#im still proud of what ive done!

[caramelmochacrow]

happy birthday chu2!!!!!!! (she is on a cute date w pareo hehe!)

#crow's scribbles #bang dream #bandori #chiyu tamade #reona nyubara #parechu #i had to simplfy this bc school plus my sickness did not help lol #i still think i did cute tho! #their outfits are from the kirafes pareo card yeah #i love that card a lot.... #idk if i got it but im very sure i dont lmao #i wanted a cute thing to match the ras ones but yeah my sickness did not help...... #im still proud of what ive done! #im gonna make sure touko and aya's are better though!! #buuut let's ignore them for now and say our wishes to chu2!!!!!

[autism-corner]

an ode to what could have been o7

#rip rootin tootin guy.... you will be missed in canon but not in my heart <3 #ikik it still COULD be blade but... cmon. thats fucking dante if ive ever seen him. #also. thank you enstars cowboy man madara for the excelent pose/base o77 could not have done it without you =w=b #dude its just..... he deserves cowboy boots i think. and a gun. #and many ear piercings. but thats a given. #also sorry for not showing his gem :( #googling 'cowboy drawing references' gave boring results so i had to stick to what i knew.... #im actually really proud of this he looks so happy <3 #rootin tootin guy...... #sillyposting #my work #nu carnival #nu: carnival #nu carnival blade #blade nu carnival #YIPPEEE #augh its been a bit since i drew something. like a month or so. #its nice to be back #augh #btw yes i gave the cowboy jorts. i fucking love jorts.

[alonetogether]

cosmo, wanda, i wish for the old men to be happy

#hilson #house md #i do not like this much BUT ive never done a sequence fanart before so yknow what im still proud of myself #my art

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

and so begins the making of christmas presents

#its the mooooost stree-essful tiiiimeeee of the yeaaarrrrrrrr #ive found good small projects that will suffice #thankfully i only have five people to crochet for! #and my grampas lap blanket is mostly done! #im keeping it shrimple <3 #man crocheting has made christmas so much easier #less expensive less stressful. still stressful but at least i dont have to find something to buy #plus handmade things have the added factor of 'i made this with my own two hands. it took time' #so people are more inclined to like what you made them no matter how simple it is! #an 'i made this for you' automatically holds more weight than 'i bought this for you' #absolutely unprompted #im actually excited to make some of these! new stuff to try! #and ofc ill be proud of what i make which is always fun. the delight of making things for people... and them Receiving it... yes.... #its like making a cake for someone but more permanent #my stepdad's getting a stocking for the dog he wants #for his - and i quote - lovey cuddle buddy #i expect that on christmas morn next year the stocking will be full of dog treats and a kong ball #my mother is getting a bandana in bright colors that suit nothing she wears #since she's keeping her hair long again. also shes insecure about gray hairs so yk fine here's somethin to cover them up with #and my two homies... my breadslices... well! i shant say! #well. one of them knows what theyre getting but hush lets pretend you dont. bc i know youre reading this rn

[employee052]

TSP x EMESIS BLUE

Why? Idk. why not combine two hyperfixations into one aksjdkjdfh

TW // BLOOD

#artswin #tw blood #cw blood #tsp #tspud #the stanley parable #the stanley parable ultra deluxe #emesis blue #tsp narrator #tspud narrator #tsp 432 #tspud 432 #there WAS gonna be a third piece with stanley as scout but like #it had chess pieces and i dont have the patience for that atm #anyways hello yall ive been in tf2 brainrot recently #lowkey terrible time for it given whats happening with valve but i love the mercs sm #im still into tsp im just brainrotting on medic aksjdh #not really proud of these but eh its done #stanley parable #blood

[dimension20stuff]

I feel like I've grown so much as a person the past couple years but not in like...quantifiable ways. I am very proud of myself.

#its little things #ive done a little more introspection about what i like and why i like it and tried to apply that to other areas of my life #and ive started actively working on embracing feeling uncomfortable and doing things that make me anxious anyways #feel like ive become a Human Person rather than an abandoned building #im very very proud of me. i hope the progress continues #this post brought to you by: me #saw that post thats like “you ever get surprised by your own reoccurring issue” and realize no! #ive actually taken big steps to confront my reoccurring issue (preferring the devil that i know rather trying something different/scary)!!! #shes still there. its still easy to stay in a familiar sadness. but im reaching for hope so hard! and ive almost caught it!

[astros-arts-inthestars]

I've worked on this for literal hours instead of my graduation cards because I would do anything for Aubrey Omori. Anyways

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUBREY OMORI!!!

I spent WAY too much time on this which. Ya know. Tracks when it comes to me because... well. Yeah.

Anyways I adore her so so much. She's amazing. She is literally amazing I would say so much more if I wasn't trying to be nORMAL

#omori #omori aubrey #aubrey omori #i really DO feel bad that i worked like. ....11 HOURS??????? NO WAY WHAT #IT WAS 11 HOURS??? WHAT???? I STAETED THE SKETCH AT 10 AM #well to be fair i stopped doodling when class ended at 12 and took a one hour nap where i woke up at 2 #....BUT STILL????? #like that . im so sorry to the other characters i've basically done nothing for this year?? IM SO SORRY??? #but like... . . . aube r y .. .. . #....one pro of making art that you put a ridiculous amount of effort into is- #when you look back at it it just.. LOOKS SO GOOD. like. my god the whole time i was stressing about posting this on time but #looking at it now im just GRINNING goddd.... im so proud because its AUBREY LOOK AT HER.... i adore her. #this goes for other shit ive done too OBVI i am like the king of overzealous art #which is a good thing i guess... #...........there's. another version of this art that. i'm gonna post. .. somewhere else. actually. #hold on. #star art #ren's blorbos

[iloveyouitisruiningmylife]

i just came out to a real life person and i think im having a heart attack

#IT WAS SO UNPLANNED I HADN'T THOUGHT ABOUT IT AT ALL I DIDN'T EVWN THINK WE WERW FRIENDS?? #she lives in the building next to mine and we go to tui together to divide the auto fare and we've been walking home 2-3 dino se #and she likes kpop and kdramas #but like there isn't that Spark yk like oh ny god i love u best friends forever its a little awkward and formal still #but we were talking about something and oh my god #when we reached home we were standing uski building ke neeche and she was like i want to introduce you to my childhood bestie i think you #two will like each other #and i was like kinda weirded out like um are we that close yet i thought we were just classmates 😭😭 #so i asked ki oh why all of a sudden #and she's like 'i like you' and i look at her and laugh and she said STOP LAUGHING i don't meant it like that im straight ok #and idk something in me snapped i was like oh are u homophobic too? #but pls she didn't know what it meant 😭 so i explained ki do u hate gay people then #she said no no ofc not SO I JUST BLURTED OUT KI good cause im bisexual #THE SHOCK ON HER FACE OMG im saying this now in freaking out now but at that time i said it really coolly and proudly without fumbling #my voice didn't drop down to a low volume or waver or anything (which im so proud bc she's like the first irl person ive come out to face #to face??????? i mean obv childhood friends don't count they're all gay #but anyway she was like OH and then SHE FUMBLED she was like oh nice i respect u very much and it was so awkward i was like haan haan shut #up just don't tell anyone very few ppl know 😭and she wasn't done she was like so as i was saying #we're growing old and real good friendships are getting harder to find and i like you (stop laughing!!) and i hope we don't jinx it #and she literally touched a wooden table lying there and said touchwood???? 😭😭😭😭😭 #now i am thinking why did i tell her she's so extroverted she talks to everyone we go to the same tui this town is tiny #she could tell everyone my parents could find out #but also a part of me is relieved cause im so sick of hiding something that is such a small yet imp part of me #and if she tells everyone then cool maybe there'll be more queer people i can't ve the only queer person in this town and we could be #friends and my parents eh they'd never believe something like that they'll ask me if it's true and ill say nah just rumors dumb kids #and they'll believe me because they'll want to believe me so bad #so no harm #i still don't feel very bestfriendy with her but maybe my standards are too high 😭 idk ig i can't see myself being friends with her #for a long time if we weren't forced by circumstances and i don't like her that much but im happy i got to say it #literally said it omg 'kyunki main hu. bisexual' FUCK THAT FELT GOOD

[insert-neologism]

bad astrology by flower face

#yellowjackets #jackieshauna #ITS DONE OMG ITS FINISHED #what do I do now. with my life (ranking) #also ive decided i am gonna do literary analysis. on all of em #literally i have NO idea if anyone cares. well. i do bc I care and tbh that's enough to me #<- guys look im living so healthy #anyways this was a blast #hope somebody has at least discovered flower face trhu me bc its one of my fav artists #mitos incredible life #mine art tag #also im sorry the like long scenes 3 and 4 arent on beat :/ i love that song but it has so long instrumental stuff and idk what to do there #ALSO!! i had it all planned out like at least half in my docs (like always) #and then in the middle i was like 'omg what if I only show jackie-after-the-argument and shauna-after-jackies-dead' #(excluding the argument and the flashbacks (they used to hear us thru the floor)) #which was. restricting. very much #also meaning was changed (originally wanted jackie to have the line 'idc if ure not made for me' but the only scene i could think of was th #ure hungry for and that was the next scene already so.) #anyways this was originally gonna be lottienat before i started with The Shark In Your Water #bc I thiught it fit them SO well. (still do) but now I like have to get away from the jackieshauna thought and then ill do the lottienat #probably #omg also I want everyone (who has read this far. whoever would do that) to know i was running on like 25 screen #recordings and 3 jackieshauna scene packs form yt #that's why. I dknt have that many clips alright im not using like 10 scenes over n over on purpose #gotta go but im gonna make a wrap post thingy once im back slay #no actually I get like average 7 notes (<- that's a lie Idk bc I didnt count) but im proud of myself this is amazing #ive wanted to do smth similiar alr #but it was some album by alec benjamin and a different thing for every song (like a poem‚ a painting or a play) #but I lost motivation this is the first thing that i actually pulled though all the way I think #jackieshauna: The Shark In Your Water

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

it's been 84 years but ive finished my thasmissy fic

heres the link:

and heres the video i made for it a year ago:

#aaaaaaaa it's done #it's my first story of this length it's like three times as long as my longest story so far i think #so naturally i have a lot to pick on. 'didnt do this well enough. theres an issue here i dont know how to fix' etc #but im still proud that i made it. even if it's very juvenile #in subject and perspective and form and execution #thats alright bc like. IM juvenile #im young and my art is very young #thats alright im allowed to be young and not yet very good at things #there was still value in making this. for me #you have to make bad art #ive internalised what that means now i think #and if nothing else ive almost tripled the total thasmissy word count on ao3 i believe gkhjhgj #that must count for something right

[aqqleshiqqing-archive]

HI EVERYONE monday and tuesday are going to be my exam days so once those are over I'll be back to being active here and continue working on everyone's commissions 💚 this is just an announcement to keep everyone posted~ I'll respond to any unreplied messages soon, just give me time!

also, happy birthday to my fellow october celebrants! i'm aware that there's a lot of october mutuals here but i don't want to contact everyone to greet them especially if it's late so here's a generalized one 🎂 cheers to more years to come!

#admittedly it was very stressful this week and figured i'd shut down my activity on tumblr and avoid browsing excessively (it worked!) #we had a LOOT of performance tasks to do and it was all before exams which made it all the more panic inducing - but they're all done now! #i'm very excited about the new hypno's lullaby update now that its back in development (mostly fleshing out what was missing in v2!) #so I'll most probably be actively talking about it~ me and my friends are very excited! it's honestly like we manifested for it #it's such a coincidence no joke! i already had started rbing old posts about redemme and this happens its so... whoa #so so excited. though i honestly never left this fandom even if i started focusing on SM red and Steven!! #their songs are still actively playing on my phone so i never left it.... aheheh #I will most probably stop doing repostober just in case school will become hectic after exams - but its been super fun to share :] #well that's enough babbling! ill see you all possibly on wednesday or thursday <3 #im also gonna watch the digital circus soon im so proud to see how far gooseworx has gone <3 #ive been a long time fan of her songsss #~ rambling

[silverislander]

people smarter than me have said this before but jesus christ why does every job seem to require at least a year of experience and a degree in some hyperspecific field. where did the entry level positions go? how am i even supposed to get experience if none of yall will give me a job without it?

#theres already almost nothing related to my field being offered but even the unrelated things that i think i could try are out bc of this #most of the stuff id actually care abt doing actually require 3-5+yrs! in a field that i cant get into without experience i cant get! #and people talk abt how 'nobody wants to work' i am BEGGING you for a job. literally begging (cover letters). #im coming to the horrifying realization that its possible Nothing i have done w my entire life matters. i have nothing useful #i really feel like i made a mistake. that cant be the best five years of my life i wasnt even happy during most of them #i applied to six jobs weeks ago and ive heard back from one of them and it was a rejection. and theres nothing else to apply to #my degree isnt helping and all of my hobbies are useless. why am i only good at/passionate abt arts. why not math or smth instead #i should have just done ece like i was planning to instead of my honours. what was even the point #and im watching other people in my year get great jobs right out of university. watching my BROTHER get offered work on a silver platter #hes 19 and got five different offers + didnt apply people just asked him to work for them. second year in a row this has happened #hes never had to work for minimum wage. hes always had a good job in his field lined up anytime he wants to work and it always pays well #and i finished five years and ive had to beg for everything ive ever gotten and its still not enough to count for anything #im proud of him but fuck it stings a little #levi.txt #vent tw #oh right i forgot i should just walk in and shake the managers hand. /right/. and they will simply give me a job on the spot bc of this #if people whove been working the same job since before 1990 dont fucking stop giving me bad advice istfg #and these same people say nepotism isnt real and in the same breath talk abt giving their nephew a summer job at their company #literally all i want is work i can be decent at that i care abt and making a living wage. it doesnt have to be fun i dont want to be rich #i just want to do an ok job feel like my work matters and make enough to start my life. thats all

[louthelost]

O brave tarnished, O weary tarnished

Got gifted Elden Ring and have gotten way too into it, so here's my tarnished

progress shots under the cut

#elden ring #elden ring tarnished #elden ring fanart #elden ring art #tarnished #illustration #(yes I was still wearing the starting vagabond armour but with the addition of godrick knight greaves I picked up) #(I'm much further along now and this is basically what I'm still wearing) #(though I'm now rocking the Lordsworn Greatsword and the blue-gold kite shield which is just Gorgeous) #(Im like super proud of this piece. basically the first time Ive done a full background and illustration that I think turned out real well) #(it had SO many layers and I used SO many brushes. I'm a five layer one brush kinda guy normally so this was brutal. couldn't find ANYTHING #also i've said it before and i'll say it again: #average artist enjoys drawing armour: factoid actually just statistical error. #average artist fucking hates drawing armour. #artist LouTheLost who fucking loves drawing armour and would do it every day if possible is an outlier adn should not have been counted

[orcelito]

The drive for chapter 12 has not abated

As soon as I am able I'm gonna be finishing that shit TODAY. So long as nothing truly catastrophic happens, then I should be able to post tonight

#speculation nation #itnl shit #not promising anything bc ive had some shit ass luck today #but. it Should happen. i want it to. #i have like 17 comments to reply to too on the last chapter hfkshfhshxkdbxkdb #which im gonna do Before i post the next chapter #it's honestly Wild how many comments ive been getting. the comment to kudos ratio is INSANE #might not be widely known yet but those that do know it Love it #anyways im pretty damn proud of what ive got going for chapter 12. #it's the first one where i feel like ive really gotten to display my writing skills. aside from chapter 1 I Guess #but even then chapter 1 was mostly experimental. you know what's Actually harder? writing Action. #coming up with action beats that are actually fun and exciting and then following through with prose #and word choice and sentence structure matters Even More than usual. bc those can directly affect the motion of the words themselves #thus affecting the perception of the actions being described #shit like that! it takes some practice and skill to do that & make it interesting #and i cant say im perfect at it. but im still pretty proud of what ive gotten done #and i am VERY excited to show it to u guys heheh

[ceramicfiles]

I still can't believe I made these...

#ceramics #art #my art #ceramic #pottery #its just insane that i reached a point where im extremely proud of myself and what i made #this was from two years ago and at that point i hadnt done anything in 3 years and i still got to this point in a few months and i just #felt so good. i honestly consider these the best things ive made (besides my little dinos which are my first love lol) #forgive the background....

[natandacat]

Gonna take a second to be proud of myself for not only acing my classes, but also doing a great job at my internship (to the point where it's giving me enough leeway to advocate for myself as a trans student), continuing to be involved at my volunteer position (and doing advocacy for disability and also trying to start a conversation on race), working on redesigning an entire class (so much work left to do before January but it's worth the hours), starting a fun ttrpg campaign with my friends as a DM and coming up with an entire homebrew setting & story, all the while being disabled as fuck.

#and i still try to be politically involved via coaching and supporting the friend who replaced me at the student association #and whos getting all the bs thrown her way #she is so much braver than me #im usually scared to highlight my successes like this bc of what happened in 2018 #but this is more stable #i made active choices to leave situations that i thought were too risky or not rewarding enough #im better at being reliable and i can work consistently because i let myself rest now #its scary! but even if things dont work out im still proud of whats been done so far #it was my birthday yesterday and you know what #ive done well #my 20s have been a mess but things are falling in place #nothing ive done was for nothing #and nothing i do now will be for nothing #every single small action matters