#im rlly tired tbh

[quinn-pop]

mtdd week day 3 - caring

yeah this is a totally random timeskip thing. just pretend dedede looks older okay thank you

just another night (and it’s ours)

part 2

#mtddweek2023 #two parts because i am once again proving i cannot keep things short #and that’s not an exaggeration because i only wound up illustrating about 2/3 of what i wrote #the rest of it didn’t really add anything and i can only draw so much #meta is really tired here lol #i mean they both are #i really cannot draw backgrounds #kirbyposting #my art or something #meta knight #king dedede #metadede #quinn does comics #for the record im not committing to this idea i dont rlly know why i chose this #it exists in a vacuum there are approximately 0 ideas surrounding it aside from #meta’s new look which was for something else set in the future i may or may not get to #what’s with the egg? uhh you decide tbh i just wanted an excuse to write dedede angst

[synthshenanigans]

Took the words heartburn & mindfreeze literal and now I have these

Might draw the lines better later but am tired atm and wanna [attempt to] finish the art I have for the recent songs

But also might make more unstable(?) forms for the two. [Also maybe attempt to design soul lol]

#but unstable forms would be like #hearts more magma-y? like maybe a more human silhouette looking thing that's all lava with lil rocks on em idk #also might make designs less human like in general #mayhap these are how they look before they get a less human look #cos they look too human atm for what i was goin for #idk if this makes sense #mind might be a tall more spikey creature thats all ice? #had an idea for mind like that already but COULD use it here #add in like a snow storm effect #idk we'll see #i really like the first two tbh #the 3rd is meh and the 4th is p nice i think #actually confident in my art for once wow #i mean confident is a lil strong maybe content fits more #also thanks to avi who wanted me to do these they were rlly fun to make actually #chonny jash #chonnys charming chaos compendium #cj mind #cj heart #alright KJ is going back to bed now cos SOMEONE uploads early and made me CRY so now im EXTRA tired #wonder who that was smh/j #-atlas art-

[silenthillbunni]

that position when you're struggling really bad with your mental illnesses and disorders, but you dont get any help (despite asking) and is expected to deal w everything on your own. then ppl only judge you for your shortcomings, and think you're just being lazy and dont even want to try. so you're just a failure and a loser and a burden. even if you dont even want to be in this position but even if it seems easy from the outside, you cant control the symptoms of your disorders. and no one is helping you with how you can do it. all you recieve is judgement.

#im just rlly tired #i just keep making mistakes but also simply doing things #and poor choices #like... i just dont wanna go to school so then i dont even if that'll cause issues #but i HAVE to go. i know society is likw that. u need to do things u dont wanna #i just dont know how to make myself do it #or do anything tbh #and when i keep not doing it everyone around me gets irritates #bc it shouldnt be that hard yet it is #and i DONT KNOW what to do!!!!! so i ask for help but every health care service just wont help me #so yeah idk what to do and it all just makes me more depressed idk what to do #and im so sick of being a failure and a burden and yeh :((

[ghostbnuy]

a bit too tired to interact with posts rn which is a shame cus ive seen some bangers 😭😭 sorry gang will do some stuff later but rn i am just trying very hard not 2 fall asleep ueueueue

#im honestly most likely tired because i slept for too long tbh- #slept rlly well i was so cosy omg :((( #but STILL eepy.............

[tianshiisdead]

Forget school actually please send hate to distract me from no money I'm so hungry o(-( dunno how much longer I can go with the 1 food item per day money saving scheme to attempt to afford rent

#diary #eating issues cw #not bc eating disorder for oncebut yk #mfw my periods stopped #idk if bc food or stress but wehhhhhhhhhhh hewp me #mfw ottawa unlivable rn #next sem student loans should save me for a while but they dont come till Jan... #like. ive been here before but im rlly sick this time (im usually sick but lol) and then exams on top of that and stress abt grandparents #im excited to see parents for xmas bc i feel like i cant continue on sometimes and i dont feel safe being alone in my flat #esp bc its so... like. dark aand small yk and i get claustrophobia but housing is so expensive rn so its the only place i could afford #idk idk its nothing new but im at the end of my line rn #ive been sleeping w the lights on despite cost bc paranoia and i think its fucking with me tbh tbh but again claustrophobia #like in general idk if i can go on like this 🗿🗿 #i feel so sick and cold every day and also tired nd its hard to study when im scared to buy water bc card may decline and my fridge is empty

[starheirxero]

Okok so. With the post reblogged now, I need y'all to imagine Dream(the "lil' sunshine prince") as Lunar and Killer(the one with no eyes) as Bloodmoon.

There's something about it that makes me think of, like. How Lunar first was after their revival. Dream's words of "I'm tired of smiling, I've got nothing to smile about." can be easily reflected to Lunar who was (understandably) deeply traumatized by Literally Dying. When they came back, they were just upset and tired.

And then with Killer being Bloodmoon, i just. idk!! i can imagine that if Lunar and Bloodmoon's first meeting wasn't like that or was even just a couple weeks earlier, Bloodmoon asking them—taunting them—by saying "where's your disgusting, sugar-sweet smile?" just... makes sense.

Like idk!! I think I technically already explored this in the "I'm not the Lunar I used to know either" post but it's like, just slightly to the left. smth smth abt how Lunar changed when they came back but Bloodmoon didn't. smth smth about a severed connection to familiarity. IDK idk i just thinks its very them coded.

#xero says things #xero thoughts and rambles #tbh? lunar and bloodmoon can be dream and killer rlly well actually #dream even has a tragic sibling like lunar!!! #thats a whole other idea tho LOL #tl dr. im always emotional about lunar and bm and i am Especially emotional about the two of them as a pair #they could have been besties .... in my heart :( #tsams #lunar #Bloodmoon #i Would use more tags but i realize w/o a link 2 the post this won't make sense to any nonfollowers. and well #u see i am simply too tired w bother linking it. lol

[venomgaia]

ngl i genuinely wholeheartedly think i paint best in paint tool sai 1.0 theres just smthn so distinct about the rendering thats unique in sai pieces vs stuff i do in csp or procreate. i can get CLOSE but its not the same

#i dont like 2.0 as much even though it has more features #and csp is really great bc im mobile and inconsistent so i alwaus need to switch up workflow and tools or i will die #but i will die on the hill that the brush engine of paint tool sai is my favorite and its rlly a shame theres nothing that feels right #hypotheticallt i trust gimp and krita to be able to replicate my sai brushes but i dont think the specific ones i paint with will ever work #because my main brush is SO specific to how sai handles stamping if that makes sense #ONE DAY THOUGH. I WILL MAKE A PERFECT VERSION THAT WORKS ACROSS PROGRAMS #(preferrably gimp krita and procreate. i have a VERY CLOSE one in csp tho) #and on that day ohohoho i will finally be unstoppable truly #and maybe im actually just being a dweeb and theres no visual difference/it doesnt matter as much as i think it does #but i wish. I WISH WITH ALL MY MIGHT. That one day itll be possible to use sai on a tablet. #tbh im rlly just tired of subscription model art programs csp and adobe can suck it from the back #[THE TAG THAT WAS FORMERLY HERE HAS BEEN REDACTED IN THE OG POST FOR COMEDIC EFFECT] #not art

[kodaisaway]

[click 4 better quality]

he's like,,,a golden retriver :)

#noxturnal art #i was rlly nervous to post this tbh but im too tired to...care :D #I havent watched the og series or read the og manga but i like trigun stampede :D!! #vash the stampede #vash #trigun vash #trigun stampede #trigun #trigun fanart #vash fanart

[jasmine-angel]

i do ‘humaning’ so wrong that even other neurodiverse people don’t get me.

its bc im not just autistic but i have cptsd/ocd too.

usually those who have very simple mental health issues or just adhd or just autism dont GET how it can all blend together.

i am so intense bc i love deeply, i value intimacy & im sick of hiding myself.

but apparently its too much for some people. and i am fine w that like if you feel that way just cut me off and don’t talk to me… don’t come on a date with me and criticise me in the middle of a cafe 🥲

i honestly don’t know what to do next. do i never share my priv insta until we are 10 dates in ? do i edit my priv insta? do i stop dating & assume ill be alone forever ? idk

#cried when i got home from the date bc they made me feel SO bad #fuck you tbh #jaz rambles #id rather be forever alone than to be made to feel embarrassed for sharing my life on insta the way i choose to #im tired #that was a rlly hard date #i respectfully told them it is not gonna work out and they agreed #jesus christ #what a waste of time and money #just to make me feel bad in public & make things awkward and me feel like i have to justify myself #i dont even know u #anyways

[soldier-poet-king]

I was writing some thoughts down about a book I'm halfway through (I am trying not to let things stew in my brain as much. Writing incoherent thoughts is good for my nerves) and it's a fantasy 'let's get the gang back together' fetch quest featuring a 60 smthn yr old protag but also I wrote, imo, the best thoughts I've ever had about coming of age stories and my unconventional love of them . An excerpt bc you don't need all my thoughts about the book specifically:

Life is a constant state of becoming, a coming of age novel is supposed to be about growth and self discovery and inching your way towards some sort of peace (loosely defined). If we're a different self everyday, if we are constantly changing and growing, I think all good stories are, in a way, coming of age novels. We're all just, coming of a certain undefined age. We often speak of selves as discrete phases "the former self" as if they're completely disconnected to who we are now, as if our current selves are not just a blend and growth of everyone we have been and are becoming. I hate the common equation of coming of age with "grim or edgy novel about teens and the loss of innocence" because it can be so much more than that! It should be so much more! There no clear loss of innocence, no clear delineation between childhood and maturity, there's no automatic flipped switch in real life. We're never "done" while we're still living, there's no Telos or permanent state of self in life, so how can coming of age be limited to teens? We're ALWAYS in a state of becoming and that is the most wonderful thing I've ever believed

Sometimes "that's just the (innate) human condition" is a source of immeasurable Joy and Hope

#franposting #bear in mind its not actuallt THAT COHERENT #i just managed to put it into words! #which for me is a lot th #tbh #coming of age #bildungsroman #take that english prof who i loathed and totally misunderstood human life #anyway yes i am reading the return of Fitzroy anguersell #the not reallt a sequel but def related book to HOTE #bc the HOTE sequel is out but i havenr read it yet #but i gotta read TROFA and i think the pali avrumpal bk first #and ill probs reread hotebc i rlly did love it that much #THERES NOT ENOUGH HRS IN THE DAY ;-; #anyway. consider. I'm incoherent #im tired. it's late. ive been so sad for weeks. my bodys falling apart. im not wearing my glasses bc i said i was goinf to sleep #but now im squinting ar mt phone half an inch frok mt face like a bad person #ILL GO SLEEP NOW #but pls come talk to me abt books ans stories ans rhe human condition ans states of becoming and life ans possibility #storytelling as a mirror through which we understand ourselves and the world and each other etc et c e tc #ALSO eden if u see this it was partially inspired by u #i cant remember the context but you said smthn abt coming of age and growth and its been banging around my brain since #and it articulated this thing ive tho8ght and felt but never had the words for

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

I keep listening to different pieces of music that I love and then my brain comes in all helpful with 'this sounds like great music to die with doesn't it'

#tw suicide #im just. so tired #and i know that right now part of it is im sick (not covid tho) but still. #and it's like im grieving the lost friendship all over again and what might have been #i am the best version of myself when im with the boy. but now no wonder he is avoiding me. and i don't blame him! but for some reason it's #hitting rlly hard again atm and it's just. Im Sad. #i really don't know why that's so prevalent in my mind right now #and it's rlly not safe for me to drive long distances alone i think. i find driving v stressful #and any guesses what *that* leads to #tw sh #the answer was: a frightening amount. #and then there are things i don't understand #my brother begged me to destroy the suicide note i wrote yesterday #and i don't know why. because it's very unlikely to be something that i would stop to do tbh. so what there is would at least explain #*something* perhaps. i don't know #i have spent more than half of my waking hours in the last week seriously thinking of suicide. i don't know how to stop this #and given that i've read two books in full and gone to a play i enjoyed that says something about what hte rest of the time has been filled #with. i don't know how to get out of this. in some ways i feel like it's worse now than it was bc i expected it to get better when mum and #dad got back. if anything it's worse - more constant. #the lows are not quite as low but the baseline is definitely lower #i am just feeling very hopeless rn #yesterday i was driving and reciting psalm 23 and i was so overcome with emotion and i repeated it multiple times and that helped somewhat #but only in the moment ig. i don't know. i don't know how to fix this or even improve it #if im still feeling like this on monday i am so going to walk over the road and straight-up ask to borrow a kitten overnight. #and hope the kitten doesn't decide to go near all the cuts :( #a part of me is genuinely wondering if i should check myself into a psych ward. the other parts of me say either that this isn't bad enough #for that or thta i am simply too scared to. which is true. nasty stuff in psych wards for obvious reasons #anyway i need prayers thankyou

[mourningcttlfsh]

pokemon legends arceus ending/post game spoilers!!!!

whenever someome calls volos evil outfit ugly an angel loses its wings

#im so tired loterally on the verge of honk shoooo mimimimi #anyway guys i swear its nkt even that bad #one of my biggest unpopular opinions is that his haircut is kind of cool tbh... #guys he probably did it all by himself smh of course it wouldnt be perfect #urgrhfhh i dont remember where it is that i saw someone say this idk if it was like. #a tumblr post or a tiktok or like. a youtube video or maybe a post on some other websige #but someone said somethig about how his outfit is bad on purpose #and tbh yeah #you guys rlly think he would logically have some perfect outfit???? #WAIT HOL D ON I HAVE TO CLARIFFU #CLARIFY*** #no hate to anyone who makes alt forms of his outfit #i totally understand #but guys leave him alonr smh #i need ti make a volo tag ughhhghh i am NOT tagging thos wotj the actual volo tag #ill think about that tomorrow im so tired

[pcetstcrtured]

okay … this is random af but … does anyone happen to have a (free) pdf of tbosas? yes yes i know i should’ve read it by now but tbh … i’m notoriously terrible at reading spin-off/bonus books for fandoms i’m in. like i’ve not read a single one for twilight, never read harry potter & cursed child … & i like i didn’t anticipate it was gonna get this big & become a movie & everything & nowww the urge to read it is very strongly there …

#( a pathological people pleaser // ooc ) #( mobile ) #(tbh apart of me was also like ‘it’s snow’s backstory why would i give af abt that’) #(bc like i didn’t KNOW what all it was at the time - & tbh there’s a lot of info abt it i’ve only learned very recently) #(& even then i still only know the very basics but i watched the can’t catch me now mv so confused tbh) #(so now i just - rlly wanna know everything & have all the info) #(sooo if anyone can hook a planet up that’d be appreciated. & if you can’t it’s cool too i can try to go to the library sometime this week) #(ANYWAYS ALSO IM GONNA MAYBE BE HERE TONIGHT AFTER MY SHOWER) #(if i’m not incredibly tired bc i got a shorter amount of sleep than im used to today) #(ANYWAYS SORRY FOR THESE LONG ASS TAGS BUT YE ILY ALL MWAH MWAH) #long tags tw

[niishi]

Honestly.... in order to block zo/san artists, I have to unmute the post and be exposed to that to block the source... if my dash keeps being flooded with zo/San I'm just gonna block those reblogging it. Like. I like you guys but........ I like myself even more.

#its not even that i have a moral complex against it #it's just so basic and annoying #and rude #im rlly tired of yaoi girls idolizing toxic relationships #and saying like “this is the only way to be interesting” #and its like god can u guys ever grow up #u force even characters with no chemistry into this idea bc you think abuse is hot #and whatever i have my fair share of toxic ships #but... #idk its not even moral i just personally like Zoro snd think he deserves better #and im tired of being 30 and interacting with othrr 30yros #who havent grown up past their devisnt art phase #so edgy its nauseating #i said yaoi girls but this applies to everyone tbh

[iamfabiloz]

☆ Put this star into the inbox of your favorite blogs. It's time to spread positivity!

oh im so sorry i saw this and forgot to respond!! thank u sm thats rlly nice of u ee!! :] im glad u enjoy my silly blog ehehe :3 <3

#ask #doritopaw101 #btw sorry for my absence on here im not feeeling the best 👍😀 #also btw if ur the anon who sent me the ask warning me abt redacted user ty for letting me know!! i just have it in my inbox btw bc #i didnt wanna have any discourse on my blog or anythin im not in th mindset to answer or rlly have it present on my blog even tho it has #nothin 2 do with me HWJW #i interacted with that user like a whileee back so i doubt ill get any flack but i appreciate the warning oughh #im so tired from everything tbh like #anyways hi everypony i hope ur well

[wishi-selfships]

RYE ONCE AGAIN :DD

#self insert #sonic oc #not much to say tbh #im just rlly tired and unmotivated #sad face :( #... also yes shes still a sonic kisser #self ship #selfship