#it was an eventful couple of issues

[aseriesofunfortunatetexts]

asoue + tumblr, special anxiety disorder edition

#josephine anwhistle #larry your waiter #charles #jerome squalor #hector #babs #lemony snicket #a series of unfortunate events #asoue #asoue edit #text post meme #a couple of these are open for debate #particular about Larry and Lemony #obviously book!Lemony is by his own account a coward #Larry has several moments of extreme bravery but he's also has some severe anxiety issues going on #hence his inclusion in this #throw me an ask if you have something to add or want to disagree with my assessments

[newfeeling77]

its over n im never wearing this again god bless

#the event was really fun it got chaotic bc ppl werent switching positions at the correct times but #i didnt expect it to go smoothly anyway #i was upset bc i had a couple issues when i finally was a camera op but idc it happens

[onewholivesinloops]

i love not remembering anything about my life. i only came into existence two years ago. everything before that was a long dream and even now i remain in a fugue state.

#i can probably explain the timeline and major events that happened #but if you ask me for any specifics about anything bar a couple things i literally wouldn't be able to tell you a thing #i vividly remember most bad things that happened but my definition of 'vivid' is still vague recollections relative to everything else #it feels like this isn't a body that belongs to me and it was inhabited by a different person all those years LOL #my memory 'issues' bother me bc it always feels like a memory is nagging at me in the back of my head #so is there something important i'm subconsciously trying to forget or is this my paranoia bc i can't remember stuff (we will never know) #anyway i'm lying down in the dark at 6 am muttering 'i'm so girlpilled traumacore for this <3' to myself as i type this #gamo.txt

[mugenloopdalove]

So funny seeing ppl mock me for falling behind in drabblecember bc the reason I feel behind is my creative energy has been focused on original stuff

#gerard's diary #im event staff in a rather big server #and we had a big event the past couple weeks #and when i wasnt doing event staff stuff i was either job hunting #or working on my new oc #so i didnt have the time/energy for drabblecember #plus i was having a bit of confidence issues w my writing admittedly #but it was primarily just #prioritizing the server im staff in overr everything else #esp bc i was the only one w out an oc in the event #bc the event was centered around students at the school and i dont have a student yet #i was working extra hard so the other staff could focus on their rps #all i really had was my teacher talking w the other school staff Abt the event #so i was in helper mode rather than creative mode #it's just funny #like man im such a failure at writing for having other priorities lol /s #anyway hopefully ill have the time for todays prompt. i did sleep til 7pm but

[theinfinitedivides]

i should have known today was going to be f*cked up when i checked the Shinee tag before going to bed early this morning and saw that the unofficial sign merch for the fans going to the Japan tour with all five members had been pulled and replaced with official merch from SM that only had the three that are currently active. that should have been a sign from God that some f*ckass sh*t was about to go down the vibes were off

#shinee #minho #choi minho #taemin #lee taemin #key #kibum #kim kibum #i said i wasn't going to talk about this but ykw i have to talk about it. i am weirdly detached and i am grateful that i ate before i #saw that sh*t but i'm going to talk about it bc the more i think about it the more pissed i am #look. i'm at most maybe two or three shades darker than Minho. i have heard these kinds of comments from 'friends' in the past #and i'm not going to pretend that it didn't hurt bc it did. it did and you can see that it hurt him too bc he had to laugh it off and Kibum #and Taemin are two grown ass f*cking men who should know better. and as much as i love them i am thankful that their asses #are getting lit up on social media and people are talking about this bc it's 2023. you don't f*cking say that to your friend #this is the same sh*t they did to Haechan. we literally just had a reporter criticize Taecyeon's skintone at one of the press conferences #for Heartbeat a couple months ago asking if he didn't think he was too dark for the role there is still the trend of lightening #idols' photos in official merch and ones taken at fan events WE ARE STILL DOING THIS KIND OF SH*T #whatever internalized issues with colorism Taemin and Kibum have they need to sort it out. go see a therapist idk something #but don't take that sh*t out on someone so close to you you consider them family. don't do that #Jjong is looking down from his satellite disc trying to beat their asses and God is holding him back again by his collar #but just barely. the satellite beams are so the rest of the fandom can get signal to do their work and call out the bullsh*t #going to spend the rest of the day reblogging Minho sets listening to Heartbreak in between Mirotic streaming #and trying to watch the rest of SOTB. that's all i can do atp

[toestalucia]

guys we have a little problem

#stardust speaking ! #person who doesnt read sidestories is dearly paying for it right now #BJKADBJKBJKADKABJDBJKDABJKDBAD HHHHHHH ILL READ THEM THEN ILL READ THEEEEMMMMMMMM #the stan & aliza is just 5 chs right.................... #BJKADBJKADBJKADBJKADBJKAD THE LAST ONE IS THE TALES OF COLLAB LMFAOOOOO????????????? #was that the one they didnt translate when it happened or am i dreaming....its tiny too i should get thro it #anyway if anyone was interested in gbf anytime from now is an excellent time cuz these tutorial missions gives u a lot of early weapons + #1 character from each element who r fun to use imo (+ water lily is like sooooo helpful) #and then a free katalina/io/rosetta/eugen/rackam/dark ferry which is happy birthday to mainstory<333333 #going thro my sidestories while writing this help I PROMISE NEXT HALF-OFF TREASURE IM FINISHING ALL OF THIS UP. maybe.....the issue is that #i always end up doing other stuff during halfoff....and i SHOULD be in the sandbox mines............. #shaking everyone i love granblu fantasy. no rain no rainbow is added to sidestories in the next couple days and its like. one of the best #events to exist. i can give u a reading list depending on what u like in stories (will list the same 3 events for everyone) #IM JOKING but no rain no rainbow & ranger sign bravo IS amongst the most endearing events

[talentforlying]

was chatting timeline stuff with gracie and i've finally solidified my headcanons for the pre-swamp thing series of events that led to "blue suit fancy man" becoming the image for constantine's initial re-entry into the occult world after ravenscar!

not getting into the WHOLE ronnie cooper storyline bc it's SO weird and i need to figure out what i want to keep/ditch about.....ALL THAT. but i'm keeping the fact that the brother of mobster harry cooper snatched constantine out of ravenscar to try and resurrect harry's son who was killed in an accident, and that constantine stuck a demon in the body bc they wouldn't take no for an answer and threatened to kill his sister if he failed.

word travels about his "success" and ends up reaching clarice sackville — who's pretty damn skeptical given that she has a "resurrected" lover and KNOWS it's not that simple — and goes to ravenscar (where constantine ended back up afterwards) to confirm her suspicions. she's able to piece together exactly what happened from what he's lucid enough to share, recognizes that it was a pretty tricky con to pull off, and notes that it could be useful to have someone on her side who 1) is just that good, and 2) is owed a debt by the coopers, who she suspects will grow in power once the demon gets its bearings and starts working on everyone around it.

when john leaves ravenscar for the final time, clarice waits three months to make sure he's staying out, then approaches him to become business associates. his terms are that she helps him get back on his feet by setting him up with rich marks in the occult scene to fleece, and she agrees. this marks the start of their long, long association.

through clarice's connections, constantine starts making a double-sided name for himself as an occultist: to the rich, on-call provider of temptation + scandal fixer; and to everyone else, prolific con artist + blackmailer taking these suckers for all they're worth. (and one who'll push a little cash/provide an exorcism to a friend in need, at that.)

#( ooc. ) OUT OF CIGS. #i'm sure si spurrier will have some backstory shit to shove in my eye in a month since he's bringing clarice back in this run #BUT until he tries to prove me wrong and unless he comes up with something better? i am RIGHT #literally could not stop thinking all day about how weird it is that he went from punk frontman to white gloved dandy in like. 3 years #leaves ravenscar in 1982 and then his first appearance in swamp thing + the brujeria events start in 1985 #but then in later comics clarice says she visited him in ravenscar so! they knew each other Somehow! #plus he had a story in the sean phillips era about hobknobbing with rich people to 'sell them temptation' when he was younger #and talked about blackmailing politicians with brendan in the issues when he was dating kit which Also fits the timeline #considering he stayed with brendan and kit on a couple different occasions between and after ravenscar stays #also tbh it is Entirely in clarice's character to take political advantage of him being fresh out of ravenscar & broke #helping him find a source of revenue was just her method of convincing him to stick by her. not her motivation for asking #( headcanons. ) I'M JUST LIKE THE BASTARDS I'VE HATED ALL ME LIFE. #sched.

[crimmson]

between my computer deciding to rebel, and work, and life, and I feel like I have a perpetual minor cold with that kinda slightly stuffy feel and that taste in the back of my throat,

I am kindly requesting someone to just Old Yeller me at this point

#the computer one is pissibg me off particularly because i Just built this shit two years ago #then i do a driver update a couple of weeks ago and start noticing that now if i game and watch a stream at the same time #some windows process starts choking the fucking life out of my CPU after a couple of hours #and after following a chain of looking shit up i get to ghe event viewer #and there's just a nonstop parade of errors for typically one or two things #at this point i drag my dad in because im out of my depth #i do some more shit. i update and reflash the bios. i check drivers 500 times. i reformat the drive and reinstall windows from scratch. #even if it seems okay for a bit it eventually starts shitting out errors again. #they are either about DeviceGuard or complaining about the network #i look up some more things! i find some references but they tell me to turn off or on some things that are already enabled or disabled. #we begin thinking theres something wrong with the network part of the motherboard #i have an adapter we grabbed from work to try when i get home. #if that doesnt work then i am buying a new motherboard cpu memory and cpu cooler #because if im going to have to fucking replace shit then i might as well upgrade #part of me wants to keep the old stuff and set up a new computer and try troubleshooting because puzzle. and i hate not knowing WHAT PART #SPECIFICALLY is fucked #bro i am so TIRED #i JUST did the math a few weeks ago and was like YES if i live on ramen for a few pay cycles i will pay off my credit card and start saving #to put toward my student loans when those start up again. and my computer went 'lol thats cute' #like i am deathly afraid that i will replace all this shit and it'll STILL have this issue #like. it's useable. i could live with it. but it's clearly not normal behavior and that's what bothers me. something is clearly wrong. #not to sound old but remember when shit just fuckin worked #like i sat there for 5 hours yesterday trying different shit. finally thought i had fixed something. go to bed. wake up. #STREAM OF ERRORS for the network thing again every few minutes while i was asleep. #what are you DOING. what is WRONG WITH YOU. #my dad is looking over my shoulder at the event viewer like 'that looks like a SQL statement but why is it failing etc etc' #EXCELLENT QUESTION AND I ONLY UNDERSTOOD THREE OF THOSE WORDS! why is my computer sick!! #no it's not a virus. i promise. i was raised better than that #it FEELS like something fundamentally broke. it feels like a hardware thing. but how. what fucking demons did microsoft summon #in a driver update. that went into my computer and physically broke my shit

[intertexts-moving]

having insane person mental health realizations at 5pm on a friday like years after redacted.

#realized. what ive been fucking. assuming was just anxiety for years & years is.... actually. probably cptsd. which. i was always like #well u know. i never had any one single traumatic event (LIE.) obviously thats not a me thing. im just terrified all the time #& then more recently ive been like.hey... wait. i actually love being in weird new situations and getting to know people and talking to #people & shit! im actually not terrified at everything all the time im just terrified at a few very specific things all the fucking time!! #maybe theres a reason i immediately freak the fuck out defcon five shaky for days after style if i accidentally misplace my phone for a #couple minutes!! and other such behaviors which i will not get into!! #and like. man. it sucks because some of this shit is just from growing up. with. y'know. the mommy issues etc etc. & my sibling who is #older & better at brain stuff than me has cptsd also just from like. living there. growing up there. being leftist & nd & gnc there. #& i have those experiences also AND ALSO YHE REDACTED. which fucked me up immeasurably more. iunno. shelving the distressed brain moments #until later when i get home. -_- maybe ill call my sibling abt it.. #txt

[unproduciblesmackdown]

um excuse me....a nightingale sang in berkeley square will roland broadway sings for pride not available on youtube? this after the sheen center bmc talk that is an absolute delight was presumably made private?? i have both downloaded but???

#Pardon Tf Out Of Me.... #that one's of yore too like....maybe a classic 2017 event. 2018 at the latest surely. like uhh why now #i don't know what channel it was on to check for Unlisted or anything but i searched for the exact title it had...no dice #and why unlist it either. this is a Gem my friends. who did this #a big part of the issue seems to be: if the opening logo doesn't lie this Would've been from the broadway sings for pride youtube channel #which was nealbtv which is now giving 404....trying for the listed website = telling me of potential security problems so guess not #the facebook has few recent videos before getting back into the [8 yrs ago] realm #the instagram....is updating? last a matter of a couple of days ago? what gives wrt youtube friends....

[arthur-r]

discovery channel will be like “on october 17 2013 someone recorded footage of a very disturbing, completely unprecedented impossible event which implies, without a doubt, supernatural connections and evidence of extraterrestrial life forms…. let’s hear from some experts about this super spooky, extremely unnatural floating object” and the experts say “so actually this is a weird type of cloud it happens sometimes” and discovery channel will say “tune in next time for a car making weird spooky noises…. we’re thinking it is probably a ghost”

#have trees in vietnam developed mutations to ruffle their bark in self defense? radiation and evolution!!!! #we talked to some experts and there were bees on the tree #(actual episode that was just on the TV. the cloud and the cars are both real too) #my roommate got a TV for $15 at goodwill we’ve used it for jackbox a couple times but mostly it’s just constantly on in the background #playing satellite TV channels usually discovery i’m gonna try to tune in to HGTV at the right time for cheap old houses though #anyway discovery channel feels like… analog clickbait?? i guess?? #it’s just. so silly to me #anyway this is too long to be a sillygoofy textpost but it’s supposed to be….. so sorry brevity is just silencing my inner glow or something #shdhdf i just think it’s so silly and stupid. they spend half an hour on here are all the aliens and spooky things this could be #and the expert comes in and says this is a very normal and recognized scientific phenomenon with a full explanation and several known events #and the discovery channel guy says whoa that’s crazy well look at this spooky strange thing!!!! #bonus points when they’re looking at like. aztec civilization and they say For Some Strange Reason the people did this Barbaric Ritual #evidencing Spooky Aliens masquerading as Primal Gods and the Gullible Brown People Fell For It #and then person comes in and says yeah so this was agriculture and record keeping and innovation and empathy and art and advanced techniques #and the discovery channel says But Brown People They Can’t Do That It Was Aliens and then they dig up a sacred burial site #most of the episodes are just stupid and silly and entertaining (like the cloud) but a lot of them piss me off a lot #anyways!!!! i’m heading to bed cause i have my first day of classes in the morning!! #but my roommate just turned off the TV and it was so silly and contrived. i think not having access to satellite TV all my life is maybe not #the big awful issue i thought it was. i think i was maybe winning. i do like learning about the weird scientific phenomena though #but the way they bury it under hours of weird speculation about evil aliens spying on us and meddling in our lives…. makes it hard to handle #okay i’m heading to bed though shdhdf. hope everyone is doing well and goodnight!! #ask to tag (idk what for but there’s definitely something here somewhere) #me. my post. mine. #delete later

[solitaireships]

I only need to track down 13 more of Miguel's solo comics to finish my collection <3

#my posts #we bought a collection from someone last sunday #so my coworker put a bunch of stuff from his original run aside for me #i'm only missing a couple issues from the 30s and 40s of that run now #and then i'll need to get the last 8 of his 2015-2017 solo #also there's technically the 2099 companion stuff from 2019 #but also that's a one shot in a larger event #so i don't really consider it a full solo thing for him #i'll probably track it down eventually #but it's not the priority #🕷️

[syundae]

i can’t get over how mihoyo just sort of retconned how antagonistic kaeya and diluc used to be to each other towards the start of the game? like kaeya saying the line about their dad’s legacy feels like it was intended to hurt cause he knows that diluc has spent most of his lifetime trying to live up to their father’s legacy and then hoyo just drops that dynamic for whatever reason with the new event letters

#i mean i do prefer them being secret besties with some regrets and things left unsaid over how mean they used to be but like #wouldve liked a legitimate reconciliation rather than some letters hidden in a small couple week event #i get that kaeya is the king of repressed trauma and diluc is just a big hot mess with directly confronting the emotional issues in his life #but like cmon man #why like this qwq

[holdens-second-official]

I was so excited when I heard Test your Metal was coming back, I'm so disappointed why does it suck so bad now

#it's exactly the same as it used to be why is it so much shittier #is it me? have my tastes changed? #am I just having more trouble feeling joy playing this game in general? #is the writhing serpent of capitalist greed with ubisoft trying to bleed us for more money starting to piss me off? #idk man maybe I'm just tired #maybe I'm just rusty and out of practice maybe it's just a skill issue #either way I'm just not having a good time #and it feels weird since I loved Test your Metal the other couple times it's showed up #and the event gear is sick as fuck #so idk what it is about this one that just isn't clicking but man it hurts to play now lowkey #and god I really wish it didn't #idk how my favourite event mode became viscerally unfun to me but it brings me so much despair to see it fall like that #what happened dude #For Honor

[damnprecious]

I just wanna go walk through some artist alley and pick up all the cool shit and fill up a wall

#noopa rambles #as if I had the money to go on an absolute spree at an artist alley #idk even where one would find such an alley #like. is there any sort of Here's Ur Artists events that aren't like cons or smt #I do like to window shop at one local artist workshop but alas the money again becomes an issue #I did buy a couple of cards from there the other day but those aren't going to fill a whole wall #esp since I plan to mail one of them to a friend #imagine having an unlimited budget and being let loose in a place with a bunch of art #and this is not to say that artists shouldn't charge - they absolutely should #I just wish I had more cash to spend on art lmao

[stayathome-ts]

It’s 12:18 this is not the time or the day to be spotting some fuckery in dates and times not adding up in my memory.

#I was making vaguely bad decisions doing math about family ages etc and realized that the age for a particular family member didn’t line up #at all with my memories - like a solid 20/15 years difference there I’d estimate #and of course dates lining up isn’t the biggest priority when you’re an introject I know this but for the hell of it #I’m trying to rule out explanations that make sense without that first (not that this is actually relevant or anything #but I’ve been feeling weird and pretty out of it today due to external events so bad decisions and distractions go together) #there’s a couple ideas I have but I legitimately haven’t run across a weird puzzle like this while in the context of this system before #so… that’s something. If im around tomorrow feel free to ask me what the hell I mean by this #or even now whatever works. I may or may not be going to bed at a decent hour because it’s just one of those days #I’m just glad to have something else to focus on besides dealing with issues I apparently didn’t fully take care of the last time around