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[xenocorner]

Art Resources 01 [Facial anatomy]

Hi! First post of the Art Resources thing I mentioned a while back :) Figured I'd start with something people generally want to know more about- or something people think they already know about but could still used some lesser known tips!

Resources, break downs and tips under the Keep Reading thing :]

1. The Basics

There are thousands of methods to constructing the face. The most popular one is the little circle with the cross in the middle, and sometimes a few more lines for the jaw. While that can be a useful guideline, if you're just starting to learn the ropes it might be better to use a method that has more structure decomposition and land marks to help guide you. Here I'll leave two methods of deconstructing the face that I believe are the most useful to draw faces in different angles and perspectives as well as identify where exactly should each element be placed.

REMEMBER: All of these methods are just guidelines. In order to get different facial features, you can adjust proportions for each of these and play around with sizes.

1.1 The Loomis Method

A structural approach to drawing the head, based on first: simplifying general forms and second: identifying landmarks for the face elements. Pretty good for beginners, helps you understand the head from a more tridimensional stand point to be able to draw it from different angles.

1.2 The Reilly Method

Also a structural approach, but this one is based on understanding the rhythms of the face (proportions, harmonies, and even some general muscular anatomy). It can be a bit harder to understand and use as a building block for beginner artists, but it can serve as a way to check your proportions after an initial sketch.

Here are other two methods, a bit less known, but that go a bit more in depth about the head. If you're a beginner, I'd recommend watching the Loomis method first before diving into these other two methods. Note: these are playlists covering each method, and the videos are longer, but worthwhile.

1.3 The Michael Hampton Method

1.4 The Steve Huston Method

And here's a hybrid of a visual and structural approach too if you're interested! (Again, this one is recommended mostly if you already have a good grasp of the general structure)

Having trouble finding that reference of the head from that specific angle? Here's a 3D model that can be used as reference from any angle. Bonus: It has a built in light feature that allows you to understand which planes of the face the light would hit!

There's also a version with more feminine features.

Here's a website that lets you pick a head angle and then searches for reference images with that angle too. Allows you to pick age, gender, and other features like glasses, facial hair, etc.

2. Understanding What's Below

When drawing the head and face, what most people think of is what we see everyday: the skin. However, there's more to the head and face than just that: there's a whole structure laying underneath that builds up everything on top. Understanding that structure can lead to better execution of skin level facial anatomy.

And what's that structure? Well, bones of course. And muscles. Even if (most of the time) we don't draw them, knowing they exist and how they are placed on top of each other can help with building what we do draw. Understanding the building blocks of the face will make it easier to avoid, say, making one eye bigger than the other. Or a forehead that's too small. Or ears that are too high. Or side profiles that cut off the brain.

Something I recommend for this is making study sheets of the bone structure, muscular structure, and skin structure. For this it's important to name the main bones and muscle groups. Not because you need to commit them to memory, but because if you name them on your practice sheet, it's easier to remember later on that they EXIST (even if you don't remember the name).

Here's a 3D model of the skull

Useful guide for the names of the bones of the skull

Here's a 3D model of the face muscles with names

3. Elements of a Whole

So we now understand the general structure of a face and some useful guidelines to build it. Good! But now, a face has a bunch of individual elements with their own individual structure and stuff to look out for. Those are, of course:

Eyes

Noses

Lips

Ears

3.1 Eyes

It's important to note that the eye has a volume of its own- it's not just a sticker laying on top of the face. It can be helpful to think of the eyeball inside the eye socket when drawing it (taking into account the bone structure we learned before). When understanding the eyeball as a sphere, it becomes easier to place the skin above: the eyelids. This can help with drawing the eye from any angle.

This can also help when drawing the dreaded Other EyeTM, specially if you are still a beginner artist. If you start by constructing the eyes with spheres and approach it from the perspective of "placing" the skin above that sphere, it's easier to get sizes and proportions right.

3.2 Noses

Again, spheres can be your friend.

3.3 Lips

Spheres part 3

A funny thing with lips that often gets over looked when one is just learning the ropes of anatomy is that it also wraps around the volume of the face. Just like the eyes aren't stickers laying on top, the lips aren't either. It's important to take the curvature of the face when placing the lips from different angles and expressions. For example, when we thing of a smile, its usually this idea that comes to mind:

Which yeah, that's fine! ...As long as your subject is facing straight to the camera.

But when we have even a bit of perspective, the way the mouth looks changes, and we often don't think of that and just draw what we think the mouth looks like... which can lead to odd looking mouths, like they're pasted on. So, it's important to keep in mind the volume of the face:

This is true for all features of the face: keeping in mind the volume. But, it can be more noticeable on the mouth.

3.4 Ears

Spheres part- no.

Even if the ear is one of the "flatter" parts of the head, it doesn't mean they don't have volume. Depending on the angle of the face, it'll change how much of the ear is shown- or which parts.

All ears are different and have their quirks, but they all can be divided in three major segments, colour coded in the image. If you deconstruct the ear in these three major parts, keeping in mind they have their own volume, it should be easier to figure out which of those parts will be seen depending on the angle of your face.

4. Expressions!

Now that we understand the elements and construction blocks of the face (bones and muscles), we can play around with them a bit more. So, time to make expressions!

When playing with how the skin moves, it's fundamental to understand the muscle groups of the face and how they move, relax and tense depending on the expression. Knowing that these muscles exist and how they interact with the skin above will help you know where the eyebrow should furrow, where wrinkles would form.

A BOOK I widely recommend is Anatomy of Facial Expression, which you can find here for purchase

Or here as a PDF

This book also covers skull anatomy, so it's a useful tool to study the structure talked about in 02.

There's also an ArtStation account that uploads a bunch of useful 3D model resources for anatomy (facial or otherwise).

Scott McCloud's book, Making Comics, has a section dedicated to facial expressions too (great book in general, not only if you're interested in comics!). You can find it in PAGE 80 (or 88 in the document).

Another thing that can be helpful is studying from life! You can do that by making different expressions in front of a mirror and pay close attention to which muscle groups tense and relax, where wrinkles appear, how your skin moves. Or, if you're like me and hate staring at your face, you can also study from video references.

Here's a link to a PLAYLIST containing various videos of people making different expressions.

The previous playlist contains real people, thus, REALISTIC ANATOMY. It's important to note that even if your drawing style is heavily stylised (like anime, cartoon, etc), it's still fundamental that you understand real world rules so you later know how to bend and break them properly to implement those to your own style.

However, that doesn't mean you can't study STYLISED EXPRESSIONS too! It's actually a great idea to see how other people exaggerate certain anatomical aspects to their own work so you can also understand how to do it in yours. Here's a list with various videos of EXPRESSIONS IN MOTION for animation tests. Study them the same as the previous ones: paying close attention to how the face and muscles MOVE.

Pause the videos you study as needed! While all of this might seem more useful for animation, it's also incredibly useful in illustration, and studying things in movement can help with understanding them better, thus putting them to paper (or tablet) becomes easier.

Finally, here's some videos in a sort of CLASS FORMAT that can help with walking you through drawing expressions more effectively than a text post could lol

#art resources #I'm sorry this took so long life just gets in the way some times #also sorry for the radio silence over here #it'll probably stay like that for a while lol #hope this can somewhat make up for it tho :'] #please also tell me if the redaction is clear or if I should change something about format for these things #Maybe I'm doing way too much explanation and y'all just want the links lol

[gingerbreadmonsters]

friendly reminder to NOT post untagged or unhidden spoilers in the main tags, because really it is just kind of a dick move for anyone who happens to not have listened yet - for early access AND public release days 💕💕

#redacted asmr #redacted audio #this is not meant to be passive aggressive or preachy or anything like that #it is just that you have the infinite resources of google at your disposal #you can find out how to add a readmore to your post #this includes early access spoilers for those with patreon #and public release spoilers for the day of the youtube release #as a general rule i would politely suggest that 24 hours be the MINIMUM that you hide spoilers under a readmore #bc getting spoiled on an audio - regardless of the content but ESPECIALLY for plot-heavy ones - is just awful #please don't be that person #i beg

[starlitangels]

Withdrawals

I had some thoughts. I had to write them down 2.7k words

CW: discussion and dealing with drug-like withdrawals, discussion of addiction

—

Squinting against how bright the simple lamp now was in the darkness—Vincent said I’d get used to it—I tiptoed down the stairs.

Vincent was sitting in the living room, in the armchair we never really used considering we couldn’t cuddle very well on it. He was curled up—those long, slim, but toned limbs all folded in toward the center—with his eyes closed. There was a peaceful expression on his face, but I knew him. It was the forced peace of “I’m trying to meditate but don’t actually know what I’m doing.”

“Vin?” I asked quietly.

He inhaled deeply and opened his eyes. “Hey baby,” he said, voice soft. “I thought you were gonna sleep for another couple hours.”

I shrugged. “The bed got really cold without you.” I went over to him and perched on the arm of the chair. Vincent immediately wrapped his arm around my waist and tugged me down until I fell onto his lap. “What are you doing?”

“What did it look like I was doing?”

“Attempting to meditate or something.”

He smiled, his teeth sparkly in the lamplight. Then his expression fell. “I wish it was that easy,” he mumbled.

“What is it?”

He shook his head. “It’s nothing, lovely. You just barely turned a week ago. This isn’t one more thing you need to be burdened with.”

I cupped his chin in my hand. “Vincent Solaire,” I warned, keeping my voice down. “What’s wrong?”

He smiled bitterly. “You always see right through me,” he whispered.

“Baby, talk to me. Tell me what’s going on? Just because I’m going through a rough time with turning doesn’t mean you’re not allowed to struggle too. Talk to me. Please? You’re worrying me.”

He took a deep breath and released a shuddering sigh, his breath cool against my skin. “I, uh…” He closed his eyes. The tips of his ears were bright red. “I think I’m experiencing withdrawals.”

“From… from what?”

He closed his eyes and turned his face away from me. “Your blood.”

“Oh Vin…” I breathed.

“I didn’t think I was actually addicted to it but…” He growled in frustration. “I guess I was wrong.”

“Are you sure?”

He swallowed, Adam’s Apple bobbing, and nodded. “I’ve been nauseated and my muscles and fangs ache—and I woke up shaking. Just enough to be noticeable. Didn’t want to wake you so I came down here.” He pinched the bridge of his nose. “And that was after barely getting any sleep to begin with this past week. I haven’t had insomnia this bad since I was human. We only need a fraction of the sleep that we used to but I haven’t been getting even that bare minimum.”

I shuffled so I could put my arms around him and draw his head to my chest. He thumped his forehead against my collarbones without hesitation. “Tell me how to help you, baby,” I whispered.

He shook his head. “You can’t. Lovely, you just turned. You need to be focusing on your own adjusting.”

“Vincent,” I warned, scratching my fingernails across his scalp and winding his curls around my fingers. “That’s not how this works. We help each other, remember? Spending eternity by each other’s sides means we support and help. Just because you’re trying to be a good Maker and help me through this change doesn’t mean you’re having an easy time of it. This is just proof of it.”

“Baby, I’ll handle this myself,” Vincent said softly.

“No, you won’t.” I suppressed a growl. “Withdrawals are a serious thing. It’s not something you can handle on your own. You need your support system. I don’t care that I just turned and I’m not having the easiest time of it. I’m going to help you and you’re going to let me.”

He took a deep breath. “Okay.”

“Come on. Let’s get you back in bed.” I reached over and turned the lamp off before climbing off Vincent’s lap and pulling him to his feet by both hands. He unfolded from the chair reluctantly but let me take him back upstairs to bed.

I tucked him into bed before climbing in on my side and gathering him to my chest. Carefully, I played with his—enviously soft—hair until I felt his breathing finally ease out and heard his heartbeat slow down dramatically. Finally falling back to sleep. “It’s gonna be okay, baby. I promise. We’ll get through it together. All of it. Like we always have,” I whispered. I kissed the top of his head.

Automatically, and without waking up, he made a kissy noise.

—

Ring-ring... Ring-ring... Ring-ri—

“Hello, my dear. To what do I owe the pleasure of this call?” William’s voice asked.

I sucked in a deep breath. “Does the Department have any resources for vampires with blood addictions?”

“Blood addictions? What do you mean?”

“Remember what Vincent told you about my blood? That it is—was—addictive because of how much magic was concentrated in it? That when he fed from me, it felt like a need. Like his body needed it?”

“I recall, yes.”

“Does the Department have resources for addictions like that?”

William was silent on the other end of the call for several long seconds.

I swallowed. Had the call disconnected? I glanced at the screen. The time elapsed on the call was still ticking upwards.

“Is he going through withdrawals?” William’s voice was so quiet that without vampire hearing I would never have heard it, but it was directed at me.

“Yes,” I replied, almost as quietly.

I heard William sigh. “In all my centuries, I never saw a latent affect vampires the way you did to him. I’m afraid my knowledge is quite limited in this matter. I’m so sorry, my dear.”

“That’s okay. The Department website’s just a nightmare to navigate so I figured I’d call and ask.”

“I wish I could be of more help. If there is anything else I can do, please do not hesitate to reach out.”

“Thanks William.”

“Will is fine. You are family now.”

I couldn’t help but grin—even if it was a little melancholy. “Thanks Will.”

“Of course.”

“Bye.”

“Goodbye.”

We hung up.

I sighed in mild frustration and set my phone down before I could crush it. The screen was already severely cracked from the Inversion and Vincent hadn’t had a chance to go get it replaced yet. And I didn’t want to end up needing an entirely new phone. Although I knew Vincent would love spoiling me if I did.

Chewing on the inside of my cheek, I paced the living room. Vincent was out for the night, checking in on some of William’s properties. Sam had offered to do it for him, considering how many times Vincent had stepped in to watch Sam’s progenies when they were newly-turned whenever he needed a break or to watch the park or had to go heal someone or—

Wait a second.

I snatched my phone up and unlocked it again, scrolling through my contacts quickly until I found who I was looking for and clicking Call.

Ring-ring... Ring-ring... Ri—

“Hello?”

“Hi Sam. It’s me.”

“What’s up? Everythin’ alright?”

I sucked in a deep breath. “You used to work as a healer, right?”

“Yep.” He said the word slowly, sounding suspicious. “Why?”

“Have you ever heard of a vampire having a blood addiction?”

There was a long silence. “Kid, you know we drink blood to survive, right? It’s not an addiction.”

I growled. “That’s not what I meant. I mean...” I sucked in a sharp breath. “Like an addiction to the magic in an empowered person’s blood. So much so that they experience withdrawals.”

Another long silence. “Why? What’s goin’ on?”

“It’s not my place to say.”

“What’s goin’ on with Vincent?” Sam rumbled.

“What makes you think anything’s going on with Vincent?”

“Because you’re his partner and you don’t sound worried for yourself. If you were, then it would be your place to say. Now what’s goin’ on?”

“It’s not my place.”

Sam swore under his breath several times. “So help me, kid. Vincent is a brother to me. Tell me what’s wrong.”

I huffed a sigh out through clenched teeth. “He drained me, remember? You were there. Remember that I was latent? Remember that my blood was potent? Full of magic that my Core was drawing in but unable to vent into an aura for years—remember that? I don’t need to go into the details about our more intimate encounters, but he fed on me plenty enough times even before I turned. He woke up shaking yesterday. And today. William doesn’t know of any resources to help him. I was hoping you might have because you worked as a healer.”

Sam swore again—but he didn’t sound angry at me this time. He sounded... scared? Maybe not quite. Worried? “If he fed on you often enough but not too often he wouldn’t even realize he was developin’ a dependency and gettin’ a fix... dammit,” he whispered. “Drainin’ you to turn you... he was exhausted from givin’ you his own blood... but if he hadn’t... he’d-a been buzzed outta his mind.” He sighed. “I’ve never heard of a blood addiction. Vampires don’t make their way into healin’ clinics often. Their own healin’ factor usually meant they didn’t need to. Let me ask some old friends-a mine. See if I can dredge up anythin’.”

“Thank you, Sam.”

“Sure. I’ll let you know when I find anythin’.” He hung up.

I took a deep breath and set my phone back down. “It’s gonna be okay. We’re gonna figure something out,” I promised myself.

—

I woke with a small jolt at the same time that Vincent did. Peering over my shoulder, I watched as he sat up in bed and curled up himself. I rolled over to face him properly and pushed myself up to sit next to him. His breathing was shaky and he was trembling.

“Hey,” I greeted softly, wrapping my arms around him. His sucked in a sharp breath through clenched teeth. “Do we wanna reach out to the Department offices to see if there’s someone you can talk to?”

“Wh-what?”

“Counseling helps withdrawals. Sam and I have been looking into resources to help you. For drugs, detoxing helps too but I doubt that’s really gonna work here.”

“I think I just have to ride it out.”

“You don’t actually think I’m going to accept that option, do you? Cold turkey? Which is probably the hardest way to go through it, even with support? What kind of partner do you think I am?”

“Lovely...” He lifted his head from where it had been resting on his knees and looked at me, his silver eyes glittering in the darkness. “Wait. Did you say Sam?”

“He used to be a healer. I asked if he knew of any resources for vampires dealing with magic-in-the-blood addiction withdrawals and he kinda put it together.”

“Of course he did.”

“Vincent, we want to help you. We love you. And, frankly, you need the support right now. You can’t just ride this out on your own. We won’t let you. Me, Sam, William—we’d all be damned if we didn’t at least try.”

“Oh God,” Vincent groaned. “Does Will know too?”

“I asked him if he knew whether the Department has resources too. The website is a nightmare.”

Vincent closed his eyes and sighed. “I appreciate that you’re trying so hard. But you need to be focusing on your own struggles—and your training to adjust to your new body and abilities.”

I clenched my jaw. “Dammit, Vin!” I snapped. “Don’t you understand that being in a relationship means that, yeah, my problems are also yours—but your problems are mine too? I know you’ve been doing everything since—since Adam—to take care of me and help me through things. But we’re both dealing with this for you. We’re not experiencing it the same way. But it’s affecting you so it’s affecting me. I love you and I’m going to help you. I don’t want to know what might happen to you if you don’t learn to manage this. Or... or find a way to move past this.”

“Baby... I know. But what you’re going through is a lot worse—”

“Don’t even finish that sentence, Solaire,” I warned. “There is no scaling to struggling here. The Inversion sucked. The turning has been hard. The bloodlust kinda sucks too. But that doesn’t diminish what you are going through, do you understand me?”

Vincent looked surprised at the tone in my voice, eyebrows lifting and mouth parting.

Instead of saying something, he surged over the bed and threw his arms around me, burying his face in my chest. I held onto him tight, scratching the back of his scalp with my nails and rocking him.

He was still shaking, but this time it was from the quiet crying. Or, if it was still from the withdrawals, the crying added to it.

“Thank you, baby,” he whispered.

I kissed the top of his head. His glossy black curls were so soft. “That’s what we do for each other, Vincent. You’ve taken care of me for so long now. And you’re gonna have to keep doing it through this bloodlust. The least I can do is find ways to help you through your own struggle.”

“It’s really not the least. It’s a lot.”

“Not for me. Not if it’s you.” I twirled one of his curls around my finger and closed my eyes, inhaling the scent of him. It was so much more prominent and distinct now that I was a vampire.

He let out a shuddering sigh. “I love you.”

“I love you too, Vincent. So much.”

We stayed like that on our bed until the sun went down—and my phone started ringing. I let him go just barely long enough to twist and snatch it off the bedside table before holding onto him.

“Hey Sam, what’s up?” I asked.

“My partner knew about some resources the Department has that might help. Should I send the links to you, Vincent, or both?”

“Both.”

“Alright. Gimme a sec.” There was a pause. Then a chuckle. “Yes, darlin’, I know how to send links via text while still on a call. I’m not actually a fossil,” he said to someone the microphone on his phone hadn’t picked up.

Vincent smiled against my chest and snickered.

Sam’s voice got closer to his microphone. “A’right. I sent those over. Should show up any second,” he continued.

At that moment, my phone buzzed in my hand, and Vincent’s went off—full sound—on his bedside. He reached out and grabbed it while I put Sam on speaker and looked at the text that came through.

A series of links to the Department’s website, and several others.

“Thank you, Sam,” I said. “Thank you so much.”

“Thank my partner,” Sam said. “They’re the one that knew.”

“Thank you, Sam’s partner,” I replied louder into my phone so they could hear it.

“No problem,” a voice farther from the mic remarked. “I hope it helps. Vincent means a lot to Sam.”

Vincent’s arms tightened around me. He was smiling softly. Almost melancholy.

“We appreciate it. Thank you both.”

“Uh-huh. You have a good night, now,” Sam said.

“You too.”

“Bye.” He hung up.

I set my phone down and ran my fingers through Vincent’s curls. “Hey. We’re gonna get you help. We’re gonna get through this—all of this—together. Like we always do. Okay?”

He lifted his head from my chest to smile at me. “Together,” he promised.

I leaned down and gave him a kiss. He accepted and reciprocated enthusiastically.

When I pulled away, head spinning a little, I clicked on the first link Sam had sent us. The one for the Department’s website. There was a number for vampires to call after the usual closing times that would put them in touch with vampire Department employees.

My thumb hovered over the hyperlink of the number. If I tapped it, it would ask if I wanted to call the number.

I smiled down at Vincent. “Ready?”

He nodded. “Please.”

I twisted one of his curls around my finger and thumb of my free hand. “Let’s get you some help,” I whispered.

I tapped the link.

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Tag list: @thegoldenlittlerose @zozo-01 @gingerbreadmonsters (you seemed very interested on the WIP Wednesday so I hope you don’t mind)

#Redacted ASMR #fic #Redacted Vincent #Redacted Lovely #Redacted Audio #Vincent Solaire #Lovely #Starlit Fic #Rrraaaeee! Floof! I'm writing for y'all's mmmaaannn! #i have a family member who is a drug addiction therapist #special shoutout to them for why I know some of this stuff #darlin' knew about resources because i like to think they tried to help Quinn before everything went to hell #featuring #Sam #Darlin' #(briefly)

[art-soboro]

alittle tachibana-shaped beast

#yakuza #rgg #ryu ga gotoku #tachibana tetsu #anthro #artists on tumblr #sketch #fanart #i think drawing him as a bat is a bit Too straightforward but also. #bats are sooooooooo cute .......... died multiple times while i was researching bat species for him and [redacted] #big shoutouts to that one very specific resource that covers china's bat species

[modwyr]

if nothing else all of this further cements my beliefs that creators should limit how much contact they have with fans, and just because fans want something, it doesn't automatically mean the story will be better for it.

#on the second point - and im saying this as someone who likes halsin - halsin's role should have stayed at the same size as like aylin #and the resources that went into that character should have gone towards wyll so he wasn't left with 5 hours less content than [redacted] #like sometimes the answers to fan demands is writing fanfiction or whatever #not changing the game to meet them #text

[sri-rachaa]

hehe >:3 i got a lil vincent in a crown doodle ready for y’all >:3

#redacted asmr #redacted audio #rae should not be trusted with the resources she has #…….. #anyways pretty prince is in queue <33 #for a lil later today <33

[employee432fromtheparable]

The watcher project

I was looking at my computer screen in shock as the text updated again “should have known you’d be surprised. I’m insight, an ai made by the watcher project years ago.”

“What the fuck?!” I managed to breathe “how are you even on my computer?”

“My best guess is this computer belonged to someone who worked on the project, which led to me being here” the eye on the screen that I had assumed was part of the ai looked sideways “I will say this, ⍓︎□︎◆︎ ♋︎❒︎♏︎■︎❼︎⧫︎ ⬧︎◻︎♏︎♋︎🙵♓︎■︎♑︎ ⧫︎□︎ ⧫︎♒︎♏︎ □︎❒︎♓︎♑︎♓︎■︎♋︎●︎ ♋︎♓︎”

I stared blankly at the screen seeing the symbols, it abruptly shut off before I could say anything

#the watcher project #original story #was gonna make this an analog horror but i don’t have resources for it #mc is named Preston #ai is insight #lead on the project was [redacted]

[thicchaco]

People in the fandom: I'm not dealing with internalized misogyny I just think people who talk about Alexis make her so good she's a Mary Sue and completely sanitize her that's my argument :)

The same fucking people: Alexis is irredeemable, she's a bad person that's it, she has no other personality than being bad, all we know about her is she hurts people, she's a terrible person and she shouldn't be forgiven, she should die, I literally want to kill her, I want to slowly torture her making her wish she could die,

Once again, seek help for all of your cognitive dissonance, and while you're at it do some reading on discrit because this fandom has bland takes and I know it's cause y'all have never had seasoning in y'all's food and like. It shows.

#happy to provide resources for discrit obv. v important for taking apart systems esp whiteness #my last post has lots of therapy resources! #redactedverse #redactedasmr #redacted asmr #redacted #back to how fast can i get cancelled for being loud and black and queer

[muirneach]

my experience in my schools gifted program is very specific but even when i was little i knew that the program was racist so i dont know how people on here are fully grown adults and yet lacking that knowledge. the gifted program for my general area happened to be in a school in a predominantly non white, poor neighbourhood. i came from a neighbouring school like a kilometre away at most that was majorly white. most of the kids in the gifted program were from all around the city and probably 60-70% white at best (toronto is 45% white as a whole). like the disparity between my class and the class next door… very obvious! also gifted wasnt even good i literally learned nothing for three years so i don’t get the hype

#oh and btw i live on the edge of said neighbourhood between it and the rich white neighbourhood #well. lived. i was born there but we moved out this summer. #but i go to school there still literally a block away from my gifted school #so like. it wasnt about the neighbourhood because thats my homeee #i just didnt go to that school previously because there were like 6 elementary schools in the area so we went to a random one idk lol #but also tbf there wasnt to my eyes any difference in the resources allocated to gifted and non gifted students #unlike my first school which the french students got wayyy better things than english students. which reflected the school culture tbh #(my mom says if you had english kids you were looked down upon) #which isn’t necessarily a privilege thing but it was weird #and then at my current school theres a [redacted well known accelerated program] and they get WAYYY more resources #for that program ehh i think its more white than the general population but its not SUPER white #idk im not in it i failed the entrance test lol

[smellslikebot]

i do not really care for danny phantom at this point because the show always sucked in retrospect, but i love the modern fanbase they're so funny. they are in almost unanimous agreement that they hate bitch fartman and that he ruined everything (i think "whether or not the subreddit moderators will take action against you for saying so" is a pretty good metric of this)

and i think that's a pretty good measure of how much i can tolerate the fanbase of a work whose creator is a shithead. if you can't just come out and say "hey this person kind of sucks" without a bunch of fans leaping out to defend them then im generally like "ok i cant stand this thing. it go on my blacklist forever"

#earthworm jim and danny phantom fans = Fun. i will hang out with them #fnaf and [redacted] fans = HELLO HUMAN RESOURCES??? #silly storie

[acidic--citrus]

that mirror dungeon can hard.

#this is a post about: #limbus company #i barely fuckign made it out of there. i was running out ego resources REAL bad #the meta has CHANGED THE EGO GIFTS U WANT R THE ONES THAT GIVE U RESOURCES.... #U CANNOT MAKE IT PAST CLASHES OTHERWISE ITS FUCKN CRAZY THE EGO SPAM IS REAL.... #my first mirror dungeon F5 boss was :^) it was [REDACTED] i cant believe. they really added in that boss. they really did that #still got everything in one try though 😜

[prvtocol]

𝓓𝓲𝓻𝓮𝓬𝓽𝓸𝓻 𝓑𝓻𝓲𝓪𝓷𝓷𝓮 𝓛𝓪𝓷𝓭𝓻𝔂, 𝒦𝒾𝓇𝑜𝓈𝒽𝒾 𝒮𝒸𝒶𝓃 [ Ⓒ ]

#my edits #𝗣𝗥𝗢𝗙𝗜𝗟𝗘 :「 brianne landry | headcanon 」. #(( scan bri and you see only this #important to note that bri has the money/resources to redact info from databases so you don't see who she is. only her affiliation to 'saka #and her criminal record does not exist fr. even if it did ncpd can be paid off by a exec in her high tier position to be squeaky clean )) #(( post-2077/Arasaka it says 'civilian' but she still pays to redact that info )) #𝗣𝗥𝗢𝗙𝗜𝗟𝗘 :「 headcanon 」. #⚘ ˚◞ headcanon ◞ 𝒾 𝓀𝑒𝑒𝓅 𝓂𝓎 𝒽𝑒𝒶𝒹 𝑜𝓃 𝒷𝒶𝒸𝓀𝓌𝒶𝓇𝒹𝓈 𝓉𝑜 𝒻𝒾𝓃𝒹 𝒶𝓃 𝒶𝓃𝓈𝓌𝑒𝓇. #⚘ ˚◞ headcanon ◞ 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓌𝒶𝓋𝑒𝓈 𝓌𝑜𝓃’𝓉 𝒻𝑜𝓇𝑔𝒾𝓋𝑒 𝓎𝑜𝓊.

[thirdpowersa]

ok, i only have a few memes left in my drafts and they're all for jordan, so i will get to those tomorrow after i make some gifs of daehyeon !! in the mean time, if you'd like to send me anything more, here's my tag — send whatever you want, even if we haven't interacted yet !!

#using a fc from a group basically no one knows is great because i love him and get to spread the message but #it also means i have to make my own resources which is. yeah. #« i miss wearing pants but at least i don't wanna (redacted) anymore. » ooc.

[recombinatrix]

Went to a workshop on how to write the literature rescue for my thesis and now my stress levels are through the roof. I already feel so behind.

We had a useless year phd student who has done, as far as I can tell, absolutely nothing for the last two years while also constantly increasing my workload by skipping out on her own admin commitments and dealing group meetings. As a result I’ve had to spend the last two months (where I should have been at home recording from covid) at work doing including and training for four new masters students and one new PhD student because it turns out she literally does not know anything about our field. She could not show an undergrad first year how to use our software to do an entry level task. She cannot answer questions like “what are you studying and how are you studying it?”

I’m very tired and I feel extremely behind because I’ve been doing this shit instead of my PhD, and I’m only just now starting to figure out exactly how much I should have already been doing.

I hate her and I’m so fucking glad she quit. Enjoy failing your second year milestone because you decided to spend two years fucking around and ignoring every single piece of actionable feedback we gave you.

#PhD life #Seriously it’s been two years and she still hasn’t learned high school chemistry #WE ARE A CHEMISTRY DEPARTMENT #TWO OF US ARE ACTUAL FOR REALS CHEMISTS. #we gave her resources. We offered her training. we told her that she absolutely needed to know these things #And this bitch still hasn’t bothered to learn what a hydrogen bond is #anyway turns out she also lied about [redacted] so if she doesn’t just quit she’s probably going to get dismissed for academic misconduct #before she even has time to flunk out #idk #phd’s are hard enough without adding in someone who literally doesn’t do *anything*

[werewolf-transgenderism]

🌿 venting on main again sorry pls forgive me for over sharing 🌿

#not to be over sharing on main again but. #just fucking sucks that for once in my miserable life I’m trying to deal with shit BEFORE it ends in a [redacted] #and I can’t access any of the necessary resources because of my shit insurance and ‘complex needs’ #like. I want to get better! I don’t want to keep living like this indefinitely!! #and I’m acknowledging that I cannot fix it myself! #but like I do not have a support system! and I cannot afford to pay out of pocket for a therapist who meet my needs! #I can’t keep hauling myself back up from this shit forever like it’s unsustainable #like what happens when I can feel myself going crazy and can’t drag myself into the ER preventatively #I’m just so tired of doing all of this work myself and barely scraping by day to day like I can’t do this forever #anyway. sorry to overshare on main but. again. no support system and this can’t just live in my brain #apologies to anyone who read this far