#so i havent been talking to a lot of people

[lightnersdream]

#WHY DOES IT ALL HAVE TO BE SO MUCH #i don't usually get like this. im usually a kind of person that just lets stuff happen around me and not care a lot in terms of like social #behavior and relationships #you meet people. sometimes they go #that's how it is #there's people that we just drifted away or they vanished and it wasn't hard feelings #and normally i get over it. i miss them alot but it doesnt hit me this hard #and the thing is i haven't even lost anyone #it's just ive been so angry and low energy and pissed off by everything all the time that ive been distancing myself #and even when im not like that.. im just tired. my brain is clouded i just don't have anything to say #i want to say something but there isnt anything #so i havent been talking to a lot of people #and im like really afraid by the time im done working over whatever this is. that people will have found more other people they #prefer to talk to more or are closer with or we just find out its been too long and we dont have anything in common anymore #because i know ive been away from my friends more and more of late of late ive barely talked to anyone at all beyond 1-2 message exchanges #sometimes not at all .this isn't abnormal #but i happen to the kind of person who crumples if i don't get some kind of interaction daily #so as much as im empty-headed and angry and bad at conversation i need to be around people constantly #at the end of the day i don't have anything going on outside of drawing and talking to friends. i have nowhere to be in real life #i cant go anywhere. i don't know anyone and i hate my family #i don't know. im scared and lonely and it feels like i can be kind of a nothing person to talk to #dib noise #some of this is problems with myself which i do work on and i work on them hard. i don't want to be like that #i'm bad at meeting people too. i don't like taking risks or new things its all so much #I SHOULD CLARIFY. i am happy for poeple i am close to when they meet new people. i love hearing about them #and meeting them. i just have a horrible fear of being replaced or forgotten

[icewindandboringhorror]

I know this is just a silly bad quality random screencap of a screencap that I found on facebook lol, BUT it's a succinct enough image to easily describe the concept in a quick/accessible way hopefully :

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(and of course, feel free to elaborate in tags, etc.! (especially elaborating about other senses as well.. can you "hear" in your mind just as well as you can "see"? taste? etc.) It's an interesting topic to me, as someone who's like a 4.5 at MOST lol. I'm curious what option will be the most common :0c )

#tumblr polls #hrmm... a little poll perhaps.. about a subject I find interesting.. since this image came across my facebook today #still really not feeling that well. no longer shaking violently and such but I still feel weird and weak much more than usual #They did say my markers for like infection or inflammation were elevated but that they werent sure of the cause so hopefully #it's nothing too serious. they did also say a lot of different things can cause that thing to be higher than normal but didn't go into spec #fics of what. maybe some of them are relatively benign or something. I still havent felt much back to normal since #I got really sick that one time though. I feel fine on and off but then little bouts of feeling weird and sick happen. hrmmm #ANYWAY.. looking for small ways to be productive. such as little doodles on evil ipad or editing game videos #or posting polls or cat pictures or some other like not very labor intensive things #I WISH I COULD FOCUS on writing HHRGGhh... I need to finish my game.. it would be so freeing.. a project that's been looming #over my head for like 5 years even though througouht that 5yrs I've probably spent a total of 3 months working on it lo.. ANYWAY #I still partially really cannot beleive that people CAN see stuff in their heads. There's always part of me that's thinking like. well mayb #e everyone DOES see the same exact thing but we just describe/conceptualize it so differently that we think we're talking about #different things when we're really not. But I have been assured by people I've talked to about it that they can GENUINELY really see #stuff in their heads like as vivid as an actual picture in real life or something. And the other senses are neat too. Like for exmaple I #can hear in my head much better than I can see imagery. I still CANNOT hear vividly like as if I were listening to actual music out loud.. #but I think it's developed more than my sight. AND interesting how this varies the creative process. a friend I was talking to on the phone #said they write by literally just watching stuff play before them like a movie. where my process is COMPLETELY different. AND that affects #the content/what details we focus on as well as our individual styles of writing have differences that can be traced back to that.. hrmm

[hella1975]

all hate to tiktok for taking 'having a space to more openly and actively talk about different cultures' to mean 'cultures are NOT to be shared and we must be vigilantly defensive of our cultures for fear of appropriation, a word that can be applied to any multicultural interaction'. like of course cultural appropriation is a very real problem but ive seen with the access to global multicultural conversation that tiktok provides it's made people TERRIFIED to even interact with cultures other than their own for fear of 'doing it wrong'. like at some point you have to acknowledge that in the real world of the great outdoors, the majority of people are eager to SHARE their cultures. yes there are ignorant questions and biases but also... how do you think those things get unlearnt? i dont understand how deciding that multiculturalism is an elephant in the room instead of a normal thing that should just be talked about and lived with is supposed to benefit anyone? and kids on tiktok are CONVINCED that it's a time bomb of a conversation to have and therefore must be avoided at all costs but like. people generally LOVE their home and their culture and are PROUD of it and want to share it. how have we made it so that showing genuine interest and a desire to understand something so integral to a person's identity is now feared and borderline demonised?

#thinking about this a lot lately. thinking about how fun it was comparing cultural differences in america #thinking of how when i was homesick one thing i found a great comfort in was talking about my home #and how it differed and i really loved and appreciated it when people would ask me about england #in a way that they genuinely just wanted to learn about it and not to take the piss #thinking about how the kitchen at work has chefs from all over europe. we have an irish chef and a spanish chef and an italian chef #and one of the kps is from eastern europe (i havent actually been able to find out where yet) etc and the way they banter with each other #like usually chefs are Problematic bc their humour is VERY abrasive and usually offensive #but this is one instance where it's actually to their benefit bc they're so unafraid to ADDRESS THE FACT THEY HAVE DIFFERENT CULTURES #i feel like the tiktok gen are so petrified of even acknowledging other cultures let alone discussing them #that it's actually sending the conversation backwards. like how does hoarding your culture and pretending it's not there benefit anyone #LET ALONE YOU AND THE CULTURE IN QUESTION. idk it just baffles me a bit that something that started as people on tiktok #genuinely spreading information and talking about the BAD side of this where people DO culturally appropriate or invade spaces that arent #theirs has now become 'for fear of speaking bad about it we will not speak about it at all'. and they'll crucify you if you do. like what #even at uni my best mate is indian and she's too scared to join the sikh society on her own so i regularly go to the events with her #and im typically one of the handful (or the only) white non-sikh there and i get SO welcomed each time #like there's such a genuine excitement to share the culture with someone who is effectively a blank slate #and like yeah ill ask 'dumb' questions or i'll have different experiences (tried a samosa for the first time at one of these events #and the moment that info got out i had like five STRANGERS trying to give me different samosas to try and it was genuinely such #a laugh bc yes they were TEASING me bc 'how have you never had one' but they were also really eager to share MORE as a result) #ugh idk what im saying. i just think it's a shame to watch this happen in real time on the internet #when if people would just go outside and actually TALK to people from other cultures they'd realise 9 times out of 10 the interactions #are actually really really nice for BOTH parties. and actually refusing to talk about this stuff is long-term pretty fucking detrimental #and it also goes the other way!!! like imagine if i - citizen of colonisation motherland herself - didn't interact with other cultures #and didnt ask questions or hear their opinions on whatever shared history we have from THEIR POINT OF VIEW #imagine the kind of shit id be internalising bc i only hung out with other white british people. it wouldnt matter if i was doing it #to be woke or 'respect their culture'. it would still be fucking ignorant. like half my interactions with other cultures #see me as the butt of the joke bc of this like aforementioned irish chef at work VOCALLY slates the english all the time #but it's done in an environment where we're FRIENDS and it's poking fun at each other while still addressing a very serious history. like?? #idk if any of this is worded in a way that makes sense but yeah. i have thoughts #cant believe i got inspired to make an actually serious post bc of the CHEFS AT WORK. embarrassing. no one let them see this

[twinsoftriumph]

i know i haven't been very active here or on my non-sky account in the first place, but with bisan calling for a strike, i thought it would be worth at least making a post about her message here:

pressure against israel's war crimes and their acts of ethnic cleansing + genocide is building, and there is always a way to contribute to this pressure. let's continue listening to and amplifying palestinian voices!

#there are some info posts and resources on my sideblog but i havent tagged them consistently so i might come back to this a bit later #with links to more information and whatnot because i've been bookmarking a lot of stuff shared through twitter #not just on the past few months but also the treatment of palestinian people for the past few decades #it might take me a while and idk how link limits work or if tumblr might hide my post but ill work something out #sol talks #bullshit will not be tolerated for the record ive already blocked someone and i will block more if necessary

[callibones]

debated sending this or not, b/c we don't rlly know each other and i didn't want it to sound objectifying? but please do not stop tgirl tummy tuesday. not only is it a wonderful way to boost your self confidence. it is a little treat for your followers

FAR FROM IT!!! this made me go AWWW and my eyes lit up. thank you so much.... i was so anxious agajsgsjsg this makes me feel so much better about it :-] i will continue to give my followers lil treats as long as i feel comfortable doin so and im havin fun with it! and i sure am havin fun with it

#callie.txt.exe #anon.zip.pif #YOURE SO SWEET FOR THIS #also. how do i put this #Please Objectify Me #no thats not quite what i mean #how bout this #i havent gotten an ask thats made me feel objectified in a bad way yet and people have sent me much spicier!! #what makes me wanna keep doin stuff like postin pics is (perhaps selfishly) the comments agajshsjsh #the confidence boost isnt just from intrinsically posting it its from people seein it and bein super sweet about it #which a handful of people have been which is so kind and wonderful #ill never know how u feel if u dont say somethin! if youre scared anon exists #but also i dont bite #ive BEEN bitten a lot by a lotta people #but i dont bite personally! #so even if we dont know each other super well u can always dm me or send me an ask or somethin #i like making friends on tumblr. #this goes for ANYONE who wants to be my friend: if u want to talk to me but dont know what to say or when to say it #just send me the word blaseball and ill take it from there >:-]

[jattendschaton]

when you get excited for artwork of nino or alya but they are drawn so pale and whitewashed that you just have to cry

#bean talks #i just feel like this has been happening a lot lately in the miraculous ladybug fandom ? #maybe there are just more new people who havent really gotten a handle on coloring yet ? #and then other people see whitewashed art and use it as inspiration for their own artwork #so it just kind of piles on itself #but yeah idk i've just seen a weird amount of it in a short period of time

[tianhai03]

another C’s coloring post! my sparda twins body type headcanons but now in Color

#im running out of things to say for their submissions im so sorry <///3 #C is like single handedly keeping my blog alive rn while i struggle with getting work done everyone thank them #also the flags werent there originally but their additions mean a lot to me thank you C :') #fan's colorings #devil may cry #vergil(dmc) #dante(dmc) #beep beep from here on out it's gonna be my ramblings for C bc once again i have no other ways to talk to them so you guys can stop reading #C your speed in doing these is like. scaring me youre almost submitting one every other day ASJKDHASKJDHJASK #and as much as i want people to appreciate your stuff i think we should slow things down a bit #(and i think its about time i drew something new for you to color as well lmao i havent posted any new drawings in a while) #so maybe you should try spending more time on each piece! maybe try experimenting with new coloring style! smth like that idk #if you dont want to thats understandable too youve been improving already #but i think i'll wait till you submit a few more first before i post them together #yknow just so im not posting way too frequently; and you wont feel like you need to keep making more! #remember to take breaks! take care and have a nice day :) #allyart

[crescentfool]

ohh the joy of videos and streams... i like listening to people talk about things they like/think about it’s very contagious... 🥺

#lizzy speaks #THIS IS BROUGHT TO U BY THE MINATO BRAINCELLS SHAKING BACK AND FORTH.. #so so many of my interests feel like they're in some kind of hibernation lately in terms of the emotions they evoke #my brains been mostly gravitating towards formulating strategies and trying new things in splatoon right now... LOL.. so i havent thought- #a whole bunch about other things i like even if they do mean a lot to me.. #so i really appreciate being around other people who really like the things that they like because its infectious and reminds me why- #i enjoy those characters / ships / whatever else #like oh... ryomina.. minato.. ryoji... i love them very much and i like hearing other people express their appreciation for them #also yosuke.... i like hearing my friends talk about yosuke his characters a very fun one for me even if i never took the time 2 personally #analyze him its just very nice to be around that kind of energy! im so grateful! #related but unrelated squid school made a video about the splatoon manga... which i havent thought abt in a month or two #yet somehow watching that revitalized my sleeping lil braincell that loves vintage coroika... #IDK i just feel like lately ive gotten to be around a very contagious positive energy of people who appreciate stuff and i like that!! #mayb ill stream again... something about talking about things out loud and not over text evokes a certain kind of insanity #i like to draw to express my love 4 the things i've come across but sometimes i think too much abt the quality.. LOL #so maybe ill just go FUCK IT we ball!! better to draw than to not draw at all. or ill just stream 2 outlet the 'hehe i love so many things' #there is so much love stored in my heart it hurts i lov So many Things and I love Being reminded of that god i love people loving things!!!

[peach-moths]

Sorry for the lack of fandom art from me lately!! I've been...sad lmfao

#in actuality i actually just haven't gotten the drive to draw rise stuff since i posted my dtiys #its like i spent a week illustrating it posted it then was like “well thats it for me #you can send rottmnt based requests if you want just no promise ill draw em #eventually i will draw the turtles i just...dont know when lmao??? #i honesty just havent thought of/seen/our found anything that has inspired me to draw more rise content #ive been REALLY into godzilla and digitally painting small animals #so ive just been drawinf a lot of bugs and little creatures if you havent noticed #i want to draw turtles im just so unmotivated and the lack of interaction with people is NOT helping #lmfao ill be fine in like a month lol #peachmoths talk tag

[todayisafridaynight]

Wanna put your friend in a lil terrarium just to see what wacky things she does stg 😂

i actually Cannot Stress the migraine she gives me every time we hang out. like without fail she'll always say or do something that ranges from mildly questionable or irritating but relatively Whatever to How Have You Survived This Long Without Burning Your House Down Boiling An Egg

#snap chats #and then there's her just forgetting things or being late despite the amount of times ill remind her #and i keep stressing to her i cannot stand it when people are late. and then she shows up to things an hour late anyway #or 'when shes late' by fifteen minutes because she didnt think to text me she's there. and im already stressed and annoyed I. UGH i swear. #LIKE. i have only really had two irl friends and both of them i lowkey had to parent in some way #at least my childhood bestie she's like. she's grown a lot and even if i havent spoken to her in a while im real proud of her right #THIS MOTHERFUCKER THO. OUUUUUGGGH.... youre not supposed to say anythin if you dont got nothin nice to say #which is contradictory to the main body text but point is let me Not be any more mean than how ive been already LMAO #even funnier about her looking at that comic is that LITERALLY masumi says he's talking to jo ☠️☠️☠️☠️ #did i already say i have to remind her who jo is every three seconds #like the entirety of chap 2 when ichi's out of jail she was all 'why doesnt he just say who ACTUALLY killed the guy' #and then when we finally run into the fuckass who 'actually killed the guy' she's just 'wait who's that' #then i tell her and shes like 'oh my god he's so old now' IT'S BEEN 18 YEARS DUMBASS #ngl did wanna make a comic based off that LMAO BUT POINT IS she tests my patience every day and i think its good practice #if im going to work with people in the future like ohh.. my god.... #she told me once she's never been on a date and its like. yeah i wonder why you can't even be assed to show up on time to hangouts ☠️ #like ive never had friends so maybe im just insane.. im not insane for wanting people to be on time tho.... #OK IM BEING TOO MEAN LET ME CAP IT THERE

[fearforthestorm]

it is such a shame that rainstorms are a consistent migraine trigger for me because I love the rain so much but especially I love the way that the rain makes my city look. it goes all gray and lit-from-within at civil twilight and the skyscrapers at city center stretch up so high that the shapes lose definition and it's something that I am just so so fond of.

#not to mention the classic streetlights and wet pavement. thats always been a particular little thing that ive loved #it feels more like autumn than late winter today which makes me a little upset but driving in rain is better than driving in ice at least #im in a bit of a really strange introspective mood now that ive finally cleared the worst of the migraine #a lot of stuff has happened for me lately that i havent talked about on here at all just to a couple of close friends. #and im kind of. actively trying? to stop caring so much about telling people about things. #a couple weeks ago i did something that not a soul on earth knows. and they never will. and it was SO FREEING. #<- not anything bad or whatever just. a regular thing that happened that i didnt tell anyone about. #idk. im trying a lot more lately to worry less about sharing my life and more about just living it. its good i think. #youll probably still get luke. hyperspecific emotional/contemplative oversharing in the tags sometimes #but ive been doing a lot more things that im not telling anyone about. that exist just for me. and im gonna keep doing that. #.lyr

[pansyfemme]

i dont like those defintions of being a gay man that hold ‘lack of attraction to women’ over ‘attraction to men’ bc like. yeah i consider myself a gay dude but the kind of ppl i hang around are too genderweird for me to be all into fluid ideas of gender and non-conformity and then draw the line at me possibly liking a man who is also a woman. like the fact that im into men feels a bit more important to me than the fact that those men may be also a variety of other things

#i guess if the question is: am i attracted to binary women? i would probably say. well i havent been in the past so i dont think so? #but like. whatever #at this point in my life the only ppl i have been attracted to have been men and masc alligned nonbinary people #could that change? possibly im keeping my options open #but i dont think like being open to the possibility makes me bi i think that would require actual attraction which i dont have #things are always up for change yknow #i think there r a lot of good hypotheticals out there but i dont know if they mean anything honestly #like my attraction to women atm only rlly includes women who r also men but like. idk yknow? #would i date someone who considers themselves mainly attracted to women? maybe? like i am a guy. but like. i think thats up to me and this #hypothetical person to work out honestly i am not just gonna say no for the sake of it i think we would probably talk abt it

[needylittlegirl]

brain is spinning

#not in a good or bad way i just feel like im in a washing machine on a gentle cycle #just thinking about everything #mostly like #whoever i end up with is going to have to have So much patience #like #i dont know how Anything works #absolutely none of it #ive never had like healthy completely consensual sex #ive never been in a healthy relationship ive barely ever had Good friends #so like #erase everything thats happened to me like just dont count it #and i havent ever done anything #not with a boy in a romantic kinda way not with friends in a friends kinda way #and yeah that makes me sad sometimes and terrifies me most of the time #but hopefully i’ll find people that will take everything so slow with me and not mind #i just think its gonna be a long journey that im not super excited for cause i know its gonna be scary #but i also cant wait to like do everything for My first time #idk i think im just being a sap right now #and i cant wait to be able to do things with someone #like right now im just sitting in an empty parking lot with my door open watching the sunset and thinking about life #and someday i’ll be able to do that with someone!! we can talk about life for hours! #and someday someone will join me in my stupid little dance parties or karaoke sessions #and itll be nice #tbd #i need to romanticize every moment of my life or else i’ll want to die

[verycoolsnails]

YAYYY MISHA THEME!!!

MISHA 💖💓🩷❤️💕💖💓🩷💖❤️💖💓💓💖🩷💓

#i loevev them so much did you know that #currently saving up for him and it is HELL after spending it all on sparkel .so many quests and not enough timw ......... #and . ouhhh havent had the chance to talk abt . shit what is it called . lemme go see real quick . #A CHILDS DREAM . yknow that one map with the text on the walls and the melted clocks and stuff . #that was done . SO incredibly well it makes me INSANE........... #so like . im 100.1% sure the speaker (who talks abt mikhail a lot) in that room is misha. #like that IS her voice right . im not going insane #its just . auuh... the dreams (or at least golden hour) in peacony are so childlike .... like . some of the puzzles are jigsaw puzzle ; #turn into a small cartoon character ; and help the cartoon character find his cartoon gears . #and then you get to clockie . who can only be seen by someone w a childs innoence (or smth around those lines) #and that misha can see clockie . which like . cool right ? yeab. UNTIL YOU GET TO A CHILDS DREAM .. #where theres something just ... sososo off . #and its ... its just gotta be misha . its gotta be . idk if theres anything outside of main story im missing (there probably is) #BUT . augh . auf even . #childs dream still has these childlike qualities to it (the paper birds; walking on walls) but just ... more warped #(the general atmosphere of the place; the monsters even .) #the music having a music box to make the tone of the song more distressing ... how its so much more smaller than golden hour .. #aughhhhhh ... its just such a good parallel..... i could talk abt it all day really . #anyways . i WAS going to tell u abt my misha theory (which may or may not be confirmed) bu t i got DISTRACTED. #uhh anyways . my theory is that misha is somehow trapped in peacony . #when misha goes onto the parlor car they mention that theyve never been outside of peacony before and that she can t stay for long . #which i imagine is very normal! BUT its this combined w her lock motif (pupils; most of the doors in childs dream) thag make me suspicious #i mentioned before that golden hour has a very childish quality to it. and that misha has that childish quality. #okay well . what if mishas being kept there so that golden hour can keep on being a dream for other people? #and so that would make golden hour mishas dream. (or part of his dream? could be more people the familys keeping) #and that would imply that childs dream is . well . mishas nightmare . #uhm . i think thats it ..? if i come up w anything else ill . ramble abt it somewhere . definitely not the most eloquent but #i hope i got the point across <33 #i think its an understatement to say i love misha . i LOVE MISHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

[fairyreblogs]

man i dont know why (i have theories but hold on) but the fandoms Ive been in on the internet have been a little meaner these last few years. like i dont get nice comments on my fics anymore. i get ones with no reading comprehension or i get angry ones or i get ones that are enthusiastic and delighted but instead of any decorum they are like. aggressive in their delight. usually just a demand for more content. something has definitely changed in how people in fandoms interact with one another. my theories are just like. younger generations more comfortable with the internet not being as polite as older people on the internet are combined with quarantine kinda ruining a lot of peoples ability to interact socially (mine was ruined too to be fair). but like lately ive been in search of a fandom thats not the markiplier fandom that is nice to me and not aggressively-enthusiastic-weird (but i might take this too) and its kinda hard to find one. i dont know if i just dont have interests that align with happy communities, or what.

#markiplier fandom nice to me forever and ever. #sometimes they get me on edge when they demand i update and dont even say like 'nice fic i liked this' they just say 'update' #but thats literally like the meanest fan ive met so 👍 #fnaf fandom is interesting. you definitely gotta treat them the way you want to be treated or theyre not gonna be nice #unfortunately this means you cant joke too much with them. #uh. moment of truth. percy jackson fandom kinda mean. ok they are mean. no kinda. also no reading comprehension #definitely a fandom that bonds by choosing something to nitpick and hate together. which sucks if you liked that thing they chosen that wee #my little corner of the xmen fandom has actually gotten nicer as time goes on. but also more obsessed with details and accuracy #but my corner of the xmen fandom was still nice enough that i adore them even if i havent been in it in ages #marvel is very so-so depending on where you are in the fandom but its such a large fanbase it is what it is. normal #witcher fandom from my experience has been pretty chill but i havent done much as a content creator for them to really know #d:be human is. decent. unfortunately a lot of outside hate there that it kinda outweighs how polite the fans are #star wars.... well. if you find your niche good for you! nice people. but if you get too generalized with your niche. rip #sw fandom when you study mando'a or dai bendu: hai X3 !! #sw fandom when you get too generalized and talk 'prequel vs sequel': die #vent #this is funny because i was really nice about this sw comment. but its generalized. which means someone will tell me to die. #why do i know this? because ive made this comment about the sw fandom before. =_=

[boygirlctommy]

no way you guys can guess what clip im animating right now

#my post #iamso tired rn though i think im done for now #i did. all the lines. and the bgs. #i did like maybe half of fundy throughout it and i havent started coloring jack #ough and then i need to do some tweening.. and maybe some lighting idk i might just fuck around with different layers #anyways :] this is fun #ive been watching a lot of videos by professional storyboard artists and wanted to try some different stuff out n like #do some more of just people talking to eachother #so of course i go to yt search and look up iconic dsmp moment compilations #also ignore that fundys not wearing pants <3 hes a cartoon animal he does not need them #also also i randomly went w jack manibot for this. bcus i was like 'hehe hes buffering or something instead of just being afk'