#just some feelings I have bout it

[icewindandboringhorror]

I know this is just a silly bad quality random screencap of a screencap that I found on facebook lol, BUT it's a succinct enough image to easily describe the concept in a quick/accessible way hopefully :

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(and of course, feel free to elaborate in tags, etc.! (especially elaborating about other senses as well.. can you "hear" in your mind just as well as you can "see"? taste? etc.) It's an interesting topic to me, as someone who's like a 4.5 at MOST lol. I'm curious what option will be the most common :0c )

#tumblr polls #hrmm... a little poll perhaps.. about a subject I find interesting.. since this image came across my facebook today #still really not feeling that well. no longer shaking violently and such but I still feel weird and weak much more than usual #They did say my markers for like infection or inflammation were elevated but that they werent sure of the cause so hopefully #it's nothing too serious. they did also say a lot of different things can cause that thing to be higher than normal but didn't go into spec #fics of what. maybe some of them are relatively benign or something. I still havent felt much back to normal since #I got really sick that one time though. I feel fine on and off but then little bouts of feeling weird and sick happen. hrmmm #ANYWAY.. looking for small ways to be productive. such as little doodles on evil ipad or editing game videos #or posting polls or cat pictures or some other like not very labor intensive things #I WISH I COULD FOCUS on writing HHRGGhh... I need to finish my game.. it would be so freeing.. a project that's been looming #over my head for like 5 years even though througouht that 5yrs I've probably spent a total of 3 months working on it lo.. ANYWAY #I still partially really cannot beleive that people CAN see stuff in their heads. There's always part of me that's thinking like. well mayb #e everyone DOES see the same exact thing but we just describe/conceptualize it so differently that we think we're talking about #different things when we're really not. But I have been assured by people I've talked to about it that they can GENUINELY really see #stuff in their heads like as vivid as an actual picture in real life or something. And the other senses are neat too. Like for exmaple I #can hear in my head much better than I can see imagery. I still CANNOT hear vividly like as if I were listening to actual music out loud.. #but I think it's developed more than my sight. AND interesting how this varies the creative process. a friend I was talking to on the phone #said they write by literally just watching stuff play before them like a movie. where my process is COMPLETELY different. AND that affects #the content/what details we focus on as well as our individual styles of writing have differences that can be traced back to that.. hrmm

[can-of-slorgs]

The other researchers are also here! (magical edition!)

#neopets #neotag #neoart #eyrie #gelert #THE BOYS ARE HEREEE #vin doods #my beautiful magical boyssss #had some time to kill this weekend so might as well finish rendering some stuff i have lying around lmao #its ironic cause my oc stuff is the stuff that gets less views or reacts overall but is the ones im more interested in for the most part #its been a while since i've actually really loved an bunch of ocs and this 4 (technically 5) are going to be the death of me lol #just to be consistent with the other post #eyrie's name is Ozzi or Oz #and gelert's name i'm still unsure of but for now I'm going with Faeran #i'm so emotionally invested in these characters you have no idea LMFAOO #also I did base Faeran's looks in a lot of “long dogs” like borzois and the ears just came naturally to me lol #I'm still working on a doc with all the info for those interested tho buuut if any are reading by this point feel free to ask about them!! #I'll just never shut up lol #the neopia i did put them in is a tad bit more.... “dark”?? i guess?? #its less abstractly magical and i did have to find out how to build a magic system for everything to work lol #and my dnd knowledge did filter a l o t into it so sorry bout that oops:;; #anyway this is too long and hardly anyone really reads this much but hey! finally my babies have faces so i don't feel so bad!!! #it doesnt help that i post this stuff at buttfuck hours LMFAOO

[missingbk-dkhours]

I have no fuckin clue.

Have some silly, dumb bkdk dressed up for a school festival

#bkdk #bakudeku #dkbk #decchan #mha #bnha #been terribly insecure lately bout my art #i feel like a need to take some steps back and not try to spend days on a drawing and just see what comes up #trying to draw faster #i love drawing so i'm sad i don't have more to share

[ourstarscollided]

You’re welcome to explain your answer in the tags!

#julie and the phantoms #jatp #jatppolls #dont ask me why the number categories are like this!!! there is no rhyme or reason to them!!! #been thinking bout this for awhile now. cause it didnt occur to me that I havent watched it since i netflix party’d it with Rosie in Sept #2021… which has been… a very long time. considering in 2020 after it came out i probably watched it over 100 times in full. #there’s just something that stops me from clicking play on the show and i cant put it into words. its just this feeling i get every time my #mouse or finger hovers over the show. i also got rid of netflix this past year too but that was quite recent and i do have a copy of it on #my ipad sksjsj idk #guess im just curious if anyon else is in this weird limbo. dont get me wrong. i am still enamoured by this show but rewatching it is just #smthg i havent done in a hot minute. maybe i should make Rosie do another netflix party with me 👀 #i feel like if i was more active in a discord or on tumblr i wouldve tried to watch it with mutuals but alas i am incapable of having free #time outside of work and life. #once again i am shocked that the answers are centred in the bubbles before u click on them and it bothers me?!? #alt option: i have rewatched the show aolely through gifsets 😌 #sunset queue #<- queuing this for some reason. idk what the reason is.

[todayisafridaynight]

At which point did you realise that the plot of IW is ass? I've seen people complain only about the ending or the halfway point where the teams separate, while I was already actively rolling my eyes like four-five chapters in

i think the moment i fully accepted that IW's story was. Definitely A Story was the moment ebina announced 'bleach japan'. like i think leading up to that point i was thinking to myself 'oh i hope i see X happen' or being like 'i wonder where this is going' and that sort but the proverbial bucket of ice was definitely that moment

#infinite wealth spoilers #snap chats #what reaaaaally hammered it in too if it wasnt obvious already was the execution of the jimas/daigo like that still irks me LMAO #i cant even remember what chapter that happened in i just know when it did i was utterly pissed #i think i started to take things less seriously once bryce entered the picture but thats only because of how distracting his VA was #like much love the JP voice actors who try to speak english and japanese but i just cant act like it's not incredibly distracting #esp when the character is supposed to be white yk what i mean- or at the very least their first language is supposed to be english #typically i can look over that thing if its a one or two time kind of deal but he had to speak in english much longer than others #im just rambling about bryce tho this aint bout him. i mean he could be a part of it the cult was executed really sloppily #it might have been the introduction of bryce actually ... i remember thinking to myself 'oh brother' with the whole messiah thing LMAO #maybe it was when kiryu told us his cancer cam from radiation instead of. smoking 💀 ESPECIALLY not even five chapters in #like straight out the gate you just wanna drop that on us mr I Can Do Everything Myself I Cant Worry Others ok #thats a post for another day tho im EVERYWHERE #POINT IS this is not about Retrospect this is about First Impressions and memory warps over time #but i know for a fact i found the bleach japan thing utterly ridiculous and was squinting at the plot the entire time thereafter #like ive said this a million times at this point but although i love IW for it's gameplay (pardon some nitpicks like lack of shortcuts) #its story really feels so messy and had much to be desired. which is so sad after the wonderful stories rgg has been making since 0.. #BUT OH WELL im still excited to replay it in english. god willing i ever get the time #i still wanna finish lost judgment <- isnt even halfway through the game #and i wanna do a fun stream Maybe with YK2 but ill get into that when i get into that #if youve read this far. thanks LOL id say sorry for the novel but thats what we expect of me at this point

[dmc5se]

ive had really bad headaches everyday for the past few days so im sorry if art is slower than normal 😭

#i feel kind of bad if i go a day or two without posting but if i feel like i need to ill just queue some of my old art 🥺 #i have the next few days off so hopefully i can feel a little better and have more time to draw .. #between this bout of headaches + my knees getting a little worse i am just consistently in pain lately 😭

[moe-broey]

You know Henriette is lowkey kind of anime (like the SuMo anime) Lusamine-core. To me

#a lot of people were frustrated obvs w the changes made to lusamine after og sumo and i def see it #and i DEF agree w it regarding ultra sumo. but i actually do kind of like the direction they took #w anime lusamine. like yeah it was a huge departure from the games. but given the context/genre of the anime #it didn't feel like a retcon? it felt more like they had to make adjustments to her to fit the very #slice of life comedy direction the sumo anime took. and there were still intense and emotional #story beats/arcs for the aether family too. #and i think the changes to lusamine actually complimented the changes to lillie #who's main conflict/struggle is her intense fear of touching pokemon due to trauma #so like! lillie is still traumatized! and for a slice of life comedy one big struggle is enough. #she didn't need an abusive controlling parent on top of that LMFAOOO (save that conflict for game lillie #esp cause in game her whole arc centers around that) #man i actually don't remember why gladion was a runaway in the anime though now that i think about it. #but like for the entire maybe one person who follows me and has the pokemon sumo/feh overlap interest #does this make sense????????? i feel like it does #i actually don't know if i have any followers who have that overlap. i feel like you're either here for feh/askr sibs specifically #or you had the misfortune of finding me in a brief bout of pokemon fixation and have discovered. oh #oh you BARELY post pokemon actually LMFAOOO you're just insane over some blue hair and pronouns bitch #and sharena 😇💖 #fe henriette

[gayrogues]

there is no fucking way that tom king's shitty oneshot, featuring the most out-of-character riddler known to man and a batman who breaks his no kill rule and waterboards people, got nominated for an eisner award...

#i hate the riddler issue of one bad day so much it's unreal #1. why write a riddler comic if you're gonna be like 'actually he HATES riddles and puzzles and won't be using them anymore' #now he's just some guy who kills people #2. i don't think i need to explain why i hate the concept of batman breaking the no kill rule or waterboarding people #3. trying to make the killing joke relevant again after 30 years? to say that ed was the mastermind behind it? #4. the plot is just. incredibly silly and not in a good way like you're telling me once the riddler stops using riddles he #becomes powerful enough to take over the entire city and batman can't do anything about it except kill him? #and i'm not talking taking over the city like in zero year where there was an actual plan #in one bad day everyone just gets sooo scared of him and his massive brain that they fall in line #5. that is not his fucking backstory #that's like. the complete opposite of it. keeping only the part about him having a shitty dad #he was never a prestigious prep school kid under immense pressure to be the smartest #he was just some kid who went unnoticed by everyone and that's why winning that puzzle contest was so important to him #and then his dad refused to believe he was smart enough to win the contest without cheating and you know the rest #he has a very ordinary backstory that explains a lot about him #meanwhile i feel like tom king was like 'oh shit this series is called one bad day' #'i need to give ed a pivotal moment in his life that made him fucked up and evil' #'how bout i write all this stuff leading up to him brutally killing his teacher at the age of like 15' #and it just sucked ass #i feel like there was more stuff i hated that i'm forgetting but i am not gonna re-read this comic to remember! at least the art was good #oopsie daisy these tags turned out to be much longer than i was expecting - i don't even care about the eisner awards i just saw the #category pop up on the library app that i use and i was like Why is This in here #ransom.txt

[maudlin-scribbler]

Mother has told me she thinks that my behaviour has been getting worse lately and that apparently she doesn't recognise me anymore but it's really that I'm so tired of her shit and my family in general + school + my mental state that I barely care to pretend around her anymore and yes maybe I am more of a dick around my family. But whatever me sometimes raising my voice at them and telling them to leave me alone is only like 5% of everything they've ever put me through

#corin's lore #Okay so where I was a dick maybe was that #My aunt wanted to talk to me on the phone and I told my mom I wasn't on the mood to talk to her #I really wasnt cause she was gonna give me some advice I didnt care for #So aunt hears and gets pretty upset curses my mother out and then hangs up #And okay. Its my fault but now my mom is upset at me and even threatened to take my phone away #And now mother is on this whole spiel bout how Ive changed and she doesnt recognise me anymore yada yada yada #Ive always been kind of a dick & obnoxious ig its my thing. Im full of love but I can be mean #She says ive gotten more Like That. #Also she told me my aunt is probs crying and I know im supposed to care but my aunt sure she gives us money but shes a dick to us too #And like. Shes not crying ik her she's just upset at me. And i dont give a damn idk i dont even hate her #I just have a hard time feeling any sort of affection for my family which is fucked up but I can abrely feel anything for any of them #Besides.my sister whom I love I cant say that I really love any of them theyre just there to me

[aria0fgold]

Yaknow what? I'll just post my lil isat au fic here instead. After I eat.

#aria rants #idk why ao3 became intimidating to me somehow but am also like-- i shoouuullldd upload it to ao3... but-- #tbf im still indecisive bout the au with it being in its baby stages so ig the lil fic idea i got is like-- testing the waters #if i write this and upload it to ao3 in the next moment ill be having ANOTHER oafb moment in my hands. i can feel it #so ill do planning First by a Lot before i set off to the wild with a possible longfic au idea #also its cuz that fic idea i got ends in a somewhat cliffhanger tone in a: to be continued? kind of way #so its obvious that i got mooorre plans for it than just a oneshot but the thing here is that i also got nothing else rn #so yea. to tumblr it goes! until i can figure out my isat au some more then to ao3!

[djmixedtape]

say what you want about reddit but the kind strangers of r/excel just helped me solve a work problem that's gonna make me look like a superhero tomorrow

#I'm just gonna waltz in tomorrow morning like oh this ole thing yeah i whipped it up last night #totally nbd #meanwhile I'm currently riding an ego high like no other as i consume knowledge about excel en mass #bout to make thr vlookup function my BITCH #reddit #r/excel #for some reason i feel like the r/excel community doesn't have a huge presence on tumblr #excel #maybe thatll help

[orcelito]

Omfg I never actually posted about this but just like 2 days ago I realized that no it is Not normal to experience lightheadedness near daily when I've gone just a little too long without eating

I looked it up and apparently lightheadedness/dizziness CAN be a part of fibromyalgia (which I think I have for a number of different reasons), so like. It all makes sense.

Fuckin fibromyalgia. It's the source of like 95% of my physical problems, I swear. Every Damn Thing can be traced back to it. What a pain.

#speculation nation #'what a pain' haha get it bc chronic pain #frankly speaking the chronic pain part of it isn't the Worst. it's only a few times a month that i get my arm and leg aches #(though sometimes ill have bouts that last longer. like in january i think when i had arm aches for over a Week) #then again my rib cartilage inflammation is a permanent thing. my ribs Always are fucked up. #and i dont know 100% that it's bc of fibro but this condition has been linked to fibro and it didnt go away with anti-inflammatories So #in the end the pain isnt my biggest concern for treating my fibro. aside from the frequent headaches. i Would like to counter those. #what i really need is help with my chronic fatigue and weakness spells #i hate how fragile i feel so much of the time. bc im NOT weak. for my size im actually surprisingly strong. #but im quick to tire and if i push myself too hard then im practically bedridden #i will literally get symptoms of sickness if im too fatigued. including nausea and coughing and headaches #all fixed after ive gotten some rest. so im not Actually sick. #im tired and fed up with how finicky my body is and how i have to eat on time always or i'll be threatened with passing out. #havent passed out Yet but ive had some times where i end up Having to sit bc i get tunnel vision and my scalp is prickling #and it feels like my brain is squeezing and i know i Have to sit down Right Now #idk. there are many things like this. and i am sooooo tired of it. #i want a fibro diagnosis so i can actually get some help for the things that make life so hard to live. #im not depressed im just chronically fatigued. and so very tired. #give me some Energizing Meds or smth. help me please 😭😭😭 i hate living like this 😭😭😭😭😭 #i wanna be able to do things without being bedridden for the rest of the day 😭😭😭😭 please 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[gongedtornado]

help girl i got too silly <\3 (overthought every interaction ever)

#im okay i think #(lying) #hoooh boy #ill be alr but girl (/gnc) what the fuck is this #nahh i could’ve had a NORMAL FUNCTIONING brain but yknow what i got instead ? #a sentient lump of meat. that likes to imagine scenarios that will *never* happen and form ideas of what people think of it #even if like. yknow. ITS IRRATIONAL AS FUCK AND LIKELY WRONG ABOUT EVERYTHING #see. if i was a house cat i wouldnt have to worry bout this shit . just be kitty. lick paw. take nap. eat. in whatever order i desire. #oh and be silly and cute. #‘’embarrassing myself in front of a customer? overthinking what a coworker said?’’ #‘’eeerm. oh? you wanted to carry on about your day?’’ #‘’too bad. here’s the underlying feeling of dread for the next few hours. have fun!’’ #I HATE BEING SENTIENT RAHHH RAHHH #I COULD HAVE BEEN A LITTLE GUY DOING LITTLE THINGS. WHAT IS THIS!!!! WHAT THE FUCK! #i know i should be a big guy and act like it. but sometimes you gotta like. be a little insane. #okay anyways anxiety rant over. if for some reason you read my rant while i was Probably loosing my mind um. #1. i am sooo sorry you had to witness my illposting #2. i give you a little smooch (/p) for sticking with me . I bite you . (/pos) #kazzy complains #me when im cringe on main

[welcometogrouchland]

The cognitive function is not functioning, I think

#ramblings of a lunatic #feels like i make a million posts like this in a week but I can't. help it there's sand in my brain #idk if it's. brain fog??? can i claim brainfog. i saw someone say it's a chronic illness + adhd term #that's been misused by the general public so idk if i even have the right impression of it. also i feel like I'm going insane #I'm fully functional but everytime I'm left alone with my thoughts (which is most of the day) i feel like I'm rotting by overthinking #that sentence i said above about not knowing who's able to claim brainfog feels like it should be deranged on some level #but I'm overthinking and that's the kind of thing I'm overthinking. #im also thinking about how my overthinking isn't even the worst overthinking I've witnessed so really it's not overthinking #that's also a deranged sentence i feel #just. I'm tired all of the time. and i have no way 2 fix that. and i think it's all getting to my brain and I'm not. feeling awesome bout it #it's makin me anxious about my ability to Think and Be Smart and Capable and it's freaking me #hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #i might make a sandwich soon. it won't fix everything and im not long after dinner but like. it might help

[todayisafridaynight]

About Judgment: In short, I think RGGS was intending to continue the series. There were indeed rumors at one point that the series would end at Lost Judgment due to a disagreement with Kimura's agency, Johnny & Associates, about porting the games to PC--I'm unclear on why, there was speculation but I don't think it was ever stated. Obviously the PC ports are out now, so either that wasn't the issue or they moved past it. There's also just general disbelief around there being a third entry simply because there's this idea (joke?) that Kimura never does three of anything, which isn't true at this point. It is true RGGS historically hasn't done three of anything in terms of spinoff series (Kurohyou, Mobile+Kizuna, and arguably Kenzan+Ishin), but it's also true that none of their past spinoffs have been as successful as Judgment, and we're seeing a lot of "firsts" from the studio lately. The fact is that Yokoyama himself said something along the lines of "and of course, we won't forget about Judgment" (not literally, just the closest English expression I can think of that can be misinterpreted in the way I'm about to explain) while talking about future works. But for some reason, people took it as if he meant it "in mourning" rather than an obvious confirmation of more to come, I guess? A TV show was also announced, so I really don't get why they'd invest so much into a series they were going to end. I know Kurohyou got a show too, but this seems different. Anyway, that's the most recent information, but it's from some years ago. There is a major new development, however: J&A talents' contracts are being cancelled left and right as of the last couple of months due to the agency's dogshit handling of and response to an investigation into Johnny Kitagawa's serial abuse of allegedly hundreds of his talents. That's been going on since the man died in 2019, basically, but a lot's happened this year.

This has left the talents with the incredibly tough decision of either remaining at an agency that refuses to even change its name and is rapidly breaking down or leaving. It has historically been very difficult to do the latter. On top of what you'd expect, J&A controls their talents to an insane degree and has leveraged their control of the media to suppress the careers of those who leave.

Broadly, in terms of how media companies have responded so far, I understand not wanting to associate with J&A and that J&A would likely benefit from the contracts more than the talents, but it still feels like the talents are the ones being punished... I have to imagine at least some of them were victims, so to be victims of the blacklist on top of that... That, and some of these companies kept the truth from coming out for decades.

With J&A losing its foothold in the media, though, there may be no better time than now to leave the agency. I don't know if Kimura will--rumors have been circulating ever since his idol group were forced to break up years and years ago, but while they all went independent, he never has--especially because a lot of seniors like him feel a responsibility to stay and change the agency for the better. As of right now, I'm not aware of Kimura's contracts getting cancelled, so I can't say one way or another if that'd have an effect.

I don't know what happens from here. I'm not sure if RGGS will look at it as collaborating with J&A or with Kimura or both, and how they'll factor in what's going on right now into working with him. Hypothetically, it would be possible to continue the series even without Kimura (any of the other mains do or would make great protagonists), but at the same time, Judgment is hugely reliant on Kimura's charisma. That's why people who play the dub (or people who don't like Kimura) often come away with the impression Yagami's kind of a dick or doesn't stand out much.

So... that's the state of Judgment right now. We won't know until we know, I guess.

OHHHHH OK saucy... sucks about J&A- it'd be cool if yk. they could face the consequences of their actions LMAO but that Could involve displacing hella workers now wouldnt it

#snap chats #well i hope something neat is done with judgement. again i have barely touched it but it does seem like a rad series.. #rgg #anyway... unrelated tag ramble time... i feel so ugly LMAO i just havent eaten yet. im makin rice now tho #Insane we had a roommate meeting x days ago and one of the agreed upon things was that we could use each others appliances #and one of my roommates brought a rice cooker but obvi i wanted to ask first but she said no so. gotta use a pot. of which ive never done #it shouldnt be hard tho... lol.. s'just rice.. #im technically supposed to be at class rn but im dropping it this week so id feel weird going to a three-hour class im not coming back to #heres to hoping my fuckin emails are answered or ill actually have to be an adult and do it myself LMAO #honestly i will later tonight if my email aint answered i hate waiting on stuff like this #after i Hopefully eat some fried rice balls i might doodle or i might practice some Y7 chapters #im still mad LMAO but im gonna make a ramble post in a sec bout that #ty for sharin the gossip with me thats wild.... agencies annoying as hell And Criminal Sometimes i SWEARR

[tonariofjananda]

Good night, sweet prince.

Based off @alphaofdarkness ‘s Wing! AU

#Bonchien Nicoli La Tasty Peach Uralis #Bonchien #my art #To Your Eternity #Fumetsu No Anata E #To You The Immortal #AHHHHHH didn’t get a chance to cross post this cuz I was at a 3 hour movie lol waaaaaaah!!! I been thinking bout him all day!!! #actually it’s kind of fitting to post this rn it’s nightime where I’m at #anyway #I would have lined and/or colored this in (that was the plan actually) but I fell in love with how soft it was #like I was gonna draw him with his full armor too but I realized belatedly I didn’t want to figure out how that would work with his wings 😭 #and so I left him shirtless and drew some closed eyes as placeholders and then on a whim I gave him a pillow #and it became this soft thing!!!! 😭❤️ like he got tuckered out halfway through taking off his armor and just conked out :’O #I’m just sooo quietly in love with this… it was gonna be a little more silly/‘sexy’ so idk how this even happened lol #ANYWAY. I’d talk more about this art #BUT THIS AU GRIPPED ME BY THE HAIR AND WOULD NOT LET GO it’s so fun and I’m just AHHHH #like March AND Eko’s Itty bitty baby wings ;0; and Messar having the most preened wings #Messar 100% has a full care routine in place for those wings and I KNOW he’ll never admit it #GUGU’S BEING FIREPROOOOOOFFFF which I feel also adds an extra layer to when he and Kai wrap their wings around the whole group #like!!!! they’re extra safe!!!!!!!!!!! #and Tonari’s POISON COAT GGRRRR IM GOING FERAL but also like I’m thinking of that one scene from the movie Holes #where the lady paints her nails with poison and I’m just imagining Tonari plucking one of her own wings to write with whenever she needs to #like it’s an inconspicuous weapon too like she’s writing and next second WHAM feather to the throat 😩❤️ #HAIRO’S THO. THAT ONE WAS INSPIRED. It hurts my heart that he has a complicated relationship with his wings but it’s so beautiful like #he has a disability!!! he now works harder to use his wings than anyone else!!!!! #and it’s kinda nice in a way cuz I feel like this could be a way for him and Eko to bond #since they both have had trouble with flying and whatnot #given her having a few wings that are smaller than the other like I kinda like the idea of him taking out Eko and March to practice flying #… gosh Kai and Gugu wrapping their wings around anyone I didn’t mean to circle back to this #but wow this AU has my whole heart Alpha I love it!!!