#im so fucking fond of him hahaha i hate this so bad

[kimjiwoong]

alexis got back with his ex

#i dont know what to say other than i literally cried when he told me #he apologized and it's fine it's whatever #he said they had history and its true #i don't think I'll talk about him again #i asked him not to take me home anymore because it's gonna be very confusing to me #i like him so much he's so cool of course I can't have him #i can't compete w a girl like that #i feel so fucking bad i wanna throw up #im never gonna be loved romantically ever #i just wish he hadn't messed with ne #me* #im so fucking fond of him hahaha i hate this so bad #we could have had something so nice #we get along so well #I feel like such a failure jsjshsjahsjahs #when is it my turn #why does she get the boy instead of me #haven't i not gotten then boy enough times #fuck character development fuck working on myself I've done my time #where is MY person #u guys don't have to want it but i do #i fucking do #i hate this #rose.txt #sorry for this

[day0walker]

im losing my mind over that evil bastard au you posted, that shit was intense!!

Ehuheueheuheueheuh thank you so much anon!!! Can't believe I literally sat down after work and just shoved all of that out of my brain. Frontier was with me while I kept going "now its at 3k, now its at 5k hahaha". Wild, there's multiple parts I almost cut out, because I almost feel bad my longest writing for those two is fcuking this au lmaooooo

Anyway, to answer the question of Xavier/Painkillers

When Xavier is around 25 or so, he suffers a really, really fucked up side injury to his rib. You can read about it here, but fair warning its blood violence etc as usual.

And after that injury, he gets introduced to heavier painkillers. Which he was taking, just because a couple broken ribs and everything else he went through in that fic, it makes sense. But, it's hard to forget how good a painkiller feels after that.

In this "evil au", I'm leaning a little bit heavier on his addiction to them because 1. sane people are not going to look at evil Benji and be like hahah wanna make out LMAOOOO 2. it's in line for how his character is, if Xavier doesn't find someone to form good genuine emotional connection with.

Xavier, as a character, his like core foundation, is someone who is very, very, very lonely. He just doesn't seem it, because he is REPELLING that idea, even to himself as much as he can. But, in truth, he finds it very difficult to form real emotional attachments with people. Oftentimes, he has fleeting, shallow versions of it and it only ends up making him hate himself.

In Xavier's ship with Peril (that I know y'all don't know much or anything about, but anyway), he wouldn't lean heavy on drugs, because Peril is there. They become a mentor and a friend to him, before they ever become anything romantic, so he has someone to stop him from sort of spiraling into his very bad coping mechanisms. And with Peril, Sergeant Tillman (a man who very much takes advantage of Xavier) doesn't exist primarily because 1. Peril would probably kill him lol 2. Peril is also there. They are a fellow Shadow, so they are ON base with Xavier, so he has someone with him, more consistently, to help him not drift.

With Benji, since there's so much time between the two of them getting to see each other, and Benji is introduced into his life a little later, Xavier is already well into feeling a little Too Fond of painkillers. He's already established a toxic relationship with sex, and he's struggling with both. BUT, his 'situationship' with Benji keeps him from pursuing either of those a little closer, because even if Benji isn't WITH him, he's inside his head. So, Xavier doesn't wander off the path too much.

Even in fun au's like fantasy au, or band au, there's always going to be this core loneliness inside Xavier's heart that he is trying so hard to work on.

Which, I think makes it sound like Xavier is very defined by his romantic ships, but that's not necessarily what I intend; it's more so that Xavier is VERY defined by someone coming into his life and showing him that they very much care about him. That he is not a pretty thing to eat and be done with, he is someone that is worthy of love and care.

Ooooooh sorry for this giant massive dump, it's just that Xavier's character paths are very....interesting to me!!!! He feels like a little friend to me at this point that I just sort of go "hm how are we feeling today" and he goes "please write me giving a oral sex" and I'm like have at it today, Xavier!!!!

#ask #anon #xavier #tysm for you guys #caring and enjoying him #you are all my faves the fuckign best i s2g

[straighttohellbuddy]

World building is the best tbh. I’m forever world building and now I have several worlds to play in and my neurodivergent brain cannot stay still enough to focus on one lmao. SLOWBURN ROMANCES ARE MY LITERAL JAM LIKE PLS!!! I LOVE THEM!! Also!!!! Concepts!!!! Pls share!!!! I love learning about the worlds of my fave fics and I can hands down say right now that this fic will literally shoot to the top of my list of favourites which means you’ll occupy the top three spots. Sorry to hear that ur feeling rough, so am sending u the biggest hug. I’m not okay but I’m taking care of myself today so that I will be 🧡-🐈‍⬛

alsjfsldkjf i have too many worlds TBH, literally one of the best parts of my 2020 was writing for the classic rock fandom and writing one of my good friend’s ocs alongside mine, like there’s so many different worlds that our two characters have now, i’m like 26k deep into a high school au that i need to get back to at some point, and then i wrote a oneshot abt the high school au but they’re adults, and then there’s also the original timeline, and then there’s the present day in the original timeline where they have kids and i probably care too much about people who aren’t real...... hahaha

OKAY OKAY OKAY HERE WE GO I’LL GIVE KIND OF AN OVERVIEW OF THE ALBUMS AND A FEW SONGS BUT IF U WANT ME TO GO IN DEPTH ON ANY OTHER SONG JUST ASK!!!

yes i have a playlist for each, if you wanna hear how i interpret the vibes of the songs. if you interpret them differently, thats awesome!! i’d love to hear y’all’s opinions on them!!

testing one two - the first ep they release, the song titles are mostly themed (fast forward, press play, pause, rewind), but are mostly things y/n has been working on for a while but never got around to finishing, things they are rather proud of. i see you shiver with... is the first song they wrote specifically for the album, and it’s the last song on the EP because it’s a Rocky Horror reference; i see you shiver with...

a n t i c i p a t i o n - first full album!! the vibe is Hopeful But Hesitant it has all the songs from the ep, plus some new ones!! collabs with youtube musicians troye and dodie, and y/n’s label sets up a collab that turns into a genuine friendship. the breakout dance hit is what else is there to say ft. Troye Sivan, which is about not knowing what to make content about when it feels like you’ve already told the world everything. it featured the prechorus and hook

You, know, ev-ery-thing about me / gave it all for free / my life in HD / So, let’s dance, let me see your hips sway / we’re gonna be okay / what else is there to say?

So say that you love me, say that you love me, say that you love me / let’s die hand in hand. / I’ll tell you I love you, tell you I love you, tell you I love you / supply and demand. 

personally, i also conceptually enjoy srs bsns which is a really upbeat song about how they don’t care if people don’t take them seriously because they know in their heart that what they’re doing is good

hyperfocus - 2nd EP, a pretty substantial departure from their usual style, but also happens to quietly be Corpse’s favourite, and is actually y/n’s most polarising, because it has both the Grammy award winning HEARTBURN and the o brother where art thou which was written partially as a joke to capture a fond moment of them and 5SOS dicking around together in a hotel. written while on tour wit 5SOS, im writing the reader as having ADHD (because I have ADHD and i can do what i want), and the backstory is that they’d changed the medication/dosage they were taking, and as it’s their first full tour, they were under a lot of stress and were in a weird place mentally and emotionally, and hyperfocus is the result of that. i’m going through some stuff has HUGE agoraphobic vibes. 

HEARTBURN has the same vibes as Florence + The Machines’ Howl. It’s about being a demon without saying that or directly implying that unless you know demons real well. This is when the pressure for them to confirm their identity got real bad, and it was their way of working through those emotions.

tear in existence in the shape of a person / when i’m seeing clearly i can’t see myself / world can’t swallow what it can’t get it’s teeth into / got everything i wanted but i ain’t got my health

Got heart-burn--- / I’ll tear me apart / I’ll tear you apart / I’ll tear me apart. 

SCREAM gets rereleased as a remixed single featuring Fall Out Boy the following year. It won the MTV music award for best collaboration in 2018. 

In the time between hyperfocus and working on it, Y/N releases several singles, including a cover of Tell Him by The Exciters to be featured in To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before. They also take time to sort out their health, do a little bit more YT stuff, and travel internationally to do festivals. 

working on it - is kind of a middle ground between their original stuff, and hyperfocus, like pop-punk meets horror-pop meets whatever you’d classify halsey as. the first three songs were mostly written before the fic starts, so before they’re getting back to YT, but the last three, nightmare scenario, designed to hurt (touch me), and not scared were all written after they’d started hanging out with sykkuno and corpse. 

in-universe, imposter syndrome was originally something else, along the same lines of tired that they’re hiding that they’re a demon, but after meeting corpse nd sykkuno and having people who know, and lowkey being influenced by corpse’s music, the song changes directions, and YO OKAY YO::

I literally am so fucking flattered, my darling friend @bingusmode​ wrote lyrics for imposter syndrome and I’ve been yELLING about them ever since i’ve read them!! (also bunnie is fantastic and lovely in general 10/10)

if you thought you saw me 

i’d think about it twice

cuz while i know i’m naughty

everybody thinks i’m nice

cutest giggles get me

places that i long to be

but it’s not long before

everybody hates me

when you figure out i’m fucked up

you’ll probably think that can’t be right

but babe my image runs to save me

cuz i’m ugly day and night

nothing good about me

not the angel that i seem

cuz i’m a piece of shit

and i’ll ruin your fuckin dreams

i’m an impostor babe

you better run for your life

cuz there’s a bloodlust runnin through me

and you’re dripping off my knife

there’s no one here to save you

cuz you ate up all my lies

so beg me while you can

and draft up all your goodbyes 

if any of y’all are inspired by anything i put out, feel free to take it and run!! you have my blessing!! i am so overwhelmingly flattered by people who like my stuff enough to create because of it, directly or indirectly! lyrics, art, songs, anything!! legit! I love you!!

okay so designed to hurt (touch me) has big House of Memories by Panic! At The Disco vibes, and YES it’s about Corpse. YES it sends mixed messages. YES it has greek myth imagery and YES that imagery is confusing. not sure if any of these sets of lyrics actually go after each other but also idk??

will my fall from grace be graceful / as each move i see you make? / propped up on pedestals side by side / beneath our feet they shake / i’m the only one to hear you ask  / “What have they done to me?” / My boy, your wax throne is sun-drenched / you’ll fall in the name of your legacy.

eyes like yours watched rome burn / while hands like mine lit the pyre / we both heard me say we’d go down in flames / now you’re turning me into a liar / since you smile like that, like you can’t feel the sting / and we both know i can’t feel the fire

been telling myself i’m designed to hurt / but, baby, aren’t we a sight? /

check your reflection, your angles, apollo / you’re icarus in the right light /

we’re on the edge, i’m not scared to fall / we’ll take refuge in the night /

been telling yourself you’re designed to hurt / but, baby, doesn’t this feel right?

also, albumtouralbumtour is a reference to Bohemian Rhapsody.

OKAY AND FINALLY

n o s t a l g i a - the album the reader’s working on during the fic.

literally as i was writing this, bunnie sent through some FIRE lyrics for how the light gets in, (@bingusmode) i am going to be thinking about these on REPEAT for the next MONTH BRUV

little bit of darkness, treat me like a toy 

i got my hopes up and got them destroyed

bitter taste of regret sitting heavy on my tongue

can’t believe i let you convince me that you were the one

sitting here in silence, fabric running thin

petals burning in my lungs and stealing oxygen

embers from a cigarette falling to the floor

god i can’t take anymore

so i stumble to the window and pull the shades

and the moon pours in like you threw a grenade

i can’t understand why

i keep trying

cuz i never seem to win

but having any hope is how the light gets in 

from there, moment before impact ft. Billie Eilish is a club anthem along the lines of bad guy or COPYCAT, bass heavy with a drop that’s out of this world.

powdered pain, i’m in your veins / i’m the sting, the drip, the thing / you’re craving, but you hate to see me misbehaving / i heard my breakdown got you high / it’s true, but baby i can’t lie / i never got that rush, that burn / that makes you feel alive, i had to learn / to pick the slippery slope down which i fell / plan my pitstops on the way to hell / to pick my padding before i spiral / so if i break it’ll be in style

watch my misdirect, now freeze, / notice you can’t see the forest for the trees / you’re so desperate for my demise / but baby, i’ll make you watch me rise.

this is the moment before impact

controlled chaos, crash land / take a breath, trust the plan / i know you hope i’m not okay / you get off on my audio misery

controlled chaos, crash land / take a breath, trust the plan / i need you to know i want it this way / my breakdown won me a grammy

and this is the moment before impact

ur my favourite - interlude ft. sykkuno is probably one of my favourites, it’s just really soft, just a snippet of a conversation between the reader and sykkuno, maybe one of them told a joke and they both just sound real happy and sweet. its nice. it’s a nice moment.

means something is also for sykkuno!! it’s about how good-strange it is to be open and honest with friends, and how they usually aren’t but they’re glad they can be open and honest with him!!

meanwhile, i don’t think about u - interlude ft. CORPSE is a phonecall between corpse & the reader right after they announce they’re going to feature on acting like that, where corpse asks if they do this sort of thing to spite him, to which the reader responds ‘do i consider you when i’m making decisions about my career? no, corpse, actually i don’t think about you at all’ which then directly contrasts the song that ends the album, which is (how it feels to be) beautiful fireworks, which is essentially ‘i know how hard it is to exist like this, to be the centre of attention, to give off light and bring people joy, even when you’re in pain. i’m here for you. i love you.’

okay, i swear im done now, i’ll get back to writing the fic! (also i cannot BELIVE i managed to figure out how to embed those playlists but im so happy) edit: it didn’t actually work when i posted the ask, so anyways im sorry but y’all are abt to be spammed with playlists because i care too much abt this fic

#Anonymous #how the light gets in #corpse husband x reader #black cat anon

[unproduciblesmackdown]

some random numbers: 1, 3, 6, 15, 23, 31, 35, 40. give me ur ungodly long answers.

lmaooo YES brevity whom......i cannot be concise

1) favorite videos?

i sure spent 2010 - 2014 enjoying youtube horror interpersonal-drama series marble hornets, those are a good time. and here in the future you and i both know there is just a wellspring of wrol-related Video Content out there, god damn, i really love so many of them.....in between that there’s sure been a lot of fun and funney videos and like, some Artistique ones i like to revisit [or have disappeared :( ] but i always like to promote this Wuthering Heights one. i love it. oh lol!!!! and the uh, Skate 3 Glitch compilations!!! so so funny

3) favorite memes?

i think Deep Fried Memes are fun all the time lol. the Youtube Meme of “___ but ____” is a lot of fun OH YEAH steamed hams was awesome too. the 24601 Releases A Sammich On Parole ytp is priceless......this is just turning into favorite videos again lmao. vine as a meme and a whole

6)favorite mixes?

you know i never really made or used playlists lol!!!! i will just be like, in the mood for certain songs or else like “i want to listen to music but....which ones”.....i say i can never be concise and all of these answers turning out short lol. it’s not b/c i’m Concise but b/c like, i don’t know what Favorites i have and i don’t have a memory that works without Direct Reminders of Specific Things so i’m just failing to like, come up with the info in the first place smh

15) favorite fictional characters?

here we go lol i can answer this one cuz when i have a fave rave it’s rare and like, easier to remember cuz i do not Go Hard about it that often.....weirdly for the first few years of The Decade i did’t really have such certain faves.....i was def enjoying some characters, as i always do, but nothing like super standout. then in ‘11 or ‘12 or whatever i was like oh hey, ed from cowboybeboy.......and then just had like, the solo experience of me humoring myself w/ that. bit of an usual one b/c a lot of the characters i Really latch on to will tend to be kinda roughly similar in ways that maybe seem pretty at-first-glance levels of obvious, buuut idk she’s not That far off from my usual selections i guess lol. anyways then in 2014 i was like, time to go ham for lars. what a valuable time it was....what Fun we had.....truly tho! and then another interval later it’s 2016 and for similarly (relatable characters of roughly the same cut) i was like, well here i am having a great time re: kip, all while getting to generously use of my fave shade of blue and fangs central and all that fun stuff. and then another interval later the Eventual Unfolding of what started innn 2017 i guess occurs, and it’s late 2018, and i’m like, time to look into Jared Kleinman b/c just from reading the wikipedia summary that didn’t mention him all that much i could tell this was probably a character i’d go ham for for predictable reasons, and the vague interest in that has stuck with me for the past little-over-a-year......and then i was Completely right lol. deh? well that’s just Bonus Jared Lore, to me (though of course alana in her own right is a great and similarly underappreciated character. rights)....and then of course i’ve had a lot of fun with pretty much each and every Wrol Role lmao.......Very fond of jeremy, and also christine, and bmc just has really enjoyable and interesting characters all over the place. and of course, here i am, Extremely #about winston quantbillions as another certified fave rave, really. call it classic!!!

[[answered both 23 and 31 prior, actually.....words were typed....]]

35)a random memory you remember with strange clarity?

tough one because lol a fair amount of “you recorded this memory in a fair amount of detail” is due to increased levels of unpleasantness / stress / discomfort, and if it’s also “i remember this b/c it was Nice” then i wouldn’t call that Strange clarity lol, and Random Memory like “just pull one up from the ol memory bank” is like, god, i wish it were that simple........but give me a min.

oh yeah i had a High Time of it when pokemon go came out (only pokemonn game i have ever played lol) coz there was like, this stretch of Landmarks stops that started at this garden and went along this waterfront / connected park forrr maybe like a half mile stretch? ideal territory and people would actually like, come from out of town to partake in it lol. and i’d Download podcast eps on my phone from my work’s wifi and just like, in the evening listen to that or music and just like, walk and do this shit. i had like five or six gyaradoses at one point cuz i guess the riverside nature of it meant they wanted to throw all these magikarp at you (there Were carp, also! one of the parks had a koi pond.) and like, there were just all these people around doing it along with you, even that late at night and in the early AM hours, so it was fairly social even if u weren’t there with a group or talking with anyone (though there was Camaraderie like, oh hey just so you guys know, there is a ____ over by the boat.) and it was just an interesting Walk with several things to look at and routes to take. and one time in a weird Dead Of Night time like 1am there was this like, smallish cruise ship docked that actually Set Off. and like, a bunch of us randos were just standing there and watching this unfold. this isn’t a very good Clear Random Memory but if i tried to think of a good one, god only knows how long it’d take me lol

40)an important personal revelation?

oh jeez this has really been a decade with lots of the unfortunate combo of “stuff that is a bummer but also boring” lol.......a benefit of getting to spend more time than not Away From The Parents’ House was like, oh sweet, having this perspective for long enough finally leads me to the conclusion of why i hate this......B/c It Is Bad. oh yeah and then there was also conclusively figuring out early in the decade like oh right, i’m trans, that makes sense.......other layers of Gayassedness like oh, more specifically i’m nonbinary, oh yeah and like, i’m not straight, call that queer and/or bi and/or also Gay......bein grey ace like a champ, and aromantic like, oh yeah i’m not like, fucking up at being a person somehow and Letting People Down by not wanting to date them (i mean besides rando cishet men. they can be let down regardless).....and just like, this ongoing process of getting the space to b figuring out myself and what i like For myself in alll kinds of ways....even up till now with the “oh yeah ive been a theatre gay all my life lmaooo” bit that’s like, totally obvious but just like, i didn’t much have the reason to even look at the would-be obvious stuff from the right perspex till now. and it’s pretty fun to realize a Lifelong Area Of Big Interest like that, cuz those sorts of things can feel elusive. and then also unfortunately a lot of the decade has involved like, “oh my self-esteem is so fucked that it’s circling back around and i’m appreciating and valuing myself and that i deserve decent treatment and Not bad shit,” which was a crappy process obviously lol but it was nice when i did start to get there, and making further progress on that front. im not dead certain when i was like “hmm...am autistic” b/c that was definitely a really ongoing process of figuring that out lol, but when / as i did it’s definitely a series of “oh hahaha this is why i’m like This or why i do This or feel like This about This!!” and it’s really easy to learn a totally Brand New Thing all the time abt bein autistic where it’s like Oh #Me!! coz yknow. the info By and For autistic ppl is not always widely available and known of. love that for us

#thank u!!! and thanks for the End Of Decade Ask Meme in the first place lol #cockbiteproductions

[cutaepatootie]

41, 50,52,53,46, 17, 13, 35 (any story for you), 36(animal 7 hehe) omg i’m so sorry for too many questions i hope i’m not too late 😅

Hahaha, don’t be sorry! I’m glad you asked bc I love this type of things hehe. You’re not too late dw. There are some answers I’ve already answered, but I’ll copy and paste them. Lots of love sweet! 🖤

41. How many stories do you work on at one time?

Rn I’m working on 4 hehe. But I like to post one at a time bc I lose interest really soon and I know that if I’m posting one and I start posting another story, I’ll get more invested in the second one. Tho, rn I’m working on one that I’m planning on posting soon even if I haven’t finished posting Animal.

50. Weirdest story idea you’ve ever had.

You can read it here.

52. How did writing change you?

I don’t know if it changed me bc I’ve always written and imagined stories, even when I was a kid. But posting them has changed me for sure, I can share my stories - my thoughts - and see how people think about them, I can see people enjoying what I write and that makes me feel... Full? hahaha I don’t know how to describe it with words, it just feels right, like it’s what I should be doing.

53. What does writing mean to you?

The whole world! I think I’d suffocate if I didn’t write. It’s like my mind is always working on new stories, always imagining and creating, and I feel that, if I didn’t write them I’d explode or something hahaha. I’ll put a really visual example. When you want to pee so bad that you feel as if your bladder is going to explode and you’re going to die? Well, the pee is my stories and the bladder my brain xd.

46. What would your story _______ look like as a tv show or movie? 

Hmm I’d love to see how the new Fantasy Tales I’m writing would look like if it was a tv show. I’d love to think it would look like Game of Thrones, but I think that’s wishful thinking hehe. About a fallen bookmark on a Thursday afternoon, I think it’d look like a Makoto Shinkai movie, so sad yet beautiful, with the cherry blossoms, the train and all.

47. Do you start with characters or plot when working on a new story?

Hmm... Whoa, such an interesting question. Guess I never thought about it. Usually I come up with the plot first, and then I guess I adapt my characters to it. But again, I usually get inspired by people, their personalities and all and then I create the story. It depends on the story? There are stories inspired by characters and their personalities and there are characters inspired by stories that my mind created (sorry, that was such a bad answer hahaha)

17. On avarage, how much writing do you get done in a day?

It depends on the day. If I’m really busy, I don’t write. Yeah, I love writing, but it’s not my priority :( If I’m not busy I usually spend 2 - 4 hours aprox. if not more.

13. How do you deal with writers block?

I HATE WRITERS BLOCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK YOU WRITERS BLOCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Seriously, it’s so frustrating... UGH! I don’t deal with it as you can see by this answer hahaha, I just let the frustration take my body. I guess I just stop writing and go on with my life, and as I said, I need to write, so eventually I start to feel the need to write and I write again. 

35. Tell some backstory details about one of your characters in your story ________.

Hmmm... I’ll tell you the backstory details about Jungkook in Animal Don’t know if this is the answer you wanted hahah but I’m telling you the backstory of how Jungkook’s character in Animal was born. Okay, so I think I’ve already said this, but Jungkook’s character was insipired by a patient I met during my practices at the hospital this year. I was his nurse, and he was this really tall man (195 cm I think) broad shoulders and all that. He was old but he had eyes that looked like crystals of how clear they were, white hair and strong features, he sure had been really pretty a long time ago. A bit grumpy, rude sometimes and jumpy and scary. He hated most of the people at that floor, but somehow he grew fond of me and we became friends. I would talk to him and accompany him because he was always alone, like, no one ever came to see him or called about him. Me and my nurse grew curious of him and searched his name in Google. Turns out he had been a famous underground boxer in Russia and had had troubles with the law and he had scaped from them. I was talking one day with him when he told me that, when he was young he had loved a girl that reminded him of me. I think he grew fond of me bc I wasn’t scared of him and I always took time to speak to him or visit him. He never told me about that girl anymore, but that’s how Animal was created (he wasn’t dying either, he was sent to a refuge bc he didn’t have a home) 

36. A spoiler for story _________.

Akhsjfkhgads 😈😈 do I have to answer this? You know how much I love creating hype and not telling anything about my new chapters... But I’ll do it for you! (maybe it’s a shitty spoiler but it’s the only one I can say for now) I’ll tell you okay!!Jungkook’sbeenshotanddramaisgoingtohappen. AJKLSHDLGASJDGHAJH

[vanogla]

got any vanogla headcanons? idc if its in au or not all i know is that I Need Vanogla Content Or I'll Die.

aw fuck don’t die i need every vanogla fan alive if i want to grow my empire 

ah jeez, this list is going to be a friggin’ mess so it’ll be under a cut-

general headcanons

here’s my base for hcs when i watch their videos. please remember that these are merely headcanons and may not be true!

*Evan’s only mean to David when Tyler is around; when they’re alone they laugh literally every other sentence and make harmless jokes and its all feel good banter 👍

*they’re both awkward in public and avoid PDA; if u ask them abt their (established) relationship they’ll be very tight-lipped abt it（・θ・）

*its not a headcanon that they’re both born in the same year :) you may have noticed that i draw Evan’s height in line with David’s caterpillar eyebrows so that’s my height diff hc :D

*imo Evan never uses pet names or terms of endearments with David, he’s not comfortable with it, and the furthest he’ll go is “babe”. David comes up with the shittiest, most obnoxious nicknames for Evan as much as possible to make up for it tho, and he’s not afraid to embarrass Evan in public with them xD however the only legit terms of endearment David uses are “dear” and “darling” cuz he’s an old man at heart

*this one is a rather unpopular one but i can never see Evan casually calling daithi “David” instead of “Nogla”. I know its like a relationship milestone to call him by his first name, but i cant see it happening unless its for a joke (e.g David Blaine from one of the vids) so imo daithi will forever be “Nogla” to Evan. (However if it’s AU im completely 100% all for it yes)

*Evan isn’t as smart as David thinks he is (tbh David puts him on a pedestal), and Evan doesn’t actually think David is stupid or dim (shown when he calls David “smurt” when he gives a good idea). i fuckin love it when they discuss solutions to the game together because they’re so quiet and serious in those moments :>

*surprisingly Evan overthinks more than David does; he’s actually a doubtful guy. David’s generally more impulsive than Evan, but he can form a black-or-white opinion depending on the facts he’s given. Evan on the other hand will stay in the grey area- he’ll find some way to balance out both sides (unless it’s morally wrong then hell no- he’s def picking a side)

*idk how to explain this one but i really love the way they say each other’s names. I noticed in some videos that David will keep calling “Evan” multiple times to get his attention and same goes for Evan repeating “Nogla” a buncha times to show or tell David something- and i just find it really cute and dorky.. if i could i would compile all of these moments together (Ｔ▽Ｔ)

*just sayin’: when they call each other ‘owl’ and ‘lobster’ it sounds flirty as fuck

*this is sappy but i definitely think that Evan is 100% himself when he’s with David. With David, he doesnt have to be the coolass-motherfucker-with-awesome-one-liners, and instead he openly giggles and asks for help/affection without having to filter himself to sound cool (i think this can be seen in some of their videos as well). although he isn’t as comfortable with David when other ppl are around, when they’re on their own Evan can always count on David to be encouraging, supportive and playing along with Evan’s jokes so that’s why Evan is so comfortable with David ( ´ ▽ ` )

*fuckin hell they’ll always come back together; whether as friends or lovers they could never permanently cut each other out of their lives because their lives are so entwined with each other- David having Evan in his thumbnails/in the title, Evan laughing at David’s shenanigans are the highlight of his videos- and no matter how harsh they seem with each other they’ll always bounce back in the end :’)

*i think that they have a closer relationship than casual viewers of the crew think, and so they are forever a memorable aspect of each others lives (ye, theyre my OTP and BrOTP ヽ( ´¬`)ノ) 

*despite all’a this, i dont think they need each other, of course they can be independent and go their separate ways. but i just know for a fact that sooner or later they’re gonna see something that reminds them of the other and the memories will remind them of good times ^_^

*err i have like, 1 solid nsfw one and that is neither of them like penetration so they rarely do it. Its not because i have anything against anal, its because i don’t see either of them as people who enjoy being penetrated. Generally I don’t see them as a pair who’d have sex often anyway (^_^;) -however when they do they’d be laughing so much thru it ◎▼◎ (ill be posting a list for this veryverysoon! [update: here it is])

additional headcanons

here’s some of my indulgent hcs ^_^ here’s where the good stuffs at, cuz the general hcs don’t necessarily apply to these ones:

*David pining is my favourite thing ever like he’ll write a lot of songs abt Evan and he’ll post them and say that it’s not for anyone in particular but its a fucking lie because he literally has only one person on his mind when he writes it and sings it but he’ll never tell anyone and he sure as hell won’t tell Evan

*Evan pining is also v good yes :’) He’s fuckin scared that David’ll know that he has a soft spot for the Irish prick so he hides it with jabs and insults. but sometimes his fondness slips thru and his laugh comes out a lot warmer than he’d intended and his eyes linger on David and for a split second it feels like he knows, he fucking knows and yeah it scares him so in the end both of them think their feelings are unrequited woohoo

*i have a love/hate relationship with whipped!Evan cuz it feels like i stripped him of his personality but its the only way i can get him to shower David with affection so Welp he’s staying for the fluff

*whipped!Evan snippets: Evan longingly gazing at David like David would disappear the moment he blinks + Evan being bold and chasing after David because ‘you’re a part of this mess, we’re in this together whether you like it or not’ will really fuck me up

*Evan isn’t as giggly in some of my AUs. i like playing around with his GTA or Gmod-roleplaying personality so he can get pretty closed-off depending on the au. most of the time when he’s in this character, David will be the lighthearted and cheeky one to balance it out c:

*i love to treat David well but i also love to wreck him so cynical!David or insecure!David are some of my fav angst hcs cuz both’ll make him very very frustrated lol

*following the last point, David’s usually the one to fall in love first, but he’s also the one to doubt their relationship- so he’s hesitant of commitment and he’ll say stupid shit just to see if Evan will stay with him despite his flaws. 

*lowkey hero/villain au: the way bad-guy-David taunts good-guy-Evan with “little owl” or “little bird” or “plucking/ruffling yer feathers” is like, h o l y shit yes. (And don’t tell me you cant imagine Evan yelling “YOU’RE GOING DOWN” xD)

*for one of my soulmate aus, they’re not soulmates. they’re just two people who fell in love and decided to stay together despite the fact that they’re not “meant to be” cuz they feel like their relationship is valid, even if it doesn’t match up to society’s expectations. another one is that they are soulmates, but despite knowing that they’re supposed to be the perfect complement to each other, their personalities are incompatible as fuck and honestly it’s a mess of misunderstandings hahaha.

*that nsfw hc mentioned previously does not apply to most of my AUs by the way- ngl there’s a lot of sexual tension in my AUs ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Aye that pree much sums up my main headcanons (ﾉ*ﾟｰﾟ)ﾉ 

ive got a few more headcanons for cop au but that’ll come out another day on another post xD also i have a lot of hcs for other aus that ive never fully developed, perhaps ill post those someday as well lol

also sorry for the wait, i hope ye enjoyed despite this being late (::)

holy shit im so obsessed with these two i spent 4 hours typing+editing this fuck

#ask #anon #.txt #prompt #vanogla

[gibstaplease]

Rules: Once you have been tagged you are supposed to write 92 truths about yourself. At the end, choose 25 people to tag! Thank you for tagging me: @ohmegstiel @liams-10inch aka “mozão” 
[4] song you listened to: idk, i guess side to side -ariana grande was on the radio a while ago 
[5] time you cried: dont remember WTF IS HAPPENING I WOULD CRY EVERY DAY, BUT thank god 
[6] dated someone twice: never did, guess im quite cold 
[7] been cheated on: 2013, by a friend (as far as im concerned, that was the last time) 
[8] kissed someone and regretted it: never 
[9] lost someone special: 2016/17 has been kinda hard in that aspect 
[10] been depressed: bitch my life is a compilation of *hello darkness my old friend* moments 
[11] gotten drunk and thrown up: never, im REALLY cautious in that sense, but sometimes i get quite messy and giggly when drinking


LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLOURS: 
[12] green 
[13] blue  IM SO FUCKING EXTRA OKAY 
[14] pink 
IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU… 
[15] made new friends: yes! 
[16] fallen out of love: i like to think that i have, but i cant really answer that properly  
[17] laughed until you cried: in my pilates class *im such an old lady i know* when my yoga pants got ripped  
[18] found out someone was talking about you: dont remember 
[19] met someone who changed you: i think not 
[20] found out who your true friends are: YASSSS  
[21] kissed someone on your facebook list: no and i think im grateful for that ajsdjasdjasdajsdajsd 
[22] how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: no idea, but most of them 
[23] do you have any pets: bennie my smol precious dog baby 
[24] do you want to change your name: no, im quite fond of my name tbh  
[25] what did you do for your last birthday: nothing special, i hate celebrating my birthday *even though i shouldn’t cause i have a twin brother who likes his birthday bUT WHAT CAN I DO* 
[26] what time did you wake up: 10 am and proud  
[27] what were you doing at midnight last night: in me bed, warm between the blankets and knowing that im blessed for living in the same era as one direction  
[28] name something you cannot wait for: 21ST OF FUCKING JULY 
[29] when was the last time you saw your mother: guess i was 5 or 6, the time she went to the hospital for the very last time :( 
[30] what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: i wish some of my relatives were younger so i could spend more time with them 
[31] what are you listening to right now: real bad music from my neighbour, need to show him some REAL ART aka 1d 
[32] have you ever talked to a person named tom: i dont think so 
[33] something that is getting on your nerves: loud music from my neighbour 
[34] most visited website: tumblr definetely  
[35] elementary: meh 
[36] high school: HELL 
[37] college: so far so good 
[38] hair colour: dark brown, almost black 
[39] long or short hair: short 
[40] do you have a crush on someone: im still in denial but yeah 
[41] what do you like about yourself?: im really passionate about my faves and thats it 
[42] piercings: no, but have thought about it 
[43] blood type: i have no idea iM SO IRRESPONSIBLE 
[44] nickname: gibs, gi, gibson 
[45] relationship status: single (but needy :3) 
[46] zodiac sign: taurus and yes i love food 
[47] pronouns: she/her 
[48] fav tv show(s): hard to tell, there are so many 
[49] tattoos: no, but who knows? 
[50] right or left handed: right 
FIRST… 
[51] surgery: never had one  
[52] piercing: ears when i was a baby 
[53] best friend: Awdrey from elementary
[54] sport: dodgeball!??????????? HAHAHA i dont think i have ever been engaged in sports 
[55] vacation: no idea 
[56] pair of trainers: no idea pt 2  
[57] eating: no idea - the return 
[58] drinking: i guess milk? from me mom 
[59] i’m about to: take a shower   
[60] listening: bad music from my neighbour and yes im getting pissed 
[61] waiting for: lunch  
[62] want: TO SEE MY OLD FRIENDS TODAY, LOVE THEM SO MUCH

@daintyandsmol @la-paritalienne @liams-10inch @my-tiny-sun @adoredlou @aimh210 @jellyworm @thebookoflarrystylinson @hazloveshisboo @shpevrythng @floralotp @pay-me-payne @crapcrepe @tempolarriefix @catp @thearmyofbees @celebratinglouis @1989rosesxx @memermaids @spotlightsoff @babybonitaharry @whippedharru i dont know if i reached 25 but i reeeeeeally need to take a shower rn… BUT I FREAKIN’ LOVE ALL MY MUTUALS, even though *harrys voice* we dont talk enough 

[laurifakristalina]

11 Questions

tagged by @dreamsinparadise

When was the last time you cried, and why? Uhhh, I think last week? I’m not sure whether it’s because I’m so sick until I feel so frustrated or when I was having a huge row with my parent LOL

Do you prefer staying at home or hanging out at your friends’s place? Depends, really. When I’m in the mood for going out and socialize, I’d rather hanging out at my friend’s place. Though there’s one friend of mine where I can totally relax and because my house is not so peaceful right now I think I’d rather be there kkkk. Though, mostly I prefer to be at a coffee shop alone with my laptop :)

If you were in a situation where your fav SLBP character and your 10 yrs old child with him are at the brink of death. You are given the chance to save only one of them. Who would you choose? My child. Well, I’ll love both of them, obv, but I think even my Lord will prefer me saving my child, and... well, in Sengoku it’s not like our life expectancy will be that high, as a wife of a Lord HAHAHHA *morbid thought*

Its your first night with your SLBP bae, who’s gonna be dom and who’s gonna be sub? Can I choose Nobuyuki? LOL. He will be Dom, obv. I have a headcanon that Nobuyuki will be like, killing his partner slowly and sweetly with pleasure and that serene smile and tone he has LMAO

What would you give to your SLBP bae as a memento if they are going to war? Hmmmm this is hard. I’ll probably give them a scabbard for their katanas, or what is it for archer? an arrow holder? I don’t know, just something that can be used practically, most likely. I don’t really like decorative things so...

Your bae had struck a faustian contract with (demon!au) you for the price of his soul and you finished your services after some time. If you chose not to consume him after the contract, it would cost you your life but he would live, while if you consume him his soul would be with you forever in your body (but you can never touch him or hear him again). Which would you prefer? Why? LOL HAHAHA Kuroshitsuji AU! I’ll die. If I can only have one bae, that is. If it’s me though, who has, like tens of them, I’ll just consume him until I found my last one that I like the most and just die. Or can I just kill myself after I consume everyone? LOL

What kind of wedding would you like with your bae? Ugh. Well, since currently my number one is Sirius from Kakumei... I’d like a private one, with only closest friends and family... And the flowers will be from Sirius’ family’s flower shop ofc LOL. It’s a simple one... I’ll be very picky about the dress though, I love dresses when the occasion calls for it haha!

If you were to adopt one of the SLBP guys as your children, who would it be? Uh.... children? Hmmm this is haaaard. Well, maybe Masa, and I’ll just spoil him so much :’)

What do you think of me; @dreamsinparadise? excitable. LOL. You’re funny, and give a good feedback and reaction XDD

Give 3 words to describe your 2D man Uhhh Sirius from Kakumei huh... Mature, a tease, aaand humble, I guess?

Are these questions fun, heartbreaking or humoring for you? Did you enjoy them?? it’s fun~ I enjoyed them, though I have to think hard for some of them

tagged by @shioune

Do you ship yourself with any of the voltage men? Or do you have any favorite, who? I don’t usually ship myself... I can’t even write in first person pov sometimes LOL. my favorite... ugh. I don’t play much Voltage rn... Ren, maybe? I don’t really play MFW nowadays though... I still love Ren a lot in Love Scramble though. Or maybe Saizo, just because... I just love angsty thing that’ll make you almost dead but not quite dead

Would you really date them if they exist in your life and is interested in you? Ren? Most probably. I like him, really. Saizo... now that’s a no, I think. If it’s in real life, I think Nobuyuki will be the one I date, since I need someone who can patiently listen to my rant, calm but still spicy since I love to argue and debate without end up fighting, and a little vindictive streak since i sometimes... can be cruel in my imagination LOL

Your top three SLBP lords. Or any game from your choosing. But you can only choose three guys from one title. One title huuuuh.... Ugh, my ‘like’ is so spread out in SLBP... Well, it changes as easily as my mood, but currently it’s probably Kojuro, Saizo, and Kenshin. or exchange Kojuro with Nobuyuki if I can LOL

Now, fuck marry kill from those choices : ) I’m satan incarnate, y’know. uhhhhhhhh. Marry... Kenshin, since I’m weak at cleaning up and Kojuro will kill me if I marry him LOL. Fuck... Kojuro. Like, really. I need to know the skill of that old man LOLOLOL come on Koju make me faint :P Ahem. Okay. Kill, Saizo. And please let me kill him with pleasure so I can fit him into the fuck category too LMAO

What’s the last thing you daydream about? Uhhhh... I rarely daydreamed, really. If I do, it’ll be something that connected to my fics anyway LOL. The latest one is about Yasu who’s having a flashback of his past when he’s got locked in the gym storage room because of @cottonballwithmustache‘s reblog, a few days ago. Fran, you know about this already lol

Do you prefer hugs or kisses and are you the kind of person who would initiate them? Hugs... Well, I’m a bit awkward at romantic skinship, so it’ll be most likely my boyfriend who started it and I’ll be the one who set how much LOL

A song you’re really into these days and a song you associate to your fav lord/prince/character (idk, i mean what if slbp isnt ur fav game, im giving you options here bc im a sainttan) uhhh... let’s see my playlist XD It’s the soundtrack of Kakumei, Tsuki ga Michiru Mae ni by Fuki Commune, music wise and game character-wise. Well, the lyrics just fits the game characters so much (and just ignore the fact that I’m totally biased towards Kakumei, just ignore it okay?) Personally, the lyrics that hits me the most is You Only Live Once from Yuri on Ice! Ending.

Do you love Oyamada Nobushige? Why... this is so random LOL. I... like him? He’s okay, not my fave but I don’t hate him either so... if I have to choose, I like him.

What’s your favorite food and to what length will you go to get it? Uhhh I love a lot of things. Well, I love durians so much that when I went to Spore I searched for them, and when I went to Lampung too.... 

If you can time travel to any period and any country, where would you go? Why that period/country? Hmmmm probably the Victorian Era, England? I just like their dresses, though I’m sure it’s uncomfortable LOL I was always drawing a puffy princess dresses when I was a child, with laces and frills. Even now, while I’d like to wear a casual and sporty style, I’m still fond of them though I don’t want to wear them most of the time

And lastly would you consider donating pearls to me? LOL NO IM JOKING last question is, late at night and you’ve been feeling out of it for a while and your bae (your 2D bae ofc) text messages you. Who’s your bae and what does the message say? LOL NO. Sorry, darling, friends are friends, but pearl is different matters... out of it? like... how? in an extremely bad mood? Or just depressed? Text, huh... Since Sirius will be more like a type who shows up and makes me pancake to cheer me up without many words, like he’ll just smile and watching me eat that...

I won’t tag anyone though LOL because I’m suck at making questions XDD I did this just in case both of you really are curious about my answer kkkk

#personal #shioune #dreamsinparadise