#my brain made some weird connections

[daonepiece]

((lots of thanks to @banjlong baby for helping me with the dialogue!!))

#one piece nonsense #this whole scene is just nonsense but #i should probably tag this #op spoilers #one piece spoilers #egghead spoilers #kshsksksks #my brain made some weird connections #dracule mihawk #shanks #trafalgar law #bepo

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#im still procrastinating so bear with me #ive just been thinking abt something. like the idea of a support system #bc as a 1st year grad student ppl around me r like: it must be hard being away from ur support system or ive left my support system when i #moved halfway across the country. and like i dont really feel that way bc idk the idea of a support system is sorta odd to me #like for me i guess it would just b my parents who i kno love me but im just so weirdly asocial that i never really talk to them #like i hardly ever text them. we talk maybe every couple months. so like i guess i theoretically have support but its a bit abstract #and like i have friends i guess but again im a bit weird and dont really feel connected to ppl so i dont feel that close to anyone #surface level friendships i guess. i dunno. i just feel weird not not having a support system but also having it b hollow #i guess i cant feel it more now. like i feel like getting diagnosed as bip0lar made my problems seem more realized to my parents #like i dunno i just assumed they knew i was doing awful most of the time but maybe that wasn't the case #its such a weird thing to b diagnosed with. like the conotations feel a lot heavier and i feel like im not supposed to talk abt it to ppl #bc theyll think im unreliable or something. like it wouldnt b that big a deal if i was just depressed but the sometimes buring out of my #skin makes me somehow scarier. and i still feel conflicted bc i do have a bip0lar mood profile but i have very very high impulse control #and even when im going high my mind is still super rational about it. which seems weird bc low impulse control is common with #the diagnosis. its also y i dont fit an 4dhd profile. not that it really matters. i fit the criteria enough to be on the bip0lar spectrum #its not like someone's gonna come yell at me for not being bip0lar enough. i just feel odd about it is all #still feels fake i guess. hard to imagine feeling any different to how i feel now. which is weirdly stable. so i guess the meds r working #sigh... ok enough i need to go to sleep at 7pm so i can get up at like 2 to finish reading a paper. for some reason my god forsaken brain #works better in the early morning rip #unrelated

[jesusbutbetterrr]

i have an issue where anytime I see a tall man that looks at least vaguely buff my brain goes "yea that's pretty isaacwhy coded"

#now my brain has made some weird connection that vessel is now just isaacwhy in a different font #:/ #jesus speakz

[izzy-b-hands]

If ur waiting on a reply from me (and i know a couple of folks are rn) thank u for ur patience in waiting. I'm working on typing things up but today is just. idk how to put it but i keep winding up grumpy and my replies i feel are suffering for it. Pls know i do wanna chat and exchange ideas, I'm just trying to make sure the Grumpasaurus Rex side of my brain that's v loud today isn't mucking them up before i send them 🫂🫂❤️❤️

#text post #like it's genuinely nothing just bad takes online some shitty messages in my inbox on here and reddit and not sleeping well at all #attempted a nap i woke up from like tenish minutes ago and it was all a realistic nightmare #in which ct house was somehow connected to nd condo & i kept getting caught on one side or the other at a time #unable to touch or talk to anyone until i was fully on either 'side' for a good while #made the flow of time feel fucked up and i fully expected this to have been a longer nap considering how time felt in there lol #but yeah. I'm trying and im v grateful to y'all waiting for being patient with me. thank u & i promise ill have my shit together soon #(aka might take an edible and just. idek. bake maybe? my brain isn't happy doing anything rn but cookies are always good) #have a potential call with mum later i need to prep for #...worst case scenario i try to nap a bit more and hope i don't wind up stuck in that weird hallway from my dream again #worst bit was the nd cats and my mum and ct cats and Housemate on each side both trying to get me out but couldn't #really don't wanna feel as stuck as i did in this dream but hey!! maybe it's trying to tell me something lmao #not entirely sure what but that's nothing new for me lmao #normally wouldn't post like this for replies but everyone waiting follows me so i figure this reaches everyone easily enough #& hopefully is better/more useful than me going radio silent bc my brain is being a baby abt shit that means nothing lmao

[the-kipsabian]

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#death // #really tho just. losing two family members within a week from one another is. really rough #even if it is from natural causes and old age it still feels very sudden #and even if we werent that close it still hurts #little things remind me of the grandparents i dont have anymore. like making dinner and realizing im not eating their cooking again #or my grandmas favorite songs. its just. rough #im just thinking a lot. and not looking forward to two funerals within the next few weeks #just.. yeah. i feel kinda fucked up on the inside. more so than usually but for once not cause of myself #its. odd to me. grief hasnt really been constant in my life in years. apart from losing my brothers cat few years ago #before that i lost my other grandma like eleven years ago. since then immediate family has been okay #its just weird. i dont really know how to grief. it comes in waves and odd memories and it feels really.. idk. off to me #ive had few crying fits over some random things but i just feel. numb. maybe its cause of the sudden frequency of these #or cause i dont know how to deal. its strange to me. feels out of place to mourn something other than what i made myself lost #maybe its cause while there was a connection there was a larger disconnection. i havent seen either of them since covid started #idk. regrets and shit and whatnot. i just feel all but nothing at the same time #just. just saying. idk. just wanna clean my brain a little. its been a difficult day. sorry #night is an absolute mess on main

[galaxyofender]

well. this took longer than i thought it was going to. have a silly little comic about martyn and doc!

(the bottles from the river bit is a reference to fallen london, if you’re wondering)

#galaxyofart #inthelittlewood #itlwart #some notes about the designs: #martyn's design is a simplified version of what it is supposed to be #because i appreciate my wrist thank you #that and drawing it as detailed as it is supposed to be looks weird with my artstyle being pretty simple #the golden cracks are scars! they're inspired by kintsugi and i love how they look so they are staying for my vtuber martyn art #now with doc. i ended up giving him a different outfit than the one we've been shown of him #mostly because i rewatched the little lore video like some idk five times and i still didn't quite understand what the fuck doc was even- #-wearing? so i decided to change it into something that made more sense to my brain #also also #i know that the overlap between ''watches gebsart'' and ''trafficblr'' is probably just me #but drawing doc felt like just drawing gebs without the mask #i think it's mostly the hair and glasses #so. if i ever draw doc without the glasses and make his eyes green it's a gebs reference! #but also that would work too even if it wasn't a joke about gebs? like. if martyn is mostly green with blue eyes (doc's color or at least- #-it is in my art) then it makes sense that doc would be mostly blue with green eyes #so having the other's color in their eyes would be a nice way to show that they are connected to each other? #okay now im done with rambling on the tags #okay no one last thing #with the FL reference. i want to make stuff about martyn in the neath now #he would be a nemesis ambition person i think #but im biased because that's my ambition too- #OKAY NOW IM DONE

[the-furies]

every now and then when we say something in-sys we DO still hear Allan's voice but barely so

and sometimes. they're like "QUIT TELLING EVERYONE I'M DEAD??" when,

We never DID explicitly tell anyone that, and

He is dead? He's literally a ghost. He honest to god legit for realsies died in 2019.

and he's like..,,,, "oh right! lmao sorry I forgot, carry on" JDJSMSKDMFCN??

#pk;m electrochemistry🔴 #no idea where Rosie got off to and what connection Allan has rn isn't enough to ask them #his whole 'voicing other people's thoughts/what they're saying' thing is an autopilot thing he does & at this point #since he's been doing it for over a decade he's barely aware of it now #but w Rosie it's like. Ok. Well. There's a ton of similarities between hir & I. what if sie.... um. #and I'm like WELL THAT'S PROBABLY NOT THE CASE AHAHA [<= in denial in case that Is the case.] #but also like Actually logistically that's probably not what's happening here #cuz that doesn't FEEL like what's happening. hir & Allan r probably in some weird void somewhere #There's also The Horrors that ce sometimes Reminds Me Of Against My Will so I think if ce DID integrate into me #that would not Happen. it feels very 'I am forcibly receiving these memories from someone else' #and not 'I Myself Am Suddenly Remembering These Things And It Sucks' it's like ce's shoving them into my brain remnants #so aNYWAYS! THIS IS FINE [it's not but it's like on the levels of 'I keep bumping into shit' on the Annoyances Scale #very Low but still mildly painful and Annoying.] #idk how much awareness either of them have rn or have had for the past Ever since they stopped being able to front #like we Have tried asking and we get nonsense or nothing in response #so. ??????????? cool?????????????? well anyways. if that changes and they come back and they don't like any changes we've made to things #that's their problem then ig! jxjaksskxj

[caramiaaddio]

man I dunno if it’s being in my parents house for so long or what but I stg my brain is just like ‘okay yeah it was a major betrayal that severely fucked us up for years but maybe actually it’s fine and let’s date again or maybe just be friends please 🥺’ like ma’am. have you forgotten the horrors. do not initiate contact with a person who didn’t respect you enough to be honest about your relationship just go get laid

#it’s fuckin wild man like #every once in a while my brain is like ‘🥺 miss my lifelong best friend and ex’ #and I have to remind myself like no. I know she made you feel warm and happy and you connected in a way you never have before or since #but also she actively lied to you about being in love with you and inadvertently removed your ability to informed consent #and made you feel like shit for like four years before owning up to everything and even then it wasn’t offered you had to look for it #just like bapping myself with a newspaper like no! she made you feel bad! do not contact! #gotta get my ass outta my hometown and into some sort of fucjing gay bar lol #like am I a virgin with an idealized view of losing that virginity? yes. but also maybe I just need to have a one night stand #y’know what fixes weird nostalgic pining for a dead friendship? PUSSY

[enden-k]

im sorry if i sound whiny and im sure the person didnt mean to but its somewhat of a trigger:

please dont talk to me bluntly about children being r*ped and child abuse in general, even if its "just" sea otters

#i still am working on handling trauma and reading the comment was like a bad surprise for me #bc it is very blunt and those 2 words in combination made me remember childhood i try to forget and dettach myself from #bc my brain is weird and connects the fact to my own childhood and idk why it does that but it did im not a baby seal but it made me aware #of what happened im dettaching myself from and im upset nwo that it did #im ok and dont need or want comfort. it was just like a slap bringing me back to reality and memories and i dont want that #im sorry that it upset me #im really ok and sorry if someone is worried or smth. i usually distract myself to block thoughts off to not get overwhelmed when its not #smth that completely set me off . so yea im feeling numb all over but not set off no worries #im gonna throw myself into some art and comfort streams now ha i am sorry again #myountalk #personal #tbd

[cherriesandcharms]

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#I'm sick and exhausted so pls excuse the sad posting #but grief is so fucking weird and near impossible to make sense of #im sobbing at 10:30pm bc tiktok showed me a clip of yellowstone #and i burst into tears thinking about how dad will never see how it ends #the worst part is this has happend twice now with different shows #the first time was i saw an ad for Picard #the most innocuous shit causes the biggest breakdowns atm #and i can guard against the obvious stuff so its not as bad #but some things come out of nowhere #associations i had no idea my brain had even made #like how am i meant to prepare for crying in public all bc i saw a man whose mustache looked similar to dads #(this man was at least 20 years older than dad and a different ethnicity #but my brain made the connection before i was even aware i had seen him) #its so bizarre and incredibly painful

[the-best-invader]

PAK things.

It’s a monitoring device that you cannot remove without dying.

#INVADER ZIM #MY DRAWINGS #PX #MY CREATIONS #testing tags. #some explinations.... This was easier when I made them? #the first one is the PAK removing connection from itself to the brains #second one is more sensical when you know about hearts #none of us have 'hearts' because they become redundant when the PAK is installed #PAK is me? Same thing but I ACT weird at it anyways despite it being me #uhg #IZ Askblog Community

[nexus-nebulae]

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#echos #anyway the only reason I'm awake rn is cause i had a semi-nightmare #nothing Bad happened just the leadup to the Bad Things was paranoia inducing enough that i couldn't handle it #i was like. i was staying in a different house. with people i didn't recognize #idk why i was there but i was sleeping in a bedroom that #1) had a very big and easily openable window #2) had TWO doors (one to a hallway one to a joint bathroom connecting to another bedroom) #3) the bathroom door could not be locked #and 4) there were way too many light switches and some of them did not turn on lights. #first night i was there i was so paranoid someone would try to come in #and I'd forgotten to lock the hall door so i was even more nervous #was fine the first night. later the other people in the house tried to get me to use telekinesis that i apparently had #i used it to fuck with a stoplight that was hung up in the house for some reason #made it flick back from red to green really quickly #then it skipped to the next night #i was paranoid that last night people had tried to get in because i saw some weird things #well this night the things happened again #and then people started actually trying to get into my room #the Weird Things were actually signals to other people outside to try and get into my room #and i freaked and went for the light switch by the bathroom door #light switch didn't do shit even though earlier it had #and then suddenly someone tried to come in through the bathroom door #i woke up immediately but was so fucked up on paranoia that i couldn't even go back to sleep #had to grab my phone so that it stopped #brain is still being weird but at least i mostly know what's real and that I'm safe

[roaringheat]

my boss has her issues ofc but her praising my customer skills sm and writing a little personal note in a christmas goodie bag she gave me basically thanking me for how good I am with customers has me so elated and shit. makes me feel like im actually contributing which means A LOT since im still fuckin up drinks every so often LMAO

#varks posts #sorry im postin sm i just got shit bouncin around my brain and no one to say it to #but yea its just so fuckin nice :'^) #she told me i could even be helping out my coworkers which made me feel so fuckin proud of myself #i didnt think i was really that great at all but now im really puttin everything i got into interacting with customers #makes me feel almost charismatic lmao #which is hilarious because i am the opposite with my coworkers #with them i usually feel robotic and like im just responding with what i think i should say #its weird idk why theres such a difference #but ig its good cause starbucks cares so fuckin much about its 'customer connections' or whatever the fuck #wild thing ive found out is that older ladies with eccentric jewlery always have some crazy ass story about how or where they got it LMAO

[reallyromealone]

This isn't a request but I'm brain rotting rn about imagining Emma is once again at a toman meeting with another 'girl' and Draken of course scolds her and is like "Don't go bringing your schoolmates to a gang meeting," but it's actually reader crossdressing and Mikey's new bf

Thank you, bye bye I had to tell somebody and I thought you would like it. 🤧

Title: cross dressing

Fandom: Tokyo revengers

Pairing: Mikey x reader

Warnings: slight au, male reader, cross dressing, fluff

Notes: made some slight alterations for the sake of hahas

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Mikey was slightly annoyed as he heard his younger sister brought someone to a Toman meeting, the girl making friends at university and he often saw her friends when he got home from gang stuff or helping shinichiro with his shop on occasion.

What he wasn't expecting was (name) to be dressed in cute feminine clothes and a mini skirt, tucked flat-- Mikey chuckled silently to himself as he knew (name) probably regretted letting Emma get into drag racing shows. Draken scolded the girl as (name) glanced around and saw Mikey leaned back on his chair with his legs spread, slicked back blond hair showing off his tattoos as he winked before blowing out smoke from his cigarette.

(Name) And Mikey had recently begun dating, the blond initially hesitant when he learned Emma had a male friend and Draken nearly hostile at his girlfriend being so close to the cute boy but they quickly realized that (name) was not interested in Emma or any other girl.

What Draken didn't know was that Mikey immediately went on the hunt, practically popping up anywhere (name) was to flirt with him and eventually begin dating him.

So when the twenty-one year old saw his boyfriends bare thighs swished slightly by stockings and that cute skirt, (name) looked nervous at the look he gave him though... The Toman underlings who stood in position in the back garden of Toman headquarters didn't see the look as their boss being a horny bastard but instead saw it as annoyed.

To be fair, Mikey was incredibly hard to read.

"She can stay but she has to stay out of the way, we aren't responsible if she gets hurt" Draken sighed and kissed Emma's forehead as the blond girl beamed up at the tattooed man "thanks Kenny!" She said sweetly and the giant of a man grumbled but didn't say anything.

(Name) Sat with Emma quietly as they started their meeting, Emma and (name) chatting amongst themselves and working on a project, (name) explaining his half and what he was doing.

They didn't even notice the meeting end until Mikey wandered to them "oi" he said passively as (name) looked up confused and Mikey raised his hand, many members holding their breaths only for Mikey to grip (name)s neck and kiss him softly "what" Baji said confused, he was fully ready to get the cute girls number but seems Mikey got to her first.

"What's with the clothes? They look weird" he asked confused and mitsuya looked up from his laptop, working on business expenses that he will be sending to Koko later "Mikey! Don't tell a girl her clothes look weird! That's rude!"

"But (name) isn't a girl" Mikey said bluntly as he plopped beside (name) and draped himself over the other "I just made (name) wear girl clothes, he owed me a favor" Emma said sweetly "besides he looks cute! Don't judge my fashion Mikey!"

"Wait, she's a dude?" Pah said confused and (name) nodded "yeah "

"Wait why did Mikey kiss you?" Chifuyu was also confused, a group of grown ass men who ran a notorious gang and made illegal millions couldn't figure out was a relationship for the life of them.

"(Name)s my boyfriend" Mikey said bluntly, Draken connecting the dots fast.

That would explain why Mikey went to a specific apartment often.

And based on how he played with (name)s skirt...

He would be going back pretty damn soon.

#tokyo revengers x reader #tokyo revengers x male reader #tokyo revengers fluff #male reader #mikey tokyo revengers #x male reader #mikey x male reader

[neil-gaiman]

So. I read the article by NME that you shared. And like, a lightbulb went on in my head. Can't believe I didn't even connect it before this. A few days after watching GO season 2, I think I was in the middle of my second or third rewatch, when my brain made a random decision all on its own without any input from me- if none of my friends or family can see me as queer, I'll just look for people who are queer. Like a switch went off in my brain, after it made some kind of connection? I mean, you wrote it like non binary people and lesbians and other queer people were so normal and like. All my life I've buried that part of myself along with a few other unpalatable parts deep down. Past few years I've been working on who I am and how I want to live my life- but there was this queer part that I didn't really know what to do with so I just, ignored it? I even got into a relationship just so that my friends would stop worrying I was lonely or something (the person in question had been asking for a year, I got tired and said yes because I should at least "try"- it didn't last long)

I love my friends, they've literally saved my life, but no matter how much I tell them, they just can't understand this part of me coz they don't have any context. I'd never even met another queer person until last month and I'm 27. But like. It's normal to be like this, right? and maybe what I need is to meet more people like me instead of burying it so much. I loved the new season so much more than the first. It's like the show is telling you how normal it can be. It's silly but that's all I can think of, you wrote them like people- complex and weird and lovely, and the show doesn't treat them like a joke or a horror thing- not in that degrading manner like in the mainstream media of my country. I know that's not the main theme of the show, but it's pretty significant for me. Also it's a really really good show. So thank you for writing it, you're genuinely amazing.

My heart aches for you. I hope you find whoever you need.

[crees-a]

Super messy sketch because I really REALLY wanna tell you about this AU

Also thanks to @milkyrrr for helping me :>

So. Villainous trio AU is an AU where Eclipse, Jigsaw and Solar are a group of antagonists working together

Solar:

Solar is brain of team, a mechanic with crazy scientist vibes who can spend weeks in his lab working on some weird machines that most likely won’t even work. Sometimes he builds them just to see them blowing up. Something went boom in the kitchen? Don’t worry it’s just Solar making himself some coffee

Solar killed his Moon after numerous threats and abuse and ran away to a different dimension. He still keeps Moon’s hat like a trophy making Eclipse envious

Jigsaw (Ruin):

Self-proclaimed leader of the group who comes up with most plans and ideas. He is also a carrier of the ruin virus and creator of Eclipse. His personality is almost identical to one he had when first appeared in sams

Eclipse:

Eclipse was infected with the ruin virus by Jigsaw which made him more aggressive and uncontrollably violent. I think the next part will explain everything. It’s honestly my favourite thing about this AU

The ruin virus:

I searched what exactly this virus does in sams and found some facts about Ruin’s dimension instead. So I used them to create my version of this virus

The ruin virus makes animatronics much more aggressive and blood-thirsty but also more fragile and quick to break. That’s why infected animatronics need repairs more often than others. However they don’t turn into some brainless zombies. The virus just makes them really hard to cope with emotions, especially anger and intolerant to humans

I also found that animatronics in Ruin’s dimension have their own hierarchy and thought… what if it’s not just a way to organize themselves but an instinct to obey the one who infected them? So Jigsaw being the one who infected Eclipse made a very interesting “master and his servant” connection between them. No that doesn’t mean Eclipse is just some obedient dog now. This means it’s just more likely to see him next to Jigsaw than anyone else. Eclipse has no choice but look after him like a bodyguard because of the virus

Phew I think that’s all for now. You can always ask some questions about this AU if you'd like :D

#villainous trio AU #Eclipse trio #sams #sun and moon show #eclipse #solar #ruin