Who's causing me problems?
This bastard of course.
I already had him with two love interests (in seperate stories). No, he demands a third.
There are the two Millory storylines.
There's the Michael Langdon x Archangel Michael. I need to hurry up with this one it's already a trip to crazy town in Ch 1, and I'm convinced she's more insane than he is.
Now, there's also the Michael x Cordelia idea which sent me into a fever today. Not kidding. I might as well have ingested drugs. What's the ship name, by the way? Because, if he wants it, I'll try to write it, but I'm not making up a ship name.
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I'm so burnt out and stressed about a variety of things lately, but a funny / sweet coincidence recently happened that I wanted to share:
Last week, I had a university student reach out to me (via my work email) asking for resources / advice on their research paper because I've written a lot of articles about the thing they're writing about. (I just got back to them today and they were real sweet, I'm excited to see how their paper turns out)
A week or two ago, I had someone reach out to me on RA asking for some specific clip info / date info because they were doing a research paper about Pac, and today I saw that they published their paper and put a special thanks to RA in the notes :')
I just think it's very sweet and a funny coincidence that my work (professional and fandom work) is getting cited in research papers. It made me smile a lot, I genuinely love that.
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not a very positive post but i hate, hate, not being fluent in english. i wish so bad that i could write in english as well as i can write in swedish, and it's exhausting knowing that it'll never compare. and writing things in swedish makes the target audience so much smaller than i want it to be. i wanna write great books that people all over the world can read and enjoy, and with english being such a wide spread language, that would be the preferred language to write in. but as soon as i read actual books, or just other fanfics as well, i realise that my vocabulary is incredibly small (i search up words to translate all the time - even in this post i forgot the english word for "målgrupp", which was target audience) and i also realise that i lack understanding of how real english speakers use words and sentences. i can write by text book, but my writing will never be exceptional in the way i'd love for it to be.
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Yeah and since this doesnt only involve writers but also other production stuff, i wonder how theyre gonna start filming in may or june? Bec that would also be breaking the strike too... like idk how they are going to work around that. But anyway. My estimation is that the strike will at least take 3-4 months at the very least. So like. Yeah. 2025 release seems more likely bc the strike also involves other production staff
i can't lie to you i don't know shit about how american strikes in the entertainment industry work and i was a baby (6) and not american in 2007 but i mean yeah that season 5 is never seeing the light of day i fear
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I don’t believe it is an internalised ableism or something, I am just not feeling too happy or proud for being autistic for reasons that proven being solid for me.
It effects individuals differently, and in my case it is more like... my brain is wired specifically to cause discomfort and problems, it seems. Maybe it doesn’t help I was undiagnosed for almost my whole life nor I received proper accommodations, but like... I am still 25 and talked Enough with people, and I came to the conclusion that no matter how many social rules I memorise, no matter how many bad outcomes I try to predict, no matter how badly I try to act likeable or “normal” if you will - always, always, ALWAYS there is SOMETHING. Just SOME little thing that makes people uncomfortable, and yet they would never tell me. Either fearing to hurt me or thinking it is so ‘obvious’ that no way I am not aware - but I am not.
Because it is not about learning ‘enough’ unsaid social rules (they also change with time or depend on the culture), or, god forbid, blindly agreeing with EVERY time someone calls something bad in fear of causing a problem (there are still manipulators or people who are JUST wrong in accusations). It is about like... some ‘construct’, some ‘driver’ in the brain other people have that allows them to ‘detect’ social cues without explanations or instructions, and to always have it updated with society. Driver that I just... don’t have?
And I am doomed to always make people uncomfortable until I either die or just stop communicating with them completely. I can only say ‘World would’ve been a better place if ya’ll told your neurodivergent friend if they’re doing something wrong (and explain why so) because 9 times out of 10 they have no idea’ before I realise... Well, how would it occur to the majority that they’re dealing with an exception? Heck, most people I know irl don’t even know what autism is and still perceive it as a concept through the most stereotypical/ableist lense possible.
“Bonuses” like semi-regularly being yelled at for not getting an “obvious” thing fast enough, being compared to a robot/animal/etc (because they are ‘likewise oblivious when they do something awful because they follow pre-destined program/instincts’, you know the drill). So I just have this... way of how my brain works that guarantees I’ll be making people feel bad unintentionally AND guarantees I’ll be getting insults or seen as intellectually inferior over things I deadass don’t know how to change.
The thing is, I’d still rather not get rid of it. It is just how I am, there is nothing to “fix” because it isn’t “broken”, it is just different. That’s what I’d love - to adapt effectively. But nothing will ever be effective enough because in the end I need to ‘just get’ things and there is no ‘algorithm’ for reading the cues. And it throws me into despair sometimes.
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i’m trying to find new things to watch for fall/halloween but i feel like i’m either like. too picky?? or i don’t know what i want?? i’m just honestly not interested in watching horror or gore stuff, i want like. spooky times!! that take place around halloween!!! with supernatural stuff!!!! but also like. not media designed for kids!!!! and i know there’s gotta be something out there but every time i look i feel like all i get is ‘gory horror movie’ or ‘cute kid magic’ and i don’t want either of them!!!!!!!!!!!!
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