#this happens to me sometimes. im not proud of it

[comradekatara]

against my better judgment I am actually mapping the rest of the avatar sokka au based off of what i wrote here, entirely because in this universe, azula does assume the throne (after her father is efficiently and effortlessly cut down before her very eyes) and she and sokka have the funniest avatar-firelord relationship ever.

#AUs #azula&sokka #against my better judgment I also wrote 10k words of this last night instead of my multiple actual assignments like with. deadlines #this happens to me sometimes. im not proud of it #it was mainly just an excuse for me to write the yangchen novels but with atla characters #except for aang. sorry aang i love you :( #it’s soo funny after how I spent multiple paragraphs saying ‘alternate avatar AUs’ are cringe #and then. literally writing that #i think i hauve covid #etc etc

[ultimateyakazoo]

chapter 1 trial

#i think my biggest achievements in making these was being able to condense the trials into a few basic panels #each trial ended up needing more n more dialogue but seeing how long the in game trials are im pretty proud of myself #i only did ever sketch out the first three trials tho my sketches have taken me just up to the chapt 4 trial which i ever started at all #oh also i made sure to always keep the order of the characters in the trials true to the game #everyone is placed in the exact same 'seats' as they are in the real game #that was tough at times bc sometimes i wanted dialogue between characters who were nowhere near each other #but it was also a good opportunity to make me use characters i normally wouldnt have thought to use #and i couldnt just give dialogue to my favourite characters lol #and sometimes it worked out really well where the characters i wanted interacting did happen to be next to each other #sdr2 #super danganronpa 2 #ok here we go #hajime hinata #teruteru hanamura #mikan tsumiki #chiaki namani #nagito komaeda #peko pekoyama #is that everyone #mahiru koizumi #there we go #my art

[hella1975]

there's a very specific kind of vibe that comes with living with your friends in final year that it just does not have in first year or even second year. like as a fresher it's usually the first time any of you have lived away from home let alone with SO MANY people your age and it's terrifying and exciting and randomised to boot so it's generally carnage for a whole year in the best and worst ways, and then second year you pick who you're living with and it feels like for the first time you're doing this adult thing PROPERLY. you have a place of your own now. these are the people you've chosen to live with. studying gets serious etc. but it's still fresh. it's still new. you still don't know how to navigate it. but final year? final year is when you actually get it right. you know how to manage your time better. you know what works for you and what doesn't. studying is the main focus and you've been out in the world for three years now and it's not loud and boisterous like it was in first year and you're not exciteable and awkward like you were in second year. you're comfortable. every single one of my flatmates has their own friend group and we mainly keep to our own social circles, but we'll still meet each other back at the house after a night out and sit in the kitchen or my room to do the debrief. sometimes i'll go days not seeing either of them despite sharing a house but every now and then someone will softly call up the stairs that 'the heating's on!' or one of us will sneeze and the other two will yell 'bless you!' through the walls. the lack of interaction isn't interpreted as dislike in ways it would have been even last year, because we're all just old enough to be past that now and settled enough in our friendship not to worry about it. idk. uni is very loud and unsettling a lot of the time so it's been really sweet to see how almost boringly comfortable final year is.

#like my day today was literally drag myself out of bed at 10am to meet my econ friends bc we're in a group together #and i spent two hours with them writing a fucking TRADE REPORT before coming home #and the rest of the day was kinda lost. i showered. i put a wash on. i had a nap. i mainly stayed in my room #which sometimes is the End Of All Things but today was quite nice #and i can hear in their rooms how my flatmates are doing the exact same thing. pottering about and getting on with uni #and we've barely spoken all day but earlier my one flatmate ran into my room all excited to show me her nails #bc she's been teaching herself to do gels and it took her 2 hours but im still one of the first people she wanted to show #and just now we all went to use the bathroom at the same time and it led to one of our Stair Sessions #where we all inexplicably just gather on the stairs and chat for no reason with a cup of tea #idk it's just nice. it's such basic shit but i can't belive in first year i used to spend EVERY DAY with these girls #and we were one single friendship group and that was all we had #and then in second year one girl branched off bc she lived in a studio and got into her societies #but me and the other girl lived together again and it was the same thing of she was a friend before she was someone i lived with #and weirdly that can actually be detrimental to a dynamic. but this year we're all just very solidified and confident in ourselves #and where we stand and yes we all have our own friendship groups outside of the house now #but there's still that love and simple comfortableness around each other that you only get with time and a hell of a lot of proximity #and a sense of being settled that maybe is just what happens as you get older #idk it's just really nice. if i had this exact same day in first year (doing economics and barely leaving my room) #it would've been a really bad depressive day for me so the fact i can find such contentment from it now is really heartening #i love my little life here im very proud of what ive been able to achieve :) #hella goes to uni #feeling nostalgic because SOME BITCH decided to ribs post

[fleshdyke]

april vs today :)

#LOOK AT THAT CHEST !!!!! HES GETTING SO MUCH BETTER MAN IM SO PROUD OF HIM #his legs are a little fucked up in today’s pic but that’s bc he’s having a weird molt #the first primary on each wing was about to come out today and they were both hanging on by like nothing and it looked so uncomfortable 😭 #like they were hanging down from the rest of the wing and when he opened his wings it was at a weird angle #like he was fine it’s a normal part of molting but omg it looked sooo uncomfortable #i was trying to get him to do tricks to see if him flapping his wings would get the feathers out bc sometimes that happens #but it didn’t work ☹️☹️☹️ poor tia #his head had soooo many pins though like oh my goddd #he did let me rub off a few keratin sheaths off his crest though :) he was being rlly sweet today #rambles #birds #tia

[astrxealis]

my favorite teacher plays dnd and bg3 do you know how crazy that is to me

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #LOTS OF THOUGHTS HII GOOD NOON TODAY WAS A REAL FUN DAY #I ALMOST BROKE DOWN AND ALSO I KINDA VENTED AND G #UH. WHY IS TUMBLR WEIRD AND CLOSING MY POST. ANYWAY! #i did vent to my friends abt annoying classmates (aka annoying ppl who are irresponsible) that bring me and my friends and groups grades #down. and yeah. but i bonded a lot w various frienda and and and fun day and and and I LEARN ^^ AND #things are quite bad sometimes but sometimes they aren't actually that bad and idk school is just really fun i'm almost sad #just really happy with where i am rn and my friends are noticing too sniffs ..... noticing how i'm talking more or whatnot #and more comfy and whatnot and hey it did take like. quite a while. but still! just. really happy #bcs this Quite A While was either basically immediate but in the making (two friends) or gradual but always getting there (group in class) #and etc !!! like hey maybe some friends online or irl i am not talking to as much atm but there's the comfort that we still greatly care #for wach other. and whatnot. and there's just a lot and damn if i gave up this wouldn't be happening lol my point is things do get better #and a lot of it tbh is on how you improve and see things (???) idk but damn i'm just rlly proud of myself #I COULD STILL DO BETTER mbut idk all of this is me and im just rlly secure in that and i have been since the longest time ngl. im amazing #yeehaw ANYWAYYYYFGEGKR BG3 I STARTED A DARK URGE RUN LAST NIGHT YE GODS ITS A BIT SCARY TO ME BUT I LOVE THE BLOOD #im trying to fight against it bcs im using my main tav but boom make him a durge guy so ^_^

[mysticarcanum]

straight up getting emotional about a thing that happened in a campaign that ended over a year ago

like. i wrote an ambiguous and biased backstory of a character who is part of an apocalyptic world-ending cult, who deep down wanted to study wizardry but had to frame it as going undercover as an apprentice and stealing secrets from this doddering old archmage to aid her people’s cause . and then she goes and learns wizardry and eventually realizes she wants more for herself and breaks from her cult

and i mean. there’s a lot of ways my dm could have run with that. i was fully expecting that archmage to be furious at my character for lying to and stealing from him. and so when they ran into each other again, i was braced for a fight, or at least an altercation

but instead the archmage went. i knew all along. of course i knew. i’m a divination wizard, silly. i saw a young woman in a bad place and i wanted to help her. i thought that by showing her kindness and creating an environment for her that wasn’t all about power struggles and nihilistic fanaticism that she might realize that there was more out there in the world for her. that she deserved more. you didn’t steal secrets from me, because i gave them to you. i was your teacher. i loved you and love you still

and god i didn’t know where that character was going to end up before then. i thought maybe she could go on a typical wizard hubris spiral, or a revenge quest against her old cult, but in that moment i was like. oh. she is loved. she has new friends, new family. she has a reason to change, a reason to care. her story is just about love, and about making people’s lives better

her alignment shifted from neutral to neutral good soon after. she never stopped being curious, sometimes to the point of foolishness, but she never squandered her teacher’s gift. she left the world better than she found it

#i just WEEP when i think about it sometimes #and then her teacher did just become the party's best wizard bud #we got his teleportation circle and then just showed up to his tower all the time #to hang out #we eventually got a dedicated guest room #my wizard shared all the spells she learned with him. including some dunamancy ones that she pieced together herself #he even fought a tarrasque with us #eventually she even passed him in level #and when he found out she could cast wish...he was SO PROUD #genuinely in the final arc getting an 'im proud of you' from this man was the best thing that had ever happened to me #and honestly i think his influence is why at the end of the campaign my wizard chose to die of old age #she had access to pretty much every necromantic secret in the world #given she did a LOT of necromancy research over the course of the campaign. plus her old cult did a lot of it so she was well versed #she could have found immortality in a hundred different ways #but instead she lived a good life. loved her friends #and passed on peacefully with her warforged friend by her side #so the point of all this is love IS the answer #her character arc felt so natural to me. i lived it for YEARS and one day i looked back and realized she had changed utterly #even though i hadn't once made the conscious choice for her to change #it was just love. from everyone around her #it was impossible for her to NOT change in the face of it all #AUGHGHGHGGGHH #oc: arabella

[dirt-str1der]

I dont care about majima x sagawa btw but i care a lot about their relationship regardless because i want them to have the most toxic dealings and skewed power dynamics with each other as possible and i them both to have increasingly warped perceptions of each other (worlds most incorrect uncle-nephew relationship)

#Listen to my problems #sagawas like majima chan i bought pudding for you since chewing is hard right now and majimas like (muffled) can you kill yourself . and #sagawa is like (laughs) keep up that tone and ill break your jaw again #like obviously sagawa isnt doing charity work putting majima back on his feet because majima has to pull his own weight too but over time #majima became less of an ‘investment’ and more like his hotheaded young apprentice / nephew who is really smart (sagawas very proud of him) #but also doesnt know anything good for himself because hes an idiot and sagawa needs to do everything for him sometimes or he’ll pull the #most ASININE stunts imaginable. like kid i do Good by you and you do the same for me as long as you keep your head down and run the grand. #he cannot fathom why majima wants to claw his way back into the tojo because sagawa Knows shimano and he Knows that shimano is bad news and #will definitely send majima into the jaws of death over and over and seriously what a WASTE of good talent !!! unfortunately majima is the #same type of stupid as his oath brother but it doesnt mean he wants to see the kid get himself killed (wise words from a man who got himself #killed) | and majima ... it was not difficult to start going crazy about sagawa at first sight because he just came out of a very violent #place where every touch meant more torture and pain then suddenly hes being put in the capable hands of a man whos like a fucking angel #sagawa feeds clothes and bathes him and majima cant help but act like being cared for is the worst thing thats ever happened to him theres #too much touching and hes completely dependent on sagawa who checks his weight daily and changes his bandages and cleans his leaky infected #eye and he wants nothing more than to be left alone but he cant do anything by himself and hes too devastated to be grateful. its gross !! #and whenever he inevitably breaks the hell down sagawa is always there to hold and comfort him and what the hell else can he do but seek #comfort in the only person that ‘cares’ about him when sagawa is so good at pretending ... is he pretending ? who gives a fuck anymore man #sagawas punishment and comfort all in one ... hes a means to an end .. hes majimas caretaker and his gaoler. the guy who knows everything #about him and the one who’ll use every last bit of it against him oh god wait #this is just isabelle and emma damnit damnit im gonna go read purromised neverland again

[goopyskele]

Although I don't think anyone will, I would rather never bring up my vent posts after i delete it or if it's been like over a day or two!! I just wanted to state this bc I don't think I ever did😅

#sorry! #its kinda just like #an anxiety thing #good news is my mom trusts me so she got rid of her parental controls. #i wasnt expecting it to happen until i was like 17 😭 #i love her sm <3 #like occasionally we'll have fight (once like every 4 or 5 months and like not even because sometimes that time will last even longer. #like we can go a year with getting into agruments!! smth im rlly proud of <3 #i know i talk bad abt her ALOT but honestly shes awesomr and trying her best <3

[smol-being-of-light]

i had a surprisingly enjoyable evening going to a house warming party with people i didn’t know, the only person i knew well left really early

and normally that would be a very anxiety inducing situation but it went really smoothly and i spoke to everyone and i didn’t feel like i had to force it

there’s good in this world and the right things will come naturally

#you have to trust that it will be okay #because it truly will be #2 years ago this seemed absolutely unimaginable and impossible to me #and i’m so proud of all the change i’ve accomplished #sometimes i still feel like i’m inadequate and won’t fit in anywhere #but small joys do happen and they will take more space im sure of it #all you out there struggling with that kind of thing i’m here to tell you to have faith and hope #because it does get better

[sanguinaryrot]

gender can be so confusing :/

#me when im always agender but my alignment changes #but it changes so infrequently that i will often begin to feel detached not only from one alignment #but from genderfludity or bigenderism as a whole #ive been in transfaggotry territory for so long that im like. its literally not a thing that im sapphic #and i know that i sometimes shift that direction. i know thats a part of my identity #but im so not over there that its like. i want to give up on that label. but i know im genderfluid. ive done this enough times now #idk... #its like. im so proud and happy being a trans bi agender achillean #that im like. oh yeah.....there are other parts of my identity. :/ #and sometime ill have a shift and be the other way. thats how it goes #but like i said. im so happy where im at that i dread having a shift. i know that once it happens ill be like wooo agender sapphic lets goo #but for now im like. lets pretend that wont happen #im not embarassed or ashamed or anything #i just. am so happy with this gender right here #idk. im always happy with my gender its just that when im x im always like i dont wanna be y #and then im y and im like this is the best thing that ever happened. and vice versa #this is lowkey about me being like should i change my pronoun page to reflect that im not currently identifying as a dyke. lol

[todayisafridaynight]

I bring it up because I just wanted to know no I can be proud of Daigo too!!!

i think it's ok to be proud of daigo dojima for getting this far with The Nastiest deck of cards he was dealt :) good for him :)

#snap chats #real shit tho #like first his parents are negligent if not potentially abusive #then his dad dies and listen Sohei Was Uber Cringe but still youre always gonna feel weird bout bad things happening to your parents #well not me my mom evil im built different but this aint bout me anyways #then daigo goes to juvie because he didnt know how to manage his emotions well and took it out on a baseball team #then he just wanderin the streets trying to fill the void until he gets sent to prison under false charges #and as soon as he's out BOOM. Do You Want This Burning Organization #GG he seemed just fine running it for three years but then Politics Happened and he Got Shot #lost his bestie (after bestie got guilty bout wanting to 'mercy kill' him) #and then not even a year later The Burning Organization is bankrupt because UNFORTUNATELY bestie was a GREAT accountant #and bros scrambling hes trying and he is fucking up but hes learning #Kinda he did run off in Y5 to make up for the whole baseball thing. not throwing hands with a baseball team- ok partially that kinda #and then he GETS SHOT. AGAIN. #then he got sent to jail in 6 for false arson charges... son please stop getting false charges... #and after his New Dad Number 3 'dies' he and his homies gotta get outta town less than a year later cause some twink said so #and THEN he gotta dissolve That Burning Organization and find everyone a new home and new way of life #and would ya look at him... he's still going strong.... im so proud of him and the fact he's not dead yet #tl;dr im very proud of daigo dojima even if he does silly things sometimes its honestly relatable #hes trying to hard to navigate this new path himself- not because he doesnt have anyone to help him (ok partially that) #and he just wants to prove to himself he's capable of doing this and he wants to make kiryu proud and do him right #UGH i love him.... im so proud of him thats all i can say i love him

[vogelmeister]

thinking about the australian cultural cringe on this sunny sunday hbu

#no but it's kinda true i do actually suffer from cultural cringe but i see how bad it can be for artists from australia #like idk its a big topic but like majority of our tv happens to be reality tv or imports #i actually saw a really good tiktok about how australian tv is stuck in a time warp #i feel like australian music is either indie triple j or x factor winners singles and x factor hasnt aired since 2016 #and international shit has taken over the hottest 100 #it says a lot that one of the few australian things to get impact internationally as of recent is bluey #dont get me wrong im so proud of bluey i love seeing my home country portrayed #but im 22. give me more. #and im not innocent to cultural cringe or alienation either but id love some good australian media that isnt americanised or makes me cring #even with heartbreak high i physically recoiled after realising it was australian #so i need to also work on not being so ashamed of australian stuff myself #and im not doing myself any favours by only listening to dutch music which in turn is a loop bc dutch ppl probs also have cultural cringe #actually they defs do #its an issue here but i defs talked to dutch ppl in nl who were suffering from cultural cringe she is international #hearing australian accents in songs is also a hard one for me. sometimes its cool but i cringe more than find it cool #even watching tina the tina turner musical when roger appeared i went FUCK NO NOT AUSTRALIANS #and the actor there is australian #idk i am rambling now #but like... this is a complex topic bc i know how bad it is for australian culture and locally produced music and shows and that #but like i do it myself #anyways doei

[sundial-bee-scribbles]

Fuck yeah more Piko angst

- This one is based on your audio thing because he sounds very panicked and startled but he wasn't actually informed that he was going to be discontinued until it happened.

- Adding to that, he's a teeny bit paranoid when people talk about him because of that, so he listens into conversations that mention him so he can run away if they seem to have ulterior motives.

- ... except he's. Really bad at telling that. so he's in a weird grey area where he's simultaneously kinda naïve and also scared that he's going to be murdered at any time

- he's very shy around people he doesn't know, going as far as to run or hide from them.

- He also doesn't like being stared at. He is very unusual so he gets stared at, even though nobody means any harm. Do you see the problem.

i'm very glad he sounds so hehehe, that was the objective ☆⌒(≧▽​° ) but also fair i mean... i was gonna say "i dont think most softwares get warned they're gona get shut down" but now that i think abt it thats a lie cause [usually] there's like press releases or pop up messages sent out in advance like "servers shutting down on xx/xx/xxxx please back up data" so... ig that's particularly cruel of piko's managers hakjhskjdgnk 😭 tho i can't imagine being warned in advance would help either like... thats being told you only have a certain number of days to live wyd then

also ow the rest of those you're just describing me... ow ; w ; /hj /silly

please give my boy salvation and comfort please... let him find people that will take care of him good w/o any ulterior motives so his fear doesnt get affirmed... comfort him pLEASE 😭🙏

#ask #i need to stop ahkjdsh. YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW CRAZY I AM ABT THAT AUDIO im ridiculously proud of myself #as of rn that's like the most distressed i've been able to get any of these vsynth mfers sound and thats so SHDKJGHSK HEEEHEE 😈 #i promise im not crazy guys. PLEASE i know that doesnt sound particularly normal of me but its closer to goals of stuff i wanna work on so #also AGAIN DW ABT IT BUT ow ow yeah the other behaviors are... literally just me. esp the first two ow #deep introspection potential b/c i can see more into what it means and how it affects his interactions w/ other people. but also its just #like psychoanalyzing myself. THAT HAPPENS A LOT im gonna spare yall from those thoughts sorry didnt mean to dampen the mood #stupid comment incoming pls disregard but: sometimes to make angst you also gotta be familiar w/ suffering firsthand and brother... 😔✌️ #ollie the star anon

[jackalopefreckles]

Sometimes I feel like I miss people I used to know. But I have this neat little trick, where I picked one instance that it WASNT GOOD and hold onto it so hard that it makes all the good times spoil

#not all of them all of them we did have fun sometimes I learned a lot about myself and all that good stuff when ur growing up #but they werent.. really good allies to me when I needed them #and I was an abused trans kid in texas I need some support and?? yeah it sucks that I only had kids my age and they could only do so much #but to always tell me I was in the wrong?? that def left some damage #especially since I knew my parents sucked I knew what was happening I never once questioned that which Im proud of myself for #but??? when it came from them like idk I gave maybe too much of my heart to them #i just had a lot of love to give #i still do and its not usually a bad thing #but then I needed to get some back too and yknow its rough growing up is hard

[cum-padre]

What qualities do you admire within yourself and what do you admire in others?

I had to sit on this one a bit for obvious reasons. I think my best qualities arent ones that are shown off as easily, for example I think that I'm actually quite mature in a different way than most think. I'm really proud of how little I let things get to me and even when they do I handle it well 💪🏽😤.

I guess an easier way to say it is im very adaptable I can fit in most places easily, I'm confident enough to get so many friends and compliments, I am pushing myself out of my comfort zone constantly all while also being happy spending time on my own. I'm enjoying building myself up on my own with ups and downs, even if I have a lot to work on I'm doing it well 😁 I am so grateful lately.

My goal is to be so genuinely myself it inspires others to follow suit 😤😤

Hmm in others is also quite tough....

When I think about people who inspire me I think about how they handle boundaries, being open minded to change.

When I think about people I crush on or envy I think about how eager they are to learn new things and the determination to stick to learning said new things. As well as being patient it means so much to me, take it slow but show me you care, take a second to reflect and then proceed with whatever it is, it's something I always look for in relationships now.

#ty for asking! #this was so sweet ty anon #ive grown so much and idk im just proud #the envy thing is new idk when i started to get jealous of others but it happened sometime in the last 3 years #while i hate it and wish i could go back to not caring as much i also realize maybe its a result of me caring way more and not really being #as apathetic as i used to be #i care a lot

[steampoweredskeleton]

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Ignore

#delete later #i did really well today #ive been working on my coding project and i got one section of it completely working #i fixed several errors all on my own and got the output i wanted out of it #and ive learnt how to make other parts of the code work too so it's going to be easier #its wild bc 6 months ago i had only just started learning about coding. i didn't know anything #and now im writing scripts abd solving problems all by myself #im very proud of myself. im a smart man sometimes and i can make things that work #i also just feel better in myself. i feel more like myself than i ever have. going on t is the best thing that has ever happened to me #i can see my neck getting thicker and maybe even my jaw and im hungry and eating more and im more present #in my own body. which means im bumping into shutdowns more bc i cant dissociate like i used to but thats a dealable with thing #bc today i looked in the mirror and immediately smiled at myself. and its just the beginning! #life is hard and exhausting but also joyful and exciting and the adventure is as much of a slog as it is a wonder