#not even a pandemic thing

[commandermeg]

I just really hope this Academy show has a diverse range of students. And I don't mean that just in a 'More aliens' kind of way (though I want LOTS more aliens. Have some Vau N'akat and Dals in there) - but age wise, too.

A lot of people (myself included) weren't able to start university until a later date in our lives. Maybe someone wanted a career change. Maybe someone escaped a planetary war and just started at age 29, who knows.

I would just be a little disappointed to start watching and find that the only students shown are the "Fast-Tracked-Through-Everything" crowd who started at 12 or something. (bit of an exaggeration but the point comes through)

Humans live past 120 in the 24th century Star Trek shows, who knows how long they live in the far-far future. So having them shift careers every once in a while would make sense, which would lead to adult learners in such places.

#star trek #startrek #honestly I think this is my only real spicy take on Star Trek #family expected me to stay home or marry so I wasn't able to start university until 22 and even then the PANDEMIC threw things

[internetdruid]

Evening, ladies

#🪴 #im remaking this blog. if you havent noticed #i felt awkward making a big text post about it so im just keeping it condensed in the tags #but anyway all the tofupupper posts are over on @tofupupper as an archive #for anyone that wants it #im probably gonna be posting about animals and botany here.. bc its what i enjoy right now #i used to really enjoy tofupuppers content but things got rough during the pandemic #and i was in a bad place. and i was just constantly getting anons from people venting to me #or talking about their mental health and im just so bad at comforting and constantly seeing #people tell me they want to die and such on my fan blog for a shiba inu was just so stressful #even though i havent posted tofu content since 2021 i still got messages like that now and then. 700 messages in my askbox rn #but anyway #im better now and i hope everyone is too #and i will still be rbing donation posts at peoples request here #i just felt awkward rbing them to a blog i didnt use otherwise #so. yeah!. wildlife biology and plants now. maybe other stuff #you dont have to stick around if thats not your thing #goodbye for now

[utilitycaster]

tbh it does feel like the early setup for Bells Hells was a cool experiment but ultimately had some ongoing drawbacks because I do agree with Matt here that there has been time for watch conversations - there were plenty of opportunities for that or for just regular conversations in Whitestone, the Shattered Teeth, the Feywild, and their most recent long rest - but it's just not something the party got into the habit of doing because of the early pacing. It's just not a party that naturally falls into easy conversation with each other for the most part, and I think because he's never had to do this in prior campaigns, particularly this late in the game, Matt hasn't been very obviously laying out "anyone want to have a scene now, during downtime" the way one might with newer players.

#i'm actually thinking about this bc like. i moved to where i currently live shortly pre-pandemic #and as a result i keep having to like. forcibly tell myself it's ok you do not have the knowledge of someone who's been here 4-5 years #like it feels like that; delayed for valid reasons but also even with an opportunity to catch up there's a weird barrier psychologically #cr tag #this isn't a bad thing incidentally; i think that organically developed found family stories are good but not every story has to be that

[puppyeared]

they could make a new we didnt start a fire song with the amount of dystopian fuckery going on

#genocide and colonization; AI takeover; greedflation; american election; photomatt; covid pandemic; measles comeback #human rights violations; war crimes; tiktok; elon musk; low wages and layoffs at an all time high; ceo paycuts; online censorship #climate change; oil spills; car centric infrastructure #just to name a few off the top of my head. im not even saying this to be funny im like dead serious full on depressed #i hate being so negative on main because it feels defeatist and sends everyone into a spiral #but i really want to change the world if i can help it and that means not ignoring everything thats going on even when my brain is #screaming 'its so over.' i want more ways to change the world but thats exactly why the current systems in place thrive on supression #more ppl should hate the way things are instead of accepting it because none of this should be justified in the first place #please dont be sad. be angry because i think we all deserve to be the way things are going rn and i want to punch elons teeth in #vent #yapping

[blackbackedjackal]

there's cliche's and then there's intentionally leaving a piece vague but it still having meaning and assuming your audience isn't stupid so they can come to their own conclusions about how the piece makes them feel based on visual language

#that's what we did in art school #when you actually have to do shows and tell people in person your artist's statement #I like seeing how people feel and react to my work rather than care about the style or aesthetic or tropes used #it's the /meaning/ of the piece and I love how even though my experience is specific #it still feels relatable to others #in that moment where people go wow or that's so cool like #i had a guy run up to me once just because he bloboed a work of art I made #i love that shit #i miss shows but eugh pandemic :( #jackal's journal #my art historian would have a fit rn #her whole thing is Pompeii and she showed us how much enjoying and relating to things you love or find neat helps inspire you more #than worrying about how other people feel about you #like damn

[maladaptive-daydreaming-aphant]

me, yesterday: i'll download some yt videos ahead of time for this long road trip so i don't get bored when we lose reception! and i'll bring my steam deck with lots of games too!!

me, 15 minutes into the road trip after something in the first video reminded me of my favorite para: i need to daydream i need to daydream i need to daydream i need to daydream i need to daydream i need to daydream i need to daydream i need to daydream i need to daydream i need to daydream i need to daydream i need to daydream i need to daydream i need to daydream i need to daydream i need to daydream i need to daydream i need to daydream i need to daydream i need to daydr

#im so fuckin stupid LOL #my parents have taken me on this same exact 8-hour roadtrip sooo many times over the years and i end up daydreaming every time #even before i became a chronic madd-er i was daydreaming in the backseat on these highways #this is the first time ive been on this trip since learning about madd (visiting grandparents. last time was before the pandemic) #idk why my dumbass thought this time would be any different lmao #madd #madd things #rivulette's thoughts #maladaptive daydreaming #maladapting daydreaming disorder #daydreaming

[tendercoretroglodyke]

people will really stand around making small talk like "can you believe covid's back??" without a mask even in SIGHT, with no irony or self-awareness at ALL. truly astounding

#hey hey. why do you think its 'back'?? #come on. take a second. think it through you can do it 🤔🤔🤔 #i work at a library that has been giving out free covid tests and n95 masks throughout the pandemic #lately the covid test supply has dried up in the high demand #meanwhile barely anyone even LOOKS at the masks #often those that take them arent even wearing a mask. like. are you just taking things cos theyre free?? what are you gonna do with those #i literally had to step out of work and sit in my car for a minute bc im going crazy #im gonna snap i really am #its not a COLD #its LETHAL its DISABLING... care about people!! #wear a fucking mask!!

[miharuhebinata]

this person gets it

#the funny thing is i can't even remember WHEN exactly i first read it? #it was either late 2019 or early 2020 before the pandemic because i know i read it while at work...... #i'm leaning more toward thinking it was early 2020 but this was before i had storygraph so i really don't know. #all i know for sure is that it altered my brain chemistry almost as much as getting into mdzs did.....honestly maybe even more so 😵‍💫😵‍💫 #svsss #📖 tag #send tweet

[mikimeiko]

Los Espookys | Season 2 (2022)

#los espookys #i don't know if it was the probably pandemic related 3 years gap #or the fact that MY BOY fernando frias is no longer directing #but this season was profoundly meh #i'm not even sad it got canceled #tv shows i watched in 2022 #i made this #i just want a tag for the things i personally put out into the world

[i-still-mask-because]

I still mask because I can't avert my eyes from the obvious signs that it has never gone away since 2020. Like, I'm often not even good at noticing subtlety IRL, but these signs are not hard to find. People are in denial.

AND I still avoid eating in restaurants because eating is the one thing you have to take off your mask for, and I am not doing that in some indoor and enclosed environment where hundreds if not thousands of people have been unmasked that day alone.

Also just... thank you so much for making this blog ^^;;

😷

#i feel this so so much. #people really are in denial and believe they're exempt from reality #frustrating and infuriating feel like understatements at this point. #and i too don't feel comfortable eating indoors at aaallll. #i would need to be the only person in the restaurant in order for me to feel comfortable with that. and even then are the employees masking #if I'm not at home i 100% prefer to eat somewhere as isolated as possible. #ideally somewhere with a comfortable view and lots of nature around me to add a layer of safety and ease. #during this course im taking I've been enjoying my lunch at a street pier and finding some ease with watching the view of the river & plant #it's the little things that help. #also of course!!! I'm so so glad this blog is serving as a safe space for people! :) #fr I'm really happy to hear you're appreciating it ty for letting me know ^_^ #thank you for sharing 😷💛 #covid #i still mask because #covid isn't over #covid is airborne #covid pandemic #covid awareness #ask queue

[tearlessrain]

I've had anxiety pretty much all my life and having my fears/concerns brushed off is not a new thing for me and sometimes it's justified, but it is uniquely annoying in this case because I keep being right, repeatedly, throughout the pandemic, and people are still acting like I'm just being my panicky self and it's not as big a deal as I'm making it.

#for months my mom kept getting on my case about masking in the common areas of her complex #'everyone here is elderly they don't go out! why are you still wearing a mask here?' #and then suddenly what do you know two of her neighbors have covid and I was right #everyone: why are you still isolating and masking so much the pandemic is over! #me: it is not fucking over and it's gonna get worse again because of this #a couple months later: oh god there's a new variant that resists vaccines we couldn't possibly have predicted or prevented this #ironically I got covid somewhere highly improbable back in 2022 and it promptly made my anxiety like 5x worse so now I'm even more annoying #I also just kinda. got worse at spelling and keeping track of information #it's deeply frustrating but at least I never lost taste/smell and meds have helped with the anxiety so eh #still this could have been avoided if people would just take the goddamn thing seriously #and I'm gonna be salty about it for the rest of my life

[hollyhomburg]

Where do you shop for your clothes? Are there any particular brands you look out for?

OH SO- this is kinda gonna be a frustrating answer.

i shop almost exclusively at this re-sale/second chance/excess store that puts together the unsold clothing from places like free-people and anthropology and the indy brands that they carry. It's INCREDIBLY local to my stretch of the woods- it's called retail 101 in naugatuck connecticut. i got a 350$ dress new with tags for 30$ and that was the most expensive clothing item listed in the store. it's definitely worthwhile to make the drive. it's about an hour for me, at least two if you're in nyc.

shopping there helps me feel better about getting clothes- because they're generally a lot bit better quality than like h and m or primark (which is what i can reasonably afford). it's also not directly supporting like- all those big businesses and keeps unsold clothes out of the landfill ect. It's helped me get some very very nice clothing for very cheap. it's a very overstimulating experience because it's basically just a football field sized warehouse filled with clothing.

i greatly recommend it if you're overly small or overly large because their greatest selection is in the Xs and Xl range like- I think i saw a size 14 jeans that were originally 400$ on sale for 14$ so- if you're more middle sized it definitely requires some hunting.

but tbh i also hit up the target clearance section for most of my jeans because they have really reasonable sales. i got my favorite pair of ripped jeans there for 6.50$. Target just for some reason happens to fit me pretty reliably- which is honestly rare because i have a 28 inch waist but a 40 inch booty.

#i love clothes and shopping because when i was a kid i never got new or nice things. #like we were a one new pair of shoes a year household #and i got like maybe 4 outfits at a time because that was all we could afford #and even then they were holey and didn't fit me right. #I give myself a budget cuz i know i spend too much on clothing generally #but it's very healing for me to express myself that way #because when i was growing up and until i was in college really- expressing myself that way wasn't really an option. #not to mention the other aspect of my life and needing to be able to run in whatever i was wearing #this is not new holly lore but old holly lore but yeah #being stalked really does do a number on you #its funny because as a result i sort of hate sneakers now like #this is just a me issue but i had to wear sneakers for safety every day #littterally every day #just incase my stalker was following me wherever i was and i needed to run #he hasn't chased me like that since like- the first week of the pandemic so <3 #healing is still happening and i don't wear sneakers anymore #wouldn't be caught dead in em' #not that i haven't tried to get back into liking them and wearing them because some of them are comfortable

[todayisafridaynight]

you probably won't even care about yakuza by the time the plushies are out if we go by your track record

i cant even deny this cause my interests do tend to have a shelf life of one year and it'll be one year come june

#snap chats #i got back into rgg in june last year despite only really starting to make public fanart for it in july #i wouldnt say i wouldnt care wholly tho like im still hyped for DB stuff despite not drawing for it #like BT4 just got announced and im fuckin nutting to see gameplay of that #and i still keep up with the new jojo manga- even if i havent read 7 and 8 yet ☠️ #wait can i say really quick my fucking computer auto updated to windows 11 and its fucking with me so bad #trying to grab that emoji made me want to die eveyrthing is so fucking SQUISHY #its not a matter of i wont care for it i just wont be so fixated on it #but who's to say it's hard for me to get into new things- like all the things i was recently into (db/kh/rgg) #they were all things i liked in the past that i figured id revisit during the pandemic #oh well. now im compelled to keep rgg posting for another year to spite this LMAO #i mean LAD8 is coming out next year not to mention gaiden #like i still very much have reasons to keep watching the series and the sort #who wants to find that fuckin. post i made mapping out my interests over time cause i needa check the data

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

ppl will go “i’d notice if society was going to sacrifice a marginalised group of people and if they said that it’s ok that a bunch of people would die then i would stand against it” and then they’ll hear people saying “well only disabled and vulnerable people will die of covid” and go “yes this is normal and ok and fine”

#first of all it’s not only disabled people who are dying and also covid can disable you real quick and make you part of that group that #people are fine with dying #but also do y’all hear yourself bed sometimes. the amount of people who claim to be allies but with throw others aside as soon as it #interferes with their comfort #also there have been so many studies and reports and articles on how covid disproportionally affects poc. not to mention inequalities in #healthcare that come into play too when you’re dealing with a pandemic #but as soon as y’all have to stop going to parties or restaurants or isolating for two weeks when exposed or confirmed positive or even if #you suspect you have it. or any of the millions of other things that at this point are important facets of community care and protecting #yourself and others from a disease that has been proven and continues to be proven to do a lot of damage to the body #y’all just balk. you don’t drop your claims but that doesn’t mean you’ve dropped your allyship #I’d love to go back to normal. i’d love to go out without a mask and eat in restaurants and do all the things i did before covid #but i won’t. because i know that isn’t safe for me or my friends/family/community and also quite literally isn’t possible now because we’re #still in a pandemic. if you claim to be an ally to disabled people then prove it and mask #I can’t speak as fully on allyship to other communities who are disproportionately impacted but not masking harms everyone and if anyone #does want to speak on allyship to their communit(y/ies) feel free to go ahead #covid tw #fired up about this because i’m doing radioactive iodine treatment in a few weeks and my mother is taking no precautions. not only am i at #risk if i catch covid but if she gets sick i either have to postpone my treatment to care for her (which risks giving my cancer more time to #metastasise if there are cells left) or i have to figure out another plan for treatment since my current plan hinges on her help since i #have to isolate #im just tired and frustrated. a pandemic doesn’t stop just because you get bored #vent tw #this is not as eloquent as i wish it was and the lack of punctuation and tone can make parts confusing but i think y’all get my point

[arowrath]

ive been reading a lot about ptsd for like. academic reasons as well as for the normal reasons (for fun/to try and speedrun fixing my brain (it isnt working)) and something a lot of places emphasize is others’ reactions being a super important part of how someone copes with trauma and if they develop ptsd. and thats something i definitely kind of knew already from experience and it just makes sense but like. idk. i just think about how the first person i told (aside from my therapist who doesnt count and my best friend whos just an extension of my own brain and therefore also doesnt count) abt one trauma just flat out ignored it and kept being friends with the person who hurt me and eventually stopped talking to me entirely in favor of them. and how all i could really do was completely isolate myself from everyone bc i was scared and i couldnt even imagine like. talking to anyone else about it. especially when a professional i talked to was really dismissive and.. not rude exactly but i got the sense that she really didnt like me. but those experiences like back to back ended with me like. shutting down completely and hiding in my room all the time and not talking to anyone and also being actively psychotic and realizing i had a dissociative disorder and its like. 😭 i mean it kinda spiraled wildly out of control. but if that first friend i told hadnt completely brushed it off and ignored it i think things wouldve ended up a lot different. i dont think it had to be that fucking awful. bc now with This situation all my friends have been supportive and accommodating and loving, and my school has been helpful and for the most part making reporting as smooth as possible (still sucks though!), and even though it has definitely been very traumatic like. im also seeing how it Should have been. none of that should have happened. when i told my friend what happened he shouldnt have just REACTED WITH A HEART EMOJI AND THEN NEVER BROUGHT IT UP AGAIN.. he shouldnt have texted that person in front of me every time we hung out. i shouldnt have felt nauseated going to the cafeteria bc id see them together and it felt like being beat to death. i shouldnt have been spiraling into psychosis in my room alone bc i should have had a friend who would be there for me. i shouldnt have gone days without talking to anyone because my friend should have been there for me and wanted to spend time with me. i got through it alone but i shouldnt have had to. and now i dont have to and its just. so fucking wild to. be able to see how important a support system is in my own life and how wildly different its been this year. idk

#text #and like yeah there were things i Couldve done. but also i was living with an unbearable level of anxiett #and i cant possibly blame myself for that. bc when one of ur closest friends hurts u and the other chooses them over you and wont even give #yiu the dignity of saying it to ur fucking face. When ur living thru all that and isolated and in a pandemic and deeply traumatized and #dealing with more mental health issues than u could count on both hands. its like. fuck man #i see why i wasnt super intent on like. forming a new support system or whayever. i was trying to just get thru it alive #neg #����️