#oh libraries how I love you

[thestarswhim]

So this tweet made a real good point and got me thinking about this scene:

As mentioned in their tweet, "you don't 'beg for mercy' for a job," and here he sounds so scared and desperate, like he's had to do this A LOT before with the directors and it's so... sad.

(more under the cut)

Before he finds out the truth about Eden, he believed they saved him from his former life and gave him new opportunities to continue his dreams, but do you think having to needlessly beg to keep your position as literally being the face of Eden out of fear you'll be replaced and thrown right back out to your old life is a so called dream come true?

Eden even made a trailer for a movie about his life to fame, showing how everyone was rejecting him as a person, which they definitely made it more simplified like I KNOW he was getting way worse treatment than what was shown.

My main point is that despite believing in Eden's motives (before knowing the truth), he still wasn't truly happy deep down. He was STILL getting rejected and slandered by society, and he knew that deep down, so it's not surprising how the possibility of him losing his job made him have a whole breakdown and do the things he did to try and cope.

He quite literally has no one to lean to and hasn't had anyone since showing up to Eden besides the directors (because he probably believed they were treating him fairly and with respect), but... yeah.

He wanted to make a difference, to give hope to hybrids, and he thought he was doing just that. Despite the way the directors and everyone thought of him, despite how alone he felt, he still thought he was achieving his dreams and sharing that onto others

and yet... he was being used this entire time. None of it was true, all the hard work and the things he went through was for nothing.

Everything that Eden has done, and he was the face of it all... it's just devastating.

#another one from my twitter #I've only been a fan of rayman overall for two weeks and now I'm sobbing over him this is a new record #shout out to that one analysis from raygirlramblings #it was because of your post that cemented my love for this character and almost had me cry and get too emotional at a library /pos /lh #captain laserhawk #rayman #cl rayman #cl ramon #captain laserhawk rayman #captain laserhawk ramon #analysis #OH AND ALSO I was watching the show with my sibling who then mentioned to me how rayman had probably been replaced before and #he's just one of the copies and MAN #I NEED ANSWERS GRAHHHHH #anywho if you're still reading this... thank you 🥺💖 and I hope you have a great day!

[incorrect-ikevamp-quotes]

Saint Germain, shocked: You have a fake ID? With a fake name and everything?

Isaac: I don't have to explain myself-

Leonardo, sitting against a bookshelf on the floor: He used it to get a second library card so he can take out twice as many books at once.

#ikevamp #ikemen vampire #ikevamp isaac #ikevamp comte #ikevamp saint germain #ikevamp leonardo #ikevamp leo #ikevamp incorrect quotes #honestly i love the concept of this especially because isaac used to throw hands back in the day #isaac out here like 'im going goblin mode' and its just because he wants to carry ten more books than the library's limit allows #i dont even know how somebody says no to this guy in the first place #i swear he deflates even a little and it gives me that feeling like when i step on a dog's tail by accident #like 'oh my god im so sorry here take it take whatever you want' #i am also convinced that leonardo only knows about it cuz sebas was obsessed #comte is probably like 'honestly? could have been worse--i'll allow it' #the man has seen too much

[arson-09]

maybe an unpopular booktwt/booktok/bookstagram opinion but buying limited special editions of a book or book series you havent read is so odd to me. Like theres people who have actually read and want that limited limited edition but you just buy it to look pretty on your shelf. Yeah you can buy books you plan to read but i have seen so many posts of people buying DOZENS of books and just having them on their tbr or displayed on their shelf.

its a big part of the growing issue of overconsumption on booktok/bookstagram/booktwt. Theres nothing wrong with buying a book you like but these people doing expensive book hauls, especially off of amazon (which has tons of its own issues to unpack) are so weird to me.

Support libraries!!! read a book from the library before you buy it!! this benefits way more people in the long run and is much more sustainable.

#booktok #bookstagram #booktwt #bookblr #book opinions #I have seen so many ppl talk about how they bought and entire series only to not like the first book #like wow if you can read it before for free from a LIBRARY you wouldnt have wasted that money #oh but my library doesnt have good selection. THEN REQUEST OR GET MORE LIBRARY CARDS. #Some towns may make you pay if your not a resident but its a lower cost one time charge vs hunreds of money spent on physical books #Theres plenty of online resources like libby and hoopla too #public libraries #support libraries #i love my local library

[dailyeca]

INLAND EMPIRE [Legendary: Success] — A rosebud, more stem than petal. A teacup, with a steeping sachet of lavender. It will take time. But they will wait for each other.

portrait on its lonesome (disco elysium style is so. difficult hkjh i blend colors too much and am too cautious about palettes to be able to pull it off, does not help im a warm colored art kinda guy)

Dialogue: AUTHORITY — Don't let this perp get the last word! Who does he think he is, talking to you like that? RHETORIC [Medium: Failure] — Who *do* you think he is? PERCEPTION (SIGHT) [Trivial: Success] — Someone with a permanent frown. LOGIC [Easy: Success] — Someone who's a criminal. CONCEPTUALIZATION [Formidable: Success] — Someone who's an artist. HALF-LIGHT [Medium: Success] — Someone with two brass knuckles and the know-how to use them. ELECTROCHEMISTRY [Hard: Failure] — Someone who doesn't seem a lotta fun to be around! VOLITION [Heroic: Success] — …Someone who fell through the cracks. SHIVERS [Godly: Success] — Some 20-odd years ago, a kindergarten runaway is herded into the metal belly of packed public transport and emerges reborn in a new city, baptized and spitting up the holy water in the wake of an identity you could barely say was remade as much as it was, simply, made. SHIVERS — He drowns again at age 7, at age 14, and every year thereafter, water filthier and colder every time, treading without a shore in sight. Even as his limbs grow leaden, come hell or high water, he maintains that stepping foot on land after so long will doom him. INLAND EMPIRE [Legendary: Success] — He doesn't even know who he is anymore; he just feigns indifference. He is a ladybeetle inversed - in the same way there are dots of yin and yang. Stiff belief that there will always be bad in the good. Living proof that there is good in the bad. He will never shed the former, nor acknowledge the latter. EMPATHY [Heroic: Success] — Not now, at least. Not with you, and not without time.

#eca orichird #daily eca #worked HARD on this; LOVED writing for this hajksh skills my best friend skills!! <33 wish i could have include more actually hkjh #DRAMA - SIRE HE BEARS FALSE WITNESS REGULARLY! TO HIS OWN PERSON AS WELL!! #ESPRIT DE CORPS - The lieutenant takes note of the guy's stance. A single pad of his finger makes cold contact with the gun at his side. #PHYSICAL INSTRUMENT - oh yeah this guy's scrawny but he's no fucking pansy. you see that scowl? bet /he/ hasn't cried for years. unlike you #ENCYCLOPEDIA - Repression in psychoanalytic theory is the exclusion of distressing memories thoughts from the conscious mind. Often involvi #and for the skills already there: half-light - YOU HAVE TO KILL HIM FIRST!! BEFORE HE KILLS YOU!!! #very difficult perception check shows you his ladybug necklace. shivers tells you about how little Eca got it in the library. #lmao anyway; i made a spelling mistake but was too lazy to edit it bc i already saved it as png lmao. not changing that!! #the background of eca's portrait! on the left you can see a blotch of white on red with a line streaking down. that's the library window :> #on the right is a ladybug hkjh <33 i struggle with even abstract backgrounds so a lot of it is just messing around <33 #took me several tries to paint this and even now i dont think i like it very much but thats okay. painting is hard hkjh #anyway DEEP in the disco elly brainrot. had dreams about it last night hkjgh thats all i think <3

[raiswanson]

when a friend mentions they're trying to get back into reading and you have to hold off from dumping your entire 300+ book personal library over their head because you don't want to overwhelm them/scare them off

#rai writes #OOOOOOOOOOH FRIENDS WHEN I TELL YOU ITS A STRUGGLE #she said I could bring a few for her to pick from when we get together for game night AND OOOOOOO #OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO #trying to make a short list but I keep going ''oh but this one. and this one. AND THIS ONE IS GOOD TOO'' #@@@ me: LET HER WEAN INTO IT. HOLD!!! HOOOLLLDDD!!!! #Ive settled on a handful for now but AUGH what about??? all of them??? how about every book??? All???? #for anyone curious my picks this time are Luck in the Shadows. Red White & Royal Blue. The Screaming Staircase. The Cruel Prince. and Cinde #trying to pick a nice spread uwu see what shes feeling #i live to share my books. its literally why i own my library. i want to give book recs soooo bad #hearing people go ''omg I loved that book you showed me!!!'' is BETTER THAN CRACK

[bmpmp3]

why does everything i get really into always end up being so god damn niche. by the year 2035 i am going to be blogging exclusively about the interpersonal relationships between the pillbugs and snails hiding underneath the bricks lining the flowerbeds in my parent's garden.

#im falling hard into the virvox guys rn sowwy. i like em a lot hee hee. i didnt realize just how small the fanbase for em was tho #actually i didnt realize how small the company that makes them were either. i got so used to the yamahas and cryptons of the vsynth world #that i forgot that like honestly. a lot of the voicebank makers and some of the software makers themselves #theyre like companies of like barely 10 employees with like no funding LOL not a bad thing but i forgor #but yeah i was looking up to see if there was like. a fanon reason why people shipped takehiro and ryusei? not judging because i get it #i like took one look at the virvox guys and immediately slotted them as a very strange boyband (a catboy and a middle aged dragon man....) #and also took a second look at takehiro and ryusei and assumed they were childhood friends. i saw the doujin flash before my eyes #but also looking into it it seems the fanbase is also like. 20 people. and like 3 of them ship that #and at least one person ships whiteCUL and ryusei? why not LOL when it comes to vsynths sometimes a ship can be spearheaded by like #one very prolific artist HGDJKDFSHDJK which actually reminds me. honestly i dont really have many vsynth ships #i guess i dont really partake in a lot of shipping stuff deeply but i like romance!! you know i like love stories. you know this #i mean i keep calling the eclipsed sounds characters the celestial polycule for a reason tho. im not joking around about this #this is serious to me. they are stars and moons and suns and together they hang out and kiss. in the sky. this is serious to me #also i do like solaria x eleanor forte actually. its a bit random but i understand it. i understand it #and of course the aformentioned takehiro x ryusei. and also the whole virvox polycule. get that old man in here too #(what do they call people like me. a multishipper? i do that a lot. you know this from my otome game fanart LOL) #OH and i dont remember either of their names rn but i like that the cevio bank anju inami voiced has like a big fat crush on like #that girl with the brown hair. i like that theyre like. besties (turning into something more wink wonk) #thinks with all my brain. i think thats it. i dont know why theres so little. i think its because i think of them as like #audio sample libraries first and foremost and i forget about their characters and relationships LOL #but im not against the idea of making some audio sample libraries kiss...... not at all #picks up a guitar sampler and a sound effect cd. presses them together. #hee hee. they kiss

[softquietsteadylove]

Would you continue the Addams Family au?

"Thena?" Gil whispered in his family's expansive home library. He didn't receive a reply, but he should have known he would lose her to his family collection.

He had shown her around the manor as soon as she and her father arrived. Their fathers went to talk business and he was entrusted with her. So, like normal, he had taken her hand and led her away from the business talk and to show her around their home.

The library was only the third stop on their tour, counting just looking out the windows of the grand hall, but she had laid her eyes on all the books they had and excitedly asked if they could explore it.

How could he say no to that?

She looked so cute and enthused and he rarely got to see that sparkle in her eye with both her parents breathing down her neck. He was happy to encourage her, even if it meant potentially never finding her again in the labyrinthine shelves.

"Thena," he whispered again, walking slowly in case she was crouched down behind a stack waiting to be re-shelved. "Are you still in here?"

"Gil?"

He poked his head around a corner and found several piles of books, all several tomes high but arranged very neatly in their respective stacks. He chuckled, "find some stuff you like."

Thena immediately turned contrite, and maybe a little flustered. She looked down at her piles from up on the ladder. "I-I'm sorry, perhaps I have let myself get carried away."

"Hey, don't let me stop you," Gil said gently as he came to the base of the ladder. He both held it steady and averted his eyes as she scurried down in her white dress. He chuckled down at the black and white floor tiles, "someone should read them--might as well be you."

Thena offered her thanks silently in her expression, which he was used to. But she looked down at the books she had pulled out for herself and even hugged the one she was holding to her chest. "I can't possibly take them with me. Even if you say so, Father would be mortified at the idea of me taking such liberties."

Gil made a face, rolling his eyes only while Thena wasn't looking at him. Her father was a real pain in the ass sometimes. "Hey."

"Hm," Thena blinked as he started picking up one of the stacks in his hands. "Gil?"

"Let's just make you a shelf of your own," he suggested, balancing the books in his hands as he walked somewhat blindly to where there were still a few empty shelves in the back corner. "Then you can save all the ones you want to read and borrow them a little at a time."

"Truly?" Thena inquired behind him. He heard a few covers thunking around and finally turned. Much to his relief, Thena had about a half a stack in her more delicate hands, hurrying to follow him.

"Yeah," he laughed at how baffled she was that he would let her borrow some books that were just collecting dust. "I don't spend much time in here, really. These shelves are actually mine. Ma thought it would encourage me or whatever."

Gil set the stack down on the floor first rather than try to angle and cram them all onto the shelf at once. For the most part, he wouldn't really care if they fell or got damaged, but if Thena wanted to take them home with her then he could at least treat them with a little respect.

"Thank you," she said quietly, keeping her eyes forward as she also shelved the books she had brought with her, even shuffling them around the ones he put up to alphabetize them in real time.

He smiled as the backs of their hands brushed, although Thena was quick to retreat from it. "Any time, Thena. You're welcome to anything and everything here."

"That is a generous," she laughed faintly, "and dare I say unrealistic invitation."

"Maybe," he sighed. As much as his wildest dreams could be of him gallantly suggesting they run away together from both their families' strict rules, it simply wasn't an option. "But so long as you're with me, I mean it."

"That's sweet."

With no more books in hand to shelf, Gil looked over at her. She clasped her hands in front of her again. It was natural for her to totally clam up, he was coming to learn the more time he spent with her. It was a shame, though--like a beautiful flower that could only bloom by itself.

Or something poetic like that.

"Father is excited to discuss their railway negotiations," she murmured, returning to the safer topic of their fathers' shared business interests. She returned to her piles, picking up a few more books for herself.

Gil sighed as he picked up another full stack. But he didn't expect her to suddenly be able to view her father in a new light after living directly under his thumb all her life. "Yeah, Pop is all giddy at the thought of your dad using it to ship his building stuff?"

"Indeed."

The two fell into silence again, only the sounds of the books on the shelves filling in the air between them. They hadn't struggled to speak much before now, but he was struggling to think of something just as much as she was.

He had tried flirting with her before. And while she hadn't gotten mad at him for it, he wasn't really sure if she wanted to go down that road again, either.

He looked over as Thena cleared her throat faintly. She was determinedly looking at each book spine as she arranged them. "Do you have a favourite?"

"Book?" he asked, and then immediately felt dumb with the weight of a particularly thick one right in his hand. He also looked at the shelf, feeling the back of his neck grow warm. "Uh, kind of. It's a little embarrassing, though."

"What could possibly be embarrassing about it?" Thena asked, her curiosity beating whatever tentativeness she had.

"Well," he sighed, knowing that as soon as she asked, she was going to get the honest answer anyway. He looked upward, feeling the back of his shirt and suit jacket against the heat in his skin. "I was a kid."

"My aunt wasn't really the type to play with me much, but whenever she visited, she would read me whatever story I wanted. I had adventure books about pirates and knights and stuff. But one that was her favourite was about this lonely woman."

"Oh?" Thena leaned closer.

"She lives outside of town, all alone, and everyone thinks she's a witch or some sad, old widow or something. But then one day, a man stumbles to her door. She opens it up and he's been travelling, but he's collapsed, on the verge of starving. So she takes him in and gives him a meal."

"When he asks why she helped him she says 'I don't know'. She keeps trying to get him to leave, but he's like, 'oh, my shoes are in ruin', so she fixes his shoes. Then he's like, 'oh, I have no food for the journey to the next town', so she bakes him biscuits to take with him. Then he's like, 'yknow, it's getting cold, sure could use a coat'. And she says, 'ugh, here's your stupid coat'."

Thena laughed along as he went through the summary of the old story.

"Then, finally, this guy is ready to get back on the road. He says goodbye to this woman he's been staying with for weeks now, and he asks if she wants to go with him. She says she can't. But he asks why not--she's just shown him that she can prepare everything she needs to make the trip. So what's holding her back?"

"And basically the woman realises that she's only staying there for the sake of it--because she's afraid to leave her home. But the man tells her just to come with him to the next town, just to see what it will be like. If she doesn't like it, then he'll walk her back to her home and be on his way."

Thena's expression shifted in real time as he continued. She toyed with the end of the tight blonde braid wound over her shoulder. "What a sad conclusion."

"Lucky it's not over, then," Gil grinned, causing her to laugh again. "She goes with him to the next town. It's a short trip, only a few days. And they see the sights, and she gets to experience nature and stuff, and blah-blah-blah-"

Thena nudged his arm affectionately, "don't skip the best parts! You told me in such great detail her making biscuits and sewing a coat!"

He laughed, enjoying fussing with her as if they were kids. "You've gotta read it for yourself!"

Her eyes changed as she stopped poking his arm and folded in on herself again. "Will you not tell me the ending, then?"

He could decline to, and just tell her to read the book for herself. But she also seemed like she really wanted to know. He put his hand on her shoulder as he moved away from the shelf that was now hers to one of his. "It has a happy ending, if you're worried about that."

"So you won't tell me," she half joked and half lamented. But she watched as he searched through the other books.

"Ah!" he pulled it from the shelf, careful with its delicate but well kept spine. He grasped it with both hands as he held it out for her, "it's a love story."

Thena accepted the book from him, letting their fingers brush together again. Her eyes looked down at the cover as her pale skin took on a little colour, "oh?"

"Yeah," he pulled away, returning to being sheepish about it. "It's kinda cheesy, I guess. But it really is a good book. And I think maybe you'll like it."

She pulled the book closer to herself, smiling at him shyly as her eyes darted between him and the pages. "Thank you, Gil."

Heat rose in his cheeks as well and he looked towards the entrance of the library, just to occupy his eyes. "Yeah, I mean no problem, keep it for as long as y-"

A foreign object, soft and warm, collided with his cheek as he was looking to the side. He looked forward again, just catching Thena leaning away and off of her toes and back onto the slight heel of her shoes.

He wasn't sure if his heart was pounding like a hummingbird's wings or if it had stopped completely. But he just stared at her.

She arranged her braid around the book she was holding more preciously than Theseus. But her smile was almost like a little bit of a smirk, and it suited her. "I shall let you know when I've learned of this ending you're keeping so secret."

Gil immediately thought of the story events, and his aunt's favourite section. He could remember the tears in her eyes as she would read the part of the man desperately confessing his love and learning that the woman wanted to see the world with him instead of going back to her little home all alone. He could remember her voice cracking when she read how the man asked the lonely woman to marry him.

But that would be crazy to think about in relation to a girl he had only met a few months ago, he told himself (very firmly).

He grinned, drawn to her as she bounded back to her other piles of books, still waiting to be shelved in their little home here in his family house. "Hey, I can't spoil it. You have to experience it for yourself."

"I think you're just a tease," she stated with a faint purse in her lips.

Maybe he was, but he just couldn't resist when it came to her.

#Thenamesh Addams Family AU #thank you so much for asking for this! #I really like this au #Gil down bad for this girl #or rather #down good as they would say #down wonderful #He's so excited to show Thena around the big mansion #he's like well this is the foyer of course #our dads are gonna talk in the sitting room #and there's the sun room #and this is the library #Thena: LiBrArY !!! #but Gil is happy if she's happy #He has all these books on his shelves now #and his mother is like you're finally reading more! #Gil: ...yes they're definitely not for my girlfriend you don't want me to have #Thena writes him literally the next day that she loved the book #and Gil is like oh my god I have to find a way to get these book sto her #so he sends them a few at a time via normal mail #she asks how she's supposed to get them back to him #and instead of telling her to just marry into his family and move in #he says oh no worries :)

[ember-knights]

hey thanks for posting about palestine and spreading info.

I wanted to ask about the post you made about "the reigning zionist supreme" that doubled down on his stance hours after ahli hospital massacre on this site,

I didn't get who you were talking about but you had neil gaiman in the tags so I scrolled through his blog until almost the start of the month which if my memory serves me right is before the al ahli hospital massacre, and I couldn't find anything like you said.

if you could please show us what he said in screenshots that would be great.

just saw this ask, because tumblr sucks, and i wanted to find the original post for you but .. guess what? tumblr sucks.

Anyway, here is a link to the post about this with the screenshots.

(and that is the ask answered on Oct 17th, same day of al ahi Hospital Massacre) To summarize the above lined post, on the same day of al ahli/ al mamadani hospital massacre, le great writer himself confirmed his 2015 statement that "israel has the right to exist" which is as we all know now is just Zionist rhetoric. Israel Does Not In Fact Have the right to steal palestinian land, bring in settlers from all over the globe while killing, torturing, raping, kidnapping, displacing, starving, and bombing Palestinians. "Israel" as an entity requires the oppression of Palestinians to maintain its ethnostate. Therefore, no it never has and it never will have the right to exist. Ergo, what he said is Zionism 101. I personally was unaware that one of my favorite writers holds that view because i don't do social media, and i don't make a habit of following people. Besides i liked terry better anyway. And even if we ignore all 75+ years of oppression as proof enough for neilman, one has to wonder why hasn't he changed his statement since then? Answer is he won't. His statement was "neutral" in times of debate to silence those unaware of what is happening or unable to recognize Zionist propaganda. And when the world is now screaming and there is no way to NOT TO BE AWARE, he himself remains silent. Anyone like him deserves to have his name dragged in the mud.

#neil gaiman #anti zionism #palestine #ember.txt #good omens #if anyone goes through my blog you will see how much i loved that show and the book #but now every time i see them i am reminded of him and HATE IT #oh! and know he is always like 'libraries are the best and you should know who is right history by who has supported libraries' blah blah #ISRAEL HAS BOMBED ALL UNIVERSITIES AND ITS LIBRARIES IN GAZA #WHERE IS HIS ACTIVISM NOW #gimme a break #he and vlogbrothers and CR disgust me #because they claim to be humanitarian #but have been either silent or pro-israel on this #save gaza #free Palestine

[biblically-accurate-soup]

“if you are trying to be a phd candidate in a social science field why the fuck are you studying math for fun” because i’m quirky and hot. next question.

#uriel posting #currently doing a crash course review of calc 1 and 2….. inverse trig function integrals are like a divorced lover who i still yearn for #to me. #mathblr #i guess #i think i’m mainly just pissed that i went from having the most legendary math instructors ever #to getting the 1-2 bad instructor combo and being turned off from the field for a bit #‘oh i used to be good and math and love it’ (<- he still does) #recently realized i can just. do it on my own #i was homeschooled i pretty much taught myself math from a textbook grades 6-10 #(parents consist of a former math major and mechanical engineer. i wasn’t starved for resources they were there if i needed help) #(also did dual credit grades 11 and 12. goated math instructors of all time i miss them every day) #i have so much power now. i can learn anything i want to forever #<- guy about to become the most insufferable man in the universe #you mean i can just get the textbook from the library. about anything ? #not just math. i have realized i can do this for whatever. guy who is gonna learn about art history and is so excited #if i could i’d just stay in school forever and get 83 degrees #alas #this also loops around to my philosophy that anyone anywhere should be able to learn whatever they want #i will keep you updated on how this process goes 🫡 i am keeping notes incase anyone after me is interested #god. i’m gonna be That Guy (derogatory) #‘i always wished i had majored in classics. i always enjoyed it’ can i interested you in a google document with links and a drive folder

[arsonist-chicken]

I think my university should pay me for emotional damages for having to write a thesis exposé. To the amount of whatever I need to go on a short trip to Helsinki to recharge from this bs and to get a tattoo and a coffin full of Fazer chocolates.

#i've been in the library since 6pm or so and have not gotten a single letter done #because i genuinely Do Not Know what to write about this #i don't WANT to write a thesis; having to write a thesis will be my last straw to a break-down if that terminography seminar doesn't do it #and i don't get the point of a thesis anyway. no one but me and my advisor and maybe two examinors will read it #i'll not bring forth any important new knowledge to use #even if i did magically discover some groundbreaking new way to teach second languages - which is not the focus of my paper #like i wanted because the head of institute said no - it would still mean nothing because no one's gonna read it anyway #i'm literally just some rando with subpar grades and papers and motivation and dedication to my studies except for the classes i like #and feel like i'm actually learning something important #which is another point: I'm studying translation and interpreting. I'll do a final translation exam in both language directions. #why is that not enough for a degree? it's literally what I study. i couldn't give less of a shit about scientific theories about translatio #yes you should hear about them sometime and it can be useful. but i don't give a single fuck about research etc. #i want to translate and subtitle and maybe at some point interpret. and add a second language besides english because well #the job market but also very importantly my own interests #can't take the swedish course because it interferes with another class; can take a ukrainian class but it's very low-level #can't take a polish or bosnian or serbian or croatian class because they only have higher levels right now #could take a chinese or japanese class but it's... a lecture? with 40+ people in it? how are you supposed to learn a language from a lectur #tried a portuguese class once but the teacher was absolutely awful. nice but so bad at teaching. #and every now and then i think maybe i should learn how to teach a language to someone because oh my GOD would i love to help people #coming here to learn german in ways they'll actually use and see them improve and help them be excited about learning! #or go somewhere else and teach german maybe while also learning the language of the country i'm in #and i thought maybe writing a thesis about second language acquisition and teaching would be a nice way to find out how interested #i am in that actually. but no. my topic now is... hold on. hmmm. #man i'M not even sure. i submitted something and my advisor wrote me an email with a different suggestion for the title #and idk what i'm supposed to write about. not saying the depression isn't playing a role too but damn am i not excited about this #which is. a great start to writing a thesis when 90% of your work ethic comes from being excited about something or interested init #'The preparation of translation-oriented language competence at school using the example of English lessons at Austrian High Schools' #ah yes. someone help me write an exposé about that. #i don't know how and what to include and I don't want to either #come onnnnnn two days ago being at the library helped at least a little bit but now i've been here 3+ hours and i've got nothing

[yo9urt]

video games....

#mine #i love my steam deck sooooooooo much im so happy i can actually play games again like a big proper library of them #and everything #everything on steam AND emulators is available to me. do you know how many games that is! #i started a new beegee3 playthrough on the HARDEST DIFFICULTY (!) today. which is also a single-save difficulty #and im in one of the most difficult parts of the game right now (level 4) and kind of nervous lol #but at the same time im really proud of myself for learning the game to the point i feel comfortable challenging myself in it #and im happy i get to at all :D i love you video games #and sooner or later ill come back to stardew valley cause there was that big update and i have some games on my wishlist too #and its not verified yet but i might play that pomeranian making the house dirty game cause it looked cute #oh and yakuza also because my friend got two of the yakuzas for me #YAYYYYY GAMES #also kind of sad though because tomorrow i pack and sunday i go back for babys last quarter of college #and im worried about how busy its going to be with classes and job apps and then of course actually graduating #and moving out and haivng a job and stuff #when all i want is to enjoy being able to play video games again.... sig #sigh* #WHATEVER...future mes problem #oh i almost forgot...one of the best parts of the deck imo is the versatility because with games like beegee3 #you can play it in controller mode which has its pros and cons but you can also swap to computer mode #which also has its pros and cons so like. i can adjust as needed #when im just exploring or trying to loot an area etc i go controller #but when im in combat i go computer because the hotbar is REALLY helpful for decision making #its really nice to have the option to choose since no console players have that it seems #and the only pc players who can do that are the ones who have and are willing to connect controllers #and most of them dont seem to be into that #but im really glad to be able to do both #ok done yapping now

[abluescarfonwaston]

I'm on night shift starting Sunday (430pm to 530am) and I'm trying to switch schedules but it's 1am and I'm the only one awake and I don't want to be

#cant go to the library cant cook cant go on a hike or play tennis #just sit here and play monster hunter and draw #'oh that sounds great would love that' YES. BUT I COULD DO THAT DURING THE DAY #A DAY I NO LONGER GET #dont believe how you feel after midnight but i have to work past midnight #and then five hours more

[braidwoods]

i hope mc makes mal wear a wig or im not buying a single scene with him in bolas2

#@ character designers who think its a good idea to have a male character with long hair cut it: why are you like this #oh im loving how angsty this book will be in the first half ugh!!! with all the lis its rough #tyril spent a year wandering around mourning feeling like he failed kaya only to watch mc vanish before his eyes not being able to help the #nias just figuring out who she is as a person and loses mc and her whole support system who helped her dismantle her entire worldview #mal never really trusted anyone besides his sister before mc and the rest of the group came along. hes abandoned #just like he was when his mom died. left all alone again after forming the first meaningful bonds hes had in over a decade probably #imtura had her crew obviously but i hc that there was always a divide between her and them bc shes never known what she should do #be herself away from the pressures of her mom and flotilta (flotila??) or reluctantly step up and accept she has to sacrifice herself #and kade!!!!! he spent months being tortured then he gets saved by his sibling only to have them be kidnapped in front of him #he knows whats capable of happening in the shadow realm so hes spent the year in the library poring over tomes for something anything #theyve all spent the year constantly thinking about mc being tortured or worse but kade has to blame himself for all this. after all if he #didnt get trapped mc wouldnt have absorbed the blade of light and wouldnt be a target. just ugh!!!!! fantastic angst

[poly-space-nerds]

ok i just had the stupidest head canon seeing as i’m proven wrong immediately but:

Dream can’t read.

simply because you can’t read when you dream. words just jumble up and you can’t make anything out right? So why would the manifestation of dreams be able to read?

#yes i know this is silly #but i thought of it and laughed #dream is actually lea michelle #he just pretends to read that’s why he has book open #and that’s why lucienne was made into the librarian #so that dream can finally know what’s in his library #the sandman netflix #the sandman #dream of the endless #btw i’m totally joking #oh god that’s actually how lucienne became the librarian #she mentioned to dream about one of the books he had open #and she’s like ‘oh i love books! this like right here is my favorite.’ #and dream just stares at her like ‘you can read???’ #’uh..yes i can sir. Can….you not read?’ #’Lucienne i have an entire library that you can manage if this never gets mentioned again’ #and that’s how she went from raven to librarian

[nobodieshero-main]

i'm having more side quest ideas

#so there is a religion of sorts that's built from the belief that dragons will one day return #and it's that group that sasha is 'warning' his subjects of and what he's blaming the quest on #he's all like 'oh no there's a sub group of Fanatics trying to bring dragons back from the dead you must stop them' but it's a distraction #ANYWAY #i was thinking about other religions that might exist across the continent #and then i was thinking of like. oracle types and the general idea of someone being Chosen #and having to live their life devoted to this one being/idea #and then i thought of freya and her love of knowledge and the way she literally goes through and edits the books in the library #how at least once a week she makes the treck to bruasse just to speak to rue about rivers and water nymphs #how it's her dream to explore the continent just to /learn about it/ #and i know i've said in the past that the gods don't really manifest the way you'd normally expect #like maurua literally IS the mountains she is not some personified guardian of them. she is them. #and taiua IS the earth and slovua IS the ocean #but i feel like there are maybe younger gods that could be a little more like. malleable #like how vietua is the night sky but she is also known as the 'mother of all' bc they believe creation started with her #and she's literally where stardust comes from #and i was thinking of that and akoua - education and learning - and thinking of her like. calling to freya #and freya going on some big coming of age like journey that leads to her being this Bearer Of Knowledge like some sort of human encyclopedi #and her becoming some sort of priestess for Akoua and it being a Whole Thing #idk how i'd do it im just having visions #side quests #WHICH ACTUALLY I WAS ALSO THINKING OF SOME SORT OF MIEDNIC / OMOS FORBIDDEN ROMANCE THING #SO TECHNICALLY. MULTIPLE SIDE QUEST IDEAS #i just really love having a pre-existing fantasy world to play in

[liquidstar]

actually after i finish this set i wanna do a misc oc artdump to get a bunch of ideas out for characters ive already drawn. i decided. im posting this so i can hold myself to that lol

#who knows how long thatll take #but i for sure wanna draw: #young venus (morningstar) and maybe even the rest of the oldies way back when #timeskip mira and also probably saiph and polaris. and maybe al and bella huge maybe on them #ran and vela! theyre such an iconic duo to me now. pirate who ran away as a kid adopting their stowaway who was also running away lol #felis in her mission outfit (rather than the barmaid one thats her default now that shes suspended!) #oh also timeskip capella and alcor. Bro We Are Teens #god id love to draw timeskip team scarlet too. theyd be (mostly) adults! they grow up so fast when you timeskip them #but thats a lot of timeskip stuff i might save them for later #wanna draw bella enjoying some cake. place full of happiness ^_^ #and also something of barnard and juno just like hanging out at the library or something #also wanna draw some of the girls out in some cute casual summer outfits. like normal fashion i mean #ahhh so many ideas so little time. idk if i can even do them all but i wannaaaaa #i might not even post them all all at once who knows