#im so sure i forgot SO MUCH SHIT

[dj-wayback]

What made you choose the name Slinky for Slinky? Did you just like the vibes?

Just kidding haahaha lol ….. i don’t get those ….. totally ….. She just told me

#no way back is here #ok funny story i named her slinky like in the first second and then immediately was like FUUUUUCK. IS THAT EVEN A WORD #DID I JUST MAKE THAT UP . WHAT IF IT MEANS SOMETHING BAD #i forgot what slinky actually meant. so i immediately edited the post and changed her name to some random shit #I DONT EVEN REMEMBER WHAT IT WAS!!! but im sure a few people got to see it. like 1 or 2 #and then like a minute later i went No u know what slinky just fits too much i’m sure it’s fine

[jinxofthecipher]

As someone who hasn't considered the ship of ichigo and byakuya in more than a "oh that'd be an interesting ship", getting to the whole fullbringer arc really made me interested.

Like Tsukishima is able to place himself in memories and shit, which he does with the important people Ichigo has in his life. And all these people, Ichigo's family, his close friends, and the girl who loves him, instantly turn on him when Ichigo attacks Tsukishima.

The people who care the most about Ichigo and trust him with their lives are unable to break out of the ability or even question it. Orihime and Chad do try and fight it near the end but even they don't manage it before being removed from the situation entirely.

Tsukishima does this too with Byakuya and yet, out of all Ichigo's friends and family, it's Byakuya who actually goes against the enemies ability and cuts him down because anyone who dares to hurt Ichigo, even if they're a friend, must be cut down. And he does this almost instantaneously, without mulling it over unlike Chad and Orihime who only started to question things later.

That's just. . . Very interesting that out of everyone, it was Byakuya who would do such a thing, especially since, up to this point, we've not seen a lot between him and Ichigo.

Anyway I can see why my friend was a bit obsessed with these two when she was reading the manga. I can certainly see the potential even more now than I did and I certainly did earlier.

#yeah yeah I'm late to the party. #i read bleach a long time ago and stopped before the fullbringer arc cause the manga wasn't done and I decided to wait till it was and then #promptly forgot about it till this year cause I've been in the middle of like 50 manga titles #bleach is still definitely up there in my top five favs though. I love it #this couple though is just so interesting. I wish they got more attention now that I'm seeing the possibilities #im sure someone will point out that it doesn't mean shit and byakuya is doing it for 'some other reason' but I don't care too much. #I just think it's an interesting difference between byakuya and Ichigo's family and friends #bleach #byakuya kuchiki #ichigo kurosaki #byaichi #fullbringer arc #tsukishima shukuro #don't mind me obsessing over bleach in my little corner. it's normal #especially since all we've seen with Ichigo and byakuya is their fight. no downtime or anything between em and byakuya has THIS reaction?? #kinda love it to be honest with ya #i think it's one of my favorite scenes from the arc now that I think about it. plus I've been obsessing over this entire scene for like a wk

[autumnfangirler]

So proud to finally introduce cyrus becker, supposed-to-be throwaway sidestep that unfortunately did Not stay throwaway and has instead invaded my brain permanently

Look at him. Cutthroat. Vicious. Efficient. My most ruthless sidestep and unafraid to kill, and with absolutely NO attachments to any of the rangers

anyway heres him kissing three different rangers on entirely seperate occasions, chronologically ordered

#ignore how the hands are literal rectangles in the ortega drawing #unfortunately #hands are the bane of my existence #on that same note #you could put a gun to my head and tell me to design a costume and i would sooner spit on you than do so #so the fact i attempted to for cyrus really shows how much i love this man #im so conflicted about cyrus' canon ending man #at first i was sure it would be puppetcrash #but then i found out you could make a romanced herald watch argent kiss a revealed sidestep #AND that a revealed cyrus ended up with herald as his nemesis #and suddenly i wasnt so sure #oh cyrus #i love making you eat shit #the question is will i let it stew or blow it all over in retri #edit: i was so busy dumping about cyrus i forgot to actually tag this #fhr #sidestep #cyrus becker #herald #ortega #lady argent #flystep #chargestep #argentstep #she illness on my mental till i draw

[dysfunctionaldogdude]

I feel like actually shit like the entirety of last week getting to me. I wish I could have a moment of actual relaxation and not just me forgetting I have shit to do.

(Tag warning-> depressing talk, dark topics)

Might delete this idk..

#vent post #tag rambles #I have over 60 different things to fill out that I need to do by tomorrow and I forgot to do them. I feel so stupid #I actually hate having adhd #people try to make it out to be just a quirky thing that its not that big of a deal or anything #but it's not #it impairs on relationships #I struggle to remember important things that I need to do and even WANT to do. I struggle so bad #I even have fights with people about me being a “liar” even though I'm not #I just have a shit ass memory I feel useless 90% of the time and shit #gods and I doubt it's just me having adhd. Im pretty sure its my possibility of having bpd and autism #i show all symptoms of bpd and I relate far too much with autism videos #like this is stuff active in my daily life #people don't see it often due to have carefully Ive crafted.. this is going to sound a bit fannibal of me but literally a person suit #i swear a person suit #it's not even funny #gods i just wish I could function without getting all up and arms about how much of a pos I feel #if I don't get attention from.. basically.. my fp I get all sad and melancholy. i spiral #I'm pretty sure I have at least three fps #if I even have bpd #but gods #just so stupid how I can barely fucking function without all of these crutches #I'm not in a certian program anymore for a thing and now I can't fuction and work how I use to since it was a slower environment #I'm failing #like I won't be able to make it I feel like #not suicide or anything #just in things I wanted to do #feels like my future is doomed cause life keeps throwing curve balls at me #someone with at least two mental disabilities #i definitely have more

[gifti3]

I forgot this (ex)companion existed

#the guy isnt in the lantern anymore so i kinda forgot about him #im finally reading “have you seen claudia?” #since they removed this guy it pretty much spoiled what happens with his character in the story #but...do yall remember the shit that happened when they released this story #omg #they made some very questionable decisions! #im pretty sure this guy was not a real person #but the other man was #and i think making him a companion was not smart #but yea... #this guy is cute but like having him in a story next to a person that was an actual real life serial killer... #it feels weird #if he was in a non real life inspired story i wouldnt feel off about his character #dutp #dress up time princess

[themyscirah]

This is technically a Diana's age poll but I framed it partially around Julia's rescue because that's the event I need to contextualize and whether or not Diana is a thing yet is p important for my purposes. I would keep the Pérez run and postcrisis continuity in mind when answering this bc that's when this is relevant but I'd keep in mind that even though Diana is very young there (like early 20s) we don't know I don't think if she ages differently as a child (esp as a themysciran AND being made from clay) and in some versions she is older than she looks and was made earlier

Edit: I accidentally logic-ed this out in the tags lol 🤦‍♀️but feel free to still vote however you want. Going to publish this anyway bc I think I made some good points later in my tags

#blah #the 45 years is a guesstimation of julias age w her being in her late 40s #bc she has a middle school aged daughter which would make you lean a bit younger but shes also highly respected prof at harvard (is she the #dept head? i think so. and has a career that would suggest older. and shes also drawn middle aged so 🤷‍♀️ #i would say late 40s early 50s for her honestly. but i moved it down a lil bit bc of vanessas age #wait shit i may have contradicted logic here bc wasnt the diana trevor stuff supposed to have happened before dianas birth. and that was #wwii. which would be btwn 42 and 45 years. BC PÉREZ!TREVOR IS OLD I FORGOT THAT #okay so actually there still could be a question of what happened first the timeline would just be much shorter #but then wouldnt julias family be boating during wwii? that makes no sense #im definitely thinkimg too hard about this probably. logically it would make the most sense if diana was like 20smth in reality. but thats #its own basket of worms honestly. like what do you mean hippolyta only had like 20 yrs w her daughter out of a lifespan of thousands of #years. what do you MEAN she became champion and ambassador so young like #like also thats the point though. she had to wear a mask in the challenge for a reason. her inexperience with men is what makes her the kind #of ambassador they need. and her youth and relation to hippolyta and role as the baby of the amazons is one of the things that makes her #ambassadorship SO important is bc she fulfills that role in an ancient sense. where it would be a sign of great trust and respect to send #someone close to the crown as an envoy bc it shows you mean business and arent going to reneg on whatever the deal is. bc if you do they #shoot the messenger #god anyways i very much answered my own question here in the tags like 100%. esp in regards to the pérez canon bc he very much laid this out #and i was trying to weasel my way out of it. only that didnt work and the decisions he made he made for a reason and they have huge #narrative importance. damn. okay then #i always write the shittiest posts and the best tags and then have to keep the post to keep the tags #i rlly need to make these tags posts ugh. anyways keeping this up bc of my tags abt diana and ambassadorship #also sidenote I LOVE HIPPOLYTA #just though id mention that. i love how much shes motivated by love and i also love when she makes fucked up decisions bc of that and has to #live with them. woman of all time FOR REALS #god this is making me want to reread historia again lol bc its the one ww comic i own. also its fire. and hippolyta gets to make shitty #decisions motivated by emotion and live w the consequences. and the comic is actually good unlike when that happened in the messner-loebs #run. which was the other instance of that ive read rlly. 10000% sure there are others but i havent fully gotten there yet. #i mean ive read other comics where she makes painful decisions thats like her whole deal but there are different vibes to those than the two #i mentioned. like the exile thing in ww year 1 or rlly anytime she has to send diana away

[palms-upturned]

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#meg talks #i forgot how much group projects make me want to become the joker #joined a strategic research group and 1) my research partner has done nothing and basically never says anything to me #2) the check in meetings w the other group members are always when i have work and nobody shares notes/takeaways #or like offers more than one check in time to accommodate scheduling #3) nobody has fucking LOOKED AT MY RESEARCHHHHH #horse staring out at the ocean.jpeg #someday i will actually get involved w organizers who know what they’re doing. someday. #ok that’s mean i think it’s important to do SOMETHING even if u don’t rlly know what ur doing or else how would you learn #i mean that’s exactly what im doing! i don’t know shit abt fuck and i joined this group to learn new practical skills #so it’s not their fault and im no better #but also jdsgsjdncj when it comes to the basics of like. actually organizing the resources we are currently gathering. #i feel like ‘’make sure you actually are communicating with everyone and looking at the research’’ is basic enough #that im allowed to be frustrated abt it #TALK TO MEEEEEEEE FUCKING HOLD A MEETING I CAN PARTICIPATE INNNNNNNN #ok im done. fkxhgzjxnc

[intertexts]

hm.

#how do i tell my sister that while i appreciate the thought it is in fact not nicer if she takes the couch occasionally and lets me have my #room sometimes. first of all i HATE disruptions like this it's kind of even more distressing 2 be able 2 sleep in #my own room for one night and then i can't again!!! that sucks net zero!!! second of all She Has My Quilt.... trying very hard 2 be normal #and chill about this and not like it's one of the few things i really really really hate other people using & causes me distress etc. #also like i explicitly said 'hey haha don't do this please' & then she did anyway. which she does!!! i forgot about that!!! #also like man i dont fucking want to sleep on someone's used sheets & blankets that's gross. so im arguably less cosy than i would be. gggh #this all seems like.... very minor and stupid im sure however man im like constantly in a state of middling to severe distress over this #shit. because i in fact also hate people going through my shit or being in my room and also having no privacy however #im very good with suppressing and or masking how much i hate it usually!!!!! but dude she fucking hung her laundry & underclothes #to dry or air on top of my fucking books on my shelves. like. ghghhh hate it hate it cant SAY i hate it because of the everything!!! #ok. sorry. minor pressure cooker escape valve complaining over now im gonna go sleep awkwardly on top of the blankets on my own bed with #some throw blankets. leaving my door open for the beafts if she closes it in the morning bc she thinks she knows what i want ill scream. #txt #neg #this is like private kvetching btw ok i love her dearly it's just unbelievably frustrating.

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

DANNY PHANTOM SHIP NAME INSANITY INCOMING

#WHITE AMETHYST IS SAM AND GREGOR. I FUCKING FORGOT GREGOR EXISTED BC I HATE THAT EP SO MUCH #i was even like. oh maybe its smth to do with the giw but no thats dumb BUT IT WAS. GODDAMN IT #family breakfast is. obvious. #THE FAKE ONE IS FUCKING. STOPPED TIME. #HELLO?!?!??!?!!? I THOUGHT FOR SURE SOMEONE WAS OUT THERE SHIPPING LIKE #CLOCKWORK AND THE OBSERVERS OR SOME SHIT. OR CLOCKWORK AND DAN. I DONT FUCKIGN KNOW #FUCKING RETRO MOVIE FAIRE IS POINDEXTER AND DORA. WHOS DOING THIS. #these are making me so insane #btw. fright knight/ghostwriter is nightmare before christmas and i think that one is VERY funny #CLOCKWORK AND DAN IS CALLED MEDDLING MINUTES. theres not a single ship with the observers. how is that possible. HOW is that possible #i fucking hate this fandom this house is a nightmare #IM GONNA FUCKING CRY THEY JUST KEEP GETTING WORSE #NEW ASK GAME SEND ME DANNY PHANTOM CHARACTERS AND ILL GIVE YOU THE MOST INSANE SHIP NAMES #IM CRYING. THIS IS MY ENRICHMENT

[kraviolis]

anyways i got sidetracked from what i was originally gonna post. now that im off my medication for the foreseeable future (with minor exceptions like whenever my mom shares their adderall with me) ive become more acutely aware than ever before exactly how genetically predisposed to addiction and substance abuse i really am

#krav talks #im actively craving alcohol at any time of the day #and only after i got drunk ONCE #the cravings arent severe but its more of like “man drinking would make me feel so much better rn a drink sounds so good” #sorta the same as basically craving like a donut or something #ive experienced this before with smoking when i was like 15 and stole a pack on my mom's cigarettes #i would have a smoke every morning when everyone was asleep but never developed a full addiction bcus i literally forgot where i put them #but that nicotine craving has never gone away #and ive kept a close eye on it since then bcus FUCK being addicted to nicotine that shit is so expensive #i literally cannot afford to be addicted to anything i can barely buy myself shampoo rn #but if someone offered me a cigarette.... yeah i'd take it #im doin the same thing with alcohol rn. well im being a little more indulgent #bcus alcohol isnt as cancer-inducing as smoking #and its more socially acceptable #but yknow. keeping an eye on it. being self-aware of my own habits. #last night i really wanted to drink but instead i had like 7 coffees so im all good #oh im 100% addicted to caffeine honestly #for a brief moment when i was 18 im pretty sure i was close to an adderall addiction #but then i stayed awake for 72 hours that one time and heard people whispering my name and thought my food was made of maggots & ants #so i cut that shit out for the most part. my brain functions & sleeping habits have never been the same since then :)

[poisonouspastels]

actually im kind of thinking abt how all the main players in the AU are probably way more mentally Not Great than it may appear at first

#like Alex is constantly worrying she isn't doing enough for her family and pushes herself way too hard physically and mentally bc of it #no one expects it out of her but she kind of just got herself into that mindset and ends up hurting herself by pushing too hard usually #(Rana is working with her to help break the habit) #Herobrine lived in caves for like 7 (I think. im too lazy to go check the rough timeline rn) years straight #like i already dont have to explain why thats bad on its own but hyperfixating on a dead civilization that long #to the point where you almost entirely forgot your first language is Worse. #he's had so many spider bites and eaten parts of spiders that he's literally just immune to the venom now #Rana you'd think would be better off since she's like the traditional happy cheery character but I guess that's also why she's Not #being happy is a choice to her. she's lived through some of the worst shit but she keeps persisting because the world needs more love in it #she's going to be happy out of spite despite all the odds and she wants to give that to others as much as she can #this girl walks in and out of the Nether every other month for potion ingredients like how 'okay' can she actually be really #Steve is probably like the most normal by comparison #but im not really sure how sane you can realistically qualify yourself to be when you've previously done DIY top surgery with a sword #that was not a fun day for neither Steve nor (pre transition) Rana but it worked! please dont do that again #no one else do it either neither of them would recommend it #he's not traumatized from that or anything but ill be damned if the gender dysphoria didnt win that day #but at the same time so did he. via the use of like 20 healing potions #thanks Rana #minecraft au mastertag

[1980ssunflower]

SCREAMS

#ot3: ❤rhyme💛easy💙 #tape entry circa 1980 #i forgot i didnt finish taking all possible screencaps from this ep and went back and WOO #dude aughh the color pallete for the end of this ep/ beginning of next ep is CRAZY its my favorite pallet for them in all the show #theyre scared during that scene tho so not ideal for gush posts but theres no way i wont use it lol #tbh im considering using one of those screencaps as my new header maybe #i just love the colors sm #BUT AAHHH IM SO SOFT FOR MY BABIES!!! #rewatching this ep i was reminded how much of a BASTARD min can truly be like JESUS min #my dude truly said some heartless shit to ryan like CALM DOWN #but i LOOOVE his line that acknowledges a HUGE thing for him #'so... waiting didnt work... you can mess up even if you stand still' #HIS ENTIRE THING IS STANDING STILL LIKE FREEZING UP AND BEING FROZEN IN MULTIPLE WAYS LIKE #AAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!! #i feel so BAD for ryan this ep for how shit he gets treated by min like MY BABY!!!!!!!! I WILL BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF MIN FOR YOU BABY #and on TOP of that min YELLS at ryan immediately after saving him from falling to his death GHJSK #MY MAN DOESNT EVEN GET A BREAK!!!!!!! #BUT AHHH SEEING HOW GENUINELY TERRIFIED RYAN WAS WHEN HE WAS SURE HE WAS ABT TO DIE LIKE!!!! #NGL RYANS VA WAS SOOO GOOD IN EXPRESSING JUST GENUINE TERROR IN HIS VOICE THAT SOUNDED PATHETIC EVEN #made my heart hurt ;;w;; #tbh this ep really shows mins character tbh esp towards the end when he realizes he was wrong... but also ends up not apologizing #even when he was abt to #hfdjsk he can be so grouchy and bitchy but so so sweet and fun and nice and GHDFSJK FUNNY TBH W HOW MUCH OF A SMUG ASSHOLE HE CAN BE #HES REALLY FUNNY WHEN HE GETS LIKE THAT TBH #AOUHHH BUT THEY LOOKS SO CUTE THIS EP I GOT SO MANY SCREENCAPS OF MIN #SOME VERY CUTE ONES BUT ALSO LOOOOTSSS OF HIM JUST YELLING AND BEING ABSOLUTELY PISSED OFF HFDSJK #anways kissing them kissing them KISSING THEMMM #MY SOULMATES MY BABIES MIS AMORES TE AMO TE AMOOOOO #my heart hurts thinking of them rn i want to pet ryans hair while he lays his head on my lap while playing guitar #want to feel min wrap his arms around me and bury his face in my neck while i cook us dinner

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#sometimes u just gotta have a cringe fail weekend. is what i tell myself bc i let the fact that i forgot to check my new #email completely obliterate me. also i haven't been sleeping enough. also just the normal thoughts in my head #by which i mean the part of my brain that demands consequences for inattention by means of suffering. devine punishment. #which is irrational and annoying but knowing that doesnt seem to help. so ive just been laying here in the hopes i come unspooled and start #to disintegrate. which is annoying bc ive got stuff to do #specifically bc i am supposed to b a TA this semester. which is what i figured but also feared #so. thats gonna b a lot. tho not as much as my old school bc they dont make TAs do literally everything here apparently #but. itll b a lot. and also i have to finish signing up for classes. bc i didnt do that back in April by my brain was melting. also i have #to keep doing my job and dealing with my data. ugh. well. being a TA isnt so bad. i do like to help ppl learn even if im not very good at it #like. i struggle with thr talking to ppl part. like the transition of ny thoughts to something thst makes sense #oh well. hope i end up teaching something im not too unqualified for. i could do soils. Ecology. uhhh. maybe intro bio but i never even took #university level biology. i just skipped upper level courses. that's probably it. anything else would b a lotta faking it #ugh. im tired. i should go to sleep at 9pm. thr sun hasbt even set and i should sleep #tomorrow i have to get my shit together. but also i wanna email my new professor like hey bro like what do u want me to do??? #like how do i start in this lab? when do we start talking. like just not to b pushy but whats thr procedure? #i like Structure but also its like weeks until the semester starts so we got time. im just a lil nuts #jesus. its gonna b an interesting semester. hopefully fun but uh it is sorta like taking a boat out when u can see big ominous clouds #like im sure ill b fine but also i might get dumped over into a watery grave. i just. i have a lot of papers to write #and its gonna b hard to b a student on top of that. partly bc what im gonna b doing now is almost completely unrelated #which is probably y ppl stick to the same track they stsrt on. that awkward moment when ppl ask u if ur gonna keep working with bi0crust #and ur like uhhhh no fuck that actually the work ive done in the past 4 years makes me hate myself✌️ #so we r back at square 1. well not 1 bc its sorta related but its a pretty big reset #itll b fine once things start. its just thr anticipation that kills me #unrelated

[lecliss]

Controversial opinion I'm sure, but I really don't like the way Yuki Kaji sounds while singing in Kuro's voice. Like I get being in character is the point of a character song, but like. It don't sound good 😶

#im actually kinda not a fan of h1ro sh1mono singing either. i can only listen to misono in his and mikuni's song. #i cant even listen to not fragile love. i do NOT like that song and i am SO sorry to lily for that. #all the sloth p@ir songs are mid at best too and i feel so bad for that cuz i used to LOVE crossing world and mahiru/takuma does #such a good job #tbh the whole collection really only shines with murase and suzuki. and as much as i LOVE kakihara. hes only in. one song right??? #wait. i forgot matsuoka. but hes literally only in uninvited which is also a shame. #and even tho i dont like him. sakuya should have gotten a character song. it actually feels wrong that he didnt #BY THE WAY. SINCE NICCO GOT A VA WHERE IS THE GLUTTONY P@IR SONG????? #WHY DID THEY STOP DOING SONGS??? MAKE MORE!!! #THERE ARE SOME REAL GEMS HERE IM SURE WE COULD GET ANOTHER ONE OR TWO #I WANT SUWABE SINGING!!!! IVE ALREADY HEARD HIM AS GR1MMJ0W!!! HES GOOD AT IT!!! #wait. actually what i wanted to say was if you want more tsubaki songs then listen to old codex cuz holy shit mr. suzuki sir. #i will shill the fuck out of old codex. im so glad i gave his band a chance cuz deal with is a little too metal for me but not all their #stuff is like that and some of it makes me feel SO emotional #personal

[bobzora]

taking a break from my 1 playthru bc im SO tired of walkthroughs to play portable because i've already beat fes so i know what im doing prettyyy much. girlie time ^_^

#bobtalk #p3pposting #<-lol #pink UI!!!!!! also i picked theo even though liz is literally my girlbestie 10/10 attendant for new content (sad!)hes ok ig #point n click is. weird. but honestly walking around wasnt that big a deal (i kind of missed some stuff for a long time bc i didnt know i c #uld walk there in FES lol). the only big things im missing are the animated cutscenes (really cool artstyle) and being able to see ppl move #like. imagine not being able to watch liz go down the slide standing up. hashtag sad! #i forgot how much i liked 3. its nice seeing (yukari) my (yukari) friends (yukari) again (yukari) #ough. i should make an amv (using the movies probs even tho i love the game cutscenes just bc. more footage. sigh) #WAIT HOLY SHIT nobodys done a die young amv yet???????????? really??????? i need to corner this market #also. noticing a correlation between hair color and canonically bisexual protagonists (its the brown hair) (is the trinitysoulguy bisexua #its gonna be so long until we get aigis:( i miss her. i miss my computer wife #my social stats in fes were so trash that i was barely able to get very far at all in yukari's SL. i need to make sure to avoid that proble #anyways. i think i like these video games some amount. good bye

[ff2-soda-pop]

i feel like the stuff with lloyd and garmadon is really complicated and i looked in the tags for a couple minutes and i keep seeing people being like. making it like one extreme end of a situation or the other and tbh i dont like or get it-

#like. idk how to make this make sense but like... i feel like given how the show has gone there isnt a way to make this either 'garmadon is #terrible and stuff' or 'lloyd is terrible and stuff'?? like theres just so much to like everything that happens #and i keep seeing people trying to go Entirely one way or the other and i just dont think it works well here?? #like garmadon fucked up with being not there a lot in lloyds life and then. whatever the fuck s8-10 was. but at the same time theres stuff #like the snake (forgot the name) venom and harumi bringing back Just the evil parts to take into account for too? which like it doesnt make #it less Bad but also i think when we have stuff like how he was in s3-4 and like how much he was trying to keep lloyd out of harms way in #like s1-2 i cant agree with the idea that hes like Entirely bad or a terrible parent?? like theres a lot going on here #and then with lloyd hes like. a traumatized kid with abandonment issues. i dont blame him At All for how he reacted in crystalized and #stuff. like again traumatized kid with abandonment issues and also tbh it really feels in this show like every damn time he starts to work #through an issue or something bad that happened the show throws a New thing at him or just brings up the Old stuff again so hes like #constantly never getting a break. and so OF COURSE he reacts negatively to garmadon showing up when last several interactions were well.... #yknow. s8-10. and then plus theres stuff like 'his dad literally died and then got revived and that whole situation was upsetting in #general for lloyd' (which like. it was like 2ish seasons between 5&8 im not sure if he even would've fully dealt with what happened in #that time frame? could be wrong but still) and just tldr hes not react well to this #(also i have a lot of thoughts on lloyd i could go on about him forever) #but also like i dont think he like.... doesnt care about garmadon?? like i dont think he like Hates Him or anything?? like he clearly doesn #feel as positively as he did Before but like i dont think he Hates him?? if any of that made sense #and then theres shit like the green ninja prophecy and the way its like destiny itself wants lloyd and his family members to just #Fucking Suffer all the time and just- idk i just think its really complicated and trying to simplify it down to like. 'garmadon is terrible #or 'lloyd hates him' or 'garmadon didnt do anything wrong here' or 'lloyd is being too mean' just. doesnt work well here?? #though also i do like to think that after the show they're able to work on things and maybe be on good terms again?? idk the show ended on #a positive note and i just want them to be okay again - im very invested in these two if you cant tell - and i just feel like theres #potential for that there yknow?? but like it'd take work and i cant say that there isnt Issues Going On that HAVE to be worked through #because there ARE #.....ok i went on much longer of a tag rant than i expected i need to shut up now #ninjago spoilers