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holylulusworld · 5 years

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Forbidden Love – Part 3

Summary: Dean, Sam and the reader grew up together. They boys loved her like a little sister…until they started to love her in a different way.

Pairing: Dean x Reader, Sam

Warnings: language, sad reader, smut, protected sex, loss of virginity, oral (female receiving), fingering, fluff

Flashbacks are written in italics!

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2 months later...

Bobbing your foot you read another lore book. You’ve always been a little nerd, just like Sam. Oddly you grew closer to Dean over the years.

Maybe because Sam was the first one betraying you? He left without saying a single word, found another girl and forgot about you.

He was the reason Dean started to keep his distance, too busy to please his father and to find a way to get Sam back you slowly got unimportant to him too.

You spend so many nights alone in motel rooms yearning for your boys. But none of them came to you. The first time Dean touched you again was when he saw you with another man one year after Sam left.

The guy was shameless flirting with you and you let him. Normally you would’ve cut him off right away, but both Winchesters lost their interest and it boosted your ego seeing someone almost drooling for you.

Dean dragged you out of the bar that night. You didn’t even make it to the car. In a dirty alley behind the bar he ripped your panties apart and fucked you from behind without even looking at you. He let out all the frustration on your body. You were covered in bruises but god he was yours again, even if it was only for one night…

Of course you had to explain to John why you looked like someone beat you up. ‘Vamp’ was your answer and Dean nodded. Telling his father he helped you getting rid of the dead vamp.

John was so proud you killed your first vamp on your own, you felt so guilty lying to him. John wasn’t your father but he really tried to be a dad. Not just for Sam and Dean.

Under other circumstances you know for sure John would’ve been a great dad; but sometimes destiny decides to fuck your life up or in John’s case a yellow eyed demon.

Watching your sad face the whole time Sam is faking interest in the ingredients of his beer.

“So any information where those demons are right now?” You ask out of the blue.

“Huh? Demons?” Sam stammers.

“The demons Samuel Winchester!” You grunt.

“Oh, nothing so far. I’ll keep on searching for any signs.” He lies.

“Fine.” Opening your hunter’s diary you look at a picture of you and your dad. He’s laughing as you made a stupid joke. Bobby took the picture for you. Three days later John told you he got killed during a hunt.

You were six years old when you lost the last piece of family you had left. Bobby wanted you to stay at his house but John insisted he owes your dad to raise you. Years later John admitted your dad made him promise to take care of you and John kept his promise until he died to safe Dean.

Looking at the picture of you and John you smile. He taught you how to use a machete before the picture got taken. You can see the pride on his face. You really miss him.

The next picture shows Bobby and a guy called Rufus. You met him again years after the picture got taken. He’s dead too, just like Bobby.

Sometimes you think you’re cursed; all men in your life you see as a father die.

Looking at the next picture your heart starts to flutter. It shows you and Dean before you go to the prom with your boyfriend.

Dean wasn’t very amused you wanted to go to the prom with a ‘douche bag’ like Scott and he was right. You called Dean to pick you up after Scott tried to have his perfect prom night…

Hitting Scott’s jaw Dean cursed and grunted before you dragged him off the scared boy lying on the floor. Smiling he drove you home.

When you told him you didn’t even had the chance to dance Dean did something completely unusual, he danced with you for what felt like hours in Bobby’s living room before he brought you to your guest room and said goodnight.

Before falling asleep you heard someone opening your door…

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2001

“You still awake?” Dean asks.

“Yeah, come in. John and Bobby still away?” You ask.

“Won’t come back till end of the week. Bobby called some hours ago.”

“Okay.” Hearing the sadness in your voice Dean sits on the bed next to you.

“What’s wrong?”

“He called me a slut. I thought he likes me, but when I told him that…I never…he said I’m a liar, that he knows I fucked random guys…that I’m a slut…”

“Going to kick his ass again.” Dean grunts.

“No, he’s not worth it.” You whisper.

“Asshole!”

Humming you smile at Dean, he always seems to know when you feel bad.

“I told him I want to wait for the right man.” You whisper.

“He wasn’t the right one?”

“How could someone like him be the right one? I want someone who really knows me, the real me ya know.”

“Like me?” Dean rasps kissing your cheek.

“What?” You stammer turning crimson.

“I’m waiting since two years.” Dean whispers.

“I don’t understand.”

“Since I kissed you I’m yearning for you. But I was twenty and you only sixteen…I had to wait till you turn eighteen to touch you.” He whispers before kissing you breathless.

Moving your hands through his hair you kiss him back. His lips feel exactly like you remember.

“I want you too, Dean.”

“Are you sure?”

“Yes, Dean. I want you to be my first.”

Smiling he searches your face before kissing you again. Moving the blanket aside you show him your naked body.

“Why are you…naked?” He asks confused.

“I was waiting for you to show up. I saw the look on your face Dean.”

Stripping his clothes of Dean hovers over your naked form. Biting your lip you just look into his green eyes. Starting to kiss down your collarbone he kneads your breasts roughly. Sucking one of your nipples into his mouth he pinches the other with his fingers.

Moaning you move your hands through his hair while you enjoy his touch.

Kissing down your stomach he spreads your legs open for him. Smiling he touches your clit with his tongue and you gasp at the feeling.

“Are you sure?”

“Only you Dean.” You whisper and he nods.

Licking through your folds he groans at your taste. Sucking at your clit he carefully pushes one finger into your tight entrance. Watching your reaction he gently curls the finger to open you up for him.

“More, Dean, please.”

Hearing your needy voice he pushes another digit in. Slowly curling his fingers inside of you he starts rubbing your swollen bud with his thumb.

Whimpering you arch your back when you feel your orgasm washing over you.

“You okay?”

“Yeah, more than okay, Dean.”

“Do you really want me to…?”

“Yes.”

Grabbing a condom out of the back pocket of his pants he smiles at you. Watching him stroking his already hard cock your nerves start to flutter.

What if you’re bad in bed? What if you can’t make him come?

Sensing you doubts Dean shakes his head before kissing you softly.

“You’re perfect. Let me make you feel good, that’s all I want.”

“Okay.” You whisper.

Using the condom on his length he adds some lube on it. Hovering back over you he carefully lines himself up with your entrance.

“Just relax; this might be a bit uncomfortable at first. Tell me if I need to stop Baby. Don’t hold back; just tell me if anything doesn’t feel good.”

Smiling at his protective behaviour you gently stroke his cheek. Pushing only the tip in Dean watches you reaction. Moaning you let him push into you slowly, inch per inch he stretches your walls out.

Gasping at the feeling of Dean inside of your body you fist the sheets until he’s fully seated.

“God, you’re so tight Baby.” Dean praises and you turn crimson.

“I…” Not knowing if that a good thing you nervously bite your lip.

“Baby that’s a compliment.” Dean groans.

Slowly starting to move he tests the waters. Seeing you relax in his arms he thrusts faster into you. Moving your legs around his waist and your arms around his back you press his body closer to his.

Chuckling he snaps his hips against yours. Feeling you can take him Dean picks up the pace; thrusting faster and harder into you he makes you cry out in pleasure. Whimpering and moaning you dig your nail into his back.

“I think I’m going to cum.” You scream right before he hits the right spot again.

Trembling underneath him you hold tight onto his back while Dean still moves inside of you. Whining you start meeting his thrusts to make him come too.

Groaning he looses all control fucking into you until you scream again for him.

Feeling your walls tighten around him again Dean finally let go too.

“Were did you learn those moves?” Dean asks curious.

“I read a book…” You admit flashing red.

“What for?”

“To know how to make you feel good.” You state.

“When did you read such a book?”

“After you kissed me two years ago…”

Now

You can still see the smile on his face, the light in his eyes. You can still feel his hands on your body. His lips on yours. You made love that night two more times and you never felt happier.

The next day your world crumbled down…Sam was furious…he saw Dean sneaking into your room, he heard you screaming Dean’s name. He called Dean a sick bastard.

Little did you know back then that Sam wanted to be your first…he was mad as Dean had what he always wanted …

Part IV

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matsunjun · 6 years

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HELLO So I haven't updated in so long bc well been crazy busy during and after AX. But let’s spare all the details on that one, and just go straight to the most recent crazy adventure I had.

It was a Tuesday afternoon when I arrived to work at the Westminster branch. I was scheduled to work there from 12:15pm to 9:15pm. Not the best shift at a not so best location, but I learned to deal. As soon as I got there, office was not going well--Loopy (I now call LG that bc she’s loopy), had barely started diamond testing, when manager, LMD, was looking for the register. Loopy had forgotten to take it out, probably bc she was busy training new girl, so I brought it out for her. Then it clicked--this means she hasn’t counted Buy Gold Cash/Check or the registers. So, I did that for her. Next, I went through the emails and saw there was a transfer request from Home Office, so I got started on that. I found all 9 items and already started the whole transfer, when LMD got a call from DM, Mr. J. He was asking for me to go help out another branch in San Clemente. I have no idea where tf that was, and thinking it was nearby, I went ahead and said okay.

Anxiety started to creep up on me as I asked LMD how far it was. She told me that she was told it was only 30min, and I was like oh ok, that’s basically how far I drive to this branch. But as I mapped it...it was.....30min by freeway...by local streets, it was about an hour and a half. INSTANT REGRET AND PANIC. LMD knows I don’t take the freeway, and so she told me to make sure to charge for mileage. I cry. So as soon as new girl returned from lunch, I took off. I set it on my GPS and began the travel there. It was local streets, so it was well and good UNTIL...WHERE TF DID THE CITY GO?

like NOOOO THIS IS A NOOOO BAD IDEAAA. The whole time I was panicking to WS, and joking for him to just come pick me up at work (and he actually said ofc, what time u get off?). And he said he’d pick me up, Uber to his car, then go home--which was ridiculous so I told him no and that I was kidding. The drive there was long and I was freaking out so it made me extra tired.

I finally got to the branch, and met 2 Sales people. They had no office and immediately showed me a receipt they printed---in landscape. They managed to fix it after several tries, and I saw the bundle of receipts lol. I tossed it bc they didn't need it. I went to my break shortly after I got there bc well---I was technically working since noon, and it was around 3:30 when I arrived there. After break, I did my best as an office person to get them all caught up on paperwork, emails, etc. Apparently they've only been open for 3.5 weeks, but their manager was on vacation and their office manager was on an 8 day vacation, too. I was like uh who tf would do that to a brand new store? it makes no damn sense. Anyways, at the end of the night, we were packing up and the salesperson I closed with, PGS, told me I packed the stuff better than others who have come to help out--even managers and district managers. That gave me a bit of an ego boost lol. :>

Anyways, on the way home was when shit hit the fan lmao. It was a long way home....in the dark. boiiiii BOIIII. I was so fucking terrified. I was at the highway, a lone car going 60-66mph on a winding road. Like I recorded that shieeet

NOOO MAN U SEE THAT? The furthest ive driven was 26min local street. THIS WAS A HUGE JUMP AND WAY OUT OF MY LEAGUE. In the video I was actually whimpering but hahaha. And ANNND, my music turned off and my gas light went on at this time, which FREAKED ME OUT EVEN MORE. Because I don't know where I am, I don’t know when I get back to fucking civilization and get to a gas station. What if I ran out of gas right there??

My fear/anxiety got so bad that I start to feel my body get paralyzed. My hands started feeling numb and started locking, so did my legs and my stomach area. WHICH MADE ME FREAK OUT MORE bc how can I drive like that! I drove faster hoping to get out of nowhere and hit a city. Once I start seeing other cars and little places, I immediately put a stop on my GPS for a gas station. I was legit crying at this point, hyperventilating, even. I made it to a gas station--one other car, no convenience store/people (which also scared me), so I had to pay in card. $30 gone for a full tank. As soon as I got in the car I just rested and called WS bc I was too scared and I don't have music as bg noise. He stayed with me til I got home. ;__; Which was at around 10:14pm (I left work at 8:30pm).

never aGAIN MANNNN NEVER

AND I STILL HAVENT GOTTEN THE STARTING HOURLY PAY I ASKED FOR HMPH

Today (well yesterday), Mr. R said Mr. J was telling him that he commends me for my hard work and for helping out at Westminster and I guess San Clemente, BUT WHERE IS THE PAY RAISE.

ALL THESE MANAGERS FROM ALL THESE LOCATIONS BE PRAISING ME AND SHIT BUT I AINT GOT NOTHING TO SHOW FOR IT

/SIGH

IM TIRED

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mrsvioletrebellious-blog · 7 years

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Nearly 30 being flirty

Ahhhhh soooo I had a fuckin party didn’t I.. So nervous man and I don’t even get nervous I was smashed out the tits before I even left work.. Got back there the people had arrived and even in my drunken drunken joys, emotional cunty self Im a self confessed people watcher… Do you remember Dave I’ve spoke about him lots over my blogs has the girlfriend bangs the other one on the sly occasionally bit of a dog.. Lovely like a little bull pup but a fucking dog all the same lol.. Well Mr I’m so happy n settled was putting it on someone to the left of me.. I like this girl alot and the girl he’s with and the girl he garlic breaded.. I had to say no sonn..nooooo not this one n all.. Why do men put you in such a situ do they forget we have a fuckin woman code… And then the sad thing is some of em do such a number on the woman you could tell her he just tried to suck your clit like a Chuppa chup lolly.. And she’d let him worm his way out . That when ya have to say naaa sister I’m out 👐 Another friend of mine god love her is knee deep in a Geezer right now and how can I put it mildly Hes bit vanilla and not that she’s rum n raisin but shed appreciate a little napoleon if you get my drift.. But she likes him knows he’s abit of a boy so is allowing it for now… A girl turned up that shagged my mates man many moons ago.. In my drunken state she was told you have two minutes to leave before you die 😂😂😂 Now don’t get me wrong in all this I’m busting about with feet full of glass mascara round me face dropping people out…my mate marley been with her bloke Liam for years now decided she’s traiding him in for a big daddy … One friend of mine has a lovely Geezer chasing her but she’s so fucked up from Fuck boys she is pushing him away…Another two people I’m close to have met both got issues live in different towns have probably out shit aside but the world is against em right now.. This bloke del been wanting to smash this girl for ages finally got round her gaff and it a went Pete tong n she told him to fucking get out n he happily left cause he said she was vile but hey who knows.. Life’s crazy man I see so much stuff lately relating to peoples ego like we’ve all got one like my mate lilly she’s met a bloke she really likes him known him a long time n there just passing about at min.. But it kinda started cause they didn’t want eachover and I think it damaged the old personal ego.. N now they’re doing whatever there doing and in fairness I think they’ll either constantly have an ego battle and it will go horribly wrong or they both really like eachover but because of there egos neither will say to the other one listen I want more from you.. My psycho ex got hold of me last week cause he thought I’d moved on… I love you ill do anything please please Finally admitted all his faults finally admitted to banging a fat bird whilst he was trying to woo me.. Told me how he couldn’t keep it hard enough to fuck her.. Know what that done.. Proper boosted the old ego for me didn’t it 😂😂 I told him I’d rather suck off me old man then go near him again cause that’s how much he repulses me and we both know deep down it was probably just cause his egos bruised thinking I’ve moved on. I ain’t got a man I’m just living but I hope he’s little hearts raging.. Again ego lol a friend of mine daisy started Palling with this bloke all going well he’s wooing her like a boss wooing her hardddd… Finally got down to bussiness.. She couldn’t come.. Half probably down to him half the stresses of life.. Girls gotta be chill and now it seems to me he’s throwing the towel in with a banging bird cause the old ego is dented.. It’s madness.. I wish life was simple enough for everyone around me think Fuck looking like an idiot or needy or like a hoe just be able to go bang this is what I want this is what I’m here for.. But every cunts ego just takes over.. I don’t really remember much from the party apart from a little people watch dropping a few people out having a cry and dancing like a loon and laughing alot.. I know it was the first time my parents me n my brother have been in the same room in probably 29 years and they all had a conversation like shit.. Madness for me.. I got some great presents ended up in town lost me shoes, broke my expensive watch.. woke up in a bed with a head that felt like it was full of fuckin rocks begging me mate to come pick me up n take me McDonald’s 😢😢 when they picked me the face on em told me all k needed to know about the state of me without needing a mirror anyway the maccys which took me three hours to fuckin eat cause it felt like I was chewing cardboard and every time I chewed it felt like a knife was going through my fuckin temple.. How I went all night long I don’t even know.. I think I’ve got a spy in my midst aswell the ex keels seeing pictures of me ect so I know there’s a snake in my grass I find it hilarious cause no doubt it’s a silly little bird thinking ohh he seemed a nice bloke… Yea girl ya know what he was good at.. Fucking… Fucking you like a god and fucking ya life up like a demon and that’s the be all n end all man, look up a narsacist in the dictionary that’s that cunt.. So please your welcome to him big cock n all.. But when I find out who you are snakey I’m gonna shag ya mum n cut ya ears off n not for him. Have him, just for the spy.. He had me he lost me n that’s that.. And I trying to survive ya know I don’t need that man up in my bussiness begging or up in my bussiness slagging me.. I just wanna move on n get over it. It’s hard when someone comes into yor life being everything you’ve ever wanted and then boon they’re everything you tell the world to run from.. It leaves a nasty effect. I’m a happy go lucky girl I love the world I wear my heart on my sleeve.. But trusting people 👋 you gotta take out my bricks one by one before you nessling in with me I tell ya.. But then I spose it’s men too a friend of mine a bloke was with a bed years she left him.. Fucked him uppppp to the point the man had trouble keeping his did hard n was shaking getting down to it with a bird because he’d been through it I find that so endearing tho and gives me hope for the male species cause if they get effected like that over a broken heart they can’t all be bad can they.. Talking of shit cunt men we had a boss yea for last 6 weeks at work not only did we basically run the fuckin gaff for the cunt he robbed the pub blind and took our wages with him n tried to say we was all thieves so if anyone wants to take a journey to the weather cock in Woburn n terrorise a cunt that’s welcomed 😛 but he looked like a right gentle sassy bitch.. Was so unexpected it’s unreal.. Got new bosses now jury’s still out but one of them did ask Me the other day if I’d be his daughter… Thought fuckin hell work wise that’s fabulous but personal wise I’ve always had men wanting to wife me off now they either wanna Fuck me be my best mate or have me as there daughter 😂😂😂 I don’t think 30 is gonna be good to me ya know.. Romantically anyway.. But as i said probably would help if me wall weren’t so high and I didn’t have an ego.. I refuse to look needy it’s like a life rule I’ll never beg a man never have n never chased no cunt lol.. Maybe I should start.. Just don’t tell my mum shell bite me.. She kills me was talking to a lad other day at my party my mum goes to him god you got lovely eyes ain’t ya.. You Hurt my daughter I’ll cut em out 😭😂😂😂😂😭😭 she kills me,, someone’s dad was there getting people Stoned and other things #Ledge lol anyway anyway now I’m waffling after me cardboard maccys ate cake kids came home running around like fuckin loons I’m trying to be super mum saying let’s have a lovely night well have a takeaway and chill and watch xfactor thinking please shut the Fuck up and sit quietly but not saying it obviously and these fuckers are jumping all over the gaff oblivious making me verge between puking and me head feeling like it was in a vice but ahhh as much as it kills me I can’t think of a more wonderful hangover cure… And in all that I still ain’t 30 lol its Friday so like the Queen Mother I’m having two birthdays so I’m getting ready to go again this time without a plan I’m gonna get pissed with my new crows feet.. Thinking about the wonderful life I’ve had, so far the mistakes I’ve made the lessons ive learned and how I can make the next 30 years amazing whilst being a good mum, friend, daughter. Earning money. Trying to keep fit. Look good and live a life I’d say be someone’s wife but hey they either wanna Fuck me or make me there daughter..well have this discussion at 31 yea guys 😂😂😂😂😍

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