#im tired of all yall already

[boxdstars]

Only in the HL fandom would the take that “all the companions could be bisexual at the very least” would be a hot take but here we are

#IM YAPPING AGAIN GRAHHHHHHHHHH #have you guys considered that the mc is not by default a woman #all the so called ‘tension’ between seb and the mc #‘exists’ regardless of what your mc looks or acts like #though i don’t believe it really exists outside of shipping goggles #that’s okay though! people can do whatever they want! #it’s just weird for yall to be like ‘ominis and sebastian are straight!!’ and be obnoxious about it when we on the gay website #yall alienating the few gays in this fandom already it’s weirdo behavior #boxd chitchat #also shout out to the tired aro and ace folks in this fandom cause yall are troopers

[squeakadeeks]

moodboard for this past week ❤️

#they should invent a grad school thats not fucking insane #i'm hanging in there but im the most unwell i've been in AWhile #this week was just horrible #there was already the freezer food incident but it also started off with a very severe pain episode thats putting me in constant woe #even mundane motion has been agonizing which is McAwesome bc we had a lab inspection which involved moving hundreds of pounds of equipment #during which we found a blackwidow and rats which we had to deal with and was a whole thing psychologically on top of the physical toll #the new class fiasco is still popping off and i had to respond to at this point over 400 emails in the fleeting moments outside of lab #AND A STUDENT TRIED TO FINANCIALLY BRIBE THEIR WAY INTO THE CLASS ? ?? ?? ????? #then the instructor wanted to use me as a guinea pig and i had to test new circuit boards but I wasnt given any time to do so properly #i had to test them plus get them operational and deal with my incoming students all in a frantic 10 minute window #im in charge of running our meetings too but the instructor was interrupting and having side conversations that made it really hard- #to train the other people on the new equipment in a smooth manner #which meant that a bunch of people had to keep me after to ask questions which made me late for my drs appointment #where i found out i cant get the new covid vaccine bc my heart and blood levels arnt stable enough #and joanns lost an expensive+critical fabric order of mine+i had to give a big presentation this week on my research that was stressful #and my inbox is still blowing up from being needed all over the place between teaching lab and classes and yall i am. so so tired. #im in so much pain and so stressed out #debating the ethics of turning into a pile of lint to escape my responsibilities and mortal frame

[b1mbodoll]

repeating “jealousy is a disease get well soon bitch” in my head every time i block rude anons and delete hatemail so i can try to brush it off but i am not ur strongest soldier so can you all stop being mean 🩷 please

#♡.gabi barks #im okay i prommy (im crying rn) #like omg seriously what did i do!!!!! i dont do anything but mind my fucking business!!!! and talk to my precious little friends!!!!!! but #apparently i cant even do that bc no matter what i always get meanies in my inbox 🤞 #like im seriously not doing anything i just came back and im already receiving asks telling me to kms and deactivate like do yall realize #im a person too.. like im literally real and i have feelings and im not a complete ditz #like what is so hard about treating people with kindness!!!! #ive spent all morning blocking mean anons and deleting asks and trying to brush off the mean words i see and receive and it hurts!!!! #im just a girl #if u send hate or tslk meanly to or about me im assuming ur a LEWSER and have no life bc i dont even do anything fr!!!!! im coolin!!!!! #i was gonna post this with the jealousy is a disease get well soon girl meme but i couldnt find it #anyway im fine!!!! (as im actively texting my therapist) #no bc im so upset and so angry WHAT AM I DOING WRONG #what am i doing to deserve this like please give me a valid answer so i can fix it im so tired of being sad and mistreated and bullied :( #i know i promised i was gna try to be more active but my little heart is so heavy and sad

[spider-man-2o99]

ok i’m still On Break do not take this post as a sign that i’m like. Actively Tumblring again yet because i’m still not, 4 the most part, but i have had my ear to the ground for special interest things, of fuckign course, of course, bcuz i’m me, and i. just. i am .i’m so fucking sorry to all the new SM2099 comic fans who are only just now realizing just now how dire the straits are, here, LMAO. it has been this way for Years. earnestly and from the bottom of my heart i love spider-man 2099 so much and also nobody on the goddamn planet Cares About Him At All or can even fucking write him half-decently unless every single celestial bodie in the fucking milky way galaxy comes into perfect fucking syzygy, i think, i think, i think. why did u think we (me) had a psychotic episode after that fuckin movie dropped. fucksake. lord above. because it’s all always “ohhh being yourSELF and telling your OWN story your OWN way” until you Look A Certain Way and ARE A Certain Way and Have Symptoms That Look Frightening and Don’t Move Around Like ‘Normal’ People Should Move, fuckin’ freaky-ass creature beast-thing, and so on and so on and so on, Christ all-fuckin’-mighty. gets tiring. but. anywaygs.

it is far easier to be destructive, than constructive. so. ahem. sorry. refocusing. it seems quite simply that just yet another goddamn story missed the point that 90s future spider-man is a story about very plainly and simply loving each other as people. it’s a story about a severely depressed, miserable, cynical little man who finds new reasons to live in every kind person he meets, and there is an open earnesty to that, if nothing else, that no movie can take away 30 years later. anybody can decide to try and be a better person than the one they were yesterday, and that is goddamn important. to portray anything otherwise was an unfathomably cruel decision, on sony’s part, and as soon as we got trailer evidence that they were leaning into his more “intimidating” features back in ~dec. 2021, i.. pretty much Knew it was what they were gonna be doing with him. why wouldn’t they? i mean. who actually even cares about this obscure nobody, right? c-listers are the tried-and-true adaptational chameleons, anyways; they sure suckered in dumbasses like me, who still took blind hope in hook line and sinker, thinking he’d be important to the film, or at the very least portrayed sympathetically to his 30 years of established comic history as a character who is consciously aware that he is an adult survivor of fucking child abuse. but. c’est la fucking vie, i guess.

#talking tag #atsv #spider-man 2099 #i predicted All Of This and i am SO TIRED OF BEING RIGHT THAT I WANT TO THROW MYSELF IN2 THE SUN ABT IT :)))) #i WANTED to be wrong. /CHRIST/ i wanted to be wrong so goddamn bad #articulation isnt at its peak rn. how do i even- /bridge/ the breadth of this gap. wwoof man like. just. #i just. did yall think i started writing the dissection fic with extreme violation + dehumanization themes Just Outta Nowhere?? y/k??? #y’KNOW. haha. i am Intimately Aware firsthand with how years of it without reprieve shapes a brain over time. and. writing helps. #hhahaha. lord. id just go back 2 how i was Raised if i wanted 2 Constantly Hear so many ppl talkin abt how much they want evry Like-Me dead #(not-- not. not Like That. not in the nasty-ass too-online Way or whatever disgusting Assumptions that could Imply. im just a basket case.) #chroist. #not even . not even getting into the whole ‘also comic sm2099 is canonically staunchly anti-cop yet movieboy is weirdly fashy’ Thing. #i already Have a migraine im NOT getting into that right now #(holding back tears) wwelp looks like these next Seven Years Of Terrible Public Perception r gonna b long and suck so bad :)) #ok goodbye again now im going back to frolicking morosely in the Fields . be safe drink some water be kind to urself and others. mwah.

[gifti3]

I was trying to do a little catch up in nightbringer

I finished lesson 20 and they like joke(?) about moving to the human world and staying at the MCs home if they cant stay in the devildom

And i just wanna seriously consider the logistics of MC trying to house 7 other people

Most of us are probably living with other people (who may not be okay with sharing a space with so many strangers suddenly) and/or dont have a giant sized place

And this is assuming the mc is staying at a house and not an apartment....

#obey me nightbringer #dont think anyone will last a day in this situation. #realistically theyre all gonna probably have to share 1 room right.... #2 if we r lucky #at my home we have an extra bedroom and a living room #and the extra room technically belongs to my grandpa when he visits from ghana so... #id be like....yall gotta come up with some human identities and find jobs so you can move into a different place #im not trying to abandon them in the human world of course #especially mammon for several reasons #but yea.... #and outside of living arrangements mc would have to teach them to live in this damn world #and navigate new social norms urghh #my head hurts thinking about it #like “noooo u cant fuckin threaten people so flippantly when they piss u off unless u wanna make my life more difficult!!” #ik they could take ppl in fight sure but god #what if they get arrested #ugh sorry my mind is just going towards all the worst case scenarios lol #anyways im gonna try to start next lesson but im already getting tired of playing these rhythm games sigh

[iholli]

selfship / ficto posts and they all have "proship dni" bitch you could not exist in peace without me. proshippers invented this space. shut the fuck up

#I SWEAR TO GOD I MADE THIS POST ALREADY AND I CANT FIND IT ??? #found out ficto is an acrual thing and wanted to have a look around the tags #and its all dni #like ?????????? #selfship and proship literally go hand in hand ??? #its pride month and i want to appreciate this new flag but noooooo. lmfao aight #idk any normal fictoromantics wanna interact w me #smh #anti anti #A BITCH IS TIRED. #dont yall ever get tired of being hateful and shit. u sound like religious white men. #ratkingrambles #sorry im just salty rn. feels like this of all places should be a neutral area yk ??? #n i just get kicked in the teeth bc i actually think sending death threats over made up people is wrong

[browntrait]

good morning, today is startin off terrible!! :DD

#didnt sleep last night #like. at all. #just applied to 6 jobs in a row #why do they make u fill out everything #IF U ALREADY SUBMITTED A RESUME #AND COVER LETTER #FUCKKKK #im so fuckin tired of it #also the eggs i made this morning? wtf?? #they turned out so weird #i could barely even eat them #tldr; im pissy n need sleep #see yall when i wake up #k's words #rant in tags #yall know what it is

[catboybashirs]

stop making posts that r supposed to be educating non-psychotics abt psychosis while throwing people w/ delusions you dont understand/experience under the bus thanks

#.txt #.doctor speaks #specifically identity and fiction-related delusions #yes i experience intense paranoid delusions. some of my most load-bearing ones are related to being A Character #“but jules!!! mostpeople are faking like all th-” shhh. shut the fuck upm #i dont care if someones faking. id rather i show support to 1 faker than deny that support to 100 actually psychotic people actually #idk. idk. im tired of being an Ambassador Of Psychotic People irl to nonpsychotics but i guess ill do it on here too #since some of yall just looove spreading bullshit abt an already marginalized group of people #being mentally ill feels like being in the fucking crab bucket sometimes STOP KICKING OTHERS TO GET OUT!!!!! #.rant #.vent #cant rememver which i use so. both!

[genekies]

screaming in the club

time for another vent in tags

#so i was joking and i thought it came through but im also dumb and autistic and my jokes dont always cross. sO #i was joking about one of my roomates not seeing Nightmare Before Christmas before bc i was showing 2 of them my picture vinyl of it and whe #n one of them said they never saw it i said “but you were a loser on tumblr in the 2010s wdym” and their fiance was just rude to me and i th #ought it was clearly a joke but ig not and they lowley attacked me for it? im just?? i tried to clarify that i was joking and they know im a #utistic. hell the one i was joking to is also autistic but idk so now i feel like utter shit especially after all i did today thst juet drai #ned me. ive been trying to fix our 2nd shower. i had a meeting. i had an extremely hard therapy session. and i showered today. its been hell #like i am trying to get thru relapsing on SH and my ED and ofc they dont know but that shit made it worse and i dont want to say anything bc #then ill feel like im guilt tripping? idk but im also super nervous about a HRT appmt i have coming up and i cant afford it and we have no #food in the house i can eat rn and no one has gone shopping. i cant go shopping either bc i cant drive/dont have a car. and its making it #harder to help get back on track with eating when theres nothing for me to eat? so everything is fucking amazing right now. #the only meals i could POSSIBLY have and all claimed by the one roommate i was joking with. it all takes up half our freezer too so thats #fucking awesome. all this food for one person and none that i can eat or the other vegan in the house can eat. i have been hungry for DAYS. #all there has been for me to eat is cup ramen and grilled cheese. AND SOMEONE WHO WASNT FUCKING VEGAN ATE ALL THE VEGAN CHEESE IM GENUINELY #SO PISSED OFF? like dude yall have your own cheese wtf #the thing is its already really hard for me to tell when i am actually hungry bc of years of ignoring it so when i actually feel it and ther #es nothing it really gets to me. im so tired and idek where my EBT card is to get myself something. its all just so much. #i just want to lay in my bed and sleep for days. but i cant. i have too much shit to do. like even just tomorrow i have to clean the #bathroom. mop the kitchen. do dishes. shovel snow. and just generally take.care of shit because since we have 2 roomates MIA right now and #no one else wanted to do shit i had to step up and i am STRUGGLING. i have been for a while. the thing is everyone that didnt sign up for sh #it didnt have much going on besides probable seasonal depression #i relapsed. have debilitating mental health. i can barely get out of bed before 4 pm. and i have to take care of myself and my cat. #im so close to snapping on them at this point #i need the one roommate i actually like to come back or i swear i will lose my shit. hes only been gone for 6 days but HOLY SHIT #everything has gone to shit #vent over ig im going to sleep soon. still hungry if i cant find something.

[soldier-poet-king]

Started my long weekend off by royally pissing off my mother and now I have to just. Deal with it ig. 🙃🙃🙃🙃

#it wasnt even my FAULT #i came home 30 min later than i said and forgot to text bc i was v tired #Im tWENTY SIX #but oh no my YOUNGER brothers can come and go as they please #i understand she has undiagnosed untreated anxiety #but like hot DAMN #im going to shower and hide in my room and cry #this is just the last straw on what was already a difficult day emotionally #(i read a bad mean callous Catholic article and i regret it #ppl are so mean in the name of truth and im upset #and also im not even convinced theyre RIGHT even if theyre technically doctrinally correct and im flirting with heresy #orthopraxis vs orthodoxy #and the spirit vs the letter of the law. etc etc etc #THE GYM DIDNT HELP IM SHOWERING. MAKING AN ILL ADVISED COFFEE. AND PLAYING PFKM #the divine is unknowable can we all jsut stop being mean. like. why is this so fuckin hard to be kind #im too interested in radical mercy and universalism for this. in my secret heart of hearts #YALL ARENT RIGHT YOURE JUST MEAN

[char-lotteral]

Im a soon to be college student who has suffered so much during this pandemic because of online classes. I've been a highschool student for almost 6 years and in that span I've shed so much tears from all the hardwork, I've the stayed up late just to finish studying, I've spent a shit ton of hours preparing for a career I want, I've skipped meals just so I can finish my projects and you're telling me that the possible soon to be President of my country is a man who LIED about his Degree, who NEVER graduated College, and to top it all off, has an arrest warrant for TAX EVASION?

This is the country you want me to grow up in? This is the "Man" who's supposes to lead my motherland into prosperity? The man who got his fame and ill-gotten wealth from his disgustingly rich father who was once a dictator of the Philippines for 30 fucking years?

You expect me to look up to this man? This sorry excuse of a president? Because honestly, Fuck him. Fuck ALL OF YOU who voted for the son of a fucking fascist. You've disrespected ALL the Martial Law victims along with their families by placing the Marcoses back into power. Have none of you learned ANYTHING from EDSA People Power Revolution??? It's a goddamn holiday for fucks sake!!!!

WHAT THE FUCK PHILIPPINES

#i hate my country sooooooo much #fuck yall im tired #my brothers an accountant who works his ass off just for our dear fucking president to steal all of our taxes #AND DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON ROBIN PADILLA A RETIRED ACTION START ARTIST #WHO IS CURRENTLY NO 1 IN THE SENATORIAL RACE #JESUS FUCKING CHRIST SOMETHING IS SO WRONG WITH YALL #my country's already in deep debt and you want this fucking THIEF as your president????????

[lunar-fey]

im so fucking tired btw of every doctor being the most incompetent person ever. im just going to die in my sleep and its gonna be like /shrug because no one is ever even going to get close to figuring out whats wrong with me bc. no progress will ever be made.

#ready for things so stop being fully awful all of the time like. 10 years ago #maybe more. #LIKE IM TIREEEED of wasting all my time #being angry and not being able to DO anything #Nyway its probably bc mom decided to fight with them #bc she was like well um i wrote down in my phone that yall said to be here at 8:30 #and i was like mom idk... i thinj you wrote it down after we got home i already was thinking 8 #*8:30 was wrong like yesterday it was two weeks ago u prob r misremembering #but yeah she wanted to argue with the lady who was likr well we dont give out kits before 1p. #pm* bc we r too busy #but sure we will get u one anyway since you were already trained itll be fine #so they probably forgot on purpose to add the oxygen tube thingy #and theyre gonna like charge me for it being missing or whatever and refuse to see me again #and im just not going to get diagnosed. and im going to explode #already cant sleep bc im so afraid of mystery illness just making my heart or lungs or literally whatever #shut off while im asleep #im so tired :(

[simplyender]

oh. so NOW i REALLY get what other people in the submas fandom meant when they mentioned angst burnout

#siiiiiiighs #yall just need to chill #idk that one post where sb talked abt their own ptsd also kinda hit me like #hm maybe thats why ive been mad too #i dont know #i think things should tone down and we should just start talking about trains again #also the temptation to write emmet just going through grief but actually managing to get out the other side #bc lost isnt an end all #grows each and every day #i mean this is to no degree as severe as an actual human family member let alone a twin #but i literally lost my pet on wednesday. last wednesday. im not going into specifics #but since ive already got the stage god the worse feeling for me after sb dies is when your brain still hasnt caught up with the loss #so you keep expecting things to be where they were and theyre not. nothings there and no ones there but you look ANYWAY #id apologize for venting but these are literally my own tags #anyway back to submas i was already getting tired of the overly edgy stuff awhile back but i think now i think im all out #eh whatever thats the point of curating ones own online experience ill just rb what makes me happy

[femme-malewife]

Oof...

#if smthin is stuck in a vending machine one person will shake it #another will punch it #another will kick it #another will stick their hand in #yall know that meme where its like #yeah apparently im the “all of the above” person #my drink got stuck :"( #i had to fight tooth and nail to get it out #THIS HAPPENED LAST WEEK TOO BUT I BOUGHT ANOTHER DRINK TO PUSH IT OUT BUT IT JUST GOT STUCK TOO #difference is i had a coworker watching and they offered to help #no vending machines were fought #im so tired i just want my mf caffeine (had 2 bottles of coffee already)

[zakomoya]

!!

#im so fucking tired #i dont care anymore #everyone hates me #no one gives a fuck about what i do or say #ive already disabled my discord so yalls messages mean jackshit #god forbid if this is pre-period shit or depression i fucing hate you all #i fucking hate this shit i fucking hate having the euphoria of BEING #id rather be locked up alone in a room and slowly suffocate #why cant i be you guys #why cant i crawl into your body and have the life you live

[werewolffem]

the "I'm a victim" cards are strong

#these are in response to someone saying death and rape threats lol #like 🤔🤨 #b-b-but im the real victim! #we get itttt already #yall wanna be the victim all the time #isnt that tiring??