#scout derek shepherd Lincoln

[hotticuslincoln]

#grey's anatomy #18x20 #amelink #amelia shepherd #Atticus Lincoln #my baby boy #im actually shocked she apologized! #thank you kai i guess #greys anatomy #my gifs #scout lincoln #atticus and scout #scout derek shepherd lincoln

[oboevallis]

back to square one

TW/CW- relapse, feelings of worthlessness, hopelessness

This was the final straw, if things couldn’t get any worse, here she was walking away from the first person who truly got her brain. Lethargically she made it to her office and got prepared to leave, and then made the treacherous walk to her car. Her hand lingered on the door handle. Her brain feeling like it was encased in fog. Eventually she made her way back to her apartment. She couldn’t decide if it was good or bad that she didn’t have Scout tonight. After opening the door she dropped her keys in a small painted pottery bowl her and Kai made together at an art studio, everything in her life was tainted by Kai’s presence. She sighed as she draped her coat over the couch. After taking a look around the apartment she was once so happy in, she headed over towards the cabinet beneath the sink. As she sit down on the cool tile floor she felt as though she was gonna cry. She rummaged through the detergent bottles and toxic cleaners, until she found the bottle she was looking for. A wine bottle, one of her new neighbors gifted to her as a welcome present, unknowingly. Why she kept it she didn’t know, she said it was for any guests who may come, maybe deep down her knew this would happen. She held the bottle for awhile, contemplating. She’d been sober for so long, she couldn’t even remember what it felt like to be drunk. But it was the only thing she craved for, to forget, to drown out her thoughts, to not feel as lonely. Her mind was racing a million miles a minute, she knew this was wrong. After coming so far she owed her self more, but she couldn’t handle her mind. She hoisted herself up and poured the wine into one of Scout’s sippy cup cause children’s dish-ware was pretty much all she had. As she brought the cup up to her lips she hesitated, her conscious telling her to stop at all costs, but there was a voice begging her to just take a sip. That one sip because two, which became the whole bottle. Once realizing what she did she slammed the glass bottle into the sink and fell the the ground. How did this happen? How did she allow this to happen? She swore she was never going to touch alcohol after Meredith’s attack, and before that the death of her firstborn. Her firstborn, she swore she’d stay sober for him, now for her son. She just couldn’t do it anymore, neither of them needed her. She felt worthless, she didn’t matter to anyone in her life anymore. Everyone left her eventually, she should’ve know. Things were too good for too long. Eventually she went to bed, hoping to forget what she had done. The next morning she woke up with a terrible hangover, she forgot about this part. Not being able to stand the feeling a reality spinning back to her, she made her way to the nearest liquor store. After buying some hard liquor, she saw her phone. She totally forgot she was on call, her phone blowing up with pages. She stood there staring at her phone, before simply shutting it off. She couldn’t be bothered, Mr Mehta could take care of it, they didn’t need her.

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“Where’s Dr Shepherd?” Webber asked as he handed his iPad to the nurses station.

“Not sure but she hasn’t been answering her pagers, I mean I may have to suspend her she’s on call.” Teddy sighed as she filled out a chart.

“That’s not like her.” He could now feel his anxiety bubbling. Amelia always answered her pages.

“Well Im sure shes upset about Meredith and Maggie leaving, and now on top of that Kai is doing research in London.” Teddy explained before she walked away leaving Richard in his thoughts. This was not a good mixture, he immediately texted her inviting her to a meeting. No response. He was gonna give her a couple of days to mope before checking in on her.

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“Damn it.” Link said with frustration, he’d been trying to contact Amelia all day, he hadn’t heard from her since last week which was their last exchange. It was her day to take Scout, and he had planned a big night for him and Jo, he was gonna confess his love to her. But those plans would be squashed if his ex wouldn’t pick up her damn phone.

“Everything okay?” Webber asked as he stepped into the attending’s lounge.

“Yeah, it’s just Amelia isn’t answering and it’s her night to take scout.”

“Haven’t heard from her all week?”

“No, but we don’t really talk. Haven’t heard from since our last exchange, but that’s not out of the ordinary I want nothing to do with her.” Webbers suspicion was proving to be true.

“You should give her a bit more grace, she never intended to hurt you like this.”

“Well she did.” Webber was debating whether or not to unleash all the things he never said to him.

“You know, she was drowning and you just stood there watching. While you were around the house drinking she was barely holding on. And after everything she’s been through with Christopher I wouldn’t be surprised if her grief wasn’t over taking her. She had a newborn and 3 other kids in her hands within 10 minutes of getting home from the hospital. If you really loved her as you say you did you would’ve been there to help her. But you never checked in.”

With that Webber left the room and made his was to the parking lot. He had to go check in on her. He was giving her a couple of days to mope, but it’d almost been a week since he invited her to that meeting and was met with no response. He was being optimistic, she’d been through worse and stayed sober, she was probably just in her bed closing out the world. He knocked on the apartment door, but there was no answer, now he was thinking the worst. He kept vigorously knocking until the door opened a crack.

“Can I help you?” Amelia simply stated barely showing herself.

“You haven’t been to work and I haven’t seen you at a meeting.”

“I know.” There was uncomfortable silence for awhile until she spoke up again. “I was suspended for a little bit for not answering my pages.”

“And why weren’t you?”

“I’m sad Richard, please just leave me alone. I’m gonna be okay.”

“I can see straight through you shepherd. And don’t think I can’t smell the alcohol on your breath.”

“I don’t know what you want me to say.”

“How about ‘Come on in, I’ll make us a pot of coffee’.”

“It’s a mess in here.”

“I’ve seen worse.” Slowly she opened the door and let him in. He hadn’t been in the apartment yet, it was cute. Seemed like a place Amelia would live. His eyes were then drawn to the bottles on the counter and the smashed one in the sink. He watched as she walked over to the coffee machine. He then realizes he’s never seen her drunk before. She’s tripping over herself and is slurring her speech. “So what’s the plan here? Are you gonna get up and clean yourself off? Or are you gonna stay like this forever?”

“The latter.”

“I heard it’s your night with Scout.”

“Yeah he doesn’t need me, I mean he has a new mother who’s ten times better than me.”

“Jo is not going to replace you.”

“Richard I don’t really care. Scouts better off without me, he doesn’t need a spiraling mother in his life.”

“It’s just a slip up.”

“I’m too old for this. I don’t have the strength to get sober again.”

“You are way younger than me when I got sober the last time. I know you Amelia, you are stronger than this disease.”

“No I’m not, I’m nothing.”

“The Amelia Shepherd I know, fights for the her loved ones and her patients, her kindness is indescribable, she’s stronger than this.”

“I can’t I just can’t.” She’s starts to feel tears welling up in her eyes. She doesn’t want to cry in front of him. “It’s too much.”

“We’ll take it one step at a time. First let’s clean this place up and get ourselves to a meeting.”

“Thank you.” Amelia whispered quietly as the older man started to dump out the remaining liquor.

#amelia shepherd #greysabc #greys anatomy #meredith grey #scout derek shepherd lincoln #scout lincoln #richard webber #maggie #atticus lincoln #teddy altman #kaimelia #kai bartley

[unoceanodimezzo]

#greys anatomy #amelia shepherd #scout derek shepherd lincoln #grey's anatomy #promo pics #amelink #kaimelia

[thedefinitionofendgame]

18.17 grey’s anatomy *spoilers* reactions/opinions:

SHIT i thought that was Link sleeping with Amelia in his dream or something-

"hi my name is Pru" she's so cute ahhhh

stoned Richard is so damn funny

Mer being sketchy lol 😂

"is this a big fish or a really small bear" (I'm just quoting at this point and loving it)

working double is gonna murder Jo eventually

Miranda's a little short this morning...temper wise cause she's always short height wise haha

hey buddy boy Richard I wouldn't try to escape while not sober-

Teddy and Amelia talking and then Amelia talking about her love for Kai was beautiful ❤️

Nick good job shushing Bailey, she was annoying me a tad

Winston is also pissing me off. don't take your personal life to work as a surgeon dude

honestly there's not much for me to say about this episode. go Maggie for kicking Winston out too though

I'm so sorry Link what the fuck did you say?

JO USED FOR LINK FOR SEX? NO WAY BECAUSE LINK WANTED THE SEX TOO SO BACK THE HELL OFF MY DUDE

yeah Link I bet you feel stupid now because Jo was trying to protect your friendship

okay Winston your behaviour today is not justified but Wendel is clearly not a good person and shouldn't be on their couch anymore

Levi, your nervousness is so genuine and he's the only one who can ground Bailey. George 2.0 ;)

Leo's hair is so long and I love their pink shirt and necklace!

Scout's getting so big too 😍

Catherine's cancer is back?! holy heck

#grey's anatomy spoilers #grey's anatomy season 18 #atticus lincoln #amelia shepherd #maggie pierce #winston ndugu #nick marsh #miranda bailey #jo wilson #jolink #kai bartley #meredith grey #richard webber #catherine avery #teddy altman #scout derek shepherd lincoln #leo hunt #levi schmitt #grey's anantomy #the definition of endgame

[minishonda]

#scout #scoutderek #derek #shepherd #Lincoln #scoutlincoln #murphytwins #Ryker #Ryden #greys anatomy #greys #shonda rhimes #shondaland #krista #abc #series #medical series

[wvsteria]

alex karev & scout derek shepherd lincoln @papermccn

"what the hell are you doing back here, kid?" alex asked the young person he found by the doctor's break room. "it's for doctor's only, alright. i'll show you to the visitor section."

#hw.alexkarev #& scout derek shepherd lincoln #papermccn

[japrilsanatomy]

Grey’s Anatomy Poll: Day 9

#greys anatomy #poll #meredith grey #derek shepherd #merder #zola grey shepherd #derek bailey shepherd #ellis shepherd #jackson avery #april kepner #japril #harriet kepner avery #mark sloan #callie torres #arizona robbins #calzona #sofia robbin sloan torres #owen hunt #leo hunt #teddy altman #towen #allison hunt #atticus lincoln #amelia shepherd #amelink #scout derek shepherd lincoln #miranda bailey #tucker jones

[hiddenwashington]

@papermccn said : Was that [MATTHEW DADDARIO]? Oh no no, that was just [SCOUT DEREK SHEPHERD LINCOLN], a[CANON CHARACTER] from [GREYS ANATOMY]. They are [TWENTY THREE] years old, use [HE/HIM], and [ARE] aware that they are not actually from Washington DC. Too bad they can’t stray from this city for long.{ooc: risa!} Can I reserve marceline from adventure time? Ty!

accepted! welcome to washington d.c. scout derek shepherd lincoln [matthew daddario]! please send in your account within 24 hours! please be sure to take a look at the checklist now that you've arrived! we look forward to seeing you around the city!  **marceline (adventure time) is now reserved for risa until 4/08 at 8:02 am est!

#papermccn #accepted #reserves #admin ollie

[papermccn]

under the cut will be all my muses ! all.. 26 of them!

⚠️ this is a dependent blog to the rp hiddenwashington! if ur an indie account pls do not interact- ty!! ⚠️

elena gilbert ,homura akemi , jinx , nami , tifa lockhart natalie highgrove , amber freeman ,molly, elaine st john, vaggie,, azula, draculaura octavia , moxxie, michonne hawthorne, martha hatter, dahlia dogan , calcifer, scout derek shepherd lincoln, lucifer morningstar, richard gecko, lucy maclean, sanna marchon, hilda teufel, teucer, shen xingxing

#~pinned~ #( muse list )

[northernattude]

‘feel the rush of my blood, i’m 17 again. i am not scared of death, i’ve got dreams again’

ABOUT:

Full Name: Elizabeth Moira Shepherd Nickname(s): Liz, Lizzie, Lizbee, Bumble Bee (only used by her dad), EMS. Age: 47 Birthday: May 23rd Species: Human   Nationality: American   Gender: Female Sexual Orientation: Bisexual Religion: N/A Occupation: OB/GYN at SGMW Fandom: Grey’s Anatomy Face Claim: Neve Campbell

RELATIONSHIPS:

Parents: Christopher and Carolyn Shepherd Siblings: Derek, Kathleen, Nancy and Amelia Birth Order: Third oldest Other Family: Addison Forbes-Montgomery (ex sister in law), Meredith Grey (sister in law), Zola Shepherd (niece), Derek Bailey Shepherd (nephew), Ellis Shepherd (niece), Christopher Shepherd (nephew), Scout Shepherd-Lincoln (nephew) Significant Other(s): Benjamin Adams (divorced) Children: Lucas Adams, Lorraine Adams (22), Andrea Adams (18), Dominick Adams (14), Corrine Adams (10), Marianne Adams (7)

PHYSICAL TRAITS:

Eye Color(s): Brown Hair Color: Brown Body Build: Average Notable Physical Traits: Eyes, cheekbones Phobia(s): knives, guns, losing people. Mental Disease(s): depression When and how was this diagnosed?: Diagnosed when she was 15 because her mom he her see a therapist after her grades dropped. How was it overcome?: Medication and therapy. Physical Disease(s): None   When was this diagnosed and/or how did it happen?: N/A

BIOGRAPHY:

#( and all of our books pages are dog eared; liz shepherd )

[hotticuslincoln]

Atticus and Scout 💞

#grey's anatomy #18x17 #Atticus Lincoln #atticus and scout #scout lincoln #scout derek shepherd lincoln #amelink #amelia shepherd #maggie pierce #towen #Teddy altman #Owen Hunt #greys anatomy #my gifs

[amcliashepherds]

#Amelia #amelia shepherd #amelia and scout #scout derek shepherd Lincoln #18x12

[unoceanodimezzo]

to you who has taken my life and made so much more out of it

#amelia shepherd #scout derek shepherd lincoln #grey's anatomy #grey's #i'm not crying you are #greys edit #mama's boy #kaimelia #amelink

[incorrectgreysquotes]

*Running into a room with Scout in his new onesie*

Amelia: Look at this baby!

*moving his arms up to show the wings on the onesie*

Amelia: It has… batwings!

#source: tiktok #amelia shepherd #scout derek shepherd lincoln #greys anatomy #incorrect greys anatomy quotes

[kaimelia]

favorite parent

a/n: here's some quick kaimelia <3 thank u to @herrera-n-hayes for writing this with me i love u with everything in me <33

will be posting some more quick one shots today/tomorrow!

"Hey there, little dude," Kai smiled as Scout bundled into the kitchen, his yellow backpack still strapped for his shoulders as he waved a sheet of paper around. "Whatcha got there?"

"They did art projects in school," Amelia explained, pausing in the doorway of the kitchen to catch her breath. Keeping up with Scout was never easy. "He wanted to show you his work."

"What?" Kai kneeled to Scout's level, wrapping their arms around him for a quick moment before he pulled back and held the piece of paper out towards them, grinning widely and showing off his new teeth. "Dude, this is really cool," they tousled his hair and took the paper, holding it out in front of them. "Is that me?" They pointed at a ridiculously tall stick figure, and Scout nodded proudly.

"He spent the whole car ride home talking about how excited he was to show you," Amelia walked over to them. "Scout, tell them about it."

"That's Mama," he pointed towards a stick figure with purple hair, and Kai nodded. "That's you, and that's Mittens," he pointed at a cat drawn between them.

"I love Mittens' little hat," Kai commented, inspecting the artwork as though it was the Mona Lisa.

"Scout's teacher told me that he wouldn't stop telling all the kids about his favorite parent," Amelia revealed with a large smile. "All the kids in his class now think you're a giant with a magic cat, so you have quite the image to live up to."

"I'm your favorite?" Kai asked Scout, who nodded quickly in confirmation.

"I'm not upset at all," Amelia grumbled, picking Scout up and setting him on her hip. "It's not like I carried him for nine months, gave birth to him, fed him for months or anything."

"I have a cat, which is pretty convincing," Kai grinned. "Am I allowed to bring this back to Minnesota with me? My fridge is pretty empty."

"What do you say, Scout? Can Kai bring it back to share with Mittens?" He nodded, and Amelia kissed his head. "Well, that's settled. I'm going to put someone down for a nap before someone gets a little grumpy," she whispered, swaying back and forth as she headed down the hallway to Scout's room, returning a minute later after closing the door softly. "You okay? You look sad," she questioned, walking up to Kai, who was still looking down at the drawing in their hands.

"I'm his favorite," they beamed, turning around to face Amelia. "He considers me a parent."

"Of course, why wouldn't he?" They shrugged and set the photo on the counter beside them. Their arms wrapped around Amelia's waist, and they pulled her close to them.

"Hearing it made me a little emotional," Kai laughed and glanced down, shaking their head slowly.

"Well, Kai, you're an incredible parent. So incredible that you've managed to become Scout's favorite."

"Which you're definitely not mad about."

"Not at all."

#kaimelia #kai bartley #amelia shepherd #clo tag #grey's anatomy #greys anatomy #greys fanfic #greys abc #greys fanfiction #scout shepherd lincoln #scout derek shepherd lincoln #kaimelia fanfiction #kaimelia fanfic #my fics

[oboevallis]

transplant

“So you switch out peoples organs?” Zola asked her mothers new partner.

“I do, when someone can’t use theirs anymore we do a transplant for someone who can utilize those organs.”

“Hmm, interesting.”

“You know, transplant surgery is the best speciality.”

“Nope.” Zola popped the ‘p’ “Neurosurgery is.”

“Whatever you say Zola.” Nick raised his hands in defense and smirked at the young girl.

“As much as I love to talk about surgery, I want to hear about everyone’s day.” Meredith conjectured at the end of the pairs conversation.

“I scored two goals at soccer!” Bailey excitedly said, leading the other children to add in about their day. The night continued with the children’s banter until it was time for Meredith to start the children’s bedtime routines. Nick situated himself of the couch and pulled out his iPad. He had been in an ethical debacle, did he procure organs from an anacephalic baby? A pregnant woman had come into Grey Sloans ER, and Jo had read a case where they procured organs from an anacephalic baby, so she reached out to Nick to see if he’d lead it.

“Whatcha up to?” Meredith jumped onto the couch beside him.

“Ethical debacle.”

“What is it?”

“Anacephalic baby. Do I procure the organs? It’s been up for debate in the medical community for years. You can’t declare them brain dead because they have a working brain stem, but they have no brain so they’re basically just a body.”

“In my experience you sometimes have to do the quote on quote ‘wrong thing’ to get to the right thing.”

“I’ll bring it up to your Chief tomorrow hopefully she’ll approve.”

“With a move like this, your probably gonna need board approval as well.” Nick rolled his eyes to this.

“It can never just be simple at your hospital.”

“Nope!” Meredith giggled.

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“38 week mother pregnant with an anacephalic baby.” Nick presented as he talked to the board and attendings who would later vote on the final decision. “She has decided to donate the baby’s organs. So this meeting is to get the approval of the board. It’s not officially passed by UNOS but is authorized when a panel votes on it.”

“How do you declare the baby brain dead when they have a working brain stem?” Maggie asked as she leaned into her chair.

“They have no other functionality, all their brain stem does is keep their body functioning for a couple of hours.”

“How many times has this been done?” Teddy asked as she fidgeted with a pen cap.

“A handful of times in the US.” Nick confirmed.

“Is it ethical?.” Winston asked.

“It’s been up for debate for years, but with a panels approval the medical board will sign off.” Nick then directed his attention to the OB in the room. “Dr Deluca are you certified for organ procurement on a baby?”

“I’m sorry I’m not, I can refer you to people who are though.” Carina responded.

“Dr Addison Montgomery. She’ll do it.” Amelia spoke up, looking at the place where she was picking at her nail.

“Okay perfect,I’ll contact her.” Nick jotted down the name on a sticky note so he’d remember for later. “Chief Bailey do I have your approval?”

“You do, and you have access to a transplant team here.” The meeting adjourned and Amelia left as quickly as possible.

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“You doing okay?” Addison carefully walked in the chapel, expecting to find her little sister there. She had gotten a call from Dr Marsh and was on the first plane out to Seattle.

“Yeah.” Amelia whispered, making room on the bench for the latter. Instinctively, Addison wrapped her arm around the now grown up woman.

“A lot of other babies are gonna be saved.” Amelia whispered, it was the mantra that got her through the day of her own son’s organ procurement.

“Your right.”

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“Full house tonight.” Addison whispered to Amelia as they stood in the corner of the Grey home. “You okay? I know it’s not been an easy day.”

“Yeah, just thinking.”

“Im surprised no one has asked your opinion in this topic.” Amelia simply just shrugged. “No one knows, do they?”

“No, no one here knows other than Link and Owen.”

“Amelia.” Addison lightly scolded, she knew it was a difficult topic, but Amelia processed her emotions out loud with other people. For her to not tell her sisters about her first son was unhealthy for her.

“I can’t be here.” Amelia set down her glass of water on a small coffee table in the corner. “Will you come upstairs with me?”

“Of course.” Addison followed Amelia up the old stairs, the pair going unnoticed by the mini dinner party downstairs. Safely upstairs, Amelia dug through her closet looking for a box.

“I haven’t opened this since I left L.A” Amelia sighed as she joined the redhead on her bed. The pair leaned against the headboard, and Amelia put her head on her sisters shoulder. It felt safe, familiar, almost like she was back in high school crying on Addison’s shoulder. Except these tears weren’t over a boy who didn’t like her back or a bad test grade. It was over her firstborn, the one who saved a whole lot of other babies.

“Do you want to open it?” The younger sister nodded her head in approval. Addison carefully lifted the lid to reveal a light blue hat, a baby blanket, sonograms, and a watch.

“He was so tiny.” Amelia smiled as she stroked the blue cap. “A lot tinier then Scout.”

“He did a lot of good Amelia, his life meant something.”

“I know I just feel guilty, I get to love Scout and teach him how to be a good human and just experience him. I didn’t get that with Christopher, he deserved that.” The younger one’s voice broke.

“I’m so sorry.” Addison wrapped her arms around her sister, not minding the tears that were falling on her blouse. What had happened was unimaginable, she never had words of comfort for the neurosurgeon.

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Amelia settled into the gallery situating her son in her lap. She broke him out of daycare, maybe it was twisted to show her almost two year old an organ procurement of a baby with no brain. But some part felt right, she wanted to show him what his big brother did.

“So Aunt Addie is taking her organs.” Amelia whispered to her little boy. “And they’re gonna give her organs to babies who need them.” Obviously the boy was oblivious to what was going on, but he seemed to understand this was something that was important. He was being well behaved and solemn, not his usual rambunctious self (which he gets from his mother).

“She’s gonna save a whole lot of other babies. She’s magical like a unicorn.” Scout absentmindedly played with his mothers fingers as she spoke to him. “Your big brother did this.”

“He didn’t have a brain, so he couldn’t live.”

“But he donated his organs, and saved a lot of babies. Just like this little girl is going to do.”

“I called him my unicorn baby, he did magical things.” Amelia listened as they listed off where the organs were going to and for whom. “I wish you could’ve met him. I just know he would’ve been the best big brother.” She kissed the side of his head, and left as they were procuring the heart for Huston, she couldn’t bear to listen to the flatline.

#amelia shepherd #greys anatomy #greysabc #greys fanfic #scout lincoln #scout derek shepherd lincoln #nick marsh #meredith grey #zola shepherd #unicorn baby #christopher shepherd