#sorry for shit quality btw i made this on the bUs

[apenapaperandadoofus]

Least favorite mysme character

Opp-

I've said this already and I am sorry but

DEFINETLY V

Now this isn't a V hate post! Not at all, I'm just explaining about some things that I feel we don't talk about much in the fandom, a sort of analysis of the character I guess lmao

Listen listen- there are moments where he's pretty cute and I have to admit it, he does get my heart going doki doki

But like I've said over and over again, there are things which I feel like we don't hold him responsible for. I'm not going to include Ray's AE on the list bc I know some people think it's really uncharacteristic and I have to admit they really threw him under the bus in that one

I love V's character don't get me wrong

I would just like for the fandom to not see him as an innocent angel all the time (like with Ray, he's pretty cute and adorable, sure but uh- there are things that he does that are REALLY questionable, just like all the characters, like in their bad endings and such, the thing about MM is that all the characters have flaws and that's GREAT!)

Now the thing with V:

What I feel like it isn't fair, is that we always shift the blame in only Rika. Am I saying she's innocent? Hell no, she did SO much shit, and ruined a lot of people's lives. But what about V?

We could say he had good intentions, and I mean in Rika's mind she thought was doing the right thing too! But V was definetly a big factor with Rika's uh, darkness we can say. V was one of the main factors, and he totag enabled Rika's behavior, by actually saying he loved her dark side and by actually forgiving whatever she did! I mean, Rika killed the twins mom and V was there, and he HELPED cover the murder.

Both V and Rika were toxic in the relationship and I feel like if Rika had been with someone else? Like Jumin? She could've totally changed. V made her believe that her dark side, her devil was something she should embrace, that he loved it, and he basically let her know that no matter what he would be there for her, enabling her to think that she could do whatever she wants and not face the consequences because V will be there to clean her shit up. And that's not ok.

I want us to realize that V had a big part in everything too, by not helping Rika the right way, by not asking for help, by literally enabling Rika to believe that being bad was good.

We always see V as the saint and Rika as the devil, when both of them share equal parts of the blame.

When know V was trying to do the right thing, sure, but we literally see him admit that he was in a relationship with Rika because he wanted to help her to feel better about himself and to feel needed. He wasn't exactly doing it all from the 'kindness' of his heart, he was doing it because like Rika, he wanted, he NEEDED to be loved.

V has definetly been though so much, and I actually understand why he would think that way, which is why I love his character and Rika in a way. He is my least favorite probably because I feel like in some routes we let him off too easy, like in Saeyoung's (I mean he died but c'mon, I would've totally reacted the same way Saeyoung did, and honestly V did deserve it) also in Jumin's route, WHEN HE HURTS THE POOR BABY. Out of everyone Jumin is the most kindest, and most loyal friends, and we all know he would take a bullet and walk to hell and back for them. Which is why I can't forgive V for lying to him, for not seeking help. I really value loyalty and honesty in a friendship, and it really hurts when I see how V is the one that ruined his relationship with Jumin.

I understand that he doesn't want to hurt them and that it's "all his fault" which it also it btw along with Rika, but the reason why he does it is also absolutely selfish and you can't convince me otherwise

He doesn't tell his friends bc he wants to take the blame, to pay for his actions, but like dude? There are people being drugged and extorted, you CANNOT play the martyr role, when other people are involved and in danger you have to ask for help because it's just isn't about you and your psycho ex fiancee anymore.

Anyway sorry for the rant hehe I absolutely love talking about characters like this, and not only V but the other MM characters as well! Like I said before this is not a V hate post and he definitely has some great qualities and I'm glad that in his AE he FINALLY does smth right, but it's just really sad how people always make Rika the bad one and V the innocent cinnamon roll (he is definetly a cinnamon roll, but he's not 100% innocent in everything)

Thanks for coming to my ted talk pfttttt

#mystic messenger #mysme #jumin han #saeyoung choi #jihyun mysme #saeran choi #choi bois

[hinatashoyo-desu]

Monday, April 27, 2018; 04:44am

Hi! Ngayong lang ako ulit nakapagsulat dito. Yung maayos. Hahahaha! I just want to say na I miss you, my journal. My only true friend. Alam mo ma bakit ako bumalik? Sorry ah ngayon lang kita na-update. Marami lang talaga nangyari sakin these past years na di kita nakakausap. So eto magkukwento na ko.

Naaalala mo pa ba yung huling entry ko dito? Na-in love ako kay Rom diba? Yung bestfriend ko dati! I hope you remember. After non kasi I was so devastated. I felt like I lost everything. Even yung pagmamahal ko sa sarili ko nakalimutan ko na. Di ko alam kung sino ba talaga ako that time. Ano ba talaga purpose ko ganon. Years have passed. Maraming naka-fling and shit just to make myself satisfied, temporarily. Sama ko no? Sorry. I became the person (a demon I guess) that I hated the most. Hirap. After ko gawin yung mga bagay na ayaw kong gawin, I feel so empty pa rin. I got really lost. Immersed in darkness.

Until, I met this young lady here, on tumblr. That's 2017 na when I got a chance to know her. Joanne yung name niya. She' kind and sweet. Pero alam mo ba, hindi dapat ako magko-commit to her? I just realized na siya yung magiging partner na hindi naibigay sakin ni Lord thru kay Rom. Ang pangit nga ng first meetup namin eh. Sobrang pangit. And it's all my fault, friend. I'm so sorry. I did tell you naman na I became the person I hated the most and I'm not proud of it. But things changed after our meetup. That very moment when I felt her hug, so tight to the point na ayaw pa niyang umuwi, I wept. I felt my emptiness after that hug. Yung pagod at bigat ng nararamdaman ko, pinaramdam niya sakin yon. She made me realized something that even I can't put it into words. I felt love once again. The love that I was longing for.

So yun nga, nasundan yung pagkikita namin then we consider it na kami na nga. Student pa siya nito. Graduating na siya ng BSHM (Hospitality Management. Pinalit sa HRM) Nagpakilala na ko sa family niya and same goes sa side ko. I introduced her to my nanay and pamangkins. Saka kapatids. Sa side naman niya, I really made an impact. As in, nanligaw ako! Every time na pupunta ako sa kanila, (btw, she lives in Bulacan and I'm from Cavite so... Yeah. I am reverting back to normal.) I always cook for them. Agahan, tanghalian, hapunan. Name it. I'll cook it for them. Nahihiya pa nga sakin yung mama at papa niya kasi bakit ako daw pinagluluto niya. I insisted to cook for them kasi sabi ko masaya ako na pinagluluto ko sila. Saka minsan lang ako makapunta sa kanila kaya sinusulit ko na.

Then dumating na yung big day niya. MAMARTSA NA SIYA!!! KUKUNIN NA NIYA DIPLOMA NIYA!! Nagpaalam ako kay nanay kasi madaling araw ako aalis non sa bahay kasi nga sa Bulacan punta ko. Sinabi ko na aattend ako ng graduation ceremony ni Joanne. Saka pangako ko sa kanya yon na every breakthrough na magkakaron siya, nandoon palagi ako sa tabi niya, sumusuporta. Tapos yun na nga, nakapunta ako and nasamahan ko siya sa important date sa buhay niya! Saya! Sobrang saya ko that time kasi yung dating pinapangarap kong gawin sa partner ko, nagagawa ko na paunti-unti. Para akong nananaginip ng tuloy-tuloy. Pero syempre, we're in this reality na hindi sa lahat ng oras, masaya. Hindi araw-araw pasko, kaibigan. We had our struggles, arguments, fights, sleepless nights kasi minsan magdamag kaming magkaaway. Not so good. But we learned our lessons in every trials. We kept each other for almost 2 years. Yes, my friend. 2 years lang ang tinagal namin.

She left me. Why? Napagod siya. Bakit? Gawa ko. There's this tendency of mine na kapag comfortable na ako sa tao, sumosobra. Nakakampante masyado. And again, I'm very sorry for that. Nasa huli talaga ang pagsisisi. And admit ko rin sa'yo, kahit masaya kami sa isa't isa, I was tempted. And yes, I gave in. I cheated on her. Sorry. Sobrang sorry. Galit na galit ako sa mga kapwa ko lalaki na nagagawang manloko ng partner nila pero tignan mo, pati pala ako ganon. And yes, nagalit ako sa sarili ko. At that very moment, unti-unti na kong nagka-crumble. I'm shaking. My feelings, thoughts, and everything that I hold so dear, they started to fall. Little by little, I can't grasp them anymore. In short, naging burden na ko sa kanya. We started long fights to the point na wala talagang pansinan. She became my strength when I was so weak. But this time, she's the one now who's taking it away. Bakit? Kasi nga napapagod na siya. And I can't blame her for doing the same mistake as I did. It's my karma. But shit! Really! SO MUCH SHIT!! I cried so hard when I found out na she also cheated on me. Well, it's my karma as I said. Unti-unting naglaho lahat ng tiwala at pagmamahal namin. Until such time, she chose to give up. She chose to let me go. I can't blame her. It's all my fucking fault. Sinubukan ko pang isalba ang kakaunting meron pa kami pero ayaw na niya. Sumuko na siya. Tapos na ang laban. That time, I wore a mask and sunglasses after ko sumakas ng bus pa-Manila. It's like I'm hiding from someone but kung alam lang nila, I'm hiding my pain from them. The pain that lingers long enough to question my own worth. The tears that are telling me na I lost the fight. We both lost it. And again, it's all my fault. She ended it April 2019. (Yes friend, this time last year nangyari yon.)

Di ko na mabilang kung ilang gabi akong walang tulog non. Mga gabing pupunta ako sa shop para maglaro. Para makalimot. Pero every time that I open our past conversations, I felt so much pain to the point na wala na ulit akong maramdaman. Bumalik ulit ako sa bagay kung pano niya ko nakilala nung una. Grabe no? The displacement is still, zero. Walang progress.

Months have passed and I got my job in the resort na mina-manage ng pinsan ng tropa ko. Barista ako sa cafe don. After ko tanggapin yung job offer sakin, naaalala ko yung conversation namin na pagkasweldo ko sa unang sahuran namen, ililibre ko siya. As in lahat ng gusto niya sa isang araw, ako bahala! Pangako na namin yon sa isa't isa that time. Kaso wala. It's all too late.

Dati kasi walang-wala talaga ako non. Para lang makapunta ako sa kanila minsan, siya na nagpapadala that time para lang makapag-kita kami. Hindi ko siya mahindian kasi una, siya yung may gusto at iniinsist niya talagang pumunta ako. Nakakahiya namang tanggihan sa punto pa lang na yon. Pangalawa, gusto ko rin siyang makita. Saka hangga't may pagkakataon, pupunta talaga ako sa kanila. I wanted to create memories for us to cherish whenever opportunities present themselves. Sabihin mo nang oportunista ako pero sa kaso kasi namin, LDR kami. Mahirap na setup pero ginawan namin ng paraan.

Balik tayo sa timeline na may work na ko.

I immersed myself sa work para makalimot. Effective. Naggo-grow ako. Nagkakaron ako ng ideas professionally and syempre sa character ko. Unti-unti kong nagagawa yung passion ko to serve other people through food and beverage. And syempre, best quality service! Meeting new people, creating new relationships, and also getting a chance to get ideas na binabayaran ka pa after. Galing no? Sana proud ka sakin. Isipin mo naka-1 year na ko sa work!!! Yieee!!

Pero dumating din yung time na napapagod ako. Yung tinatanong ko na sarili ko kung kaya ko pa ba. Kung gusto ko pa ba. Ito ba talaga yung para sa akin? Lagi kong tanong yan when I got from series of mistakes sa work. Nakakalungkot. Minsan mararamdaman mo na kahit di nila sabihin, gusto ka na nilang tanggalin sa work mo. Lately ko na lang din na-confirm yung pakiramdam na yon nung nag-away yung mga boss ko. (Oo mga boss. 3 boss ko don: Mag-asawa tas yung isa asawa nung president nung resort. About sa business yung pinag-awayan so no worries. Hindi ito telenovela.)

My boss always talk to me na kaya ko naman daw basta ayusin ko lang daw ginagawa ko. I'm trying naman eh but it's so hard. Ewan ko. Siguro kasi di pa talaga ako ready for some serious kind of work kasi nga sobrang broken ako when I said yes to this job. Mali yung intention ko nung umoo ako. And again, I'm sorry. It's all my fault.

So yan. Yan yung mga nangyari sakin for the past years na wala akong entry dito. Sorry ulit ah? Sorry talaga. Pero wait, there's more!!! Namiss kita eh kaya susulitin ko na to. Baka matagalan na ulit bago kita makausap.

You know why I got the urge to write here? Because first, I watched "The Hows of Us". Tangina. Ang sakit. Lahat ng kinwento ko sa'yong pain and memories na sobrang saya, lahat yon bumalik nung pinanuod ko yung movie. Si Joanne kasi is very similar kay George. Yung sobrang supportive to the point na napagod na rin siya. Tangina! And syempre, na-realize ko ako pala si Primo! The one who values pride more than any other. Pagkakaiba lang namin? Siya kasi napapansin niya na napapagod na partner niya. Ako? Late ko na narealize when we broke up. Sobrang basura ko.

Lastly, someone reminded me to write. Yes! SOMEONE REMINDED ME TO FUCKING WRITE! Hindi naman niya sinabi verbally pero she made me realize something. Meron pala akong journal dito. Thank her, my friend! Hahaha! Dahil sa kanya, meron ulit akong entry dito!

I met her here, sa tumblr. Her blog show itself sa suggestions ng mga bloggers na pwede i-follow. Maganda siya. Got glasses, looks smart and kind tas mahinhin. I backread her blog. Mali ako dun da mahinhin. May pagka-tarantado rin pala. HAHAHAHA! Pero what I really admire about her is that, yung character kasi niya is so intact! She got a past that's so dark but she faced it, anyway. Tangina bro! Yung respeto ko sa kanya biglang sumipa pataas hahaha! PAAAWER! I followed her after that and syempre dahil hopeless romantic ako pero ayoko na maging torpe, I messaged her here. We got our talks. Di ako nagkamali sa first impression ko sa kanya na she's smart. Dude! She really, is smart! And damn! She's beautiful inside and out. Sobrang nakaka-melt gago! I told her na yun nga, I got a crush on her already and I'm always admiring her. Ayoko na kasi itago minsan yung mga ganon kasi baka pagsisihan ko pa, and syempre, she deserves to hear and feel such admiration kasi diba? Why not? Hahaha!

I asked her her facebook and she gave it naman so I added her. Gulat ako kasi tangina may mutual kami?! AND TROPA KO PA SA DATI KONG SCHOOL?! So tinanong ko siya kung san niya nakilala yung mga yon. Sabi niya di niya alam kasi basta na nga lang daw siya nag-aaccept dati (dati pa naman yon. Maingat na siya ngayon) kaya ayun.

Tas yon we had our conversations everyday. Ako naman yung nagchachat lagi. Ewan ko feeling ko nga nakukulitan na yon sakin eh. Pero you know what, simula nung magkaron kami ng deep talk, di na ko sure kung admiration na lang ba yon. When I'm talking to her kasi tas she responds, I feel peace. I feel so light. LIPAD AKO TWENG! Hahahaha joke! Kidding aside, she makes me love myself again. She makes me believe na I can be more of just who I am today. She encourages me to be better though di ko alam kung alam ba niya na ganon. Lately kasi, I'm having my anxieties kicking in my head kasi nga quarantine. Minsan pag kinakausap ko siya, she always tells me kung ano-ano nanaman daw iniisip ko. Alam ko naman! Hahaha! Ang hirap lang kasi labanan yung sarili pag ganon. Sana nagegets mo ko. Tas yon, I hope she understands me. Tas lagi ko sinasabi sa kanya na gusto ko siya ma-meet and makilala personally and since nalaman ko favorite type of pasta niya, I told her na I'll cook for her para matikman niya (favorite ko din kasi yujlng favorite niya so... Ehe) and syempre gusto ko din ma-meet yung family niya. Especially, yung lolo and lola niya. I just want to thank them for raising a person like her kasi tangina! SOBRANG DALANG NA NG TAONG GANON SA MUNDO NGAYON! And yon she really is an epitome of true beauty, I tell you!

I always tell her na yun nga sa halos araw-araw na nagkakausap kami, unti-unti kong nagugustuhan personality niya. Tho tamad siya magreply (w/c is a triggering part sa anxiety ko kasi baka ayaw na niya ko kausap ganon kasi nga ang kulit at ang daldal ko to the point na nonsense na yung sinasabi ko), she always reminds me na she's always there for me to listen and be a friend. Wala. Dun ako lalong tinamaan sa kanya. Gago! Nung nabasa ko yung message niyang yon, sabihin mo nang weak ako pero bro, naluha ako. She made me feel my worth. Na worthy ako kausap. Worthy ako magkwento kasi makikinig siya. Bro worthy daw ako kasi kahit papano, nag-iinvest siya ng time makipag-usap sakin. Tangina! Wala! Talo ako! Di ko na pwedeng lokohin sarili ko boy! Gusto ko siya! Kaya lagi kong sinasabi sa kanya na after this ECQ season, I'm going to find a way to meet her personally and cook for her. She deserves it, anyway. This time, I'll make it right. I'll do it the right way. Kahit sabihin mong makaluma dud, liligawan ko siya in a traditional way. She deserves it, really! (Saka laking lolo at lola siya so diba?) She made me realize na it's not too late to start anew. The sun sets but it rises again. Hays. Sana talaga! Sana! Sana mabigyan niya ko ng chance na makilala siya. Sana mabigyan niya rin ako ng chance na iparamdam sa kanya yung mga kaya kong ibigay. Huhu. Sana talaga!

So yon. Yun muna. Sulit no?! Feeling ko pag may nakabasa na nitong entry ko, maraming mag-a-unfollow saken HAHAHA! Sana di siya kasama don. 😢 So pano? Sa susunod na taon na lang ulit?! LOLjk. Will update you after nitong ECQ. Salamat sa pagiging journal ko. Wag ka mawawala ha? See you next time!!

PS: Nakalimutan kong ipakilala pala sa'yo. She's my "Happy pill".

#onlinejournal #personalpost

[espship18]

Kpop ship for quentin anon

Howdy doody everyone! hah, we’re getting creative with intros now lol. Today, I have a ship for an anon who goes by quentin. If you are reading this quentin, 1) hello! and 2) I hope you enjoy <3 PS, I missed y’all :( 

Based off of your request, I gathered these facts about you; 

You are 5′6 and have brown hair and hazel eyes

You’re kind of introverted

But you like to let loose and have fun 

You’re friendly 

You have a monotone/expressionless expression not a bad thing!

You take no bs and always stands up for what’s right 

You love to laugh and you can be loud sometimes

You also love making others laugh

Your interests/hobbies are: drawing, writing, and dancing 

In your request you have been asked to be shipped with Day6, Got7, NCT, and VIXX! Let’s go shippin(I’m so sorry lol) 

Day6: Jae

The first thought I had for you and Jae was the famous ‘American Gothic’ painting by Grant Wood. Visually, you’d both have that expressionless look on your faces but in reality, you’re actually a happy sunshine couple. As I was thinking about how you two met, I thought you starting out as roommates would be so cute and clever. You would be new in the city, and the only apartment you could afford was Jae’s and he needed a roommate. The pieces all fit together perfectly. Based on first impressions, seeing all his amps and guitars and other musical items would be a little over-whelming, but he would assure you that you would never need to mess with anything or help him- he’s a big boy. Band practice would be a little hit and miss, sometimes they would be there, sometimes they wouldn’t, then if they were, you would leave so you can get a piece of mind. The first six months of living together would be awkward and you wouldn’t talk much. However, one rainy day when both your and Jae’s plans got canceled, you would start to bond, and you two would develop a relationship. As you two would get to know each other, you two would see each others humors, and you’d see the best and worst in each other. You both would be so blunt with each other in the funniest ways, you would never take comments seriously. Slowly, as time would go on, your friendship would slowly transform into romantic feelings. Jae would be very soft for you, and you admired Jae in a way you could never fully explain, so eventually you two said you were together. You fit together like two peas in a pod and when you became official, it was very liberating. Your friends and Jae’s friends weren’t surprised, since you two fit together so well, it was a matter of time before they called it- they were all happy for you regardless. You two would also be a very domestic couple btw. Hear me out, cause this’ll sound crazy but, Jae is the best worst housewife ever. When Jae would try to do household stuff he would fail but if he wouldn’t try he would succeed. He wouldn’t be the best at cooking, but would be a really good baker. That means a lot of sugar which means a lot of random decisions, like teaching you how to play guitar. There would be a lot of screaming singing followed by that by the way. Pillow talk would be huge for your two as well! Lastly, I would like to talk PDA/affection. A LOT of hand holding. He would love the softness of your hands. He also would love to droop his arm over your shoulder, then you would hold it, you would look so comfortable, and adorable, like the king and queen you are.

Got7: Jinyoung

Much like my last ship went, there will be a lowkey theme to this ship: domestication. I don't know why I’ve been into themes recently, but it’s here. You two would be a soft couple that would love to admire one another. You two would also be an artsy couple. Rooting from a college type of au, Jinyoung’s art would be photography while your art would be writing, writing to your hearts content. Being the artsy couple you are, you two would spend so much quality time together! You two would also have your fair share of going out and being active and staying at the apartment together. Staying home isn’t always a bad thing either. You two are still equally as giggly and peppy with each other, so you two never have a dull moment and there are smiles and sunshine all around. I want to touch on quiet time real quick because I love the thought of it. Quiet time would include a lot of snuggles. Any kind of snuggles you can think of where you’re either laying on top of each other, or he’s snuggled to you, or you’re snuggled to him, SNUGGLES. Quiet time also includes you two working on your interests. While Jinyoung is on his laptop editing some pictures for his portfolio, you are right by him, jotting down the thoughts in your head, coming up with new ideas, or continuing another idea- the world is your oyster. Moving right along is date night. Park Jinyoung on date night is the best boyfriend material ever. If you’re at home, he sets up fairy lights all over the apartment, he cooks, and he gets a little dressed up. He wants to look clean for you, and just imagine forehead Jinyoung in this scenario #yesmama. Also, a little thing Jinyoung would love to do is slow dance with you. Then when you two go out, you got to so many different places- basically til you get tired and want to take a nap lol. Personally, Jinyoung would like to take you to your favorite places such as to eat or do an activity with. He would LOVE going out for karaoke, so of course you two would go out and do the stuff he enjoys too. You also have an amazing food taste, so who could argue with that, right? A lot of dinner topics include deep talks about what you want to accomplish separately and together, and you also love to talk about your futures together, a fan favorite. Then when you would get home, some major pillow talk sessions. These sessions would be more playful like small debates over how to toilet paper roll should go, a lot of giggles and smiles. Lastly more PDA. Gentle hands holding yours, he would handle you like you were made of glass. So many forehead kisses, and the sweetest eye smiles you’ll ever see.

NCT: Jaehyun

You and Jaehyun yet again scream such a soft puppy like love aesthetic and it’s hard not to uwu over it. Jaehyun is your sunshine while you are his flower, like, you to need each other. Jaehyun would be absolutely head over heels in love with you tbh, like this bub is going to FALL. You two are that type of couple that is a get and go type of couple, and the world is your oyster. Traveling would be your thing, Jaehyun would want to take you everywhere he possibly could. With his occupation being a huge help in your wishes to travel, you would get to tag along on trips and such, and you and Jaehyun would travel anytime he got free time tbh. And this is super cute, listen up. So, you two would keep EVERYTHING you would get from traveling. Whether it’s plane/bus tickets, post cards, souvenirs, and of course your pictures, everything gets saved. Everything that can be put in a scrap book goes in a scrap book. It would be super cute if you two would have little books dedicated to every trip, and you’d keep them nicely organized on a ship by date or by location. Keeping those scrap books are great for always reliving the memories you two shared. Then, if you two aren’t out and about traveling or on a date, Sunday’s are your golden days- specifically if they’re rainy or it’s winter. Those Sunday’s are your time to relax and cuddle, and you also take those Sunday’s to work on your scrap books! Jae is also the type of boyfriend that loves to take great interest in your interests. Another one of those Sunday’s include making cute little stories together. Jae would love to collab on little stories with you! Again, those rainy days are full of endless possibilities, so, if you or Jae have an idea, you best believe that you two are coming up with a full out plot and characters, and even getting as far as getting a chapter or two written down. And a lot of the time, those little stories get tossed into a notebook, and it’s always fun to forget about it then come back at a later time and find it again. Moving on, you and Jae wouldn’t necessarily have date nights. You two spend so much time together, that every time you’re together is like date night. Of course Jae will take you out on special occasions like anniversaries or birthdays, but making homemade pizza or take out it the best way for you two to go. And omg so many game nights! Card games are your shit, and tbh, UNO would get crazy. Lastly PDA wise, Jae is all about that hand holding and cheek and lip kisses. He also loves to hug you, all the time, so prepared to have a koala bear attached to you.  

VIXX: Hakyeon 

When I think of you and Hakyeon, you two would be the perfect wild and mild couple. Joking and cracking jokes is always a must by the way. You two have interesting senses of humor so, you two always are playfully picking on each other and being playfully sarcastic to each other. Part of that playful sarcastic antics you two would do is being overly-sensitive with each other. I know that sounds weird but hear me out. It’s super cute when you two pick at each other. Hakyeon would like to pick at your quirks- mostly because your quirks is what makes you unique and your quirks is also one of the many reasons why he loves you. When you playfully roll your eyes as he picks, Hakyeon would just smile at you and he would say “I love you”. It’s actually super soft at the end of the day tbh. And overall, Hakyeon is very considerate of you. Hakyeon is also a very protective boyfriend, and he will always make sure you know that as well. And he isn’t sorry about it either and you don’t mind it either, it helps you feel safe and wanted. Dancing together is your everything by the way. From Hakyeon teaching you a new dance to even learning new dance styles together, you two dance so much. Filming your dances together is also always a thing, you have a camera that is specifically for dancing. And it’s always fun to go back and watch those videos and seeing how much progress you’ve made since you started learning a specific dance. Also, you two are the king and queen of practice room antics. Teasing each other, pinching each others tushies(to be specific) is only the beginning. And of course, anytime you get to dance with Hakyeon’s fellow group members, you all stay in the practice for literally hours just dancing and goofing off. Learning the choreo and the boys love to pick at you, and then if you’re doing the choreo better than one of the members, you can see a roast fest in your future. Moving onto date night, date night is always a surprise with Hakyeon. Double or triple dates with your friends, or cute little pop-up dates like carnivals or little shopping trips- curtesy by your lovely boyfriend. Spoiling you is one of his specialties, he loves it so much. You’re his number one, so of course he would want to treat you like a number one. And, you are also as protective of him like he is to you. And tbh, Hakyeon would love that you are protective over him, you’re his little fire cracker. Lastly, PDA. He’s very hands on, he loves to have a hand holding something, he loves to know that you are around him. Back hugs, and forehead kisses, especially quick pecks, it’s a cute little detail enough to make an impact, because it would leave you in a flush. 

~STA

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I did my best to put it in some kind of order but it got messy and I'm helpless about what I should write even after having read the FAQ and more than 20 pages of your posts so bear with me, please. The more I studied the functions, the less I know. So I'm really annoyed when people do things in a certain way because that's how it was done - there's nothing wrong with sticking to tried ways but everyone should think why they do it instead of mindlessly following a set path. (1/???)

A note to readers: if I may ask, please hold back your own sarcasm and such.

I don’t explicitly set a length limit anywhere for asks as most people stop at a fairly reasonable 5 or 6 - I’ve gotten extremely long asks only a few other times and those were mostly overnight for me so I didn’t get to weigh in in medias res, so while this person definitely needs to work on editing there’s some good content. Had there been anything egregiously offensive, ignorant, or annoying I’d have been much more brusque or I’d just have blocked them; this was a genuine misread of the situation. It’s really hard for me to define what’s good to send for typing; it’s very much a case of knowing it when I see it and I know that can be difficult for some people to interpret. Answer is below the jump.

Hi anon,

I may have had some mild fun at your expense; when I see someone is 10 messages deep and talking about Mamma Mia I have to say I have concerns about their ability to decide what is relevant information.

Anyway I’m going to answer this piece by piece. This will not be my, uh, least snarky answer; the cost of doing business of mbti typing with me for no money is that I like to enjoy myself. But I will attempt to also provide a good faith answer as you have some solid examples within all this.

I did my best to put it in some kind of order but it got messy and I'm helpless about what I should write even after having read the FAQ and more than 20 pages of your posts so bear with me, please.

As you can see I will not really bear with you but I do appreciate you doing some research

The more I studied the functions, the less I know. So I'm really annoyed when people do things in a certain way because that's how it was done - there's nothing wrong with sticking to tried ways but everyone should think why they do it instead of mindlessly following a set path. (1/???)

I feel like people use this sort of language to be like “please don’t type me as a high Si user” when in fact this is EXTREMELY high healthy Si user. Thought it could be a lower Si user as well. Anyway, moving on

For example, it's sad how many people believe in God just because thats how they were raised without actually reading the Bible (no hard feelings to believers, I also believe)

I’m...not going to unpack that

I like to speak out loud some ideas with no thoughts of acting on them but some people tend to believe I'm dead set on the idea and it causes some misunderstandings. Also, I have at least 6 back up plans for my future in case some of them won't fly. (2/???)

Here’s the deal when people say they’ve studied EVERYTHING and then ramble on for a long time and can’t type themselves I often suspect the issue isn’t that they don’t know MBTI but that they need to learn themselves. Contingency plans tend to be Ne-Si; speaking out loud with no plans to act is pretty normal.

I plan on going to a country abroad in 2 years from now and I've already made plans what I want to see there. I have a list of places I need to visit arranged in order so I could visit as many places in the most effective way because I don't want to waste my precious time spend there. I also enjoy telling people about my plans of going there as it makes me really excited. The unknown excites me and I enjoy wandering around a city I visit for the first time because I don't know it.

I can’t type off of this specifically yet but it’s interesting because you have extremely detailed plans (more of a sensing thing) but for a trip that I can’t imagine you’ve finalized if it’s that far off.

Wandering around cities is great though, I agree with you there.

I'm also really good at remembering routes and getting to the destination. I like figuring out how to get there.

Maybe immature Si user actually? Getting really indignant about poor use of Si, plus that bit about the bible I said I wouldn’t unpack sounds like it could be as well especially if paired with Fe and/or Christian views of religion.

I'm a bit reserved at first as I need to test the waters before I decide I like someone. It takes me sometime to warm up but I actually enjoy small talk and feel tempted to speak to a cashier at shop or a fellow passenger at bus which isn't as socially acceptable at my country so I don't really do this - I don't want to come across as a weird person but at the same time, (4/???)

I'm not really bothered to play a social game and I often seem to be rude (resting bitch face, actually I'm not judgmental and I'm quite chill about most of things). I know in mbti e vs i isn't perceived in a traditional way but I identify as ambivert as most of people, heh. My introverted friends say I'm an extravert but extraverts find me a quiet girl. I'm also 9w1 if that helps.

Yeah I’m thinking ISFJ now honestly, not wanting to violate social norms, introverted but enjoys small talk, and 9w1 goes with ISFJ a lot.

I've been also always thought to be a smart one who knows a lot of stuff about many things (5/???)

I could say I'm a walking contradiction as I mentioned in my previous post btw I'm sorry I asked you to type me with a vague info, this time I put a lot of effort ♡ Oh god please don’t say you’re a walking contradiction, I truly believe your intentions are good here and I do not hold this against you but that phrase is what guys who think they’re going to make it in a band despite having no talent say in their tinder bios.

At first I was sure I'm Ne/Si but now I see a possibility of being Ni/Se.I often forget what I'm supposed to do as I've just done because I had this super relevant thing to write but I forgot, damn it.

You seem very nice and perhaps just sort of young so I would suggest...writing this in advance instead of stream of consciousness which might help you organize your thoughts and edit yourself a little? I’m writing this response in advance. Like 90% of my answers I write in a Google Doc and then paste it into the Tumblr askbox later. It’s great.

(6/???) I'm getting lost in the numbers

Hard same.

I'm also quite stubborn and I'll study a thing as long as it's needed for me to fully understand it - it drives me crazy when I study for an exam, I ask my friend for help because I don't understand the concept and she tells me I don't need to understand it, I just need to memorize it.

Sounds very much like Ti here, which fits the earlier typing of Fe-user.

I do things for 101% or I don't do it at all.

I’m guilty of saying this too; I think many people see this quality in themselves unfortunately and I’m not sure it ultimately means much.

I also have a friend who helps me to stay grounded as she remembers some stuff for me and I'm pretty sure I'll be lost without her (7/???) I didn't think I wrotesomuch

yeah...about that.

I'm quite oblivious on daily basis, I went through school hallway and didn't notice a big ballot box. I only notice things when i want to and it's not a natural thing for me. But when I do pay attention, I'm sometimes mischievous on purpose and enjoy pushing buttons of others. I work on not doing it, I promiseI have a great talent to focusing on irrelevant things and I struggle to do well in my infp teacher classes - even though I know I need a shitload of details from readings (8/???)

So here’s the thing: I really don’t think you use Ni. First of all, the stream of consciousness thing tends to be something Ni users don’t like to do in my experience: they like to edit. They also just...don’t sound the way you do? Like this is rambly but it’s coherent in a way an INFJ ramble of this nature wouldn’t be. You could be an INTP actually with rigid low Si and Fe instead of immature higher Si though. But I’m pretty confident at this point you use the Fe-Ti and Ne-Si axes.

One thing I do find funny, even though I suppose I set people up for it, is when I get asks that are like “here is the detailed description of when I didn’t notice a detail and here is what I didn’t notice”. Like, we do all miss things and while it’s more common in intuitives, my legally-blind-without-glasses Si-dom mother does this too because she can’t see for shit, so.

to do well in exam, I always choose things that aren't relevant to her. She's an excellent teacher and I enjoy her insights. As for Ni/Se, I'm amazed how many things my peers do without thinking about consequences. For example, I wouldn't drink till I'm unconscious because I know I would upset my parents. I perceived it as ni, might be wrong though.

You are wrong in that this isn’t Ni, it’s called basic self-preservation. I’ve gotten extremely drunk from time to time in my life but I have never gotten drunk to the point of involuntary passing out because that is when you fucking die. Your instincts are correct here, your reasoning about your parents is probably Fe, but your decision itself is not Ni.

(9/???) Now, I'm geniually sorry I wrote so much even though I'm not usually but this case is special

I appreciate the apology but this is something I often observe with people who use Fe: they’ll apologize several timesfor long asks or asks that ignore the FAQ or whatever, but like, they still do it. I’ve had to have this conversation IRL with Fe users actually, of “I’m really not looking for an apology, I’m looking for the thing you’ve apologized for to stop.” That is a whole other post about communication though that I may make tomorrow.

I'm also really into helping others[(what contradicts with my mischief, here we go again (I didn't like the 2nd part of mamma Mia as much as the first - it was too sad, I cried in the cinema and the holiday-happy-vibe was missing, it's off topic, isnt it, the second part is called mamma mia: here we go again and I liked the first part so much I watched it like 20 times and know all the songs by heart)] (10/???)

This was the point where I decided to start fucking with you and to turn off anon, not going to lie, because I hadn’t read the rest but I saw 10/??? after an off-topic post about Mamma Mia and was like “okay we’re going to finish it now”

Anyway from this whole thing I cannot decide if you are an ISFJ or INTP, but I’m going to guess INTP as the 9w1 might be what was making me think high Fe before.

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