#im so pissed off today

[ghosttownwherenoonegoes]

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#im so pissed off today #the wind is pissing me off bc it keeps making my braids go behind me and get stuck on my bagzips and ouch #work is pissing me off bc my work senior booked me for overtime without asking #uni is pissing me off bc i can't find the time for it and its my dream and im ruining it #I'm pissing myself off bc im annoyed and angry at everything today #im tryinf so hard not to snap at people but jesus christ i have had enough #i woke up angry and frustrated and im trying hard not to show it #and to keep doing what i gotta bc this whole situation with uni is my own fault #and also I'm angry bc i wanna write comfort but i have no time other than 10 mins here or there #im being eaten alive but theres no chance to bite back and hhhhhh fuck this im so done #says the woman doing it anyway🙃🙃🙃 #i want uncle wayne and eddie💔 #but also i dont bc i wouldn't want them to see me like this

[emzular]

the duffers: made billy an abuse victim

the fans: HE'S SO FUCKING HORRIBLE AND I HATE HIM

abuse victims: oh.

#billy hargrove #im so pissed off today

[sywene-06]

Okay girlboy whatever u say

#babaspeaks #im so pissed off today

[heungmins]

prem be like diversity! and it's different hair colours

#im so pissed off today

[sillybert]

I should kill someone with my bare hands ♡

#Im so pissed off today #Like everyone sucks lmao

[thedisablednaturalist]

Tw for weight loss mention

The whole exercise will cure your disability thing is a fucking joke. Yes exercise is beneficial for your health, but only if you aren't already on shaky foundations. You need to be on a treatment plan that WORKS before going into the maintenance phase. You wouldn't do regular maintenance on a broken item, you'd work on getting it up and running first. And maybe it would even need specialized maintenance afterwards if it's especially fragile.

I have fibromyalgia and acute degenerative disc disease. My immune system attacks my nerves and discs in my spine are slowly calcifying and causing the bones to constrict and damage my nerves (i think thats how it works). I have days where it feels like my body is on fire from nerve pain and days where it feels like my spine is about to rip from my back. And days where I have both (like today!). I get numbness in my hands and feet. I have horrible migraines. I can no longer walk unaided more than maybe 5 minutes without severe pain. I have something wrong with my knees and hips but the doctors don't know what yet.

You'd think I live an obviously seditary lifestyle correct?

Hell no.

I walk aided on average 6 miles a day over difficult terrain OUTSIDE of regular activity almost everyday. My legs are muscular and strong. I get my heart rate up and a good sweat, like all the gym rats swear on. I am often doing physical labor such as weeding, digging, sample collecting, pruning trees etc.

I'm not saying this to make other disabled people feel bad or prove that they can do anything if they just tried harder. This is an extremely painful lifestyle I've chosen that takes a lot of lifestyle management AND BOUNDARIES to keep up with the work. I also have an extremely forgiving boss who is also physically disabled and knows what I'm going through (deciding between your passion and your health and having to do so each and every day) No one should ever be expected to do what I do. I'm not even sure if I should be doing this myself.

This is to prove that exercise? Has not cured me. My muscles are strong but still hurt as if they're broken and I have to take more breaks than my coworker. I am constantly getting out of breath and I flare up regularly if I'm not careful. I am in excellent physical condition outside of my disabilities. I go to different doctors several times a month to get checked out.

I previously went through a diet program and lost a lot of weight (basically starving myself and got off my depression meds which cause weight gain but are also the only ones that work) and guess what? That didn't do shit either!!! I still felt horrible!!! I've since gained back the weight anyway after switching to focusing on adding more nutrient dense foods than taking stuff away from my diet (also muscle weighs more than fat, and fat helps cushion my aching joints and spine).

The muscle doesn't do shit for my disabilities outside of maybe some stability. Exercising everyday doesn't make the pain go away. Without my medications and aids and nutrition plans and steroid injections and spinal adjustments and physical therapy (that takes my fibro and spine into account) and alternative work methods I WOULD NOT BE ABLE TO DO WHAT I DO. Exercise alone is like trying to make a car run with no oil. Yes it'll go but it'll get more and more damaged till it can't and will need its entire engine replaced!

And yet I see new doctors and they look at me and the first thing out of their mouths is do I exercise? I should try doing a little every day :) and then i fucking blow their minds when I tell them about my job. No longer can they use that fucking cop out on me. I've been through this rodeo. Ive tried their suggestions. If you are in pain and nothing is helping? Exercise ain't going to do SHIT. You need to get to a point where you can move without severe pain first (if that's even possible). Then and only then should you consider implementing regular exercise if you can. Also weight loss talk is a red flag and a cop out. They made me lose 50+ lbs before they would look into the reasons behind my pain. Weight loss did nothing for me and exacerbated my pain.

I am living proof that all that shit is a lie and a cop out. That is the point of this post. I cannot believe people with serious medical conditions are being forced to put their bodies through extreme duress just to be believed. You are not disabled because of laziness or because you sit a lot. Plenty of people live seditary lifestyles and do not live in constant excruciating pain (they may develop disabilities later in life due to this however, and should be doing preventative exercises to maintain their health)

Please, share my story with doctors. Use me as an example. I am proof that "exercise first treat later" does not work. I should not have had to wait years to have my pain validated. I'd rather hundreds of fakers get (what? A blood test? An MRI?) than one chronically ill person get told to try yoga and go away by a doctor.

#wrenfea.exe #doctors and nurses dont fucking clown on this post #anything you say needs to be backed up by sources with apa citation thrown in for good measure #this is my personal experience dont tell me im exaggerating or just havent tried hard enough #i will kick you with my horse legs and then go lie down for 4 hours #bedbound people i am sending you so much love and will probably be joining you in a few years #chronic disability #chronic pain #spoonie #fibromyalgia #disability #chronic illness #from the field #physically disabled #this also applies to neurodivergent and mentally ill people but pls don't derail #this is mainly about physical disabilities #you are welcome to make your own post and reference mine if you want @ me and ill reblog it #sometimes im like oh i cant be disabled bc i do all this stuff im a faker inflatrating the community #and then i have days like today where i cannot leave my bed #i am so pissed off that people with long covid and ME have to go through that fucking exercise rehabilitation program #that actively makes their mitochondria worse #you wouldnt start using a vase without fixing the cracks first #the water will spill out and the flower will die #degenerative disc disease

[hiphopcherrrypop]

normal🧐??????

#idk why some says 6 days and some says 7 idk if theres some specific hour cutoff or what #this meltdown was all st the same time #but what is there shipname like actually 😭😭 #i dont tag them……no one tags them.... #snakeblade is what google translates it to for me on japanese tweets so idk 😭😭 #jabashiri nagare #hagure tatsuto #why i always scheduled to open on saturdays now #im in too deep i was refreshing ppl livetweetijg in japanese today😭😭😭😭 #i luv the ending song credit heart thing always but this one was for MEEEE SPEXIFICALLY 😆😆😆 #i had a visceral reaction to seeing screenshot #bucchigiri be lije what can arajin do to piss everyone off this week #can he get better next ep pleeeease i swear he just gets worse and worse #BOY IF U DONT ACT NORMAL!!!!! #i want to strangle him #he opens his mouth and my eyes rolls to the back of my head OHHH BROTHER!!!!! #bucchigiri?!

[theheightofdishonor]

I have a couple more shows on my watchlist and once that's done i think i'll be taking a (probably brief) break from asian dramas to focus on some of the other dozen watchlists i have (anime maybe? i might skip jojo and try daiya no ace again- we'll see though)

I'm hitting the 300 dramas mark soon (that's 300 completed mind you, not counting movies, and not counting things i've dropped) so i'll probably write something later in the year too reflecting on both the shows that've come out this year and the ones i've watched

For now i thought i'd jot down a couple notes about the currently airing shows i'm keeping up with since i haven't had time to do that in a while. I'll be doing this in the order I watch them in.

Middleman's Love- ngl I'm solely watching this for King and Uea. I know some of you like this show but the main couple just don't work for me and the side couple are only mildly more interesting. I'll keep watching it to the end but it's a skim watch.

Twins- A great example of how silly is fine when it's enjoyable. I fucking adore this show right now. This has volleyball in it and I'm a haikyuu!! fan before i'm a person so of course i was going to watch this show no matter how dumb it is but it's great. I'm having a blast. I like the family dynamics, I like Sprite, I like how they're committing to the 'slow' part of 'slow burn', I like all the stupid hijinks, I like that I can watch this show and be like "oh he's a Setter, like Kageyama!", I just like it. Poor First though, doing all this work of unlearning his hatred for Zee for no damn good reason.

My Dear Gangster Oppa- This one used to be first on my list but after the dumb breakup last week, it's dropped down. I hate the noble idiocy trope as @lurkingshan calls it. It's stupid, it's annoying and I don't think this week's episode made up for it. Shame really, I was quite enjoying this show at first. The chemistry's good and cliches are fine when they're enjoyable. If it wasn't ending next week, I would drop it.

Last Twilight- Saving the best for last because a) it's a heavier show with more to think about than any of the above and b) youtube's interface annoys me.Tbh I only started watching this in the hopes that it might rewrite my current reflex of wincing everytime I see Jimmy's face in a gifset but it's such an excellent show. Aof's directing and storytelling is excellent as usual and he really does deserve credit for how handles his actors. Watching JimmySea in this and then vv is like whiplash.

ps. Pit Babe- i'm not invested in keeping up with this show and my desire to do so depends on factors such as the amount of free time I have and how reluctant I am to use youtube to watch Last Twilight. It seems to have inklings of an interesting plot + obviously it's fandom history cuz of the a/b/o but the way they only half lean into the omegaverse aspects of it without explaining anything makes me wonder what people who aren't familiar with the concept of omegaverse think about this show and how they understand it. Like it has to be confusing without context, right? Mostly, i'm just watching for Nut Supanut and Nut Supanut only though it remains to be seen whether my affection for him will eventually be worn down by how annoying his character is. I swear, if it were played by anyone else or if I cared about the main characters to any extent, I'd find Way insufferable. But so far, i'm supporting all his wrongs. Especially when he looks so damn pretty doing it.

#middleman's love #my dear gangster oppa #last twilight the series #pit babe the series #twins the series #i;m not watching cooking crush #thai comedy isnt really my style and the only person id watch it for is nanon #cherry magic started today but i'll put it off til it either finishes airing or i find myself having some free time when gangster oppa ends #re: noble idiocy ive gotten to the point where it's a make or break tbh #like i havent seen a half decent execution of it in so long #the only sufferable examples off the top of my head #is in simr when phob leaves for like an hour and then ends up coming back #and word of honor where it has consequences #and zzs almost dies + gets genuinely pissed off about it #that whole scene was so cathartic tbh #ik there's over a dozen other currently airing shows but those im shoving off to binge #i only have so much free time lmao

[britneyshakespeare]

you know what i realized

is giving

#no im flattering myself #tales from diana #the top left is ned's drawing of me from years ago versus my self-portrait from this week #the bottom is lizzie siddal painted by dante gabriel rossetti compared to her self-portrait #my dad said 'you look angry' when he saw it lol #i am! you know me. pissed. mad. #ned knows how to make me look a pretty ingenue i must say #i do plan on drawing him soon to return the years-late favor. i wrote him poems but that was a different favor #any idiot can write poems. look at me! #anyway i must say im so happy to be drawing again. and my charcoal came in the mail today #50 pieces of vine charcoal. hallelujah #at michaels they'll charge you 5 bucks for three sticks. ridiculous #i wont say publicly how cheap i bought those 50 pieces or you ppl will never forgive me #but it's ok that should hold me off for quite awhile #but i still have a lot of catching up to do before i get to ned's level i must say. not that i anticipate it #im happy w my progress im a happy little clam

[spearxwind]

parents will literally blame insane shit on you

#im so fucking tired dude. i want to break something so bad rn holy shit #the gall they have to tell me i dont care about my future. just cause i dont think getting into another year of studies literally suddenly #like 'do it today because the time slot ends today and if you dont do it we're making u pack up ur house and move back with us' suddenly #cause if i dont do it i dont care enough abt my future #dude................. ive been working my ass off so hard the past few months???? #thunderclap #im not gonna go on a rant cause ill get even madder but god im fucking pissed. great way to start the day dude just so fucking cool forever #love this love this love this #im not even home im at my bfs house and havcing to deal with this shit and then later today i have more shit

[nyxwoven]

need good job hunting vibes y'all 🙏🙏🙏🙏

#my job is pissing me tf off so i started looking at new jobs #found one in social media for a local company that I'm more qualified for than the last place i had applied to #and considering how far i got with that place im hoping HOPING. i can get in with this place #it doesn't pay as well as the job i applied for this past fall but it pays more than my current job and it isnt fuckin customer service! #im working on my resume to submit today because I'm running on spite and anger rn

[dilfpassing]

In a perfect world I'd sit down and make art all day long but unfortunately I am afflicted with executive functioning issues and many mental illnesses which prevent me from using my leisure time productively

#i wasted basically my whole day today #i got a little done but nothing for ME #and then this week im BUSY doing shit i dont WANT to do #monday i stay an hour late at work and then have class an hour after that #and once im done class im so pissed off and theres no time to do anything worthwhile #then tuesday i have plans with my aunt that i cant miss bc its instructions for future pet sitting plans #wednesday i have free time but im going to spend it on commissions and then i have a yoga class in the evening #then thursday i have class again #RAAAHHH #friday i have plans too #and saturday #and sunday #i just want to draw #screaming and crying i have so many ideas but no drive or time to complete then

[trans-axolotl]

People saying that mad liberation started on tumblr (or is a recent thing in general) is so fucking funny lmao bc like. My first experience with mad liberation was learning of the history of the (former) asylum I live next to, which in the seventies got abolished and repurposed as a museum + theatre + art gallery and archive of the patients paintings throughout the years. Also like have these people ever listened to anarchopunk? Those bands love talking about how psychiatry is a capitalist tool since the 80s lol. If they think you're being too radical they should go listen to that and hopefully their brain will explode so they stop bothering you godbless

RIGHT like. i saw someone make that comment and i was like you will get shocked and amazed if you ever start talking to people about mad liberation irl. i was talking with some punk friends about mad lib stuff and they were telling me all this wild stuff they were doing twenty years ago and the amount of overlap between the local punk scene and mad lib organizing in their city and shit they were doing when they were literally 12. which was absolutely crazy.

anyway the repurposing of the hospital sounds really cool and i honestly love learning about mad liberation history so much, there's so much cool shit people have been doing for years and it's so important to learn about! mad pride started AGES ago like. the first bed push was years ago!!! long before tumblr. there's so many old patient newsletters, protests, etc that are really cool things to be able to see that we've been fighting for a long time.

whenever my posts leave my like. tumblr circle i guess. i always get a lot of comments from people who just seem to not realize that radical organizing exists and that there r just people doing anarchist and abolitionist organizing in our real lives and that most of our time is not spent talking about it online bc we're busy lmfao.

it annoys me but also it's like tumblr is a fraction of where my time and energy is spent and i just need to remind myself that a lot of annoying shit on here does not really matter that much.

#asks #hope u have a good day anon #mad liberation #i feel like i need to make it clearer in some of my posts that like. i am an anarchist!! i believe in prison and psych abolition!!! #i am not here to advocate for reforms that only work to increase the authority and power of carceral systems!!! #im so pissed off at everything today. having strep is making me annoyed

[rapidhighway]

Bitch im already having the most horrible day and someone put the plates in the wrong order in the fucking cabinet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#RRRRRAAAARAGAHAAJSJAJXJJSKWKS #im #i dont wnt to fix themmmmmm #but i cant fuckign stand it im xjsjnsmkskslklwlls #THEY ARE IN AN ORDER IM KILLING #im so overstimulated today the entire day and theres something pissing me off so bad rn but i cant do anything about it and uuurhrhfhrhejd #I NEED TO BE EXPLODED #AKAKDPAODKSKWOOSODPSPSPD

[nosleep83]

Listening to Soulja Boy and staring into space thinking about how I genuinely thought I wouldn’t come home from school today I ❤️ you America

#sleep vents #oddly specific there was a shooter at a park near my school today #and we all thought they were in the building so I thought i was gonna die!!!!! #honestly bro now im just so pissed off that in this country its not unusual for a kid to fear being shot while at school #btw no one was killed or anything its ok im jusy mad as helllllll #school shooting tw #gun tw #SORRY I FORGOT TO ADD THESE

[hella1975]

just full force threw a shoe at my sister's face and when my mum got me alone after she was like 'you shouldn't clobber her. but i get it' 😭

#it kicked off today but in my defence she's actually proper in the wrong this time even my DAD called her a bitch and my mum is FUMING #baso my sister came into my work with her mate when i was closing the other day and all the staff GLARED at them bc of aforementioned #close so i was being v chill so everyone 1) knew it was my sister and not some customer coming in late and 2) her friend wouldnt be uncomfy #like that's the real kicker her i was being extra laid back FOR her friend so he'd feel more at ease. and one thing about me is yes ive #said countless times i have a rural accent but my mum also raised me to know when and how to speak nice if need be bc people are cunts here #so when im waitressing i speak nicely bc it's a stuck up restaurant w stuck up customers but when im with my sister? making a point of #being laid back? my normal accent came through. and her mate when i was gone said i sounded 'really [from the county we live in]' #which WOULD NOT BE A COMPLIMENT. it's baso saying 'your sister sounds local and chavy' without using such explosive words #and my sister LET HIM SAY IT. SHE DIDNT DEFEND ME. and she told my mum about it later bc SHE THOUGHT SHE'D TELL ME OFF #LIKE SHE DID IT TO SNITCH. THERE WAS NO SCENARIO WHERE MY SISTER WASNT BEING A CUNT. and my mum hit the ROOF #one thing she's rlly been big on is loyalty bc it's always been the 3 of us so when she found out my sister let him say that she FLIPPED #and this all happened last night and i only found out this morning bc i overheard them screaming at each other and turns out my mum #tried to keep it from me bc she didnt want my feelings hurt and IM pissed bc it actually did hurt more than i thought it would #like i KNOW what people say about my accent but it's a guy i know? my sister's been friends w him for years? i was being nice? #it's EMBARRASSING like i was clueless & friendly and turned around for him to be like 'look at this stupid local girl' like?? #and my sister did NOTHING? it just sucks so i STORMED upstairs when i found out and had it out with my sister #and she knew she was fucked so she did all 'im not talking to you i have nothing to say' AND PUT HER EARPHONES IN? #the way i RIPPED them out. got in her face like okay girl u think i sound like a chav ill act like a chav lets GO #and it just got really aggressive and i wound up grabbing HER OWN SANDAL and full force hurling it at her face 😭 oops #from close range too like i was already in her face so i basically just smacked her with a sandal DSHGJKSH #now we're sat in silence bc alas we still share a room. WHAT the fuck. insane tbh but it's a bit funny. im so angry rn i could KILL #hella goes home