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#literally sounds like a dating app for people who are into Good Omens
tismrot · 6 months
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Bold of Tumblr to assume I am interested in anything but Good Omens. Every day, Tumblr tries; weird anime, humanoid animals making out (why?) and poetically worded sentences about depression.
“NO!” I say, “I need to see a new image or video or drawing (or embroidery or pottery or decorated cake) of Anxious Bookseller Man and Alcoholic Goth Enby kiss painfully for the 3811st time.”
TUMBLR? Hah. More like GOMBLER.
I’ll see myself out.
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bqstqnbruin · 4 years
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I’m on a Brock kick and I have no shame.
Keep supporting BLM! Me being the lazy ass I was, did not provide links, but here’s a post of resources that you can and should check out!
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“Hey, can you get me a grande iced macchiato?” one of your coworkers asks you on your way out. Your boss wanted coffee, you wanted coffee and any reason not to be stuck in the office on such a gorgeous day, so you volunteered to do the coffee run for everyone. The word spread around your office fast, this being the fourth person to stop you on your walk out the door to tell you their order and give you money for the twelfth drink order that you were going to have to carry. 
“Gotcha. I’m putting it on my card, so I’ll Venmo you the difference?” Once you get the ok from her, you make a beeline towards the door so no one else asks you for coffee. You already weren’t sure how you were going to carry the twelve drinks the three blocks from the coffee shop back to your office. Taking out your phone to rehearse the dozen drink order in your head so you don’t sound like an idiot when you approach the counter, you shift to the Find my Friends app to see if anyone is around to help you. 
“Hey, Rach,” you say into the phone when your roommate picks up. “I need help carrying drinks to the office, would you be able to help me? You’re at the dinner across the street.” 
“Uh, yeah,” you hear her say. You can hear a familiar voice on the other end asking who it was, for her to tell her to just say, “My roommate.” It sounded almost like Brock. You two had been seeing each other for about a month now, going on dates and hanging out, but you weren’t official or anything like that just yet. As far as you were concerned, he was free to see other people, but your roommate of all people? “I just need to pay for my lunch so I’ll meet you there. Sound good?”
“Sure. See you soon.” There was no need for you to feel anything about Brock being out to lunch with your roommate. You never said anything about her being off-limits, but you would think that a guy wouldn’t date a girl and her roommate at the same time, right? 
You get into the Starbucks, the line not too long considering the lunch rush was just about over. Going over the twelve drinks in your head yet again and praying that you don’t mess anyone’s up, you zone out and find yourself staring out the window. Your attention snaps across the street to the cafe, where you see the familiar red hair of Rachel in the arms of an equally familiar broad-shouldered blonde haired boy. When they pull away, you finally make the connection. The guy on the phone with her was Brock. Why were they at lunch together? Why didn’t she tell you? And why were you freaking out over this? 
You get up to the cashier and start spitting out the orders, apologizing profusely for the long order like the millennial/gen-z cusper you were. After what seemed like too long, Rachel finally comes up to you, a weird happiness about her that you’ve only seen when she’s been out with someone she really likes. 
“Hey, love. How’d you get roped into getting a baker’s dozen coffees?”
“Just a dozen, not a baker’s dozen, thankfully. Holding thirteen coffees seems like some weird bad luck omen just waiting to ruin my life,” you joke, trying to remain calm. Do you ask her why she was with Brock, or do you play it cool? Well as cool as you can considering the marathon your mind was running after seeing Rachel with Brock. 
“You have such weird superstitions. Why do I live with you?” 
“Who else would?” you joke, earning a smack on the arm from her, “But how was lunch? Was it a treat yourself kinda day or were you meeting up with someone?” 
“Uh, just meeting up with someone from school.” She still has a smile on her face, but she won’t look you in the eye. Why was she lying? Do you tell her you know she was with Brock?
“Oh, who?” The two of you have been in school together since high school; everyone she knew, you knew. Why won’t she just tell you?
“Remember, Bailey?”
“From my history class? You hated him. Rachel, he told you your eyebrows were uneven while you were hooking up.”
“We’re in public!” she says, blushing, but still smiling, “And besides, we had a class together last semester; we just sort of forgot about that whole freshman year crap and became friends. He was back in the city, so he hit me up to grab lunch.” 
All of you hated that she was lying right to your face. You just wanted to know why? There was no reason for you to be this upset over her getting lunch with Brock; one of her friends from work was friends with one of his friends or something like that. Basically, she had a closer connection to him than you did, so why should it matter?
The barista finally calls your name with your annoyingly large coffee order, you apologizing for what was probably a fourth time over how large it was while Rachel takes two of the trays and you take one. You needed the free hand to get into your building with your ID, and you couldn’t do that with two trays of coffee. 
Rachel goes on and on about something from work, trying to change subjects so that you won’t ask anything else about lunch. Neither of you were dumb; both of you knew she was lying and neither of you wanted to admit it. 
As you get back to your office, your phone starts buzzing in your pocket with messages. Brock had sent a string of texts; two memes that he found and wanted to share with you, and then ‘any chance I can see you tonight??’ Even though you were paranoid that he was seeing your roommate, you couldn’t help but smile at the thought of seeing him. 
“Who’s got you blushing?” Rachel asks, craning her neck trying to see your phone. “Is it Brock?”
“Uh, yeah, he wants to see me tonight.” 
“What are ya gonna do?” she asks in a slightly childish voice, wiggling her eyebrows. 
You had told him that you would, asking what he was planning. “He said that it was a surprise, but dress ‘nice.’ What does that mean?” 
“Ask him how nice?”
“I don’t think he would know how to answer that question.” 
You both burst out laughing; the boys you had dated in the past had never been good at suggesting proper attire for the date, they were as vague as Brock was, or they wouldn’t even say anything at all. One guy once told you that they were taking you somewhere really special, so you wore a nicer dress. He ended up taking you to his brother’s senior day for his college lacrosse team. You haven’t seen that guy since. 
“I can help you pick something out when we get home?” Rachel suggests once you get up to your office. The swarm of people comes for their coffee, you starting to Venmo each of them for whatever change they were owed. 
“Yeah, that sounds great!” With everyone trying to figure out which coffee belonged to them, you nearly forgot that you had seen Rachel and Brock literally on a date not even half an hour before. “I’ll see you at home.” 
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“What could he possibly have planned that would require me to dress ‘nice?’ And what does nice even mean? Like something that I would wear to work? Something that I would wear when we go out to the bars on a Saturday night? Something that I would go to Mass in when my parents come to town and force me to go with them?” You were freaking out over Brocks date attire suggestion. The entire rest of your day at work, you had been trying to get him to tell you more about what you were doing. All he said was that you were going to like it. Nothing more. 
But what was even worse was when you had called him on your way home from work, like you did at least once a week. You had asked him what his day had been like, and all he said was that he had practice. You knew he was at that cafe. There are only so many men in Vancouver who look like a Disney prince like he does. It had to be him with Rachel.
“It could be worse. It could have been like the lax guy.” 
“Men are so dumb,” you turn to her, a shirt in your hands. “What about this?” 
“That makes you look like a nun.” 
“Hey!” you say, throwing it at her. “Can you please actually help me instead of just sitting on my bed playing with the pillows?” Every time she was in your room, she had a habit of rearranging the pillows that were on your bed. She hated the way you had them and didn’t seem to care that you liked them that way. 
“I don’t get why you don’t like my pillow arrangement. You would spend so much more time on your bed if you had them like this instead of just the pile that you had.” She gets up and goes over to your closet, flipping through the clothing that you had. “What about this?” She pulls out one of the rompers that you got and have never worn. You loved it, you just hadn’t had a place to wear it yet. 
“Is that too nice, though?” Boys not knowing how to describe fashion was frustrating. 
“Nah, wear it, with these shoes.” She practically chucks the nude pair of sandals that you have at your head, you just barley dodging them since she wasn’t looking where she was throwing things. “Can I borrow this at some point?” she asks, pulling out your black cardigan. 
“Get out.” You push her out the door, taking the cardigan and shutting the door behind her. You lean against your door. Why didn’t you know how to ask her why she was with Brock? It was too late now; Brock was going to be at your place to pick you up in less than half an hour. Knowing Rachel, any story or explanation she would conjure up would take at least an hour for her to get through. 
‘Can’t wait to see you :)’ came up on your phone from Brock, which mean he was just about to leave his place. That also meant you had hurry the fuck up and get dressed instead of rearranging the pillows thanks to Rachel. 
But what was Rachel doing with Brock at lunch today? Should you ask him about it? But he already lied to you. You just wanted to know why they both lied. 
“Wow,” Brock says when you finally get into his car. “You’re... you look... wow.” 
You can’t help but blush at his stammering. “Thanks, you look pretty wow yourself. But where are we going?” 
“You’ll see,” he smirks, pulling away from your building.
He starts talking about something going on within the team, but you weren’t paying attention. He looked so good in his outfit; a white short sleeve button down with powder blue dress pants and brown shoes. It was admittedly a fuck boy outfit, but hey, he pulled it off. While driving, you realized your eyes were in his direction, but you weren’t actually looking at him. You were zoning out, freaking out about earlier still, the same questions running through your mind over and over again: why, why, why?
“Hey, Y/N? We’re here.” He parks his car, rushing out to help you out from the passenger side. 
“The aquarium?” you say, excited. You’ve always loved going to the aquarium since you were a little girl. The best moments in your life were always there; your parents told you that you were going to have a little brother one time when they took you, you found out your cousin got engaged while you were there on a school trip, you got your acceptance letter to your top choice university, you got the most incredible job offer while there with your fraternity for a social event. Everything good came from a day at the aquarium, no matter what aquarium it was. 
“Have you ever been to one before?” he asks, taking your hand and leading you inside.
“Anytime I go to the aquarium, something good always happens.” 
“Oof, I’ve got a lot to live up to then, don’t I?” 
“Well, that just means you tell me or do something great. So no pressure,” you joke as he leads you further into the aquarium, not stopping for anything. “Wait, but, look at the fish!” you whine like a child as he pulls you deeper into the building.
“We have time for that later, don’t worry.” You didn’t think the aquarium could actually be that big, but after walking for what seemed like forever, he finally stops. “Are you ready for this?” You nod as he leads into one last room; glass walls surrounding the entire room, fish, sharks, turtles, everything you could imagine swimming around the enclosure, with a blanket and picnic basket set up in the middle of the room. 
“What is this?”
“This is the first part of our date tonight.” 
“The first part?”
He sits you down, starting to take out the food from the basket. “Well yeah, I have a whole night planned. Here, dig in,” he hands you a container, still a little warm full of penne a la vodka, one of your favorite meals.
“Where’d you get all this?” you ask, starting to dig in, “Holy shit this is so good.” 
“I made it!”
“Seriously?” You had no idea he could cook, but damn you were glad he did. You loved spending time with him, you just wish this were more of a permanent dating thing, not him seeing your roommate behind your back and both of them lying about it. “Ok, but you have to tell me what else you have planned.” 
“Well, by the time we were finished eating, we would have enough time to get over to Lighthouse Park where we could watch the sunset together and be all corny and sappy and crap because you love sunsets, and then go to Earnest Ice Cream where they have your three favorite flavors: lavender, birthday cake, and London Fog.”
You sit there, mouth wide open in shock. You don’t remember telling him any of that, but he had planned the absolute perfect date. “How did you know? And why now?” 
“Well, I was gonna wait until the sunset to ask you, but, now that you said good things always happen at aquariums, I might as well do it now. And this is corny and cliche, but only because you love that” he starts, getting visibly nervous. He reaches out and takes your hand in his, his cheeks turning red, a smile covering his face, “Y/N, will you be my girlfriend?”
You wanted to say yes. You hadn’t been seeing anyone but him, but you weren’t sure if he was doing the same. But him asking meant that he would want to only see you right? “Can I ask you something first?” He looks slightly shocked by the lack of a real answer, but nods his head anyway, “How come I saw you with Rachel at that cafe for lunch? And then why did neither of you tell me about it?”
“Rachel lives with you. She knows you better than anyone. How else would I be able to plan the perfect date to ask you to be mine without spoiling everything? I’ve been, like, secretly meeting with her to plan everything out.” 
“You weren’t on a date with her?”
He starts laughing again, lifting you off the group so he can wrap you in a hug. “You’re the only one I want to date. You are the girl I want to be with.”
“I want to be with you too,” you tell him as he plants a kiss on your head. 
“So is that a yes?”
“Of course.” 
“I guess, though,” he says, separating himself from you just enough so he can look you in the face, “if this doesn’t work out, then I could go out with Rachel.”
You both start laughing, “Don’t push it, please.”
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frugalfarbie · 4 years
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Don’t Ever Go on a Date With a Stranger to a Baseball Game...
The guy seemed normal enough, as they always do in their online dating profiles, once you weed out the creeps. The purpose is to go out and meet new people, right? So why not go to a Rockies game on a first date? What’s the worst that could happen? Well, let me tell you...
[Disclaimer #1: I mean, we’re not talking “worst” in the sense that the stadium blew up or anything, but rather “worst” in my own personal experiences in the realm of dating]
[Disclaimer #2: I’m a Cubs fan, but I can still enjoy the game when it’s not my team playing]
[Disclaimer #3: I should also admit that I had an ulterior motive in accepting this date, as I wanted a picture in the purple row of mile high seats at the Rockie’s stadium, crossing off another item on my Colorado bucket list.]
I’ll save all the excruciating details and fast forward to the most fascinating points of this date, all the way up to him hitting it off with the Uber driver on the way home...
We were already on the CTA zooming towards the field when he told me one of his dogs [side note: he ran a doggy day care or something like that] chewed up his driver’s license. I made a “dog ate my homework” joke and didn’t think anything of it, assuming I’d grab all the drinks for us and he would lend his Visa for a couple rounds. Not so...
The first time I offered to buy drinks, I thought he might offer to pay for food or the next round. Nope. When we went to get our 2nd round of drinks, not only did he expect me to pay, he SUPERSIZED his drink to get the souvenir cup (which he later told me was for me). Sensing my jaw drop, he took out whatever cash he had in his wallet and handed it to me. Without looking, I shoved it in my purse, gave him the benefit of the doubt and proceeded to try to salvage something from the date. 
After an unbearable few innings in which my date rarely talked to me but was more interested in conversation with his neighbor to the right about Rockie’s stats, I had enough. It was time to get my picture and get the hell out of there. My date had ignored me the first portion of the date and yet he seemed to be oblivious while he day dreamed out loud about all of the future dates we were going to have as we strolled towards the opposite end of the stadium. Within minutes he had at least 5 dates planned, without consulting my opinion on any of these, of course. I escaped into the restroom for relief and reprieve. 
Because of my astonishment at his brazen gold digging and lack of knowledge about Rockie’s baseball, I had not been paying much attention to the details of the game. Imagine my surprise when I was in the quiet, calm of the restroom, and I hear the announcers over and over again say the name of my ex-boyfriend, who I dated for 6 years. That’s right - the Rockie’s pitcher shared the same name of my last, true love. Have you ever heard of such an obvious albatross? Anyways, I didn’t need any signs to spell out that this date was a disaster... 
Bad omen following us through the stadium like a foul odor, we finally made our way to the Rock Pile [I think?] to grab one last drink before getting my bucket list picture.
[Disclaimer #4: I was honest from the beginning with him about wanting to get this pic before the date was over]
I pull out the money he reluctantly gave me for his SUPERSIZED souvenir drink to pay for my drink and realize that it is only $3. Not enough to pay for even half of my drink and only just enough to cover the tip of his SUPERSIZED drink. JUST THE TIP.
[Disclaimer #5: I think this is a good time to point out that he DID pay for the Rockies tickets, which were less than $20 a piece. Much less, in total, than what I paid in the few joyless hours we spent together.]
OKAY! So I got my picture!!! And it was a great one at that, so this definitely made the dysfunctional date somewhat worth it. That, and the fact that I get to tell this story for someone else’s enjoyment. Always gotta look for the silver lining, ya know?
In an effort to make my secondary intention less awkward, we sat down to watch the remainder of the 7th inning in the purple seats and had our first actual conversation of the night, now that there was literally only empty seats surrounding us. This is when he proceeds to tell me that Facebook is purposely tracking, filtering and restricting all of his personal conservative posts. 
As the only outlier in my direct family of Republican, Trump-lovers, I assured him that Facebook was most likely not tracking and blocking his individual posts - my feed was flooded with friends and family expressing their conservative views loud and proud. But my curiosity was piqued, so I encouraged him to elaborate and hoped to be enlightened. Again, I’ll spare the details, but trust me that it all boils down to a date with a loony-toon conspiracy theorist. 
I was done at this point and used my low battery as an excuse for the need to call an Uber ASAP in order to get home safe and sound. Instead of offering for a ride through his app on his fully-charged phone, he asked if I wanted to ride together as I desperately requested the Uber on my phone with 1% battery. I had no energy left in me, and for some unbeknownst reason to me in hindsight, I conceded. As we waited for the ride, he offered in a gentlemanly order: “We can drop you off first.” This is when my jaw dropped incredulously. 
Here is a literal map of the route:
 Stadium>>>>>>>>My House>>>>>>>>>>His House
Why on earth would he think that ME paying for the Uber and then offering to have me dropped off first, which was ON THE WAY to his house, was a gentlemanly act? I can only imagine. He somehow thought that the assumed and unspoken plan was to literally drive past my place to drop him off first, and then I would get dropped off after. I understand that everyone has their own perspective, but this was just downright goofy thinking. But again, it got worse.
Next, I endured a 20-minute ride home listening to my date hit it off with the driver. While it was not the most comfortable situation to be in, I remember actually feeling glad that I was excluded from their enthusiastic conversation and that maybe some benefit could come for someone from this horrific date. I am sure they exchanged numbers once I was out of the car, but ultimately, I don’t care if they did or not. Good riddance!
No text, no apology, no request for a second date. And definitely no offer for repayment of all the drinks or Uber ride home. But his dog ate his I.D....
THIS. This is the dating world for a successful, independent and decent-looking woman in her 30s. 
Some may read this and think that I am naive and should have seen the warning signs. There are so many red flags in the dating world. We all have our baggage - especially dating in your 30s and beyond - and sometimes it can be tough to distinguish what to forgive and what to go running for the hills over. What would I have accomplished if I had not gone on the date and stayed home? Another unmemorable night, most likely, instead of coming home with this story I can look back and laugh about.
Ultimately, it comes down to chance and choice. Taking a chance on the unknown and having the choice to take that chance, over and over again, until you find what you are truly looking for in another human being, because of the belief that you will eventually find that person to share your goofiness with. 
I just wouldn’t recommend doing it for the first time at a baseball game...
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Saw a tag game that was “unconventional tags”, and I was going to reblog but I wound up having TOO MANY tags per prompt! 
So out of sheer curiosity, I’m going to share what The Entire Selection of Tags with “chocolate”, “kill”, “done”, “try”, “stop”, and “why” is in this post! (Be warned: There are MANY and I only remember the context for about a quarter of these. I was able to dig up 92 tags for “why” alone. But I’m rather curious and analytical, so of course I’d tag a lot of Why’s...... anyways! Here goes! It is LONG.)
Lots of personal considerations, a hefty dose of OC and Titans-related fandom tags, 
Chocolate:
#(but like... chocolate AND cherries....~<33333 )
#I wonder if I could use gluten-free oreos (i.e. ''''chocolate sandwich cookies'''') as the crust instead.... ooooh i'm gonna try that!!
#but I've never had to buy anything and try to sell it besides... like. Malley's Chocolate Bars and other such candy bar fundraisers.
#i was at work for 12 hours but then I got home and went ''FUCK IT'' and ate some chocolate cake and a bagel with eggs???
#Dove will bring her a cup of tea or hot chocolate and sit with her for awhile. Maybe talk through some things with her.
#PB+chocolate can be either GREAT or /awful/ depending on the brand.
#Dark chocolate is more of a Dry and Astringent Texture thing for me.
#It's as essential in my plot ideas as chocolate is in hot chocolate. Just can't possibly make it without it.
#anyways: Peanut butter + chocolate is good. I like the fancy hazelnut spreads with peanut butter swirls.
#Mint+chocolate is good as Andes mints but bad as peppermint patties. Again; it depends on the brand. LOVE it in ice cream!
#i'm suddenly reminded that i bought myself an entire whole-ass chocolate silk pie Because I Wanted It SO BAD
Kill:
#nice to know the life skills i learned at chipotle haven't left me. 8FFFFF
#And I've always obsessively cataloged knowledge of canon. so when I found out all of Raven's half-siblings were killed (or their mothers)?
#Kary has a fairly good Innate sense of direction. but she had to develope a Real Skill for it when she was living feral.
#not the ''i'm gonna kill my favorite protagonist'' part but like. the emotional Twist there
#Anyways any and all Shakespeare except Midsummer Night's Dream bored me to hell. To Kill a Mockingbird INFURIATED me.
#SECONDING The Great Gatsby. I also really hated the ending of To Kill a Mockingbird. The story itself was good but that ending?
#Well I guess he GOT TO KILL HIM AFTER ALL now DIDN'T he
#''DON'T KILL IT I'LL GET IT OUTSIDE IT'S OKAY''
#kill mary-sue witch hunt culture! KILL IT DEAD
#it's Ten Percent Luck and Twenty percent skill if you're referencing the song I think you are but i see your point
#I have a 0.07 skill level when it comes to Playing By Ear and chords. But this is LOVELY so far even if it IS simplified
#it's okay you can say Kill la Kill
#excuse me as I kill my throat from gasp-laughing too harsadddnamfwje
#it wasn't until i literally shouted at a doctor that I was going to kill myself if they couldn't help me that someone actually DID SOMETHING
#you could never kill me in a way that matters
#he's also the only one who Actually tried to kill the Joker. so.......
#did you know bugs feel A Jolt of Pain when you kill them? I don't know what the heck the science-y anatomical cause of that is
#kill the idea that yelling/screaming is Normal and Healthy! Because it's not! It's absolutely NOT.
#But yeah! There's no better way to learn a skill than looking to the people who have already mastered the skills you want to learn.
#''Are you really willing to kill the next George Floyd; the next Breonna Taylor; the next Tamir Rice?''
#those herbs DON'T KILL VIRUSES like alcohol does!!
#''what doesn't kill you makes you stronger'' yeah but it leaves you with Serious Vulnerabilities that you have to spend your
#''Lots of villains.'' ''I will KILL YOU boy!'' GODS
Done:
#for me/aries it's much more the ''i want to fix it then and there and then it's done'' but really I don't play the blame game.
#seriously they've done SO MANY studies on creative hobbies and there are generations of stories from people who've had them
#so really nothing gets DONE about the diagnosis? but he gets Super Curious and reads a TON of articles and studies and books about it
#But let's take stock of how many times I've already done this shall we?~
#nicely done though??
#I can Never Get ENough of writers who've done as much off-novel characterization as Neil and Sir Terry have done with Good Omens
#That was REALLY well done as far as a Mind Games sort of horror story goes
#You shouldn't expect people who have Done a Lot of Growth and Shown a Lot of Potnetial to ForeveR Hide and Eradicate Their Past.
#this webcomic isn't my style personally but it IS really well done and I recommend it to anyone who likes the above things!
#with the tags out of the way: THAT'S BECAUSE 9/!! was PLAYED to THEIR BENEFIT (or: possibly even done by the govt themselves)
#and they pay shit and work us to the bone because they won't staff. But this post is... PROOF that it can be done BETTER.
#''i was born on the way home from the gym and then I will be able to get it done before the end of the day''
#!!! This made ms so HAPPY to see! Pink's speech patterns being recognized and analyzed was... not something i'd ever done before?
#I have to have some things done before my executive dysfunction will let me engage in other tasks or else I get like.... gridlocked?
#kpop fans get things DONE don't DOUBT them
#I have a LOT of trouble recalling when something was Done First or Subsequently. And I absolutely CAN NOT remember dates.
#It's human to need help sometimes and with all you've done for your loved ones
#and once THAT'S done I should be able to post the chapter!!! Which... given that I'm not absolutely mentally exhausted from work anymore
#I can't IMAGINE what I'd have done if I suddenly lost ALL of them and had to fight on alone.......................
#AHHH the idea of Damian adopting a rabbit! And Raven petting it! (house bunny because I refuse to condone illegal wildlife theft)
#they've done it! they've broken my fanfics down to the bare essentials!
#to do so when I see people like this. I'm done letting people back me into a corner and forcing me to cower.
#and between all the reading I've done on humanized superheroes and this show: I know that's basically my favorite trope.
#Enrichment Done Right!!
#Teaching done RIGHT!
#I'll admit: I'm curious to see how Gabriel and Kami actually describe their relationship? Because when it's built up properly and done RIGHT
#okay so I've done some research and this seems to be ACcepted on reddit but Hotly Debated everywhere else
#and it wasn't until Last Year and my sister that I trusted with it was a cosmetologist-- after I'd done SO MUCH work on healing from abuse
#It was the first forest that ever opened its heart to me. The only one that has done so as thoroughly....
#I have written like three quarter-done sex scenes but always drop off it before I get ot the Really Porny Parts because No Interest
#seriously they've done SO MANY studies on creative hobbies and there are generations of stories from people who've had them
#But let's take stock of how many times I've already done this shall we?~
#nicely done though??
#the things she had ACTUALLY said or done to me. Telling them the way she hurt me.
#have you... have you never done that???
#...hmmm... I like the Battle Cry idea. I don't know what my own creaming sounds like though. I've never... done that.
#I can Never Get ENough of writers who've done as much off-novel characterization as Neil and Sir Terry have done with Good Omens
#i scored 33-actually-34 though. the ones i missed were the mother-daughters-grandmothers one-- which I still think it Done Wrong
#can confirm that you Do Get Way More Done when you're well-rested.
#nimue's not driving but she's already so done with it
#it could probably only be done When Angry.
Try:
#i went wild with google translate and ecosia and every search engine i could find TRYING to TRANSLATE ''cotorrito''
#If we're going to take on these forces of arrogance and bigotry: We have to stand UNITED. TOGETHER!
#poetry
#country
#pastry
#And for some reason everyone fucking LOVES it. I know it was an instrumental step in my poetry as it is NOW
#but I know that in poetry after a rhyme happens then te next line is Likely to start a new thought.
#''you're a deep thinker of deep thoughts a reader of poetry and a HEAVY user of your notes app.
#take this quite literally. because the one time i did try asking my STEPmother what was wrong she wound up screaming at me.
#I don't usually watch tiktoks but the comments convinced me to give this one a try and yes. this one Deserved It.
#my mother and I driving around country backroads trying to avoid the highways at midnight on July 4th
#I was going to try buying a gift card but i think that would be cheating a legit business owner out of money and I'm not about that.
#i refuse to give her a tag of her own. i know she Contributed^tm and technically it's not 'bad' poetry but I'm just not a fan personally
#is what I consider to be MY WORST POEM. It even got published in a goddamn poetry collection! What the FUCK.
#actually put your body into starvation mode. And what does the body do when it's starving? TRY DESPERATELY to HOLD ON
#~!America is the Best Country Ever!~ NO ''BEST'' ANYTHING would allow ANY human being to be treated like THAT!
#But the idea is to try finding those things and explore them. Make it fun! MAke it spooky! Make it exciting! Make it startling!
#i'd also have to try finding a time to watch it when someone else in the family isn't already monopolizing the TV....
#(because i'd.... really love to try holding and playing one of these of my own someday.)
#about living a monk-like life? i'd give it a goddamn try if i got literally ANY paid vacation time and had the money to fly to tibet...)
#.....from certain pizza places? I would try it.
#so like. Too LAte ot try it at THIS job
#Not just in stories either; do actually try it someday
#In this country it's basically Impossible to become ANY kind of politician without being am illionaire. Like it's Literally IMPOSSIBLE.
#Like... the thrift store industry is BOOMING right now because a lot of us are Too Poor to Buy Anything Else.
#''bitch TRY it i DARE you''
#sometimes you gotta get it out somehow and a journal entry just doesn't cut it
#i actually only know two lines out of the refrain of that song. But damn if I'm not going to try LEARNING it someday
#i've heard d+ shuts down accounts if you try logging in from new devices (such as my laptop) lately
#...huh. I haven't found a lot of country music before the 90's so I don't know how I feel about this.
#but i definitely agree with the Reasons People ''Hate Country Music Today''.
#(but also The country music style of singing feels like someone is using a cheese grater on my brain. I just... don't enjoy that;;)
#(''lyrics'' referring to the 90s/00s country music I know of. and know i can't stand.)
#(tagged as such because ONE DAY I really REALLY want to try my hand at a Big Gorgeous Absolutely Breathtaking Fish Tank!)
#Oooh I'm definitely going to incorporate that ''try not to leave the room'' when cleaning thing!
#i wish my stories could do that? someday. Someday maybe.... I'll try one of these days.
#Sigh... the Artistry of this crew.
#i can't believe i'm living in the most ragged-on state in the more ragged-on COUNTRY of the entire internet.
#most of the time the people who have the easiest time contacting spirits didn't try or ask for it. The spirits just kinda.... Found Them
#He has the skills necessary to cook. Just not... the Sense of Taste. He has the Artistry part down! Just not the Accuracy.
#((and i have to try REALLY HARD to get an image of what it Looks Like. except in very Rare and Special Moments.
#I'm not usually one for visuals but this quick animation is GORGEOUS and I can't tell you how TEMPTED I've been to try recreating it.
#and Leyla as a kid just wants to TRY STUFF
#i saw amy's shoulders sparkling and i was like! ''i LOVE that. i'd love to try some fairy-goth myself someday''
#Neurochemistry stuff!!
#why is his reaction so aNGRY honestly that was a REAL ACCOMPLISHMENT and some serious artistry she pulled off!
#try swarming a stun deck with THIS on the field. o.o
#tell me what i can tag this because it's absolutely fucking ABYSSMAL of our country to ALLOW this and absolutely FUCK anyone who says
#i'm gonna...... try that popcon one though
#(because my job has me outside in it for at least 3 hours a day no matter what medical history i try to show them)
#might have to try this....
#i'm gonna Try to sleep but i know my hyperficating nexus-steeped mind isn't gonna quiet down very quickly 8O
#for the record i did TRY using the Boolean Operator  syntax with ''low'' blood pressure in quotes. but it STILL gave me articles
#Raven: immediately Exhausts Herself to Hell to Try Undoing It
#yes i'm going to overanalyze and try understand every accusation of Ohio on my dashboard. why do you ask?
#i'm gonna... Try Wearing Make-Up!
#is it weird that i use almistry when drawing my ocs' hands?
#a little piece of her childhood home and her ancestry when the rest of the world and its people died.
#She might be a little embarrassed to share her poetry with people? I think she's pretty good at writing pretty words
#Or... if you feel so inclined: poetry you've written yourself?
Stop:
#but BY ALL the GODS can we STOP mocking and hating the people who DO have all these grand and lofty ambitions?
#stop blaming millennials for our shitty circumstances challenge.
#note to self: stop frekaing FORGETTING to schedule with a GE again!!! fuck's sake!
#stop being elitist because something's Different. it has its merits and it's not meant to be an International Film-Festival Masterpiece.
#(i did a Lot of stupid things at that house actually. there was a reason i stopped working with raphael......)
#except once i got the add diagnosis my teacher stopped commenting on my doodling.
#that cloak was the PERFECT compromise. It kept me a Little Warmer without getting too hot AND did a great job of stopping the too-cold wind~
#we stopped going to the daycare.. (And i know that because i got it for my 5th birthday. i was ENAMORED IMMEDIATELY)
#i've always read it the same way and didn't notice Why Everyone Stopped Liking Her but that also brought that particular Change to light...
#but on the other hand she Literally Accidentally Stopped Time... (And i have this... headcanon? let's call it a headcanon
#for something like stopping the end of  the world: Who (at least: who among HEROES) WOULDN'T put that to use?
#my all-time FAVORITE that I will NEVER skip a song from is Evanescence. HAs been for like 15 years now and that's not stopping.
#i don't foresee this rambling stopping for another 3 days tbh
#creepy guys try to follow you off your stop and get your number no matter how many times (with increasing ferocity) you tell them no.
#but can this fandom stop acting like pink intentionally hurt everyone for like 7 seconds???
#also if you're as powerful as zee it probably comes second-nature so why WOULDN'T you throw it around to stop an argument?
#it's an even split on how many people are willing to stop and talk to you. about one in ten will just outright ignore you if you say Hi
#why not stop at home and drop him off first? why send him into freaking SPACE???
#Don't stop believing. Don't stop moving forward. Don't let depression drag you down.
#do nothing but yell at you and tell you to calm down or shut up or Stop Being Yourself.
#i'm gonna stop before i suffocate on silent laughter but Wow This Is Good
#i can't tell you how many doctors i've been to that literally told me to stop crying when i Became Distressed from relating my symptoms...
#which i don't appreciate! brain stop calling me a wuss
#how do you... Stop Doing That?
#Stop Erasing Raven's Strengths!! Stop making her a stereotypical sitcom caricature! LET RAVEN BE SASSY
#Can people PLEASE stop equating the two things that don't necessarily (or often) go hand in hand?
#they're ALREADY filthy rich just stop fucking catering to them???
#and whenever I went to the bus stop for those mornings: I cawed to him. And rather than flying away as soon as he saw me
#Petition to make the fandom stop forgetting that Blue has a FIERCE side TOO
#i wish this freaking show would stop goddamn KILLING PEOPLE
#i can't stop giggling at that last gif though. oh my stars that's Great
#i... don't want to tag him ''bakura'' anymore because STOP GIVING HIM RYOU'S IDENTITY but at the same time... what ELSE do you call him??
#night-terrors/flashbacks / whatever? She will literally stop herself from sleeping.
#sorry i've made so many posts about this; I just! I can't stop HYPERFIXATING on this ONE DETAIL.
#like I was the kid who'd CRY when someone ripped wings off flies or legs off spiders. ''Stop it that HURTS!''
#but i tend to stop in the middle of books i'm not invested in. which is happening more and more often.
#She'll stop immediately and be like ''okay! let's talk about something else than!!''
#(a terrified telepath is twice as dangerous when she's unconscious and Can't Stop It. She knows that. So when she's having bouts of
#oh STOP it that was sweet!
#i mean you can't stop kids from seeing EVERYTHING. But we should at least be TRYING to protect them. You know?
#trying to help me figure out how to cope. basically everyone was like ''there's no way you don't notice three hours passing stop lying''
#oh my GOD I'm LAUGHING there are tEARS IN MY EYES I just!! I'm DEFINITELY imagining them and I can't STOP LAUGHING OKAY
#How do you stop looking back?
#(And then the night my spirit guide told me to stop LETTING myself be defined by her and that I can rise above my past and my parents...)
#but BY ALL the GODS can we STOP mocking and hating the people who DO have all these grand and lofty ambitions?
#Don't stop believing. Don't stop moving forward. Don't let depression drag you down.
#Stop Erasing Raven's Strengths!! Stop making her a stereotypical sitcom caricature! LET RAVEN BE SASSY
#There's SO MUCH in the Society6 store and all of it is GORGEOUS. I had to physically hold my hands to my chest to stop myself
#How do you.... Stop Needing the Sugar to Function though? I've tried like 4 adhd meds and they all have Awful Side Effects for me. :c
#for the record: salem was really more of just a stop on a field trip across literary and/or historical sites of New England
#can the universe STOP pointing me towards MORE triggers?  P l e a s e ? ?? ?????
#My heart wouldn't stop pounding and I was legitimately QUAKING even after I sat down. Luckily that manager was Compassionate
#until somebody told me to stop probably
#but i can't stop questioning myself. probably because Questioning Myself and Rigorously Guarding My Mind is the only reason I...
#EXCUSE you holy HECK that was!!! I WAS BREATHLESS AND COULDN'T STOP READING?
#Not Being Violent isn't the same as Doing Absolutely Nothing To Stop Shit in the world
#can we stop saying All Sugar Is Bad now? (it doesn't increase insulin resistance until you've consistently eaten A TON of it!)
#i will literally run into a room to stop someone from killing a spider in my vicinity. Cup and paper in hand
#now if they'd stop taking digs at fans who prefer the old show maybe that would actually MEAN something.
#and I'm LEARNING how to talk back to them (''stop talking ABOUT yourself and start talking TO yourself'')
#and do you know what happened to me in Honors English? My teacher literally told me to stop writing so much and stop thinking so hard
#(i will NEver Stop Tagging Change Your Mind as Spoilers by the way because BASCIALLY THE FINALE)
#and i think my eyes are broken because i can't stop tearing up. heck
#...i'm starting to think i should stop using my Anti Fascism tag. just ot be safe
#He doesn't even need to forgive her. But at the very least... can we stop villainizing the one who is the very reason Earth still lives?
#i'm Venting but also Suggestions on Actual Techniques that can make them fucking STOP would be appreciated
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10 Questions Tag
I genuinely don’t recall seeing this tag game come in, but either I missed it or I didn’t tag my responses. Either way, I found it again today, so @elizabethsyson thanks for the tag, here’s my answers
1. What book/s made you want to write?
I don’t think it was a book necessarily. Fanfiction inspired me to write and publish fanfiction of my own, but previously, I would just concoct something equivalent to fanfiction even though I didn’t know it had a name, entertain myself with it without ever writing it down, and then eventually forget and move on to something else. But I’ve always used those same unwritten (though still primarily verbal) creative endeavors as a way to process emotions. Later, writing (original fiction that was more individual scenes with no plot resolution) served the same purpose, and now fanfiction serves the dual purpose of being an emotional outlet (those don’t necessarily ever get published) and being a fun and social thing to share with other fans.
On the other hand, I’ve got so many memories of having written stories above and beyond what a school assignment would call for, going at least as far back as second or third grade, so who knows, maybe one book in particular did inspire me to write. But if so, I don’t remember what that original inspiration was.
Also there’s one book in particular that’s just... Awful. I bought it at a dollar store and honestly no wonder it was only selling there. Worst book I’ve ever read. And sometimes I’m writing out of spite because if something with that many plot holes and “plot twists” that ignore any foreshadowing the author set up and come out of literally nowhere can get published, then I’m also definitely good enough to get published if I ever wanted to.
2. What is your favourite genre to write in?
Fanfiction is totally its own genre, right? Besides that, the gray area where fantasy, urban fantasy, and realistic contemporary fiction all meet. I tend towards realism, even when I write magic, but I love to write in universes where mythical creatures can be real, too. It’s my favorite genre to write in because it’s where I’m comfortable writing, and also because those tend to be the stories I enjoy reading and therefore know how my own contributions compare. Also because I love worldbuilding, and being in a fantasy universe not so different from our own gives me plenty of space to explore exactly what’s the same or different and why.
3. What is your favourite genre to read?
Fanfiction again, because I can explore an arbitrary character through hundreds of different lenses and poke at all the facets of their identity almost indefinitely, and it’s not restricted to what happens to be plot relevant, or even to scenarios that are all compatible with a single timeline, and it’s so character driven. It’s by far my favorite thing. Fantasy, primarily in two different flavors. On one hand, fuzzy rules of magic where everything goes as long as the magic user is powerful or creative enough, as a backdrop to an allegorical, easily divided black and white morality story is a category I almost always love. Magic can do basically anything, and it’s easy to know what’s right and wrong, and who to root for. On the other hand, I love what Brandon Sanderson would call “hard magic” fantasy, where magic is just as structured, and nearly as understood, as science, which I enjoy combined with a plot in which the characters have as much nuance and shades of gray as in the real world. I tend to prefer things at one of those extremes, but I’ll read almost any fantasy story.
4. How do you think your reading habits have influenced your writing style?
I mean it's just like verbal language: whatever I surround myself is going to shape the ideas and phrases and slang that come back out of my brain. Likewise, if I’m creating a magic system “from scratch” it’s inevitably shaped by things I read or watched young(ish), including but not limited to the Belgariad, and Star Wars and Pern (so basically, strongly connected to the mind and limited mainly by what you can imagine) (the Dresden Files and Good Omens seem to have pretty similar ideas about magic, but I ingested those much later)
on the other hand I think that my habit of primarily reading, even over watching shows or movies, has contributed to how little I ever actually think about what a character looks like, except occasionally when introductions get delayed for some reason and I can't use names in narration. So characters I only know from reading, I have zero idea what they look like. For example, I only remember that Sabriel is deathly pale as her default state because I reread the beginning of the book recently on Libby (a library app) while debating whether to check it out and reread the whole series in order to potentially write a crossover fanfiction. Her appearance was mentioned once or twice in the first few chapters and then never again, and it wasn’t something other characters often remarked upon, so I promptly forgot. Even though it’s absolutely fitting. Idk I’m just really not a visual thinker apparently, and always having character names to reference only reinforces that because why do I need to know what someone looks like if I know who they are?
5. What is your go-to cure when you get writer’s block or can’t focus?
Focus is easier. I make sure I’ve eaten, and I put on music so I’m not distracted by the silence or by the sound of my own typing. Plus I'll keep something cold and caffeinated in arms reach to sip on when I'm tempted to relinquish focus.
Writer’s block is harder to overcome and usually ties in with depression, so I’ll sometimes go months without writing and come back when I have energy for anything again... But in terms of actual strategies, sometimes rereading what I’ve already written will kickstart my unblocked writing, which is why I try very hard to only stop writing at “stopping points” if it’s genuinely the end of the story. Because when I come back later, it’s so much easier to read a partial chapter, get into the swing of it, and remember where it was going, than to start carving a new chapter out of nothing. Another thing that helps chip away at writer’s block is to talk to someone who is enthusiastic about my stories, or who is willing to let me infodump. Those are the only two things I can really control that have helped. Occasionally other things will help, like getting the book review style comments on fics (when I also have time to sit down and write while the comment is still new enough to make me surprised-and-happy over it), or if I can find the right balance of “obligation to someone else” and “not so much pressure I implode” (like, for example, I submitted a half-baked WIP to the recent WIP Blind Date event, and the afternoon after we got our assignments I started getting motivated to add to what I’ve posted about it to have something “worth” sharing for the event, and even though I didn’t get the momentum going enough to make progress until after I’d already been reviewed, I made a large amount of progress on that fic just because there was some amount of external pressure.... But that only works if I only do it to myself occasionally. Too often and I’m just annoying everyone by asking them to expect something from me and never following through.)
6. Why did you decide to start writing?
I think I got the right amount of compliments and encouragement when I was in elementary school, on writing assignments and challenges, then I was proud of the original stories I was writing in middle school, and then in high school I figured out that I could create barely-not-me characters and put them through things I wished (or feared) would happen to me and explore the consequences... My depression started getting bad around then, and with it came executive dysfunction and I started having to focus only on schoolwork and still barely finished everything I needed to. I might have stopped writing for longer but then I started publishing fanfiction. initially because my brain was generating it anyway, and I was in a shitty living situation with nothing else to do with my free time that I spent hidden away in my room besides actually type it up, but I kept at it because I was proud of my stories again, and because of the social aspect. And now I continue writing because I love the excuse to explore characters, or just because I can put characters I already love into new and interesting situations.
I might eventually write my own original novel, just because being on writeblr and seeing everyone else writing original works is super motivating, but that requires I have ideas for a setting and a plot and for characters all at once and I’m trying not to force it.
7. Pick a character you’ve written/are writing. What personality trait of theirs defines them most?
I’m going to cheat and peek a bit in the future to when I’m actually writing that fic featuring Julie Kwan, because I ought to have a better handle on her before I get too much further. She’s got a very sharp mind, very good at logical deductions (even if they involve magic before she really knows magic is real) and she’s also fairly good at reading other people. She’s also not afraid to confront people, whether they’re people who are literally threatening her and her friends, or whether they’re her friends and they’re not taking care of themselves sufficiently, or anything in between.
8. What is their primary language? Do they speak it natively? Do they speak any other languages?
...I'm not actually sure. English is her primary language, as she has grown up in the USA. If Julie speaks other languages, Mandarin would be fitting (because that’s Wei’s primary language, and I know Kate also speaks it, so that could add to team unity if over half of them all speak the same non-English language), or maybe Korean depending on her family (since Kwan is usually a Korean name.) Regardless, if she speaks any other languages, then I suspect she also speaks Klingon. @davetheshady can you confirm?
9. What does the character value the most in their life?
Julie is very focused on academia, she’s accomplished and rightfully proud of herself. She wants to be respected, (she’s so tired of being disrespected in academic circles just because she’s neither white nor a man), but she also very much values her friends.
10. If they met you, what would they have to say to you?
I think she would make fun of me for quoting her so often but she makes so many pop culture references, I don’t think she has room to complain. She would probably also encourage me to pursue graduate degrees no matter how “impractical” other people find the subject.
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