding like music to his ears and making goosebumps show up all over his limbs; her heavenly body underneath his, clinging to each other and feeling the softness of their frames rubbing together like a tender caress; her intoxicating scent, always getting stuck on his sheets and clothes and pushing him over the edge even when she wasn’t there; her sex — the way they make sex — mostly unpredictable & surprisingly good in every single time. It’s all about her. No matter the rhythm they pick, it seems like everything happens in a slow motion. His hips thrusting back and forth, slapping against her core and skin so forcefully that the sound of the two of them together echoes throughout the room shamelessly, only incentivating Shawn to pound harder inside her dripping heat. “Come to me, love. Just like that,” He whispers against her mouth and she travels her hands from his back to the nape of his neck, tugging his dark curls eagerly. A cry flies out her throat and gets muffled by a sudden kiss. He shoves his cock hungrily, craving all the reactions from her shaking body and moves his tattooed hand to cup her cheek shyly, his calloused thumb resting carefully on top of her cheekbone and maping the flushy skin delicately, definitely nothing compared to the way he pushed strongly against her. She breaks the kiss with a smack to look him deep in the eyes and gives him one of the things he wishes he could watch in looping everyday: her innocent expression — half intentional, half filled with a insuppressible desire to reach her so-wanted release. She feels her entrance aching deliciously, that knot on her lower stomach about to collapse and her legs failing around his waist. “Oh, fuck.” He reacts, barely sound to mutter anything else. His face contorts in pleasure and she can’t help but take a handful of his face, holding and pinning him down on hers by the jaw. And, simultaneously, they give each other the sign that they’re currently being washed over with their highs. She whimpers and Shawn feels like he’s choking on what’s left of his air, unable to let out anything stronger than a groan coming from under his breath, almost like a deep guttural sigh. Both their most sensible spots pulsating, throbbing from probably the most intense orgasm they’ve ever provided each other and it’s hard to come back to reality, bodies squirming and pressed together since he’s now weighing down on her in the kindest way he can right now.

He knows the script from now on. That’s what always snaps him back to Earth.

She’ll dress up, stealing his white dress shirt to style with her black jeans perhaps, give him a flat goodbye and leave. It became so authomatic that he wonders why the hell does it still hurts him so much if he knows how things are?

“Didn’t know you could fuck like that, honestly.” Her hands drops to his shoulders for a moment before trying to pull him away. “Saved this new little thing for you, darling,” Shawn mumbles in a deep and low tone, arching one eyebrow in everything but humbleness. “How was it? Was it good for you?” A grin appears tiredly. “You’re the worst, Mendes,” She shakes her head from side to side in denial. “The worst.” She pecks his lips quickly and he knows it’s a silent sign for ‘get up and let me leave, please’. So, he removes himself out of her with caution and promptly sits on his knees, fixing his hair back in its place. Taking a deep breath, she sits and feels her entrance a litle bit sore, having difficulty to stand up on her feet. He lies back and watches her perfect shape tiptoe across his room, stretching her back and passing her hands through her hair as well — something that he likes to see as a manner she’s got from him. “I wouldn’t call myself the worst after fuckin’ you so good seconds ago,” Shawn bends both arms to rest under his head, eyes never leaving her naked body searching for her clothes. “You didn’t fuck me. Shawn Mendes doesn’t fuck.” She spits out and he frowns immediately, seeing her bringing the lace to up her legs to cover herself partly. “Excuse me? You were shaking for dear life under me in this bed, hun,” He’s so offended he’s raised his voice a little and spoke pointing to his own mattress, like she had even forgotten. “Don’t be such a bad kitten now, Angel. Unless you have time for me to prove you otherwise.” He rolls slightly and makes those puppy eyes she learned to avoid the best way she could. “M-Mm, smarty pants,” She clasps her bra and clicks her tongue towards him. “I see what you’re doing, I know where you’re going.” He gets up in a heartbeat and rushes his steps, holding her middle gracefully like they’re a 50′s couple immersed in love. “Did I really fuck you that bad, Angel?” Shawn’s worried, he can’t even lie. It means the world to him when he makes her feel good enough to see stars beneath her eyelids. “No,” She giggles and he holds her face with both hands, never breaking eye contact. “I just said Shawn Mendes doesn’t fuck.” “What does that even mean?” “You can’t fuck, Shawn,” She holds his wrist and stretches her finger to rub random patterns against his tattoo. “You never fuck. You only make love.” “What’s the difference?” He’s in the merge of getting squeaky, playing the fool because he knows that there’s a huge difference. He’s got himself in a trap. He knows well what he should do to get rid of it, but he’s not even trying that hard to leave it so soon. He loves her more than just when she’s screaming his name like it’s the only word she knows; he loves to make her laugh with stupid cheesy lines and awful jokes. He loves seeing her getting dressed, undressed, in a cloth of his and covered by his sheets only. He loves every freckle, every mark and every curve. He loves the littlelest things he thought he kept locked somewhere safe in his heart, but it’s obvious to say that she sees right through him and is totally aware of his real intentions. Needless to say he’s now assuming these emotions coming to their surface and blooming unstoppably. “You know the difference.” She says seriously, ready to leave his embrace. “Stay the night.” He holds her tighter. “No.” “I’ll pay for the extra hours.” “I said no.” “Please, Angel.” “You sound like a toddler.” “Whatever you say.” A boyish smile plays on his features, pissing her off even more. “Get off me!” “Fuckin’ make me.” She’s ready to say something in return but he’s faster, catching her by the back of her thighs and going back to bed. As soon as she gets sprawled in his messy bed, he kisses her with hunger. He presses his lips furiously against hers and she lets him, reciprocating with the same amount of passion. It’s a replay of heads tilting, tongues dancing and caressing each other in a way she can feel her lungs screaming for air. He trails his fast kisses to her jaw, peppering them along her neck and she closes her eyes, floating in her own paradise. Her phone rings in the nightstand and Shawn stops gradually, attentive on what’s about to happen. “Be there in 10.” She says before shutting her screen. Gently, she places her hands on his chest and pushes him away. He lets her out to get in her jeans and shirt, loving the way she takes her hair out of the fabric to let it swing and cascade over her back and shoulders. “Can’t really stay, eh?” He's aware of her answer but still wants to confirm. Who knows? “Told you you’re not my only client.” “But I’m your best.” “Don’t flatter yourself, love-maker.” She rolls her eyes and can’t hold back a wide smile. “You know I am,” He insists. “Admit it.” She stays quiet, grabbing her leather jacket after shoving her feet in her shoes fastly. “C’mon, Angel,” He approaches her once again, letting himself get compelled by her before she goes. “Hm?” He grips her chin and pecks her lips. “Yes, Mendes,” She gets interrupted by one more peck. “You’re the best-hottest-love-maker,” Another peck. “Biggest cock and greatest six pack,” Last long peck. “Happy?” “Doesn’t hurt to say it once in a while.” He smirks and lets her go. Just when she’s about to hold the doorknob, she listens his voice calling her again. “I wonder if you’re ever gonna let me know your real name someday.” But he thinks more to himself than speaks to her. “Get to find it by yourself and I promise I’m yours forever.” “Forever?” “Just like you want us to be.” She winks and steps out, knowing her way out and that she might have placed a huge and dangerous bet in here.

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Autumn Traditions - A Turnera Diffusa Sidepiece

Jean had always enjoyed the Sabbats in all their different forms. When he'd still been a child his mother had celebrated them with him in all kinds of different and creative ways that allowed him to have fun with the stories and deities behind each occasion. Then, when he'd grown up to be a teenager, she had taken him to the coven for more elaborate rituals and intriguing festivities that had him asking for his initiation before the year was over.

But even though each Sabbat had their own little details he adored, like how Yule was always so cosy and loving while Ostara focused on the freshness of new life coming back after the dark winter months were over, his favourite would always be Samhain. He'd loved it as a child when his mother had taken him on long walks through the golden autumn forests and used the time to teach him all kinds of things about how nature was changing around them during these months and he'd loved it once they celebrated with the coven and Hanji led some of the most intimate and fascinating rituals he had ever witnessed to this day.

Now that Jean was grown up and lived in his own cottage together with his two mates he still loved everything about Samhain, loved how his entire coven and their loved ones would meet up in his garden on the night of the 31st and celebrate together, loved the food everyone brought and how they would crash all over his house for the night only to have a big, loud and wonderful breakfast together at the next morning. And he also loved preparing for the festivities, cleaning his home to receive his guests and decorating it in the most beautifully festive ways imagineable.

The presense of his two mates and their enthusiastic participation in his big and small rituals only made him all the more excited. Especially when it meant they could scatter all their tools across the weathered wooden table on the patio and carve up the biggest pumpkins they had been able to find on the patch early in the morning.

The crisp autumn air carefully nibbled at his fingertips but Jean was way too concentrated on his task to consider going inside to fetch some gloves. Besides, he needed his fingers to be nimble and sensitive to carve out the intricate swirls and patterns he had chosen for his latern this year. The array of tools spread out beside him was the largest on the table by far, his many years of experience and practise obvious when compared to his mates. He carefully brushed away a few flakes of the harder outer skin he had grated away to allow the candle to later make the remaining pumpkin flesh glow a rich orange. Then he grabbed a short, delicate saw to move on to another part of the pattern he hadn't worked on in as much detail yet.

A low whistle tore his burning focus away from the work at hand and he looked up, over at Marco who had apparently caused the noise. His eyes were large with wonder as he studied Jean's massive pumpkin, rounding the table to get a better look at the entire front half Jean had encorporated into his design.

"That's the most beautiful pumpkin I've ever seen, Jean", he said, his face bright with admiration as he kept studying Jean's work. The pattern was abstract but reminded of fallen leaves tumbling in the wind with its swooping and swirling lines that were only broken up by floaty shapes that vaguely reminded of foliage. Only half of it was done yet, the other half still only crudely prepared for more detailed work. Jean would still need a few more hours to really mold it into the picture he had in mind. But the compliment still made him feel a soft warmth rise in his chest that chased away the nibbling of the occasional breeze.

"Thanks", he smiled back, only a litle bit bashful when Marco leaned over to press a kiss to his cheek, lips warm against his cool skin. They had already spent a long time outside, Jean noted as he opened and closed his hands a few times and felt his fingers burn a little with exertion. Maybe it was time for a break.

As if on cue Eren stepped out onto the patio before he could even finish the thought, making Jean blink and look around in surprise. He hadn't even noticed Eren had been gone, way too lost in his work to be aware of his surroundings, it seemed.

His mate carried three large mugs topped with whipped cream and cinnamon that smelled heavenly of hot chocolate.

"Come on Michelangelo", he smirked with a glance at Jean's partly finished pumpkin, "It's time for a break."

The mug Eren shoved between his hands was hot, almost too hot against his cool skin, but Jean let out a blessed sigh and wrapped his stiff fingers around the smooth porcellain, deeply inhaling the scent of chocolate and cinnamon. When he took a careful sip a touch of cream got stuck on his upper lip and he licked it off with a satisfied sigh. The drink itself was perfect, rich and smooth and not too sweet, while the whipped cream was sticky and light to set it off.

"Thank you, sweetheart", Marco hummed and warmed his own hands on the mug before swiping at the cream with his tongue. It hypnotized Jean for a second but he managed to tear his gaze away before the others noticed and began teasing him about it. Instead his landed on the two pumpkins lined up on the other side of the table. The weren't as detailed as his own but obviously both already finished.

The one to the right had been carved into the picture perfect image of a classic jack'o'lantern with its toothy grin and slanted eyes, the cuts rough and skewed at places but still with a lot of character and charme. The one on the left was a bit more creative and technically advanced, showing off a pretty witch's hat motif. Some of the lines could have been a bit more relaxed and flowing but overall it was very pretty and would look great lit up at night.

It wasn't hard to guess which one was Eren's and which one Marco's, with the impatience first to start and then to finish basically radiating off of the lantern to the right while the left one seemed more thought through and worked on with more patience and care.

"You're already done", he said, once again surprised by just how deep his concentration had run that he hadn't noticed both Eren stepping away and Marco finishing as well. Looking down at his meticulously carved, half finished lantern he had to chuckle.

"I'll still need a while..."

His apologetic tone was quickly waved away by Marco.

"First you're gonna enjoy your drink", he explained, shooting Jean a stern glance.

"And then we'll count your fingers, just to make sure you didn't cut off any", Eren added, steppig close to wrap an arm around Jean's waist. The warmth of his body could be felt through the layers of both their clothes and Jean felt himself nuzzle into the feeling, welcoming it.

"I wasn't the one stabbing at my pumpkin until it almost broke apart", he chuckled back and enjoyed another sip of rich chocolate. Next to them Marco chimed in with a low, soothing laugh that made Jean's heart throb.

"Yeah, if anyone was in danger of losing fingers it was Eren. Or me, once or twice ... but I was actually careful compared to him."

"Bah, you just got lucky! Obviously I'm the one with the skill!" Eren gestured grandly at the pumpkin with the toothy grin and Jean bellowed out a carefree laugh at the way he waved his hand, as if presenting one of the seven world wonders instead of a carved lantern. Then his gaze was drawn away to the other end of the garden where two brown bunnies were enjoying the still green grass just below the apple trees, only sometimes raising their little heads to look over at them before continuing their feast.

Satisfied with how welcome and at home they felt in his garden by now Jean turned back to his mates who were still bickering, grinning widely at each other. He interrupted them when he leaned down to press a loving kiss to Eren's cheek - way too warm considering the temperatures that were dropping more quickly now that the sun was setting lower.

"Thanks for the drinks", he smiled and watched Eren's adorable fluster before his mate caught himself and gave an almost serious nod.

"Someone's gotta take care of you when you're all up in something again", he explained, still a little haltingly and bashful. Jean kissed him again, this time on the lips that felt even warmer and tasted of sweet cream.

"I'm cold", he admitted, looking over at Marco as well who had wrapped both fingers around his mug and watched them with an air of honest adoration. "Let's go inside and warm up, I can finish my pumpkin tomorrow."

He would still need to collect and clean all his tools if he didn't want them to rust tonight when it got cold and humid, but he could do that later. For now he just wanted to wrap himself up in a blanket and enjoy a quiet evening with his mates after the fun day they'd already spent together. Everything else, pumpkins and tools, could come later.

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Little Talks | Mackaaron

Mack sat in the quiet library among several other students, appearing to be cramming for finals just as she was. Usually, she would have been buried deep in her studies but today she couldn’t bring herself to do so. After her and Mia’s conversation, Mack had shut everyone out. She wasn’t sure what to believe anymore and a constant bang of guilt hit her continuously. Since she’d stepped foot into the library, her phone had been turned off which had been hours by this point. She felt bad for neglecting Aaron, but felt that if anything that she needed to group her thoughts together about him and Bella before she even considered confronting him. That, however, was short lived as she heard a familiar voice come from behind her. A voice that she didn’t have to turn around to know who it belonged to, Aaron’s.

Aaron had basically gave up on studying for his exams beause truth be told, he didn’t see himself being able to actually pass most of them and he really didn’t feel like studying anyway. With that in mind, he had been walking aorund the school the whole day, hanging around with a few of his friends and just keeping busy. He had tried to call and text Mack a few times but he hadn’t got a response from her, but he blamed it all on the fact that she was probably studying. Of course, being that they hadn’t talked the whole day, he decided to pay her a visit and see what she was up to. He tried in her dorm first, but when she wasn’t there, he figured that she’d be at the library. Aaron made his way to that part of the school that he barely ever visited, and sure enough, she was there. “So what do I have to do to get you away from those books and to have dinner with me?” He asked playfully, smile playing on his lips as he leaned down to peck her cheek and then sat down with her.Mack’s eyes softened as Aaron took a seat next to her, her stomach twisting painfully in knots as opposed to the usual butterflies that filled it whenever he was around. Biting down on her bottom lip hard enough to draw blood for a moment, Mack forced a small smile at him before her gaze adverted down to her work once again. “I guess I didn’t really realize how long I’ve been in here.” She murmured softly, it being evident in her voice that something was wrong. She couldn’t bring herself to be or act okay right now. She was beyond confused with the Aaron and Bella situation and the guilt was only adding to her stress. She let a shaky breath leave her lips as she tucked a strand of hair behind her ear, avoiding his gaze.Aaron raised an eyebrow as she seemed to barely have time to look at him and sending him a small smile as she focused on her work once again. But he definitely frowned when she didn’t answer his question, the tone of her voice obviously showing more than what she wanted to show. He was obviously a little lost because he couldn’t remember doing anything to upset her, last time they talked things had been more than okay. Perfect, even. Aaron was confused. “So…I’m guessing that’s a no for dinner then?” He asked, his eyes not leaving her face even when she wasn’t looking at him.“I-I..” Mack stammered, eyes flickering around the library quickly. It wasn’t fair to Aaron. It was obvious that she wasn’t okay and he was completely oblivious as to why, and it involved him. She was quickly growing frustrated with herself and the situation itself. She needed answers now. There was no way that she could continue like this. “W-We need to talk.” Mack breathed out breathlessly. Her body turned to him as she finally brought her eyes to meet his.Aaron’s frown deepened as she fumbled with her words, not really knowing what to think. This was obviously more than just her studying or not going to dinner, but he just didn’t know what the hell was going on. Running a hand through his hair as she spoke up again, Aaron sighed and nodded his head slowly. He was new with relationships, but he knew that when someone said that very famous phrase, it meant that something was actually really wrong and he was getting a little nervous. “About what exactly?” He asked, rubbing the back of his neck.It was evident to Mack that Aaron was growing nervous and she couldn’t stand to watch him act this way, it made her heart sink to her stomach. She placed a hand on his knee and ran her thumb along the fabric of his jeans. “M-Mia and I were hanging out the other day, when she asked how Bella and I were I told her that there was a lot of tension. She starting acting weird about it, so I asked her if there was something that I should know.” She began, keeping her voice soft since they were in a library. “S-She was reluctant to telling me at first. Then she eventually told me….t-that Bella said that you..that you left her for me. T-That’s why she doesn’t really like me.” Mack’s voice was a whisper by the time she’d finished the short story, shaking her head lightly as she took her hand from his knee and fumbled with her fingers.Aaron felt himself relax a little bit when she rested her hand on his knee, and he let out a deep breath as she started talking. His hands were inside the pocket of his hoodie, as he listened to her intently, not knowing where she was going to end up with this conversation. But he most definitely froze after her final words, almost as if he couldn’t physically understand what she was talking about. He was in shock because he didn’t remember that happenign like that at all. In his mind, Bella and him hadn’t been in an actual relationship. They had been a thing but it wasn’t serious, he had never called her his girlfriend. But he felt one hundred times worse when he realized that Mack /believed/ this whole story that Bella had told to her sister when Aaron had told Mack that she was his first girlfriend on various occasions. “That’s bullshit.” Aaron said rather harshly, his tone low as he looked at Mack’s face.“I-I figured, because you’ve said that I’m your first real girlfriend. B-But clearly there’s some miscommunication between you two and I just…I just feel guilty.” Mack admitted truthfully, wanting Aaron to know exactly how she felt. Mack had even gone as far as to ask for a new roommate, there was no way that she could room with Bella any longer given the situation between the two. It was evident to Mack that Aaron didn’t seem all too happy about hearing what Mack said, not that she could blame him by this point.Even when he was pissed beyond words because this was all bullshit and all he could think about was that he wanted to have a really nice talk with his apparently ex girlfriend, he did slow down a little bit when he noticed that Mack was just blaming herself for this, and not him. His heart almost dropped to the floor at his girlfriend’s words. “Mack…this isn’t your fault at all.” He said gently, one of his hands finding hers to lace their fingers together. “We weren’t together…we were just like…hooking up, I guess. It wasn’t…it wasn’t an actual relationship. We were…friends. And we had chemistry I guess…it was like…just sex. Fuck, this sounds so wrong…I’m sorry.” He said, shaking his head a litle before looking down at his lap.Mack’s eyes fixated on the floor as he spoke, nodding lightly at his words. Her fingers laced with his, her hand gently squeezing his as she peeked up at him through her long eyelashes. When it came down to it, Mack would believe Aaron over everyone else. However, it was evident that the two had different understandings of what their relationship was. She cringed as Aaron said what their relationship consisted of and Mack tried her best to block out his words, not wanting to know the details. “I-I’ve already filed for a new roommate.” She whispered, her voice barely audible.Aaron shook his head a little to himself, not really knowing what to say to make her feel better. He felt as if everytime he talked, he would ruin it more because it was clear that there was not a good way to explain his relationship with Bella to Mack. She obviously knew that Aaron had changed, but having all of this surronding them made Aaron feel like things hadn’t at all. Letting go of Mack’s hand gently, he nodded lightly at her words. “Okay…I don’t really…know what to say right now to make this better…I’m sorry.” He mumbled, not being able to look at her.“Y-You need to talk things through with Bella, Aaron.” Mack suggested softly, taking notice of how he was no longer able to look at her. She wasn’t angry with Aaron by means, she had no reason to be. But she definitely felt guilty about Bella thinking that she ruined their relationship. “I’m okay,” she murmured with a nod, “or, I will be.”Aaron clenched his jaw when she mentioned Bella, not really looking forward to talking to her at the moment, but knowing that he had to. She just couldn’t go around saying people this sort of thing. “I will…” He replied dryly, looking back at his girlfriend for a moment before nodding at her next words. “Okay.” He mumbled, running his hand through his hair. “I think that I should get going. I don’t want to interrupt your studying anymore than I already have.”Mack saw his whole facial expression change at the mention of Bella, safely assuming that things between the two wouldn’t end well. Mack frowned as Aaron suggested that he leave, knowing that his temper would reach an all time high by the time he left. She dropped her head which caused her hair to curtain around her face as she nodded lightly, slowly picking up her pencil once again. “O-Okay.” She whispered.Aaron barely nodded as she droped her head to pay attention to her work again. He was frustrated as hell right now and instead of trying to talk to her, he decided it was better to leave because he didn’t want to talk. He was pissed and she was clearly upset over something that wasn’t even his fault. What was he supposed to do? “Yeah. Bye then.” He said, rolling his eyes a little before finally getting up from his chairm giving her one last look before walking out of the library.“Aaron,” Mack called out softly, turning in her seat to watch him as he began to walk out. She couldn’t let him leave like this, she wouldn’t. She understood fully that he was angry at Bella, but she wanted him to know that she wasn’t upset because of anything that he’d done. If anything it was worth a try, she would do everything in her power to calm him down. She wanted to ensure that they were okay.Aaron’s shoulders were tense as he started walking out but he stopped on his tracks when he heard Mack’s voice calling out to him. He wasn’t expecting her to actually call him again, not that he was mad at her for not trying, he wouldn’t want to deal with him when he was like this but yet again, she managed to surprise him. “What?” He asked as he turned around to face her again, but not making any move to walk towards her.Mack stood from her seat and quickly made her way over to Aaron since he seemed to have frozen in place completely. Her brain worked quickly at what she could possibly say to make him feel better in the least bit. She knew that she couldn’t stop him completely from going and seeing Bella, they needed to talk and it was better that it happen sooner before later. But she definitely could stall. “I can’t let you leave like this.” She said truthfully, reaching for his hand.Aaron didn’t even notice when Mack made her way over to him until she was right in front of him, taking his hand. He looked up at her, trying to relax a little bit. “I’m fine.” He replied quickly, but it was obviously bullshit. He was anything but, and his feelings were all over the place right now. “What’s the point of me staying anyway? I’m pissed and you’re upset. I don’t fucking know to do and I really don’t feel like being here while you’re being all awkward and I’m like this…I’m gonna say shit I don’t want to say.” Aaron said honestly.Mack couldn’t force him to stay and she wasn’t going to. If he didn’t feel like staying then she would let him go. Mack wasn’t going to start a fight with him, by this point she didn’t have the energy to and it would only add to their problems. Her face fell as she slumped her shoulders in defeat. Taking a step back from him, Mack slowly let go of his hand and nodded lightly. “Then, I’m not going to force you to stay.”As soon as he saw the look on Mack’s face, Aaron forced himself to calm down. She was trying to make this better and here he was being an asshole to her, he felt stupid. “I-I’m sorry, babe. I just…” He shook his head a little bit, resting his hands on her sides gently and looking down at her with soft eyes. “I’m being a jerk to you when this isn’t your fault…I’m just mad. And I hate when we’re like this…” He admitted in a whisper.Looking up at him as he spoke up, Mack felt herself calm down as she felt his hands on her sides. Her arms reached up to wrap around his neck, her eyes locking with his as he spoke. She couldn’t agree more with what he was saying, she hated it whenever they acted like this which was why she wanted to fix this right now. “I understand that you’re mad, I get it. I’m upset about it too. B-But we need to work through this together and not take it out on each other.” She murmured softly, her eyes never leaving his.“Okay.” Aaron replied softly, knowing that she was right. He moved a little closer to her as she wrapped her arms around his neck. “I just don’t know what to do or say to make you feel better about this…” He replied truthfully as he locked his eyes with her, shakign his head lightly. “I mean…I want to explain it to you but it sounds so fucking stupid. And I feel like it’ll only upset you more.” Aaron added, not really knowing how to go about this whole thing.Mack shook her head lightly as soon as she words left his mouth, “No, no. Tell me, I-I’ll be okay. Promise.” She said genuinely, her fingers fumbling with the hair on the nape of his neck. If it meant explaining himself, then Mack would put her feelings aside so that he would be able to do so. If he had something to say then she definitely wanted him to say it and not worry about how it would make her feel.Aaron stared at her eyes carefully, trying to see if it really was okay for him to talk about this whole mess they were in right now. Licking his dry lips, Aaron nodded a little. “I just…want you to know that I didn’t lie to you. Because I really do think this is my first real relationship. Like, what Bella and I had doesn’t even begin to compare with what we have. I…Back then, I didn’t want to be in a relationship. I didn’t want a girlfriend, I just hooked up with random girls to have fun and a good time…Bella had all of that, you know? She was like a female version of me, she was into pranks and causing mayhen, we hung around the same people and we got along well. She was like one of the first girls that could keep me interested in her for more than a second.” Aaron explained, knowing this whole thing made him sound horrible but wanting to be honest with her. “So we just…started hooking up, you know. I figured it’d be like any other time, like a one time thing, but we ended up doing it regularly because we hung out together and stuff. In no way did I ever see her as more than a friend…with benefits I guess. I thought it was okay. I thoguht she felt the same way, and that we were on the same page. It was like a…silent agreement.” He shrugged a little, feeling extremely vulnerabel for some reason. “So…that’s when you walked in…and I obviously didn’t know that you would pay attention to me but I liked you. And I didn’t see you as just a friend. I wanted more and I didn’t even know what more was. I…I guess that I just started…drifting away from Bella and our common friends without even realizing it…I don’t know. I didn’t think she’d care…I didn’t think she thought we were together and I don’t know. I just don’t know…” He said, his last words almost in a whisper.Mack listened intently as Aaron explained his and Bella’s past, nodding along lightly. From everything that Aaron said, she understood fully that Bella did have the complete wrong idea of their relationship. She could now fully understand why Aaron was so angry, so worked up. Why, when Aaron and Mack had first met he never even said anything about another girl. It made perfect sense now, Mack understood completely. After falling silent, she finally looked up at him as her eyes softened. “I understand..completely, honestly. I would be upset too. But..I feel that if you and Bella talk things through then..then things will be resolved.” She said truthfully, feeling that was the only solution.Aaron nodded slowly at her, knowing that she was probably right. He was dreading at wanting to talk with Bella all at the same time because he knew her, and he knew that she wasn’t going to make things easy for him. Besides, he didn’t want to see her, she wasn’t his favorite person right now. He felt betrayed for some reason. “I will talk to her…” He replied. “I’m just dreading it because I know her. She can be difficult and I’m not in the mood for it.”“Just as anyone else would. B-But..it’s just a weight on your shoulders by this point. The faster you get it over with, the more relieved you’ll be.” Her voice dropped down to a whisper. If Aaron meant what he said by saying that him and Bella were similar then she could only imagine what their fights must be like. But the two both knew that he’d have to get it over with–sooner before later, preferably.“I know.” Aaron admitted, shaking his head lightly. A part of him just felt like this talk with Bella wouldn’t end well and that’s why he wanted it to be over with but he didn’t want to even start it either. “Are we…okay?” He asked softly as he looked down at his girlfriend, biting down on his lip.Mack nodded almost instantly at his words, “We’re okay.” She whispered, seeing no reason as to why they would be anything but okay. Once again, they had managed to talk things through. Mack was glad that she stopped Aaron, otherwise who knows what terms they would be on right now.Aaron sighed softly when she replied to him, only worried about how they were at the moment. He was relieved that Mack had stopped him from walking away otherwise he’d be way angrier. At least now he was relaxed even if it was only a little bit. “Okay…I’m sorry for all of this.” He said softly, shaking his head lightly.Mack shook her head as he apologized, “No, no.” She murmured. She felt that he had no reason to be sorry. After all, he couldn’t control what Bella did or said. Mack realized that. Tilting her head up,she pressed her lips to his. Her lips lingered on his for a moment before her pulled away, her eyes flickering open to meet his. “I love you.”Aaron frowned slightly as she spoke up. He was really sorry that he had put her through all of this even if he hadn’t been the one to bring it up. This was his fault somehow because he couldn’t handle Bella or something. He didn’t know, he was just feeling guilty suddenly. Closing his eyes as she pressed her lips against his, Aaron kissed her back softly. “I love you too, Mack.” Aaron said, opening his eyes once again before he leaned down to peck her lips once again. “So much.”Pecking his lips quickly once again, Mack felt a smile tug at the ends of her lips for the first time that night. “Forever and always, remember?” She whispered, gently running a hand through his hair to push his hair from his face. Saying those three words still gave Mack butterflies, reminding her that her feelings were only growing for Aaron each day. She wrapped her arms around him tightly one last time for a hug before pulling away, nodding up at him once almost as if to tell him to get it all over with.Aaron managed to smile after her words, nodding eagerly as he leaned against ehr touch and definitely glad that they were at least moving past this as quickly as they usually did. "Yes, I remember. Forever and always, baby.“ He replied with a grin, hugging her back easily as he let out a small sigh. He smiled at her as they pulled away. "Thank you for stopping me. This really helped.”“I promised I would never let you walk out on me, that was me keeping that promise.” Mack said softly, smiling up at him. Mack felt a wave of relief come over her as she saw Aaron smiling. As long as he was okay then she was too. Just to know that she turned his whole mood around made her feel that much better.

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kirstysthoughts · 7 years

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10/02 -

I haven’t had time to write here unfortunately but I think we’ll talk about Ben and a girl he’s gotten close to.

He has been giving her a lift to and from work everyday for money, he’s not making a profit from it, it’s just to cover the petrol costs, it’s being done on a ‘tab’ so the money piles up until she can pay the money back on payday - although the first payday has already gone and she’s given loads of excuses why she can’t pay (worrying) but he wouldn’t give in until she does because he’s also been paying for her food/drinks etc. when they’ve been out places.

Sooo, the first day they saw eachother outside of work (Monday 30/01) was when they went out to a chinese restaurant for a meal, he told me that they went to hers so she could get changed and then went to his so he could get changed and then they went - he said it was really nice and he made her laugh by being bad with the chopsticks and he was force fed lots of different food.

The next day they saw eachother straight after work and they played pool. He said that she was less relaxed since it was as if there was something wrong - he thought it might have been because she was still in her work uniform.

On Wednesday I was talking to Ben having a general chat and then:

I asked: What have you been up to so far this week?

Him: Work, seen Shannon a bit and slept ;P and tv..

Me: You saw Shannon? :o what’d you dooo?

Him: Had dinner Monday and played pool yesterday.

My response was that I wanted to know why they saw eachother, like if it was as friends or dates, so:

I asked: Oohhh like a date?

Me: Call meee?

*I called him*

Him: Nooooo as mates

Him: Can’t talk

Me: Whyy?

Him: Sorryyy

Him: At hospital as shes had a throat thing and couldnt get up

Me: What? (I was confused)

Me: Explain?

Him: Got an issue with her throat but her parents have had drinks so she couldn’t get up to hospital

I’ll be honest, I was nervous, worried, confused - it was like ‘oh yeah I’ve spent a little time with her - y’know 2 days in a row and I’m with her right not because I’m driving her around everywhere’

So I was annoyed and worried so showed him, which I didn’t like, because I wanna be supportive. It was just all confusing.

He called me while he drove home, it was hard because the sound was a difficulty so he called me back when he got home.

On the phone he gave me the details of their not dates dates. He also told me that she’d suggested for her birthday that she wanted to go out with people from work and then suggested that he could go out for drinks with her and her parents and stay afterwards - she also said something I found weird, she suggested he could ‘bunk with her’ considering that they’d known eachother just over a week I found this strange, it continued to bother me for the rest of the week - I did rant at him a little about it when I called on Saturday.

So Ben told me more about there time and stuff on Sunday when we saw eachother. After wednesday she was off work Thursday and Friday but they saw eachother the whole day saturday (the 4/02) - he went in the morning and then picked her brother up form his carehome took them all to the farm that her dad works at (including her mum), played pool with her, her mum and brother, then played football with her brother (Trafford) and then went rollerskating, he told me that at the place he got jealous of a guy because he had his arms around Shannon and stuff for a litle while so he spoke about that and how Trafford noticed and kept asking if he was okay. Ben isn’t very good at skating - it’s really quite funny but obviously frustrating for him because he wanted to do well to impress her and stuff.

I said more was to come but I forgot to write more about the matter.

So 03/03 -

We saw eachother the day after this and we spoke about her four just over an hour.

Since then they spent more time together, on the Monday they went to his house and watched tv, I think they watched Gotham, he told me they cuddled (and then later that week said it felt kinda forced but was still nice). On the Wednesday or Thursday they went out for drinks with two other people called Jodie and (can’t remember). After drinks Shannon said she couldn’t go home because she was ‘drunk’ and said how she’d get kicked out if she went home like that, so I found out that because she didn’t wanna sleep at Ben’s he drove around with her and the two others trying to find a hotel to stay at for the night, they couldn’t find any because they were all booked up, so they ended up in Sheffield. Of course him and Shannon shared a room and a bed.

Then on Friday he went out for drinks with her and her parents, he didn’t have alcohol (as I imagine he didn’t the night/couple of nights before) she kept storming off and acting weirdly to her parents and to Ben. It really did sound bad and wasn’t nice for him, especially since she kept treating him badly throughout the whole week. He told me that she’d offer other people lifts, with his car and would expect him to take her anywhere she wanted to go.

The day after (Saturday the 11/02) he called me in the morning to explain about the night before and then later that day he text me, saying that him and Shannon had an argument because she was saying that she didn’t owe her that much and because he said wouldn’t give her a lift that day. What happened was she wanted to go back rollerskating to see her friends and a friend of hers was paying for her to go, she needed a lift there so wanted him to go with her but he didn’t want to go because he doesn’t enjoy rollerskating (as I said) and also didn’t want to take his whole afternoon/evening there, or on his own in the city wasting time while she was there. She couldn’t understand the fact that he wasn’t just going to do anything she asked for him so got mad. In the end he gave in and said he would take her if she payed him petrol money on hand, so he came over to my house for an hour/hour and a half to waste time because I’m the closest person he knows to the city. He gave her more time than he said he would, but when he got there she was outside smoking and asked if she could have another 5 minutes, he said yeah unwillingly but he wanted to be home for 10 because of a snow warning out for that night. He waited inside, so after 15 or so minutes (when it was 10) he tried to shout her name for them to leave but she blanked him, he said that he shouted to try and get her attention. She continued to blank him and at one point she took off her skates so he thought they were leaving but she went to the toilet (with the guy Ben got jealous of the previous week) and then came back and put her skates back on. This was after about half an hour. Ben went to wait inside his car because he was fed up and then after a while she went outside smoking with some friends. Ben said that he decided that was it, so he pulled up beside her so she got in. She didn’t talk to him in the car and then started talking to someone on the phone, after the phone call she asked Ben if he would take her and her brother somewhere (maybe rollerskating) the next weekend, he said no because he was pissed off and was busy so she asked why and he explained. When he arrived at her house he told her he wouldn’t give a lift to her to work on monday and drove off. The next day she text him saying that if she couldn’t get to work monday she would tell work it was his fault.

That week they didn’t talk at all and he told me that people at work had taken his side regardless of the bullshit she was saying about him. People at work had previously already voiced their concern that she was using him.

On Sunday morning (the 19/02) she text him apologising, she said she would pay for food for him and also wanted him to meet her careworkers who she wanted to visit to collect money. He spoke to me as all the messages came through and we decided it was either go to hopefully get the money he was owed back or not go because of the morals since she wasn’t nice to him and used him. He decided to go, she said she would give him half of whatever she got that day. Later that night I messaged him asking how it went, expecting him to be home (not with her). It turns out they were still together, like 5-6 hours after. He said he’d kinda forgiven her and didn’t think she was using him. That evening she explained everything, they cleared the air and everything and then on the way home they were talking - he told me that she said she did have feelings for him and thought that they could work in a relationship but she’d want to be a in ‘fwb stage’ beforehand. She then said how she hadn’t had sex in over a year (idk how they started talking about that :/) and he joked saying they could go to his and he could help her. He told me he was literally taking her home, in the right lane to take her and she moved the steering wheel to put him in the lane to go to his house. While they were at his they didn’t have sex, he fingered her and they had ‘dry sex’. He told me that she was willing for them to have sex, even though they were downstairs on the sofa, with the curtains open and his brother upstairs. He didn’t want to because he had worries about it with everything and due to the circumstances.

So they decided they’d be in that stage for a while and see how things went. After this they saw eachother Thursday (the 23/02), even though he was meant to have football.. And he said she wasn’t sure of her emotions because of everything that had been going on so she wanted to stay friends until he was sure because she wants things to work and to not hurt him. I really respect her for wanting to be sure and everything because it shows that she does care about him.

Me and Ben saw eachother Sunday (the 26/02) for the day and he said about his feelings and not being sure what to do. After our time he told me that he was happy to stay friends with her, or be friends with benefits but doesn’t want to get into a relationship with her because of her smoking, her job prospects, the fact he’s gonna be moving away possibly, their argumentative tendencies and stuff, I wasn’t and still not too sure if that’s how he will continue to feel because it was during our time so i worried I could have influenced those feelings during that point in time. ‘time will tell’ as I told him.

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