#just. tell your parents i'm sorry

[smfstump]

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#just did the hard thing and removed most of the pics i had on social media of me and someone who hurt me really badly #i don't know why i feel as empty as i do about #it #maybe this is me accepting this is the end of whatever the fuck it was we had #i'm meeting them on friday and am going to tell them that i'm done #i cant try anymore when they're barely trying #i currently have them blocked here on all the accounts i'm aware they have so they won't see this #but on the off chance they do. i'm sorry but i can't do it anymore #whatever we had was great at the time but i can't forgive you for what you did and continue to do #you're a part of every single part of my life and i HATE that i can't look at anything without thinking of you #from my gender to my religion to the decorations on my walls to my interests to theatre #you're a part of all of it and it's making it so much harder to heal #just. tell your parents i'm sorry #and your grandparents. it's not their fault i'm removing myself from your lives #it's not even necessarily yours #maybe i'm just being immature again #cutting someone off because it's too hard to heal #ugh. anyways #whizzy speaks #tw rant #personal #sorry i just needed to get this out there

[nguyenfinity]

Every time I draw Mamagi it does AoE damage (I am also in the area of effect)

Lighthearted bonus:

#enstars #hiiro amagi #rinne amagi #i don't know if this is a bad time to be amagi-posting given that hiiro's fs2 just dropped but. oh well #also this might be the last thing i draw for a bit because i am in the final stretch of this semester #if you sent in a request. i will get to it and thank you for your patience #anyways i know i'm kinda being like 'haha rinne mama's boy' which like. yeah but also sometimes-- #--sometimes you're an adult in their 20s and like. yeah sure you're technically an adult or whatever but you still feel like a kid yeah? #and sometimes you just maybe want your mom to help you when you're lost or confused or when you need someone to tell you it'll be okay #but you won't get that for whatever reason #sincerely: an adult in their 20s #....can you tell why rinne is like. a vibe to me now #anyways i'm not saying mamagi dying was a necessary evil but if hiiro and rinne had an adult who actually loved them at home they probably- #-wouldn't have left and we wouldn't have the main story #if she was alive today tho she'd be going to their lives sorry i don't make the rules (yes i do) #if she ends up being exactly like the rest of their village in some future lore i'm gonna be so sad. #she'd throw hands with niki's parents #imagine leaving your sons behind because you straight up died (couldn't really do anything about that) #meanwhile your son's boyfriend's parents just. up and left him because they could #also posts with her will be tagged mamagi #if you read all that <3 #mamagi #she'd adopt all the bees and alkaloid too #imagine if they got their singing skills from her #also mamagi 1 rinniki shipper (also does not care it's not legal) #rinniki

[bubacorn]

sleepy time or something like that

#i hope i wake up at 3 am then at 5 am just to see that it is in fact *not* morning #i mean 5 am is almost morning #also pointedly not thinking about how i realized i don't understand human connection #like. at all #and it feels too late #because everyone around me has someone #and i'm just. there #and i'm so tired of thinking about this every day #but i'm lonely #but i don't like the people around me #and i feel the way i'm looked at #and i don't know of it's made up by my brain or not #can someone hold me maybe #like when you're little and your parent is supposed to hug you and validate your feelings and tell you that it's okay to cry #and that it will be alright #because it feels like it never will be anything close to alright #and i'm scared #and so so sad #and it's all stuck inside me #i'm sorry #this is just a tad pathetic

[undertheknightwing]

If Jon ever gets powers someone's gonna have to make sure I don't explode because I already almost did finally seeing Jordan's nonsense getting called out after two seasons of Clois looking over it

#if jon should ever get powers now's the time to do so 👏👏 #i know they're trying to say the firestation is jon's thing but sorry i'm not feeling it #powers would be perfect for him #the selfless caring person who loves helping others clark thought jordan would become jon already is! #all i've seen from the fire station is that.. again.. it's another toxic environment for jon to be a part of #especially with kyle in charge #like maybe i'm just over sensitive but kyle telling jon to not to go to parents but to him instead?? fucking ew?? #made me very uncomfortable #no jon please go to your parents when the ADULTS are treating you bad/weird #kyle has no right to tell jon he can't go to his parents even if it's about kyle himself #gross gross gross #superman and lois #jonathan kent

[cowardlycowboys]

over emotional older sisters and their confused younger brothers who have to deal with them

#omg kiera no one cares #this is about mykah and then also about me because like you cant have a post about mykah with it including me #it really sucks to like watch a kid just live your life really #like hey man it really doesn't get better!!!! I'm sorry!!! at least your parents got divorced tho i told my mom I'd kill myself if she left #i was your age too so like i get it!! hate to tell you this tho but it mostly gets worse and he doesn't really get better unless he goes on #a lot a lot of drugs! #she just started crying this morning and was like I'm just being over emotional like wow I've said that too all the time at that age #mykah is sooo kieracoded and that's why she hates when i tell her anything #we butt heads because she's me<33 #I've been thinking about this all day and i just cried lol so #i hope she isn't as bad as me tho because i stood in the kitchen with a knife to me when my mom got divorce INFORMATION #like dubi I'll do it you leave him I'll do it i don't care that he's sooo mean and violent I'll end everything right now at 6½ #forgot i did that until just now but wow great times<33 #can laugh about it now hahahaha

[letterstotheflre]

why does my mom look at me like she's disappointed every time i tell her i'm going out w a guy

#it's the same guy every time btw #there's nothing wrong w going out w multiple guys but she's acts like it's a different guy every week. like she doesn't believe i'm telling #the truth. i get it cause i lie to her about it all the time but.. you're not even gonna pretend?? #like.. you're annoyed i'm telling you the truth but if i never tell you anything you also get annoyed?? make up your mind girl #i hate telling her too. every time i walk up to her to do it i feel chains on my ankles. and i'm not being dramatic #i need to move out asap. it will bring me so much peace of mind #i'm 90% sure i will reach my full potential the second i'm out of my parents reach. #unfortunately it means i have to work 🤮 but anything for some peace #also my mom told my dad i'm going on a date and he??? told me to send him the guy's number??? wtf #like my dude.. i do not have his phone number. we need to be friends for 3 months before i give you my number in the first place. #sorry for the rant i'm just so tired of this. #like i literally don't want to go on any more dates if we have to do this all the time. it makes my desire for a bf disappear completely #bc if i have to do this multiple times in a year until i feel comfortable enough for the guy to come to my house i will shoot myself #keeping up with tina

[manofmanymons]

Posting this here too because I haven't stopped laughing at it since yesterday

Miu <3

(Truthful route spoilers)

#digimon survive #i think the reason it's so funny right #is literally just miu's reaction #because you'd THINK #she would yell at him for getting overprotective #and being a paranoid loser #and tell him to calm down and leave takuma alone #ESPECIALLY BECAUSE IN CONTEXT SHE'S THE ONE WHO ASKED TAKUMA TO COME AND HANG OUT WITH HER #but she just #awww they're getting along <3 #like a parent watching a couple of kids playing in a sandbox #and not like watching her brother attempt a murder #SHE'S SO UNBOTHERED #sorry I've been spamming the survive tag so much I'm procrastinating on another exam #also I found this scene while making my miu compilation post and laughed at it for like ten hours straight #also Kaito honey you are literally deranged <3 #takuma at several different points in the game by now: i swear on my life i dont want to date your sister #kaito: ARE YOU TRYING TO MARRY MY SISTER YOU PIECE OF SHIT #get therapy #I'm STILL laughing why are they so insane

[skullshoal]

doctors be diagnosing me with problems.

#broken pencil #I started seeing a therapist last week for the first time ever. I think it's ok. #I'm currently changing my antidepressants to different ones. so I'm. In the fucking Trenches dude #I told my therapist my psychiatrist told me i “probably have ptsd” and then they were like how long ago did they diagnose you? #and i was just like oh god. Is that a diagnosis. Like i guess that makes sense. I just never know when a doctor is like #this might be you or I'm Telling you this is you #Told one doctor a dermatoligist suggested I have pcos and she was like yeah. Writes that down. #Theyre just SO BLUNT ABOUT IT #Told my psych about my extreme levels of anxiety and she was like “So when did the paranoia start?” #SORRY YOU JUST GRADUATED MY REGULAR ANXIETY TO PARANOIA? I HAVE PARANOIA? #🍳🍳🍳🤪 Me getting slapped over the head with obvious shit #Also when i saw my therapist and told them about my problems they were just like. So it's like that thing your parents did? LIKE YEAH. #I GUESS IT'S ALL LIKE THAT THING MY PARENTS DID AND IT'S BEEN THAT THE WHOLE TIME HUH.

[kurara-black-blog]

The mere thought of any character blaming Makoto for not saving his classmates/the world makes my blood boil

#i saw an au where one of his classmates' parent blamed Makoto for not doing enough #and I got so angry I blocked the entire blog #if you're the person behind the au... well I blocked you so you won't see this. but still I'm sorry #no hate to you and anyone who likes your au #but Makoto is my Blorbo y'know? #he's just a boy trying his best #he's just as lost and helpless as everyone else why should the blame and responsibility fall on him? #he didn't choose to be called The Ultimate Hope #y'all placing your expectations for TUH on him #where were you when class 78 was forced to kill each other to survive? don't tell me you didn't know Bitchshima broadcasted that #fuck maybe she fucking even streamed that #where were you then? #anyway I feel better now #danganronpa trigger happy havoc #naegi makoto #ultimate hope

[maddy-ferguson]

i hate it when rory reminds lorelai of the fact that she's her mother and lorelai gets offended like yeah...you're raising her and she calls you mom, you're her mother

#i'm watching kiss and tell #'this isn't amish country girls and boys usually date alone' #richard reacts exactly like this when lorelai tells him she has to go back to work in help wanted lol like father like daughter #i'm sorry i think being your daughter's best friend as she's growing up is dysfunctional #there has to be something between emily's parenting style and lorelai's #'rory and i are best friends first mother daughter second you and i are mother and daughter always' whatever that means #i know what it means i just don't believe that it works and it very often doesn't for them #the end of season 4/beginning of season 5 is a great example #gilmore girling

[bumblingbabooshka]

The Pathways Novel is the holy grail of young Tuvok characterization because I can just sense so clearly through the page how insufferable he would be to talk to

#and let me tell you? insufferable IS affectionate with a million hearts drawn around it #A girl confessed her love to him and he basically grabbed her by the shoulders and said Sophie....please get ahold of yourself! #Remember WWJD!! and she has to be like '.....y e ah ok. yeah. sorry.' and then they parted ways forever #Tuvok at the monastery observing the other initiates like I'm the only one who /really/ gets what we're going for here but who am I to judge #I think the line is something like 'Tuvok despised what he thought to be the partaking in unncessary luxuries but he trusted that the elders #knew best' #I think Tuvok's life is just going through different particular types of Difficult-To-Talk-To #crybaby kid to know it all teen to wannabe priest to holier than thou initiate to when-I-was-your-age dad #then he FINALLY started chilling the hell out #AH I keep saying 'monastery' its a temple #I love Tuvok him being earnestly annoyed by others has fine-wined into dry remarks while definitely NOT rolling his eyes #Tuvok cares SO much is the thing. <3 guy who is full of not-love #Guy who makes terrible horrendous first impressions but then eventually worms his way into your heart (VERY unintentionally hes NOT trying) #It'd be funny if everyone liked T'Pel right away in contrast hehe...<3 #Tuvok's parents' characterizations in that book are NOT canon to me though #also there's a funny moment where Tuvok is complaining about how their sons are (in his opinion) not disciplined enough #and when he looks to T'Pel for her opinion she's just fallen asleep #and he considers waking her up despite the fact that she JUST gave birth before going hmm.....better not. #Wise Choice Friend HEHEHEH....g od...dumbass <3

[adhd-mode-activate]

I pray that all of y'all are able to experience the gift that is teachable parents.

I grew up in a conversative Christian family (in my immediate family, I mean conversative in the religious sense. In my extended family, there are political conversative, but my parents strongly disagree with them). For years what I knew of the LGBTQ community was my aunt and her wife (who are quite frankly awful people; smol me assumed any gay person I met would hate me because I was a Christian) and what I googled at 2 AM

I didn't realize I was demi until I was 18 and went on a deep dive research hole in my dorm. I was scared to say anything to anyone. I assumed I'd be an outcast in the culture I grew up in, but I also didn't think anyone else would accept me.

I don't really know how it happened, but four years later I've got some of the coolest friends ever. One of my best friends thinks I'm crazy for the labels I collect like the human personification of a crow (which is where one of my nicknames comes from), but she loves me anyway. The other thinks I'm crazy for my faith, but she doesn't hate me for it. Instead, she asks me questions that I love to answer. I'm a demiromantic/biromantic asexual who's 90% sure that she's a girl about...60% of the time (gender is confusing, y'all), and I'm comfortable with that

And my parents? Well, it took three attempts at describing demisexuality to my mom for her to "get" it. She didn't understand how it was different from "normal" (mom, I've heard you talk about how you fell in love with my dad, and the one other person you dated before that, and how you couldn't imagine dating someone you weren't friends with first. There might be a reason you thought being demi was normal). But the thing is? After initially saying that she didn't understand, she was the one to come back and say "I've been thinking about it, and I realized I didn't handle that well. Could you explain again?" It took a while for me to come out to my parents. Little by little, testing the waters because of my irrational fears of disappointing them. They're not disappointed. My mom doesn't agree with me on everything, but she trusts me. If she has a question about anything related to attraction or gender identity or mental health, she asks me, because she trusts that even if we end up disagreeing, she'll learn something. My dad is a man of few words, but he will not hesitate to call out what he thinks is wrong. So the fact that he listens when I pace the room, verbally tearing apart an argument against trans rights, means a lot. Not only does he listen, he helps me strengthen my arguments. Any time I find a new fight, he gives me the resources and the weapons to wield it. He's a historian and a good one. When I am grieved and angry and bitter at the wrongs I see hidden behind the name of Christianity, he shows me history and where it's happened before and how it was righted. And then tells me to go. Keep making friends, keep putting my anger to good use, keep loving as deeply as I do. because if no one is angered by injustices they are never righted

My parents are still conversative Christians. They understand that I make decisions they never could. They know I will challenge them on things they never would have thought about, go places they never could, interact with people they never will interact with. But they're willing to learn from me. They're willing to trust me, willing to disagree with me without breaking the relationship. They're willing to be a safe space for any friend who is not safe in their own home for whatever reason. I pray that all of y'all will have parents like that, who even if they don't agree with you on everything, trust you (which I think is a healthy thing, each generation should grow and learn from the previous one and be willing to challenge things their predecessors wouldn't without losing the good already done)

And, if you don't think that's possible, you can have mine. Considering the fact that my mom was giddy when I told her I'd adopted a couple of my younger friends, and nearly cried with happiness when I told her that of course they could be her grandkids, she'll love you. My dad will be glad to show you one of his special interests (history, theology, cooking, or the potato cannon he and my brother built out of PVC pipe in the back yard are good starts if you're curious what special interests he might have). My mom will lavish you with all the affection you could ever want and then some. My dad will make you laugh when your emotions threaten to drown you.

If you don't have a home, I offer mine. Welcome home.

#okie sorry for the long post I'm gonna go listen to Epic on repeat now #I hope y'all like pet fish because when I have a proper house I'm going to have fish tanks for bettas *everywhere* #and plants! #and I'm learning how to cook so just tell me your favorite food #I started writing this with the idea of talking about how my parents are pretty cool people #especially with how insane I am #(though let's not lie they're also insane) #but it turned into a “come home” kind of thing and I'm fine with that #but anyway #just needed to say some Things #<3 I love all of you

[princemick]

god my brother is so impressively fucking capable of ruining my mood

#never letting me talk always undermining me literally fucking laughing at me if I wanna finish a conversation he thinks is dumb #constantly fucking checking my facts n making me sound and feel dumb as hell and making sure I alknowlege that hes right #and then when I tell him one of his facts or shit he said is plainly wrong not even fucking looking at me or telling me im right #bc he's fucking incapable of thinking I'm even a little bit smart and sometimes know shit that he fucking doesn't #because his stupid fucking superiority complex is bigger then the fucking eiffel tower and I'm so fucking annoyed by it fuck OFF #kyle.txt #uh sorry for the rant ig #but just had dinner w him n my parents n I was in a pretty good mood before and now feel like fucking shit bc of how he acts #and then he keeps saying I'm an asshole because I always make shit abt me WHEN HE NEVER EVEN ALKNOWLEDGES MY FUCKING STORIES #and he always talks just abt him to like fucking reflect on your own bullshit before calling out mine you absolutely gigantic fucking ass

[slipper007]

🫠

#im sorry for how much I've been venting on here but things are shitty and hate burdening people with it #to delete #im applying for grad school now and I asked my parents very carefully if they'd be helping me with application fees or if i was on my own #and I made sure that I didn't imply that I expected it. i made sure i worded it so that it was fine if they didn't want to or couldn't. #and I made sure I brought it up when everything was calm and there were no stressors or anything. #and I just got an exasperated sigh and even before they said anything it was over. literally just say you don't want to pay. it's fine. #don't sit there and tell me my grades are great but you don't want to waste your money. that feels so much worse than just being told no. #it feels like they don't believe I'll get in and it's not worth the effort to find out. #and honestly they're probably right. I'm a wreck lately. finishing my applications feels insurmountable. #finding the money to go even if I get accepted is impossible. and that feels awful because I know so many people getting free rides already #it's just like high school all over again. everyone's practically getting paid to go to one of their top schools and then there's me. #stressed about application fees #stressed about what on earth I'll do if they say no #stressed about how I cannot afford this without loans and being in debt. #i just. i hate this. i hate myself. my applications look like shit. the recommendation I've gotten back is literally shit. #i already know I'm not gonna do well in the quote unquote adult world and honestly this is just proving it to me #i literally haven't felt like me since junior year of high school and i don't know what to do and there's just no time to rest #and no time to put my all into anything #im doing school and 10 hours of work per week with free weekends and i can't rest already #how the fuck am I going to do school and 30+ hours a week of work and make rent and commute and agh #i feel so behind and so inferior and so fucking shitty all the time and there's nothing to fucking do about it #hhhhhhh #and nobody gets it. least of all me.

[noxtivagus]

i'm so sleepy

#🌙.rambles #really wanted to do so much more today but. i did a lot #i'm really happy w yk yeah bio n literature earlier n then #earlier hehe me n apollo were chilling in our parents' room bcs our dad was playing the 1975 music out loud. bonding over music c: #n then. talking w my friends a bit but.. specifically i'm really happy i managed to. hmm. hopefully those words reached her #i know my friends well i think. more than it seems on the outside #so i really want to do things for them n i know how to convey it in such a way that it wld at least resonate with them more #but i really do hesitate that i'll do it wrong yk? or i'm low on energy myself #but. i'm just. personally proud that tonight at least i managed to tell help her a bit. i really had a feeling she hasn't been doing well #for. the past months. i'm so sick of hesitating i just want to reach out but i really get afraid sometimes n i'm sorry #sincerity n authenticity n honesty mean a lot to me but. my friends aren't usually. as Open yk #goddamn i can't write it well enough bcs i cld write how i perceive it specifically for each n every single close friend of mine #n i really just want to help in any way i can bcs i really do care #i'm. also just really for the friend i said earlier. i really just.. know how it feels to have that hope crushes n for it to #ah. i don't know how to write it but the words are in my head. i really wish i cld just call or hug my friends anytime to just reassure #them or listen or just be company. bcs i know how it feels all too well n when i'm managing a bit better like i am right now i just #want to make the most of it but.. sigh #i'm more. yk more of a writer than your average person. but #writing is just so hard at times isn't it? but i really want to do as much as i can #n then. i don't know i think i need to cry i think. i want to do so much #yk that horoscope.co thing. i'm not too big on astrology i just find it interesting but w scorpio sun & capricorn moon (bcs that's me) #read it again n it a bunch of not rlly resonated with me :^) ffs i just want to do so much n it hurts #bcs i want to be kind to myself but i'm in a constant battle of. yeah really trying not to push myself but it's so hard #when people are put in the picture. humans are social beings. it's inevitable n. it's just so.. it just feels so helpless for me i think. #bcs there's so much in me that wants to just be freed like. i want to be who i am with no restraint but. #there's just.. a lot too but. #thinking of earlier today n how i overcame my anxiety. n we. we bought the tickets. for the 1975. doesn't feel real but my motivation rlly #yeah. n then. fuck the pain i'm channeling that energy to my motivation instead but #i really.. need to sleep. i'm sorry i can't do more right now. i really want to. tomorrow. i hope. i will do more. but i'll rest now. #..n tonight somehow maybe telling you to rest wld reach you somehow. probably not but i'll just leave this here.

[admiringlove]

i want a boyfriend who has a dog so i can love the dog more than the actual boy

#i'm sorry 🫶🏼 #my friend just got a golden retriever puppy and i am ✨jealous✨ #asian parents r so rude they tell u they'll buy you a dog for your 5th bday & suddenly ur about to be an adult and u still don't have a dog #someone send me a puppy through the mail 😻 #sam rambles for no reason 📼