#that's pretty fucking weak; that's my mom's parents tier stuff

[medicinemane]

Actually there is one thing I may legit start doing once I have my social anxiety a bit better tamped down on is when someone's telling me how their kid's just kind of a bum who doesn't have a job and hangs out in their room all day (why the fuck are you telling a stranger, once it was a nurse telling me this stuff and it's like... that's real messed up you're badmouthing your kid to a patient)

I think I'm gonna try and hit them with a "sounds to me like they may be depressed" (cause... it does)

Gonna take some work to feel like dealing with this stuff, but... I think I need to start basically trying to sound sympathetic to the parent, while also reframing it as "it sure sounds like they're struggling and could really use some support right now"

Cause once again... that is literally what it sounds like to me

You fools, you've got no idea you're talking to a fucking worthless loser. I will always go to bat for the isolated fuck up who can't get a job, cause that's just me. Don't bad mouth your kid to someone that's got more in common with you kid than with you, I know what it feels like to be in that situation, I'll always go to bat for them and think you're being a cry baby and need to grow up and actually parent

#shout out to the dental assistant who was like 'oh... you're 25? you've got plenty of time; I know you'll figure this out' #as opposed to they hygienist who was like 'oh you can't afford this toothbrush? maybe you should move back in with your mom' #like... what the fuck lady? you say that shit to a literal patient? ...you think that's good business #meanwhile the first lady... just can't express how much people like that mean to the world #I will always work to be a 'you're doing alright kid' kind of person rather than a critical jackass #and maybe some day I can work to lean on parents to make them feel a bit guilty about shitting on their kid instead of supporting them #cause they 100% should feel guilty #'but I feed them and I put a roof over their head'; yeah... that's called being a parent; that's bare minimum #I fucking do the same for my mom; and it sucks still playing parent; but even I manage to avoid guilting her #and I never had a kid; yet I'm pulling that off #you did... you can get on my level #and it's so sad you're not on my level when I'm fucking pathetic #you letting a loser be better than you? you've got less manners than some scum? #that's pretty fucking weak; that's my mom's parents tier stuff #and they were always feuding with a literal child and being made to look like fools when their plan always fucking failed #like... good job; you tricked a kid into eating banana despite not like it... and then they didn't like it and you looked dumb #that's who you people look like when you complain about your kids #I'm not saying raising a kid is easy; do I look like I want to do it? #but I'm saying once they're here... they kind of get priority now #and you never ever get to call them a burden #cause you had them; it's 100% your fault they're here; you have a duty now and you don't get to complain about them #now it can be a hard task; and you can be like... man... it's fucking killing me doing what needs to be done... it's a lot to deal with #but you don't get to treat them like a burden #...eh... I've got feelings on this #and the feelings are mostly just being pissed off about it

[redskull-fanatic]

Reasons to Love the Red Skull

Now, I know what you're thinking. I know all of it. All the reasons you hate him, all the justifications, all the go to sayings that make you say "Fuck the Red Skull." However, I'm here to celebrate this character.

I am a woman who loves villains. Villains are my passion and pride, and honestly Red Skull is just the best villain I've ever had the pleasure to stumble across. Many call him a Nazi, an asshole, and such. I, however, am here to put a different prospective on the character. Why those who love the Red Skull do, and why in such a horrible, nasty man, we find joy in him.

Feel free to disagree, to scream and call me names. I honestly don't mind. I'm just trying to tell others why I adore the Red Skull, and why he's my favorite marvel character in history. Bring him in a light that many won't consider.

Btw, I also love Steve Rogers so that should give me some credit, right?

Appearance. Now, I don't remember how exactly I saw The Red Skull, but when I did, I fell in love with his appearance. I really like skulls and skeletons, so his face was already beautiful to me. His whole dictator look is also very nice, and skeletons mixed in with the army is my favorite aesthetic. Red and dark greys also look nice together(I'm an artist so I love color schemes), and I love how he and the captain reflect history! I'm a big history nerd and World War Two is fascinating to learn about. Skull just makes it a lot more fun, just to see him with something from the 40s. Plus, he does bring awareness to the holocaust. Keeps it fresh in people's minds so we don't forget.

Obsession with Power. Skull is basically the definition of "Dictator." He strikes fear into his Hydra army, has a fucking cool symbol for his empire(don't know why it's a fucking octopus if its for an empire called Hydra, but okay Skull), got a salute and everything. However, a big trait about this character is power hungry. We all know he joins the Nazi army, but why? Well, I'm new to Marvel and going off a fandom wiki so cut me slack He met Hitler and talked about his theories of myths being science. Adolf was intrigued, wanted to learn more, and Heinrich Himmler recruited him into the SS. He had his fun there, until eventually.. His views started to change. He believed he was rightfully the superior race, he used any means necessary to obtain a central position in the army. That was, until the serum in his veins made him believe he was greater than Hitler and started to plan to overthrow him. Schmidt doesn't believe Germans are the master race, but rather the superior man has yet to be made. He never personally cared to follow the slaughter of Jews, he was too busy hell bent on overthrowing the entire Nazi party and reforming them into hydra. He used the Nazis from the very beginning, he used them for their resources and getting his name out there. That sir, is top tier villainy.

Attitude. His attitude is the best, to be completely honest. He's determined to get what he wants, he's resourceful, and doesn't take no for an answer. This man takes risks, when he first got the tesseract, he ignored safety, shoved Zola out of the way, and went straight for the controls. And the transfer succeeded. He easily kills off his enemies and adapts quickly to situations. As soon as the Americans out matched Hydra's forces, he simply blew up the fucking place without a care in the world. How much he doesn't care is hilarious. He always looks disappointed and unamused, so whenever he smiles it's the best thing ever. Skull speaks super matter-of-factly, and has the best lines: "I am surrounded by incompetents!" "I would curb that sharp tongue of yours, Taskmaster. Lest it cuts your throat." "And here I wanted to watch Captain America's will bend like a weed beneath my boot... No matter." "You are failing! We are close to an offensive network that will shake the planet. And yet, we are continually delayed, because you cannot outwit a simpleton with a shield!" I mean, these lines are hilarious and great, don't lie. Also, the scene where Zola and him talk about the finding out of Erskine's whereabouts is hilariously awkward. "Shall I give the order?" "... It has been given." "... Good-" I mean, that scene cracks me up. Mix that with the fact Skull was standing there for a portrait and was blasting Opera just makes it more hilariously amusing.

Obsessive in Nature. This guy.. is obsessive. Very obsessive. In my most favorite Marvel movie of all time, he's borderline obsessed with Captain America. He has a need to control him, make him Captain Hydra and be his second in command. I love obsessive villains, and Schmidt honestly fits the criteria. He's been obsessed with the tesseract for awhile, is currently crazy over taking over the world, what's not to say he gets obsessed with the captain? The two are similar enough(one parent dies when they're at a young age, both being an in orphanage, both getting bullied, beat up, and yelled at, both becoming super soldiers, and both becoming icons and symbols in the eyes of the public) so what's not to say Skull gets a little possessive over his enemy? Researches in such depth to learn how to control him, own him, kill him, which ever you prefer. All I know is, Skull is one big control freak, and I love him. He has such a need to be in control that he goes to extreme lengths to make sure all the power belongs to him. What a determined little man.

His Name. Johann Schmidt legit translates to John Smith. That is hilarious to me. It's so generic, like Steve Rogers.

Intelligence. This man is fucking smart, and I love it. He has plan after plan after plan. He has such detailed plans that it's ridiculous. Whenever he is about to act on the plan, he has the pause and explain the whole damn thing. He's so proud of him accomplishments, he has to fucking rant about them to further show off his superior intelligence. He goes to such lengths to accomplish his goals, that I'm surprised he doesn't get a headache with all that over planning. He even has to plan on unpredictable actions to surprise Steve. This man is plan crazy. He's so smart that he sets everyone up as pawns, and lets people do the mundane stuff so he has more time to plan. Anyway, this man.. He's so smart. He immediately knew the tesseract decoy was fake, he's able to see beyond appearances and managed to see the truth behind myths. He created a fucking ray that disintegrated people. He easily cut ties with the Nazi army, and always managed to stay a few steps ahead of the Americans. This man is a genius, you can't deny it.

Subtle Weaknesses. His main two weaknesses are: his temper and his slight insecurity of his face. He gets livid if you use "Red Skull" as an insult, and point out the deformity of his face. Expressing dislike over it is simply a death wish, and honestly I find it endearing he's insecure about it. Another thing is, his temper. He gets so mad, so mad over nothing. The slightest thing can make him go from his usual, calm and unimpressed nature to a fucking angry monster who smashes the window in. It's hilarious how mad he can get, and watching him try to control his anger is the cutest thing to me. He's trying so hard! ;w;

View on Magic. His belief magic is a science is super interesting to me! He even makes his belief a reality, and that's so satisfying!! He even researches mythology, and I love mythology! He proves people idiotic by showing them how real his theory is, and it's perfect. Johann blasting those fuckers calling him mad was one of the most satisfying scenes in the Captain America: The First Avenger.

His Personal Tastes. He likes the finer things in life. He listens to Opera, has a sweet fucking car, did you see how nice the Valkyrie was? Plus, he was getting a portrait done! Pretty sure he was drinking some sort of wine in the movie too. This man has wonderful tastes, and honestly makes his character even better to me.

Subtle Actions. He has some subtle acts of kindness, to me at least. In Captain America: The First Avenger, he was very calm with Zola and didn't really raise his voice with him. Schmidt is honestly very polite at times!! He even tried to be friendly with his first meetings with Captain America, expressing a liking towards his films and trying to understand what "made the captain special." Sounded like he just wanted a genuine conversation, or something of that nature.

Dialogue. Did I forget to mention how great is dialogue is? His taunts with Captain America are so funny and cute at times, like legit they go back and forth: "Don't be a fool, Skull. You can't control that thing! It'll bring the whole mountain down!" "Yes... On you." "You just don't give up, do you?" "Nope!" "It's time to stop playing army, Skull." "You have yet to see my army! Or should I say.. Our army." Like, these two dorks. Their taunts are the best.

He's an asshole. I know he's a dick, but it's funny as hell. He's like an ex, arrogant and bitter. Such a show off too. He's a wonderful villain.

His past doesn't affect him. So far, his past never seems to pull any strings at his heart. That's interesting. He went through such a traumatic series of events(his mom died during birth, his dad tried to kill him, his dad abusing him, trying to kill him again, then eventually committing suicide. Schmidt then was sent off to an orphanage where he was abused and beaten, he ran away at the age of 7, resorted to stealing, was taken in by the same doctor who delivered him, and ended up killing a woman.) He seems to have moved on from his past, or at least bottles it up. It's interesting..

He was inspired by a cherry. I'm not making this up, Joe Simon saw a cherry on his sundae and was like: "... That looks like a skull-" and the rest is history.

Vormir sort of mellows him out. He's very calm, distant, and legit doesn't give a shit on Vormir. I hope his old spirit comes back, but this stone keeper Skull is pretty funny and sort of tragic. I like him lots. ♡

He was created alongside Captain America. These two have been together for years. Fighting each other time and time again, and I only wish to see it continue. Sure, I prefer the more goofy side of heroes and villains. The two having stupid taunts, yet entertaining adventures.

Now, I doubt that is all the reasons I love Johann Schmidt. However, I only summarized all I can think of. I hope my fellow Red Skull fans would come out of hiding and express their love for this character. He's one of the best villains I've ever seen. I can go on and on about how much I adore this character, but I'll stop here. If anyone wants to see my favorite adaptation of Schmidt, and my favorite Marvel movie, feel free to check out Iron Man and Captain America: Heroes United. Its on Netflix. All you Red Skull × Captain America fans will get a big kick out of it, and it's a universe I like. It's more goofy, it's animated in a beautiful style, and so much love was put into it. Came out in 2014!!

Anyway, hope I opened your eyes to a few reasons why this character is great. He's determined, hard working, intelligent, spiteful, and overall so much fun to watch on the big screen! His lines are funny, his personality is interestingly layered, and he's such a great character! A part of me wants to see him succeed, since he's done so much! I'm a loyal villain fan, I'm sorry xD

In villains, we get guilty pleasures from them. I love how powerful Skull is, and his determination is admirable. He's doing a bad thing, but he's doing to super well! If you love villains, I hope you get my point! I also like the subtle things in Skull that make him human, his love for Opera, his fascination with Mythology, his politeness, it's all so charming for a villain fan!!

I don't see many Red Skull fans speak out, so I'm glad to do it! Just a friendly Red Skull fan who wants to appreciate my boy. I'm acting like a proud mom, but I do hope he gets further attention, it's been far too long.

Thanks for reading, Hail the Red Skull. ♡

#red skull #marvel #captain america #marvel comics #johann schmidt #hydra #hail hydra #the red skull #just a red skull fan wanting her voice heard #hail the red skull #rambles #rants #reasons to love the red skull

[keepyourpantsongohan]

Ayesha Liveblogs Noragami S1-S2

This man may have just gotten dumped by his sword

The people around Hiyori should really be more concerned that she might be developing schizophrenia

Teenage gods fighting a battle while protecting a kitten is my aesthetic

“You're still technically alive” same

“What's so special about me that I can see them now?” You're half-dead

Conceptually this regalia business seems similar to a zanpakto except instead of being an incarnation of spirit energy in human form it's a literal ghost

Surely Hiyori's parents are wondering where she is it's probably not good to let your narcoleptic daughter run around alone at night

It seems unfair that gods can enslave a spirit without any form of negotiation

Lmao poor Yato he's trying his best

Yukine is justifiably annoyed by being in forced into fighting as a slave after dying as a fourteen year old

“I'll be fine. Gods don't need to poo.” Yato pls

You know what? If you're gonna hold a reluctant fourteen-year-old as your vassel you deserve to go through puberty twice

“Well that's distressing. Don't you have copyright laws?” Hkshshsjska

“There's even a class division among gods?” “That's gotta be why the world's so screwed up.” The blight of capitalism is truly inescapable

LMAO @ THE GOD AND HIS SWORD DIVORCÉE

The autotune really makes these exorcisms a lot less spiritual

Crying turns Sword Boy on #KinkshameYukine

I love these boys so concerned about possible debris in Hiyori's eyes

God bless Hiyori shielding Yukine from the Male Gaze

The mid-air business card exchange I'm losing it

“This guy takes advantage of vulnerable young women someone call the police!” YOU TELL HIM YATO

I can't believe that this plot involves someone being a sugar daddy to a goddess

Daikoku is such a good guy I want him to adopt Yukine can swords have parents?

Dark!Yato wore his hair up man buns #confirmed as evil

“I guess you could all her a friend with benefits” I hope that gods misusing modern slang in this way becomes a trend

Mayu and Yato may be the divorced couple but Hiyori and Yato are having the custody battle

This prolonged titty stare [Yato screaming in the distance]

I should've expected this show to take a dark turn and yet

“I've been studying plenty” when?? You seem pretty preoccupied by your spiritual life

I'd really thought that the regalia Yato had killed was Nora but if so why is she treating him like a master instead of Bishamon

Something tells me it's not a good idea to indebt yourself to the god of poverty

It's funny that Loke and Kazuma both have the same voice actor like it's typecasting for spirits

Hiyori is way more trusting than I would be if I found some dude lurking in the girls' bathroom with his phone out

Well this all took a turn for the extraordinarily depressing

I love how Kazuma and Mayu feel loyalty to Yato even though they're not his regalia

I think Yato just highkey fell in love with Hiyori I'm down for this

Sword Boy's got a job and he's working on his education god bless

Yukine @ Hiyori and Yato: MOM DAD YOU'RE EMBARRASSING ME

“Yato has grown weak from his time spent with you” In all fairness I think he's been weak for a while, what he's grown from being with Hiyori is compassion

OH NO PLOT TWIST WHAT'D YOU DO NORA

Actually what happened:

Tenjin: Maybe you should sever your ties with Hiyori, Yato

Yato: Um

Nora: [severs those ties]

Yato: This the worst thing that has happened ever in my life

“Let's get into bed together” JFHSHSHSKLS STOP THIS

“Anything for the sake of Hiyoriiiiiii” Yato is truly a god in love

Poor Yukine he lost his only human friend

For someone who doesn't really know about the existence of the gods anymore Hiyori is taking the battle-of-immortals-with-human-swords very well

“What is that look on his face? That thawed, soft expression” LOVE

I'm so proud of Yato instead of going wild at the thought of losing Hiyori his first priority is to beat a retreat and get her somewhere safe

Rabo just wants to kill him I mean same

I CAN'T BELIEVE THEY JUST GOT ENGAGED

Babysitting tropes are the stuff that dreams are made of

For gods of calamity and war these guys sure are kind-hearted

Kuguha how dare you prey on this teenage boy who just wants a friend

“You falling for her?” Pot kettle Yato

HOW DARE YOU SUZUHA IS JUST A YOUNG GARDENER BOY HE DOESN'T DESERVE THIS

Lmao @ Yato the God of Overbearing Boyfriends

Kazuma: Everybody strip

I know Yukine is upset but his actions probably go directly against Suzuha's wishes

POOR KAZUMA HE IS JUST TRYING TO HELP EVERYBODY

This fucker Kuguha has that evil ass character design that all low tier vagabond villains have

“Oh I see. So that's the reason he stays” Lmao Yato's crush on Hiyori has been #calledout

YIKES HIYORI IS BEING USED TO START A WAR

Yato was just trying to help Bishamon oh no“I wonder what that portends, his impaling our masters' body” I hope it's a dick joke

YAS YUKINE IS REBORN BLESS HIS HEART

Yato knows that killing Bishamon is exactly what Kuguha wants but he's gonna do it anyway I guess

I'm so emotional about these spirit weapons

I was worried for a second that Hiyori had had her ties severed but who am I kidding Yato loves her he just wants her to pay attention to him forever

Lmao @ Yukine trying to school Yato on the evils of capitalism

Omg they're even more engaged than ever before if I weren't sold on Yato and Hiyori the shrine thing would've done it

The God of Overbearing Boyfriends strikes again

I feel like this reference to Yato's existence is ominous foreshadowing

“Always treat your opponent with... contempt, I guess” this is not good mentoring Kazuma

Kazuma has a snarky streak and I love it

“I'm gonna make Hiyori the happiest girl in the world, just you watch” COULD YOU BE ANYMORE HIGHKEY IN LOVE

Ngl even though this Yato is morally bankrupt I vibe w/ his aesthetic

“Next time let us try these bondage knots” Ebisu may be doing some fucked up shit but he cracks me up

I'm screaming Yato's weakness for Hiyori has been #exposed

Dude why are you kissing her she's crying she's clearly not in a romantic place

All the seven gods of fortune are ride or die for each other

Looks like the only power Kugaha has is trash talk

Hdjsisjsjakala

Bishamon: Demonstrate your dominance my blessed vessel

Kazuma: [Undresses a little]

I haven't trusted this chairman bitch since he locked up the seven fortune gods and it looks like he's finally showing his true colours

Baby Ebisu the most adorable thing in the world and I love him

Although I'm glad that Yato has rejected Hiro this! Is! Not! A! Conclusion???

HOLY SHIT I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT HIYORI HAS KISSED YATO'S DAD BEFORE HIM

#ayesha liveblogs ng #ayesha talks anime #liveblogging

[thatweirdmod]

Beriphitar’s Pillage 2: Slow and Steady and the Journal

I've been traveling north for three days now, stopping in mid-tier motels when my ass can't take riding on the scooter with four bags anymore. They're places nice enough that I can expect clean rooms and a pleasant stay, but not so fancy that my paying in cash draws too much suspicion.

I pull into the parking lot of a Motto Locco (decent franchise with a stupid name) and get off Trusty Rusty. It's drizzling rain. I go under the porch cover of the motel, drop the bags on the ground, the straps of which have been digging the fuck into my shoulders by the way, and light up a cigarette.

I'm planning to buy a car, but I've been trying to put as much distance between me and my old town before starting up a money trail, just in case I left behind evidence, and I need to be elusive. Another reason is that I don't think I have enough money in my bank account to buy a car worth a shit at the moment.

I have a feeling eyes have been staring into the distance after me ever since I skipped town. So, I don't want to make a large deposit of money into my bank account, considering that the lawmen know the Greyhorns were robbed. Buying a car with thousands of bucks of cold hard cash may be even more suspicious. So, I made a relatively modest deposit of money into my account yesterday, about $300.

As much as I'd like to get my money in safe storage, and this heavy bag off my shoulder soon, I will continue to trickle money into my account about once a week. Selling the gold bars under the table has also been on my mind. Some people say you should invest in gold, as a type of security in case the value of un-backed federal currency plummits or something.

I don't really give a shit about that, because even if I could shave some gold leaf off the blocks, the convenience store probably wouldn't take that as payment for my Pringles. The gold is heavy, but I don't want to deposit it in the bank, because that would be unusual activity for me-  a red flag for any gumshoe poking around. I've also yet to sell the various other valuables, like jewelry, that I stole from the Greyhorns' house. It's in part because of the whole trail thing, but it's become procrastination now. Tomorrow for sure I'll visit a pawn shop to sell a watch and necklace.

Once I've sucked all the death from the cigarette into my body, I throw the stub out into the rain and head inside. The employee at the counter helps me check in. She's slightly chubby, forty-ish, with curly, short brown hair. She's not ugly, but something about her face just pisses me off. She seems like she'd be a bitch, but I can't decide exactly what kind.

Maybe the kind that talks snidely behind your back? Ah, but there's more to her than that. Nags her husband if she has one? We're getting there. Smiles politely, but has a slight disapproving crinkle in her nose because you stink of smoke? Ooosh, close to home. Will frown as soon as I turn my back to go upstairs? Another nail in the coffin. Watches me fumble a bit with my bags, and wonders nosily and disgustedly at why I have so many? Wow, I'm on a roll.

I realize as I retreat into my room that I'm the bitch, assuming all that, and judging that woman that way. The room has a TV, of course, but TV is like 1/3 ads, 1/3 boring bullshit, and 1/3 things of moderate interest. I consider sleeping to kill my boredom, but I remember that I have Reyfon's diary in one of my bags.

I sit and open it.

"Uncle Freido told me to pull down my shorts... He called it, 'touching trunks like the elephants do," but I'd only ever seen water spray from an elephant's trunk. It hurt a lot when he touched his trunk at the back. Uncle F didn't have a name for that, the fucker."

Pretty juicy stuff. It's sounding like I may have done him a favor, putting the damaged bastard out of his misery. I flip a few more pages.

"I can't explain exactly why I do this. I know I can't excuse it. I'm just propelled. I seek them out. I lure them with sweets, toys, and gifts. I make them feel safe with smiles and a caring, gentle tone. I know how special it can be for a child when a grown up listens, tries to understand, expresses pride in them and treats them like a competent human being. I give them attention. I give them respect. I take their side. And I know to pick the ones whose parents leave voids that I can fill.

In my head, I know it's vile. I know it's a betrayal. I don't understand why my heart doesn't react, doesn't care.

I have predator's eyes. They see all too well how weak, how pathetic the children are. Sometimes, I consider doing the right thing, actually using my position to give them the help and support they need, but I have the stomach of a predator as well. And when I see prey, it rumbles so badly that I must devour."

It doesn't take a genius to see where this is going. There's a "No Smoking" sign in the motel room, but I light up a cigarette anyway. I blow smoke onto the pages. I skim though the records of Reyfon's deeds.

"I don't want to go back to a grown woman now. Little boys and girls are so much tighter... child screamed... leaking blood... asked if I would watch her son for a while... smirked... I took her down to the basement, and... trusted me... touched them so much... bruises... forced him to...

There are coloured pencil drawings of children, unclothed with splayed legs, objects or toys inserted. Some are crying. Some appear to be in strained pleasure. I wonder if Reyfon made them pose while he sketched up these shitty portraits?

"It's an addiction, but I just won't stop. I know some people must suspect something after all this, but no one says anything. Little Brith's mom looked at me strangely the other day. He's come around for a generous handout of candy for the past four Halloweens, but not this one."

I skip along to his latest entry, which was made just five days before I killed him. His aunt, uncle, and their three children came to visit. They wanted to go see his dying father in the hospital, and support their family. He explains how this was a monkey wrench in his plans. He had planned to ask me to kill his brother the day before he found out that they were going to be coming. During their stay, he got the middle child, a girl of six, alone. In his rage over the interruption, he raped and molested the child even more violently than he would normally, a sort of revenge against her parents I guess. He wrote,

"I heard her crying when she was in the bathroom, thankfully before anyone else. I questioned her about it, and she said it really hurt. I told her to be quiet and not to tell anyone that she was having trouble going to the bathroom. Her parents might take her to the hospital, and then it'd be obvious that the girl had gone through sexual trauma.

I said if she made noise again, or told anyone about the pain when peeing and pooping and the things we did together, I'd kill her. I showed her the gun I'd shoot her with, pointed it at her little blonde head, and said, 'Bang.' I was angry at the time, so I used a heavier hand than usual.

I told her I'd have to punish her for making noise, and she cried and begged me not to. I told her to be quiet, pulled down her skirt and panties, and spanked her for disobedience. I started off doing this for a practical reason, but it roused my trunk. I had another session with her right then. I spanked her again afterwards because she cried the whole time. Thankfully, the house is big with good insulation.

I hadn't done enough harm to my aunt and uncle yet though, so I molested their 3 year old son as well. I knew I couldn't ruin his rump like I wanted to though, because he wouldn't have enough self control to hide the pain even if I did threaten him. I bet Kinsey would have liked the details of that, but he already knew that young boys can achieve climax. Their oldest was 10, which is still within my preferred age range, but that girl seemed too smart and strong willed. I didn't want her badly enough to deal with killing her and hiding the body afterwards."

I think I've read enough, at least for now. I'm not going to lie; I'm disgusted. I've done too much myself to be the good guy, and I'm no vigilante, but I'm glad I bashed Reyfon's head in. I walk out into the balcony where I should have been, and throw the cig down onto the dark pavement below. A man in a beige coat down in the lot sees me do this, and that looks suspiciously like judgement on his face. I give him the finger, and turn to walk back in before I have to see his stupid reaction. I crash on the bed without a shower or anything, and just plan to sleep until I wake naturally.

I open my eyes refreshed. I get ready in the bathroom- shower, shave, brush the hair, teeth cleaning, piss, jeans and t-shirt under a grey, white-stringed hoodie. I get my stuff and go down to check out. It's a young woman across the counter this time. Brown hair in a ponytail, ignorant face, maybe she's a student.

I look around. The place is vacant, and this is a small, backwater type town. She's looking down doing one thing or another for me, and I'm looking at her, wondering if I've got five minutes to strangle her.

I vault over the counter and clothesline her in the neck before she can say, "What?!" I slip behind her with my arm hooked around her throat and back up into the wall. She's kicking and grunting in a panic. I can tell she's trying to hit my balls, but she's having a hard time in this position. Mostly what she's managing to do is grind her ass into my crotch, which is giving me a hard-on.

It's soft curves fighting hopelessly against labor hardened muscle. I feel her getting weaker in my unyielding, boa-like grip. A good 60 years of life leave her body with her final exhale. I sigh and drop her down onto the rough carpet.

"Sir?" an unsure, youthful voice asks me.

"Oh yeah, sorry," I respond. The only thing that was real of all that is my straining erection. Of course I couldn't do something so reckless and stupid, but at least I can imagine.

I walk out to greet the morning. The day is sunny and crisp. I take a four minute ride over to the pawn shop that I found in the motel phonebook. The owner's sunken eyes give me what I think is a knowing, slightly wary look from under his heavy white eyebrows. He has a mustache to match, and the thin lips hidden underneath are set in a frown.

He takes the jewelry anyway, though. If he's going to give service, maybe he should give it with a smile so people feel more comfortable coming back. I only get $90 for what I believe was very fine jewelry. Whatever, asshole. It's on to another day of riding away for me.

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