#super tamade

[u-know-too-much]

Red flag ko is super toxic akong kagrupo lmaoo

#never takes responsibility #hindi satisfied lagi #perfectionist pero tamad #commanding #laging nanghihingi ng kung ano ano #procrastinator #super late 'pag nagiinquire #and many more lol #ayq n s sarili q #ang dami kong sinasabi ab others pero haha ang dami q din naman mistakes

[senfloweeer]

Comfort series namin ni Ysidore ang F.R.I.E.N.D.S. kaya nung sinabi niyang gusto niya mag-plan ng bachelorette party for me, medyo may idea na ako na ganito ang gagawin niya. Medyo hindi pa nga ako naniwala knowing na tamad din siya sa mga ganito hahahahaha.

Thank you for pulling this off, Su. Super love kita!!!

… and thank you sa college constants ko na pumunta kahit busy na tayong lahat sa kanya-kanyang life. See you all soon! 🥰

#photodump

[shoodleynoodle]

alexa, play no thinking over the weekend by carly rae jepsen ♡

spent my whole weekend at @tikboy-qt 's kasi magbibirthday si mommy at para makapagbond na rin dahil off nya. nung friday night, nanood kami ng movies at uminom ng gin pomelo kase low budgeted lang ang hangout at di namin afford mag-fred's twice a month. ahahaha. tinry din namin i-replicate yung cheeesy garlic fries nila gamit yung cheese sauce recipe ng mama ko tapos masarap naman siya!!! happy kami sa result at enjoy na enjoy rin si eli sa crunchy garlic. ahahaha.

napanood ko na past lives before with friends pero di ko siya nacomprehend kase naglalaro ako codm non tas parang majority ng movie ay korean kaya wala ako nagets masyado tapos neto ko lang nagets yung plot ahahaha. okay naman sya for me. dito siguro nanggaling yung tiktok trend na do you think we're still ____ in other lifetimes? ahahaha very totga/invisible string core. pero (spoiler siguro) ang tatag at super understanding rin ni arthur kase kung sa akin iiyak yung partner ko dahil sa childhood sweetheart niya mag-o-overthink ako gabi-gabi eh. ahahaha.

first time ko rin mapanood yung perks of being a wallflower kasi antagal siya nasa watch list ko pero never ko talaga naisipan panoorin di ko rin alam bakit. pucha, heavy pala ang topic non akala ko coming of age movie walanjo. ahahaha. nagulat kami kase akala namin feel-good movie eh. natulog na lang rin akong mentally disturbed ahahahaha.

happy naman ang weekend ko at andito pa rin ako sakanila hanggang ngayon pero uuwi na rin ako maya-maya huhu tamad me. iniisip ko pa lang na may pasok na uli bukas parang pagod na ako agad. ahahahaha. kaya ko to. saka dapat kayanin ko kase ang kapal ng muka ko ilang oras lang naman ako nagtatrabaho. ahahahaha. okay babay.

#n #skl #photodump

[bbarican]

february 28, 2024; 10:02 pm - life updates

finally have time to sit down and talk about everything that's been happening recently and im so excited to just get everything out

work:

work is okay only because my officemates; pero grabe yung isang boss namin, i dont want to go into full detail pero sobrang toxic niya and its affecting everyone and i really wish our other boss can do something about it

i have so so so so so much to do and tbh honest i dont know paano ko siya kinakaya

we worked the ticket booth nung weekend sa bobapalooza and it was super stressful pero at the same time the pay is good so okay lang plus also duh free concert and food and drinks so i have little to complain about really

life:

im just so excited for the weekend kahit na may work ako on saturday; im excited to sleep in on sunday and possibly offset a day next week

may sweldo na bukas thank you lord plus the money i made off of working nung weekend is good too

my bestfriend and i were supposed to go to a rug making thing in bf pero naubusan kami ng slots

im sick! and i hate it! grabe yung ubo ko, i dont know if its from all the pagod of last week or may allergies ba ko idk

love:

SURPRISE MAY INPUT NA KO FOR THIS ONE

long story short may old flame na bumalik and we're talking and trying again and i have such a good feeling about this one and im so so so so so thankful and excited

pero syempre i dont want to be overly expectant and excited but at the same time ito na yun, literally i prayed for this kind of love to happen kaya sana mag patuloy siya

narealize ko halfway through writing these updates, there's not much for me to say unless gusto kong mag nobela pero ayoko kasi nga tamad ako but overall - kinakaya naman guys. i miss the times though na everyday lahat kaming magfrends nandito lang sa tumblr, but im glad everyone's doing okay somehow.

good night, tumblr!

#updates #thoughts #writings #life #journal

[sunb0rn]

mejo super late na kasi sabi ko ipic ko mga bigay mo na mattry-on ko kaso tamad na tamad din ako magbihis kung wala rin pupuntahan. naisip ko kapag may lakad nalang, at makakasuot ako ng isa sa mga yon then tsaka ako mag aapreciation post. hindi ko na rin na-pic yung plastic bag kasi kailangan ko nang iligpit pero legit ang dami. HAHAHA

pero dahil fiesta naman dito sa amin at tapat sa bday mo, nagsuot ako ng isa sa dresses kahit kakain at mag rereview lang naman.

Happy Birthday Mel @m3lisssss4 !! 🎉

thanks for the cute clothes, actually ang una kong nasuot ay yung pink linen?? top, kahapon yon kasi mag popost na sana ako kaso di picture ready yung review face ko.

thanks sa linen spray, nagagamit ko na sya sa apartment. ang bango niya feel ko natutulog ako sa hotel. hahaha.

thanks most especially sa note na kasama 🥹 for the kind words always maski dito sa platform, for appreciating the person that I am kahit di pa tayo ganon ka close.

hopefully we really get a chance to bond nang personal at hindi nalang picture ko suot damit mo yung nasa post.

praying for all the blessings na deserve mo sa buhay na ito!! rooting for you as well!! isa ka sa mga babae na inaadmire ko dito.

cheers! 🥂🍻

#thoughts

[batangantukin]

College to Board Exam

Di to mala-MMK na journey haha gusto ko lang sya ishare😆.

ChE wasn't really my 1st choice before college. Gusto ko sana eh Foodtech kaso sabi ng parents, ChE na lang daw. As a masunurin na anak, tinake ko ang ChE. Syempre sa college, bagong environment, new friends, classmates saka prof so need natin magadjust at magadapt. During my 1st year, nakaadjust naman ako so far, satisfying naman yung grades ko nung 1st sem. Nung 2nd sem naman, unfortunately bumagsak ako sa Physics 1. First disappointment ko sya nung college kasi di ko rin inexpect na babagsak ako don. Even my friends, nagulat na bumagsak ako don haha (alam nyo yan guys😏😆). But this failure didn't stop me from pursuing ChE. Luckily, naretake ko sya during my summer class so regular pa rin ang person.

2nd year was the deciding year for us. Nandon na kasi yung ibang majors ng ChE. At that time, I somehow like the chemistry subjects especially orgchem. Not to brag or anything, but somehow natutuwa ako aralin sya kahit mahirap. As for analytical chemistry, nagustuhan ko rin kaso ayon dito ako nagdoubt sa sarili ko if gusto ko ituloy ang ChE. I remember na nagbreakdown ako kasi bumagsak ako sa isang test sa Achem, nagaral kasi ako non pero ayon I didn't meet my expectations so ayon. Tanda ko na sinabi ko sa parents ko na gusto ko na magshift sa BS Chem, only if bumagsak ako sa kahit anong subject nung 2nd year. Luckily, I passed all of my subjects so tuloy ang ChE.

3rd year wasn't the best year kasi don nagstart ang pandemic so nagshift sa online class. Online class is not for me kasi di talaga ako matuto pero I don't have any choice. Fast forward tayo sa 4th year and thesis days. During our thesis, nagstruggle kami sa experiment due to some problems. For the compre part, I failed so delay talaga ako ng isang sem. During that time, tanggap ko na delay talaga ako kasi nga di pa tapos ang thesis tas bagsak pa sa compre. So niretake ko yung compre, while finishing our thesis. I passed naman yung compre and nadefend namin yung thesis (duration nung thesis ay almost 2 years ata😆).

During review naman, I wasn't able to finish my backlogs kasi nagstart yung review ng Dec eh nagfafinals pa kami non saka nagdedefense. Nung lumipat na me sa Manila for the f2f review, as usual nagadjust at tinatamad. Pinipilit ko sarili ko magreview kasi nga mahal ang gastos sa Manila. During the duration of the review, most of the time natutulog ako, naglalaro emel, nagala at nainom😆. Sorry na kaagad pero wala talaga napasok sa utak ko pag tamad na tamad na ako magreview. Nung last 2 months of the review, ayon medyo nagseryoso na ng slight pero tulog at emel is life pa rin.

Fast forward, preboards sa review center so ayon I didn't pass sa any subjects merong mga almost 70% na pero yung day 2 ko talaga di man lang nag 50% hahaha. Pero sabi nga samin, di naman preboards magdedetermine if papasa kami or not.

Side story, nagsisimba pala ako sa St Jude every Thursday. At that time kasi, si Lord kinakapitan ko kasi super stressful ang review.

Before the day of our board exam, graduation day namin so super hassle kasi after grad, kumain lang ako with parents tas deretso na sa Manila. The night before nung board exam, nagrereview pa rin ng slight, recall ng formulas ganon. Actually, every night ganon ang ginagawa namin. I wasn't really confident with my answers kasi more than 30% ay puro hula especially nung day 2. Day 1 kasi ang weird kasi di ako kinakabahan pero wahhh thankful ako na sya naghila sakin netong boards. For day 2, di sya yung ineexpect ko kasi akala ko puro problem solving pero hnng daming concepts. As for day 3 naman, di ko alam kahit may mga analgeom eh ayaw ko non so forda hula na ulit.

Nung hintayan ng results, nagoff ako ng notifs kasi ayaw ko makita yung results kasi kinakabahan ako hahaha. Nung lumabas sya, I was eating my dinner sa kwarto ko tapos out of habit pinindot ko yung messenger tas nakita ko may nagcocongrats sakin so chineck ko yung site, I passed🥹🥲. I ran out tas pumunta me sa kusina kasi nandon ang parents tas ayon I said to my dad while crying, "Dade, may engineer na kayo!"

[denjis-chainsaws]

Sources & Characters

Long list, so it's going under the readmore!! If a source or character is not listed on here, I will NOT write for them! Only because I live under a rock and take forever to get into new stuff and get comfortable with a character enough to write them.

I'm not limited to solely character x reader! I do character headcanons, too!! As long as it's not just canon x canon, I'll try writing any SFW topic. I will NEVER write NSFW, regardless of if the character is an adult or minor. And characters 14 or younger and pet / animal characters will only be written in platonic or familial scenarios.

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Special Notes:

- Personal character headcanons are allowed to be included in requests. Eg. trans-masc. Yu Narukami from Persona 4, agender + ADHD Happy Chaos from Guilty Gear, autistic Denji from Chainsaw Man, etc.

- For characters with questionable gender representation and/or fanon interpretations, they will be written as gender neutral or genderfluid characters unless requested otherwise. Eg. Naoto Shirogane from Persona 4 will be written as genderfluid with any pronouns.

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Key:

Bold = Lots of writing experience / favorite to write

Italics = Little writing experience / not very familiar with

Normal = Decent writing experience / good enough feel to write

Small Text = Platonic / Familial ONLY

- Chainsaw Man

Denji, Power, Aki Hayakawa

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- Guilty Gear

Happy Chaos, Bridget, Sol Badguy/Frederick Bulsara, Jack-O, I-No, Baiken, May, Asuka R. Kreutz/That Man, Nagoriyuki, Giovanna, Goldlewis Dickinson

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- Persona 3

Male Protagonist (any name, defaults to Minato Arisato), Female Protagonist (any name, defaults to Hamuko Arisato), Yukari Takeba, Junpei Iori, Fuuka Yamagishi, Mitsuru Kirijo, Akihiko Sanada, Ken Amada, Koromaru, Shinjiro Aragaki

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- Persona 4

Yu Narukami (or Souji Seta), Yosuke Hanamura, Chie Satonaka, Yukiko Amagi, Kanji Tatsumi, Rise Kujikawa, Naoto Shirogane, Teddie, Tohru Adachi, Ryotaro Dojima

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- Persona 5

Joker (any name, defaults to Ren Amamiya), Morgana, Ryuji Sakamoto, Ann Takamaki, Yusuke Kitagawa, Makoto Nijima, Futaba Sakura, Haru Okumura, Goro Akechi, Sojiro Sakura, Tae Takemi, Sae Nijima, Yuuki Mishima

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- Dragon Ball

Son Goku, Son Gohan, Chi-Chi, Vegeta, Bulma, Piccolo, Freiza, Perfect Cell, Raditz, Krillin, Yamcha, the Ginyu Force (all of them), Broly (Super + Original)

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- AKIRA

Shotaro Kaneda, Tetsuo Shima, Kai, Yamagata, Kei, Kaori

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- TMNT (2012)

Leonardo, Raphael, Donatello, Michelangelo, April O'Neil, Casey Jones, Splinter

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- Bandori / BanG Dream

Kokoro Tsurumaki, Nanami Hiromachi, Chiyu Tamade (Chu²)

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[papersparrows]

How do you cope up on a bad day?

Oof. I'm not sure if I'm the right person to ask about this as I literally suffer from bipolar disorder hahaha. Bad days are extra harder because it's hard for me to regulate my emotions in a better & healthier way. I just kind of suffer from getting so overwhelmed that I wanna explode and I often go through some kind of episode hahahajsksksk 🥲

But if you wanna know what I do when it happens anyway...

1.) Rant to someone I trust lol. Reklamadora mode ganon hahah. Someone I know who will always listen and give me sound advice and would just let me get all my emotions out about a certain thing that happened. It just helps to get it out of your system, at least for me it does. Of course do it with someone who is willing and emotionally available to be there for you. I don't want to burden somebody else with my troubles.

2.) I stress eat hahahaha. Not the best thing to do but whatever na lang treat yo self ganon char. Would cook something good for myself o kaya pag masyadong stressed or tamad, oorder na lang lol. I have terrible eating habits so pls don't listen to my advice but anyway that's what I do. And of course, iced coffee. I get super irritable pag di nagkakape. Yes I am fully aware that I am actually literally addicted to caffeine and that's a symptom of caffeine addiction pag masyadong dependent yung mood ko sa kape... pero wala ganon eh HAHA. Medyo survival mode kasi ako with my BD so I just have to do something that will make me feel better instantly and help my mood kahit na di siya magandang habit.

3.) RELEASE. I would either watch a show/movie to cry to. Or listen to music that would make me cry. Or pleasure myself and cum looooool. Or all of the above ahahaha. Hey, it works!!

4.) If I'm not looking to cry or release my emotions and tension, and if I just want to feel comfortable, I would watch my comfort shows lang plus food :) Usually sitcoms, cartoon shows that I love (spongebob or the amazing world of gumball are my go-to), or adult swim type shows, o kaya I just watch whatever shows up sa YT feed ko hahaha usually game plays or cooking vids pinapanood ko.

[64606460]

kanina pa ako nagbabasa sa thread na to hahaha. as person na, struggling pa din until now kung anong gustong career, nagbasa talaga ako baka makakapulot ako ng ideya, mangongopya nalang talaga ako hehe. based talaga sa mga sagutan, depende talaga sa partner no, sana if ever bibigyan ako ulit ng pagkakataon to have one, sana hindi nakakapressure, or nasa level ko lang din. ang hirap kasi kapag super taas nung isa, para bang nappressure ka to do kore ginawa ko kasing kakumpetensya siguro ? haha tangina kasing mindset to. pero idk pagod na talaga ako. wala ng kalatuy-latuy buhay ko. pagnakagraduate mga kapatid ko, Lord pede nyo na akong i-pull out sa merkado ipatapon, labelan mg expired na. kasi diko na alam gagawens. gusto ko pa naman ifigure out, kaso hindi ko alam where should i start. pede din kasing tamad ako, and the environment na kinalalagyan ko ang problema. nakakapagod na umiyak ng walang dahilan, pagod na tumatagos hanggang buto. parang satisfied na ako now, hindi ko na din naman sure na maganda ang magiging future kasibsa dami ng nangyayare din sa mundo, baka kapag biglang nakuha ko na ang right way, bigla naman akong bombahin ng mga chekwanginang yan! hahahaha! so, nugagawen? magaling pa nga'y ibala sa kanyon ng may pakinabang

#rant #random #thoughts #me #personal

[tokwattoge]

Simula nagpandemic lalo akong hindi nag make up. Clear skin ako at tamad ako as a person kaya hindi ako nagmamake up ng madami kahit dati pa. Tamang concealer lang onting bb cream kilay and lippie. Nung nagpandemic lippie lang talaga haha!

Super naappreciate ko yung new products ngayon like Issy & Co. tsaka GRWM. Pre-pandemic, happy skin and BLK ang naappreciate ko eh. Ngayon mas nadagdagan pa. Although hindi pa ako nakakabili kasi wala akong pambili, baka subukan ko yung concealer from Issy & Co. and lippie from both companies first mentioned. Pag naubos na yung ginagamit ko buy na talaga me pang work haha sana magkawork na partner ko!!! HAHHAH

[funsize-mermaid]

Another tita purchase. Ang pag budol sa sarili. 😂 pero super worth it nga. Speed maglinis ng bahay. 😂

Dati kasi ayaw ng mom ko ng vacuum. Parang sabe nya ang tamad lang magwalis ganon. Pero heh, wala na sya magagawa kase struggle na talaga mag walis ng balahibo ng pusa 😂

[shoodleynoodle]

04.21.24 ~

Angels walk!! Super pagod pero kebs na rin kasi super happy talaga umattend ng ganitong events, saka kasalanan ko rin naman kasi di ako natulog agad kagabi pagkauwi kahit alam kong maaga lakad ko kinabukasan. Ahahaha. Wala ako masyadong picture sa phone kasi pinahawak ako ng camera ng tatay ko tas di ko naman matransfer pa kasi tamad pa ako. Ahahahaha. Super daming performances, grabe, super aliw. Para talaga siyang concert (unlike nung happy walk na andaming interactive booths pero gets rin naman kasi magkaiba naman talaga ng case and preference and mga nasa spectrum vs mga may ds) tsaka andami rin nilang guest celebrities na advocate for autism. Gusto ko lang rin sabihin na ang ganda ni michelle dee at rhian ramos. Ahahaha. Super dami rin attendees kasi napuno yung moa arena. Di ko inexpect yung ganung karaming tao kasi first time ko so akala ko yung tulad lang nung sa happy walk na smx ras super puno. Pero ayun, super enjoy talaga saka ansaya talaga sumalubong ng mga nagpaparada!!!

Saka share ko na rin na lalo akong nagkadrive na magpursue ng devped (kahit gano siya katagal at kahirap trabahuhin grr) upon knowing kanina na 96 lang ang practicing and certified devpeds sa pinas. Last time i checked (2019 ata), 51 lang sila tas puro sa luzon lang rin kaya super nakakamotivate talaga kasi nasa 1 million families yung merong household member na may asd. Eh imagine, asd pa lang yon, paano pa yung mga may adhd, ds, etc? Agawan na lang talaga. Kaya di ka na rin magtataka na andaming bata ang hindi nadidiagnose kaya hirap sa schooling and life in general eh. Wala lang, ang sad lang rin talaga kung iisipin.

Anyways, sobrang fun and eye/mind-opening experience talaga umattend ng ganitong events kaya vow ko sa sarili ko na yearly ako aattend na ng walks, with or without the parents. Ahahaha.

#n #skl #diary #angels walk 2024

[bbarican]

october 21, 2023; 8:59 pm - weekend

hi tumblr, happy weekend! kamusta naman kayo? how are your weekends so far?

as usual, just dropping by to post some updates here (usually and mostly for myself but if you do end up reading these, thank you ♡)

personal:

today was super lovely, we ended up going to makati for lunch and a bit of shopping

my mom bought us new sunnies and im super happy kasi i have new pair to wear to our trips soon

we tried sunnies coffee's spanish latte and tbh sobrang sarap niya as in super high quality ng lasa niya not like pick up coffee or but first coffee (imo!) which i kind of expected na ganun yung lasa niya kasi theyre primarily not a brand that sells drinks talaga to begin with but it was a 10/10 for me; im excited to try their matcha tho

i decluttered my closet and i feel so light and happy about it kasi super konti nalang talaga yung natira and im 300% sure na yung mga tinira ko is sinusuot ko naman talaga

the clothes i took out, i plan on donating sa h&m since they do offer vouchers in return so im excited to do that too

food today was good too, we had shake shack for lunch, then i made my favorite cheesy bread with hot honey for dinner

im excited for tomorrow kasi my dad is finally back from japan!

im so excited for 1989 taylor's version too! i keep forgetting na i really like the songs on this album pala talaga

its my mom's birthday next week and im just excited to spend it with her; im sad na i dont have extra money to get her anything this year pero babawi nalang ako sakanya for sure

work:

i have quite a bit to do tomorrow to prep for my end of the month mtg on monday

again, for some reason kinakabahan ako pero i know naman na everything's gonna work out

we also have a sponty general assembly kasi we need all the help we can get from the designers na hindi masyadong loaded to help those who are busy to turnover their projects this and next month

im just always excited to see my office besties; i love how makulit we all are tapos nag tutugma talaga ugali naming lahat

oh my god you guys may kinaiinisan ako na officemate kol; tamad na ko to make another post about him pero long story short super tanga niya and i hate him

im so excited as in super super super excited for our company outing

friends:

this is a shocker even until now pero i really feel like 100% break na yung best friend ko and his boyfriend of 7 years

its really sad and heartbreaking kasi the guy even planned on proposing to my bestfriend na pero i know my bestfriend deserves better talaga especially with how theyve been these past few months

i miss them! noel and chesy are officially on their own and chevy is still doing her thing and i will forever be grateful na they are safe and happy

id love to meet new people though; i feel like meeting new people would be so exciting

love:

i still have bumble on my phone and the biggest update i can give yall is the fact na i just adjusted the ange range to 27-40 i think HAHA

cause i really dont want to date younger men UNLESS theyre super mature and not super bata pa talaga ng pagiisip

but yeah other than that wala as in wala akong kausap and sometimes it takes a toll on me but most of the time im fine

again, thank you for reading and caring about my updates, i love you ♡

#bbarican #personal #thoughts #writings #updates #dump #list

[0nan]

My life's in a routine rn and it's actually going pretty great. Idk but wtf is this even. I mean, I wake up, office, straight home, play video games, sleep, repeat. 🤣 Yep, enrolled sa gym pero di ata kaya ng mental state ko or ng puyat kong gumising ng 6am HAHAHAHA I mean, am I ready to sacrifice this godly state that my mind is in?? I'm doing pretty great at work, ngl, sobrang in trance ako, di ako inaantok or tinatamad when it comes to work!!! HAHAHAHAH oh but tamad na ako in almost everything, even when talking to people, super few na lang kausap ko everyday 💀💀 di ko na din kinakausap yung nag a-I miss you sa akin bc duh HAHAHHAHA Nakakatamad e..

Oh ye, how are you guys doing? Hope you're having it great. Take care

#p

[sunb0rn]

gusto ko mahanap yung guy na nakita ko don sa gig hahahaha umaasa ako na makita sana sa IG ng Stick Figgas (halimbawa nag tag tas isshare nila ung story) kaso di nag popost yung band IG maski members eh. tamad naman ako mag IG kaya di ko din mababantayan tlaga kung may isa man sa kanila na mag story ng night na yon.

may dala syang cam, isip ko nga photog ng event pero nung set na ksi ng Stick Figgas parang super kabisado nya mga tinugtog so baka fan lang din??

though di ko man sya nakita buong event (so malay ko din if ganon din with other sets), unless siguro kung ginusto ko tlga magpa pansin hahaha. focus ako siempre maka pwesto ng maganda para sa bands ko 🫶🏻 minsan lang mapanuod eh, first pa sa Sinag.

bali nakita ko lang sya nung maluwag pa yung bistro tas every now and then nalang sa ibang artist, nsa kabilang side din kasi sya naka pwesto (left side of the stage ako). pero nung set na ng Stick, pumwesto na sya sa gitna tas super sabay sa lahat ng tracks. baka yon na yung soulmate ko_final. charrr

napansin ko lang tlga siya from the start pa, looks, porma, tas yung hair nya katulad ng hair ko nung kerly pa hahaha.

#try ko makapunta sa mga sunod na gigs din ng Stick lalo na mukang last few performances nalang ata with Tuts Calinawan??! #well sana di pa yon ang last #we.deserve.farewell.gig #kung tama pagka gets ko sa sinabi ni Loonie #ll

[ineffablyrandom]

January 31, 2023:

Eto lang ang mga ganaps. Halatang tamad na tamad na ko HAHAHAHAHAHA CHAROT.

Last day of January pumunta ako sa bestfriend ko sa place niya. I am super excited and super proud of her kase bumukod na siya sa parents niya. Actually dapat last year niya pa plano pero since mahirap humanap ng place na maganda at may safety ang security since titira lang siya mag isa sa isang place, matagal bago siya nakahanap.

Ngayong year lang siya ng January nakalipat. Super proud ako and happy for her because that's the goal. Sabi niya "Baaarbs. This year ikaw din." Sabi ko "Oo this year or next year, makakapag sarili na din ako."

Hopefully.

So ayun nga. Pumunta ako dun to celebrate with her sa another achieved goals niya. We always talked about it. We dreamed of having our own place and sabi ko kapag nabubwisit ako sa bahay pwede na ko pumunta sa kaniya. She asked me if gusto ko maging roomies kame. Sabi ko, gusto ko. Syempre gustong gusto ko. Pero I want her to experience yung ganon. Mag isa sa sarili niyang place.

I bought sparkling white wine and pizza. Non alcoholic kase di ko ni-plan na mag overnight stay. Sabi ko sa kaniya next time na lang.

We ate. We laugh. We talked about things. Our dreams etc. it was a fun night. Mag 11 PM na ata ako umuwi.

Nagsabi ako sa kaniya na naka leave ako ng one week ng February. Last week. Sabi ko gusto ko mag solo travel. Kaya nabudol niya ko na mag book agad ng plane ticket papuntang El Nido. HAHAHAHA. Pero dahil sabi ko parang need ko pa mag ready, masyadong mabilis. Wala pa kong maleta. (Nanghihiram lang ako before). Ayoko naman na manghiram ulit. So sabi ko need ko muna bumili. Especially mga gagamitin ko. Wala akong time na mag ready if sa February agad. So sabi ko April na lang. That's the story on how I impulsively decided to go on a solo trip to El Nido Palawan. I mean that was a plan naman talaga. One of my goals or kasama sa bucket list ko. Makapag travel solo sa Palawan or Batanes. Basically inudyukan niya lang ako ng inudyukan talaga hahahahahaha. So I booked for a travel agency kase feeling ko di ko kakayanin if DIY. Sabi ko saka na lang pag mas may confident na ko. Sa ngayon, medyo kabado pa ako. And excited at the same time. Ilang beses ko ngang tinitignan yung plane ticket ko. Paulit ulit. Hahahahaha.

February 6, 2023:

Wala naman masyado ganap nung 1 hanggang ngayon. Aside sa dumating na yung inorder kong maleta. Bumili ako ng sizes Large, Medium and Small.

Bumili si mama ng makina. Para manahi. Yun lang ata pagkakaabalahan niya naman. Bumili din siya ng foam sa Uratex. Kaya may mga bago kaming unan.

Nag enjoy si Qielli gawing sofa yung foam HAHAHAHA.

I feel sad today. So sana, sana tomorrow ma-lift naman yung mood ko.