i don't even know if it's because we haven't been in. as stressful of situations because we graduated high school a while so it's been less. stress inducing for almost everything else but man i can't tell if we're going through some major system changes or not bc everything is much fuzzier than usual
that being said i think i've taken over for cy as the main host? maybe? i don't. know but he doesn't front as much now (idk if it's related to roleplay reasons or not but either way. i think rp reasons are why i'm here more bc i'm literally just rping an au version of my source self since i'm an octive lol)
DJSJJDJFJJSHSHSJSJDJ my mom was just talking to me about college and she was like “don’t get TOO CLOSE to anyone” which is desi parent code for 🚫🚫 don’t be in a relationship you have to study 🚫🚫 and then she added “boys or girls” and im like ???????????? DOES SHE KNOW DJDKJSKFJJDJSJDJDJ
i just found out my grandparents are in mumbai what the ACTUAL FUCK they could have taken me with them and i could have gone for the fanfest and seen my fave for like the one time I’ll ever get the chance to see Troye or Cnnor but SADLY NO ONE TELLS ME ANYTHING AND IT’S TOO LATE AND I WANT TO CRY
you ever read a fic and it was good overall but some details made you audibly scoff like how dare you to write this like that.. or like the characters' depiction is not completely wrong but so strangely out of touch... i don't know... just all the small things
lowkey freaking out about my life and future in this Chili's tonight... whatever i'm doing or not doing seems wrong and never leads to anything and i cannot deny it's becoming very... VERY hard to keep up, at least, neutral demeanor about things... positive thinking is not working anymore.