#things are finally becoming interesting

[sonknuxadow]

this is probably an unpopular opinion with the amount of "everyone is married with kids" type future aus people make for sonic characters but i cannot see sonic getting married or having a kid ever. if he did somehow end up with a kid hed be the worlds first transmasc absent father or however the joke goes

#i can only see sonic with a kid if its some random kid he accidentally adopted or whatever #and if he had a partner whatever they have going on probably wouldnt fit the typical idea of how having a partner works at all #i dont think sonic is a very romantic guy to be honest. and being in a serious relationship or ''settling down'' wouldnt be for him #i guess you could argue his feelings towards that sort of stuff could change once hes an adult #but i kinda. dont like. the idea of him suddenly becoming interested in romance and wanting to settle down #as a sign hes ''finally grown up'' or whatever. because lack of interest in romance isnt an immature trait you have to grow out of #some people never want that sort of thing and thats fine #anyway i dont hate fankids to be clear i think theyre fun in concept . like from a design standpoint #taking traits from characters you like to make a new guy out of it is fun #i just cannot imagine those things ever actually happening does that make sense #actually while im at it i dont think rouge would want kids at all either . people want her to be motherly so bad but she just is not #she is the cool older sister figure who teaches you how to steal from the pin container at hot topic without getting caught. not a mom

[bumblingbabooshka]

Hey, Star Trek Writers... -taps the glass-

#star trek #the only people from Voyager's main cast I could see wanting to be a captain are Chakotay ??? maybe? and DEFINITELY Harry Kim #Harry Kim is the only guy on that ship who I'd actually cheer and scream and cry and click my heels if he became captain #bc it's actually something I think he'd be suited for AND it fits with his personality/goals...<3 #like I saw a clip from Picard and like...Seven of NINE??? Why would she want to be a captain?? I think in that case 'making captain' is jus #shorthand for 'we finally accept you into structured society and you're no longer an outcast' which I do NOT like #also Tuvok's a captain???? Why???? Nothing about Tuvok screams captain material or that he'd even WANT to be a captain #I imagine him being chief of security or a professor (or both) until retiring - MAYBE a first officer #OH same with Janeway only she would HATE being an admiral and loves being captain #like next they're gonna tell me that B'Elanna Torres is a starfleet captain* - NO ! she is an ENGINEER! #Sorry I can't get over how bad Tuvok would be as a captain - he's not suited for it and does NOT seem interested #*so that we can all go 'oh yay I accept this as shorthand for the federation accepts her' - HEY #if the only thing you can think of to show that a character has achieved true happiness & respect & peace is becoming a 'respectable' rank #in the future pseudo not-military: maybe think about that more deeply

[bisexualcherdegre]

Detroit: Become Human AU | Josh x Simon

#dbh simon #dbh josh #simosh #dbh mods #dbh #josh x simon #d:bh #detroit: become human #they're cute your honor #thinking abt them falling in love in the shadow of the revolution #so i finally got around to model swap tests and ended up doing a bunch of josh/simon stuff #like tHEIR HEIGHT DIFFERENCE VERY MUCH HELPS IN SOME SCENES and it was interesting to see #i have more scenes with them but i couldnt rly come up with a good theme for it so started with this soft scene!! #and YES im using the Deadray mod! easy to use very fun! #this is my first dbh edit im very bad at what tags ppl usually use for these things #might do one with more varied scenes for more of a sTORY sometime but now it's softness #KINDA WANNA DO MORE RAREPAIR STUFF NGL #there's lots of rantings in these tags dont mind it

[childrenofthesun77]

I wonder if the count is going to be jealous of mahiru if he returns in one way or another.

Mahiru achieved all the the count so desperately wanted. He became kuro's eve. He became friends with him. They understand and trust each other pretty much completely at this point. And all without mahiru having to sacrifice anyone like the count wants to do. Before the count came up with the plan to become one with kuro he simply wanted to be his eve. But kuro didn't want that so the count eventually arrived at more desperate measures. I guess if they talk mahiru will have much to teach/explain to him about relationships and death.

#servamp #mahiru shirota #servamp kuro #if the count somehow ends up in mahiru's body things could get interesting #because nobody got what they wanted #mahiru doesn't want to be the counts vessel #kuro wants his eve/partner to be mahiru not the count #the count wanted to be one with kuro believing that way they could finally understand each other #tsubaki wanted kuro to become one with sensei so his sister could be happy... whatever that means #and mikuni and lily... #honestly I'm still not sure why they want what they seem to want #but their plan to make mikuni the counts eve sounds weird to me anyway #why the hell would the count want to make a contract with mikuni #I don't get it yet #mikuni only gets power if the counts forms a contract with him #If the count ends up in kuro's body kuro's contract with mahiru might make mahiru his eve #if the count ends up in mahiru's body we don't know if the result will truly be a servamp you can make a contract with #and even if it does why would the count want to make a contract #We don't know much about him but I doubt he would want to be a servant who simply obeys mikuni's wishes #he wants to defeat death and for some reason get close to kuro #mikuni can offer him nothing in that regard as far as we are aware

[astriiformes]

Had a really good conversation with my therapist yesterday that has left me feeling better about life & the future than I have in... months, honestly (which also has me feeling really good about her ability to help me continue sorting through things).

I was talking about my distress about the future and in particular what I'm going to do when I graduate, since grad school isn't the most stable option, and she pointed out that since I was spiraling over hypotheticals, maybe it made sense to simply make up my mind about the first step, since applying to grad school is hardly the same as committing to grad school. And she was so right. I am so good at feeling like I need to make the right, perfect decision -- especially after making mistakes with school in the past -- that I have been worrying myself into depressive spirals over what the "right" decision is here. But making up my mind to at least apply and find out what my options are is a decision, that will give me a lot more information in the long run than paralysis over if it's "okay" to apply at all.

It'll still take a lot of work, obviously, and l don't know if I'll even get in anywhere, much less actually commit to doing a PhD if I do. But it has taken such an incredible weight off my shoulders just to say "Okay, I am going to apply, what next?" Because it means I can put all that nervous energy to actual use! Instead of spiraling the next time I start thinking about my options in the future, I can go do research on different PhD programs (without feeling guilty the whole time, like I have been until now)! I can ask my favorite professors for advice! I can reach out to current grad students to ask what they think of their advisors! All of which is actually productive and will help me make the most informed choice I can if and when the time comes, instead of ruminating endlessly on what the "best" one is!

TL;DR -- my therapist is very smart and understands me and the things my brain gets stuck on in a big way, and her advice has dislodged literal months of extremely disordered thinking just like that. Because now I feel like I've made a choice and have something to work towards. And also like I can breathe.

#it is probably not a coincidence that i finally feel like i've 'clicked' with a therapist again who also is knowledgeable about OCD #because i think this is a very OCD problem and very OCD solution #stuck worrying about a totally hypothetical choice? make a non-hypothetical one so it becomes real and actionable instead! #i am literally going to file this away for all major life decisions; i get so stuck on this kind of thing and it's so smart #genuinely cannot overstate how much i've been struggling with this for months and how much it's just. gone now #like i'm having a good week mentally ('maybe it's the start of the semester / maybe it's vyvanse' joke - but actually) #so i am not going to pretend this fixes everything forever #but also it was constantly hanging over me and now it's. not #anyways! i have no idea if academia is the right choice for me! but i'd kind of like it to be! so we'll see what happens! #and in the meantime i will do productive things instead of self-flagellating about being interested in an unstable field! #i love. therapy. love when it works

[cephalonheadquarters]

Damn. I'm free

#I know i stated a lot before that im not involved with fandoms anymore but like. it just hit me randomly. Im Free #I still absolutely have interests. This is very obvious. But i have no desire of trying to make stuff for others anymore #(except fir my friends hehah) #When i was in the ttcc & pikmin fandoms that was the WORST. Very anxiety inducing year for me because i kept worrying about other people #and what they thought of me and my art #Also those fandoms were just really annoying lol. Toontown more than annoying i cant say anything about it here iuhhh there was #an insane amount of insane things happening with that community its.still happening actualky LOL. I hear about stuff from my friends #But anyways. I just feel so disconnected from everything in a good way if that makes sense #i already got friends and im finally feeling like this blog is mine yaaay #Who gaf about fandoms #Be free..... #This might be because all i care about is my ocs now (& its late and i have a huge burst of energy right now for some reason) #Yes i am very afraid that the focus on them will end but i really dont know what else there is for me to become attached to anymore #Splatoon is my life babeyyy at least it has been for almost 6 years #ill always come back to splatoon❤️ #Touhou and woy are the 2nd and 3rd most thought about interests for me #I dont post about them often as in like. make my own art that much. But i think about them almost as much as splatoon #Grahhh

[primsycoldbottles]

do love seeing posts abt seasonal depression focusing solely around winter . wholly unrelatable and yet its like the Only type of seasonal depression posts that go around every year

#peach patter #this isnt like a um . bitchy thing . seasonal depression in winter IS the most common i know that #but as sm1 who gets depressive in summer its funny when ppl chalk sd up to it being winter and not like. extreme weather in general #just very interesting ^_^ #watching all my friends become the saddest beasts known to man while im finally becoming a person bc of the cold <3

[nero-neptune]

idk, i just think that (to a point) Everyone's a product of the media they consume. that's why certain media is called 'formative', esp if you watched it young. one thing you watched/read could’ve lead to an interest which could’ve gotten you to learn/participate in/avoid something you wouldn’t have otherwise. take away all the books you’ve read, movies you’ve watched, music you've listened to, etc etc- you’re likely a totally different person. which is neither good nor bad, that's just called being a person who lives on planet earth.

#if i went back in time to middle school and made it so twilight wasn't on hold and i finally read at the age of 11 #pretty sure i could've become a twilight fan (opening a whole new branch of who i could turn out to be) #or how i was This Close to becoming a directioner (and i probably would've been a whole new person due to that) #or how i only got into doctor who because i was recommended hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy (my first real intro to scifi books) #and without that i probably wouldn't have stayed on tumblr (which i only made bc of my interest in animation (more media consumption lol)) #bc it's the who in superwholock that cemented my desire to make an account #or if i hadn't thought the violin looked cool bc i saw it in a movie then i wouldn'tve joined orchestra in 6th grade #(and then discovered i hated orchestra so then i joined band. and then i was offered the choice of baritone or sax and i chose baritone) #and marching band (which i later joined) defined all 4 years of my high school #something that straight up would not have happened if i hadn't thought a violin player looked cool in a movie i saw as a kid #boom! butterfly effect! #so who am i without all these experiences bc of the media i consumed? idk. if they exist in an alternate timeline #without any of the things that make me Me #that's a stranger for all intents and purposes #rambles

[prettycoolducks]

It's really funny seeing new fans be like "Wait the doctor is gay/bi/nonbinary/etc???" As if they haven't been kissing men and women and all else left and right and ignoring gender as a concept since the very beginning

#duck talks #well kissing men and women in nuwho anyway. classic doctors not so much in that department #gender on the other hand... #its less that the doctor is becoming these things now and moreso that the doctor as a character is a lot less closed off than he used to be #easy to see in the way 10 vs 14 act #10 wouldve never said i love you. he just couldnt. not even to rose (sad) #14 on the other hand is throwing the l word around like candy and hugging his friends (: #i feel like 12 was kind of the end of the doctor's closed off era. and by 13 she finally felt more open to being around other people #but she still kept a level of separation between her and her companions. couldnt let them get too close #not quite ready for love. she had been hurt too much in the past to try again #maybe 15 will be the doctor that loves freely and without inhibition #interesting to see #not allowing rbs sorry d: #doctor who spoilers #jic

[god-mouths]

they made bugs bunny TRANSGENDER!!!!!! (read scoob and shag) light reference image under cut (this was meant to be a panel redraw but i went a different direction with it)

#scoob and shag #man posting things for interests has finally become welcoming to me again! #it feels nice. #fanart good when you wnat to do it #not ocs

[victo1re]

post-tadpole vic getting new piercings and tattoos and just. anything she can do to make this body feel like hers. growing her hair out long. braiding and decorating it in interesting ways. buying gaudy bangles that make her smile and wearing them everywhere. painting her nails. doing everything by hand that she could prestidigitate so she can really feel it.

#* headcanon. #this starts in act ii i think. she gets one of the harpers to do her a stick and poke. buys some overpriced jewellery off mol #the realisation that doing most things magically was a distancing tactic... interesting for her And for me lol #this also interacts very interestingly with going to moonrise. literally as she's finally starting to become comfy in her body #oh hey here's where you got those scars. here's who gave them to you and delighted in it #feels GROSS. she kills kressa bloody and brutal and doesn't regret it for even a moment

[darabeatha]

@ardenssolis said ; "So, Jason, was the voyage worth it in the end?" [hi smol] / 𝐔𝐍𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐄𝐃

❝ Was that voyage worth it? Let me put it this way; would you give everything in your life for one second of glory ? for not even a tangible future, just for one beautiful dream ? everything you have ? I did. That voyage... See it under any lens, you don't need to be a genius to come to the conclusion that it was not worth it. Did it make me learn anything? Hell, did that even matter ? To who was I even supposed to show my change of heart ? Was I even conscious of that ? Did I return as the same man I was when I left or was I so blind that I could not even tell any difference ? Before I could mourn this wreckage of a dream and gulp down my own despair, I was crushed by the very same ship that allowed this feverish dream to sail. The dead can't learn from their mistakes, I can only say I would do it again differently now because I now have a second chance to make things different. ❞

#ardenssolis #;j.ason #/HI SHIIIII! #/UMMM;; i think;; its such a tragedy how the story ends; but its those stories that leave the -reader- thinking #bc j.ason didn't really have that second chance to look back ; he couldn't- and thats one of the interesting things #his story was a feverish dream of glory; he was so blinded by it that he could not see all it took to get to the end #he didnt get a second chance; but he also didnt stop to give himself that second chance u get me? #he was so blinded by the shine of it all that everything slipped past him #theres no learning for him until its too late and he gets crushed by the very same (now rotting) argo #and thats like;; the tragedy of it all? bc the voyage doesnt make him a better person #voyages always change a person in one way or another but he doesnt look back on this #compared to other heroes that come back with more wisdom like g.ilgamesh and that become better #in his case it feels so;; humane?? he sucked ass and he still sucks ass! #and he ends as a looser!! completely unhappy and miserable! #heck even f.ate wise; u look at his lvl10 bond ce #'Next time; there won't be a next time huh. Give me another chance!' #'Next time I'll properly; seriously; carefully; correctly... Do it; I'll show you! ... ... Damn...' #theres no other chance because he ends up dying there;; do u get the tragedy- #now he can grow because he can finally face back his past; but at his time of death #it was only at the very last moment that the lament truly hit #j.ason didn't die at peace nor filled with rage; he died with lament and despair which to him is worst #he doesnt lament chasing for his dream; he would do it again; that's not the point but the way he did it- he wants another chance! #HE'LL DO IT DIFFERENTLY THIS TIME...!! (this time he'll learn!) #the hero always gains something after the journey but #j.ason didnt gain anything; in fact he LOST things

[sparky-is-spiders]

Hi! I’m here suffering from lack of good Archivist!Sasha content as well 😭 On that note, do you have any fic on that topic you would recommend? Or just good Sasha fics in general, (or Jonsasha, if that’s your cup of tea)? Thank you in advance 😊

Tragically, I think there is a general dearth of good Archivist!Sasha content (and just about none of it Jonsasha content, as far as I can tell (and not only is Jonsasha my cup of tea, but the ONLY thing standing between it and the #1 OTP spot (currently occupied by JE) is the fact that the Jonsasha that I desperately crave exists in my brain and nowhere else)). Admittedly, I haven't looked very far into her tag yet (I should rectify that at some point tbh) but I've dug around the Jonsasha tag when I first got into it, and I know at least one fic where Sasha drifts towards Beholding through an interest in office gossip.

In terms of Jonsasha Ao3 has:

This very good Sasha lives fic where Jon shows up to Georgie's with an unconscious Sasha and everyone involved is very confused.

These two fics are cute also. The former is by @/suttttton and is them getting together, the latter is established Jonsasha from @/dickwheelie.

Eyevatar Sasha might actually be thinner on the ground (outside of fix-its where she solves everything and her canon reckless curiosity is completely ignored). Ao3 has:

This fic, which is Jongerry with outsider PoV Sasha. Just barely has the implication that she might be shifting towards the Eye (via prying into the lives of her coworkers) but gets a mention through sheer force of Excellent Sasha Characterization. I read this and I feel like I'm reading a fic from a Sasha Understander.

There's also this fic, which looks very promising but which I haven't actually gotten the chance to read yet, so I can't speak to its quality.

Unfortunately I've only gotten into Sasha fairly recently (especially as compared to Jon, who my brain latched onto in a deathgrip from the start), so I haven't gone through her tag yet. A scroll through the Archivist!Sasha or Beholding Avatar!Sasha tags pulls up a lot of fix-it and J//mart, which isn't really what I'm looking for from the concept. I'm sure there's more out there, and if/when I find them I'll come back to this ask probably, but I lucked into Reverse Nighthawks (I was on a Jongerry kick).

But god every day I wish that I could write romance and/or longfic, because about a year ago I read a Jonmichael fic that, when discussing alternate universes (where Jon ended the world) it's revealed that he once did an apocalypse out of love for his Archivist, Sasha James. And it was one (1) single line, but it struck me so hard because god. A perfect concept I think. The potential dynamics of Archivist!Sasha/Assistant!Jon are enthralling to me. Jon destroying the world (or helping her destroy the world? Cute date night I think: bringing about armageddon with your eldritch monster partner) for Sasha... anyway mostly I mentioned that one because My God if I have to live with that tantalizing AU rotating in the background of my mind 24/7 so do the rest of you.

#also I'm very sorry how much this was About Jon #I really /do/ love sasha it's just that jon lives in my brain literally all the time #I am incapable of making a single solitary tma post that is not like 50% about him #not a Single One #every character and relationship and dynamic must somehow include jon to interest me. I struggle to care about jon-less anythings #it's a Problem #anyway I really really love sasha and want to write her one day but I need to finish my JE stuff first #the thing is the sasha in my brain is in zero other places #I extrapolated some stuff from canon to create a Blorbo but I don't think many other people interpret her the same way #I have some sasha and jonsasha stuff lying around somewhere but the gist is that I think sasha should become a morally questionable eyevata #who feeds the eye by invading people's privacy ''accidentally.'' based on her actions in the s1 finale she's probably a good person usually #but is reckless when protecting those she cares about and ESPECIALLY when curious and I want her to be a lil freaky with it #too tired to string my sasha thoughts together properly but they're mostly about how she should have a fun corruption arc #I want her to end the world in s3. I want her to have extremely difficult and complicated feelings about leaving the institute. about being #an eyevatar also. I think she didn't get enough screentime to say a lot for certain but she has enough interesting and complex things in he #brain that she could offer an interesting perspective if she survived or was the archivist. I also think she and martin should've switched #places. sorry martinlikers but she had more stuff going for her and also her perspective would be unique and interesting instead of yet #another 'the Eye is Bad.' that's actually the jonsasha thing I like the most. reading her statement and there's so many parallels between #her and jon. I think they'd compliment each other in a way literally no other jonship could manage #anyway sorting tags #jonsasha #asks #thank you for the ask btw!! I am. VERY. passionate about this subject. sasha has so much potential and stuff going for her but I get so #bitter because nobody is willing to engage with the stuff I find most interesting about her. probably another reason it took me as long as #it did to get Attached to her. I spent too much time with fanon sasha who's had the potential and complexity and points of interest #stripped away so that she can fix the world for jm to get together which is so much more boring than whatever the hell was wrong with her #(affectionate) (I like my characters a lil weird and fucked up. a lot weird and fucked up even) #ok veryvery tired need to stop rambling and think about sasha some more. #oh wait one more thought actually she's autistic and trans (projecting but also. like. tell me i'm wrong) thank you and goodnight

[notmoreflippingelves]

I'm just a girl standing in front of the Elena of Avalor S3 timeline begging for it to make even a little logical sense.

#elena of avalor #honestly the only way it does is if we assume that the various avaloran holidays take place in radically different months #than their real-world counterparts #like if we assume that carnaval matches its real world equivalent #"the magic within' takes place in feb-march #but the very next episode is the final dias de los muertos one #which by real world standards is beginning of november #so you're telling me that after the massive fallout of carnaval; absolutely nothing happened for like 7-10 months(!) #and then pretty much all of the next few important episodes happen b/w Nov and Dec (assuming hannukah is also at its real world time) #so like elena spends an intense period of like 1-2 months being just completely fixated on esteban #(i mean girl; same but come on) #after having spent like nearly a year forgetting he even exists? #and then has her nice little winter holiday break #and forgets about him for a month or two in between #only to just suddenly without much logical reason just become obsessed w/ him and ash again for an ep or two #and then forgets about him again #because the plot demands it #i mean like tbf all the flores cousins read to me as neurodivergent to some degree #so i guess it makes a little sense that she'd fall in and out of hyperfocus and get distracted by other fun things #but like i feel like the situation is a bit more intense/important/demanding than just a regular special interest waxing and waning a bit #i mean the real answer is that at least some of the filler episodes were aired waaaayyy out of order #maybe we're meant to see carnaval as not actual carnaval time? but like a big random party in like july or aug?? #so like elena still ignores the plot for way too long but at least its like less than 6 months and not more #and it is making plotting s3 era fic very very hard #since it's very tricky to find the right spot to set things

[welcometoteyvat]

the last part of arlecchino's character short is giving bsd atsushi's orphanage director but i dont know how to feel about that

#basically this orphanage director was needlessly cruel to him supposedly to make at.sushi hate him so much that he'd be motivated #to live on because of spite and anger (iirc at least). all it really did was give him crippling self worth issues but like #when he finds out about the death of the director and the truth of what happened all those years he becomes kinda mired in conflicting feel #feelings etc. which makes the whole thing interesting but i dont know whether that kind of story would be good for arle #idk how much genuine caring i want her to display. bc that orphanage director really thought he was doing the best course of action lol #also on the other hand. this director's story is there because u're supposed to care about at.sushi，whom it affected，and not the director h #himself. so idk whether a similar gimmick would be good for arle. well anyways we'll see #on another note nobody has made this joke under the youtube video and i'm very surprised and impressed #but on bilibili: you can add like rolling comments on top of the video itself and when the blonde kid in rags shows up at the end #the ENTIRE SCREEN blows up with 'kakavasha is that you????' comments. help lmao #people have one braincell and it's hsr crossover #personally if aventurine came into genshin i would drop kick him into the next universe i just dont care for him as a character but whateve #ramblings! #arlecchino #genshin impact #NO MORE THOUGHTS. finals jail. bye

[artinandwritin]

Some initial design choices for the Forrad brothers cuz I've been focussing more on the Myriad Tribe and the assassin squad as I'm planning to try and write Niv's story (finally. After 4 years)

Some information about them under the cut!

Bendik Forrad is the older of the two brothers and is Niv's adoptive father. He found the boy in a burning ship as a newborn, with his parents no-where to be found. He had assumed they had perished in the fire and sunken to the bottom of the ocean, so he had decided to take the infant under his own wing to raise to become a successful member of the Myriad Tribe.

Bendik is a very strict parent (if you can even call him a parent) and due to a fear of bonding with others, not very emotionally available. He lost an older sibling bc of the assassin training program as a child and still has a lot of issues left over from it, resulting in the way he is as an adult. Still, he's regarded as a highly successful individual, being a part of the council and often being told he should challenge the current chief to become chief himself. It is quite unknown if he's actually gonna do this

He, his little brother Ludvig, and Niv all live together in the same hut and due to this forced proximity, he and Ludvig are closer than expected. Bendik still feels some sort of responsibility to his brother, certainly after Ludvig's difficulty entering adulthood

Ludvig Forrad, in return, is quite the bitter person. He failed his first assassin job as a teen and the guilt and shame that has brought him, hasn't faded yet. His whole life, he had been praised and had been told he'd become the greatest of his generation, but after his failure, all society would talk about, was his one mistake.

He's not exactly a loving uncle to Niv, being rather suspicious of this rascal of a boy and very distrusting of his capabilities. Ludvig believes Niv doesn't fit into the Myriad Tribe, but Bendik would kill him if he ever told him that. Still, Niv reminds him of the past that keeps haunting him over and over again - something in those eyes and in that way of speaking triggers him time and time again, causing in Ludvig often taking his anger out on the boy and leaving Niv terrified of what the man is capable of

Ludvig is, in fact, one of the most skilled assassins of the Myriad Tribe, but is never taken seriously bc of his past failures (he's very angy about that)

#the thing with these two brothers is #theyre not even villains #theyre antagonists #standing between niv and his goals #which is what's so interesting about them #it's only after niv gets free that they actively become villains (well. ludvig was one in his teens but that isn't exactly relevant here) #bendik in particular doesn't know if he loves his adoptive son or not #seeing as he's not exactly allowing himself to love or get attached bc they can die from the myriad tribe's extreme way of living #man's emotionally repressed af and meanwhile ludvig only feels rage towards a past he cannot change #and with niv being in the picture... it's a miracle he hasn't succumbed yet if these are his only parental figures #poor baby boi #i really enjoy thinking about this dynamic and the way the forrad brothers have been shaped by their society #it gives them such a deep sense of character #theyre victims in their own rights but make niv a victim too bc of the same reasons #anyways #im excited to finally be developing this in full #httyd #how to train your dragon #oc #artinandwritin's art #bendik forrad #ludvig forrad