#it’s just… fucking terrible ngl

[dimitrscu]

really need to get into bg3 so i can finally move on from elden ring. that game (fanbase) has been nothing but pain and suffering i actually feel like i’m starting to resent it now

#don’t get me wrong i love elden ring it’s just it’s whole online presence is awful #the fanbase is made up of primarily dudebros #it’s just… fucking terrible ngl #i have had to actively erase my yt history on the daily to remove anything er related because i end up seeing something- #-that will no doubt annoy me #reddit is.. well reddit #the sheer amount of r*pe comments i’ve seen about malenia over the past year and a bit is just insane #never going to forgive from for having her be naked in the game sorry i don’t care how artistic it’s supposed to be #or symbolic or whatever #gamers™ were always going to be weird about it let’s be honest #i think i just need something to take my mind off it at least till the dlc comes out #and then when the game becomes popular again and everything kicks off once more surely ppl will be normal right? …right?

[repmet]

Still can't get over how Arthur knew there was a traitor in S4, narrowed it down to Agravaine or Gaius, cleared Gaius completely then went 'damn guess we have no more leads :/'

#bbc merlin #arthur pendragon #ngl i dont mind arthur's emotional stuntedness to a point #he had uther as a dad #but this fucking plot makes me want to hit his head against a brick wall #merlins a better person than i am #as soon as arthur saw agravaine was the traitor #id have been like 'damn whod have seen that coming' #'oh thats right' #'you fucking donut' #then again im not in love with him... #i mean s4 and 5 in general just make a lot of terrible choices

[horuslupercal]

I often find myself fascinated by cawl with the primaris bc did you know decimus androdinus felix used to be terrified of them? but cawl considers him (and the primaris in general, it feels) like their son(s). and cawl with their subcawls and, in essence, fronting probably (to my mind at least) had different personality "loadouts" for different things. checkup cawl vs surgeon cawl vs recovery cawl and so on. predictable but not consistent

they're simultaneously the primaris' dad/surgeon/researcher/torturer (given the processes of both becoming an astartes and a primaris as well as shit like felix basically just going in and out of stasis to be experimented on until he turned out right) and I just.... would LOVE to see more of this in a book. also I like cawl

#i mean hey we saw um. Kor Phaeron's Parenting. i feel like whatever fucked up shit going on with weird inconsistent parent cawl and the #+ primaris isn't too far. i think about it a LOT i am ngl esp given how cawl talks about this in the great work #felix is a success! felix hates them but he's not even scared of them anymore! and perhaps it would be best if he didn't hate them #but an astartes who hates is more successful than an astartes who fears. and to cawl that means they did what they needed and he agrees #even if it was terrible #just.... man i need 2 see more of it #it's me #it's me (in the tags) #warhammer #belisarius cawl #decimus androdinus felix #uhhhh #abuse / #< i think that applies given everything

[syunkiss]

I might probably start smoking or drinking sooner or later. Or maybe both

#no seriously i will say some heavy things in this tags so just be warned #i deal w a heavy heavy weight and my life is very shitty #i like living. sometimes. but my life is terrible yeah #i like finding unhealthy coping mechanisms because i know theyre unhealthy and I shouldn't be doing them so i have something else to worry #about. #i was formerly addicted to sh. i cant do it anymore cause ppl keep checking my arm and ugh i hate this #i am obsessed now w sweets. candy and energy drinks #mainly monster because its tasty. and i never drinked the other ones. im scared of trying new things ngl #my eyes are getting yellow and i am anemic already #i wont stop because i like having this to worry about. #“fuck i should stop doing this this is making my health terrible” #so i forget about my little shitty life #i am probably going to start smoking or drinking. or maybe both #i just wont vape because i have a lot of things agaisnt ppl who vape /silly #fuck i'm so young and like i live like if i was 25 #someone should give me a pacifier and chocolate milk #i was not supposed to be living like that #🍷.txt #special #i probably just want someone to worry.

[s-ccaam-era-crepe]

i Strongly Dislike. new england weather </3

#camera talks #specifically rural and basically on top of a mountain weather (where i live) #guys. we have 18+ inches of snow rn #this fucking suckssss #dont get me wrong the snow is fun sometimes #but like. more than 18 inches at once after weeks of kinda nothing is Terrible :( #okay alright. i just got back inside and im so cold and also extremely tired #doing this on my period and after a core day for track is Awful ngl </3 #hmm. anyways ive been playing stardew valley again and thats been fun and chill and im Not ignoring my hw no what.

[damiemontclair]

Is it ridiculous to think maybe this whole hospital thing and related business has mildly traumatised me? Is it ridiculous that I want to write about it in excruciating detail, just get the experience out on paper, on my blog, somewhere? It feels dumb but I want to write fic about it. I think it'd fix me.

#Still haven't really properly cried tho I am kinda tearing up as I write this #I'm not having a good mental health time rn ngl #The callous way some of the docs treated me; the way their sole focus was on reproduction without a single care for the hormones... #The generally terrible way I deal with surgery/post-surgery #It wasn't. As bad? The last few times? #I think I've also made myself forget a lot from the first 2 times #3rd time was more traumatising. #This last one tho... I never stayed for more than a night at the hospital. I never want to stay at a hospital ever again. #I never want to have surgery again #I swear if I have to do that again I will have my panic attack before they even put me under #It was so painful this time and people weren't listening to me at all when I told them the iv wasn't sitting right anymore #Nurses and doctors kept dismissing my opinions and wishes and needs.... #It was like as a patient you're less than human. #My arm is still bruised from where they fucked up their blood draws... #I'm so tired but I can't seem to rest #I'm so full of emotions but I can't seem to let them go and *cry* #Its like I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop #Pls ignore me amd my rambles I'm just. Not doing too hot rn. #damie talks

[psalmsofpsychosis]

me in this corner on my knees like fellas, i'm literally begging you, please interpret things, dont just fucking swallow stories and essays and media and all kinds of fucking information without giving it two tiny winy thoughts

#ngl i'm lowkey feeling homicidal about being surrounded by people who just percieve life and go ''okay.'' #not a single fucking thought in the 1000km radius of them #and i'm not talking about forming opinions #god knows you bastards are obsessively addicted to forming opinions without half as much the information you need #in order to form actual coherent and worthwhile opinions #i'm talking about trying to understand things. going beyond the surface level aesthetics and the ohhs and the ahhs #fucking christ. every other disco hoarse i see in here is so performative and surface level and superficial it's insane #people be sounding like three baby parrots re-enacting Shakespeare's Hamlet #except that baby parrots are cute and y'all dont even have the virtue of being fun. you're just a bunch of terrible actors #performing what thoughtfulness and introspection and self-awareness looks like. not what it actually means to possess those qualities #it's all the fucking aesthetics. the hows and whats and whens; never the whys. #for the love of gods; try to understand things for once. why they happen; what drives them; how they unfold from the roots up #INTERPRET THINGS. MAKE INFORMATION AND KNOWLEDGE YOUR OWN. #consumer culture is a fucking disease and y'all think it only comes in the flavour of you want to buy cute mugs

[ahauntedcowboy]

my biggest pet peeve is when someone is like “you didn’t understand the media”. no i did. i just think its stupid.

#eri's posts #its just...so fucking pretentious im sorry #i had this awful terrible friend in high school who would do this to me #i said i didn't like a movie once and she was like um you probably just didn't understand it #like i was too dumb to Get The Plot #and she would look down over the shows i'd watch #she was a shitty friend ngl #so now anytime people Are Like That #i get so annoyed akjsdfhaskdf

[cheetahsprints]

Over halfway through season 1 of Sonic Boom... what is this show. Why am I watching this. it's on crack it's so fucking unhinged 😂 help

#sonic boom #sonic the hedgehog #watching out of pure curiosity not because I feel that I need to #could've just watched the episodes with Shadow and nothing would've been lost #but I find myself laughing at the stupid ass jokes because of how dumb of ass they are omg #I hate how dumb Knuckles is genuinely #Didn't like Sticks at first - very jarring character - but idk she grew on me #ngl I laughed my ass off the times Eggman “teamed up” with someone especially Sonic I just.. idk... the wtfery gets me #Have a soft spot for this Sonic already him and his lil scarf #I like trans headcanons for this Sonic in particular idk why don't touch me #The dialogue is often so cringeworthy hhhh but at least visually it isn't bad or I could not even #no offense if people unironically like this show #I'm not saying it's terrible or unenjoyable it's just... it's something #If I'd watched this when it aired on saturday mornings or whenever the fuck #I probably would've just been like “hehe funni this is a nice break from all the edgy shit” that I'd been watching in 2014

[todayisafridaynight]

Every guy in Yakuza seems like they have enough social awkwardness for Tien to role his eyes at…

there's no feasible chance on earth any man can be more awkward than mountain man tien I'm Going To Hide From My Friends Every Other Year And Then For A Decade After Telling Them I'd Never See Them Again For No Apparent Reason And Only Coming Back Cause the World Was Literally Ending shinhan

#snap chats #i already hear someone go 'what about kiryu' girl he didnt last five years before getting involved again #jo's prob a contender tho. tbh. #anyway i just got back from the fnaf movie #first off please remind me to stop going out to places with kayla i might as well be going by myself #does not help that she walks slow as shit like bro dont make me walk this turtle-ass pace #good things came of the trip tho :) first of all im broke 🧍‍♂️ since when did movies get so expensive I DIDNT EVEN GET FOOD #i did get a kirby gacha tho :) inflation's starting to hit the gacha machines now too tho what the fuck 😭 #last time it was less expensive than the time before and now this is the most exp its been...... #wow its not just luck on what you pull its luck on how much money youre dropping BYE #whatever i dont need groceries anyways. really i dont i swear i did all my budgeting this month already #on the bright side i picked up 25 cents collectively today :) might as well call me a millionaire already #ANYWAY someone give me an excuse to post the new kirby he's cute and his feet are a weird color #o my god i didnt even talk about the movie wait. fuck. #watching jp movies and media has been terrible for my us viewing experience cause it just makes it so abundant how. #AUDIBLE us movies are. and the camera cuts jesus fucking christ i could turn it into a drinking game #what's my verdict tho ????? tbh i thought it was cute. im still in awe of the suits tho if anything i give the movie full props for that #heh. props. get it. fr tho i love practical effects and yk what ill take it. cupcake was goofy as hell ngl but ill take it #highkey forgot coreykenshin was in the movie so it was cute being reminded he was there :) love him.. #honestly it really was a movie for fans of fnaf already and i aint gonna act like i wasnt a fan of the series in its early years #def not a movie to watch on its own- not that the plot's incomprehensible otherwise but it prob just wont hit #like matpat and corey being there was neat and the credits song took me WAAAY back to when that song first dropped on youtube LOL #sorry ive turned these tags into a fnaf movie review. kayla didnt talk about it with me so i wanted to get my thoughts out somewhere LOL #im running out of tags Anyway i solemnly swear to only talk bout movies that ft mates that star in rgg henceforth <3 #im lying of course. i dont know how to shut up <3 but ill shut up rn im making dinner. movie made me hungry for bacon....

[skitskatdacat63]

There's this nearly 4 hour movie I've been meaning to watch for a while and I was like "ah maybe ill watch it tonight hehe 🥰" and then I remember...quali is at 9 🫠

#i actually despise abu dhabi being the seaosn closer ngl #basically since Japan the race time has suited my timezone pretty well #1 am. 1 pm. 3 pm. 4 pm. 12 pm. 1 am. #<- like look at that. look at they absolutely delicious schedule #every race for the past 2 months has been at an ideal time and ive really settled into it #wow you mean i can sleep in on weekends and actually wnjoy the schedule!? oh boy! #and then they put fucking ad at the end which is at 8 am. who wants to wake up that early on a sunday #it would be fine if it was earlier in the season bcs during the middle i got pretty used to waking up before 9 bcs all the European races #but to have this one at thw end is literally horrible #its really down to timezones but fuck it really does bother me #bcs wow youve made me have zero desire to watch the season closer! thanks!! #id sooooo much rather brazil be the season closer still #like whh do you have to completely switch timezones right at the very end. its terrible #i think ill do waht i did last season and take a bit of a nap beforehand #it makes it much worse that this on a holiday wknd too. yeah bcs i rly wanna spend the last two days of my break waking up in the morning #sry im being ultra salty rn but i really dont wanna wake up for it but i hate missing race events UGHHHHHH #last yr i literally fell asleep during the first lap of AD 😭 #yeah im concerned abt if nando will retain p4 or not but...waking up before 8 am...?? #yeah idk i just rly dislike this scheduling #i actually kinda like AD as a track but its position in the season makes me resent it #catie.rambling.txt

[ego--x]

So, I am absolutely NOT a killstar stan but. When I ordered a batch of clothes lately, I saw one of their pants in sale and was like. You know what, fuck it, it’s cheap let’s give it a try. AND WHAT CAN I SAY. If they do one thing right it’s making bigger sizes look fucking NEAT. I get now why people that are bigger love their brand so much, they’re doing a lot right in that department!

That being said - I didn’t even notice the cross on the pants when I ordered them, imagine my surprise when I unpacked them and went JADHAJDH SEIFER CROSS SEIFER CROSS SEIF--

Also comes with these thingies to attach and I LOVE.

#honestly I wouldn't even make this post if it wasn't like #THE FIRST TIME IN YEARS I tried on alternative clothes (or any clothes for that matter) - #- that made me feel ATTRACTIVE. #they fit SO WELL it's ridiculous #other pants I had to buy in larger sizes looked so terrible on me I hardly ever wanted to even leave the house ngl #so yeah. if you're bigger / struggling with your weight consider buying killstar (on sale preferably because they be expensive as fuck) #( and no I am not being sponsored lmao ) #just really got convinced here

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

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#ive been having... strange health problems? #i hate health problems because i hate hospitals and doctors and most things of that sort #(ive had my fair share of bad experiences with health professionals) #(btw when i share this here im not looking for a diagnosis. just venting about my bad body and dislike for doctors) #okay so the wackest thing: this summer (working at summer camp) i had the strangest thing happen? #in the morning i was flapping (fun stim for me) bcuz i got to teach something i liked. but then it was hard to stop #and from then on i kept flapping and shaking and like. tensing in my neck and shoulders? and i couldn't stop it #so i was uncontrollably shaking and moving and kind of. seizing i guess? #and i was stuttering to the point of not being able to hold a conversation or even talk really #the only thing i could say clearly was 'fuck!' which is kinda funny ngl #i went to the health lodge and they gave me ibuprofen because the tensing was giving me a bad headache and they didnt know what else to do #after taking the ibuprofen and lying down for an hour my soul stopped trying to escape #but that was obviously very perplexing! #and also. i have medicine. going off of this medicine cold turkey can be very bad for me #some fun side effects have been: dizziness. sleepiness. zoning out/difficulty concentrating. difficulty speaking #just all around makes it miserable and hard to function. i looked it up and it may be a focal aware seizure caused by withdrawal #and thats kind of what ive been going off of. it is likely a focal aware seizure because thats a side effect and my symptoms match #but then it started happenig even when I'd been consistently on my meds #i remember one night (at camp) i had a really terrible seizure? i could barely function or stay alert.i felt like i was only half conscious #and two nights ago it happened again. and at least once weekly for the last month or so. it doesnt last more than 15-30 minutes #but its miserable. and i kind of want answers and help but id rather die than go to a doctor. i don't feel like ill be taken seriously #i know that if i go to a doctor it wont ve an easy process if they take me seriously and try to figure it out. and itll suck if they dont #i hate when this happens. it feels like death and i dont want it to keep happening #even though im kind of getting used to it im always afraid of when itll happen or if itll get worse #or if something like the stuttering+seizing will happen again. that was terrible. a friend brought me lunch and stayed while i ate #cuz he was afraid id choke. he made me go to the health lodge and made me rest and i owe that asshole a lot. hes a great friend #it was scary especially since i dont know what caused it! the health officers didnt knowand just said if it got worse i should go to the ER #this is scary but tbh i might be more scared to seek answers or treatment #god i hate doctors. and hospitals. and anything medical. i didn't even want to see the damn camp health officers but my friend made me #idk what to do or anything i just wanted to complain cuz this is miserable

[arundolyn]

forgot the hilarity of fighting game characters with katanas. the act of sheathing/unsheathing is a suggestion at absolute best

#crow.txt #ngl most video games actually. its so funny #i was actually thinking about hakumen's gay stupid ass odachi. its so fucking funny #logically he shouldnt be able to sheathe it At All where the sheath is kept its longer than he fucking is tall #his arms literally are Not long enough #but damned if he doesnt fuckin do it anyway #sure the wiki SAYS theres a slit that allows it to be sheathed but where. show me the proof. i call major bullshit on that #nvm i see it now. annoying when they dont put things on sprites that wouldnt be hard to add. but either way #its not really long enough to be. meaningful. and the wiki also says it straight up phases through it so why bother pretending #its literally so funny like in the win pose where he sheathes ookami there are three frames that are just #it extended all the way up. then sideways. and then its like 3/4 of the way in. #barely stretching his arm at all to maneuver it. terrible. even if it was at his hip that would be awkward as fuck to do #was gonna say give ookami to raven guiltygear he could deal with it but then i realized he'd just try to kill himself with it

[angry-geese]

am i losing it or has the desktop version of this hellsite gotten progressively worse

#geese.txt #ngl ive mostly been using mobile for like the past month and a half #and now whever i try to use desktop to make a post it is absolutely fucking terrible #like it wasnt great before but now its just weirdly difficult

[tellie-vision-art]

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#vent #delete later #ngl I was trying to keep it in but that shit literally ruined my fucking day #should I kms #why does everyone think I’m a terrible person? #what did I do to deserve this? #I can’t do anything without someone deciding I suck bc of it #twt is down rn otherwise this would go on priv sorry I need to express this somewhere #I should kms #I’m sick of being painted as this terrible evil person just bc I experience human emotions #I should do it #but what should I try this time #I don’t want to deal with the itching if I fuck up the preferred method #I wonder if my emergency rope is still around it’s been a while since I’ve considered it #I must be a bad person #I kinda was thinking about trying to make friends with a mutual or two but #I’m not good enough everyone just ends up hating me #I don’t deserve anything #I must be doing something wrong #kill me and make it stop #I am the worst person alive #I am so unhappy #Haha I’m starting to get paranoid now #I need to blow my brains out #the gun shouldn’t have been empty last time I was sabotaged #this emptiness is unbearable make it end