#lol that last one had me 💀

[silenthillbunni]

🏥🦷

#damn my teeth on my left side reallyyyyy fkn hurt #last night it started hurting so bad i couldnt fall asleep #i took some regular over the counter pain pills nd they brought down the pain a bit #so it at least didnt hurt as bad as it did first #but now after sleeping a few hours it still hurts :// #idk what to do... bc i've googled but it is like impossible for me to know what this is. could be anything rlly #nd w physical health stuff im not as terrified bc i can just go to the ER. when i was there it only cost $15 lol #but dental care is so fkn expensive i dont even have that in my account #anyway. i could get an 'urgent appointment' which i get financial aid for... probably. thats the thing. it's not 100% certain #idk what i should do bc like i could wait it out nd see if it'll pass nd then wait on my appt the 6th may #or maybe i should call my dentists nd ask them what they think nd if they can give me an urgent appt.. #i hate calling tho. i know that sounds ridiculous esp when im dealing w pain but my avpd makes it so so hard for me. i'd almost rather not #if i was smart nd normal thats what i would do. just call them nd see what they decide for me. maybe i'll wait nd see nd call tmrw.... #nd idk abt the pain. like it rlly hurts but it isnt extreme i think.. but when i press one tooth it hurts a lot nd makes me worried it's #dying 💀 nd like u can actually die from teeth pain nd complications... nd infections nd stuff. it's scary af 😭 #idk if my tooth is dying nd i need to contact a dentist rn or if its smth that can wait for a bit #i mean if i had a job nd a salary i'd book an appt for tmrw nd get it checked but i have to discuss w myself bc i cant afford lol #ugh this is the reason im terrified of dental problems. the pain is awful nd theres nothing u can do if you're poor #my head keeps spinning idk what i should do abt this 😭 i csnt make up my mind. just want it to go away on its own but i know it wont #nd it hurts so that i can barely sleep or eat or concentrate. so i rlly dont know..... #oh if only things were easy

[chloeseyeliner]

it's almost officially autumn, which means i have reached the point of my life when i wake up, (try my best to) do things, inter alia refresh the young royals tag for, like, an hour and a half every afternoon to see if there are any updates on the release of the third season, (try my best to) do other things, refresh the young royals tag again full of hope, (make an effort to) sleep. repeat.

#yes i have a life #... #idk i just associate yr with autumn okay? leave me be 💀 #speculation time #i think it's going to come out in spring #because it would be symbolic #(and bc it's exam prep season for june so i have to procrastinate somehow like i have done with all summer specifically exams lol) #(and bc one of the spring months is my birthday month lol) #in all seriousness #i really miss it #idk #i had time today #so i rewatched the last three episodes #and i was almost crying during my work out after #(but maybe this was bc of my poor physical state and this maddie gal on youtube pushing us lol) #ugh anyway #i am talking too much #young royals

[akkivee]

do you know how often these float to the forefront of my mind since they dropped???? does he know how well he suits jyushi???? does he know he’s on his way to ruining my life???? does he know—

#vee queued to fill the void #i’m sorry i haven’t gotten out my report on the bat cross talk lol i have an hour’s worth of content typed out #and no energy to type out the last hour 💀 there’s a brief after talk tho so i’ll talk about that one. uh eventually 🙇‍♀️🙇‍♀️🙇‍♀️ #but during the cross talk sakaihara-san told us he and hayama-san got to talking about the new cast #and sakayori-san’s face eyes demeanour EVERYTHING was what he envisioned jyushi to look like and!!!!!!!! goddamn do i agree lol!!!!!!! #like sakayori-san’s vkei jyushi had me by the balls from that first visuals drop but he rocks baby jyushi too?????????????????? #he’s so powerful???????????????????????????????????? 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 #nakanishi-san bless him i think needs to perform kuukou lol like if you ever wondered how hayama-san would act as an older brother/senpai #you get to see it almost every time nakanishi-san opened his mouth ITS OKAY NAKANISHI-SAN KUUKOU RESIDES WITHIN YOU TOO #I CAN TELL BECAUSE THAT ACRYLIC STAND IS MAKING ME FEEL INSANE YOU GOT THE ROLE OF KUUKOU FOR A REASON SIR OWN IT 👊💥 #much like his seiyuu counterpart i think nakatsuka-san is well rounded and can very much keep up with his team lol #like he’s got this NO SWEAT i’m very curious how the play will turn out lol #c: jyushi

[sirensskai]

Help me I keep having dreams involving sims 2 premades 😭 I’ve had three in the span of a week 😍

#ramblings #first one was the last day of high school i was on a school trip? and I asked Ripp out 😭 (idk if he accepted or rejected me though 💀) #second one was Tybalt Capp I was in a boarding school with him (what does this mean? 😭) and we were skipping class together lol #we got into trouble and had detention but we skipped that too ☺️ #last one was Ripp again lol. Only this time there was like a doll of him and I wanted him so bad #he only came in like a blind box thing and I was scouring eBay for Ripp but he was like £10000 for some reason #it was very sad I couldn’t afford him or to buy hundreds of blind boxes in search of him :( #that’s a summary of all my unhinged dreams lol

[aamezish]

what a day filled with emotions so regular for winnie

#at least i went to sundar kand and did aarti while almost tearing up #also learnt koi saga nahi hai lol this was my last thread #snapped today had 2 breakdowns #went to a temple and mart with bcg to realize he is the only one for me in college (i was trying to be a girl's girl but fuck everyone suck) #lighted up diyas in hostel invited vc their wives and most powerful authority and cracked a joke straight to one's face 🤡💀 #did aarti clicked pics i looked so pretty it felt so diwali #no matter how pathetic i get now ive learnt no one cares enough to save you #even they care they can't save me so its up to me if i go to bed crying or satisfaction #just grateful enough at least ive god with me #and mom and bcg #and its more than i could ask for

[pepprs]

all my attacks for art fight 2023!!! team werewolves ftw 🐺🎨✨

#purrs #my art #i did most of these in the first 5 days of art fight and burned out IMMEDIATELY (but also i gave myself carpal tunnel over it + life got #kinda hard / busy anyways lol so there was a lot going on) so i barely did anything art fight related for the next 3 weeks and ended up #finishing all my wip revenges in the last 24 hrs of the event 💀💀💀💀 but even still i had a great time and im rly proud of myself! i think #im really starting to pin down my style again which feels rly good after not drawing for like 3 yrs. tysm to everyone who attacked me esp m #beloved mutuals ily all so much and it was a PLEASURE drawing ur characters!! for those i didnt get to attack back... see u next yr >:"~) #also 2 fun facts! 1) this is the 2nd yr in a row that my last attack of the yr featured a snail-related character… and 2) SO many of the #characters i drew this yr are wearing spiked collars / armbands it’s kinda wild. i choose to see it as a prophecy that led me to joining #animal jam (but also the one animal jam attack i did (HIIII MICHAEL) literally did get me into animal jam lol <3)

[vazaez]

Quick thing i did in one of the school's computers after the teacher checked my assignment 🏃

#wild kratts #kratt brothers #chris kratt #wk chris #after he checked mine (i was the second one btw) he had to go one by ond with the rest of my classmates to check their assignment too #it was more of a verbal test+ showing him in the computer the process of whatever he asked n stuff #so when he finished he walked behind my chair again and saw it and asked me if i made it lol #i said yea obv #and he was like 'but you made it right now?? after you asked me if you could draw?' and i said yea again lmao #i think he thought i had started it last week and continued it today but i msde it from scratch and that kinda surprised him ig #Idk why tho because all the teachers know i draw #but anyways #now that i think of it i left the drawing in the school computer after i copied it into my usb #so i'll just pray no one in the next groups to use the computers recognizes him because that'd be embarassing af #cuz i even put my shortened name and school year in a cortner 💀💀💀💀💀 #THAT WAS SO DUMB WHY DID I DO THAT #i'll delete it next Thursday 🚶 #ms paint #vaz art ✨✨ #vaz ms art✨✨

[theflyingfeeling]

still sick but alive, unfortunately 🤧

#last morning when i got up i wasn't at all sure i'd live to see the release of deadzone lol #since then i've been able to walk and stand up somewhat normally without wanting to cry and/or die #last night i slept more than the two previous nights combined. which still isn't that much but at least i did sleep #i did also wake up so completely drenched in my own sweat (from mild fever going down after i had taken a painkiller for a headache)- #-that i had to get up and dry myself with a towel 😂 #and there was a huge wet spot (of sweat) on my bed where i had lied 🙂 #i have lost three fourths of my vocal range so i can't e.g. laugh #(not that i've had a whole lot to giggle about these past few days 💀) #i'm bummed out i can't do preparations for my new job #i definitely should've started earlier but i would've had plenty of time this week had i not caught the cold at the stupid festival 🤧 #i did not plan this! besides i'm not gonna start working weeks ahead for a job i'm not even getting paid for yet #for the same reason no one can expect me to work while sick for a job i haven't gotten a single penny from #hell even if i WAS paid no one could expecte me to work while sick #so i shouldn't feel guilty for wanting to work on my fic instead of the course plans #which btw i already sort of have because my predecessors gave me practically ALL the material i might need #so all i reallly need to do is change the dates of the course plans and bob's your uncle #but i'd like to also study the material a bit before teaching it so that i'll at least seem like i know what i'm talking about 💀 #mom said on the phone that i've managed situations like this before so i will manage this too and she's right i guess but 😭😭😭 #but yeah i guess this is some sort of developement from last year when i had the 'rona- #-and felt awful about ordering food/groceries in because ''i don't want to be a bother'' 😂

[encrucijada]

actually upset that because of commuting i had to let a job opportunity go....

#the etsy shop i technically work for had no contacted me again lol #like maybe it's cause my boss is aware of my uni schedule from the one time i mentioned it but ??? #idk i'm nervous i'm off the team because last commission i handed in wasn't the best and the buyer hated it 💀 #this is like. my only source of income rn #the job i couldn't apply to was as an interpreter which. i mean being bilingual might as well serve me for something #but i am Not taking the bus to another damn province for this. i don't want it That bad #and no i'm not learning how to drive. fuck that #pia.txt

[kiribread]

Slight bnha 385 spoilers

Mt. Lady color page! I have a few different versions but they all look pretty similar. Also tried a different style!

Lemme know which version u like best! If u can tell tell them apart 💀

#Hehehe #It's been awhile since i last did one of these! #The way i did it this time definitely saved me a bunch of time #There's technically a 4th option but i forgot to send it so if u want to see it just ask me bc i don't feel like fixing it rn 💀 #I think the 2nd is my personal favorite! #Also i feel like most of the color pages i do are of mt. Lady lol #Can u blame me though? She's so pretty! #Probably one of my favorite designs in the series #My friend was a mha shirt that had her on it and i picked her out as my favorite of the bunch hehe #(Before I was watching it btw lol) #I always had a bit of a soft spot for her in particular because of that <3 #Mt lady #Mount lady #Bnha spoilers #Mha spoilers #Color page

[silenthillbunni]

🤧🐀🌧️🌊

#need to clear my head; #im in such a bad mood. my face is in a perpetual angry state. im just so so bitter nd pessimistic rn #trying not to get stuck in negative chaos thought spirals nd to just take it as it come #nd be patient bc recovery takes time i know. but i havent been able to feel healthy or functional for 7 months nd i am so tired #i cant help but worry abt my health nd what kinda diet i can have nd how to work all of that out. #like the removal of the gallbladder dont ensure a good digestive system. they remove it bc it can irrepairably hurt u #also im so so stressed out abt school nd my courses. i already had to drop one last week. nd it isnt looking like i'll be able to pass my #eng class.. it just isnt looking like it's realistic at all :/ i personally dont mind if i fail. but i can get issues w my wellfare hmm #bc like im still feeling rough nd u only get sick leave for one week after surgery.. so i have to go on thursday nd friday but im gnna #be in pain plus be so hungry nd be unable to concentrate idk #idk idk!! im already willing to take out loans to finish my upper secondary school.. but i have to make it work w timing nd stuff so im not #sitting here unable to pay rent or the bills or food lmao. so idk have to fix it somehow #nd the pressure of this country rapidly declining state is stressing me tf out!! having nazi conservative rightists in the ruling is just #dreadful!!!! for many reasons but atm idek if i can do distance classes like i wanted to :// #i just.. wanna be able to go for my long walks. go to the gym. eat normally. have coffee. study nd finish highschool. #then apply for whatever program i can nd move to another calmer city. prob eventually find a path to move to another country. like norway.. #im thinking too much but my thoughts are spinning nd killing me like i cant stop it im so scared nd anxious lmao 💀 #im also trying to be brave and write to the psych clinic for personality disorders nd be upset nd 'beg' them for help ksksksks. #but like... the thing abt having avpd is that i kinda dont wanna bc im scared of the possibility of them helping me lol #im just in a low place nd bad headspace and it's just getring worse nd im getting more nd more tired #i dont have much more energy to keep it together nd pretend like im ok or like i have hope lmaoooo idk what to do #anyway... idk idk guess i just gotta .. keep crawling forward anyway i can

[kithj]

having that post on tnp almost hit 3k notes has been my villain origin story. that's not even that much for a tumblr post in general but jfc if i could go back and rewrite it or just delete that anon i would

#my inbox has finally calmed down at Last #i had like. a random bout of anons after a few days last night that i blocked and since then it's been quiet #i feel bad about how dismissive i was but that person completely misrepresented that post to begin with #like they were not interested in a real conversation they were just trying to guilt me for something i never even said #'celebrated civilian deaths' when it was like. a mostly neutral & slightly optimistic report on what had happened lol #commenting on the deaths of soldiers that were a part of the military that had been actively murdering and oppressing them #i wish i had pointed that out in my response but i didnt imagine that post was going to be reblogged like that lmfao #and anyone following me could just See the og post themselves #and know it wasnt true #anyways. what can you do #it's always those kinds of posts on here that get reblogged. never the ones you want 💀 #and then they get misrepresented out of context and you get harassed with rape threats for weeks. tumblr moment

[hwanghyunjinenthusiast]

I realise now that I woke up because I had a nightmare about birds lol

#i just remembered startling awake but it's coming back to me that i had a horrific dream about them #would not recommend lol #fortunately i don't think I'll need to wait 4 hours to fall asleep again #i don't remember the last time i had a nightmare let alone one bad enough to straight up jolt me awake 💀 #rj talks

[thewafflewhat]

i would like to propose a new leah headcanon (using the knowledge that she likes both writing/poetry and music/musicians*coughfatincough*) and say that she definitely had a spoken word poetry phase

specifically for shane koyczan and his work with the short story long, hannah epperson, and dan mangan

#she totally heard 'to this day' for the first time at the age of 10 and cried for like an hour but had no real clue why #don't mind me just having thoughts about my fictional blorbos again 🥲 #the wilds #leah rilke #shane koyczan #for my tags #in which i have to insert one of my old niche hyperfixations into my most recent brainrot so i don't kms #(for legal reasons that last part was a joke #i'm still in my depression era about the cancellation and i'm using humour to cope lol) #as a sidenote this has put a really great au idea into my head #leah as a spoken word poet and fatin as the cello player who accompanies her #and the music makes the poetry more powerful #i hope someone who's actually talented with writing sees this and takes inspo #no one wants ME to write that idea... just trust me on that #( #leatin #so i can find this post again if i'm super bored and have really bad leatin brainrot again) #also! there i was rewatching old shane koyczan poems on youtube and who shows up on the reccommended videos? #none other than ben fucking folds lmao #my tags once again being longer than the actual post and no one is even a little bit surprised 💀 #well who even cares? i wrote this post for me :D

[padfootastic]

I like that you invision James as handsome beefcake majority of Hogwarts (and most definitely Sirius) had as a first crush.

But let's take it step further....James survives and raised Harry and poor Progslet had to deal with his dad being the DILF of his school year's (Lucius Malfoy wishes) and his classmates asking if his Auror dad is stopping by since Harry caused trouble again that year.

hehehe it’s a very indulgent headcanon, i have to admit. ash super believes in this but james’ was more of an approachable hottie whereas sirius was out of everyone’s leagues (and they all knew it) so it meant that a lot of people basically ended up crushing on james at some point in their lives. just like a casual ‘damn look at hin’ sort of a thing ykno? and he was so happy and charming and helpful that it just made the whole thing worse (or better?)

no ok but dilf james is such a fucking mood (have u seen that one art of dilf marauders? 👀) and i firmly believe that harry would be sick and tired of people lusting after his parents (either in a jily or prongsfoot or particularly, jilypad universe) like

‘oh yeah dad’s coming to pick me up’

‘oh i wouldnt mind being picked up by james potter’ *lecherous grin’ ykno?

x

Lucius Malfoy flicked a silk covered finger over his immaculate robes, adjusting the clasp minutely before stepping through the entrance. He stopped, briefly, as memories of being a carefree schoolboy assaulted his senses—the various smells of dinner laid out in the Great Hall, the warmth of the stone corridors that stayed so throughout the year, the overwhelming port sites moving around and talking. Lucius wasn’t one to reminisce, but it was hard not to in Hogwarts.

Once his momentary weakness had passed, he started a brisk pace towards his destination—the Dungeons. As he walked amongst the crowd of rowdy children—his Draco would never, he thought with an invisible shudder , looking at someone levitating a piece of gum up another’s nasal cavity—he began to note a sudden increase in whispers and glances. A quick glances around only proved his suspicion- it was him they were looking at. He suppressed a smirk at the look of awe and, dare he say it, appreciation lining many faces.

Lucius Malfoy was a vain man, he admitted it freely. He took great care of his looks and his body and while it wasn’t to impress school kids, it definitely didn’t hurt that such a picky group of brats liked it. He felt his chest puff up a little as he almost made it to the staircase. Maybe he’d invite Severus over for a drink tonight. He usually didn’t bother with the man beyond a professional relationship but the past few minutes had left him in good enough spirits to put up with him.

Suddenly, a boy stepped forward, mouth opening on a greeting. Dealing with these children was another thing Lucius didn’t like, but well, it’s the least he could do, right? He’s sure Draco would’ve mentioned him in a good light, and it’s no wonder they’re so impressed by him. After all, being Lucius Malfoy meant a great deal in the Wizarding World. Lucius had just started saying ‘He-’ when he was rudely interrupted by an unfortunately familiar voice.

“Cedric!” Lucius turned around and couldn’t help the sneer that lifted his lips at the sight of James Potter in all his uncouth glory. He was dressed in his Auror robes which should’ve made him look distinguished but the wrinkles, ill fitting muggle trousers, hideous boots and the visible holster only served to make him resemble a wind dried Hippogriff. “It’s been a long time, mate, how’ve you been?”

“All good, Mr. Potter. Do you—That is—Are you here long?” In front of Lucius’ incredulous eyes, the boy…Amos’ son?…ducked his head shyly as a red flush creeped up his neck. Something fell in place as Lucius noted the reaction, along with Potter’s friendly demeanour and affectionate smile. Another not-very-subtle glance around showed that all the eyes that had been on him so far had instantly snapped to the pair standing a few feet away. More than a few miscreants had their gazes aimed significantly lower than appropriate and this time, Lucius couldn’t help the low growl that escaped him at the realisation.

“Potter!”

“Oh hey, Lucy, didn’t see you there.” James Potter’s infernal grin looked personally designed to annoy him further and Lucius didn’t deign to respond—only stalked off with a pout sneer on his face.

#james potter #lucius potter #i know no one’s asking for these drabbles in the asks so i sincerely apologise #but y’all are giving me the best fodder and i’m taking max advantage #bc 1. need to break this writers block and 2. work on my drabble skills (currently nonexistent) #so pls excuse me while i do this lol #especially since u had literally 3 words in the ask that i ran with 💀 but i couldn’t help it #also the last line is a bit of a ~parallel #also lol i’ve never written a malfoy pov before. and lucius isn’t easy. so hope it worked #tumblr works #pen’s writing #pen’s asks

[pepprs]

update counselor breakup email scheduled to send at 8:48 am tomorrow 🥳

#if i wasn’t miserable and stressed for other reasons i would feel a weight lifted from my shoulders. lol 🥲 but im proud of myself and i know #it’s the right decision and i rly appreciate everyone who’s encouraged me to do this for the last few months. ty for listening to me #complain and show me what im worth. it genuinely means so much to me #purrs #now i need to get my learners permit… start looking for a place to live…. and find a new local counselor who i can see in person and takes #sliding scale payment and will actually understand me and will have their license etc etc etc. no big deal 🫠 #or maybe i just try not having a counselor for a little while and see how i do? but that’s scary. ithink i actually do need one #*showing not show. augh #anyways 2 yrs in a row where my counseling rs has ended partway thru februsry except this time imwthe one ending it 🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑 #also my track record for sticking with counselors the whole way thru is ABYSMAL lmao. as of this email sending we’re at 3/6 💀😭 #(the whole way thru bc ive always had temporary counselors w finite timelines. but im done w that shit. i need someone stuck w me forever ♥️ #(​and god DAMN if i am not about to get myself exactly that! ♥️)