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#situation is so bad rn bro like i cant get my parents to take me out to drive and i cant get myself to get my parents to take me out to
pepprs · 7 months
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ok. giving myself 4 minutes to make this post and then i finish my homework. i just am so deeply miserable. i really think i made a mistake. i should not be in grad school. i only took a year between this and undergrad and i am still so burned out and mentally ill. im working full time. im only taking one class and this program is supposed to be so good and aligned with what i want and all of that. but i just cant stand having homework. i just cant stand it. i think i am not cut out for academia even though i work in academia. i think i will never get better as long as im still living at home but i have to get better before i can no longer be living at home but i cant get better until im not living at home and every day i still live at home saps away at my will to live quite literally. i should not have started doing grad school without regaining my will to live. without restoring my love for reading and writing that i used to have voraciously when i was younger and less deeply miserable. without recovering from the burnout. i think i made a mistake. i need a masters degree so bad so that i can be safe but i need to not have fucking homework when i already struggle to get through my days without school. i feel so stuck in my life and hopeless and helpless. i dont know what to do
#purrs#i cant drop out or anything because. lol and this class isnt even that big of a deal like i TRULY am freaking out over nothing. but my life#situation is so bad rn bro like i cant get my parents to take me out to drive and i cant get myself to get my parents to take me out to#drive and every day i am guilt tripped berated etc etc and i feel like i am never ever ever going to be able to have my own life where i a#stable and safe and happy. it can happen for other people except for me and my siblings. i dont know. im not explaining anything well.#i just cant do this. i need to not have this one more thing on my plate but i have to because if i dont have a masters degree in my field i#am nothing even though everyone is telling me that isnt true and all of them are credible but im just so mentally ill i cant believe anyone#and icant accept any advice or hope or whatever good about me i just. am stuck. this is as good as it gets and its not even good.#delete later#that was 7 minutes not 4 and i didnt even write anything substantial. nutshell. i just have been so fucking depressed lately oh my goddddd#this is maybe too strong of a thing to say but like. i know it isnt technically neglect if i am an adult but... i think i may kind of be#neglected by my family in some ways a little bit and always have been but like. emotionally. like in the ways in which im never a priority#and the things i need are seen as burdens etc etc. and theres nothing anyone can do about it even myself because im an adult but like lol.#24 year old dependent moment <3#well there is one thing i can do about it as an adult actually. its called move out. but that requires strength i will#never possess unfortunately due to the inherent flaws in my character and constitution so. guess this is it lawl 🥰#side note (and i swear im done after this lol): i think i was doing a lot better mentally over the summer. funny how when the semester#starts i get depressed and the depression just gets worse and worse until the end of the semester 😻 funny how this is my seventh year like#this. willingly subjecting myself to this. that should be a clue no? but i love my job and if i could just have my job and be stable in it#would be happier but also im lying to mysaelf and i will always be unhappy but its because of my mental illness not my job being bad or#anything its like. i am just sick in the head with impostor syndrome and thats how i got myself into this whole mess. lol#well that and the not moving out thing which is partially my fault but also because i live in hell as described earlier! <3
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liamiya · 3 years
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i love my jjk insert so much 🥲
SO! he’s a good boy! he’s a nice good boy!! he has green hair cuz i want green hair but no access to good dye ToT and brown eyes likes me! he also has glasses like mine, but wears contacts for missions so he doesn’t have to worry about them!!
his technique is actually kinda complicated so get settled: i call it judgement. it’s a shikigami technique, and it channels through his tattoos! the dragon tattoo on his right arm is named justice: when he calls her name, she comes out of the tattoo! the more cursed energy he pours into her, the bigger she is and the more damage she does! except justice doesn’t do damage, she judges a person solely on their character, and if they’re a good person, she’ll help and heal them, but if they’re a bad person, she’ll just leave them alone (but she can stop cursed spirits from regenerating!). the dragon tattoo on her left arm is redemption, and she does the damage. she’s incredibly vicious towards people with bad character, and incredibly affectionate to people with good character!! if dexter passes out or falls asleep, they’ll both be pulled back into the tattoos. whenever any of the dragons gets pulled back into their tattoo, any damage they took gets mirrored onto dexter. if they ‘die,’ they’ll be forced back into the tattoos, and it has the chance to put dexter into a coma. those usually last 2-4 days.
there’s only one more dragon, on dexter’s back: mercy. mercy is... tough to deal with. dexter tries to keep justice and redemption out in small forms as much as he can, so he gets used to the constant output and he’s always ready to fight. he tried to do so with mercy at first, but he got aggressive quickly. mercy doesn’t judge on character, mercy judges on what moves. the first time, he took a chunk out of justice’s back before dexter could stop him. the chunk never went away, and wasn’t mirrored on dexter, which leads him to believe that the dragons can hurt each other permanently. because of this, he never uses mercy. if he does, his options are to not let mercy get hurt, take the damage on himself, or possibly let justice and redemption die for good. mercy is a last resort: not like fushiguro’s elephant, more like sukuna. he will literally never use mercy unless it’s a life-or-death situation.
dexter’s parents are dead 💀 but he has a little brother! his baby bro can’t see curses, and dexter can’t really live with him, he has to stay at the college, so his younger brother stays with a foster family and dexter visits and makes sure they’re treating him well whenever he can.
honestly i haven’t really though ab his preferences much? obviously he dumps for everyone around him like me, but like who would he actually be with? idk
istg if todo asks dex what his type is dex is that bitch that’ll go “tall guys who would spit in my mouth” half because it’s true and half because it makes everyone else uncomfortable (yes i am talking about myself fuck off /j)
anyway. my boy. my baby. i love him. now tell me an yourrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrs
me: BRO HE B LOOKING LIKE A CHARACTER THAT I DONT REMEMBER THE NAME RN BUT TRUST ME ITS SO COOL
I love dragons, so i REALLY liked the power!! i think that the addition (lets pretend i didnt rewrite this word 5 times) of mercy can lead to so much drama, so i love it, we all love it
ALSO HE IS SUCH A BAD BITCH THO, I MEAN, THE SMOL BRO ALREADY MEANS BAD BITCH ENERGY CUZ ALL OLDER SIBLINGS R BAD BITCHES, AND THE RESPONSE TO TODO LMAO AKLJKLJASJKLASKJDKLSA honestly i cant judge him AND i would even add a "my type is you if you spit in my mouth" cuz then it would b so much more uncomfortable and strange for everyone
imma just go pick up my sis at school and when i come back imma slide in ur inbox with my self-insert!!! (prepare for a lot of stuff cuz god....... i wrote so much stuff for her)
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wongiemei · 4 years
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Roommate!Jeno
a/n: maybe i should just turn this blog into an nct dream one
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okay
letsgetit!
first of all,
story time!
your uni is fucking expensive and it’s more expensive if you live in the grounds
so you being the wise human,
you went to get an apartment near the campus
it was great and all since roommate!jaemin was paying for his stuff
you were both living respectively until he had to leave
the dumbass didnt even bother to tell you
one morning you just woke up and found his note
‘hey bitch! figured you were too much of a rock to wake up but i moved out! the family wants me to go back home and tend the restaurant’
the whole day yesterday, you were working
bc,,, yknow
broke college life
and you just walked in half asleep towards your room and fell asleep
so you didnt really see or notice
but were you freaking out bc your roommate suddenly moved out?
ofc you were freaking out
not only was your roommate gone,
how were you going to find a new one?!
jaemin expected your phone call that afternoon and he endured through all your screaming
‘babe, i’m just going to be gone for a year-or two’
‘oR tWO?!’
‘hun, my dad’s injured and his back can only let him do so much. ma’s working too much and i dont have any siblings to help. i figured i could just hold off college until my parents are ready’
ugh, jaemin is such a family boy
‘but jaems! you couldnt have at least told me that yOu wERe mOvING OuT?! and! rent is due soon! i can’t pay for that myself!’
jaemin couldve easily told you to warn yoy
but he didn’t want to tell you bc he couldnt handle you sad and didnt want to upset you
however, now jaemin really understands how shitty that move was
‘tell you what. i’ll pay for this month and make a few phone calls and i’ll get you set up with a new roommate, deal?’
knowing how much of a social butterfly he was, you agreed
ofc you trusted jaemin but part of you feared that he might pair you up with a freak
but he’s not that mean, is he?
you can definitely see renjun doing that but not jaemin
so there you are,,
sitting on your couch alone
without jaemin, your apartment felt really empty
its been a few days since he moved and you were miserable
jaemin hasn’t even texted you about that potential roommate
just as you were about to call him,,
your doorbell rang
you froze and you looked at the time
it was nearing 11 at night and you don’t remember ordering delivery
see,,
if jaemin was here,
he would answer it for you since you would be too scared to do it
but you mustered up your courage and peeped through the peep hole
the man was dressed in all black with a black mask and a black cap with his hood over it with a black hoodie and black pants
ngl, you were terrified and trembling
he rang it again and you jumped
typing out a quick text to jaemin saying ‘hey bub, if i don’t text you in an hour, that means ive been kidnapped so call the police’
you grabbed a pan from the cupboard and gulped before you opened the door
thinking he would just walk forward and grab you, you closed your eyes and raised your pan over your head and swung
a shriek from in front of you made your eyes snap open and found the guy on the floor with a fetal position
you both just froze for like a phat minute
snapping back to reality, you held the pan in front of you
‘if youre going to kidnap me, i got a pan and im not afraid to hit you with it!’
you tried to sound intimidating but your voice was shaking so much
the guy stood up and he took off his hat and the mask to reveal a blonde haired kid
okay, so you were sHOokETh
damn! this boy is fine!
he gave you a shaky smile and held out his hand
‘hi! i’m lee jeno! you must be y/n? jaemin told me you had an opening for a roommate?’
now you noticed the two duffle bags at the side
the embaressment and the shame settled in slowly and you found yourself burning up
nodding, you motioned him to come in
jeno awkwardly walked in and was amazed at how big the layout was with the low rent
‘yea, its kinda hard to believe that we only pay that much. at first i thought there was a ghost in here and that’s why its so cheap’
you tried to make small conversation but laughed weirdly at jeno’s slightly terrified face
‘no! there really is not ghost here! ive lived here for a year and there hasnt been anything so please dont understand! please be my roommate!’
you begged and jeno thought you were weird
but jaemin was right, you were weirdly adorable in a way
so that’s how you and jeno became apartment buddies!
now onto the good stuff!
so, jeno is a vv clean guy
like he’s the type to just pick up a wrapper in the street and throw it in the garbage
so naturally, he likes to keep the apartment as tidy and neat as possible
but you being a mess you are,
you usually leave a lot of things everywhere
lets just say you have a short memory
‘oh? how did that get there?’
eventually, jeno gets sick of it and he confronts you with it
ofc you understand and you actually try to be better
since jeno is literally the most perfect roommate
maybe even better than jaemin
(but don’t tell him that)
jeno is the type to re-stock the pantry with snacks and the fridge with ice cream
since youre both college students, ramen is practically always available in the house 24/7
he also makes the coffee every morning since he works early and wakes up first
even though he doesn’t like the drink and prefers milk, he still notices how you survive off of coffee
babie likes to pick you up some iced americano while he gets a frappe
you on the other hand,,
you’re very surprised
when you got to bed after showing jeno around,
you messaged jaemin
ofc he was worried af and was blowing up your phone
‘WHAT?!’
‘bitch answer the damn phone!’
‘whatthe fuck is happening?!’
‘i need to know if you’re still alive!’
‘oh fuck i shouldnt have moved out’
smiling softly at how worried he was, you responded to him
‘you hoe, it hasnt been an hour yet so chillax. i’m alive, unfortunately, and i just met my new roommate. again, thanks for the heads-up. youre so bad at those. i literally thought he was a burgular or a kidnapper. but he seems chill and emo. just my type.’
but jeno is F A R from C H I L L
oh my goodness,,
hes a crackhead
theres this sound he makes when he’s confused and you couldnt figure out if its cute or weird or if he’s doing this on purpose or thats just how he is
you and him basically communicate with memes
sometimes, at the weird hours at night, he sends you a dumbass meme
you cant help but snort 
also, you promised to take jaemin out to dinner to repay him for the great roommate
‘hes literally one of the best people youll ever meet. it just so happen he needed a place to sleep. now you owe me’
hes a science major while you were a computer major
he basically brings home weird stuff to analyze and it just hella stinks
but hes considerate enough to actually put it outside
whenever he’s focused, he talks to himself or the thing he’s analyzing
‘okay mr. fishy. your scales are really big and its bigger than average’
its so cute
oof also!
jeno doesnt have a job yet he always makes rent on time with extra money to spare
he even sometimes buys you stuff saying, ‘they reminded me of you’
for your birthday, he bought you a pearl necklace that mustve costed thousands
at first, you thought he was a chaebol or smth
which you wouldve been vv jealous of bc youre a struggling college student who works at the coffee shop
but, you were answered when you caught him walking in half-dazed and half-asleep with cuts all over his face
it was like 2 in the morning and you were pulling an all-nighter for some project and wanted to get a glass of water
but here he is, hood up, lip busted, black eye, cheek cut
you shrieked and ushered him to sit on the dining chair
thinking he got mugged or something, you start drilling him questions
‘hun, if you were beat up, we need to call the police! this is illegal!’
but jeno chuckles and brushes the stray hairs out of your face as you tend to his lip
‘pls dont. if you do, ill be broke and i wont have money to pay rent then i cant be your roommate anymore’
cue confused y/n
‘wUT?’
‘if i dont make money, youll kick me out and youll have to find another roommate. i dont want you to go through that hassle again’
ofc you were flattered that even during this situation, hes still thinking about you
‘how is this making money?!’
‘i cant believe youre oblivious to so many things. i thought for sure youve caught on.’
more confusion
‘eXCUse mE, lEE JEno? since when have you started coming home with all these things in your face?’
you were worried that this wasnt the first time this happened
but if you think hard about it, thats why he always wears his mouth masks and he always has his blonde fringe down and sometimes wears sunglasses even though its cloudy outside
‘ohmygod lee jeno are you in a gang?!’
jeno was shocked that you came to that conclusion but laughed at how adorable you were rn
with your wide eyes and mouth open
‘nah, bro. i box. its the only way i can make easy money.’
‘but,,, why did you hide this from me? if you needed money i couldve helped you’
he looked at you skeptically
‘sis, you could barely afford that muffin the other day’
lee jeno now looked different from the jeno you met the first day
What you thought to be an innocent little squish was a fighter at night
‘yah, can-um-you need to take this off’
you mumbled while tugging on his sweatshirt
he nodded and slipped it off
he explained why he came late when he first moved
‘i had a late night match and yknow,, school and all, i barely had enough time to come'
as you dab the wound, you try to make small talk to distract yourself
 ‘so,, youve been boxing this whole time?’
you asked, trying not to get distracted to the way his tight shirt clung to him, showing his defined body
there were bruises up and down his arms and his knuckles were busted
‘yea. i have been since senior high. gotta make money, yknow?’
‘but jen, you can work in coffee shops or at local bookstores. its not worth seeing you busted up like this’
your lips trembled at the thought of him being beaten up too hard to the point he gets into a coma
jenos eyes widened at your wobbling lips and he softly cupped your face
‘hey, im okay and ill be fine. you dont have to worry about me. i usually win, anyways’
his confidence made you chuckle
‘i trust you, lee jeno. just make sure to make it home to me every night.’
‘i know you do and i will. always.”
ever since then,
youve become his little caretaker
youve informed jaemin of what hes been doing and he knew but didnt want you to judge him immediately
smh, jaemin really sucks at informing people
but jeno tries to help you keep up
he even sends you texts that hes fighting that night and your little ‘fighting!’ always makes him smile
his manager and friend, chenle, noticed that hes starting to smile more
chenle likes boxing and wants to be a part of it but doesnt want to be hurt
so,, what better to be the manager of his friend
‘yah, hyung. what’s got you giggly today?’
jeno pointed to the screen and giggled at the little good luck gif you sent
his eyes turned to crescents and chenle smirked
‘wah, you like her, don’t you?’
at the mention of ‘like’, his smile dropped and he shook his head
‘no. of course not. shes just a friend.’
chenle being chenle,,
he continues to prod
‘okay. so every night, you make it your priority to make sure you’re home by 2 in the morning for your friend’
smh, chenle youre so annoying
but hes so right
ever since you caught him,
hes been making sure he gets home at the same time 
he sends you a text that hes on his way and you set your ringtone at a very high volume so you wake up and take care of him
during fights, he makes it his sole mission to make out of this alive and a winner for you
but that never crossed his mind as his feelings for you
he just thought of it as making you not worry for him
but then, he starts to think about your stupid little habits
the way you make this face whenever you dont understand
or when you still leave little post-it notes everywhere with ideas you come up with
he noticed it all and he loves them
‘hOLy ShIT!’
that night was when he realized his feelings for you and he was so dedicated on finishing it that he quickly won and he dashed home with his money
bursting through the door, you looked at him with wide and startled eyes
‘what’s wrong?’
you came running but he scooped you up to a hug
ok you were confused but relieved that he was home and alright
jeno looked at your face and wanted to confess but chickened out at the sight of you
you were so good to him and honestly, he doesnt deserve you
(his thoughts, not mine)
‘i-i’
he stuttered and you motioned him to continue
‘i won!’
he shouted and you congratulated him, even though he literally won all the time
guiding him to the chair, you began to dab his cuts
(dab that bitch)
‘im starting to think that your opponents either really suck or youre like the god of boxing’
he didnt know how to take that but blushed red at the mention of him being a ‘god of boxing’
‘nah, im just good’
you eyed him and smiled
he continued to watch you heal him and inspected your face
heavy eyebags and sunken cheeks, it mustve been a long night
he felt a pang in his chest thinking that you push your stuff away just to help him
‘you dont have to keep doing this for me, yknow’
you halt and look at him seriously
‘i know i dont. but i cant sleep at night thinking youre in pain and alone when i can be there for you’
even though he just realized it, jeno was pretty sure he fell in love with you a long time ago
but if it was possible, he fell in love with you even more
‘thank you’
his soft voice filled the silence and you vowed that you will always be there for him whenever he needs help
a few days later, jeno hasnt been to a fight
sure you were worried at what was going on in his head but partly relieved that you dont have to see him so battered anymore
but this was so un-jeno
just as you were about to talk to him about it, he announces he got a job at the bookstore down the street
‘huh? i thought you didnt want to work’
you question while he looked sheepish
‘i realized that i was starting to become a burden since you take care of me every time. so i thought i should quit and get a regular job. besides, it doesnt hurt as much’
he laughed but you didnt react
‘lee jeno, you gave up boxing and the money,,, for me?’
he nervously looked up at you and you noticed the redness of his cheeks
‘i-well-if you put it that way’
‘listen to me, im flattered and i truly love that you dont want to get beaten up anymore. but i dont want you to quit something you like because of me'
‘but you always take care of me and push your priorities away to clean me up. i dont do anything in return and i dont think its fair!’
he argued and a soft smile crept up your face
‘yah, lee jeno'
your voice became a whisper
‘it doesnt matter to me if you dont do anything in return bc i dont see this as a favor. you are mine to take care of and i will do anything for you, you understand that?’
he looked at you in shock after hearing your response
he also turned red at the mention of him being yours
‘so-but-i dont think-'
he stutters but you place your hands on his arms making him stop
‘all i ask is you to come back home, to come back to me'
by now, yall were blushing
even though it might not sound like it,
but yall just indirectly confessed to each other
yall stared at the ground and jeno looks up, biting his lip
‘hey, y/n, can i make it up to you with some coffee?’
your head darted up and looked at him with wide eyes
‘like-like a date?’
it came out suddenly and you stepped back in surprise, cursing yourself
but jeno chuckled, eyes scrunching cutely
‘it'll be one of many'
lmao i didnt really like this but i made it at 2 in the morning and i kinda like boxer!jeno
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myheart-elsewhere · 6 years
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im bored pt3 || 11/22/17
1. Do you bite or lick ice cream? lick
2. What is home to you? i havent yet figured that out
3. What was the last lie you told? that i was doing great lol
4. Does everyone deserve the truth? for the most part
5. What is the creepiest toy ever made? there are hella creepy toys tbh
6. Describe a moment in which you did something unacceptable in a bad situation. most the shit i do is unacceptable but its whatever.
7. List two things that are more easily done than said. (No, I didn’t mix them up.)  1: using a cell phone bc it can be hard to teach adults how to use them lol. 2: seeing a color vs describing it
8. When was the last time you worked really hard to achieve something? probably in school idk
9. How many all nighters have you pulled? over 15..
10. If humans didn’t evolve to laugh or smile, how would we express our happiness instead? talking excitedly about what made us happy
11. How many romantic “things” or “flings” have you had? depends on how serious you mean, so between 2 and 5.
12. What is your paradise? lisetning to music
13. What is your favorite background noise? (Ex. Water dripping, people talking.) i like the sound of nails tapping on something
14. How many hearts do you think you have broken? hopefully none
15. What is the most important thing about electronics? you can stay in touch with loved ones. 
16. Why do people care about celebrities? Do you care about celebrities? oh jesus here we go. first off, yes- i care about quite a few celebrities. they can make us feel a happiness like no other. if you’re having a bad day, all you need is to hear their voice and the pain goes away. they speak on things that are important and meaningful. they can be our inspirations and role models. when they have a new interview, song (or movie or something else.. whatever your favorite celebrity does) it always gives us something to look forward to. they make you feel less alone. they make you feel loved. i could keep going on but i have 134 more questions..
17. What is the most annoying thing someone can do to you? make plans then cancel last minute.
18. Do you overexaggerate? What are the pros and cons of this? at times, but rarely. pros: it helps get your point across. cons: it can be annoying idk
19. Have you played any instruments before? Which instruments? guitar and piano
20. Do you like taking selfies? Why or why not? if im wearing makeup, yes. i dont have a good reason except that i like my makeup lol
21. List 3 things you like about yourself? im loving, forgiving, and supportive.
22. What is the best advice someone has ever given you? “be yourself”
23. Do you have what it takes to raise a child? Why or why not? currently, probably not.. im basically still a child myself.
24. How do you cheer yourself up after a bad day? listen to 5h
25. When was the last time you felt awkward? today at work
26. Are you introverted or extroverted? Or a mixture of both? i can be both depending on the situation or social setting
27. What constitutes a good friend? them being there for you when you need them, being supportive in everything you do, and loving you unconditionally.
28. Would you rather have a lot of friends to hang out with or just one best friend? my one best friend. i miss her.
29. In a regular day, what do you not want to hear? “do your homework.”
30. What is your dream job? movie director
31. Is it better to be lazy but smart or hardworking but unintelligent? hardworking bc at least you’re trying.
32. What is a truth about yourself that others find hard to believe? some people are shocked that im gay
33. What have you always wondered about the other gender? why men can treat girls like items and/or their property and just throw them away when theyre done..
34. Which fantasy world would you like to visit the most? hm idk
35. Describe the worst friend you have ever befriended. theres been a few but the first one who comes to mind is this girl who talked about herself 24/7 and didnt care about anyone except for herself.
36. Imagine that you have switched bodies with someone you don’t know. You can’t switch back. What do you do? try to figure out life and probably cry lol
37. If you found the recipe for immortality, would you sell it or would you burn it? can i do both?
38. What is the most important, applicable class you have ever taken? school doesnt teach important classes lmfao
39. Name the last book you read. “trials and tribulations” 
40. Imagine that you are unable to express emotion. How would this affect your world? i would feel empty..
41. When was the last time you made the first move? about a month in a half ago
42. What is your opinion on electronic music such as dubstep or trap? i love it
43. What was the last movie you watched? i dont remember bc i rarely watch movies
44. Do you like and appreciate your life? sometimes
45. Do you like and appreciate yourself? sometimes
46. When was the last time you cried? last night
47. What are you scared of? mostly irrational things
48. What is the most embarrassing, cringe-worthy thing you have ever done? let’s not talk about that lol
49. What are some of your hobbies? reading, listening to music, doing my makeup, social media, and fangirling lol
50. What is a superficial yet annoying mistake you constantly make? idk bc im stupid and dont understand what superficial means lol
51. Are you a good friend? What makes you a good friend? If not, what makes you a bad friend? i think im a good friend bc i always put others before myself and i do anything and everything i can to make them happy. and im always there for them.
52. Do you honestly learn from your mistakes? sometimes
53. What have you learned the hard way? how to lose someone you love
54. What is the most important thing to have in order to attain happiness? not rely on others to be your happiness
55. Which medium do you use for expressing your artistic emotions? (Singing, writing, etc.) writing for sure
56. Are you a creative or a logical thinker? both
57. What is the smartest thing you have ever done? smart moments are rare for me
58. What is your ideal meal? steak and potatoes mmmmm
59. What is the worst thing someone could do on a date? be on their phone
60. Do you like animals? Which kind is your favorite? i love animals, specifially dogs
61. If you could turn one legal thing illegal, what would it be? stealing 
62. Do you have any guilty pleasures? si
63. What is the best thing that the internet has ever created? youtube
64. Do you like playing video games? Which video games? supermario lol
65. What is your opinion on beauty in today’s society? everyone views it differently. in my personal opinion, ever since the word “thick” got popular around 2 years ago, more people are apprecating that and not focusing on being “super model thin” which i think is great.
66. Are you a morning person? When do you usually wake up? hell nah. if i have school, around 6am. if i dont have school, around 10am
67. Do you have a favorite Disney movie? Character? HERCULES!!!!!! meg
68. Would you rather live in the city or in the countryside? def city
69. Would you rather live near the ocean or in the mountains? either or
70. What are the best things about winter? COOL WEATHER
71. What scares you most about the future? idk what it holds
72. What makes you feel old? when i realize HSM came out over 10 years ago.
73. How many hours do you spend on the computer or phone on average? too many
74. What are some of your New Year’s resolutions? havent even thought about it bc they never happen lol
75. What is your life story in 6 words? i am really really gay bro
76. Describe yourself in one word. fangirl
77. What bad habits do you do? give out too many chances
78. What genre of music do you listen to? mostly pop, but i listen to a lot of different genres
79. Most prominent childhood memory? getting doughnuts with my dad every saturday mornning
80. Imagine if you had an older brother. If you already have one, what is it like? If you don’t, how would this change your life? i have a brother who is 20 years older than me. he lived in ohio and right after i was born my parents and i moved to florida. i only get to see him like once a year. it’s really sad. i think of him more as a distant uncle than a brother. but he always has done everything he can to make me happy and i appreciate that so much.
81. Spirit animal? jaguar
82. Do you believe in horoscopes? not really
83. What is the worst advice you’ve ever been given? ive been given so much bad advice i cant pick one specific thing lol
84. List the 3 most important people in your life right now. my best friend liv, my aunt lori, and lauren jauregui
85. Favorite memory of your family. being in ohio this past summer staying up til 2am with my parents, my brother and his fiance just telling stories and laughing our asses off.
86. What do you look for in a relationship? affection
87. Do you have a role model? Why or why not? yes, lauren jauregui. i love everything she stands for.
88. What is your opinion on social media? i love it. it’s what keeps you close with family/friends who live in different states or countries for that matter.
89. Are you a pessimist or an optimist? both, but im mostly optimisitic.. well i try to be at least
90. List some things that you think are overpriced? CONCERT TICKETS
91. What is your worst memory or creepiest experience? getting lost outside in the middle of n where after jingle ball 2015
92. What superpower would ruin the world? reading peoples minds tbh
93. What is something you swore you would never do when you grew up, but you did anyway? smoke
94. What lessons have you learned from movies and which movies were they? i cant think of any rn
95. If you could travel anywhere, where would you go? ohio to see my family
96. How do you approach people? i.. just.. do..
97. What is your opinion on first impressions? sometimes they change
98. What are some things you did as a child that you no longer do? bite my nails
99. What languages can you speak? english and quite a bit of spanish
100. What do you think society will be like in 30 years? who knows
101. What do you do on your lazy days? lay in my pjs, play on my phone and listen to music
102. What ended your last relationship? it wasnt an actual relationship, but she couldnt make up her goddamn mind and she wanted to be a fuckgirl
103. Favorite food? sushi and steak
104. What is the most terrifying dream you’ve ever had? oooo lets not talk about that..
105. When was the last time you got seriously angry? 3 days  ago
106. What was the last friendship you broke? one of my “best friends” bc she didnt like that i was friends with someone she didnt like
107. Do you have any pet peeves? people chewing with their mouth open
108. Who was the last person you gave a hug to? my papa
109. When was the last time you got seriously stressed? last week
110. What part of your personality do you want to change? that i procrasinate everything
111. Who is the most positively influential person in your life right now? lauren jauregui
112. What is your biggest motivation? my best friend
113. What did you want to be when you were little? a veternarian lol
114. What are some things that you are good at? makeup
115. What is one thing you want to be good at? singing lol
116. What distracts you the most, especially when you’re trying to work? probably my phone although i don’t want to admit it lol
117. How important is privacy to you? pretty important.. but it depends on who we want privacy from
118. If you could create one social norm, what would it be? everyone being nice to each other
119. What’s the craziest lie you’ve ever told? i trust no one so that stays to myself for my own well-being
120. What story do you like to tell about yourself at parties? i dont go to parties
121. What is the lamest thing that you have seen someone do? show off on a skateboard lmao
122. What is the stupidest thing you’ve done to impress someone? told them i have a pt cruiser but thats not even a nice car lmao
123. What is your morning routine? on a typical school day: wake up, check my phone, do my hair/makeup, get dressed, eat then leave.
124. What’s the last thing you did that is worth remembering? made a good sale at work today and it was my first day of my first job.
125. If karma was coming back to you, would it help or hurt you? both but mostly help me.
126. What is your opinion on playing “hard to get?” its stupid
127. What are the pros and cons of straightforward? pros: you dont have to be afriad of not being honest. cons: it could make someone really mad at you.
128. What do you consider “leading” someone on? telling them you like them and consistenly flirting with them.
129. Are you the friendzoner or the friendzoned? both
130. What do you admire most about your friends? they try to make me happy
131. What do you admire most about your family? they want the best for me
132. What is your opinion on “going with the flow?” ehh stand out, be different
133. Do you enjoy talking or listening? i enjoy talking, but i almost always listen
134. When is it time to end a friendship? when they become a selfish little bitch
135. What is the worst excuse you’ve ever come up with? the excuses i make up to get out of going to school
136. If GPA didn’t matter, what courses would you have taken? idk im not interested in school
137. What are your favorite baby names? paris
138. When was the last time you had a deep conversation with someone? few days ago
139. What instantly ruins a conversation? checking your phone
140. Biggest turn ons and turn on offs. turn ons: confidence (but not cockiness), being outgoing, being able to have a conversation, and a good fashion sense (fashion sense in my opinion haha). cons: ooo being conceited and only talking about yourself.
141. Biggest disappointment. me lmao
142. Do you have any self-restraint? i do.
143. When did you last do something outside of your comfort zone? last week
144. Prized possession(s)? honestly, my phone. and a bracelet my best friend gave me,
145. What is your opinion on second chances? most people deserve it.
146. Text or call? depends on the person tbh
147. What do you like about the 21st century? it has social media
148. What advice would you give to yourself 5 years ago? stay strong, babygirl. youre gonna go through a lot in the next 5 years, but you need to be strong and know you will fight through it all and come out stronger than you were before. nothing is what it seems. nothing lasts forever. expect the least and you’ll get the best. and remember, a smooth sea never made a skilled sailor.
149. How organized are you? too organized. 
150. Favorite mode of transportation. car
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puxksirius · 7 years
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11 Questions Tag!
i was tagged by @regulus-blxck, thank you so much ive never been tagged in anything like this in fandom before!!!!
rules: answer 11 questions, tag 11 people, and write 11 of your own questions
1. What was your first fandom? supernatural was the first fandom i got into, before that i didnt realise there were online followings of media
2. If you had a career in politics, which issues would you be most invested in? hooo boyyyy uh i guess if it had to be a single topic i would say social inequality, especially focusing on the economic and social factors contributing to the inequality. like that’s more important to me than dismantling capitalism, altho i feel like they are at least partially dependant on one another (sjfhsd im a politics student srry for the weird answer)
3. Which language would you like to learn? i really want to learn BSL! aside from that, probably spanish or german
4. What’s your favourite thing about your favourite holidays? i love the routine of christmas and how tradition heavy it is!!! and how goddamn happy i can be abt it
5. What’s the most interesting or unique tradition you have with your family or friends? im not sure, so i’ll list a few. everytime im talking to my best friend past midnight we tell each other “happy tofuckingmorrow” like we have since we were 14. me and another friend yell super loudly this song we got taught in church as children that goes “crucify! crucify! jesus is the one to die” because it was such a weird thing to be taught by a vicar. before my aunt comes round, my family takes turns guessing what backhanded compliments she’s gonna say, and when she actually does say them we high five w/o her realising.
6. Which book do you wish everyone could read? the unwind dystology by neil shusterman is underrated and offers some rly nice views on humanity that shaped me as a young teen. same goes for the burn trilogy by juliana baggott
7. Have you got a favourite pair of socks? i love my christmas socks im wearing them rn even tho its august
8. Do you plan ahead or are you more of a spontaneous person? hgjfkfgd i wish i was more spontanious but my autistic ass would combust, but at the same time im impulsive and cant plan for shit so i do end up being impulsive when i have enough spoons or the right company
9. Describe your dream house. big. theres at least 6 bedrooms, and at least that many people living there. ideally, a bunch of adults who all love each other (some platonically, some romantically) and we can raise kids together with love and support and more than just 2 parental figures. id have lots of space to do my impulsive arty things, and lots of hiding crevices for me to cram myself into. i like the idea of a balcony that overlooks a living area. lots of light. some walls covered by art that i like or made by people i love
10. What was the best decision you’ve made in your life? leaving my secondary school to go to a separate college rather than staying on in that hellhole for sixth form
11. Are you more intrigued by the past or the future? thats such an interesting question! im not sure. i like to fantasise and im excited about the future and whatever it holds, but im hung up on the past and obsess over it. im fascinated by how the past makes people who they are now, and i hate the idea of time progressing, so i guess the past
My questions:
what’s your favourite ice cream flavour?
who did you main on mario kart/super smash bros/similar games?
whats the story that people who know you love to tell about you?
who is your favourite author and why?
do you project onto your favourite characters, or maintain that they must be Nothing like you?
do you have a song that you get intense late-night cravings to listen to?
if you could have one magical ability, what would it be?
you know how when frogs are on lilypads, and a leaf has a single corner bite into it, ur like Yeah thats Right! what’s the respectively Right situation of that for you?
what ordinary task are you surprisingly bad at?
where in the world would you like to visit?
where would you like to visit if the laws of physics and reality were irrelevant?
People I’m tagging:
(i’m pretty insecure and feel like people will get annoyed about me tagging them, but im gonna be brave and tag ppl who’s blogs i love anyway. feel free to ignore this ofc)
@of-padfoots-and-moonys @the-wizard-and-the-hoping-pot @wereflamingo @nblesbiansirius @punkaspadfoot @nachodiablo @ryanthedemiboy @wahahahano @punkrockprofessor and aaaa ok thats as many ppl as i can tag
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