#im so late to all of the discourse

[wander-wren]

today i am angry because lightlark keeps (kept? i think it’s dead) getting compared to the hunger games

i don’t know if tumblr saw the lightlark drama and i’m not interested in rehashing it especially bc some of it got uncomfortably personal towards the author at one point and also it was months ago so just! suffice it to say lightlark is a book by alex aster, it is a terrible book, and i did not put myself through the torture of reading it but i did watch a 7.5 hour video essay

(i think the essay could have been 6 or even 5 hours, and i think this person went a little too hard on the critique at some points, so that rubbed me wrong a little but it was also extremely thorough and i was bored.)

but anyway. one of the big things about lightlark is that it was marketed as “hunger games x acotar” which is….fine. but every time someone compares a book to thg i’m automatically suspicious because no one does it right.

and of course, neither did lightlark.

the book is a complete disaster so i will try to stick only to the relevant points but seriously. there’s so much.

the official premise of lightlark is that six realms in a fantasy world have been cursed for hundreds of years. each curse is (supposed to be) a twisted version of the realms magic, and the curses also cut them off from their main island of lightlark. except for once every century, when the island becomes accessible for 100 days and the six rulers travel there to try to break the curses via death tournament.

but then you get to the book and learn that the curses are only broken if a ruler dies without an heir, since their special ruler magic just transfers to the heir and no one gets anywhere. this was only a caveat so we could have a young protagonist ruler, i’m sure. ALSO, IMPORTANTLY, if a ruler dies without an heir, their entire realm also dies.

and obviously that’s bad so the rulers have to consider carefully who they want to kill, and they keep putting the killing off bc it’s not easy to condemn thousands of people to death.

so why, pray tell, the FUCK, are you doing a death tournament every century.

(they’re not, by the way. the first 50 days are dedicated to some demonstrations that are definitely hunger games inspired and meant to allow the rulers to forge alliances bc even though there’s only six of them they’re also required to partner up for some reason?? but there’s almost no fighting and almost all the fight scenes end very quickly with no real damage to the main character. it got really annoying really fast.)

but like, let’s pretend for half a second that lightlark IS about six rulers fighting to the death to break a curse. it’s still not even close to being like the hunger games.

the hunger games was about teenagers under constant surveillance forced to perform and then kill for the masses, many because they weren’t rich enough to buy their way out or into good training.

no one except the rulers and the essential staff is even allowed on lightlark, and no i don’t know why that is. and the characters spend the entire book trying to avoid killing each other as much as possible (well, minus two cases) bc they want to find another way to break the curses. i don’t understand why it’s billed as this big bloody dangerous battle even in-universe when everyone involved really REALLY doesn’t want to fight.

also, this isn’t related to the thg nonsense, but if i’m talking about lightlark i have to talk about That Twist. alex aster really loves her twists and is very proud that no one can see them coming but that’s because reading the twists is like watching the street for cars, then trying to cross and getting hit by an airplane.

as i said, the characters keep trying to find a new way to break the curse, even though it’s been 500 years and many of the rulers have been alive that long (no i don’t know if that’s normal or a ruler perk, it’s not explained) so they SHOULD have tried all of these fairly obvious methods by now but SURE, JAN. this book would make so much more sense if it was only the first century and everyone was still scrambling to figure the curses out. but whatever. alex aster wanted her protagonist to be in a love triangle with two 500yo men

(there’s nothing inherently wrong with that and i actually really loved grim, not for the reasons i was supposed to bc the writing was bad, but i liked him, until—well, put a pin in that.)

ANYWAY. THE POINT. our protagonist, who i guess i should say is named isla, needs to find “the heart of lightlark” which “blooms where darkness meets light.” everyone assumes they’re looking for a super special flower but they can’t find it. then, isla decides this random-ass bird that’s only almost gotten her killed twice is DEFINITELY going to show them the heart, so they follow the bird.

and at dawn, the bird lays a fucking egg. and it falls out of the nest. and cracks. and the yolk. floats. into the air. in time with the rising sun.

I CANNOT EMPHASIZE ENOUGH HOW MUCH IT IS A LITERAL FUCKING EGG

no foreshadowing. isla has an internal monologue where she thinks she always did see the moon as an eggshell and the sun as yolky, but the yolky sun description happens twice in 400+ pages and the egg moon description happens Never, so like. shoutout to aster’s copy editor??

i can’t take this book seriously bc it is a literal egg an EGG isla has to carry an EGG YOLK to break the curses. there are scenarios where i could accept that but this Serious YA Fantasy Book is not one of them.

and since i mentioned the one thing i did actually like, i will explain isla’s one love interest, grim. technically her only love interest bc nothing about the other guy struck me as romantic but idk maybe her inner monologue was yearning or smthn. anyway, grim.

grim is from the least trusted/most stigmatized realm. he’s described as a huge hulking nightmare of a man, a demon, every badscary description under the sun. but like. the times he is alone with isla? he takes her to a chocolate shop during their first meeting and hand feeds her truffles, which is a little weird and overly sexual but…still. chocolate. then he hides her from another ruler no questions asked even though he has every right to be suspicious. he opens up to her and shit. he calls her “hearteater” (it’s a reference to her curse, her people eat human hearts to survive, no that doesn’t make sense either) (also isla is magically not cursed so our protagonist doesn’t have to be scary and gross and worry about that during the novel haha!) (guess what else is never properly explained….)

anyway grim calls her “hearteater” but like, almost in a teasing/endearing way, which is fun, and when they start to fall in love he just calls her “heart” which is ALSO cute imo i’m weak for nicknames. he’s like. the narration and aster really really want me to think he’s the scary bad boy but he’s just such a soft dude.

and then. ohhhh, and then. one of the other hit-by-airplane twists is that the weird sexy dreams isla has been having all book about grim? they’re not dreams. they’re memories. the two of them used to be together for about a year before the book started, and grim erased her memories as part of a plot to betray her yada yada i was braindead by this point so i don’t fully remember all 17 elements of the betrayal. but like…..first of all that retroactively makes all of their interactions but especially the chocolate thing kind of weird and creepy? also WHAT was the FUCKING POINT pf making her forget she loves you if you’re literally just going to seduce her immediately anyway. like. the book makes a halfhearted effort at having grim avoid her but it really didn’t feel like he was purposely being mean to push her away. because every time they did interact he was so sweet! sir!!

anyway he betrayed isla probably mostly to keep up the ambiguity of the love triangle and so aster could brag about more twists and i hate that bc WHY. he was doing so well.

anyway. i got so far off track. lightlark is a wild fucking ride and i did not even scratch the surface of the plot-hole filled mess that this book is. my sister does own it and i did check a few things bc i straight up could not believe they were real (like the egg. i cannot get over the egg.) so.

also this book only got published bc it went viral on booktok so that kind of tells you everything you need to know. the good news is it does give me some measure of hope/an ego boost bc if lightlark exists in the world…..surely whatever i’m doing can’t be too bad.

#wren wrambles #lightlark #anti lightlark #thats a tag?? #DOES tumblr have a lightlark community?? #im so late to all of the discourse #booktok #booktok cringe #every time i watch a video essay i need everyone to listen to me restate the video essay in my own worse words #thank you

[billfarrah]

@unfortunate17 and I were discussing Wille’s anxiety and how we don’t feel like Wille’s reluctance to partake in public speaking was a result of his anxiety, but rather his history of being forced to speak and say things he doesn’t mean and follow a script in order to preserve the reputation of his family and control the public’s perception of him. He was forced to follow a script three times in season 1 - the first when he had to apologize on TV for a fight he was not sorry about, when he had to read a written speech to his classmates regarding his brother who had just died, and when he was forced to lie about the video leading to the destruction of his relationship with Simon.

In my opinion Wille’s fear of public speaking in season 2 is not related to general or social anxiety - as I do not believe Wille has social anxiety at all and is not shy at all despite some people in the fandom tending to believe he is - but rather a fear of being perceived, because that is ultimately Wille’s main struggle in the series - not being with a boy, not being in love with a gay, not being queer, but being perceived by others and feeling forced to live up to a certain standard or expectation when all he wants to do is live his life truthfully and without people having opinions about the things he does.

What’s so powerful and beautifully written about the scenes with Boris is that even though Wille is made to see a therapist by his mother, the Queen, who is the one who persuaded/forced him speak out when he didn’t want to, Wille’s sessions with Boris are the first time he is told he doesn’t have to say anything if  he doesn’t want to, and the confidentiality of their sessions and Boris’ position as an unbiased professional allows him to be more honest with not only himself, but with another person without feeing like he is being judged or forced to feel or believe something he doesn’t.

We see in season 1 episode 4, when Wille goes off script and speaks from the heart about Erik, and in season 2 episode 6 when he once again goes off script, that Wille really has no issues with speaking to a crowd, but only when he feels he’s being truthful and honest and in control of the narrative. His fear of speaking in the class presentation, in my opinion, has a lot to do with how out of control of his own narrative Wille felt throughout season 2 as a result of the lie at the end of season 1 and the events of season 2 - he is perceived by his classmates now as having denied being a part of the video, as if it was something to be ashamed of, he is perceived as being interested in Felice when in reality he’s desperately in love with Simon. He just wants to exist and stay true to himself and it scares him to do it in front of an audience, and that’s what makes it so powerful when we see him slowly begin to accept how he feels about himself and the circumstances of his life through the sessions with Boris, and how that results with him re-taking control of his own narrative at the Jubilee at the end of the season, and that’s just beautiful writing.

#young royals #prince wilhelm #wilmon #havent wrote one of these in a while #dont even know if its good #also i feel like kendall roy with my control the narrative #anyway wille is the Main Character of all time and people oversimplify him a lot #hes so complex and nuanced and carefully written and portrayed extraordinarily by edvin #im mostly writing because lately my dash is just littered with uninteresting discourse about edvin and omar's career choices #and i just like #dont care about any of that lol #so please come engage with me about this wonderful show #i genuinely just love this character so much lol #and i love wilmon obviously but wille is just #ahhh hes such a good character

[guckies]

It is so fucking clear some of y’all don’t watch at least one of the povs of the other team.

#qsmp discourse #qsmp neg #discourse #like ur takes are all so bad you claim stuff before even knowing the full context and then claim exploits when certain things have been - #known by the admins for ages and its their decision if they want to nerf it or not #also yeah by my blog im a red main but i also watch tina fit and tubbo i just dont post them bc i watch them as background noise #well fit i do blog about sometimes but havent as of late bc i have class 😓

[prisonguards]

Joel did not put his whole pussy into being an insane housewife and compete to be the #1 Ethogirl and wear Ethos face on his shirt all season for you guys to say his relationship/allyship with Etho was forced just because it was a soulbond

#boat boys #smalletho #I GET trying to make the bad boys extra important to him I GET IT #but this just. is a misreading thats so popular rn its driving me crazy #HE was SO enthusiastic abt allying with Etho even when Etho was jokingly distressed #in general people have a problem with discrediting Joels relationships and Im like. beating all your doors down to tell you Scar and Grian #were important to him in LL. he wasnt alone in LL. #I would say this is partially my fault for people misunderstanding the focus of my alliance metapost #but that has like under 200 notes so its really Not on me tho #prisspeaks #no hate or hard feelings to the people who have been saying this. I Get why you are I really do #its just smth thats been driving me crazy lately. how quickly we forget… #discourse

[mcybree]

girl please i’m good with fh shippers vehemently disagreeing with toxic fh, I get it, that’s your ship. but if you want to argue that it is mischaracterization can we maybe find an argument that isn’t “they clearly loved each other” im starting to get concerned. That maybe. A good amount of people aren’t aware of how toxic relationships work,

#NOT TRYING TO GET DISCOURSEY. IM JUST. I SAW THAT ARGUMENT AGAIN AND IT MAKES ME NERVOUS #Like on one hand. Yes. Its mcrp fandom discourse its not that serious #But on the other hand. Lack of awareness to that extent feels almost dangerous so it concerns me that that’s always the rebuttal is all #like…lack of love often isnt. the issue. And believing that thats what sets unhealthy relationships apart is Not Good For You #Idk how to articulate this rn. Its late. goodnight #bree barks so fucking loud

[guzmapkmn-archive]

the dash has been so scary lately i kinda. idk.

#cat.txt #ive seen so much discourse slash drama slash people arguing abt stuff in the community lately #idk. im just here to kiss fake men why does everything have to be so. you know. #i cant avoid it and im kinda sick of it tbh #rlly makes me not wanna keep posting and just start keeping all my selfship stuff to myself #either that or just remake and only follow a select few people #the community is not fun

[always-a-joyful-note]

Here's the enstars tw list, enjoy ★

well would you look at that....

the tw list should be a trigger warning in of itself. I simply do not believe this is real

#actually i changed my mind #you should all join me and suffer with me im - #me about bsd: awww...look. a silly animanga about authors living in a detective vs pm world #bsd: *shows me the most messed up world with questionable discourse about trauma war ptsd philosophy and the meaning of life* #me about orv: cool! long reverse isekai novel thats so - #orv: *hits me with the most emotionally devastating discourse on stories and human life and the importance of LIVING over surviving* #me on enstars: haha silly idol game with silly idol stories that ill probably loses interest in #enstars: see above #enstars #ensemble stars #also women dont exist anymore i guess (most of the media im into lately has no ladies. except orv...orv my beloved) #(you all should read orv) #fandom spamdom #stuff i say

[sea-buns]

How is it that you can write what is essentially character introspection about emotional manipulation and people automatically read it as you treating the character like a child/a woman "with no agency"? Literally, genuinely, how? Please, I would like to know where the hiccup in my wording was so I can avoid this complete misinterpretation in future posts. I cannot comprehend.

#there are some comments i want to reply to and genuinely discuss so i can figure this shit out but the notes on a tumblr post are not the #place to do this. #also its fucking 3am man. im not even sure i turned replies off correctly so i can put this on ice till the morning. #though if anyone has any genuine advice on how to handle these sorts of things id appreciate it #if turning off replies was actually effective dms are prolly the only way to reach me #in the meantime im gonna go sleep. itd just be stupid to try and mitigate at a time that is both too late and too early. #anyway i enjoyed the episode. hope you all did too :') #critical role #cr spoilers #cr discourse #sea rambles

[homophyte]

it is interesting to me that ive seen lately (n yknow this is subjective and likely not any real social force just what ive seen) many queer people simultaneously talking about taking back and embodying unpalatable and ‘unmarketable’ queerness (the recent return to the terms faggot and transsexual come to mind) which i think is pretty evidently shaped by the conservative moment were in of demonizing queer ppl and especially gnc and trans people as predators--it reads as a return to queer isolationism in the face of external hostility, imo--while at the same time ive seen a lot of rallying around the “original” 6 stripe rainbow flag as opposed to any of the purportedly ‘factional’ flags of different queer identities, with the assumption being different identity flags divide us while the rainbow flag encompasses everyone and its kinda fascinating to me bc the rainbow flag is probably the single most marketable and palatable and uncontroversial symbols of queerness which has been seamlessly uptaken by those who wish to sell it back to us as gets pointed out every pride month with all the cringey pride merch.... i dunno you could maybe take that as a point of hypocrisy and claim the queer community is itself in a conservative moment rn where its returning to a sense of history and historical continuity (perhaps even out of that sense of external threat) or even that the queer community has for some time been in a conservative moment given the like, decade of identity discourse and lashing out at any people deemed to not have a sufficiently established history or however we should categorize the bihets/ace discourse/transtrender-tucute discourse/pan discourse/bi lesbians discourse (because lets be frank its essentially all the same discourse just keeping up its momentum by leapfroging from one target to the next) which i think is, like, SOMEWHAT true but not entirely? its more interesting to me, in any case, as an expression of a conflict the queer community is facing given that current state of affairs RE antitransness and that very recent history. like, the simultaneous need to retreat to a safe sense of community which is welcoming to the very things the outer world is demonizing ie mutable gender, complex or contradictory experiences of gender, gender expression which is hostile to the cis binary, but also the ways in which it has to grapple with those discourses which have largely defined the community infighting for again the past decade. its queer people begging the question ‘how can we make the queer community welcoming to the girlfags and genderfucks and tboys who are being threatened when we have spent so much time making the queer community a hostile place for anyone with a non-conventional or not easily (or even just palatably) sortable sense of queer identity’. and the answer it seems to be grappling with at the moment is like, welcoming all that diversity of experience but being absolutely averse to naming it. yes we love all the fuckery with gender and sexuality never be marketable but like, ew, why are you calling yourself [insert microlabel here]. you can be genderweird but you cant call yourself genderweird. you can only exist as queer in the broadest possible way (the all-inclusive gay pride flag!) but if you try to name the specifics or use those identity labels weve been fighting over for years youre doing it wrong (the progress pride flag is now ugly and cringey and ‘too much’). i think theres something also to the way (at least on this site) transmisogynistic discourses have really taken hold as legitimate (though yknow i wont downplay how much a problem transmisogyny has like. always been in queer spaces no matter what) in the name of protecting n defending trans people. like its just regurgitated transmisogyny but its being mobilized supposedly in the service of helping trans people. idk its definitely getting a little late for me to string this together fully coherently but theres a throughline there, in the ways certain ideas are being consolidated and reified as ‘yes were more progressive now!’ when i think theres definitely something to question there in terms of like...are we? are we actually? are we doing better by the people were trying to help or are we setting strict standards and forcing ppl to adhere to them again?

#myposts #this is long and honestly probably Nothing #i dont even really have a way of proving its the same group of people saying both things except fro anecdotally seeing it #and even thats not proof either is a real social force with like power. i could be entirely wrong on every count here #but i do think theres something to the idea that like #as ive seen said #yknow 'ace discourse never ended you all just accepted ace people didnt deserve support and then moved on w those views internalized' #i think thats more broadly true for like. all those discourses i mentioned. and for the transmisogyny i alluded to #but honestly i dont even want to name the specific phenomenon im talking abt there bc those people. scare me. #but yknow ill say it ive felt way more pressure lately to not call myself pan than i did at the height of pan discourse #before it became cringe to care about it and instead of actively shitting on pan ppl we moved on to passively doing it #ive largely started just. calling myself bi to avoid the arguement. which i predicted i would have to do years ago #and now look at me doing it! not really a fluke that its happening now. i think #which isnt to say were moving 'backwards' per se but that these ideas are not now and never have been really challenged #so weve just internalized their logics--reactionary logics--and its having an interesting effect now that we need a progressive community #for our safety. #now we cant say anything about it because to bring it up is jeopardizing everything weve built and the people were keeping safe! #cause we dont count as people deserving of safety were disruptors who only belong when we dont make noise. idk. or thats how i feel #again i dont really know if this is true at all im more just...thinking through it i think #basically like what im seeing--i think--comes from simultaneously that need to be unmarketable in the face of hostility #coming into conflict with a decade of momentum to make queers solely marketable. and i think thats producing some interesting--but sucky #--discourses in the current moment #last disclaimer that i might and am likely totally wrong! okay lauren out. post send *nervous sweating*

[guardian-angle22]

The way I felt sick to my stomach for half of the episode last night thinking that this was setting up a big Carlos storyline next season where he goes on a cop/Ranger hunt for the killer. Ugh. I was slightly placated by the end and his (for now) acceptance when Owen mentions he may never know who pulled the trigger. Obviously it’s gonna come back up, but I’m somewhat hopeful it’s at least on the back burner for a bit. That’s probably wishful thinking on my part and after the season we’ve had I have no idea why I’d be that way at all.

I feel you. I was uncomfortable from the moment there was a knock on the Reyes’ front door until we got to the wedding scenes. I had resigned myself to the ~Gabriel dying of it all~ before the episode aired but as soon as I realized how they were killing him off, I was basically just checked out...

I know a lot of people liked the episode or could at least enjoy Rafa’s acting, even if they were sad about Gabriel dying, but I truly just wasn’t enjoying myself from a viewing perspective during any of the Gabriel/Carlos stuff going on. But that is fully a personal thing in regards to what I’m going to enjoy watching and I still liked other aspects to the finale for sure (I answered a whole ask about it here in fact - I'm not all negative over here y'all).

As far as this coming back up next season, it’s basically a guarantee, yeah. No matter how nice that scene with Owen was, there’s no way the writers are going to leave Gabriel’s murder unsolved forever. My prediction is the season might not start with that for Carlos, maybe it will focus on his decision re: detective, patrol, or ranger and then move into the Gabriel stuff mid season.

I genuinely am hoping that next season the writers can pull back on the dark storylines just a liiiiittle? My thoughts on this season as a whole are scattered, both positive and negative in parts, but I do think just overall there was a LOT of dark shit happening back to back. I enjoyed some of it but maybe a little more balance of lightheartedness in there would help. and then maybe some storylines that are serious but not... serial killers/family members murdered/black market organ harvesting level of serious?

#anon answered #negativity discourse all the bad words #911ls discussion #im so sorry this reply is so late (as evidenced by the 'last night' part of your ask lmao) #ive been working on an actual real life wedding i'm in (i was more excited for the tarlos wedding than the real one sooo idk what that says

[lesbuoyant]

everybodys all lets condemn people with Morally Impure Interests until all of a sudden you have an interest that is suddenly considered Impure and wanes in and out of Public Opinion for many years because nobody actually knows how to think for themselves online. personally i think we'd all be very lonely if we chose and broke friendships based on.... What Video Games They Like and like absolutely nothing else regarding the person's character

#like consider the fact that Steven Universe was considered Irredeemable Media 5 or so years ago #which sounds like me just bitching about the fact that ive been getting into pretty NOTABLY muddy media as of late (which is true) #but even when it comes down to it... #you start talking to people in real life and its like hey everyone has a voice and opinions outside of the media they consume #You know #and it doesnt just end there this is rlly why ive looped back to supporting self expression and supporting victims above all else #in supposed “darkfic” “proship” “discourse” #its just kinda like.. #well none of these things are cut-and-dry. there is context behind why people do anything that they do #social media exists to curate a limiting digital image of yourself therefore people make judgment calls based on very small parts #of your whole character #and this is why i deleted twitter #because its like an ocd torture simulator #anyways i know im being incredibly vague and i mean OBVIOUSLY there are always outliers ie actual literal propaganda art and all of that #im making a sweeping statement because this type of discourse has become so aimless that words dont even have meaning anymore #like we just need to destroy the whole thing and start over. #anyways i might delete this later its just on my mind #becuase of those maia crimew posts lol

[essercipertuttienonperse]

hate Tumblr bc for like 9 years of my life I thought I'd become a psychiatrist and then I started reading the anti-psych posts here and damn yall do have some points rip 😭

#not a discourse I'd ever seen anywhere else so that's why im blaming Tumblr im sure if i did one of those degrees #that make people intelligent i would have run into it lol #anyways #now i have to find another specialty damn ugh #too late to change my thesis but it's fine i hate the whole concept of thesis so it doesn't really matter #nothing matters anyways bc we're all going towards social and environmental collapse yuppie!

[auberginenikki]

worst thing about being late to the hype is when you excitedly look for fanworks online and have to go through so much 'x is bad actchually' or 'why x sucks and you're all dumb for liking it' like i just got here????

#i just finished tsoa and qo many ppl are shitting on it on the main tag????? #dont tag it you hate it omg im looking for fanart not ypur annoying opinion!!!! #i usual dont get fomo at all but getting there so late ppl are now hating the 'popular' thing is soooo annoying #i dont feel like keeping up with years of discourse #where are the other bitches who cried for half an hour after finishing the book

[halforcdad]

really saw someone call lucy immature and compare lucy not telling kate she was looking for a new apartment to lucy getting upset at kate for not telling her why she made the move from DIA to FBI (to point out the hypocrisy of not communicating) like what is context

#ncis hawaii #i hesitate to call the discussion around the sneak peek discourse and blow it out of proportion but y'all LMAO #not every slip-up in communication is a huge problem thats just real life i thought we wanted imperfect characters #comparing lucy getting upset bc of the big reveal that kate cared enough abt her to stay in hawaii and turn down a big promotion #after a looong day of compounding emotional turmoil and thinking kate was gonna die #does not really compare to lucy doing this and not telling kate #and lucy wasnt mad at kate for not telling her she was moving to fbi she was mad bc kates whole thing was keeping secrets #and not being upfront abt feelings and how much their relationship meant to her until it was too late #looking for a new apt probably is a thing you would normally tell your SO to be fair but like #this is obviously supposed to be a feel-good ep for kacy and i feel like some of the talk around it and esp lucy has not been in good faith #its just one sneak peek but fandom is all about over speculating and discussing and theorizing and i love that #but some ppl are a little too quick to dogpile on lucy always lol #i also dont think lucy masterminded that as her way of telling kate to get a reaction #bc she seemed genuine when she said is everything okay and pleasantly surprised when kate brought up how often shes over #like lucy probably thought this was all nbd just another thing i have to do and wasn't even thinking abt moving in but obv im speculation #might delete this later i didnt expect to get so spirited over the discussion #I was focusing on lucy saying her life is just work gym and kate like wow thank u for my life #communication is always a work in progress whether youve been together for 5 months or 50 yrs

[mcwhytubers]

oh thank god my comfort cc isn’t a shit guy-

#discourse #no details here but im just gonna tag it anyways #I’ve felt so sick and anxious about the entire traffictwt situation lately #/especially/ as a Scott factive #all of our scott introjects have been at least queasy about this all #I’m even still tempted to change my name

[oatbugs]

non-zero amount of swans and a non-zero amount of lakes.

#pretty pretty day #red leaves turning yellow the sun is so bright the breeze isnt too cold #i get to walk past all my friends houses on my way to a really cute study cafe . walk past a bubble tea place walk through tree lined #streets . sun against my friends window so i cant see if she could see me. today there was a double rainbow #in the sky from misty rain. so many squirrels and birds and rabbits and deer #i have a deadline soon and im massively behind bc im lucky enough to be able to do too much. need to #write an essay and do maths problem sets. smile + wave at ppl you know. last night i met a rly cute girl #and i dont think its gonna go anywhere but ill think abt her from time to time from now on #there is someone in front of me with bright blue hair. someone with their knuckles wrapped in bandages. two boys holding hands. #today people are dying but it is the 40th day of her death which means it is the 40th day of the revolution which is the 40th day of #not giving up. meanwhile the sun casts halos on a the wings of a magpie + a fresh pomegrante waits in the kitchen. #i have freshly cut watermelons in my fridge. there are so many flowers here. there are swans in the lakes. #my hair is a mess in the wind and forgetting a lot of things. my vision is declining and so i must remember the definition of leaves #before it's too late. one thing determinate from the other. #water reflects red. there are two girls feeding the birds. so many pretty people running into the same building. #youre cut from a different cloth. you especially are cut from silk. #you hate philosophy for its messy discourse and love maths for the clear consesus it produces. i only feel a little guilty #for laughing at that. last year two professors in functional analysis fought on blackboards until it became a team sport. a paper agains #a paper against. a paper against the paper for the against. on the walls for st joseph of cupertino we both pray for some mercy. offer up #some beautiful quantifier and i will drown inside it. break fresh chalk just for you.