#like I even unblocked people!!!

[carnelian-pimpernel]

to the two people who sent me asks that went unanswered: 

Tumblr is a bitch and wouldn’t let me look at them and the notifications were driving me crazy so I deleted them I’m so, so sorry

#like I even unblocked people!!! #to see if it was from a blocked account #NOTHING #I changed my theme #NADA #I fucked with my settings #ZILCH #but Tumblr kept telling me I had two ask in my inbox #WELL WHAT ARE THEY TUMBLR #this mystery will haunt my nightmares I just know it #I'm going to wake up tonight sweating and in tears #I'll never know what they wanted to say smh

[horse-head-farms]

just realised a transphobe was following me, blocked now. 👍 but I mention this because their follow list was public and it was a complete 50/50 split between terf blogs and minecraft youtuber blogs which is the funniest combination I have seen in my life because how the fuck can you be transphobic in mcytblr what. everyone here is either trans or the biggest ally ever. it wasn’t a hatefollow thing either they were following a bunch of popular mcyt blogs, some CCs and xb themed blogs (like this one) which seems like a pretty normal selection. just losing my mind over the fucking transphobic xb fan out there. like what transphobe has a blorbo with pronouns in his yt bio and is a man that enjoys being called princess. a good chunk of the blogs they are following are openly trans too. how does this even happen. what

#idk maybe i should have kept them unblocked and just posted transfem hypno stuff and converted them to the good side #but then again im not even trans and it grosses me out to think about a bigot following me. horrible. and its not my duty to #fix other peoples problems #anyways thank you tumblr user hyp xb whose fanfic i was about to reblog and then saw you respond to this guy in notes #<- username spaced apart because i dont want to mess up my tag search #transphobia #cw transphobia #sorry for the heavier post this is just insane to me #this is the first time i have seen a hardcore bigot in the mcyt community. like people with subconscious biases yeah #but full on transphobic anti-surgery shit. no

[goldensunset]

see it’s not that i hate when people criticize media that i like. i LOVE criticizing my media i do it constantly. it is in itself a manifestation of my love for the media. my problem is simply that i hate seeing criticism immediately after having first finished the media and therefore while still being in supreme hype mode. when i first get done with something i’m too busy reeling from how amazing it was to be willing to tolerate any negativity at all because i’m just absolutely over the moon with excitement at that moment and i don’t want it to be ruined for me even if i’m already subconsciously aware of certain flaws. once a few months have passed and my brain has settled down i can absolutely palate negative critical analysis. so when i say i don’t like haters i just mean it’s unfortunate when other people’s hyped up thought suspension mode doesn’t last as long as mine. like can you wait at least a few days after the thing drops before complaining using the main tags please

#like i’ve blocked people not because i think they’re bad people or objectively wrong #but because i didn’t wanna see it! simply did not want to see it at that moment. i was curating my experience #then i later unblocked them for what it was worth #see if it’s something i’m several months or years late to then yeah that’s fair #if it’s brand new then like. c’mon man you’re ranting already? can you not enjoy it quietly for half a second #peach rambles #i am also just a very hype mode optimistic interpretation lens kinda person #i am always giving media the benefit of the doubt even when i am criticizing it #so that’s just another personality difference between me and some people that makes me not get along with them very well

[getvalentined]

God give me the strength not to name names when pointing out the hypocrisy of Person A telling Person B to "improve their craft before starting shit with other artists" when Person A literally traced half their early body of work and then convinced everyone that the other artists who pointed it out were lying abusers even when there were literal fucking overlays proving it

#vent #holy fucking shit #the lack of self awareness #the absolute fucking audacity of some people #like from what I've seen #she doesn't trace anymore #and I'm really happy for her #but she still made false abuse accusations #and even though there was proof that she traced #everyone was like 'oh yeah that person definitely lied so they're abusive' #like #UNBLOCK ME TRACEY I JUST WANNA TALK

[veone]

😌 I love a bitter ass fucking 🦝. Thank you xldx for assuming a bitch didn’t have anything to say. Sorry I didn’t just pop off like a ghetto ass bitch your cosplaying to be. Can’t go to McDonald’s to ask for ketchup, really. Cause I didn’t jump at the opportunity to cuss yo coon ass out on a Saturday evening when I’m not even thinking about the situation your mad about. Really. What did you want a some attention. You bored. I said my shit you had nothing to say about it. You unblocked me and than blocked me and than decided to talk shit so I can’t response. It’s giving dollie energy it’s cute. I don’t like y’all fave. She weird.

#🤷🏾‍♀️ not sorry if that ya fav I don’t care #she weird shit for unblocking me saying what good #I was like oh cool can I get unblocked by foxbury and then blocked me talking about I don’t want the smoke like bitch what? #I forgot I even wrote that I don’t think about you at all #get over yourself sweety #ya a coon fight ya momma #I come to my conclusion for the dick you do for some anti paywall people lol

[coockie8]

I didn't realise who this was until I went to block them, but bogleech found me on DA

Yeah, not shocked in the slightest they don't remember me, that's the privilege these guys have; they get to throw heinous paedophilia accusations at survivors, tell them they deserve to die over fiction and then just move on with their life like nothing happened.

TW: CSA mention, Incest mention

In case you can't tell; with everything else going on my life right now, I have no patience for this left. Don't want a survivor to dump their trauma on you? Don't claim drawings of an imaginary friend are equivalent.

#proship #anti bs #just anti things #pedophillia mention #incest mention #also love the implication that drawings of a cartoon are ''nastier'' than even jokingly claiming a real person deserves to be stabbed #I'm not unblocking them to get screenshots of them claiming I deserve to be stabbed on one of my proship posts #because that would require unblocking someone who claimed I deserve to be murdered and no #but I can promise you it was *not* said in a ''joking'' way #don't try to fucking gaslight me #and regardless even a ''joke'' is still a death threat in the eyes of the law #how quick we forget about the FBI showing up at an antis house for just *implying* they *might* have sent someone a bomb #you know for a group of people that like to throw legalities around so much they sure don't understand how the law works #on the plus side though they do blatantly admit to having said proshippers deserve to be stabbed #they just think that's fine because they ''didn't *really* mean it'' or whatever #I don't really want this having reblog privileges 'cause this is mostly just venting

[saintarmand]

multiple popular blogs in the iwtv fandom have a documented pattern of behavior of saying anything ranging from "could be interpreted as a bit racist but only if you're looking for it" to now literally "the real racism is actually against white people" and other alt right talking points. LOOK AT THE PATTERN.

you see the same people constantly complaining about how they keep getting called racist by black fans over and over again, and instead of asking yourself "why do so many black fans think these people are racist? could they be onto something?" you zero in on how polite they are about it and go "well, they put some naughty words after the word racist, looks like there really is a woke mob of big bad black bullies terrorizing the fandom, sounds legit!"

the thing is, something like about a year ago, i actually posted an absolute garbage take i can't believe i ever thought was acceptable, and got rightfully called out for it. i had some other white people agreeing with me, but THANK GOD someone i followed reblogged a post talking some sense. i freaked out at first of course. "someone is vagueing about me? that's not exactly what i said verbatim. i'm being misinterpreted unfairly! what if everyone finds out and starts hating me?" i got defensive, though i avoided throwing the classic huge public tantrum by simply logging off until i cooled down a little, so i managed not to draw that much attention. it's probably only because it was people that i already thought seemed really smart who were saying it, that made the voice at the back of my mind go, "what if they're right and i'm wrong?" so i really thought about it. at first i thought it was just my phrasing that was bad and if i explained it better it would be fine. but now that i've had over a year to think about it and listen and learn, i've come to realize just how stupid that was. and it's probably not the only dumb racist post i made, just the one that i saw called out. i've since deleted the whole blog so i can't check. which i admit i did in large part so other people couldn't check anymore either.

and what were the only consequences i faced? there are users that i think are really cool, and even some i was following, who have me blocked. i go :( about it for a second when i can't reblog a post. iirc like 3 anon asks i've gotten in total, only one of which was even mean at all. oh the horror, someone called me a racist bitch. i literally WAS. and even if i wasn't, so what? it made me feel a little bad, yeah. it would probably actually feel LESS bad if i thought it didn't apply. it would just be confusing and a little funny. it did apply, and it probably still does, i got a lot of shit to unlearn. in my book, me feeling bad is absolutely worth it if it brought whoever sent it even a smidgen of satisfaction. them having to witness my bullshit was undoubtedly worse.

the only reason i'm able to be as polite as i am is because as a white person this does not affect me personally. this fandom has been racist since before the show even started. if i saw popular blogs in my fandom being, say, lesbophobic for more than two years, constantly, and getting away with it, still being popular, receiving praise, and every time i said anything about it i had their followers come after me, while consoling them, i'd be pretty fucking pissed. i'd get tired of being nice so fast. and that's not even mentioning the trauma from a lifetime of racism in real life and online that black people have to deal with. i can't even imagine.

"racist" is not a goddamn slur. anyone who tries to tell you that it is has an agenda, and it's not that hard to figure out what that agenda is.

OPEN YOUR EYES AND LOOK AROUND YOU. really look. and when you see it, STAND UP AND SAY SOMETHING. i'm ashamed it's taken me this long to do that.

#iwtv #amc iwtv #amc interview with the vampire #see im tagging literally everything just like you nalyra #did you unblock me yet so i can say it to your face like you want me to? #go to /tagged/s on my blog to see the receipts i posted earlier. tip of the iceberg and doesn't even touch most of the people involved #s #<- see that right there go on my blog and click on the s #i gotta post this quickly cause what usually happens is overanalyze every word i wrote decide it sucks and never end up posting #so this just an “unhinged rant” or whatever you wanna call it #iwtv fandom racism #interview with the vampire #vampterview #vampterviewing

[the-kipsabian]

like i would be fine if you just reposted a meme i made. thats fine. everyone does that its free real estate who cares

but you add ai shit to that i am fully offended tbh. like thats not even effort. youre better changing it with ready made images or just reposting it, i dont care. but as an artist, as a creator, seeing someone use ai to change something

sincerely. fuck off

#im sorry this is so stupid but im mad about it #ai can fuck off and if i see you doing shit with it we are instantly enemies #this was just so off putting to me. tbh i didnt really like this person to begin with for various reasons but cause we exist in same #communities i just dealt with it. mostly having them just muted on the bird app occasionally checking what they were doing #but this and them just blocking/unblocking to force me to unfollow them was the last straw #fuck people. why do people suck. god i fucking hate everything im so mad #im not even upset like yes fuck ai and people who use it but. im just mad #the art wasnt even good!! like fuck!! #sorry rant over. ugh #night is an absolute mess on main

[osaemu]

whats goin on with this week . . . ?!

#✧ — stfu #two of my fav writers on here logged off bc of some drama thats been spreading around #and apparently anon hate is going insane #also theres some irl drama in one of my main clubs at school #ppl talkin shit and being annoying in general #and also someone really went 'no hard feelings' then blocked then unblocked then blocked again #like girl what . . . make up ur mind #and back to the whole anon drama thing #i don even know what thats about but it seems big bc lotsa people are posting about it but its all vague #why cant ppl just live and let live . . .

[liebelesbe]

accidentally followed a blog when I tried to block ✌️😔 sorry for causing confusion lol but if you leave hate in the tags of my post you're getting blocked!!

#I tried to comment on the reblog they left but tumblr wouldn't let me. presumably bc I blocked them. #but then I unblocked and wanted to leave the comment (to be like 'you know I can see your tags right? it's rude to leave hate on other #people's posts') but tumblr STILL wouldn't let me comment but then I saw their posts... oopsie #anyways they're blocked again #didn't even spell my url correctly... #doddie redet #undescribed #sorry too tired to describe all that rn

[oceandiagonale]

So... i read the "please put a title" and then i remembered i made this account out of spite. Due to my bad bad memory, i don't make accounts on other stuff so often, and in some of your post, tumblr force me to register so i could see your post, soooooo. (But whatevs, worth it)

oh that's so weird, I can't believe tumblr would force you to log in just to look at my blog -- usually it lets people view posts normally so I wonder why that happens? 😨

but you have to understand, these guys will swarm me if I so much as breathe so it ends up being like

#oceandi answers #anonymous #idk next time you're forced to log in you could put like a middle finger emoji in the title as a sign of how much tumblr sucks KJFKSDJF #anyways I do my best to tell who's real or not but I'm pretty sure I've blocked at least 2 real people before by accident #funny thing is I can't even unblock unless I search up the username specifically bc I've blocked so many bots #I wonder if the people I might have blocked even realize..... be like 'hm that little pla run is kinda quiet lately oh well hiatuses happe' #well if you're real and I've blocked ya you've gotta contact me on anon to tell me your name #I don't even know why this is such a huge problem I made my own silly little set of tags so I don't show up in as many searches as possible #'oceandi answers...' 'oceandi arts......' they can't get me through the art tag how do they FIND me I'm not even some massive blogger 😭😭

[cerealmonster15]

u ever get that like emotional paralysis of doing things Only For Fun but ur like Fearing Ur Own Potential Cringe despite being in the privacy of ur own home and no one’s even seeing what ur up to

#like rn ive had a vague thing in my head like a lil almost fic idea #but just kinda concept not really a full thing #so im telling myself ok. just jot it down as it's coming. #doesnt have 2 be a full story. no one else ever has 2 see it. just do it as an exercise a warm up just get the ideas down in flow #and i looked at the blank page and went @-@ no this is embarassing #girl to who!!!!! #it's not even an embarrassing or sensitive topic #im just. scared for Some Reason ldjfd #maybe im scared bc it is characters ive never written and a fandom ive not really written from #except a partial wip #lol im scared of my own shadow judging my activities i guess!!!!!!!! #is this why i havent finished the other wips too #i had a slight breakthru with one the other day but #even tho i think im unblocked on that one now im. scared to try to progress #scared of it turning out 'bad' i guess???? #is it bc im constatnly hearing other peoples negative self talk about #not feeling perfect at stuff or w/e #and im like absorbing it #theres def uhhh some negativity from a few people in my life that i think is #hghghghg Getting To Me Lately #but indirectly yknow. like not hating on me #but hating on themselves / doing self destructive things #but by constantly tellin me about it + me being in that space has me like ohhhhhhh nooooo im reverting back to my paaaaaaaaaaaast #or perhaps not a full 'past' but kinda that come and go phases #whatever idk if this makes sense outside of my brain but it makes sense to ME

[satsuha]

Apparently new accounts aren't allowed to change their avatar till they've followed enough people now 😔

yeah i've heard so i'm giving people a few days but it's already been a few days for some people in my list so 🤨🤨 might have to give em the axe...

#answered #anonymous #i even went and unblocked people after hearing the news so LIKE

[femmeroi]

kill yourself faggot

Our relationship is rough right now, but in a few episodes we will be married.

#Pretty sure I know who sent this considering... everything #If you manage to see this even after I blocked you heres a list of reasons why I blocked you- since you want to know so bad #1.) Your views on sex work are regressive- I don't like how you demeaned that line of work simply because a of model was mean to you #2.) I am not comfortable with the way you talk about trans people- you are casually mysgonistic and transphobic when talking about them #You being trans does not give you a pass for this imho #3.) For all the posturing you do about the ZeXal skirts you and your friends are weird about under age characters + the post about #Edo being “apparently legal” was just gross to me. Your friend being weird about Yuri is how I originally found and blocked you. #4.) I don't like how you called someone a bitch just because they blocked you- you said you gave their art “nothing but support” #Before they blocked you. People do not owe you kindness or time or patience just because you liked their art. #You are not entitled to friendship or courtesy or anything at all just because you rebloged someones art. #5.) You hate Yu/ bel so much you call them a “child predator” I REALLY don't think you'd like following me considering they're my angel #When I have time again I want to dedicate more of my posts to Judai/Yu/ bel/Jun content and you'd fucking hate your life seeing that #So I blocked you before that became an issue. #I had you blocked for a while but when the VRAINS discourse happened I unblocked you so I could easily see what was up #Unfortunately I forgot to reblock you and I only remembered about your whole existence after you interacted with me #Usually I say shit like “Not everyone is going to like you and you just have to accept that as okay” #But in your case- there's a reason so many people have you blocked. #It's not because you have a “problematic fave” like you claim- it's because you have rancid fucking vibes #I'd rather people not interact with or acknowledge this post btw- I'm going to ignore anything further because idgaf about it all #I just wanted to annoy mr deranged by yu/beling all over their ask lol

[administer-distractions]

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#im going to preface this by saying this is all really vague and personal and not funny #but its a gigantic step for me in terms of recovery and my bestie is busy #and im filled with anxiety so my thoughts have to go somewhere so it goes on my blog #which is i think how blogs are kind of supposed to work? #anyway #a year and a half ago some shit happened that kicked off about eight months of steadily building relationship traumas #that i felt stuck in because i was doing dnd with the people actively making my life miserable #and theres so much god damn nuance that it makes it impossible to concisely explain what happened #but the end result is that i lost all of my friends and it really truly wasnt my fault at all #and anyway now ive been diagnosed with pstd over the whole fiasco #and tonight i sent a message to the person who started it all #basically like 'hey i wasnt able to defend myself before but i can now you abused the hell out of me' #but they were never of the notion that they were ever wrong #and theyre friends with people im still friends with #i know that i blew up the evening for their discord server #and based on what ive been told it doesnt seem to be going exceptionally well #but when i apologized i was told twice in no uncertain terms that its okay #so i am attempting to will my heartbeat back into my control #sorry for being all personal but also this is my blog so i guess im not really #i had to cask of amontillado the part of me thats a nosy bitch though so i didnt unblock them to see if they responded #ill get her out in the morning shes fine in there

[bonerey]

i loveee blocking people for having bad takes. get sent to the void idiot

#GOD. AND THE THING THEY HAD A BAD TAKE ON WAS THE THING THAT LEAD ME TO DISCOVERING MY IDENTITY #LIKE GET AWAY FROM HER. U DONT EVEN GET IT. SHUT UPPPP #YOU DONT GET IT LIKE I DO!!!!!!!!!!!!! OPEN UR MIND IDIOT #had to block for my own peace of mind. i might unblock them later but the psychic damage was just too strong #people having bad takes CANNOT HURT ME... <- visibly seething #IT WAS SO FUCKIGN ANNOYING LIKE U OBVIOUSLY DONT GET IT SHUT UP SHUT UP #THAT WAS LITERALLY NEVER STATED AND IF I EXPLAINED IT IT WOULD MAKE PERFECT SENSE #BUT IM NOT GOING TO DO THAT. BECAUSE IM MATURE AND RATIONAL AND ALSO A MASSIVE BITCH #SOOO FUCKING ANNOYIGN LIKE. JUST SHUT UP!!!! SIT DOWN!!!!!!! HATE HATE HATE #SEEING THAT CONTENT WAS WHAT MADE ME DISCOVER MY IDENTITY AND COME TO TERMS WITH IT NOT BEING- #-'NORMAL'. THAT CONTENT MADE ME OK WITH MY IDENTITY BEING VAGUE AND CONFUSING AND NONDESCRIPT #AND YOU CANT JUST DISREGARD THAT!!!! YOU CANNOT JSUT CALL THAT BAD REPRESENTATION JUST CUZ U DONT RELATE!!!!! #LIKE GOD. WOULD THEY EVEN RESPECT MY IDENTITY. LIKE WOULD THEY SAY THAT IM NOT ACTUALLY AASEXUAL??? #BECAUSE I THINK THEY WOULD. I VERY MUCH THINK THEY WOULD #I CANT KNOW THAT THEY WOULDNT!!!!!!!!! I CANT KNOW THAT!!!!!!! THEYVE MADE THEMSELF AN UNSAFE PERSON AND UGHHH HATE HATE HATE #ok. im done now. sorry for the essay i was. very very pissed