#like their chemistry fucking died

[starjunkyard]

"Im not even sure anymore if we get to choose who our friends are" There is a part of me that resents you for making me a worse person than i want to be but i am inexplicably uncontrollably drawn to you. You make me a worse person which is the last thing i want yet i want you in every way. If i could leave i would. Maybe i can but i dont want to. I have fun with you. You challenge me and you captivate me and you push me and pull and run circles around me and it makes me feel like a younger man. For the price of being a worse person i get to feel truly, wholly alive. You are the blood that runs through my veins; vital, inseparable. I was reborn when i met you and you are the womb that haunts me. You are the one person on planet earth who knows me. I wish i could leave, move on and be the man im supposed to be but my heart is tied to yours in a gordian knot. There is a part of my soul that rests in yours, magnetic. For as long as i love you i cannot be better than i am. But maybe thats something i can learn to live with. Gregory House-- I think you're worth it.

#house md #james wilson #gregory house #hilson #johan being crazy about yaoi md #johan's mindpalace #Im crazy #like im tearing up #this scene is so romantic it genuinely makes me nauseous #the lowlight setting the lingering stares the soft little smile a dam thats finally broken #I need a 12 gauge bullet in the thigh #Please watch this scene screencaps do not do it near enough justice #do you know whats so genuinely actually sickening #its been months since i finished house md #and i have not watched a single show that has managed to fill even a quarter of the gaping bleeding hilson shaped hole in my heart #shows that have actual gay people actual representation and not a single one has managed to alter my brain chemistry the way hilson has #since day 1 episode 1 #Like its actually nauseating a little its so over for me for the rest of my life #Like im actually never recovering #people say “they dont make xyz like they used to haha” But Guys they Genuinely dont #Im going through withdrawls #I need my yaoi cocaine so bad but my plug died 12 years ago and i cant fucking Move #House md capital of fatphobia homophobia transphobia early 2000s edgy humour outshining modern shows with actual rep like im sick #Its not even because i want to like i feel like there are worms in my brain. I feel like ratatoullie if the rat was evil #This is not what the stonewall riots were for #I feel like so nausous why couldnt i be crazy about an actual gay pairing like a normal gay person. Im gonna throwup #Why couldnt i like music and girls #Its not even that house md is objectively logically better than these shows like no. Im just crazy #Im so sick they make me so sick i feel like there are worms in my head. My head #Dont know when i will ever be onorlmal again. Sorr

[crimescrimson]

Ada Wong & Leon S. Kennedy: The History [ Resident Evil 4 (2023) ]

#crimson's gifs: resident evil #Resident Evil 4 #Resident Evil 4 Remake #Resident Evil 4 (2023) #RE4R #RE4MAKE #RE4 Remake #Ada Wong #Leon S. Kennedy #Leon Kennedy #Leon S Kennedy #Leon Scott Kennedy #Aeon #LeonAda #AdaLeon #Pairing: Keeping Score #Leon x Ada #Ada Wong x Leon S. Kennedy #Ive decided I fucking HATE re4r aeon #They cut their interactions and chemistry down to bare fucking bones and I dread to see what they do to 6 #Its the way that they've stripped Leon of all his compassion towards Luis and Ada and made him Vendetta angry when he WASNT #THATS THE FUCKING POINT!! HES NOT CHRIS #Sure hes in a shitty situation and hes angry about it but he also knows THATS NOT SPECIFICALLY ADA OR LUIS' FAULT #THATS WHY HE DOESNT TAKE IT OUT ON THEM IN THE OG #Hes annoyed with Ada at most in the OG because imo it follows Leon B where she dies for him so they never got closure and thats frustrating #But hes not specifically nasty to her when shes HELPING HIM LIKE IN RE4R #Even in remake timeline terms the stark shift in their relationship is just too bleak to feel right or make sense #Sorry to rant I just hate how this game massacred the camp fun and the compassion of the OG #This game is what re3 og fans think re3make did to them but at least that game only cut locations and strengthened the characters story #This game kept most locations intact and shit but massacred some of the most important relationships in the story and it kills me

[suntails]

Hiya!

I saw your SilRuggie post and I feel you on the "Silver and his many boyfriends" part.

Idk what it is about Silver but he's so... Shippable?

Like I ship SilVil, KalimSil and JadeSil which are kinda popular. But it's also stuff like RidSil and LeoSil (oh so much brainrot currently about LeoSil,) Which aren't as popular.

He's probably my most shipped character like... EVER.

(I may have gotten some ship names wrong)

IT’S THE CHEMISTRY IT’S THE WAY HE HAS CHEMISTRY WITH SO SOSOSO MUCH OF THE CAST!!! he’s so deeply just…good, and he cares so earnestly, and he has examples of interactions with almost fuckgng everyone at this point. like i can understand why someone would ship just abt any silver ship, i GET it, bc theres so much potential. i think i have like…3? that im neutral on? maybe?

also hearing u associate silvil with the kinda popular ones, im fuckign weak at the knees. that is incorrect but im pretending ur right bc it makes me oh so happy

#ask #nervouslywaitingforlife #its the way i like all of em. i love him he deserves love #silvil i have a manifesto abt #silkali i think they are best friends in LOVE with each other but specifically as friends. not that they love each other tho. theyre IN LOVE #does that make sense. IN LOVE as FRIENDS. IN LOVE. theyre married #jadesil gives me ‘theyll take rugged nature walks together’ and jade is so refreshed to have someone so sincere and sweet in his life #someone u can read like a book someone who will earnestly appreciate u. silver will love jades dedication and isnt put off by him like most #bc he sees ppl for the good in them. wipes a tear #silrid i feel so strongly abt. i firmly believe theyd be very sweet and good to each other. horse girls. riddle picked sil specifically for #his master chef partner. he chose him intentionally. silver acknowledges and appreciated riddles dedication and work ethic and talks highly #of him. in book6 ch6 iirc thats when riddle gets taken by styx and the way silver SHOUTS in worried fear. he LOVES him #i do think theyd get divorced but not in a funnt leovil way in a sad ‘things just arent working despite us loving each other’ way. adult yk? #leosil should take naps together. those are my thoughts. i want ruggie and sebek to find them passed tf out in the gardens on a reg basis #and this only scratches the surface of dear catríonas thoughts on sil ships. u didnt even mention silsebe and thats his most popular ship #i like him w ruggie too and jack and jamil and and and and AGGHHH dies #ADDING TO MY TAGS. FORGOT TO MENTION SILIDIA TOO. OH MY GOD THE FUCKING POTENTIAL AAAAAAGGHHHH take me off the stage i could ramble forever #me violently pointinh to my conspiracy board and detailing his chemistry with every single person in the cast

[spaceshipkat]

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#look i have no idea where i stand on the idea of heaven (or indeed afterlives and whatnot) #as an agnostic person raised v v v lutheran #(aka my mom worked at our church and my first two jobs were w the church—first helping in the kitchen and then in the nursery w the babies) #(and i was also in the choir to sing and the bell choir playing the itty bitty handbells at the highest octaves) #(basically my siblings and i were at the church pretty much every day of the week) #BUT. TO CEASE WITH RAMBLING. #my eldest brother died eight years ago (we realized my older brother is now the age our eldest brother was when he died) #and it doesn’t really affect me much anymore. i still miss him but it’s not awful yknow? #you never stop missing them but it gets easier to live without them etc etc #however this morning i woke up w depression bc the brain chemistry said ‘ha fuck you’ #but i remember i had a dream last night about my eldest brother and the only thing from that dream that i remember #is him hugging me. like a huge fucking bear hug like i haven’t had since he died. #and i have been a Mess all day as a result bc fucking hell thats what i needed #just a huge fucking bear hug from him #ANYWAY. i have two thousand words to cut from this edit letter due tomorrow so byeee gonna go continue to be a Mess

[ickypuppi3]

no because s4 could’ve actually been good if it was like still about billy and they were trying to rescue him from the upside down and they still could’ve had the whole vecna thing happen because max would’ve been fucked up about billy dying but then it’s like… dum dum dum he didn’t! like why did they not do that why did they fuck it up so bad i hate it here i hate the duffers i hate stranger things so much

#‘but he died’ hopper got like fucking evaporated yet here he stands so don’t give me all that #all of the possibilities #and they FUCKED it #i’m so sick #what an actual joke #the only character with that much pizzazz #that much background that much PERSONALITY #and he’s been wasted #i’m gonna kms fr and it’s gonna be their fault #don’t give me someone like billy if you’re just gonna snatch him away again i hate them i hate them i hate them #don’t give me the idea of a good storyline and a good show and not go through with it #all because the duffers are jealous of billy/dacre i’m so right btw that’s absolutely the main reason they’re like that about him #they won’t kill off the main party but they’ll kill off the one character who actually brings so much depth to everything #don’t even look at me i’m so pissed about it still #and steve wouldn’t have been doing the most over nancy GOD #if billy was there being realistic because he’s like that #don’t even get me started on dacre and joe having so much chemistry i can’t talk about it rn #definition of fumbling the bag #you know that one video with the guy who’s like leave me the fuck alone i hate everything #me rn

[dolokhoded]

i hope u realize how perfectly this production nailed the comedic effect.

#it's so fucking funny #singing wise ive seen more skilled cast. which makes sense cause these are like 20 year olds. #but when i tell you that acting wise it was Perfect #the characters had such great chemistry with each other #they seemed so much more lively and relatable than usual #although i do have to admit. they did Not beat the production where figaro was rolling on the floor during tutto é disposto #le nozze di figaro #im thinking about them so much #OH and also. i really disliked thr staging fir via resti servita which is like one of my favorite duets so i had higher expectations. #but other than that absolute favorite production

[myautisticpov]

So, I’ve been saying ever since they introduced Smart Hulk to the MCU that if they wanted to do She-Hulk, it was now going to be messy, and yeah, look, I love 99% of the first episode, but, like, I do actually wish that as part of her snarky intro in the beginning, she had just skipped over the origin story, rather than giving us an entire episode on it

But I get it, comics Bruce was in his Lonely Man era, MCU Bruce is not, it doesn’t make sense for MCU Bruce to leave Jen alone after she’s exposed to his blood

Anyway, this is all just pre-amble to the thing that annoyed me, which is the fucking “I’m a woman, so that makes me better at controlling my anger” thing

And I’m not even saying that they couldn’t have made that work... But... But but but but but... They just had to have the preceding line be Bruce trying to get Jen to at least be open to DBT, which is one of the tools that helped him

And so, to me, that inclusion meant that the scene did not come across as a #GirlBoss moment, it came across like a neurotypical woman getting mad at a neurodivergent man for trying to be helpful, and basically dismissing mental healthcare as a thing that women don’t need because life teaches us to be in control of our emotions???

Like, I get it, in the grand context, Bruce isn’t listening to Jen and is trying to push his way of doing things on her. But also, like... He is correct that if she hulks out and loses control, like he did, that’s going to lead to potential deaths, and she’s being really fucking flippant about that???

Idk, like I said, I think the second they introduced Smart Hulk and got MCU Bruce out of his Lonely Man era, it was always going to make the She-Hulk origin messy, and there was always a much bigger danger of making She-Hulk’s ability to remain Jen when she hulks out a bio-essentialist thing, but yeah, while the game was rigged and they were probably always going to miss the mark, they missed it in a way that really annoyed me

#also it's bad that the car accident was caused by a spaceship looking for Bruce and not a mob boss that Jen pissed off as a lawyer #this episode really needed to cut back on the Bruce content or double down on it #because yeah it would actually be really fucking traumatic to discover that becoming a rampaging monster wasn't inevitable and you're just #broken #but they don't address that because it's not his show #so you just have Jen getting mad at him for having what is actually a pretty mild trauma response given the situation #which is fine if you're setting up one of Jen's character flaws to be that she's impatient and unempathetic when annoyed #but the GirlBoss framing gives the impression that that was not the intent #honestly it should have been a five minute intro of Jen getting into a car wreck with her visiting cousin Bruce because mobsters from a case #she's working on attacked her #paramedics show up and are like 'she needs blood now or she'll die' #bruce realises that it's potentially make her a hulk or she dies so he gives her the blood #and that's when the alien spaceship shows up and just straight up abducts him #and then Jen realises that she's a hulk but also in control and decides to try to hide it including from Bruce who she's mad at for leaving #and then you get the courtroom scene #but yeah i get why they wanted more bruce #and the two actors have really great chemistry #but it's just weird and awkwardly handled for me

[jewishfalin]

So pissed the shit hospital lost my seizure meds and i have a feeling one of the shit nurses stole it and i have to wait longer for them to be refilled UGHH girl i could die im gonna kill someone

#like tf man. also not lookin good with the malpractice BITCH im about to burn this place to the ground #like i havent been diagnosed w epilepsy bc my insurance sucks and i cant see a neurologist til may #but ive been being treated for it BC OF ALL THE ER VISITS AND THE MEDS WORK BUT NOO BC IM MENTALLY ILL THAT SURELY CANT BE SERIOUS #WHAT THE FUCK MAN WHAT THE FUCK #like this is serious i could have died in there it was so bad but they never even got me a doctor when they were supposed to #im so so so pissed and traumatized bitch i just wanted to get better and now everythings downhill #BUT AT LEAST THE ANGER IS FUELING ME TO REFUSE TO DIE #at least i can pull out my emergency survival diy botany chemistry skills to lessen my risk of seizures BUT I SHOULDNT HAVE TO

[ahli-stuff]

IM LITERALLY SOBBING RN

I DONT KNOW HOW TO CHANNEL YHESE EMPTIONS???

IM CRHING

#tlovm spoilers #mighty nein #vex FUCKING DIED??? #. look I already got spoiled on it but like #I had no idea when it was gonna happen #and I thought I would be able to guess it based on the build up before the scene #but I DIDNT #AND IT STILL HAD GREAT BUILD UP #vaxs ‘i need u’ coinciding with him holding her corpse #. #bro #ghis felt so out of pocket I literally just wanted to chill out and watch the new episode to relax #AND THEN APPARENTLY MIGHY NEIN IS HAVING ITS OWN SHOW??? #FUCKKK WHAT THE FUCK #all of my emotional emotions is mixing together rn I can’t even pick it apart #but I feel. deep emotional connection with this cast so knowing that itll be on the big screen is surreal #god it’s surreal #I love crit role man I love all the players and matt and their wonderful chemistry together and the amazing story moments that have come #out of that amazing chemistry

[raeofgayshine]

Girl help I watched a 5 hour video on Glee and it’s reawakened my hyperfixation. I have so many feelings about Blaine. I only want to listen to Glee music. Helpppp

#ravenpuff rambles #it’s that time again #like twice a year my entire personality because Glee for a month because fucking showed changed my brain chemistry #literally nothing has altered my life like glee has and it’s truly upsetting #fucking put a few music numbers in every episode and suddenly I’m hooked on a show this is just rude #anyways I’m thinking again about Blaine and that Sadie Hawkins episode in season 4 and how fucked up that was #like Blaine literally almost died at his last Sadie Hawkins but sure let’s not address that trauma #other then him trying to shut down the idea with trauma in his eyes #the only other person to acknowledge it is Sam that does a ‘Thats rough buddy’ #it’s pretty much just brushed off the whole episode and like honestly that’s fucked up #let characters have trauma!!! #anyways that’s why I had to write my own story where characters had meaningful trauma #because I couldn’t stand watching it get brushed off

[the-acid-pear]

finished the second episode of the red thread, i am not officially a podcast lover. Too bad the day after posting all three of them were found dead by suicide. Many such cases!

#luly talks #when jackson just started fucking name dropping and wendi's camera died and charlie was like 😨. that was fucking amaizing. #they have very solid chemistry its so fun

[neverendingford]

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#tag talk #every time I see a “celibacy” post I have to restrain myself from reblogging it to be like “yeah but not me” #because like. duh. I know how fruitless and dumb it is to constantly feel the need to point out that I'm not part of the generalized group #but like. idk. what happened to the sex positivity and ambivalence where no one gave a shit whether you were out fucking or not #feels similar to when people are like “body positivity died five years ago”. #like. I get that a new generation is on tumblr but like... damn there's so much self criticism for shit that doesn't matter #found someone who's lowkey autistic like me and was like “yo we could be having platonic sex” and if I didn't have covid rn we would #like. if you want it.. go out and get it. obvs if you want romantic attraction and social chemistry too then it's way harder #so you gotta be out looking for that shit because it's not just gonna find you prolly. #but like. idk. it's just sex. can we please chill out about it?

[ultravioletlesbian]

i’m rewatching r*swell new m*xico bc i’ve missed the storyline even tho i don’t...like the characters much....the acting isn’t great but there are moments where it seems they know what they’re doing??? they’re 90% held back by the script but also istg they only picked these actor’s because they’re good looking HOWEVER the chemistry SUCKS. it SUCKS!! the romantic chemistry especially and i mean between EVERYONE like this is crazy why am i skipping every romantic esque scene that’s crazy. the romantic chemistry is soooo bad between them all ALL. EXCEPT!!!!!!! for izzie’s birth mother and the foreman back in the 1940s why couldn’t we see more of that...i’m only in this for the story but i remember that gets worse but like their moms managing to run away and hiding for a year and maria being descended from yknow who and the mystery of things etc awesome love it but i remember i stopped watching when they did that whole max evil clone thing and alex with the secret agency whatever like BORING.

#i will say i am not completely immune to michael and alex okay their story is compelling🤔😭 #i hate what the writers did to maria #and if they needed the romantic storyline and the jealously (??) and conflict why did they have to break her heart and make it awkward there #are other ways. POINTLESS. maria💕 #HOWEVER michael and alex are NOT immune to bad chemistry GOD DAMN IT. and sorry to alex’s actor i remember you from pll but of the two you #have the worse acting #michael’s actor is good sometimes sometimes he NAILS the heartbreaking scenes other times....when his mom died i was like what. what is this #acting. this dialogue. #his fucking EYES tho he does the sad tears in the eyes but otherwise straight faced thing SO WELL. #also i HATE HATE how they TRY they TRY sooo hard to be dramatic. and try so hard with the romance!!!! #also they should’ve went with a military hating plot like fuck this noise.

[devotedlystrangewizard]

valerian has definitely tried to punch emet-selch at some point. i dont know when. i dont know if he succeeded. i just know he tried

#ellis probably held him back when he tried #maybe in one of the aus #hes fully aware hes the 'weakest' of the party #hes more in it because of his knowledge and good synergy with the others than because of his combat skills #hes a chemistry NERD ok. hes just a chemistry nerd with Guns. #which. yeah. he could just try to shoot him. but shooting isnt as fun as punching. tbh. #he probably also lost it a little at the 'remember us' bc he remembers too many people who died because of our dearly beloathed to care #ellis goes 'well he really did it just to bring back his people he just missed his loved ones' and their sister. valerian. & miles all just #gape at them. #theyre still young they didnt personally witness the atrocities val & tuya did. & miles. tho miles is more by proxy #ellis is also the canon wol in this specific version of the story (they share the role with ziero but ellis is azem) #so just generally their experience with the Bitch was different #my ocs #anyway valerian is usually pretty calm & collected hes just really protective over his loved ones & needed to blame SOMEONE #for his kid's defection. because god forbid he admits to himself that HE was part of the reason for luca to leave #valerian is funny bc hes such a fucking hypocrite #hell be like 'anything in the name of science' and then someone from his family gets hurt and suddenly hes blaming everyone but himself #up until hes like. literally grandpa age. hes wholly willing to destroy other families because ✨science✨. and then gets pissed #bc luca defected (OUT OF FEAR FOR HIM) #'feel bad for me my kid defected 😣' 'ur kid is twenty and you have driven families apart. you have murdered parents.' 'SO?' #he does end up growing as a person <3 #mostly because he follows luca and has to become a better person to regain their truat #like hes sweet & a normal person & has friends & family & everything he just. also struggles to understand the worth of a life #a life that isnt important to him specifically #problematic fave. tbh. #ziero is almost a normal person next to him

[schwarzkatje]

you don't understand what happens to my brain chemistry when i think about an inexperienced ellie whose first experience with sexuality comes from porn magazines.

imagine ellie laughing at first because she finds the scene displayed on the pages so absurd but then, as she lingers more and more, as the kick of laughter slowly dies down, something else emerges. and only after quite some time ellie realises it has a specific name: sexual arousement.

her eyes simply can't help but devour the image of pretty women showing their bodies, groping their curves and plump parts, being licked and sucked and fucked like their lives depended on the mere act of sex.

ellie also relatively quickly understands that what draws her most is not the scenario where she is in lieu of said women, rather the scenario where she is the active one, where her ego surpasses her awkwardness and for just once she can pretend she is not an oblivious kid, merely a young adult.

there's one more thing that seems to bother her without offering an intrinsic or at least doable solution: all the magazines she has bumped into depicted hetero couples. therefore, how would poor and new to this world ellie fathom the idea of bringing pleasure to a woman without having a dick?

of course, when ellie grows up she leaves behind this interiorised heteronormativity (and subsequent unintentional interiorised homophobia).

but try and picture the complete astonishment she must have felt when, while exploring abandoned malls and shops of all sorts, she was struck by the discovery of a strap.

#ellie williams x female reader #ellie williams x reader #ellie x fem reader #ellie x reader #ellie x reader smut #ellie williams smut #ellie x y/n #ellie smut #ellie x you #the last of us smut #loser ellie #ellie williams x you #ellie the last of us #ellie williams #ellie tlou

[stqrgirlie0]

⋆✮theodore nott✮⋆

part 2 / part 3 / part 4

theo’s had a hard childhood, his mother sadly died and all he has left his father. his fucked up father. there’s no wonder as to why theo took up smoking, but this doesn’t change the fact that he’s completely addicted. every inhale and exhale takes him further away from the walls of the castle, just what he wants. just what he needs. despite his mother leaving him from a young age, theo continues his and his mother’s shared passion for learning, doesn’t necessarily mean he’s at the top of his classes but he’s doing pretty good if he says so himself. theo was also taught how to play the piano but avoids doing so because he thinks it reminds him of his mother too much. but if you wake up in the middle of the night, you might faintly hear a sweet sweet melody being played from the common room.. all the neglect from his father’s end corrupted his innocence growing up, and as a child Theo often spent his time in solitude. however he didn’t let this affect his relationships in his teenhood, and still chose to foster relationships- but only as far as friendships. Theo has never been in a relationship and the ‘sleeping around’ thing his friends so often did, didn’t seem so appealing to him. that is, until he saw you. he was sure you were new but when you first talked and told him you’ve been here since first year, let’s just say it wasn’t one of his proudest moments. from that moment he knew exactly what he was going to do. it took a while, his grovelling weirded you out at first- did he like you? was he trying to do this as a joke? eventually you’d realised it was in fact not a joke, and theodre nott actually did like you, yes. however did you know what to do in response? absolutely not, so of course you turn to everyone’s go-to flirting method: feigned dislike. it worked wonders while also creating a tense but playful rivalry between you and theo. did this confuse theo at first? slightly, yes. but was he also turned on by it? absofuckinglutely. in case it isn’t obvious, things did eventually get heated… everything about you had him going crazy- your smile, your eyes, your laugh, your comebacks, your scent, your hands, YOUR HANDS. gosh he goes absolutely feral over your hands (mainly because he imagines he’ll be putting a ring on it one day, but asides from that..) the way that they fit so perfectly into his alters his brain chemistry or something because trust me this man will be holding onto it and fidgeting around with it EVERY. SECOND. OF. THE. DAY. while everyone thinks he’s a complicated character, he’s actually not. there’s a limited amount of ways to get to his heart- food, hugs and hickeys. food: you know it, every theo enthusiast has heard this about a million times, all the more reason to believe it to be true!! he will literally eat his whole weight and won’t think anything of it, and will STILL be skinny af. hugs: this man needs his hugs just to relax and have a lil breather. a back hug, a side hug, a bear hug, straddle hug, you name it he will hold onto you like a koala! hickeys: alright, enough of our soft teddy, Mr Nott knows his way around your neck, shoulders, chest, EVERYWHWRE. there’s nothing sweet about this, he wants everyone to know who makes you a hot moaning mess every night.

#hmm should I do a part two??🤔🤔#y’all know I’ll do anything for my theo bby

#slytherin #slytherin boys #theo nott imagine #theo nott smut #theodore nott x reader #theodore nott smut #theodore nott imagine #theodore nott #theodore nott x you #theodore x reader #theodore nott x y/n #theo nott #theodore nott x slytherin!reader #lorenzo zurzolo